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Lucia’s mom, possibly taken in Hampstead Heath during the London years. 1975-78.
Lucia, on her way to the Circle Eight Ranch. Lucia’s parents on a ski trip to Sun Valley, Utah, date Lucia with her mom and brother. 1968.
Around 1968. unknown, probably early sixties.
I think to myself that I’d rather hear the next chapter of Little
House in the Big Woods, the book Mom was reading to us before
Olivia got spots.
They read aloud for almost an hour. Snuggled under the soft
comforter and between warm bodies, we fall asleep; soon we are
carried, half-awake, to our own beds.
“Am I going to get”—I hesitate groggily— “chicken pox?” My
father has just brought me a drink of water.
“Let’s talk about what you’re learning in Sunday school,” he says
gently. “Is sickness real?”
I shake my head no.
“Are you God’s child?”
I nod yes.
“Can you be anything but perfect?”
“Nope.”
“Mary Baker Eddy says we must put on the panoply of Love. Do
you remember what panoply means?”
Even though I’ve heard the word a lot in Sunday school, I can
never remember what it means. I make a face that tells my dad I’ve
forgotten.
“A panoply is a full suit of armor,” he says. “So if we think of
God’s love as a suit of armor, protecting us, we can never be hurt or
sick.”
“Well,” I ask, “how come Olivia has . . . spots?”
“That’s just erroneous belief— error,” my dad says, “which we
all must guard against. She may have the appearance of error, but
we know it’s a lie, an illusion.”
My Sunday school teacher talks a lot about error too, and I re-
member what that is: sin, disease, and death. She tells us that error
is like a mirage in the desert: the vision of a pool of water where
there is nothing but sand. So when my dad says Olivia’s spots are
the appearance of error, I understand that he means the spots are not
real. But I don’t exactly understand how that can be; it seems like
everything that Christian Science says is unreal is real, and vice
versa. I guess when I’m older it’ll make more sense, but for now, it
is comforting enough to know that, as Mom and Dad and Sunday
school have taught me, Christian Science is a science that works.
“Okay, Loosh,” Dad says, and I know it is time for bedtime
prayers, and he will give me a choice.
“Daily Prayer?”
I shake my head no.
“Fathermothergod,” I say.
Together, we recite the Children’s Prayer, written by Mary Baker
Eddy.
Father-Mother God,
Loving me,—
Guard me while I sleep;
Guide my little feet
Up to Thee.
basket is a jar of Jergens lotion. I love that smell too. My cousin Mimi
and I can spend hours in the powder room, making each other up,
and then we climb the steep stairs to the attic, which smells of moth-
balls, where there are boxes and boxes of costumes, ballet tutus, and
our moms’ old prom dresses, as well as my grandfather’s old black
leather doctor’s bag filled with his tools. My grandmother’s nurse
uniform and cap from when she was younger are there too.
But today, I don’t want to go anywhere.
“I want to stay home, Mom,” I say.
“C’mon,” she says. And so we go. Mom lets us each bring a blan-
ket and pillow for the twenty-minute car ride. I close my eyes and
try to get comfortable, but now I ache all over. I wonder to myself
why Mom’s making us get out of bed and drive to Grandma’s. When
we arrive, Grandma greets us at the door with her soft-cheeked hug
and the warm squeeze of her hand on my arm. I love the way her
charm bracelet jingles.
“Here, let’s get you settled. Would you like to watch TV in my
bed?”
Normally, when Grandma asks if I want to sleep in her room
during a sleepover, I say no, politely, because Grandma snores, but
today, it will be just Sherman and me in the room. I nod yes.
My brother and I climb under the covers and face each other,
wondering what to make of today. We should be in school, but in-
stead we’ll get to watch Bewitched and Let’s Make a Deal. Grandma
brings us a tray, with two tiny glasses of orange juice, two bowls of
Lipton instant chicken noodle soup (my favorite), cinnamon toast
cut into triangles, and two bowls of applesauce.
I frown. I hate applesauce.
“Go on, have some,” Grandma says. “It tastes good when you’re
under the weather.” She spoons it into each of our mouths as though
we are toddlers.
I’m not sure what’s going on. Olivia just had chicken pox (or
the erroneous belief in chicken pox), and we’ve spent the last week
praying a lot and not seeing friends. Now, my brother and I don’t
have spots but we’re “under the weather” and Mom has called Mrs.
Hannah, who is praying for us. Instead of going to school we have
come to Grandma’s, where we are being spoon-fed applesauce, which
has what looks to me like teeny bits of chalk in it and leaves a taste in
my mouth that is yucky and bitter. The cinnamon toast fixes that.
Mom comes into the bedroom, Grandma goes downstairs, and
together we—Mom, Sherman, and I—sing “Mother’s Evening
Prayer,” one of the hymns by Mary Baker Eddy that we know by
heart. I don’t know why, but when I sing it, my eyes tear.
Mom rubs my back, my nose gets all runny, and my voice sort of
wobbles through the remaining four verses.
After we’re done with the hymn, we recite the Scientific State-
ment of Being, just like we do at the end of Sunday school every
week: