. .

,



~ 1972

nnra pexomenonana x nsannm
eaxnnonno-nsarentcxnm conerom


o peaxnne oxropa ncnxonornuecxnx nayx
..

. . xopoxoona.
ax x nocnpnnnmam, npecrannxm n nonnmam oxpy-
xammn mnp. ., earornxa~, 1972.

448 crp. (xaemnx nearornuecxnx nayx , ayu.-nccne.
nncrnryr e]exronornn).

Fonesnt n ercrne cenana . . nopoxoony nonnocrtm cnenorny-
xo. naxo ona namna n ccc cnnt yunrtcx n paorart. o pyxonocr-
nom npo]. II. . oxonxncnoro ona nonyunna opanonanne.
penaraemax xnnra - ynnxantnoe nponsneenne anropa, nnmennoro
spennx n cnyxa. ne c ontmo nonnoro xapaxrepnsymrcx ocoennocrn
noannnarentntx nponeccon uenonm;,), nnmennoro ocnonntx ncranrntx
penenropon.
nnra npenasnauena nx yunrene, nayuntx paornnxon n onacrn
ncnxonornn, nearornxn, ]nnoco]nn n yer c nnrepecom npounrana mn-
poxnm xpyrom unrarene.

F 3
Fu
I

nrop +ro xnnrn ntra nanonna xopoxoo-
na-uenonex neotuno cytt. ercrne ona
saonena mennnrnrom n nonnocrtm norepxna spe-
nne, a norom n cnyx. orepx spennx n cnyxa n er-
cxne rot nsonnpyer peenxa or oxpyxammnx,
enaer ero ecnomomntm. tnyxennoe onno-
uecrno npnnonr peenxa x ncnxnuecxo erpaa-
nnn. o cnenornyxo enouxo +roro ne nponso-
mno. pnmepno n ecxrnnernem nospacre ona no-
naaer n mxony-xnnnnxy nx cnenornyxonemtx
ere, oprannsonannym n 1923 r. npo]. nanom
]anactennuem oxonxncxnm n aptxone. e-
nouxn tna noccranonnena peut. pn nomomn
cnennantno meronxn c ncnontsonannem axrnnt-
noro (nantnenoro) an]annra n pente]no-roueu-
noro (panencxoro) mpn]ra tno oprannsonano
cncremarnuecxoe oyuenne ee ncem npemeram
mxontnoro xypca. na nonyunna cpenee opaso-
nanne, ncrynnna n pxt .
enept ntra nanonna - crapmn nayunt
corpynnx ncrnryra e]exronornn .
anrop mnorouncnenntx crare n rpex xnnr. 1961 r.
(yxe nocne cmeprn cnoero yunrenx . . oxonxn-
cxoro) ona samnrnna ncceprannm n nonyunna
yuenym crenent xannara nearornuecxnx nayx
no ncnxonornn.
epnax ee xnnra ax x nocnpnnnmam oxpy-
xammn mnp~ (" s-no u, 1947)
tna c orpomntm nnrepecom ncrpeuena nayuno
omecrnennocrtm n mnpoxnmn maccamn unrare-
ne. snecrnt conercxn ncnxonor . . eon-
rten nncan n penensnn na xnnry . , xopoxoo-
no: t naxonm n ne (n xnnre.-. .) nox-
xoe coepxanne. 3ro, no-nepntx, ro, uro xapaxre-
pnsyer ee anropa xax uenonexa, xax nnunocrt.
onnoe npexpacnoe pasnnrne yma n uyncrn ntrn
xopoxoono, conepmennoe nnaenne em ne
rontxo nnctmenntm xstxom n axrnnonorne, no
n ycrno snyxono peutm (uro nosnonxer e axe ntcrynart na
copannxx) nponsnonr nneuarnenne xnnennx ncxnmunrentnoro,
xoropoe nocnpnnnmaercx xax pesyntrar peuame oapennocrn,
xax neuro ]enomenantnoe, uro na nepnt nsrnx xaxercx nce-
raxn saraxo.
o-nroptx, +ro ncnxonornuecxne annte, npnnonmte anropom
n ee "amonanmennxx~ n n nexoroptx ee crartxx, nomemnx n
xnnry. yxno cxasart, uro n +rn annte ornmt ne ymentmamr
omero nneuarnennx ncxnmunrentnocrn n nayuno saraounocrn
nponecca yxonnoro pasnnrnx n ycnonnxx cnenornyxonemort~ .
nnra . . xopoxoono tna nepeneena na mnorne nno-
crpannte xstxn n nsana sa pyexom, ncmy pacnennnaxct xax
ono ns xpxnx cnnerentcrn ycnexon conercxo e]exronornn.
1954 r. rem xe nsarentcrnom tna onynnxonana nropax
xnnra ntrn nanonnt - ax x nocnpnnnmam n npecrannxm
oxpyxammn mnp~. +ry xnnry n xauecrne nepno uacrn nomna
n necxontxo nepepaorannom nne nepnax xnnra. ropax uacrt
xnnrn, osarnannennax ax x npecrannxm oxpyxammn mnp~,
tna nanncana nnont.
rpertm xnnry, nsannym no rem xe nasnannem n 1956 r., nne-
cent nnmt neontmne nsmenennx.
naxonen, n xnnre, npenaraemo nnnmannm unrarene, pea-
nnsonano namepenne anropa nanncart rpnnornm o nocnpnxrnn,
npecrannennn n nonnmannn oxpyxammero mnpa nnnom, nnmen-
ntm nyx naxnemnx ncranrntx opranon uyncrn-spennx n
cnyxa.
3ra xnnra, xax n npetymne, nanncana . . xopoxoono
conepmenno camocroxrentno n ne nonepranact peaxropcxo
npanxe.
rentnte coxpamennx n nepecranonxn rexcra, nponsneen-
nte c cornacnx anropa, nesnaunrentnt-onn nnmt nouepxnnamr
nornxy nsnoxennx. oromy ncx xnnra-oxymenr, nmemmn na-
yunym nennocrt xax nonnnnoe onncanne nanmenn n camona-
nmennn uenonexa, nonnocrtm nnmennoro spennx n cnyxa.
nncanne nanmenn, nponsneennoe cnenornyxnm anropom
n ro npemx, xora ona nnonne nnaena nnreparypno peutm~,
onxno onpeenxrt n ornomenne x +romy oxymenry. +rom
nncan . . eonrten n ynomxnyro ntme penensnn: ...+ro nce xe
rontxo annte camonanmennx camo ntrn xopoxoo-
no, a ne oexrnante ]axrt ncropnn ]opmnponannx ee cosna-
nnx. ...na paccxastnaer o ncropnn cnoe xnsnn (mecro npen-
. . eonrten. . . xopoxoona. ax x nocnpnnnmam oxpyxammn
mnp. onercxax nearornxa~, 1948, N 3, crp. 106-107.
I
cnonnx~), n +ro nnrepecno, no x +romy nyxno noxonrt nce xe
rontxo xax x perpocnexrnnno cnoxnnmemycx nepexnnannm, xoro-
poe rpeyer eme antnemero nayunoro anannsa. t ne comne-
naemcx n cyexrnnno npannnocrn +rnx nocnomnnann, no c
rouxn spennx saau oexrnnnoro nayunoro nccneonannx mt ne
moxem ne nnert nx ycnonnocrn~ .
nx roro urot nonxrnte ncnxonory perpocnexrnnnte xon-
crpyxnnn~, no ntpaxennm . . eonrtena, ne mornn cmyrnrt
unrarenx-necnennanncra, cosan y nero nenpannntnoe ornomenne
x nponeme, nayunt peaxrop cuen neoxonmtm nomecrnrt
n +rom npencnonnn nontrxy nocneonarentno marepnanncrnue-
cxoro nsnoxennx nponemt ncnxnuecxoro pasnnrnx cnenornyxo-
nemoro peenxa n nponecce ero nepnonauantnoro oyuennx.
naxo npexe uem npncrynnrt x ntnonnennm +ro saaun,
cneyer xorx t xparxo paccxasart o yunrene ntrn nanonnt
xopoxoono n ocnonarene conercxo nearornxn cnenornyxone-
mtx npo]. nane ]anactennue oxonxncxom.
. . oxonxncxn ponncx 25 mapra 1889 r. n crannne on-
cxo, . yancxo ryepnnn (renept pacnoapcxn xpa) n cemte
xpecrtxnnna-xasaxa. auantnoe opasonanne on nonyunn n cnoe
crannne, nearornuecxoe-n yancxo yunrentcxo cemnnapnn.
onyunn +xcrepnom cpenee opasonanne, nan ]anactennu n
1908 r. nocrynnn na nearornuecxoe orenenne ecrecrnennoncro-
pnuecxoro ]axyntrera anxr-erepyprcxoro ncnxonenponornue-
cxoro nncrnryra, xoropt n oxonunn n 1913 r.
e]exronornuecxoe opasonanne nan ]anactennu onon-
nnrentno nonyunn na apnnncxnx nearornuecxnx xypcax (orene-
nne oyuennx n nocnnrannx rnyxonemtx). o xypcy +xcnepnmen-
rantno ncnxonornn paoran y npo]. . u. asypcxoro n y npo].
. . Foranona-Fepesoncxoro. ro yunrenem tn raxxe . . a-
roncxn. n]nonearornxy . . oxonxncxn nsyuan y npo].
. . pornyca. n cnyman nexnnn ntammnxcx pyccxnx ]nsnono-
ron . . neencxoro, . . Fexrepena n . . annona.
earornuecxym exrentnocrt . . oxonxncxn nauan eme
o oxonuannx nncrnryra. 1910 no 1919 r. on npenoaer n yun-
nnme nx rnyxonemtx. ora xe noxnnnnct ero nepnte rpyt o
cnennantnom oyuennn n no nonpocam naponoro opasonannx.
a yuacrne n penonmnnonntx cotrnxx . . oxonxncxn tn
nxnmuen n cnncox nenaronaexntx n ntcnan n onorocxym ry-
epnnm.
ocne ennxo xrxptcxo connanncrnuecxo pesonmnnn
. . eonrten. . . xopoxoona. ax x nocnpnnnmam oxpyxammn
mnp~. onercxax nearornxa~, 1948, N 3, crp. 107,
. . oxonxncxn c orpomno +neprne opercx sa nonym, co-
nercxym mxony. re rot na xpanne ne tno nn onoro xpyn-
noro nearornuecxoro xypnana nnn rasert, re t ne snyuan ero
ronoc.
nynnxonannte nm crartn: a nearornuecxne remt~ (1917),
ecuacrte nnn omecrnennoe npecrynnenne~ (1920), e]exrnn-
nte ern n cncreme connantnoro nocnnrannx~ (1923), nonee-
nnn nnunocrn~ (1925), Bxona n ercxoe nnxenne~ (1925), x-
xenoe nacnecrno~ (1925), ercxoe nnxenne, mxona n yunrent~
(1925), nponeme oprannsannn noneennx~ (1926) n p.-na-
xonnn ontmo omecrnennt orxnnx.
1919 r. . . oxonxncxn oprannsonan n r. mann mxony
rnyxonemtx ere. 1920 r. apxomnpocom xpannt on tn ne-
peneen n nen n xauecrne onenra cyponearornxn n ncnxono-
rnn ]axyntrera cnennantnoro nocnnrannx ncrnryra naponoro
opasonannx. 1923 r. on paoran n aptxoncxom nncrnryre na-
ponoro opasonannx n n 1926 r. tn yrnepxen npo]eccopom
xa]ept e]exronornn +roro nncrnryra, cran exanom ]axynt-
rera cnennantnoro nocnnrannx.
nepntx ne xrxptcxo penonmnnn . . oxonxncxn
yuacrnonan n nnxnnannn ercxo ecnpnsopnocrn, n rora xe
apxomnpoc nasnaunn ero ynonnomouenntm, a sarem nn-
cnexropom yupexenn nx anomantntx ere.
nepnte xe rot onercxo nnacrn on tn ocnonarenem cn-
cremt opasonannx anomantntx ere na xpanne. o ero nnn-
nnarnne tnn cosant npaueno-nearornuecxne xannert, xoro-
pte oennnnn ncm nayuno-npaxrnuecxym paory no e]exro-
nornn.
. . oxonxncxn tn onnm ns axrnnntx oprannsaropon a-
yuno-nccneonarentcxoro nncrnryra nearornxn na xpanne.
1926 r. on cranonnrcx npexropom +roro nncrnryra n saneym-
mnm orenom e]exronornn. 1930 r. n aptxone tn oprannso-
nan ayuno-nccneonarentcxn nncrnryr e]exronornn, re
. . oxonxncxn tn nepntm npexropom.
+rn rot on sannman px pyrnx pyxonoxmnx onxnocre
n cncreme opasonannx anomantntx ere. rartn nana ]a-
nactennua no cnennantno nearornxe, nanncannte n ror nepno:
rax nastnaemom urennn c ry rnyxonemtmn~ (1925), prn-
xynxnnonnte cxemt n penenropno n +]]exropno peun rnyxo-
nemtx~ (1926), meroe oyuennx rnyxonemtx ycrno pe~n~
(1930) n p.-ne norepxnn snauennx n ceronx.
ayuno-nccneonarentcxax n nearornuecxax exrentnocrt
. . oxonxncxoro nxnmuana mnpoxn xpyr e]exronornuecxnx
nponem. n tn xpynntm cnennanncrom n onacrn oyuennx
rnyxnx. ro paort o oyuennn rnyxonemtx ponomy xstxy, o
urennn c ry, o peuenom pexnme rnyxnx nmenn ontmoe snaue-
nne n pasnnrnn oreuecrnenno cyponearornxn. +rnx nccneona-
nnxx on ne orpannunnancx uacrntmn nonpocamn cyponearornxn,
ero rpyt tnn nanpannent na conepmencrnonanne nce cncremt
oyuennx n nocnnrannx anomantntx ere. e]exronoram nsne-
crnt ero rpyt n n onacrn rn]nonearornxn. nnmanne . . o-
xonxncxoro nocroxnno npnnnexann camte rpynte n nearornue-
cxom ornomennn cnyuan. n paspaartnan nonpoct nnnnnyant-
no nearornxn nx nnn, ne oxnauenntx cymecrnymme cncremo
mxontnoro oyuennx. ax, on paspaoran nocone nx nnnnny-
antnoro oyuennx nspocntx rnyxonemtx, xnnymnx n centcxo
mecrnocrn, n cnennantnt yxnapt nx mxon nspocntx rnyxone-
mtx. o ero nnnnnarnne tna cosana aptxoncxax mxona-xnn-
nnxa nx cnenornyxonemtx ere.
nenxy exrentnocrn +roro yupexennx ann enerart ex-
ynaponoro xonrpecca, ]nsnonoron, xoropte nocernnn mxony-
xnnnnxy n ocrannnn nctmennte-orstnt. o nx orstnam, xnnnnxa
cnenornyxonemtx xnnxercx ntammnmcx nayuntm yupexennem
ne rontxo onercxoro omsa, no n mnpono nayxn~ . axo nn-
crnryr, xax nncrnryr cnenornyxonemtx n aptxone, npx nn mo-
xno narn re-nno n mnpe...~
aoro . . oxonxncxoro co cnenornyxonemtmn ertmn nn-
repeconancx . . optxn. nnctmax x . . oxonxncxomy n
. , xopoxoono nennxn nponerapcxn nncarent ormeuan or-
pomnoe snauenne +ro paort
1939 r. no npnrnamennm apxomnpoca u . . oxo-
nxncxn npnexan na paory n ocxoncxn nayuno-npaxrnuecxn
nncrnryr cnennantntx mxon (ntne ncrnryr e]exronornn
), re nosononnn paory na nponemamn oyuennx cne-
nornyxonemtx.
exrentnocrt . . oxonxncxoro n onacrn oyuennx n nocnn-
rannx cnenornyxonemtx tna ntcoxo onenena nayuno omecr-
nennocrtm. ro oxna uopmnponanne nnunocrn npn orcyrcrnnn
spnrentntx n cnyxontx nneuarnenn~ tn nxnmuen n nonecrxy
nx mnneno ceccnn , nocnxmenno 30-nernm ennxo
xrxptcxo connanncrnuecxo penonmnnn, na xoropo +ra pa-
ora tna ormeuena xax ono ns ntammnxcx ocrnxenn coner-
cxo nayxn.
nx nayuno-nearornuecxo exrentnocrn . . oxonxncxoro
aptxoncxn paoun~ or 22 anrycra 1935 r.
ommynncr~ or 24 anrycra 1935 r.
..optxn. op. cou. n 30 romax, r. 30.
tno xapaxrepno nocroxnnoe crpemnenne ncnontsonart nonemne
rexnnuecxne ocrnxennx n nenxx oyuennx cnenornyxonemtx,
rnyxonemtx n cnentx ere. my npnnanexnr px nenntx nso-
perenn, pacmnpxmmnx rexnnuecxoe ocnamenne rn]no- n cyp-
onearornxn: Fpanencxn +xpan nx rnyxonemtx~ (1941), e-
xannuecxn yxnapt~ n- p. m paspaorana unrantnax mamnna
otunoro mpn]ra nx cnentx n cnenornyxonemtx: neno un-
raer nmym xnnry~ (1936), nonom cnocoe urennx cnentmn~,
urennn cnentmn n cnenornyxnmn nnocxoneuarnoro mpn]ra~
(1956). xoncrpynponannte no ero paspaorxam n nexm pasnoro
nna reneraxropt xnnxmrcx nesamennmtmn npnopamn nx oy-
uennx cnenornyxonemtx. +ro onacrn . . oxonxncxn nno-
ornopno paoran o nocnennx ne cnoe xnsnn.
cnonnte nonoxennx cncremt oyuennx cnenornyxonemtx, x
nsnoxennm xoropo mt nepexonm, paspaorant . . oxonxn-
cxnm n ero yuennxamn.
ponemamn cnenornyxonemort sannmannct npecrannrenn
ouent mnornx cnennantnocre. cnenornyxonemtx nncann ]nsn-
onorn, ncnxonorn, ]nnoco]t, ncropnxn, nnreparopt, omecrnen-
nte exrenn n axe reonorn. +ro necmorpx na ro, uro rn]no-
cyponearornxa, r. e. nearornxa cnenornyxonemtx, xnnxercx n
snaunrentno crenenn ysxnm n cnennantntm nonpocom axe n
camo e]exronornn. uem xe oxcnnrt nnrepec npecrannrene
cront mnpoxoro xpyra cnennantnocre x +ro, xasanoct t, uacr-
no nponeme?
xe cama nosmoxnocrt cymecrnonannx uenonexa es raxnx
opranon uyncrn, xax cnyx n spenne, nopaxaer ncex. a nepnt
nsrnx xaxercx, uro norepx cnyxa n spennx nonnocrtm nsonnpyer
uenonexa or oxpyxamme cpet n nnmaer ero nosmoxnocrn o-
martcx c pyrnmn nmtmn, opexax na crpamnoe no cnonm no-
cnecrnnxm onnouecrno.
cnn raxo uenonex cnen n rnyx or poxennx nnn norepxn
cnyx n spenne n pannem ercrne, on ne rontxo nnxora ne cntman
uenoneuecxo peun, no n ne snaer, uro cymecrnyer peut, cnona,
oosnauammne npemert n mtcnn. n ne snaer axe, uro cyme-
crnymr npemert n nnemnn mnp. oxno nn raxoe cymecrno ce-
nart uenonexom, nayunrt ero rpynrtcx n mtcnnrt? 3ror nonpoc
sannman mnornx.
cnxnuecxoe pasnnrne uenoneuecxoro cymecrna, orenennoro
or oxpyxammero nencuncnnmo mnoroopasnoro mnpa neme n or
omecrna creno monuannx n remnort, onxno trt rnyoxo
cnoeopasntm, n +ro cnoeopasne npnnnexano nnnmanne ncex, xro
cranxnnancx co cnenornyxonemtmn. nny roro uro nosmoxen rou-
nt yuer ncex cneenn, anaemtx cnenornyxonemomy peenxy,
nccneonarenn cunrann, uro noxnnnact peantnax nosmoxnocrt nc-
nontsonart +ror xecroxn +xcnepnmenr npnpot nx pemennx ns-
neuno nonnymmero uenoneuecrno nonpoca o nnxymnx ]axropax
pasnnrnx uenonexa, o rom, uro n noneennn n ncnxnxe uenonexa
xnnxercx npoxenntm, nmmanenrno pasnnnammnmcx, a uro npno-
peraercx naroapx exrentnocrn opranon uyncrn n nnnnnyant-
nom ontre. cnn pasnnrne nopmantnoro (spxuecntmamero) pe-
enxa nponcxonr nesamerno, ro pasnnrne cnenornyxonemoro
spnmo cnxsano c nearornuecxnm nponeccom, c ncxyccrnenntm n
nerxo yunrtnaemtm nosecrnnem na peenxa. +rom ]axre spn-
moro cranonnennx uenonexa xaxt ns rex, xro sannmancx cneno-
rnyxonemoro, xoren narn nornepxenne cnonx ne o cymno-
crn uenonexa n ero pasyma, narn pemenne saraxn~ uenoneue-
cxo ncnxnxn.
Fontmnncrno sapyexntx yuentx, reopernuecxn n npaxrnuecxn
sannmammnxcx cnenornyxonemoro, npnepxnnannct nyx nporn-
nopeuamnx pyr pyry, no cnxsanntx mexy coo nsrnxon na
cnenornyxonemory. o-nepntx, onn cunrann nenosmoxntm pasnn-
rne cnenornyxonemtx o yponnx nopmantnoro uenonexa. o-nro-
ptx, pasnnrne nmn nonnmanoct xax cnonrannoe, nmmanenrnoe ca-
mopasnnrne. cnexn oyuennx rex nnn pyrnx cnenornyxonemtx
onn oxnnxnn ocotmn, ntammnmncx cnyuaxmn, oxcnxemtmn
cnepxrennantnocrtm yuennxon. +rom ornomennn orpnnarentnym
pont ctrpana nsnnmnxx pexnama noxpyr nmenn snamennro cne-
nornyxonemo nent ennep.
ourn no ncex monorpa]nxx n crartxx nnocrpanntx anropon o
cnenornyxonemore camopasnnrne nsnauantno sanoxenntx cnoco-
nocre cunranoct ocnonntm npnnnnnom ]opmnponannx ncnxnxn.
nemnee nosecrnne paccmarpnnanoct nnmt xax ronuox x cnon-
rannomy pasnnrnm, nnn, no crtnnno ]opmynnponxe,- x ntcno-
oxennm nnyrpenne norennnn~, nnn, npxmo n orxponenno,- x
npoyxennm eccmeprno ymn~.
o mnornx cnyuaxx pont raxoro ronuxa x camopasnnrnm orno-
nnact cnony. nony npnnnctnanoct nonmenoe, mncrnuecxoe e-
crnne nenocpecrnenno na eccmeprnym ymy~. 3ro ecrnne
rpaxronanoct ne xax nocrenennt nponecc oyuennx peun, a xax
momenr nnesannoro osapennx~, onomomenrnoro npoyxennx
ymn~.
. . oxonxncxn +rnm nsrnxam npornnonocrannn cncremy
oyuennx cnenornyxonemtx, ocnonannym na marepnanncrnuecxom
npecrannennn o pasnnrnn ncnxnxn. anonee omee nonoxenne
oyuennx cnenornyxonemtx , , oxonxncxoro c]opmynnponan
. . eonrten n yxe ynomxnyro ntme penensnn na nepnym
xnnry . . xopoxoono: max nex, nonnomennax . . o-
xonxncxnm n ero meroe nocnnrannx cnenornyxonemtx, cront xe
nayuno yenrentna, xex n npocra: nyrt ouenoneuennx ne or xstxa
n cosnannx, a or nocrpoennx peantntx uenoneuecxnx ornomenn x
ecrnnrentnocrn n nosnnxammero na +ro ocnone omennx x on-
naennm uenoneuecxnm xstxom n x uenoneuecxomy cosnannm.
cosnanne +roro nyrn cnnmaer noxpon ranncrnennocrn c npo-
nemt ncnxnuecxoro npoyxennx cnenornyxonemtx. x ntcoxoe
yxonnoe pasnnrne nepecraer xasartcx pesyntrarom ncxnmunrent-
nocrn n cnyuax~ .
nnnnyantnoe oyuenne cnenornyxonemtx, npononnmeecx
no pyxonocrnom . . oxonxncxoro n aptxoncxo mxone-xnn-
nnxe, n +xcnepnmenrantno rpynne npn ncrnryre e]exronornn
, n macconoe oyuenne n aropcxom ercxom ome cne-
nornyxonemtx, xoropt tn orxptr n 1963 r., noxastnamr non-
nym nosmoxnocrt ntcoxoro pasnnrnx cnenornyxonemtx, xoropoe
nn n xoe mepe ne xnnxercx cnonranntm n nmmanenrntm.
nenornyxonemo peenox onaaer nnmt norennnantno nos-
moxnocrtm pasnnrnx. naxo ero ocoennocrtm xnnxercx ro,
uro, onaax +ro nosmoxnocrtm, cam on cnonmn cocrnenntmn
ycnnnxmn nnxora ne ocrnraer axe camoro nesnaunrentnoro
ymcrnennoro pasnnrnx. Fes cnennantnoro xoppnrnpymmero nea-
rornuecxoro nmemarentcrna raxo peenox ocraercx nonntm nn-
nannom na ncm xnsnt~
Fes cnennantnoro oyuennx cnenornyxonemte moryr npono-
nrt ecxrxn ner n orropoxennom yrny xomnart, n xponarn n r. "
sa ncm xnsnt ne nayunnmnct nn onomy snaxy, ne nayunnmnct
xonrt, ecrt n nnrt no-uenoneuecxn.
. . oxonxncxn nncan: cnyuae cnenornyxonemort oco-
enno oruernnno ntxnnxercx moryuax pont cnennantnoro nearo-
rnuecxoro nmemarentcrna. ect nosnnxaer saaua cnennantno
oprannsonanntmn cpecrnamn omennx c]opmnponart n pasnnrt
nce, es ncxnmuennx, coepxanne uenoneuecxo ncnxnxn~.
aaua cnennantnoro ]opmnponannx nce ncnxnxn, ncero ue-
noneuecxoro noneennx npn cnenornyxonemore conepmenno ynn-
xantna n nenonropnma. e pemenne nnrepecno nx pxa onacre
snannx, sarparnnammnx noneenne n mtmnenne uenonexa.
yuenne n nocnnranne cnenornyxonemoro peenxa noxast-
namr, uro uenoneuecxax ncnxnxa n noneenne ne npoxennt n ne
pasnnnamrcx cnonranno, a nosnnxamr n omennn c pyrnm uenone-
, . eonrte n. , . xopoxoona. ax x nocnpnnnmam oxpyxammn
mnp~. onercxax nearornxa~, 1948, N2 3, crp. 108,
" , , o xonxncxn n. cnoenne cnenornyxonemtmn rpammarnuecxoro
crpox cnonecno peun. oxnat u~, 1959, N 1.
am xe.
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xom. xastnaercx, cnennantno oyuart nyxno ne rontxo cnonec-
no peun, rpyontm nantxam, nnctmy n r. ., no, nanpnmep, n mn-
mnuecxnm nnxennxm nnna: yntxe npn paocrn, naxmypnnannm
pone npn rnene n r. . aptxoncxo mxone-xnnnnxe cnenorny-
xonemtx ere tna cnennantno paspaorana raxax meronxa
emacxannn~.
nenornyxonemo peenox o oyuennx moxer ne nmert axe
uenoneuecxo nost, ne ymert nn croxrt, nn cnert no-uenone-
uecxn.
cemy +romy ero roxe nao cnennantno oyuart.
uero xe naunnart oyuenne cnenornyxonemoro peenxa? uro
xnnxercx rem ]ynamenrom, na xoropom n antnemem crponrcx
nce rpannosnoe sanne uenoneuecxo ncnxnxn?
uopmnponanne ncnxnxn cnenornyxonemoro peenxa ocymecrn-
nxercx na pxe +ranon oyuennx, npeemcrnenno cnxsanntx pyr c
pyrom.
epnt +ran pasnnrnx ncnxnxn cnenornyxonemoro peenxa
. . oxonxncxn nasnan nepnoom nepnonauantnoro ouenoneun-
nannx~. 3ror nepno npemecrnyer oyuennm cnonecno peun n
xnnxercx pemammnm n oycnonnnnammne nce nocneymmee pas-
nnrne ncnxnxn n noneennx.
norne rn]nocyponearorn, ncxox ns nonoxennx, uro cym-
nocrt uenonexa cocronr n ape peun~, ntrannct cpasy nayunrt
cnenornyxonemtx xstxy. ce +rn nontrxn xonuannct neyaue.
cnonn +nemenrt peun, ern ocranannct conepmenno ecnomom-
ntmn n xnsnn n rnyoxo orcrantmn n nnrennexryantnom orno-
mennn.
uopmnponanne cnonecno peun nentsx paccmarpnnart xax nep-
nym saauy, oecneunnammym pasnnrne ncnxnxn cnenornyxone-
moro. nonecnax peut c ee cnoxntm rpammarnuecxnm crpoem
onxna nenuart mnoroopasnym cncremy opasnoro, narnxno-
ecrnennoro orpaxennx oxpyxammero mnpa n pasnnrym cncremy
nenocpecrnennoro (ne cnonecnoro) omennx cnenornyxonemoro c
oxpyxammnmn nmtmn.
epnax saaua oyuennx, c xoropo cnxsano nauantnoe pasnn-
rne ncnxnxn cnenornyxonemoro peenxa,-+ro npexe ncero ]op-
mnponanne cncremt nantxon camoocnyxnnannx n nponecce opa-
sonannx uenoneuecxoro tronoro noneennx.
nyrpn raxo cncremt npemerno-npaxrnuecxnx ecrnn c ne-
oxonmocrtm ]opmnpymrcx opast npemeron, oxpyxammnx
peenxa.
axne xe ocoennocrn uenoneuecxoro noneennx n nepnym
ouepet neoxonmo yunrtnart npn oyuennn cnenornyxonemoro
peenxa? o-nepntx, uenoneuecxoe noneenne c]opmnponano
II
pyrnmn nmtmn, ntpaorano ncem uenoneuecxnm omecrnom n
onxno trt ycnoeno orentntmn nnnnnyymamn; no-nroptx,
ono n npnnnnne cnxsano c ncnontsonannem nsoperenntx uenone-
uecrnom opyn n npemeron rpya; n-rpertnx, ono npenonaraer
onnaenne saxpennenntmn sa +rnmn opynxmn n npemeramn on-
peenenntmn ]ynxnnxmn (cnocoamn ecrnnx).
nnaenax opynem n oyuaxct saxpennennomy sa .+rnm opy-
nem cnocoy ecrnnx, peenox onnaenaer omecrnenno ntpa-
oranno nopmo exrentnocrn, xoropax cranonnrcx axrom ero nn-
nnnyantnoro noneennx. 3ro onnaenne omecrnenno ntpao-
ranntmn nopmamn noneennx nosmoxno nnmt n rom cnyuae, ecnn
ono yonnernopxer nnnnnyantnte norpenocrn peenxa.
ax xe nponcxonr oyuenne peenxa?
ax t nn tn nnsox yponent pasnnrnx cnenornyxonemoro pe-
enxa, emy, xax n ncxxomy pyromy, neoxonmo ecrt, nnrt, cnart,
nontsonartcx ryanerom. 3rn nyxt na nepntx nopax eme ne xnnx-
mrcx nonnnno uenoneuecxnmn norpenocrxmn, a cranonxrcx nmn,
nnmt npnoperax omecrnenno ntpaorannte cnocot nx yon-
nernopennx, cnonnax saaua nepnonauantnoro oyuennx cneno-
rnyxonemoro peenxa-]opmnponanne y nero nantxon camoo-
cnyxnnannx n nantxon noneennx, nanpannenntx na yonnernope-
nne ero ecrecrnenntx nyx.
xaxnmn xe opynxmn snaxomnrcx cnenornyxonemo peenox
na nepntx marax cnoero oyuennx? axnmn ]ynxnnxmn, saxpen-
nenntmn sa +rnmn opynxmn, on onnaenaer?
