Ascension…the word conjures up visions of bliss, joy, and enhanced psychic abilities

along with unlimited prosperity. All this is true once you reach a certain level of
consciousness, but the path to that level of joy and prosperity is anything but. I have
read many articles from different channels and teachers on the subject of ascension.
Overall, they emphasize the positive benefits and outcome of ascension; they only
lightly touch on the reality of the ascension path, hence the reason for my article. I
want to be real with you about ascension. I’ve been on the ascension path, (different
from the spiritual path) for the past 4 years. And even though I am no expert on
ascension, only being able to share in hindsight from my own experiences, I can
certainly tell you what I and many others I talked to who walk the path with me are
feeling and experiencing. I want you to know that many of the things that you are
experiencing on this path, the emotional, physical, and mental highs and lows, are
both normal and to be expected.

I have been using the Accelerating DNA Recoding Process along with the
Multidimensional Keys of Compassion to complete my recoding process and eventual
ascension. Though they are the tools given to me by my guides, I continue to use
them only because they work. They are like computer software without any bugs.
They work for me every time. I want the simplest, most uncomplicated, most direct
way to ascension. Anything that doesn’t fit into that description will not hold my
attention.

My experiences, though based on those tools and process, are still in most ways
common to all. Just like all roller coasters are a little different from each other, there
are still things they have in common.

I will be sharing some of the less than joyful aspects of the ascension process. My
intention is not to frighten you from your goal but instead, to support you with the
knowledge that you are not alone, you’re not crazy, and what you are experiencing is
all part of the process.

There are many areas to discuss in regards to the ascension path. I will cover those
I feel to be the most universal and discuss the highs, lows and known pitfalls in
each. They are Mental, Emotional, Physical and Financial Stability along with
Relationships. But before I begin to discuss these areas, I feel it is important to
share some of the basic understandings regarding ascension so that as you read the
following information, you will know what I am talking about. Of course, these
basics come from my own experience of the process and do not necessarily reflect
the understanding of other teachers.

Ascension

Ascension is a step-by-step, level-by-level process. We ascend by clearing our

emotional blockages one layer at a time. As each layer is cleared, we attain a new
level of consciousness and understanding. We become compassionate with
ourselves, and others in the area we just cleared. And though at times we feel that
we have gone backwards because the same issue has once again presented itself, we
have in fact just brought forward another layer to be cleared.
We ascend in consciousness first with our bodies gradually transforming as we go.
Each time we clear another layer and achieve compassion with the issue and people
at hand, we change our DNA just a little more. Since our bodies are changing from a
carbon based form to a crystalline based form, that means we emit a little more
light—our cells consist of a little more light and less dense matter than before. It is
anticipated that by the time we reach 2012, having gone through many years of
emotional clearing, our bodies will be ready to move into a new frequency because
they will resonate at that frequency. When enough people do this together it creates
a new mass consciousness and reality. I am told it takes at least 144,000 people to
accomplish this task and create the new reality. At that point we will have two
realities or worlds—two earths. One will be 3D and the other will be 5D.

Clearing our emotional blockages means accessing old memories from our present
and past lives, picking out the behavior pattern/patterns and the fear/fears that are
at the root of that pattern, and then re-creating that fear in order to integrate it,
along with a new behavior based on the absence of the former fear.

For example, an old memory was about suppressing our emotions to appear sweet
and nice regardless of the circumstances. This behavior was created to deal with the
fear of being rejected if we chose to express feelings of anger or rage—feelings not
acceptable to those we loved. We would choose to recreate it by experiencing a
negative situation such as our mate accusing us of some wrongdoing. In this
situation we would have the choice to use a new behavior (the new behavior would
be to express what we feel in the moment regardless of the outcome, i.e., speaking
our truth) or continuing with our old behavior of suppressing our anger to keep
peace.

As we clear our emotional blocks and our DNA recodes, there is also something else
happening to us simultaneously. We are essentially rewiring our physical bodies.
What this means is that we are developing new neural pathways in our brains that
allow us to continue to use the new behavior patterns were are creating as part of
our emotional clearing.