3ro npexe ncero npemert tra, onnaenne xoroptmn y nop-
mantnoro spxuecntmamero peenxa nponcxonr xax t camo co-
o, nesamerno. eenox oyuaercx ecrt noxxo n nnnxo, ns ra-
penxn n mncxn, cnert na cryne, on npnyuaercx n onpeenennoe
npemx roronnrt nocrent xo cny, n onpeenennoe npemx npoct-
nartcx, ncranart c nocrenn, ynpart cnom nocrent, enart yrpen-
nmm sapxxy, xonrt n ymtnantnym xomnary, orxptnart n saxpt-
nart xpan, nontsonartcx syno merxo, namtnnnart pyxn n nnno,
ntrnpartcx nonorennem, npnuectnart nonoct, oenartcx n pase-
nartcx, npannntno xonrt n nomemennn n no nope.
pnneennt nepeuent npemeron n ymenn ne cnyuaen. n
nsxr nenocpecrnenno ns npaxrnxn oyuennx cnenornyxonemoro
peenxa. ecrnnrentnocrn xe xonnuecrno nantxon noneennx,
xoroptm npnxonrcx oyuart peenxa, n ecxrxn n cornn pas npe-
ntmaer npnneennt cnncox.
ax xe nponcxonr oyuenne cnenornyxonemoro peenxa nepe-
uncnenntm ntme nantxam camoocnyxnnannx n uenoneuecxoro
noneennx?
pn ]opmnponannn nontx nantxon, cnxsanntx c eo, y cne-
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nornyxonemoro peenxa otuno npnxonrcx npeoonenart yxo-
pennnmnecx npnntuxn. eenox npnntx x romy, urot ero xop-
mnnn nspocnte, cam on nnxora ne epxan noxxn n pyxe n conpo-
rnnnxercx, xora ero ntramrcx sacrannrt epxart noxxy,
sauepntnart ns rapenxn nnmy n nonocnrt ee xo pry. asymeercx,
tno t nerxo naxopmnrt peenxa no-npexnemy, nonocx noxxy
x ero pry, no n raxom cnyuae on nnxora n ne oyunrcx nonomy nx
nero ymennm. ouno rax xe ocronr eno c oyuennem cnenorny-
xonemoro peenxa ymennm oenartcx, pasenartcx, oynartcx
n r. .
uopmnponanne nantxon camoocnyxnnannx n nepnt nepno
xnnxercx ouent rpyoemxnm. poxoxr neenn, a nnora n me-
cxnt, npexe uem yaercx onrtcx cnnron n ]opmnponannn no-
ntx, axe npocremnx ecrnn. ccneonanne ncxptnaer onpe-
enennym nnamnxy n nponecce ]opmnponannx nonoro ymennx.
a nepnom +rane npnyuennx peenxa x xaxomy-nno camocroxrent-
nomy ecrnnm nnmt ocnaenaer crenent ero conpornnnennx.
ryr ouent naxno ne npexpamart ycnnn, nso nx n ent xopmx
nnn oenax peenxa ero xe pyxamn. 3ro tnaer rpyno. pyno
axe ]nsnuecxn. o npepnart ]opmnponanne nonoro nantxa, ne-
pern x npexnnm npnntuxam nentsx, rax xax npn nonropntx no-
ntrxax oyunrt nyxnomy nantxy nocne roro, xax nspocnt o-
naxt yxe orcrynnn, conpornnnenne peenxa nospacraer. pn
]opmnponannn nantxa neoxonmo cnenrt axe sa ycnnnem
pyxn, xoropoe nyxno, nanpnmep, nx roro, urot nonecrn noxxy
c nnme xo pry peenxa. ax, nepnoe npemx tno rpyno cornyrt
pyxy cnenornyxonemo enouxn, urot xocnyrtcx noxxo ee ry.
orom enart +ro crano nce nerue n nerue, a ncxope enouxa crana
enart camocroxrentnte nontrxn nonocnrt noxxy xo pry. -
naxo cnauana ee nnxennx tnn noptnncrt n nerount-na +rom
+rane pyxa nocnnrarenx nanpannxer n yrounxer nnxenne pe-
enxa.
a cneymmem +rane noxnnxmrcx orentnte +nemenrt nonoro
nantxa, xoropte ntnonnxmrcx peenxom camocroxrentno. osnn-
xamr nepnte nontrxn cenart nnxenne camocroxrentno, no onn
eme ne npnnoxr x nenn. eeox enaer nontrxy nonecrn nox-
xy xo pry-n por noxxo on eme ne nonaaer, no coornercrnym-
mee nnxenne yxe enaercx. nn on ntraercx naert uynox, on
ero eme ne naenaer, no yxe nnxennx n nyxnom nanpannennn
ecrt. uent naxno ne nponycrnrt n ne yracnrt +rnx nepntx npo-
xnnenn camocroxrentnocrn, axrnnnocrn.
pynocrt sect saxnmuaercx n rom, uro nnont nosnnxmee
axrnnnoe nnxenne peenxa ouent neconepmenno n ne moxer
ocrnut nyxno nenn, ono camo no cee espesyntrarno. nx
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roro urot ynpounrtcx, ono onxno trt noxpenneno ocrnrny-
rtm pesyntrarom.
osnnxmax axrnnnocrt peenxa nerxo racnrcx, ecnn nspocnt
naunnaer cam ntnonnxrt sa nero nyxnoe ecrnne. xrnnnocrt
nerxo yracaer raxxe n n rom cnyuae, xora ona ne noxpennxercx
ocrnxennem nenn, uro na nepnom +rane otuno n tnaer npn or-
cyrcrnnn ocrarouno oneparnnno nomomn nspocnoro. yr n ro
nnoxo, n pyroe nnoxo-n cnnmxom mnoro nomorart, n cnnmxom
mano nomorart.
omomt nspocnoro onxna trt crporo osnponana: ona ne
onxna trt rax nennxa, urot peenox concem orxasancx or ca-
mocroxrentnocrn, n ocrarouno nennxa, urot tn ocrnrnyr no-
nesnt pesyntrar.
eno ocnoxnxercx n rem, uro xaxt nantx cocronr ns nn-
xenn pasno rpynocrn. pn oyuennn camocroxrentno ee,
nanpnmep, rpynee sauepntnart noxxo cyn n rapenxe n snaun-
rentno nerue nonocnrt noxxy xo pry. pn ymtnannn peenox
nerue enaer nnxennx no nnny cnonmn naonxmn cnepxy nnns n
snaunrentno rpynee onnaenaer xpyrontmn nnxennxmn. pn
oyuennn oynartcx emy nerue samnypontnart ornnxn, uem sanx-
stnart mnypxn. ocnnrarent anannsnpyer xaxt nantx, pacune-
nxer ero na cocrannxmmne nnxennx n crponr nponecc oyuennx
raxnm opasom, urot anart camocroxrentnocrt peenxy n rex
nnxennxx, xoroptmn on yxe onnaen, nomorart emy n rex nn-
xennxx, enart xoropte on eme sarpynxercx, n ntnonnxrt sa
peenxa re nnxennx, enart xoropte on ne moxer concem.
ax rontxo peenox onnaenaer nantxom nacrontxo, uro mo-
xer camocroxrentno ocrnrart pesyntrara (nonocnrt noxxy xo
pry n ecrt, naenart uynxn), on naunnaer enart +ro c yonontcr-
nnem. ]opmnponanmncx nantx tcrpo ynpounnaercx n conep-
mencrnyercx, n peenox yxe naunnaer axrnnno nporecronart npo-
rnn nomomn nspocnoro.
epnoe snaxomcrno c npemeramn oxpyxammero mnpa nponc-
xonr n nponecce exrentnocrn no yonnernopennm npocremnx
ecrecrnenntx nyx. anpnmep, no npemx oyuennx peenxa camo-
croxrentno ee on snaxomnrcx c noxxo, nnnxo, rapenxo n r..
nponecce +ro enono~ nx oprannsma exrentnocrn peenox
ntnyxenno snaxomnrcx c npemeramn. 3ro snaxomcrno ntny-
xenno noromy, uro xnnxercx neoxonmtm ycnonnem nonyuennx
nenocpecrnennoro noxpennennx, n annom cnyuae nnmenoro.
pyroe npemx, nne nnmeno cnryannn, +rn npemert, xax n py-
rne, ne ntstnann y peenxa nnxaxoro nnrepeca: nxnatnaemte n
pyxy, onn orpactnannct nnn ponxnnct. o npemx et nocnpnxrne
npemeron noxpennxercx nontso oprannsmy. nn cranonxrcx
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snaunmtmn nx peenxa, n on naunnaer omyntnart nx. ax, no-
crenenno, n nponecce esycnonnoro noxpennennx, ]opmnpyercx
n n antnemem pasnnnaercx ra axrnnnocrt peenxa, xoropax n
ncnxonornn n ]nsnonornn nocnr nasnanne opnenrnponouno-nccne-
onarentcxo exrentnocrn.
paxrnxa nocnnrannx cnenornyxonemtx ere ntnyxena cun-
rartcx c orcyrcrnnem y nnx opnenrnponouno-nccneonarentcxo
exrentnocrn na nepntx +ranax pasnnrnx. xasanoct nenosmox-
ntm crponrt nponecc oyuennx n pacuere na npoxennym opnen-
rnponouo-nccneonarentcxym norpenocrt. axo norpenocrn
npocro ne oxasanoct. onepmenno nesnaxomt npemer, annt
n pyxn cnenornyxonemoro peenxa, ne omyntnaercx nm. smenen-
nte xe no ]opme n nennunne npemert, c nomomtm xoroptx on
yxe yonnernopxn cnon norpenocrn, nemenenno ntstnamr opn-
enrnponouno-nccneonarentcxym exrentnocrt. cno, uro n +rnx
cnyuaxx nosnnxnonenne n ntpaxennocrt opnenrnponouno-nccneo-
narentcxo exrentnocrn (n namem cnyuae omyntnannx) onpee-
nxmrcx ne nonnsno paspaxnrenx, a, naoopor, cxocrnom ero c
rem paspaxnrenem, xoropt pantme tn noxpennen nontso.
uem onee nontm xnnxercx paspaxnrent, rem mentme mancon,
uro on ntsoner y cnenornyxonemoro peenxa opnenrnponouno-nc-
cneonarentcxym exrentnocrt. nrnmantnoe ycnonne, ntstnam-
mee na +rom +rane xnnym opnenrnponouno-nccneonarentcxym
exrentnocrt y cnenornyxonemoro peenxa,-+ro npexnnenne
nsmenennoro napnanra panee noxpennennoro paspaxnrenx.
axnm opasom, +nemenrt opnenrnponouno-nccneonarentcxo
exrentnocrn nosnnxamr nnyrpn exrentnocrn no yonnernopennm
npocremnx ecrecrnenntx norpenocre. pesyntrare +ro, eme
+nemenrapno, nosnanarentno axrnnnocrn ]opmnpymrcx opast
npemeron, yuacrnymmnx n yonnernopennn norpenocre. ax
+nemenrapnax nosnanarentnax exrentnocrt, rax n pesyntrart
ee-opast npemeron-na nepnom +rane pasnnrnx peenxa
nosnnxamr n xauecrne neoxonmoro ycnonnx ycnemnocrn eno-
no~ axrnnnocrn oprannsma.
ocrenenno xpyr opason npemeron, cnxsanntx c onnm ns
nnon enono~ exrentnocrn, pacmnpxercx, nce onee ora-
nxxct or ocnyxnnannx npocremnx ecrecrnenntx norpenocre.
rpyxrypa opnenrnponouno-nccneonarentcxo exrentnocrn no-
crenenno nce onee ycnoxnxercx. osnnxax xax cropona npaxrnue-
cxo axrnnnocrn, opnenrnponouno-nccneonarentcxax exrent-
nocrt nce onee oranxercx or nenocpecrnennoro ee ocnyxnna-
nnx n cranonnrcx n xaxo-ro mepe camocroxrentno, nopoxax
nropnunym nacrpoeunym~ norpenocrt - norpenocrt n nosna-
nnn npemeron oxpyxammero mnpa, nnrepec.
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a +rom +rane pesyntrarom opnenrnponouno-nccneonarent-
cxo exrentnocrn xnnxercx ne rontxo ]opmnponanne opason,
nenocpecrnenno nyxntx nx ycnexa enono~ exrentnocrn, no
n naxonnenne opason nnpox~. enept nnrepec x oxpyxammemy
yxe cam moxer nrpart pont noxpennennx n nponecce ]opmn-
ponannx nontx cnxse, oecneunnammnx cosanne nontx opason.
axnm opasom, no npemx nepnonauantnoro oyuennx cneno-
rnyxonemoro y nero ]opmnpymrcx opast oxpyxammnx ero t-
rontx npemeron n nantxn npannntnoro opamennx c +rnmn npe-
meramn. +ror nepno pasnnrnx cnenornyxonemoro peenxa xax
pas n saxnatnamrcx y nero ocnont uenoneuecxo ncnxnxn.
ennantnoe nsoperenne raxnx npemeron, xax noxxa, nox,
oynt, oexa n xnnnme, cosanne coren pyrnx npemeron rpya
ctrpann xora-ro pemammym pont n ntenennn namero npexa ns
cpet xnnorntx-ouenoneunnn ero.
oont xe nponecc ouenoneunnannx nponcxonr n n nnn-
nnyantnom pasnnrnn cnenornyxonemoro peenxa npn oyuennn
ero nontsonannm trontmn npemeramn, xoropte conponoxamr
xaxt mar ero noncenenno xnsnn. nnaenax omeuenoneue-
cxo mypocrtm, cxonnenrpnponanno n npemerax tra, oyua-
xct npannntno nontsonartcx cornxmn +rnx npemeron, cnenorny-
xonemo peenox nmecre c ]opmnponannem uenoneuecxoro none-
ennx ]opmnpyer uenoneuecxym ncnxnxy. +ror nepno y
peenxa, pasymeercx, eme ner nonxrnnoro mtmnennx. xpyxam-
mym ecrnnrentnocrt on orpaxaer n opasno-ecrnenno ]op-
me, no no cnoemy coepxannm ero ncnxnxa xnnxercx uenoneue-
cxo, no ona orpaxaer omeuenoneuecxn ontr, ycnoennt
peenxom nx cnonx cocrnenntx nyx (nmenno nx cnonx co-
crnenntx nyx, nnaue +ro ycnoenne na nepntx +ranax tno t ne-
nosmoxno).
pasno-ecrnennoe mtmnenne cnenornyxonemoro peenxa
xnnxercx npxmtm orpaxennem ero noneennx na nepnonauantnom
+rane pasnnrnx. no ocnyxnnaer rontxo ]ynxnnm yonnernope-
nnx npocremnx norpenocre. osnnxnyn n exrentnocrn no ca-
moocnyxnnannm, opasno-ecrnennoe mtmnenne n cosaercx
nx nyx +ro exrentnocrn. mecre c rem axe +ra nepnax cry-
nent uenoneuecxoro mtmnennx nosnnxaer n nponecce xnnoro o-
mennx cnenornyxonemoro peenxa co nspocntm uenonexom-
es xnnoro omennx ona tna t nenosmoxna. asnnrne +roro
omennx nocrenenno npeopasyer xapaxrep mtmnennx peenxa.
ax nosnnxaer n pasnnnaercx omenne co nspocntm?
cnyxnnanne peenxa nspocntm (oenanne, xopmnenne, rya-
ner)-camax nepnax n npocrax ]opma omennx. +rom cnyuae
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ocymecrnnxercx noxa nnmt onocroponnee omenne, n xoropom
axrnnen rontxo nspocnt, a peenox naccnnen.
peenxa na nepntx nopax eme ner cocrnenno norpenocrn
n omennn co nspocntmn. ecnn oprannuecxne nyxt peenxa
yonnernopxmrcx nne uenoneuecxoro omennx, xax +ro nmeno me-
cro y uenoneuecxnx erentme, nocnnranntx n cpee xnnorntx
nnn n nonno nsonxnnn or nme (cnyua c acnapom aysepom),
ro y raxnx ere concem ne nosnnxaer nnxaxo norpenocrn n o-
mennn.
naxo, xnnx cpen nme, peenox ne n cocroxnnn yon-
nernopnrt cnon oprannuecxne nyxt es yuacrnx +rnx nme.
mn nyxnt, urot ecrt, nnrt n noome urot cymecrnonart,
xnrt. Fes nnx on nornner. axnm opasom, cnauana neoxon-
mocrt n omennn peenxa c oxpyxammnmn ero nmtmn nosnn-
:aer ne cama no cee, a onocpecrnonanno, uepes pyrne, opra-
|nuecxne nyxt.
ax xe +ro nponcxonr y cnenornyxonemtx ere?
a nepntx nopax nspocnt nyxen peenxy xax opyne yon-
nernopennx ero oprannuecxnx nyx. exrentnocrt omennx nos-
nnxaer nnyrpn pyrnx nnon exrentnocrn, nnyrpn, rax cxasart,
enono~ nx oprannsma exrentnocrn. nxst n nsanmoornome-
nne +rnx nyx ]opm exrentnocrn (exrentnocrn no yonnerno-
pennm oprannuecxnx nyx n exrentnocrn omennx) n onpee-
nxmr antnemym cyty norpenocrn n omennn. cnn ocnyxn-
nanne peenxa crponrcx rax, uro exrentnocrt omennx nennxom
nounnxercx exrentnocrn no ocnyxnnannm peenxa, ro pasnnrne
cnennantno norpenocrn n omennn yer saepxnnartcx. cnn
xe exrentnocrt omennx yer pacmnpxrtcx n ntxonrt sa pam-
xn npocroro ocnyxnnannx exrentnocrn no yonnernopennm op-
rannuecxnx nyx peenxa, ro norpenocrt n omennn yer pas-
nnnartcx n cosanart neoxonmocrt ]opmnponannx cnennantntx
cpecrn nx cnoero yonnernopennx.
cnyxnnanne raxoro ecnomomnoro cymecrna, xaxnm xnnxer-
cx cnenornyxonemo peenox o nauana ero oyuennx, n cemte
nnn n ercxom ome uacro crponrcx raxnm opasom, uro ne ocran-
nxer nosmoxnocrn noxnnennx axrnnnocrn y peenxa-nspocnte
nce enamr sa nero camn.
na cnenornyxonemtx mantunxa naxonnnct no namnm na-
nmennem eme o orxptrnx cnennantno mxont n aropcxe.
ocnnrtnannct onn n cemte. 3rn ern tnn na nonnom ocnyxn-
nannn y marepn n orna. opmnnn nx c noxeuxn, nocnnn na pyxax,
oenann n pasenann, ncxnmuax ncxxym axrnnnocrt c nx cropont.
ern nn na mnnyry ne mornn paccrartcx c ocnyxnnammnmn nx
nspocntmn. nn axe corpertcx camocroxrentno ne mornn n tnn
axan 812
no cyrn ena npnarxamn nspocnoro uenonexa, ne nmemmnmn nn-
xaxo camocroxrentnocrn.
asanoct t, uro n +rnx cnyuaxx norpenocrt n omennn ouent
nennxa n nmecre c rem raxona, uro ne rontxo ne cnococrnyer pas-
nnrnm exrentnocrn omennx, a ropmosnr ee. nx pasnnrnx co-
crnenno norpenocrn n omennn neoxonm nexoropt orptn
exrentnocrn omennx or exrentnocrn no ocnyxnnannm pe-
enxa, neoxonmo ]opmnponanne axrnnnocrn peenxa, r. e. camo-
ocnyxnnanne, uro n cosaer ycnonnx nx ]opmnponannx cpecrn
omennx. ontxo raxnm nyrem omenne nepepacraer cnom nep-
nonauantnym ]ynxnnm n ]opmnpyercx n camocroxrentnym ex-
rentnocrt, nopoxax cocrnennym norpenocrt, a norpenocrt
cosaer cpecrna ee yonnernopennx.
axnm opasom nosnnxamr n pasnnnamrcx camte nepnte cpe-
crna omennx n nponecce oyuennx n pasnnrnx cnenornyxonemoro
peenxa?
pn ocnyxnnannn cnenornyxonemoro nspocntm peenox no-
crenenno naunnaer nomorart nspocnomy: xora nspocnt ero oe-
naer nnn pasenaer, peenox, nanpnmep, nonnmaer noxxy npn
oenannn uynxa, nonnmaer pyxn, xora c nero cnnmamr pyamxy,
n r. . eoxonmo, xax yxe ronopnnoct, ne nponycrnrt noxnne-
nnx +ro nepno axrnnnocrn, samernrt ee, nocrapartcx ne yracnrt,
a, naoopor, ncxuecxn crnmynnponart.
3ra nepnonauantnax n mnnnmantnax axrnnnocrt ncxope nepe-
pacraer n cneymmym ouent naxnym crynent ee pasnnrnx, xoro-
pax xapaxrepnsyer naxnt +ran pasnnrnx omennx: npn oyuennn
nantxam camoocnyxnnannx nosnnxaer xax t nepnoe pasenenne
rpya-nspocnt naunnaer xaxoe-ro ecrnne, a peenox ero
npoonxaer, nspocnt naenaer uynxn na crynnm, a peenox na-
rxrnnaer nx antme. a +rom +rane eme ner cnennantntx cpecrn
omennx. yr noxa cpecrnom omennx cnyxnr nauano npaxrnue-
cxoro ecrnnx nspocnoro. o +ro yxe ne npocro ecrnne, ono
(nepnee, ero nauano) ne rontxo ocnyxnnaer peenxa, no n ntnon-
nxer cnennantnym, ocoym ]ynxnnm: xnnxercx cnrnanom x camo-
croxrentnomy ecrnnm peenxa, r. e. ocnyxnnaer ]ynxnnm o-
mennx. or +rn nauantnte nnxennx nspocnoro npn ocnyxnna-
nnn peenxa n xnnxmrcx nepntmn cnrnanamn, noyxammnmn
peenxa x axrnnnomy ecrnonannm. 3ro n ecrt nepnt xstx~.
or xax oyuanact ncranart na norn ns nonoxennx cnx cneno-
rnyxonemax yuennna. spocnt nomeman cnon pyxn no mtmxn
enouxn n naunnan ee nonnmart. epnoe npemx axrnnnocrt pe-
enxa orcyrcrnonana. onxrne rynonnma ocymecrnnxnoct ycn-
nnem nspocnoro npn nonno naccnnnocrn peenxa. pn nonrope-
nnn +roro ecrnnx nspocnt namepenno nocrenenno samenxn
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cnon nnxennx, ocnanxn ycnnnx. oem nce ontme n ontme
ocymecrnnxncx ycnnnxmn peenxa. naxonen, nspocnomy ocra-
rouno tno nomecrnrt cnon pyxn no mtmxn peenxa, xax pee-
nox naunnan nonnmartcx na norn.
nx pasnnrnx peenxa sect nponcxonr cotrne neotua-
no naxnocrn. npeenennoe npnxocnonenne nspocnoro crano-
nnrcx cnrnanom x axrnnnomy ecrnnm peenxa. axnm nyrem nos-
nnxaer n ]opmnpyercx cnrnantnocrt noneennx, roro noneennx,
xoropoe ocymecrnnxercx n orner na xecr pyroro uenonexa. o-
onte nepnte cnrnantnte npnxocnonennx n xnnxmrcx nepntmn
cpecrnamn omennx, nepntmn npnxasamn~ nspocnoro, nocnpn-
nnmaemtmn n ncnonnxemtmn cnenornyxonemtm peenxom. a
+ro ocnone nosnnxaer nosmoxnocrt saart peenxy nepnte cne-
nnantnte cpecrna omennx. mn xnnxmrcx xecrt, oosnauam-
mne npemert n ecrnnx c nnmn. ax onn nosnnxamr?
exrentnocrn no yonnernopennm cnonx ecrecrnenntx no-
rpenocre peenox nontsyercx ontmnm xonnuecrnom npeme-
ron. nnaenax nmn, on nx nosnaer, omyntnaer. epnte xecrt n
xnnxmrcx nsopaxennem ecrnn c +rnmn npemeramn nnn no-
nropennem npemerntx ecrnn n orcyrcrnne camnx npemeron.
axnm opasom, n nepnom nepnoe pasnnrnx cpecrn omennx
xecrt-+ro nenocpecrnennoe nsopaxenne npemeron n ecr-
nn. ecrt xnnxmrcx nepntm xstxom cnenornyxonemoro peenxa,
conepmenno neoxonmtm emy n omennn c oxpyxammnmn
nmtmn. ecrt amr nosmoxnocrt c]opmnponart y peenxa
npaxrnuecxoe nonnmanne roro, uro nce npemert nmemr nasna-
nnx. +ro yer ocoenno nyxno npn oyuennn ero cnonecnomy
xstxy. ecrt n ornnune or cnona narnxno, spnmo~ orpaxamr
npemer nnn oosnauaemoe ecrnne. nxst xecra c npemerom
oruernnna n ouennna nx peenxa, no xecr pncyer npemer
nnn nsopaxaer ero ]ynxnnm. ecr cnxsan c oosnauaemtm
xonxperntm npemerom rax, xax ne moxer trt c nnm cnxsano nn
ono cnono. nmecre c rem xecr-+ro ne nenocpecrnennt
opas npemera, a ero samennrent, nepnee, ero cnrnan, ntnonnxm-
mn ocoym ]ynxnnm oosnauennx nx nene omennx.
axno yxcnnrt, uro xecr cnxsan c opasom npemera, rax xax ero
oropaxaer, n ornnuen or nenocpecrnennoro opasa, rax xax
ero oosnauaer.
axnm opasom, xecr-+ro nepnoe, noxa eme narnxnoe n na
nepntx nopax enncrnenno ocrynnoe nonnmannm cnenornyxone-
moro peenxa, oosnauenne, na ocnone xoroporo moxno ]op-
mnponart cneymmym crynent yxe nonxrnnoro oosnauennx-
cnono.
norpenenne nocnnrarenem n ncemn nmtmn, oxpyxammnmn
cnenornyxonemoro peenxa, xecron n omennn c nnm, nonnmanne
xecron peenxom n cnxsn c cnryarnnntm nx ynorpenennem n. na-
xonen, axrnnnoe ncnontsonanne xecron peenxom n nponecce o-
mennx-raxon nyrt ycnoennx xecron.
+rom nepnoe pasnnrnx peenxa napxy c xecrnxynxropno
peutm orpomnoe snauenne nx peenxa nmeer nenxa. nenorny-
xonemo peenox oyuaercx nennrt ns nnacrnnnna nosnannte nm
npemert oxpyxammero mnpa. nenxe on moxer mnpoxo n no-
pono paccxasart~ o cnoem nnyrpennem mnpe, o opasax npe-
meron, o nx nasnauennn n ]ynxnnxx. Fnaroapx nenxe mt cynm
o aexnarnocrn opason, nmemmnxcx y peenxa, oxpyxammnm
ero npemeram.
osnnxnonenne exrentnocrn omennx, ]opmnponanne nepntx
cnennantntx cpecrn omennx-xecron-xnnxercx nropo saa-
ue oyuennx, oecneunnamme ncnxnuecxoe pasnnrne cnenorny-
xonemoro peenxa.
neymmn naxnemn +ran pasnnrnx exrentnocrn ome-
nnx-]opmnponanne y cnenornyxonemoro peenxa cnonecno
peun.
nonecnax peut ]opmnpyercx n axrnntno (nantneno) ]op-
me. axrnntnax cnonecnax peut cxnatnaercx xax nacrpoxa na
xecrono ]opmo omennx, nosnnxaer nnyrpn xecronoro ome-
nnx xax napnanr xecrono peun n nnmt n antnemem pasnnnaercx
n camocroxrentnym n omnnnpymmym ]opmy peun, ntrecnxx xe-
crt. cymecrnnxercx +ror nepexo x. cnonecno peun raxnm ny-
rem. ecrt, oosnauammne xopomo snaxomte n uacro ncrpeuae-
mte n try npemert, samenxmrcx axrnntntmn cnonamn. nx
peenxa +rn nonte oosnauennx xnnxmrcx nce remn xe xecramn,
rontxo nono, neotuno xon]nrypannn. ecrom emy noxast-
naercx, uro annt npemer moxno oosnauart no-pyromy.
antnemem peenox oosnauaer npemer noxasanntm emy no-
ntm nx nero xecrom, axe n ne noospenax, uro yxe nnaeer
cocrannenntm ns yxn cnonom, rax xe xax n otunt (spxuecnt-
mamn) peenox, nayunnmnct ronopnrt nepnte cnona, ne snaer,
uro on ronopnr noyxnenntmn cnonamn.
axnm opasom, oyuenne cnonecnomy xstxy naunnaercx ne c
orentntx yxn n axe ne c orentntx cnon, a co cnon, nxnmuen-
ntx n cncremy cnxsnoro cmtcnonoro rexcra~. mtcnontm xon-
rexcrom nepntx cnon xnnxercx xecronax ]pasa. epnte axrnnt-
nte cnona nxnmuent n paccxas, ocymecrnnxemt cpecrnamn mn-
mnxo-xecrnxynxropno peun. yr cnona ntcrynamr n ponn xecron.
nmt nocne ycnoennx necxontxnx ecxrxon cnon, oosnauam-
mnx xonxpernte npemert, peenxy amrcx orentnte axrnnt-
nte yxnt, xoroptmn npaxrnuecxn on yxe nnaeer. n nx ocnan-
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naer sa necxontxo yuentx uacon. ocne ycnoennx axrnntnoro an-
]annra peenxy moxno art nmoe cnono, coornecx ero c coor-
nercrnymmnmn xecramn n npemeramn.
nponecce ycnoennx axrnntnoro an]annra yuamncx .oy-
uaercx xax nocnponsnonrt xaxym nantnenym xon]nrypannm,
rax n cnoono cunrtnart~ ee c pyxn yunrenx. ,
ocne ycnoennx axrnntnoro an]annra peenxy aercx pent-
e]no-roueunoe (panencxoe) oosnauenne yxn.
axrnnnponanne n nocnpnxrne nantnentx yxn, rax xe xax n
.nocnpnxrne n nsopaxenne panencxnx yxn, y peenxa onxnt
trt esyxopnsnenntmn n conepmartcx es sarpynennx. nx co-
nepmencrnonannx n +rom nonpaercx cnennantnt cnonapt n na-
rpn ecxrxa cnon, oosnauammnx xopomo nsnecrnte peenxy
npemert n ecrnnx c nnmn. 3ror xe cnonapt n antnemem nc-
nontsyercx nx ycnoennx camoro naxnoro n cnonecnom xstxe-
rpammarnuecxoro crpox.
eoxonmo ormernrt, uro peenox oyuaercx npaxrnuecxomy
nnaennm rpammarnuecxnm crpoem, a ne rpammarnxe. +rom rax-
xe nonnax ananornx c rem, xax onnaenaer xstxom nopmantnt
spxuecntmamn peenox, xoropt n omxontnom nospacre npax-
rnuecxn onnaenaer rpammarnuecxnm crpoem, ne snax rpammarnxn.
. . oxonxncxn nncan: rentnte yxnt (an]annr), or-
entnte cnona, orentnte cnonocouerannx n axe orentnte
npenoxennx, xnnxxct xaxoe camo no cee neoremnemtm +ne-
menrom cnonecno peun, rem ne menee nn n xaxo crenenn nsonn-
ponanno ne xnnxmrcx marepnanom nx oyuennx cnenornyxone-
moro peenxa rpammarnuecxomy crpom cnonecno peun.
yuenne rpammarnuecxomy crpom peun naunnaercx ne c sa-
yunnannx orentntx cnon, cnonocouerann n npenoxenn, a cco-
crannennx rexcra n cocrannennx cncremt re x-
c r o n~.
excrt cnauana cocrannxmrcx ns npocrtx nepacnpocrpanenntx
npenoxenn, a sarem ns npocrtx pacnpocrpanenntx npeno-
xenn.
nona n cnonocouerannx, nce rpammarnuecxne crpyxrypt n
cnxsnom nornuecxom rexcre, paccxastnammem o cotrnn, nsnecr-
nom peenxy, nerxo ycnannamrcx nm, naxnatnaxct na c]opmnpo-
nannym panee cncremy opasnoro orpaxennx +roro cotrnx. pn
+rom crporo conmaercx ycnonne, urot xaxomy nonomy cnony,
xaxo nono rpammarnuecxo crpyxrype coornercrnonano neno-
. . oxonxncxn, cnoenne cnenornyxonemtmn rpammarnuecxoro
crpox cnonecno peun. oxnat u~, 1959, N 1.