DNA recoding is about more than just changing the DNA, it is also about developing
the internal structure to support the new crystalline wiring being created through the
process. The compassion we are accumulating does not function in the old carbon
based wiring of our body. Instead it functions in the new crystalline portion of our
DNA and the new compassion based behaviors are accessed through our new neural
pathways in our brains.

Each time we clear a lesson and acquire a new dose of compassion from that
clearing, that new dose must reside somewhere in the body and it must reside
somewhere that will enable us to utilize it for ascension purposes.

Compassion is the one thing that causes our DNA to change, and enables us to
ascend. Compassion changes the frequency of our bodies. It is like helium. The
more helium you have in a balloon, the higher it rises. The more compassion we can
hold in our bodies through emotional clearing, the higher we ascend. Our
consciousness increases, and our DNA changes to support that increase.
The compassion I refer to here is heart centered compassion not head centered or
intellectual compassion. Heart centered compassion can only be attained by
experiencing our fears and the associated pain and the choosing new behaviors to
integrate the fear. There are those that say you can ascend without feeling pain.
Based on my experience, that is not the case. Pain has a value—it acts as a catalyst
for change. I believe that only through pain can we even begin to understand and
have compassion for another—the kind of compassion that enables us to feel what
they feel but not get caught up in it. I firmly believe that out of pain comes heart
centered compassion. Anything else is just intellectual compassion. It’s sort of like
saying that you know all about ice-skating without ever having skated. Not the
same.

The pain stored within our memories and emotional blocks is the fuel we use for
ascension. The anger, shame, guilt, resentment—all forms of pain—when
transmuted in the high heart chakra, become compassion, and compassion is the key
element of ascension.

Ascension is holographic. Just like our world is holographic with each person
experiencing their own little world inside a larger world, so ascension is the same.
We will all experience ascension a little differently. Though there are some universal
criteria for ascension, such as emotional clearing, no particular way is the “right”
way. What matters is that we all reach the goal regardless of how we do it.

Personal boundaries and agreements are the basis of multidimensionality and

ascension. Personal boundaries are self-love in action and agreements are self-
empowerment in action. Both are the foundation of any behavior that is to be
considered higher dimensional.

For those who are using the Accelerated Process of DNA Recoding, ascension is still
not complete. The only difference between those who accelerate and complete the
rewiring of their physical forms, and the remainder of humanity is the fact that the
rest of the population is recoding their DNA at a much slower pace. Their recoding
will be complete at the same time that we are all ready for physical ascension around
2012. So, what I am saying here is that the same tools you use to recode will
continue to be used to complete your ascension.

I have completed the Accelerated Recoding Process and have the necessary wiring
and multidimensional consciousness needed to ascend, but I am no way ready to
ascend. My physical body has a long way to go to get light enough to shift into 5D. I
have a lot of clearing left to do. The only reason that I chose to go the accelerated
route was to be able to complete the rewiring process, achieve the higher
consciousness way of thinking so that I could turn around and help others through
the process. The Accelerated DNA Recoding Process was given expressly for that
reason. And based on the intensity of that process, there is no other reason to do
it. This process was designed for walk-ins, starseeds, and lightworkers who feel they
are here to complete a mission as teachers.

Now that we have covered the basics of ascension (there are probably more that I
don’t recall right now), we can move on to the areas of ascension that I discussed
earlier.

Mental Stability

Pros

As we begin the ascension process one of the first things we begin to notice is the
differences between the new way of thinking and being, and the old way. Though
the new way has its pitfalls, I definitely prefer it because of one very important
thing—it enables me to pull myself out of mental, emotional and physical distress
created by victimhood.

Cons

Higher dimensional thinking causes us to lose friends, friends who wish to stay
victims. As we move further into ascension, we no longer resonate at the frequency
of victimhood. Therefore, our friends and loved ones find no safe harbor in their
friendship with us anymore. This is difficult for me even though I understand it. We
are no longer mentally in step with the rest of the world.

I have many times over the last 4 years wondered if I was losing my mind. When I
look at those I know who are living strictly 3D lives, seemingly unaffected by the
changes I am experiencing, I wonder which of us is sane and which isn’t. As the
earth continues to separate into two different worlds, one being 3D and the other on
the upward spiral to 5D, the idea of differing realities becomes very real to us. I look
at my 3D companions and wonder how in the world they can continue to live their
lives oblivious to the changes taking place around them. To say they are asleep is
an understatement. And though this understanding helps my state of mind, it most
definitely does not bring relief and comfort to my heart. I feel the separation
acutely.

I hurt from the knowledge that we have less and less in common, less and less to
say to one another. We are drifting apart like two ships passing in the night and
there is nothing that I am willing to do about it. For to do something about it would
be to either let go of my present path and return to a total 3D life that would leave
me emotionally and spiritually dead, or try to convince them to awaken and begin
the spiritual path so that we can have something in common that is of interest to us
both—something that makes both our hearts sing. As you can see, neither is a
worthwhile option. The first one hurts me and the second one hurts them and
breaks the universal law of free will.

So they tell me I’m crazy and need to check into a mental hospital. I console myself
by telling myself that one day, when the things I believe begin to happen on a global
scale, they will come around. And until that time comes, I must let go of my desire
to be accepted by them.

But sometimes they put forth some pretty convincing arguments, so convincing in
fact that I find myself giving myself another good old-fashioned reality check. I ask
myself why I am doing this, why I am willing to hold on to nothing in order to attain
a goal that I have no guarantee that I will reach, or that when and if I do, it will be
all that I was told it would be.

I run through the facts in my head that I have accumulated for just such an
occasion. I remember that I was told that it would not always be easy—that the
path is narrow, rocky and full of pitfalls. But I also remember those days when I
have just come through another lesson and feel that blissful state of peace, or the
prosperity that suddenly arrives unannounced but oh so welcome, or the
synchronicities that bring some new friend and companion to my doorstep. Just a
few of those memories and I am once again able to see and feel that this path, this
goal is worth it, and I pull myself together and continue on.

Memory Loss is another one of the challenges we face on the ascension path.
Though not caused by the choice to ascend, it nevertheless remains a great
obstacle. Our planet is ascending and as part of that process the planetary magnetic
grid tends to wobble as the solar flares from the sun hit it.

Our memory is tied to this grid and with each wobble, our memory glitches. These
glitches can be large or small, but in either case they can create conflict between
individuals. As the amount of memory glitching increases, the emotional imbalance
this creates can wreak havoc in our relationships.

I have come to the point where I am grateful if I can remember what happened
yesterday. I forget appointments, dates, numbers, agreements with my husband;
it’s a real pain in the ass some days. Knowing it is part of planetary ascension is my
one consolation.

On the positive side, as we continue to build the energy in our personal

consciousness grids (our Light Body or Mer Ka Ba) through achieving higher and
higher levels of multidimensionality, our memory will become less and less
dependent on the planetary grid.

Known Pitfalls

To me the greatest pitfall of ascension and becoming multidimensional is the

communication gap with those remaining asleep in 3D. I can look someone in the
eye while talking to them and when it is time for them to respond it is as though
they never heard me. I have often had the feeling of being invisible to others. It’s
like they don’t see me anymore. I talk to them, but they don’t see me. Very
disconcerting! It triggers my feelings of rejection and abandonment. I guess this is
good because it gives me the opportunity to clear this issue, but it hurts all the
same.

The other aspect of this communication issue is that sometimes when I am in a

conversation with someone, they don’t understand what I am saying. This many
times leads to arguments and hurt feelings. And it isn’t just with 3D people; it is
also with those who are on the ascension path too. Jonathan and I go through this a
lot. Sometimes I am the one who is not able to make sense. My words don’t
portray my thoughts. They call come out in a jumble of disconcerted sentences.
Very frustrating!

With the planetary frequency rising and the resulting dimensional splitting, it makes
it harder to communicate with anyone. Perhaps it is also contributing to the rise in
crime and emotional/mental imbalance we are seeing all around us and on TV.