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cpecrnennoe opasnoe snanne roro, uro oosnauaercx +rnm cno-
nom nnn rpammarnuecxo ]opmo.
nx ycnoennx cnonecnoro xstxa cnenornyxonemtmn yuamn-
mncx . . oxonxncxn npenoxnn rax nastnaemym cncremy na-
pannentntx rexcron: yuentx, anaemtx yunrenem, n cnonran-
ntx~, camocroxrentno counnxemtx yuamnmcx. yuente rexcrt
nocrenenno nnoxrcx nonte cnona n nonte rpammarnuecxne ]op-
mt. ounnxx xe cno rexcr, onnctnax snaxomoe emy cotrne, yua-
mncx ncnontsyer annte n yuenom rexcre cnona n rpammarnue-
cxne ]opmt n yxe na cnoem~ marepnane ycnannaer nx.
cnoenne cnonecnoro xstxa aer nosmoxnocrt npncrynnrt x
oyuennm cnenornyxonemoro peenxa mxontntm npemeram.
o npemx mxontnoro oyuennx npn nenocpecrnennom ome-
nnn neyme ]opmo nocnpnnnmaemo peun xnnxercx axrnnt-
nax peut, ocnponsnonmax yuennxom peut moxer trt xax ax-
rnntno, rax n ycrno, xoropo peenox cnennantno oyuaercx.
crnax peut onee tcrpax, ona moxer snaunrentno ycxopnrt
nponecc onnaennx mxontntmn snannxmn, ycxopxx camo ome-
nne. o ona, x coxanennm, ne ncera tnaer ocrarouno nnxrno.
axrnntnax xe peut, xorx n onee menennax no cpannennm c
ycrno, aconmrno nnxrnax~.
neyer nouepxnyrt ocoenno ontmoe snauenne nnctmen-
no peun n panencxo ]opme. na aer nosmoxnocrt sa]nx-
cnponart mtcnt, nepnyrtcx x ne, ncnpannrt ee. nnctmenno
peun ne rontxo ]nxcnpyercx, no n ]opmnpyercx mtcnt. cnpan-
nenne sanncanno peun-onn ns naxnemnx nyre ycnoennx
xstxa.
nctmennax peut aer nosmoxnocrt npnomennx cnenornyxo-
nemoro x urennm n x ycnoennm snann ns xnnr. yr nosnnxaer nos-
moxnocrt camooyuennx, xnnxmmerocx ocoenno naxntm cnoco-
om pasnnrnx cnenornyxonemtx.
o nce nepnot xax omxontnoro, rax n mxontnoro oyuennx
cnenornyxonemtx cncremarnuecxn pasnnnaercx xnnoe, nenocpe-
crnennoe omenne nnny nocroxnnoro, neyronnmoro pasronop-
noro~ ronoa cnenornyxonemoro.
eopernuecxym rpammarnxy-uacrn peun, unent npenoxe-
nnx-yuamnecx naunnamr nsyuart rontxo nocne npaxrnuecxoro
ycnoennx cnonecnoro xstxa.
axont ocnonnte nonoxennx cncremt oyuennx cnenornyxo-
nemtx ere. epnoe n rnannemee nonoxenne cnxsano c nonn-
mannem +rana nepnonauantnoro ouenoneunnannx~ xax nepnoa,
n xoropom nponcxonr onnaenne npemerno-npaxrnuecxnm none-
ennem n cosanne cncremt opason npemeron oxpyxammero
mnpa.
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ropoe naxnoe nonoxenne saxnmuaercx n rom, uro xstxonoe
omenne n cosnarentnoe orpaxenne npemernoro mnpa ]opmn-
pymrcx n npemerno-npaxrnuecxo exrentnocrn peenxa n nep-
nonauantno cnxsant c ]opmnponannem omennx npn nomomn
xecron, na ocnone xoroptx ycnannaercx peut c ee rpammarnue-
cxnm crpoem, orpaxammnm nornxy npemernoro mnpa.
nenornyxonemo peenox, oyuennt no opnconanno me-
ronxe, ynepenno nepemarnnaer aptep, nocrannennt nx nero
cnenornyxonemoro. prannuecxn ocranaxct cnenornyxnm, on o-
peraer ocryn xo ncem c]epam uenoneuecxoro nosnannx, +crernxn
n npancrnennocrn.
saxnmuenne xouercx nepnyrtcx x xapaxrepncrnxe anropa +ro
xnnrn. ennxa, xoneuno, sacnyra yunrenx . . xopoxoono
nana ]anactennua oxonxncxoro, no nennune ero sacnyrn nn n
xoe mepe ne ymanxer nonnra . . xopoxoono. na pao-
raer, xax yxe tno cxasano, crapmnm nayuntm corpynnxom n-
crnryra e]exronornn . na napanne co ncemn pyrnmn
nnxmnmn n cntmamnmn corpynnxamn neer, nnmer nayunte pa-
ort, orunrtnaercx o nnx na saceannxx uentx coneron. mt
xax-ro satnaem o rom, uro ncx xnsnt ntrn nanonnt-+ro no-
nnr. onnr, xoropt ona conepmaer xaxt ent n reuenne
mnornx ner.
uenonex, ymemmn ocrpo nocnpnnnmart oxpyxammym ecr-
nnrentnocrt, nennxn nncarent axcnm optxn nncan n onom ns
cnonx nncem . . xopoxoono: ...ncnomnnam ac xax cnmnon
+neprnn, xoropax ne moxer ne npoxnnrt cex axrnnno axe n ro-
ra, xora ona ]nsnuecxn orpannuena.
a ]one rpannosntx cotrn namnx ne ama nnunocrt nx
menx, nnreparopa-n rem camtm nemnoxxo ]anrasepa-npn-
operaer snauenne nmenno cnmnona noeonocno +neprnn ueno-
neuecxoro pasyma, nenneme +neprnn, cosanno npnpoo-
marepne - xax t nx camonosnannx~ .
ocneonarentnoe marepnanncrnuecxoe mnponosspenne, nt-
coxn neno-nonnrnuecxn yponent, orarcrno nnrepecon, nnre-
parypnt rananr, nonx n opocrt, neycrannoe crpemnenne x
rpyy, xnsnepaocrnocrt n onrnmnsm, ornpamenne xo ncxxo mnc-
rnxe, memancrny n otnarentmnne-nor xapaxrepnte ueprt
ntrn nanonnt xopoxoono xax nnunocrn name +noxn.
oxno nosannonart orarcrny rnopuecxo xnsnn . . xo-
.optxn. op. cou. n 30 romax, r. 30, crp. 335.
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poxoono. e xnnrn, crartn n crnxornopennx mnpoxo nsnecrnt no
mnornx crpanax mnpa. na axrnnno corpynnuaer n xypnanax nx
cnentx n rnyxnx. e xnsnt n exrentnocrt cnyxar noxnonnxm-
mnm npnmepom ne rontxo nx nme c neocrarxamn cnyxa n spe-
nnx, no n, xax noxastnamr mnorouncnennte nnctma x ne, nx spx-
unx n cntmamnx nme pasntx noxonenn.
or orptnxn ns nnctma ono enymxn ns nrn; noroyna-
xaemax ntra nanonna! a nxx x npounrana amy xnnry, mne
ouent saxorenoct am nanncart. 3ra xnnra nponsnena na menx or-
pomnoe nneuarnenne. ne x paccxasana cnonm ronapnmam. o
tnmn nearor cunraer, uro uenonexa raxoro, xax t, moxno na-
snart rennem. nuno x ymam, uro t renn, a ncx xnsnt n am
rpy-nonnr. t ncera yere nx menx npnmepom... ora
mne tno enxrt c nononnno mecxnen, x saonena nonnomnenn-
rom, uro npnneno menx x nocrenn na onrne rot. euac x oxon-
unna cpenmm mxony n... paoram, a ocentm nontramct cart
+xsament n rexnnxym.
...nora mne tnaer ouent rxxeno ono, rora x epy c
nonxn amy xnnry, unram, cmorpm na ame ]oro n xouy trt ra-
xo xe croxo, xax t. ora mne ouent xouercx nnert ac, x
naunnam meurart o noesxe n ocxny, o ncrpeue c amn, n rpycr-
nte mtcnn noxnamr menx...~
ntra nanonna neer nepenncxy ne rontxo c xnrenxmn o-
nercxoro omsa. nnmyr ns pasntx crpan mnpa. cnonx nnctmax
ntra nanonna ncera crpemnrcx ncennrt yx opocrn n onrn-
mnsma n cepna cnonx xoppecnonenron.
o ne rontxo nnctma n nynnxannn cnxstnamr ee c mnpoxo
omecrnenno xnsntm. ntra nanonna ouent xnno nnrepecyercx
nonpocamn mxontno n cryenuecxo xnsnn. na uacro ntcrynaer
nepe mxontnnxamn n cryenramn. nce ee ntcrynnennx nmemr
ontmoe nocnnrarentnoe snauenne. coenno ee nonnyer nonoxe-
nne ee coparten no cnenornyxore. 1963 r. n aropcxe no o-
cxno orxptro cnennantnoe yupexenne nx oyuennx cnenorny-
xonemtx ere. . . xopoxoona npnnnmaer axrnnnoe yuacrne
n nocnnrarentno paore +ro mxont.
no ns ocnonntx saau cnoe exrentnocrn ntra nanon-
na cunraer opty co nce eme nmemmnmncx xoe y xoro npepac-
cyxamn no nsrnxax na cnenornyxonemtx xax na neuntx~ nxn-
nennen n nnnannon.
pnpoa nnmnna ac rpex uyncrn ns nxrn, nocpecrnom xoro-
ptx mt nocnpnnnmaem n nonnmaem xnnennx npnpot,-nncan
. . xopoxoono axcnm optxn,-nayxa, ecrnyx na ocxsa-
nne, ono ns nxrn uyncrn, xax t nosnparnna am ornxroe y ac.
3ro ronopnr ononpemenno o neconepmencrne, o xaornsme cnn
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npnpot n cnne pasyma uenoneuecxoro, o ero ymennn ncnpannxrt
rpyte omnxn npnpot.
...ac ona cosana cymecrnom nx +xcnepnmenra, cosana xax
t namepenno nx roro, urot nayxa nccneonana ony ns ee
npecrynntx n rpytx omnox. asym nayxn uacrnuno ncnpannn
omnxy, no on eme ne n cnnax ynnuroxnrt camoe npecrynnenne,-
art am cnyx, spenne, peut. o rem, uro t ecrt, n rem, uro c
amn yxe cenano nayxo, t cnyxnre uenoneuecrny. 3ro-rax,
ntra nanonna,-n t nnpane +ro cnyxo ropnrtcx~.
penaraemax unrarenm xnnra-cnnerentcrno roro, uro +ra
cnyxa uenoneuecrny npoonxaercx.
. emepxxon
. optxn. op. cou. n 30 romax, r. 30, crp. 273.

ponnact nerom 1914 r. na xpanne n cene
Fenosepxe, pacnonoxonnom neanexo or epcona.
onrenn mon tnn ente xpecrtxne. ora
orna n 1914 r. yrnann na nony, mart ocranact enn-
crnenno paornnne n cemte, cocroxnme ns pa-
rten n cecrep moero orna n ontnoro eymxn. art
mnoro paorana - arpaunna y cnxmennnxa. o
ncxxym noroy, n ocennmm cnxxort n n snmnmm
cryxy, ona saonro o paccnera yxonna anexo sa
poxy, ocrannxx menx na noneuenne ontnoro e-
ymxn.
o xax nn rxxent tnn nepnte rot moe ma-
nentxo xnsnn, onn nce xe tnn monm sonortm
ercrnom~ o roro nx, xax x saonena. nyunnoct
+ro nerom 1919 r., xora mne ncnonnnnoct 5 ner.
no ce ent n moe namxrn coxpannnnct nexo-
ropte momenrt onesnn. ax, nanpnmep, x nomnm,
uro y menx tn cnntnt xap, mne uynnnct no-
xapt, ornennte emente coaxn, xoroptx x ox-
nact n or xoroptx crpemnnact yexart. omnm,
onaxt, xora x npnmna n cosnanne, mart nauana
nonrt menx uaem c apnxocontm napentem. ne
xasanoct, uro x ouent cnaa, ne xouy orxptnart
rnasa n no+romy nnuero ne nnxy. art, xoropax nce
npemx yxaxnnana sa mno (eymxa yxe ymep,
ocrantnte unent cemtn orennnnct or nac, n mt
c mareptm ocrannct nnoem), x ysnanana no npn-
xocnonennxm, ne orxptnax rnas. o na +ror pas mne
saxorenoct rnasamn ynnert, re cronr napente n
xaxoro ono nnera. orxptna rnasa,- rax mne xa-
sanoct, no ne ynnena, re cronr napente, n uem ono
n xaxoro ono nnera...
onena onro, +ro x xopomo nomnm, noromy
uro, xora nauana ntsopannnnart, ro samernna,
uro yxe xonono; n n camom ene, yxe nacrynnna
ocent. o ne ocent tna crpamna. rpamno tno
ro, uro yxe nn nx menx, nn nx marepn ne tno
yremennx - ocnenna x concem n nourn ornoxna...
n crpane tna paspyxa, mna rpaxancxax nona,
n, xoneuno, mart nnxya ne morna onpeennrt
menx. pana, ona enana, uro morna,- nosnna
menx x npauam n epcon, no xax rnasnte, rax n ymnte npaun
rontxo rnannn menx no ronone a couyncrnenno coneronann marepn
ne naart yxom.
ren ne npnesxan omo. art npoonxana sannmartcx xosx-
crnom, necno n nerom rpyxct n none n na oropoe, a ocentm n sn-
mo paorax no namy. tuno mart yxonna ns oma pano, n x,
npocnynmnct, yxe ne naxonna ee n xomnare; nosnpamanact ona
nosno neuepom, xora x yxe xpenxo cnana. axnm opasom, x tna
npeocrannena camo cee; snmnne nn npononna n xare, a nerom
nrpana n nanncannxe no ontmnm xycrom cnpenn.
ax nonnnxna rnyxora na mom ycrnym peut n na moe ymcrnen-
noe pasnnrne, o +rom x ne morna snart n ro npemx. oxno nnmt
npenonarart, uro nocroxnnoe onnouecrno, ecnomomnocrt n nourn
nonnax nsonnponannocrt or ncero oxpyxammero ne cnnmxom na-
ronpnxrcrnonann antnememy ymcrnennomy pasnnrnm, a raxxe
ynyumennm napymenno rnyxoro ycrno peun. raxnx npnnnsn-
rentno ycnonnxx npoxonna mox xnsnt o snmt xonna 1921- na-
uana 1922 r.
pyr mart saonena n ncxope concem cnerna n nocrent. ne
ouent rxxeno onnctnart +ror nepno moe xnsnn. ymana o rom,
urot xro-nnyt nsxn menx x cee, noromy uro mne - cneno n
nourn rnyxo cnao enouxe - yxaxnnart sa ontno mareptm
tno ne no cnny. uem morna x e ocoenno nomout? onena
mart, xax x ysnana norom, ryepxynesom. ononte rot rpaxan-
cxo nont ann cex nouyncrnonart, n n name Fenosepxe na-
uancx rono. necne y nac n xare ne tno nn ono xapro]ennnt,
nn ono xpynnnxn. am nomorann, npana, cocen, no +ro tna
raxax neperynxpnax nomomt, na xoropym ocoenno paccunrtnart
ne npnxonnoct. ocnaena oxonuarentno n ne morna yxe xonrt,
a mart ymnpana.
ax-ro x nam samna mox rerx. aprnna, xoropym ona ynnena,
o roro nopasnna ee, uro ona nemenenno ynecna menx x cee -
x tna yxe n nonycosnannn or ronoa. uepes necxontxo ne x
ysnana, uro mart ymepna...
centm 1922 r. epconcxn oren naponoro opasonannx na-
npannn menx n eccxym mxony cnentx ere, re x npotna o
1924 r. onan n mxony, x uepes nexoropoe npemx nonxna, uro ram
nce yuamnecx - cnente. a menx uacro xro-nnyt nartxancx,
menx ocmarpnnann pyxamn, cnpamnnann uro-ro. nunnact, mnoro
nnaxana n crpemnnact x spxunm nmxm. rapmne yuennnt, nocnn-
rarenn n nearorn crapannct ncxuecxn pasnnexart menx - nonnn
rynxrt, apnnn pasnnunte esenymxn, yct, nenrt, nacxann n
npoonann uemy-nnyt nayunrt. annmartcx co mno nnnnn-
yantno nnxro ne mor, a npncyrcrnonart mne n xnacce tno ecno-
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nesno, no x ne cntmana roro, uro ronopnn yunrent. pamaxct xo
mne, rpomxo xpnuann mne n npanoe yxo: na nenoe x ornoxna cpasy
xe nocne onesnn.
uepes ro nocne moero nocrynnennx n mxony x oxonuarentno
ornoxna n na npanoe yxo. enx xanenn, no nnuem ne mornn nomout.
npouem, menx nonnn x npauam, ntrannct neunrt, nomecrnnn n
ercxn canaropn, no nce +ro tno nanpacno. o nentm nxm x
npocnxnnana n cnantne n nonnom onnouecrne.
enx axe ne pann n ropo na nporynxn, noromy uro npn
oxonuarentno yrpare cnyxa y menx napymnnoct pannonecne n x
ne morna xonrt es nocroponne nomomn.
nn oeccxn npo]eccop, ysnan, uro n mxone naxonrcx cneno-
rnyxax enouxa, coomnn oo mne n aptxon npo]eccopy oxonxn-
cxomy, xoropt n ro npemx tn sanxr oprannsanne yupexennx
nx cnenornyxonemtx ere. nauane 1925 r. x tna ornpannena
n aptxoncxym xnnnnxy nx cnenornyxonemtx.
nepntx xe ne moero nocrynnennx n xnnnnxy cnenornyxo-
nemtx nx menx nauanact conepmenno nonax, neotunax xnsnt.
ro npemx n xnnnnxe tno yxe nxrt nocnnrannnxon. ac oxpy-
xnnn ontmo saoro, nopxxom, uncroro, x nam uyecno orno-
cnnnct paornnxn, n x ena nn omnyct, ecnn cxaxy, uro namn
nocnnrarenn, nearorn n cam . , oxonxncxn nmnnn nac ne
mentme, uem cnonx pontx ere.
ocne roro xax x ocnonnact c nono ocranonxo n npnntxna
x npannntnomy, oprannsonannomy opasy xnsnn, co mno nauann
sannmartcx. po]. oxonxncxn npncrynnn x noccranonnennm
moe ycrno peun, xoropax tna napymena nocne yrpart cnyxa.
pyt npo]eccopa ynenuannct ycnexom, n x cnona crana nnaert
ycrno peutm nourn nopmantno. oneuno, x ne morna cntmart
cex, ne morna no+romy snart, xax ronopm. o nce, xro co mno pas-
ronapnnan, exemnnyrno nonpannxnn menx, n mne nnxora ne pas-
pemann (a n renept ne paspemamr) nanpxrart ronoc n ronopnrt
rpomxo.
ocnnrtnaxct n oyuaxct n aptxoncxo xnnnnxe, x saxonunna
cpenee opasonanne n roronnnact x nocrynnennm n nys saouno na
nnreparypnt ]axyntrer n nx +roro eme n 1941 r. onxna tna
nepeexart n ocxny. anaenne ]amncron na nomemano
ocymecrnnennm monx namepenn.