Another pitfall is wondering if you are being mind-controlled by the other

dimensional beings who are assisting you or those who are your current 3D teachers
on the ascension path. The thing is, most techniques and tools used in ascension
can also be used to mind control. What can free us can also enslave us.
Discernment is critical, but it can make you crazy if you don’t know how to use it. I
have found that the way to know which reality is real, whether someone is
attempting to mind control me, and what the true intentions are of any teacher, 3D
or otherwise, is to ask my Soul to either confirm or deny the information and to tell
me why. This tool is one of the Keys of Compassion and it has kept me sane
throughout this process. I will be writing more on the subject of mind control in an
upcoming article.

Emotional Stability

Pros

I have found that even though I am getting hit with issues almost on a daily basis
right now, I am more emotionally stable than I was a year ago. I can thank the
higher dimensional tools and understanding for that. Being able to look at the pain
that pervades our world, feeling it and having the tools to keep from getting caught
up in it so that I experience secondhand victimization, is a real blessing. Just wish I
used them more often. I am still triggered by child abuse. I have yet to reach the
point in using the tools where I can watch the movie Schindler’s List.

Cons

Ascension takes a heavy toll on our emotions since it necessitates the purging and
balancing of both upper and lower chakras. As we bring up fears to be integrated
from past and present lives, we experience the often times sheer terror of those
fears and this wreaks havoc on our emotions as well as our minds and bodies. I
have experienced living 24/7 with fears so great that I want to commit suicide just to
escape their intense feelings. They lock up my bowels and make my body hurt
wherever the fears are stored. After living with a fear day after day, I find myself
emotionally, mentally and physically fatigued until I can use the higher dimensional
tools given to me, enough to understand the fear and integrate it. Until my inner
child has experienced that fear with me long enough to see that it will not be
destroyed by it, she will not release that pain’s trigger point from my body.

Sometimes I don’t get it soon enough or the fear is so intense and overwhelming
that I go emotionally numb through depression. Depression becomes a way to
escape from the pain because it numbs me emotionally and physically. It’s like
hiding in the deepest recesses of a cave and going to sleep. Obviously when this
happens, it will take longer to integrate the fear and complete the lesson around the
fear because I must be willing to eventually leave the cave to do so.

Vivid Dreams…which reality is real? Vivid dreaming, though exciting can be a real
emotional challenge because we sometimes experience dreams so real that we don’t
know which reality is which. We sometimes have bleed through from our
multidimensional selves in other realities and the emotions from this can be
overwhelming and cause us to become caught up in that other world and unable to
function in our own.

Known Pitfalls

The most significant pitfall that I have found on my ascension path is using higher
consciousness thinking to avoid expressing anger and feeling pain. The tool that I
use the most for ascension is The Formula of Compassion, but it is a double-edged
sword. My Ego/Inner Child has often tripped me up while using this process.
Knowing my intent is the key. Sometimes I think I know my intent just to find out
later, through my body most often, that what I thought was my intent was not my
intent at all. When this happens, the compassion I acquire is only intellectual
compassion, not heart-centered compassion, therefore I do not get a real frequency
boost for my ascension process. It is like empty calories.

Jelaila Starr, The Nibiruan Council

Physical Stability

Pros

I find that the greatest value in walking the ascension path is being able to take
control of your physical health and heal yourself. I have cured myself of Carpal
Tunnel Syndrome but still battle with Fibromyalgia due to my caretaking (enabling
and rescuing) behaviors. Though I still get massages, use chiropractors, and
sometimes have Reike treatments, I know that my true and complete healing is in
my hands. I know that all my dis-ease is rooted in my emotions and fears. This is
empowering and freeing in a sense because I know that I no longer have to depend
on some doctor/god. It gives me a feeling of equality that has been missing in my
life with medical doctors. I used to hold them in contempt because I felt they had
something (the power to heal) that I didn’t. Now I see them in a different light. I
will still go to them for broken bones and things that they can help me with that I do
not have the expertise to treat for myself, but that is all. And I now appreciate and
value them as partners in my health instead of as gods who used to do it all for me.

Cons

Before I began this ascension path, my body was in pretty good shape. You could
say that I have been blessed with good health and a resilient and strong body. But
since that choice was made, I have suffered from acute Fibromyalgia and Carpal
Tunnel Syndrome among other things. It is like my body fell apart once I decided to
go for the goal of ascension.

And there are times when I am sorely tempted to go to someone else to heal me,
but each time I have that desire, I remember that it will no longer work for me and
will only prolong my pain and make my lessons harder. When the pain of aching
joints, muscles and migraine headaches get to me, I long for something to eradicate
the pain.

When I chose to walk the ascension path, within that decision, unbeknownst to me
at the time, was also the choice to take full responsibility for healing myself. It took
me a long time and a lot of pain to realize that. Now I know that I can stop the pain
when I finally have had enough and ask my soul to show me the way to release the
pattern and the physical pain. This is how I cured the Carpal Tunnel Syndrome.

I believe that this choice is also the reason why so many healers are no longer able
to do the type of healing work that they used to do. Those involved in taking out
implants, healing viruses, etc. seem to be experiencing headaches and illness after
treating a patient. They are having to make changes in their work—changes that
allow the patient to heal themselves after being taught by the healer how to do it.
Healing techniques are no longer proprietary. They are to be taught by healer-
teachers to the patient so that the patient can heal themselves. This, I understand,
is the way it is done in the higher realms. It is self-empowering.

Weight Loss/Weight Gain is another one of the challenges that face us during the
ascension process. To say that we will only gain or only loose it is a fallacy. I have
found that once we make the choice to clear our emotional baggage and ascend, our
Egos/inner children go into panic and begin to add weight to our bodies as protection
again the fears that we have, and up to that point, been unable to integrate. As a
result, I have seen myself gain 5 to 10 lb. in less than a month and then loose that
weight only weeks later. I have also found that my dietary habits have absolutely
nothing to do with my weight. It all depends on my emotional state, the lessons
being brought forward and the fears up to be integrated. What I have found over
the last 4 years of my ascension journey is that I will lose the weight once I integrate
the fear, create new personal boundaries and agreements to protect my inner child
and modify my behavior based on those new boundaries and agreements. I know
for a fact that what I eat has nothing to do with it so I eat what I like and forget
about dieting and restriction. Ascension is difficult enough without adding dieting to
the equation.

Known Pitfalls

As I mentioned earlier, I know that I can cure myself of any dis-ease since I am
aware that all dis-ease is rooted in my behavior patterns and their corresponding
fears and emotions. But the biggest pitfall in healing the body during ascension is
the very reason that I haven’t completely cured myself of Fibromyalgia.

The behavior patterns that cause dis-ease are in most cases very addictive and have
value. Take for example the pattern that causes Fibromyalgia. Caretaking provides
me with a sense of personal control and emotional safety. I know from experience
that as long as I focus my energy on taking care of the emotional and physical needs
of others, I will be loved and accepted. Now this isn’t logical as evidenced by the
anger and passive/aggressive backlash I receive from those I caretake, but initially
when I am solving their problems for them, they act like they appreciate it and that
is good enough for me…initially. But it’s like the old saying “It may be hell but it’s
home.” That’s the way I feel about my current dysfunctional patterns, they may
cause me pain but at least it is pain with which I am familiar. To make the choice to
incur new and different pain and experiences by changing my patterns is not
something that I and my inner child are ready to take on. So we live with the
present set of circumstances and this is the biggest pitfall to healing ourselves.

Financial Stability

Pros

Finances improve once you reach the level of consciousness where you are at peace
with allowing your Soul to provide for you and you have the knowing that you placed
financial prosperity as one of your rewards on your Life Blueprint. You are also
aware that you will be provided for until you reach that level of trust in yourself and
all present issues of lack are just opportunities that enable you to see the many
areas in which this fear about money impacts your life. My husband and I have
experienced many difficult and frightening periods of financial instability during this
ascension process.
We know all about taking a calculator to the grocery store and adding up the items
we put in the cart to make sure we have enough money. We have experienced the
embarrassment of having to put things back in the checkout line with other people
watching because we didn’t have the money. And this is just one of the many things
we have experienced. But now, that seems to have changed. The money is coming,
not as plentiful as we would like, but at least it is what we need to pay the bills and
even invest in new computer equipment for the company. We have finally reached
the level where were are okay spending large sums money at the beginning of the
month knowing that the bills will get paid at the end of month. We have learned to
do what Wayne Dyer, the author of You’ll See It When You Believe It calls “living on
purpose.”