31 nmnx 1944 r. x npntna n ocxny, re menx ncrpernnn
pystx, ncrpernn n mo yunrent . . oxonxncxn. enx oxpy-
xnnn nnnmannem n saoramn, ann nosmoxnocrt npoonxart yuey
n paorart. nacroxmee npemx x paoram n ncrnryre e]exrono-
rnn xaemnn nearornuecxnx nayx n onxnocrn crapmero nayu-
noro corpynnxa~

(mecro npencnonnx)
xouy xparxo paccxasart o rom, xax nosnnxna
mtcnt nanncart +ry xnnry.
cosnanne oxpyxammero noxnnnoct y menx no-
crenenno. npnnomnnam rxxente momenrt, xora
x ne morna ntpasnrt cnoero ornomennx x oxpyxam-
memy, ne morna ntpasnrt cnonx mtcne rax, xax
+roro rpeonano oxpyxammee. xoneuno, x ne
morna ncntrtnart roro nacnaxennx, xoropoe mne
ocrannxmr renept urenne xnnr n omenne c nmt-
mn. nauane x ne snana, xax nmn ntpaxamr cnoe
ornomenne x oxpyxammemy. cnom ouepet, xax
renept mne nsnecrno, n conpnxacanmnecx co mno
nmn crapannct nonxrt, uero x xouy, uro osnauamr
mon nontrxn norn n omenne c nnmn n nnemnnm
mnpom. ax nocrenenno n nosnnxna mtcnt o nsy-
uennn ocoennocre rex cpecrn, npn nomomn xoro-
ptx x crana omartcx c oxpyxamme menx ecr-
nnrentnocrtm.
auanoct nce, pasymeercx, n nepnym ouepet c
nocrenennoro snaxomcrna c nmtmn, nmemmnmn co
mno eno. nauane omenne co mno nopoxano
xon]nnxrt~, x omymana oxpyxammee, no ne no-
nnmana ero. nmt nocrenenno noxnnxnoct uro-ro
npoe norpenocrn snart, nonxrt, xenannx, urot
mne oxcnnnn ro, uro nponcxonr noxpyr menx.
ax, nanpnmep, saxonnn n yupexenne nocropon-
nne nmn; onn nnocnnn cno, nenpnntunt nx
menx sanax. mymax +ror sanax, x naunnana ec-
noxonrtcx, ornnexartcx, ecnn +ro cnyuanoct no
npemx sanxrn. earorn sameuann moe ecnoxo-
crno n nnauane ne ncera nonnmann, uro nponcxo-
nr co mno. nn rpeonann, urot x cnena cno-
xono, n x cnonm noneennem ntpaxana xenanne,
urot mne oxcnnnn, xro tn n uro enan. nn x
sameuana nepemeny n nacrpoennn nearoron, nocnn-
rarentnnn n noome y rex nnn, c xoroptmn x cncre-
marnuecxn ncrpeuanact n npnntuno ocranonxe n
otunoe, noncenennoe noneenne xoroptx x noc-
npnnnmana onontno esomnouno.
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cnn x sameuana, uro y roro nearora, xoropt n annt mo-
menr sannmaercx co mno, n noneennn uyncrnyercx uro-ro neotu-
noe, ne raxoe, x uemy x yxe npnntxna, ro +ro orpaxanoct n na
moem noneennn. uyncrnonana, uro xo mne n npnxacamrcx ne rax,
xax otuno, n sannmamrcx ne rax, xax ncera. nocnecrnnn x
ouent rouno pasnnuana nacrpoennx oxpyxammnx menx nme n sa-
meuana, uro ecnn uenonexy rpycrno, ro mon omymennx uenonexa
oxastnannct nntmn, uem re, xora emy tno neceno.
or rax, cnauana esoruerno, eccosnarentno naxonnxnnct
n moe namxrn ]axrt ncero roro, uro x nocnpnnnmana ns oxpyxam-
me menx ocranonxn. oneuno, +ro nnnoct nente rot. ora x
nocrenenno nauana xnrt cosnarentno xnsntm, x npocnna oxc-
nxrt mne nce ro, uro x omymana, no ne n cnnax tna nonxrt es
nocroponne nomomn.
e xaxt uenonex nonnman menx npannntno, nepexo ncron-
xontnax moe noneenne xax npocroe nmontrcrno n nasonnnocrt.
nepexnnana +ro xax cnoeopasnt xon]nnxr~, no nce c ont-
me n ontme nacrounnocrtm crpemnnact osnaxomnrtcx co ncem,
uro oxpyxaer menx, n nonxrt ero.
pnnomnnam raxo cnyua. a onom ypoxe x samernna, uro
mox yunrentnnna uem-ro paccrpoena. ne ocranact esyuacrno,
n ee nacrpoenne nepeanoct mne. , xax morna, crapanact nepeart
e cnoe couyncrnne n ouent xorena, urot ona paccxasana mne cnoe
cocroxnne. o ona mne nnuero ne oxcnnna. ora mt xonunnn
sannmartcx, xo mne noomen . . oxonxncxn. n nauan menx
paccnpamnnart, xax x ysnana, uro yunrentnnna tna paccrpoena.
xasanoct, uro yunrentnnna no-cnoemy ncronxonana moe yua-
crne. s ee oxcnennx nany ]anactennuy ntxonno, yro x
sannmanact nocroponnnm pasronopom~ na ypoxe. omnm, +ro on-
eno menx... axnx xon]nnxron tno nemano. o ne cronr nx npn-
nonrt, ocrarouno n onoro.
rax, nmn ne ncera menx nonnmann. x xorena nce ontme
n ontme snart o oxpyxammem n oo ncem paccnpamnnana. Ftn
rontxo onn uenonex, xoropt ncera nonnman menx npannntno n
ncera oxcnxn ro, uro menx cmymano, rpenoxnno, tno concem
nenonxrno. 3rnm uenonexom tn . . oxonxncxn. ora x na-
yunnact nncart, ro, urot nonyunrt ornert na nonnonanmne menx
nonpoct, x crana nx sannctnart n nepeanana emy. (ax x npn-
ntxna sannctnart cnon nocnpnxrnx oxpyxamme cpet.) nan
]anactennu ncxnmunrentno ceptesno ornocnncx x monm sanncxm,
nnnmarentno nx npounrtnan, rmarentno xpannn n ncxuecxn noom-
pxn mom nmosnarentnocrt. e cneyer ymart, uro mon sanncn
tnn n raxom nne, n xaxom renept nsant n xnnre. er! epno-
nauantno +rn sanncn mornn unrart rontxo re, xro co mno sann-
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mancx. o no mepe roro xax x onnaenana pasronopntm xstxom,
mon sanncn cranonnnnct nce xcnee n nonxrnee.
ora +rn sanncn paspocnnct n nenym oemncrym nanxy, ncran
nonpoc o nx nnreparypnom o]opmnennn, a norom n o nsannn or-
entno xnnro. oneuno, mnorne sanncannte ]axrt x nepeo]opm-
nxna lie 10-20 pas. et ono eno - omyrnrt, nocnpnnxrt,
ocmorpert~ pyxamn npemer, +ro ne rax cnoxno. opaso rpynee
onncart +ror npemer cnonmn cnonamn conepmenno rax, xax x ero
nocnpnnnmam, r. e. art opas +roro npemera. ora cnente n rny-
xonemte onnctnamr cnon omymennx, nocnpnxrnx, npecrannennx
xstxom spxunx, ro nao ncera nomnnrt, uro omymamr onn nntmn
opranamn uyncrn, xorx onnctnamr nx cnonamn spxunx n cntmamnx.
ora spxun uenonex nnnr nsann xopony, on ronopnr: nxxy
x na nee, a ona ptxax, ncx n entx nxrnax, y nee ontmne xpacn-
nte rnasa...~ ro xe xopone cneno yer ronopnrt remn xe cno-
namn, xax n spxun, no, ecnn on craner onnctnart nenocpecrnen-
nte omymennx n nocnpnxrnx, ro cxaxer: ocmorpen pyxamn +ry
xopony, y nee mepcrt rnaxax, mxrxax, x omynan ee norn, ronony,
namen na ronone pora, xoropte noxasannct mne na omynt raxnmn
rneptmn~.
uro moxer cxasart rnyxo uenonex o nrpe na poxne? ontxo
ono: epxan pyxn na xptmxe poxnx n omyman nnpannn roro,
uro cntmamne nastnamr snyxamn...~
nocnpnnnmana mnorne xnnennx. uem ontme x omanact
c nmtmn, uem ontme ysnanana xnsnt n npnpoy, conepmax nx
+roro +xcxypcnn n nanonee ocronpnmeuarentnte mecra, rem o-
raue n cnoxnee cranonnnnct mon nocnpnxrnx n npecrannennx o
nnemnem mnpe. cneonarentno, rem rpynee tno notcxart
nyxnte cnona nx xaxoro ]axra n orentnocrn. e comnenamct,
uro mnorne npnnonmte mnom n xnnre ]axrt nexoroptm nmxm
noxaxyrcx menountmn n neocrarouno xyoxecrnenno o]opmnen-
ntmn~.
naxo nycrt +rn nmn camn nonpoymr paccxasart o cee npan-
nno, orxponenno, xyoxecrnenno n nnreparypnom ornomennn. a-
npnmep, xax onn nyxann n remnom rnyoxom nonane, xya ne o-
nerann snyxn, ne ocrnrann conneunte nyun. 3rn nmn oxsarentno
cxaxyr: n remnore narxnyncx... omynan pyxo... omyrnn
sanax nnecenn...~ n r. n. axt nncarent, onnctnax cnonx repoen,
nx napyxnocrt, nx xnsnt, nx xapaxrept n r. ., nontsyercx cnonm
crnnem nsnoxennx. unrtnax +ro, x roxe crapanact nncart cnonm
nnnnnyantntm xstxom~, xora paorana na nacroxme xnnro.
o sa room pacmnpxnnct mon snannx: ooramancx mo nnre-
parypnt xstx. unrarent moxer nepnrt mne nnn ne nepnrt - +ro
ero nonx,- no snannxmn n nnreparypno peutm x oxsana urennm,
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urennm n eme pas urennm xnnr, n, n nepnym ouepet, xyoxecrnen-
no nnreparype. nacenne cnenoro, rnyxonemoro n ocoenno cneno-
rnyxonemoro - n urennn. ax nayunrt cnenornyxonemoro urennm n
nnctmy, o +rom nycrt paccxaxyr mon yunrenx, a x ronopm rontxo
o rom, uro ymam o urennn xax o enncrnennom cpecrne cnacennx
cnenornyxonemoro, cnenoro, rnyxonemoro. ora +ro nomyr re, xro
pyxononr oyuennem n nocnnrannem cnenornyxonemtx, cnentx n
rnyxonemtx, oyuenne +ro nnnercx nnepe ropaso ycnemnee, uem
renept.
cnn unrarent yer nnnmarentno unrart mom xnnry, on same-
rnr pasnnny n nsnoxennn ]axron nepntx pasenon n nocnennx.
nnra nanncana mno conepmenno camocroxrentno, no, nocrenenno
naxannnnax marepnan, ocoenno n nepnoe npemx, x nontsonanact
rexnnuecxo nomomtm nearoron, xora nocemana myse nnn conep-
mana noesxn. . " "
o npemx +xcxypcnn n mysen x ne morna ramnrt c coo pan-
nencxym mamnnxy, urot xparxo (nx nanomnnannx) ormeuart ro,
uro npnnnexano moe nnnmanne. nx +roro nmennct orentnte ootx-
nonennte rerpan y conponoxanmero menx spxuero uenonexa.
yxastnana, uro nyxno sannctnart, a oma x nce +ro nepenonna
panem. ne ocrarouno tno onoro xapaxrepnoro npnsnaxa cra-
ryn, xoropym x ocmarpnnana, urot n namxrn noccranonnrt ee ncm.
axnmn xparxnmn sanncxmn x nontsonanact nce npemx, xora
paorana na xnnro. mex no pyxo nanomnnammym sannct~,
x nentmn nouamn morna onnctnart camte pasnoopasnte ]axrt n
xnnennx.
paorana npenmymecrnenno no nouam noromy, uro noutm nn-
xro ne ecnoxonn menx, mtcnt cnoono nyntcnponana~ n nacro-
unno rpeonana nepenecennx ee na ymary.
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cxsanne
1. naxt pasa na nnn rpn saxptnann nepn n y]erno
xomnare n cronono. menx n raxne momenrt nonyuanoct crpannoe
. omymenne na xoxe nnna: mne xasanoct, uro n xomnare crano xax-ro
recno n ne concem yono ne rontxo nx xott, no axe nx nn-
xennx pyxn, xora x nonocnna uamxy c uaem xo pry. nx menx
+ro omymenne tno ouent nenpnxrno. npnntxna, uro nept ns
cronono n y]ernym xomnary ncera orxptra, n no nnxennm nos-
yxa n no omymennm ero na nonepxnocrn cnoero nnna x mna npxmo
n orxptrym nept, a npn saxptro nepn x cnopaunnana nemnoro
n cropony. aconmrno ne omymam cnera rnasamn, no ecnn x npo-
xoxy ro npocrpancrno, xoropoe ne sanxro nnxaxnmn npemeramn
ntme menx (nnn nxoxy n orxptrym nept), ro y menx na nonepx-
nocrn nnna raxoe omymenne, cnonno x naxoxyct no ecrnnem
cnera. nrepecno ro, uro +ro omymenne tnaer ne ncera onna-
xono: no npemx rononno onn nnn omero nesoponoro cocroxnnx,
a raxxe no npemx nepnnoro cocroxnnx n ycranocrn ono tnaer
nacrontxo cnatm, uro x ne ncera omymam cnoonoe npocrpan-
crno.
o npemx xopomero ]nsnuecxoro n yxonnoro cocroxnnx omyme-
nne oxpyxamme remneparypt, nnxennx nosyxa n cnoonoro
npocrpancrna ycnnnnaercx, n mne cnona xaxercx, uro x nemnoxxo
omymam cner, rontxo ne rnasamn, a nce nonepxnocrtm nnna.
2. nmnm mope ne rontxo noromy, uro uyncrnym ero sanax,
a eme n noromy, uro ono rax npnxrno ocnexaer moe reno, xora
x xynamct. ne ouent npannnoct, xax mopcxne nonnt c cnno po-
cann menx no nce cropont, ro ntnocnnn x epery, ro onxrt ynne-
xann n rnynny. ne ymem nnanart, no mne +ro nncxontxo ne me-
mano nacnaxartcx mopcxnm xynannem, ocoenno, xora mopc
tnano necnoxono; x cmeno mna n noy rontxo nx roro, urot
omymart ero mym ncem cnonm renom.
j 3. Ftn raxo cnyua. ano yrpom, xora x eme xpenxo cnana,
menx npnmna ynrt . . na nomna rnxo, n x ne nouyncrnonana
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ee maron. o x nouyncrnonana, xax nnxymncx nosyx or ee npn-
nnxennx xocnyncx nonepxnocrn moero nnna, n npexe, uem . .
ycnena noorn concem nnsxo, x yxe npocnynact or nnxennx
nosyxa n nporxnyna e nancrpeuy pyxy.