There have been many times in the past, before I began the ascension process, that
I did this very thing. I called it “winging it on faith”, but it was never done with the
consciousness and knowingness that it would work. That is the biggest difference as
far as I am concerned.

Cons

Even though my husband and I have mostly lived a life of plenty, the biggest
negative for me was the fear of losing my home, not being able to buy clothes for
my child, or food for the table. It was the sleepless nights when I racked my mind
trying to find a way to pay the bills. It was the disheartening feeling when I wanted
to do something but the money was not there to do it. It was the fear that gripped
my stomach as I waited for my credit card to clear at the check out, and the red-face
embarrassment when it didn’t. Personally, I detest these money problems and no
matter how much I try to tell myself they are necessary and good for my spiritual
growth, I still sometimes get down and depressed. Even today, when the money is
starting to be a little more abundant, I am still nagged by these feelings. Guess it
will take a while and a lot more months of bills paid on time for me to get beyond
them. I still don’t trust that the money will continue to flow because I know I still
have levels of growth to attain in this area.

Keep in mind, too, that the monetary system in place on this planet is based on
fear. We are all in the process of integrating this fear and thereby changing the
systems as we do so.

Known Pitfalls

The biggest pitfall I know of is the feeling of hopelessness attached to the thought
that the financial struggle will never end, that there will never be enough money and
that I will never be able to figure out how to get out of my own way long enough to
allow the money to flow. I know this isn’t true but it still feels that way. I find that I
have to go off by myself and mentally and emotionally process through these
feelings using the Formula of Compassion. When I do this, I eventually find my
balance again and often times I have a windfall of cash afterwards because I have
expressed and cleared and transmuted another layer of this old way of thinking. I
encourage you to give it a try.
I know that my money issues are caused by my choice to block prosperity due to
some deep-seated fear. At first I thought the fear was the fear of success but that is
only a small part of what blocks me. The truth for me is that I fear that if I become
successful I will have to give up my privacy and furthermore, that I won’t be able to
fulfill everyone’s needs well enough to keep their acceptance and approval. I am
working on this and since the money is flowing, perhaps I have gained some
ground. Who knows? Only time will tell.

Believing that “if it is spiritual it should be free” is another of the big pitfalls that
plague not only those on the ascension path but also the spiritual community as a
whole. Only a few people that I have met have figured out that the above concept
about money and spirituality is a scam perpetrated on the world by organized
religion, e.g., “filthy rich.” And as a result, those who were once financially
empowered are now disempowered because they believe they must give away their
work instead of charging the money that would enable them to keep going. I have
seen many good spiritual magazines, schools and other projects fail because of this
philosophy. It’s really sad.

The final big pitfall is one that I have had to struggle with more than once. This
pitfall is the idea that bankruptcy is wrong and should never be used. When I
experienced my first bankruptcy at the age of 30, I thought I could never hold my
head up in public again. I was ashamed and felt so guilty. And even though my
bankruptcy was due to a series of synchronicities that I could only call “bad luck” at
the time, I still felt embarrassed and ashamed.

Like so many other, I was taught that if I went bankrupt, I would no not be able to
financially recover afterwards. My financial future was doomed. I believed that I
would no longer be able to buy a car, a house, have a credit card or function in
society anymore. This, I have discovered through experience is just not true.

First, the taboo around bankruptcy was created by the government systems that
want to keep you in their control through money. The more you owe, the more they
control you. Bankruptcy is the way out and they know it. Therefore, they have
taught you not to take that out.

Secondly, when I declared bankruptcy it wasn’t more that two months before I
began receiving offers from credit card companies, car dealerships, and home
financing companies. At first I was shocked. I couldn’t believe what I was seeing!
After some investigation, I discovered that there is a whole industry developed just
for bankruptcy because there are so many people declaring bankruptcy.

So if you are facing this financial situation, don’t sweat it. You will recover and
probably faster than you think. Do some investigation like I did. You will find it to
be all a game of electronic numbers moving between banks. If your bankruptcy is
due to circumstances like a business failure, extended illness or supporting your
spiritual work, and not because you intentionally went out and charged up your cards
for ego related items, you have nothing to feel bad about.

From a higher dimensional perspective, bankruptcy is a lesson in learning to let go of

any ego attachments to financial status, and any associated image i.e., credit rating.
Basing your self-worth on your credit rating is just as empty as basing it on your
looks, the size of your home, where you live, or family breeding, etc. So let it go
and get on with your life. Many Lightworkers will go through the lesson of
bankruptcy to clear away ego attachments like the ones mentioned above. And for
some of us, it may have to be more than once.

Relationships

Pros

Relationships become stronger, more peaceful and more emotionally satisfying due
to the increased level of trust that is created by being able to be real and speak your
truth. After years of acquiring and losing friends, I have finally learned that I can
actually have friends with whom I can cuss, fuss, fight and still be loved. We have
been through many confrontations and because we all use the higher dimensional
tools, we are able to see the aspect of ourselves the other person in showing us and
release one another from blame. Once this occurs, we find we have reached a new
level of trust and that is very satisfying.

Cons

Having relationships end because the other person is not aware of higher
dimensional understanding and/or is not on the ascension path is heartbreaking. To
me, the hardest relationships to lose are the ones with spiritual people who get
caught up in blame and cannot see the mirror or are not willing to accept
responsibility for their actions. For some reason, I feel they should know better
because they are spiritual, but that is not necessarily logical.

Known Pitfalls

Learning when to let go of a relationship and “hold on to nothing” because it is just

not capable of being balanced right now, and doing so without guilt or blaming of
oneself or the other person is still a real challenge for me. It is an area where I need
considerable growth and understanding. I have yet to get beyond being angry when
I am rejected.

Spiritual Challenges

Spiritual challenges is a catchall for the things that I want to share, but don’t
necessarily fit into the above categories. They are the challenges that many, if not
all of us, have faced at one time or another on the ascension path.

Wanting to go too fast...

I recently met a client that reminded me of myself just a few short years ago. When
I urged him to slow down and walk instead of running, he became very
disappointed. He didn’t see any reason or value in slowing down. He wanted to
recode his DNA and ascend as quickly as possible.

When I pointed out to him that his many physical problems (broken bones, deep
cuts) as well as the extreme obstacles that he had experienced were signals that he
needed to slow down, he just shook his head in disbelief. I understand all too well
how he felt. Having to slow down and take baby steps triggered intense anger and
fear inside of me at one time. But what I have come to see after many painful
experiences is that our bodies can only go so fast due to their density and when we
get out of step with the pace that supports them we suffer. Broken bones, car
accidents, hitting our legs on furniture, walking into walls, are obvious signals that
we need to slow down, and take ascension one step at a time. Trying to go too fast
will not get us there any faster. We will still arrive exactly when we are supposed to
arrive. When we take baby steps, we avoid a lot of pain and the burnout that many
feel because of that pain. When we take baby steps, we empower ourselves to
ascend with grace and greater ease.

Frustration about the Mission...

Many of those on the spiritual path feel that they have missions to complete in
service to humanity. I have found from my own experience that not knowing what
the mission is, or better yet, not realizing that I am already fulfilling it in part, is one
of the greatest frustrations I have ever known. It triggers my feelings of inadequacy
and unworthiness, and makes me feel that I am not doing the job I came here to do.

Now I understand that there is a period of training that must be completed before we
begin the actual work of our mission and this period cannot be hurried or shortened
in any way. I have hit many walls in trying to do so.

The other thing that I have learned about our missions is that our wanting to know
all the details of what we will be doing is detrimental to our success. When I first
asked many years ago in a channeling session, Devin, my guide, informed me that
all would be revealed in time. I, being the mental person that I was at the time,
took that as his controlling me by withholding information. We got into an argument
as I accused him of this. His reply was, and I quote, “If I was to inform you of all
that you will be doing, you would immediately say, ‘I can’t do that, I don’t know
how,’ and get into fear about it. That, dearest one, would place an unnecessary
block in your path that would take more time to remove. Now do you really want
that?” I got the point.