4. Ftnaer n rax, uro x nacrontxo cocpeorouyct na uem-nnyt,
uro ne cpasy nouyncrnym, xora xo mne noxoxr. o ecnn xo mne
nooyr .concem nnsxo n x +ro nnesanno nouyncrnym, x nsparn-
nam rax, xax yro t menx ornymnnn xpnxom nnn yapnnn. -
naxt x neuarana na mamnnxe n rax ynnexnact cnoe paoro, uro
ne cpasy nouyncrnonana, xora xo mne noomen X. o nnmt rontxo
nnxymncx nosyx xocnyncx moero nnna, x ncnyranno nspornyna
n axe noxpacnena or nonnennx.
5. naxt x unrana n xanne c u, pyr c ro cropont, re
naxonrcx nept, nnxenne nosyxa npomno no moe mee n nneuy.
nspornyna n nonepnynact n ry cropony. u. cxasana mne: 3ro
samen X.~.
6. cnn . . noxmer mne pyxy, soponaxct co mno, ro x nce-
ra ysnam ee ]nsnuecxoe cocroxnne. ax xe x ncera sameuam, xo-
ra ona tnaer uem-nnyt paccrpoena nnn neonontna. +ro uyn-
crnym no nnxennm ee nantnen, no nanpxxennomy cocroxnnm ee
pyxn, a raxxe n no coporannm. na uacro orneuaer mne, uro nnuem
ne paccrpoena, no x yxe nacrontxo xopomo nsyunna ee pyxy n nn-
xenne, uro ne nepm e. ymam, uro ecnn t x nnena rnasamn
n nsyunna nnno . ., ro x, nepoxrno, ne nyume t ysnanana no
ntpaxennm nnna ee ]nsnuecxoe n yxonnoe cocroxnne, uem ysnam
no eemtm neynonnmtm npnsnaxam nocpecrnom ocxsannx. naxt
ona co mno sannmanact, tna paccrpoena n uem-ro cnntno nsnon-
nonana. +ro samernna, xax rontxo ona nosnana menx sannmartcx,
no na mo nonpoc: uro c namn?~ - ona monuana. uepes uac ona
tna n conepmenno pyrom cocroxnnn, necenax n cnoxonax.
onxrt cnpocnna: uro c namn cnyunnoct nepe sanxrnxmn?~ -
nuero~.- o net nt tnn nsnonnonant~.- menx ronona
onena~,- cxasana ona nepemnrentno. ne nonepnna e.
7. o manememy coporannm xaxo-nnyt xnnxn nnn no ena
ynonnmomy nnxennm xort onoro nantna na pyxe y X. x ncera
ysnam, uro emy uro-nnyt ne nonpannnoct nnn on uem-ro neono-
nen. axxe nocpecrnom ocxsannx x ysnam, xora on tnaer o-
nonen.
8. e rontxo y xopomo mne snaxomtx, no axe y rex nme,
xoroptx x mano snam, x nce-raxn uacro ysnam nx nnoxoe ]nsnue-
cxoe nnn yxonnoe cocroxnne. menx ecrt ona snaxomax ., xo-
ropym x pexo nnxy. o npn ncrpeue c nem x n nepnte xe cexynt
ysnam, xora ona tnaer cnoxona n onontna n xora tnaer pac-
crpoena uem-nnyt, x y nee ceuac xe o +rom cnpamnnam, n ona
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c ynnnennem orneuaer: a, rt ne omnnact, x ecrnnrentno pac-
crpoena~ - n oxcnxer, uem paccrpoena.
9. ne mon pyxn uacrnuno samenxmr spenne n cnyx. o n norn
mon nrpamr n +rom cnyuae ne nocnenmm pont. ax, x nerxo uyn-
crnym manemee nonnxenne n noune, ecnn x ny no ynnne nnn n
napxe. or nouemy, nx no ynnne, x ysnam, xora noxoxy x xonny
rporyapa, re nyxno cxonrt na mocronym n, xora noxoxy x romy
necry, re nyxno nsorn na rporyap. axe n ome x uyncrnym, ecnn
non nemnoro nonnxaercx n xaxym-nnyt cropony. ora-ro y nac
pemonrnponann non n xomnare nrp. ora x nepnt pas npomnact
no xomnare nocne pemonra, x onpeennna, uro non cran nemnoro
noxar n ony cropony.
10. nomna nanepx n xanny, re x unram c acnnpanramn. o
mno nosoponancx H. n noan mne cryn. cena. unrart onxna
tna mne u., no nmecro nee xo mne noomna . . cpasy ysnana
ee no pyxe, no, rax xax ona nnuero ne ronopnna n epxana menx sa
pyxy, ro x noymana, uro ona c xem-nnyt pyrnm ronopnr. a-
xonen, mne yxe naoeno xart, xora saronopnr . ., n x cnpocnna
ee: uro nt xornre cxasart?~ . ,, xenax noenart cnom pyxy
no pyxy u., nepecnpocnna menenno: u-r-o?~ yr x nonxna,
uro ona xorena nponepnrt, ysnana nn x ee. noxpenue cxana ee
nantnt, nocne uero ona onxna tna cosnartcx, uro e ne yanoct
omanyrt menx cnoe myrxo.
11. ne cxasana . ., uro ona yxonr na copanne, a nmecro
nee yer . . ocne sanxrn x nerna oroxnyrt n ycnyna. no-
uyncrnonana, uro menx yxr, n eme no cne, no npnxocnonennm
x moemy nneuy, ysnana, uro menx ynna . . npocnynact n
cnpocnna: asne nt ne ymnn na copanne?~ - ce ymnn, a x
ocranact~,- orneuana . .
12. unrana c u. n xanne. ya samen X. n noomen xo mne
n nonoxnn cnom pyxy na moe nneuo. 3ro x~,- cxasan X.-
cpasy nouyncrnonana, uro +ro nt, xora nt nonoxnnn cnom pyxy
na moe nneuo~.- orneuana x.
13, npoxonna mnmo rene]ona, y xoroporo croxn xro-ro ns
xenmnn. ocranonnnact n npnxocnynact pyxo x ]nrype roro, xro
croxn. cpasy ysnana, uro +ro tna . . ne omnnact. oome,
x cpasy ysnam . . no nepnomy npnxocnonennm x ne n nmom
mecre ee rena.
14, ne cxasann, uro menx cnpamnnaer ona ns cnentx eny-
mex. xopomo snana +ry enymxy, nerxo yratnana ee nacrpoe-
nnx. ora x x ne ntmna, ona noptnncro cxnarnna menx sa pyxy
n rontxo ycnena cxasart: nx!~... nepenna: t nonyunna
nnctmo?~ - a. rxya rt snaemt?~ ne ornernna na ee nonpoc
n cnona cnpocnna: r . .?~ - a, or nero. ro ree o +rom
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cxasan?~ - ne nnxro ne ronopnn, no x no rnonm nnxennxm no-
uyncrnonana, uro y rex ecrt uro-ro paocrnoe, n noymana, uro rt,
nanepnoe, nonyunna nnctmo or . .~.
15. unrana c u. pyr x nouyncrnonana, xax no moe npano
mexe cxontsnyn nnxymncx nosyx. nonepnyna nnno n ry cro-
pony, orxya npomna crpyx nosyxa no moe mexe. u. cxasana:
3ro npomen mnmo crona H.~. menx tno raxoe nneuarnenne,
cnonno x ynnena, uro xro-ro npomen.
16. nornx ns cnonx snaxomtx x rax pexo nnxy, uro moxno
noymart, uro x conepmenno satnam ]opmy nx pyx. uacro cama
ne noospenam, uro x nomnm pyxn n nnxennx rex nme, xoroptx
x mano ncrpeuam, no npn ncrpeue c nnmn oxastnaercx, uro x nx
pyxn n nnxennx npexpacno nomnm. menx ecrt ona snaxomax
" xoropym x ouent mano snam. a nporxxennn 8 ner x ee nnena
ncero rpn nnn uertpe pasa. amn ncrpeun tnn xparxn, n cama
no cee . ne nponsnonna na menx ocoenno cnntnoro nneuarne-
nnx. ee anno ne nnena, n nor na neuepe n xpanncxom nncrn-
ryre +xcnepnmenrantno mennnnt, xora x npoxonna no xopn-
opy, xro-ro csan nonoxnn mne na nneun pyxn. ocranonnnact n
nsxna sa pyxy roro, xro noomen xo mne. cpasy ysnana, uro +ro
., xorx x conepmenno o ne satna n ne snana o rom, uro ona mo-
xer trt na neuepe.
17. ax xax mne unramr spxuym xnnry nocpecrnom axrnnono-
rnn, ro nx menx ouent naxno, urot y unrammero tna nonxax
n rnxax pyxa, conepmenno ne yromnennax pyro paoro. cnn
xe pyxa unrammero tnaer ycranax n ne rnxax n nnxennn nant-
nen, +ro cnntno orpaxaercx na moem nocnpnxrnn. tcrpo ycram.
craer y menx ne rontxo ronona, no n pyxa, xoropo x nocnpnnn-
mam urenne. coxanennm, ne nce mon urent +ro nonnmamr n uacro
onnnxmr menx n rom, uro mox pyxa cnnmxom rxxena nnn x nennn-
marentna x urennm. uent rpyno oxcnnrt nm raxoe xnnenne:
ecnn onn nponycxamr yxny n cnonax nnn enamr nnmnne nnxe-
nnx, mne npnxonrcx ocoenno cnntno nanpxrartcx n xpenue cxna-
rtnart nx nantnt. uem ontme nnmnnx nnxenn n nponycxae-
mtx yxn, rem cnntnee x yy saepxnnart nantnt unrammero.
cno, uro or raxoro nenopmantnoro urennx mox ronona n pyxa uepes
uac yxe orxastnamrcx nocnpnnnmart ro, uro mne unramr. uent
rpycrno tnaer, xora xro-nnyt ns unrammnx nnxax ne xouer
cornacnrtcx c rem, uro ne x nnoxo nocnpnnnmam, a onn nnoxo
unramr.
18. ora x tna no nopne nnonepon n mt nomnn no necrnnne,
x nouyncrnonana no noramn xonep. o ncex pyrnx xomnarax n
xopnopax x raxxe uyncrnonana xonep. ora mt samnn n san, x
nouyncrnonana, uro n +rom sane non mpamopnt.
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19. ne onn pas tna n ncrnryre +xcnepnmenrantno men-
nnnt, no+romy ero nomemenne mne yxe snaxomo. nn pas x rya
samna c X., no on mne nnuero ne cxasan o rom, uro mt saxonnn
n nncrnryr. ecmorpx na +ro, x, xax rontxo mt crann nxonrt
n nept, ysnana, uro mt npnmnn n nncrnryr. snana x noromy, uro
snam, xaxne ram nepn, xaxo non n xaxax necrnnna.
20. sannmanact na npnope c X., n, necmorpx na ro uro npn-
op ouent mymen, x nouyncrnonana utn-ro marn n naoparopnn.
cnpocnna y X.: ro sect?~ - ect . .~.
21. uacro spxune ynnnxmrcx, sauem x onpannxm nonoct nnn
nnarte. m n n ronony ne npnxonr, uro cnenornyxo moxer n on-
xen trt rax xe axxyparen, xax n spxune, n uro on npexpacno
snaer, xora y nero tnaer nenopxox n xocrmme. +rom ornome-
nnn ocxsanne cnenornyxoro nourn nennxom samenxer orcyrcrnym-
mee spenne. onxna cxasart, uro mt, cnenornyxne, ne rontxo sa-
meuaem nenopxox n cnoem xocrmme, no axe nenopxox n xocrmme
rex, xro nac oxpyxaer. anpnmep, x nomnm raxo cnyua. unrana
c . . ora x cenana nnxenne cnoono pyxo, ro cnyuano
npnxocnynact x mxe , . ne noxasanoct, uro mxa naera na-
-nsnanxy. nocmorpena nyume, n ecrnnrentno, mxa . . tna
nansnanxy.
- nac mxa naera nansnanxy.
- er.
- nor nocmorpnre - mnt nanepxy.
. . nocmorpena.
- a, npana.
- ax nt ee rax naenn?
- ncram pano, n xomnare remno, n x nnuero ne nnxy.
- pasne nt ne uyncrnyere na ocxsanne?
- er, ona onnaxona c oenx cropon.
- er, ne onnaxona. t nocmorpnre nyume, pasne nnxnxx
cropona noxoxa na nnnenym?
22. xopomo snam, xaxne n aptxone ynnnt, n yxe npnntxna
x nnm. o xora x noexana n nen, ro samernna, uro ram rporyapt
nnxe, uem n aptxone, n mne xasanoct, uro, xora snmo ynnnt
sanecent cnerom, cnentm n nene rpynee opnenrnponartcx npn
raxo nesnaunrentno nosntmennocrn rporyapon. eno n rom, uro,
xora cneno ner no ynnne, on sameuaer opory no nosntmenno-
crxm nnn no nonnxennxm. o ecnn rporyap nourn cnnnaercx c mo-
crono, cnenomy yxe rpynee sameuart opory. rax, uem pesue
orenen rporyap or mocrono, rem nyume cnenomy opnenrnponartcx.
nomnm, uro mne n nene tno rpyno ornnunrt rporyapt or
mocrono, necmorpx axe na ro, uro x xonna co spxunmn.
23. nnna ua. yxn y menx tnn sanxrt uamxo n xneom.
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o mne noomen X. n npnxocnyncx x moemy nneuy. cpasy ysnana
ero no npnxocnonennm.
24. naxt neuepom x orxya-ro nosnpamanact omo. o
mno mna . . ora mt samnn n nam xopnop, ram tno conep-
menno remno, n . . ne morna nrn. ect remno, xax n mornne,
x ne snam, xya mne nrn~. xopomo snana opory n xopnope n
crana necrn . . o ona mna yxacno nnoxo, nce npemx mapxana
oramn n ena pemanact cenart mar.
- a nt ne orect, x xe nac ney.
- ro rex snaer, xya rt menx saneemt?
- nac ney x nepn, a nt nesere na creny.
axonen, x oramnna . . x nepn n cama nosnonnna, rax xax
ona axe snonxa ne morna narn. axnx cnyuaen x ncntrana na
cee ouent mnoro. opo tnaer cmemno n xanxo sameuart, xax
spxune ecnomomnt n remnore, axe n rora, xora naxoxrcx
n xopomo snaxomo ocranonxe.
25. naxt x nponoxana . . o ee xnaprnpt, rax xax n ome
tno concem remno. ora mt crann noxonrt x romy mecry, re
naxonnnct crynentxn nnns, . .. xpenxo nsxna menx sa pyxy n
ouent ocropoxno nauana nrn.
- e orect, crynentxn eme ne rax nnsxo. nam cenam
snax, xora nyxno yer cnycxartcx... xe crynentxn,
x cenana . . ycnonnt snax (nnxenne pyxo nnns).
- naart ne xouy, a rnonx snaxon ne nonnmam,- cxa-
sana . .
- ax x xe nam snax enam n ronopm... y, yxe oxonunnnct
crynentxn, renept nnre cmeno.
26. o mno ronopnn X,, n npyr noryx cner. n, nepoxrno,
cxopo saropnrcx~,- cxasan X, n ymen. uepes necxontxo mnnyr x
nomna n cnantnm, re cronr na crone namnouxa. amnouxa tna
yxe ropxuax, n no+romy x ysnana, uro cner onxrt saxercx. ora
x cnpocnna exypnym, ecrt nn yxe cner, ona ornernna: a, ecrt~.
27. pasenanact n necrnmne, a xora mna n xomnart, ynn-
ena, uro xro-ro cronr nosne nepn n nantro. no nantro cpasy
ysnana, uro +ro . ., xorx +ro tn neotunt nx ee npn-
xoa uac.
28. ora x saonena pmmntm rn]om, ro necxontxo ne ne
nnena X., rax xax ero ne tno n orenennn. ror ent, xora X.
npnmen n orenenne, x uyncrnonana cex nnoxo. ne npnmnoct
enart nexoropoe ycnnne, urot nonnmart ro, uro mne ronopnnn.
o xora xo mne noomen X, n nsxn menx sa pyxy, x momenrantno
ysnana ero.
29. naxt, xora x tna n ecce na ortxe, paornnxn
roro nncrnryra, re x ocranannnnanact, nonpocnnn menx ocmorpert
xaxym-ro rnnconym rononxy n onpeennrt ee e]exrt. ocmorpena
n onapyxnna cneymmne e]exrt: npant rnas naxonncx cnnm-
xom anexo or nepenocnnt, a nent rnas tn pacnonoxen nnxe
npanoro. na mexa tna ontme pyro. mn raxxe tnn pacno-
noxent nenpannntno.