So what I am saying here to all of you who are fretting over the fact that you don’t
know what you are to do and fear that you may miss it when the time arrives
because you don’t recognize it, you will not miss it. When the training period is over,
your work will be launched and the people, opportunities and the money will all be
there to start it. It will be a flow.

Losing touch with spirit guides...

During the journey to ascension there will be many times that your guides will seem
to disappear. In actuality they are still there, they are just standing back to see
what you will do with the information and training you have already been given.
These periods of silence can be very disconcerting and lonely, but I assure you that
your guides are still very close by. I find that these periods usually coincide with
intense lessons and what I call “Dark Nights of the Soul.”

You may get angry with your guides because you feel they have abandoned you in
your greatest time of need but they know that you not only arranged to be alone,
you asked them not to step in. All this was done before you were born. You wanted
to see if you could stand on your own two feet and integrate the fears coming
forward without assistance. I assure you, your guides suffer right along with you
and many times have to bite their tongues to stay out of your way. Like a mother
who has to consciously stop herself from trying to assist her toddler who is
determined to walk, so your guides go through the same emotions. But remember,
your Soul is still there to guide you. Your Soul is not bound by these prior
arrangements so he/she will always be there to assist but not caretake (enable).
Thus, self-empowerment becomes a lived reality.

Staying grounded...

This is one of the greatest challenges for many people on the spiritual path as well as
the ascension path. Staying grounded requires our participation in 3D and many of
us have a great disdain for such things. I will assure you that without grounding in
3D, the things we need to accomplish our missions will not come to us, i.e., money,
food, shelter, etc. This is one of the secrets of the ascension path. We must learn
how to create a balance between physically being in 3D while existing simultaneously
in the other levels of multidimensionality.

One other thing, I have found that when I am not grounded, I appear to be invisible
to others. This not only creates some of the rejection I mentioned earlier, it can be
dangerous when driving because other drivers literally do not see your car.

Letting go of “out there”...

Hanging out on the astral plane, astral traveling and just downright existing in
nirvana through prolonged meditation, while feeling extremely satisfying to us, is
also a great detriment to our missions. As I mentioned before, we cannot complete
what we came here to do if we are not heart-connected to the planet. If you are still
allowing yourself to feel strong desires to be “out there” you will not be able to be
fully “here.” You will not be present and on purpose.

At some point, you have to make a choice. Either choose to be here, complete your
mission and enjoy the good things that 3D has to offer, or stay out there and
continue to experience financial stress, difficult relationships, and all the other things
that come with separation from your physical form and planet upon which you
reside. You may also, of course, choose to abandon your mission and return home.
Whatever you choose, be conscious and responsible rather than being a victim of
longingness and homesickness
So I’ll let you in on a little secret because I’m a big caretaker (can’t stop myself), if
you chose to become heart-connected to Earth, you will find that you can have both.

Getting from the mental into the emotional...

When I began this work, I was very mental. When my guides informed me of this, I
thought they were off in the head. When I would go to them for meetings, I spent
most of our session asking questions about earth, the universe, history, my past
lives and a myriad of other things. They indulged for a while but then stopped
answering my questions. Instead, they wanted me to focus on my emotional
clearing and becoming more heart centered and less head centered. Now, several
years later, I understand why. Having all the facts and knowledge about the worlds
around us is not as important as knowing and loving ourselves.

I also found that if I did my internal work, reestablished the relationship with my
Soul and Ego and improved my psychic abilities, I would then be able to find those
answers about the worlds right within myself, thus freeing my guides to do more
important work.

I hope this article provides some answers and a more realistic view of the ascension
path. I realize that it is rather long and involved. Actually, it turned out to be more
that I had intended it to be when I began writing. And, of course, as I mentioned in
the beginning, these are my perspectives on the ascension path and are based on
my 4 years of experiences, so you are free to disregard them if they don’t fit for
you.

Well, it looks like after all this writing that I have only scratched the surface in
regards to the joys and challenges we experience on the ascension path. And I also
realize that many topics I have written about need more in-depth discussion. If you
have questions in these areas or wish me to expound on any of the topics, please
feel free to contact me. I will put them on my list for upcoming articles. Until next
time...

Warmest Regards, Jelaila Starr The Nibiruan Council