3ra rononxa tna nenennxa, n ee neocrarxn ne tnn ocoenno
pesxo ntpaxent, no nce-raxn x nx samernna cpasy, xax rontxo npo-
nena pyxo no rononxe. aornnxn nncrnryra npnmnn n nocropr
n pemnnn, uro x sannmamct ncxnmunrentno ono cxyntnrypo~.
nuno x ne naxonna nnuero ocoennoro n rom, uro pasnnuana e-
]exrt rnncono rononxn: net moe ocxsanne n +rom ornomennn
nrpano ry xe pont, uro n spenne y +rnx nme, npnnxnmnx menx sa
cxyntnropa~.
30. naxt n marasnne x ocmorpena crarym rannymme nt-
ranxn, epxame yen na ronono. pomno necxontxo ne nocne
roro, xax x ocmorpena +ry crarym ntranxn, n mne nce xasanoct, uro
ee crponax ]nrypa c nsxmntmn noxxamn rannyer n monx pyxax.
31. ax-ro x ocmarpnnana mcr nnnoxpara. ne ouent nonpa-
nnnoct ero rpeuecxoe npannntnoe, xpacnnoe nnno n xypn. cxa-
sana . " xoropax tna co mno: nero ouent xpacnnoe nnno
n npannntnax ]opma ronont~.- a, ouent xpacnnoe~,- orne-
rnna . .
32. nn pas x ocmarpnnana crarym epxyneca. n tn nsopa-
xen croxmnm. n npecran n moem noopaxennn xax xnno, c or-
pomntmn, cnntntmn n ynpyrnmn mycxynamn, c neotuano nonxo-
crtm cnnaua,
33. ora x ocmarpnnam crarym . . ennna, mne xaxercx, uro
x xora-ro nnena ero xnntm, rax xopomo x ero cee npecrannxm.
ora x orxoxy or ero craryn, on xax t npoonxaer croxrt nepeo
mno, sacynyn nenym pyxy n xapman, a npanym sanoxnn sa nnxax,
n yntaercx cnoe opo n nacxono yntxo.
34. ora-ro n marasnne x ocmarpnnana mcr . apxca, a xora
ero xynnnn n nocrannnn y nac n naoparopnn, x cpasy ysnana, uro
+ro mcr . apxca. . apxca raxo ymnt no, raxne ntmnte
xypn n ontmax opoa, uro, pas ynnen ero ronony, nnxora yxe
ne sayemt ero.
35. naxt x tna y cnoe snaxomo . . na npenoxnna
mne oc-morpert crarym, no ne cxasana utm. ora x npnxocnynact
x ronone craryn, x cpasy ysnana, uro +ro craryx ronapnma ennna.
36. tna no nopne nnonepon. am ouent mnoro nneron. ora
mt npoxonnn no onomy sany, x cnyuano sanennna pyxo sa nncr
onoro nnerxa. ne noxasanoct, uro +ror nnerox mne snaxom. oc-
ranonnnact, nponena pyxo no nncrtxm n cxasana: et +ro raxo
xe nnerox, xax y menx n xomnare?~ - a~,- ornernn X.
37. tna y cnoe snaxomo . . n nnena y nee xopomne
nnert. ouent nmnm nnert, n mne xorenoct, urot y nac tnn
raxne xe nnert. ax-ro pas x npnmna n nannym n ynnena, uro .
moer xaxne-ro nnert. nx ocmorpena - +ro tnn raxne xe nnert,
xaxne x nnena y cnoe snaxomo. nomna x . . n cnpocnna:
utn +ro nnert croxr y nac?~ - amn, nx rontxo uro xynnnn~.
38. ax-ro x noomna x apnn n samernna, uro e ynnnnnn
nnarte, xoropoe tno ouent xoporxo. crana paccmarpnnart, xax
ono nomnro, n onapyxnna, uro namerxa ne ntnyra. nosnana
. . n cnpocnna ee: ouemy ne ntnynn namerxy? na mano sa-
merna na rnas, a nce-raxn ntnyrt nao~.
39. ax-ro cnyuano x ynnena, uro x pyxany . . npncrann
xnente xpomxn. ouemy y nac na xanare xnente xpomxn?~ -
xe pexy xne~.- pasne nt ne nnnre, uro x xanary npn-
cramr xpomxn?~ - er~.
40. cnn mne npnxonrcx re-nnyt canrtcx: n namem nn
cay, n napxe nnn y xoro-nnyt ns snaxomtx, x, npexe uem cecrt,
nponey pyxo no romy mecry, re x onxna canrtcx. enam x +ro
nx roro, urot ne cecrt na ntntnym nnn moxpym cxamexy. -
naxt mt c . . conpannct unrart n namem cay. am croxnn
ne rayperxn. ocmorpena ry rayperxy, na xoropym onxna tna
cecrt,- ona tna uncro n cyxo. pyrym rayperxy x ne ocmor-
pena. . . npnmna n npecnoxono ycenact na nee, no momenrantno
xe ncrana. uro cnyunnoct?~ - cnpocnna x. ne samernna, uro
rayperxa moxpax, n cena, a renept y menx nce nnarte npo-
moxno~.
41. ynnena na . . nont xanar, xoropt ona nocnna yxe
necxontxo ne. am xanar carnnont?~-cxasana x. er~,-
ornernna . . nor nonpoyre na ocxsanne~. . . onro my-
nana n, naxonen, cxasana: a, carnnont, a x n ne snana~.
42. ora x unrana c . ., x cnyuano saena pyxo ee nory,
xoropym ona nocrannna na cryn; x samernna, uro n onom mecre
uynox . . pasopnan. nac pnercx uynox~.- er, x rontxo
nuepa nomronana +rn uynxn~.- nor x xe namna manentxym
tpouxy~. . . nocmorpena. a, ecrt tpouxa. ee ne nnena~.
43. noomna x crony n y]erno xomnare n omyrnna no no-
ramn uro-ro pacctnannoe. uro +ro pacctnano na nony?~ - cnpo-
cnna x y . .- 3ro pacctnana cont~.
44. nn pas mne cxasana . ., uro ona yer nouenart. e
cxasana, n xaxoe npemx menx pasynrt yrpom. o yrpom menx pas-
ynna ne . ., a . . orx x cnana ouent xpenxo, no x cpasy
ysnana, uro pasynna menx ne . ., a . . (no npnxocnonennm
x moemy nneuy).
45. cnena n cnoe xomnare c . pyr no nnxennm nosyxa
t
x nouyncrnonana, uro xro-ro nomen. ro npnmen?~ - pnmna
. u.~,- ornernna .
46. X. pan mom mamnnxy, urot cmasart, no npnnec mne ma-
mnnxy nrona nmecro moe. cena nncart, no, xora npnxocnynact
x mamnnxe, x ysnana, uro mamnnxa nrona, n cxasana o +rom X.-
yman, uro +ro rnox mamnnxa~.
47. rpom, xora x eme cnana, menx npnnxnnct ynrt. oxn-
ana, uro menx pasynr . ., no oxasanoct, uro ynna . .
cpasy ee ysnana (no npnxocnonennm), xorx +ro tno conepmenno
neoxnanno, rax xax . . nnxora eme n xnnnnxe ne nouenana n
ne onxna tna nouenart. o cnyunnoct rax, uro . . ne npnmna
n . . samenxna ee. o +rom ne snana, n rontxo xora . . pas-
ynna menx, ro cxasana mne, uro ona nouenana.
48. naxt yrpom x npocnynact sa necxontxo mnnyr nepe
rem, xora menx yxr. o mne noomna . . samernna, uro ona
uem-ro ouent paccrpoena, t uem-nnyt paccrpoent?~-cnpo-
cnna x. a, x ree norom cxaxy~.
49. o mne npnmna . na xorena cxptrt or menx, uro ona
n nnoxom nacrpoennn. o x +ro nouyncrnonana n nepnym xe mnnyry
n cxasana e:
- t ceuac nenosmoxno anarnuna n cxyuna. uro c roo?
- pasne samerno, uro y menx nnoxoe nacrpoenne?
- uent samerno.
- ymana, uro x ymem cxptnart cnoe nnoxoe nacrpoenne.
- er, ree +ro noxa ne yaercx.
50. naxt xo mne samna mox snaxomax . ora ona cnn-
mana nantro, ona ana mne cnom my]ry. cpasy samernna, uro
my]ra cenana ns xaxoro-ro crpannoro mexa, xoropt noxox na
ouent menxne neptx nrnnt. onro ocmarpnnana my]ry n nce
ontme yexanact, uro ona cenana ns mxypox xaxo-ro nrnnt.
cnpocnna y .: uem noxptra rnox my]ra?~ - opcxo
uaxo~.
51. unrana c u. o pyrym cropony sa cronom cnen H.
pyr x nouyncrnonana nnxenne nosyxa. nonepnynact nnnom
n ry cropony, orxya omyrnna nnxymncx nosyx. u. cxasana:
3ro H. unraer rasery n nepenopaunnaer na pyrym cropony~.
. 52. unrana c u" no ee nosnann na necxontxo mnnyr, a x ocra-
nact ona. osne menx na crone nexano necxontxo xnnr. nnrn
tnn nx spxunx, n x ne morna cama ysnart, uro +ro sa xnnrn. o
na nepennere ono ns nnx x onapyxnna xpyr, nocpenne xoroporo
naxonncx pente]nt noprper, x ocmorpena ero n nerxo onpee-
nnna, re naxonrcx nnno; rax xe nerxo namna rnasa, noc, por, no-
opoox, yxo. ora npnmna u., x cnpocnna ee:
- axax +ro xnnra?
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- 3ro amapxa unnoco]nx soonornn~.
- naunr, +ro noprper amapxa?
- a.
53. as x cnena n cnoe xomnare na nnane n mnna. pyr x
omyrnna nnxenne nosyxa, n n ro xe npemx X. cen na nnan. On
samen rnxo, n x ne uyncrnonana ero maron, no nce xe, xora x no-
uyncrnonana nnxenne nosyxa, x noymana, uro ner X.
54. onxna tna unrart c . ., no+romy roronnna cryntx.
ora x noomna x onomy cryny n npnnonxna ero, ro nouyncrno-
nana, uro on rxxenee pyrnx. npnxocnynact pyxo x cnentm
n ynnena ram ontmo nopr]ent. ne crana ocmarpnnart ero,
a rontxo cnerxa npnxocnynact x nemy n ysnana, uro +ro nopr]ent
. . ora xo mne noomna . ., x cnpocnna: pnmna
. .?~ - a~.
55. ne nyxen tn X. nomna n nnnorexy n nosnana ero.
X. noomen xo mne n cnpocnn rontxo: uro?~ o x cpasy nouyncr-
nonana, uro on n +ry mnnyry naxonncx n nepnnom cocroxnnn. ne
omnnact - nosxe mne X. oxcnnn, nouemy on tn nepnnt.
56. ora x tna n mysee, u. cxasan mne: or ona craryx,
ysnare ee camn~. tcrpo ocmorpena crarym n nocxnnxnyna:
et +ro enepa!~ - a~.
57. mysee x ocmarpnnana croxmne pxom ne craryn - a]nt
n nonnona. a]na npenpamaercx nocrenenno n nanponoe epeno.
a nantnax ee pyx yxe ntpocnn nanponte nncrouxn. yxn ee n
nne nerne npocreprt xnepxy n noxptrt nonocamn, xoropte cny-
cxamrcx c ronont a]nt. ourn o noxca ona opocna penecno
xopo; nnnsy, ns-no xopt nnnt norn a]nt. s nantnen nor nt-
pacramr xopnn. san, n rom mecre, re a]na yxe opocna xopo,
oxnartnaer ee pyxamn. or a]nt nonyorxptr, a ryt
nonnona xpenxo cxart.
58. mysee x ocmarpnnana crarym onoro pnmcxoro nonna. a
ronone y nero merannnuecxax xacxa, a na xacxe cnnr xaxoe-ro mn-
]nuecxoe xnnornoe c uertptmx nanamn, c xptntxmn n c nrnutnm
xnmnom. a ronone y +roro xnnornoro nmeercx rpeent, xax y na-
mero otxnonennoro neryxa. nocr xnnornoro ronxn, nsnnnam-
mncx, xax smex. exa pnmcxoro nonna npecrannxer cmect myx-
cxoro n xencxoro nnartx: nepxnxx uacrt oext nanomnnaer am-
cxym nysy c xoporxnmn pyxanamn, xoropte nnnsy oxanunnamrcx
xax t nerxo oopouxo. nxnxx uacrt oext cocronr ns myx-
cxnx pmx, na xoropte naera xoporxax mouxa.
59. ocmarpnnana neontmym crarym on-nxora. a nnne
y +roro ncem nsnecrnoro repox x onapyxnna ocrpym opoxy.
momenrantno ncnomnnna onncanne ns xnnr raxo opoxn n cxa-
sana: nero +cnantonxa. orx x nnxora ne nnena myxunn c o-
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pexo no +rnm nasnannem~.- menno, +cnantonxa~,- orne-
rnna u.
60. mysee x nnena crarym e]ncro]enx n namna ee nexpa-
cnno. oc y e]ncro]enx nnnnt n ropart, a opoa noxoxa
na ptn xnocr.
61. mysee x ocmorpena crarym onapra - mantunxom, u. cxa-
sana mne: snare, uro y nero n pyxax~. ocmorpena n cxasana:
nero n pyxe cxpnnxa~. ecrnnrentno, n neno pyxe onapr
epxan cxpnnxy, a n npano cmtuox. satna ]amnnnm anropa
+ro craryn, no ona mne ouent nonpannnact.
62, mysee x nnena mcr monnxa XIV. 3ror ]pannyscxn
xopont xopomo mne snaxom no pomany . mma; no xora x ocmor-
pena nnno monnxa, x onapyxnna, uro noc y xoponx yxacnt,
n noymana, uro noc ero ne nyume, uem tno napcrnonanne mo-
nnxa XIV. ocmarpnnana mnoro pyrnx cxyntnrypntx nponsne-
enn.
63. mysee mne noxastnann nast n xynmnnt ns nyumero ]ap-
]opa. 3rn nemn mne ouent nonpannnnct, rax xax tnn cenant
ouent ncxycno. nexoroptx nasax croxnn ]ap]oponte xe nnert,
a xynmnnt tnn yxpament nnoamn: cnnnamn, rpymamn, xno-
xamn n xamranamn. ora x nauana ocmarpnnart nepnt xynmnn,
ro cpasy cxasana: ect nsopaxent cnnnt, a +ro xnoxn~.
64. ocmarpnnana croxmne pxom rpn craryn: xenmnnt, myx-
unnt n amypa. raryn tnn manentxne, no, necmorpx na +ro, x or-
nnunna craryn xenmnnt, myxunnt n amypa. rarym xenmnnt x
ysnana no npnuecxe na ronone n no ]nrype. rarym myxunnt rax-
xe no ronone n no ]nrype, a amypa - no ero xptntmxam, ns xoro-
ptx ono tno orcranneno n cropony, a pyroe cnoxeno na cnnne.
65. mysee x nnena cenannoe ns ponst manentxoe xpecno,
n xoropom cnenn na peenxa. nn peenox - enouxa; ona tna
ontme pyroro, n na ne tna nsopaxena pyameuxa; pyro pe-
enox - mantunx nomentme n concem ront.
66. ax-ro mne nyxna tna . ., no ona tna n +ro npemx na
saceannn. ee ntsnana n xannenxpnm. na ntmna, n, xora na-
uana ronopnrt co mno, x no ee nnxennxm samernna, uro ona n +ry
mnnyry ouent cepnnact.
67. sannmanact c . . ne xasanoct, uro . . n nnoxom na-
crpoennn. onro ne pemanact cnpocnrt ee o +rom, no, naxonen,
ne ntepxana n cnpocnna:
- uem nt neonontnt?
- ouemy rt rax ymaemt?
- ne xaxercx, uro nt uem-ro paccrpoent.
- er, y menx ceronx ouent xopomee nacrpoenne,
- o +ro ne snaunr, uro y nac n nnxennx xopomne.
uro ona ecrnnrentno
ocne +rnx cnon . . oxcnnna mne,
tna neonontna.
68. ax-ro x noomna x . . n uro-ro cnpocnna y nee. na mne
cxasana rontxo ono cnono, no x e samernna, uro ona tna cepn-
rax. cnpocnna: ouemy xe nt cepnrect?~ - oromy uro ern
cnntno manxr~.
69. ax-ro x xonna n napnxmaxepcxym nocrpnut nonoct.
ora x nepnynact omo n nomna ymtnartcx, ro samernna, uro
menx nocrpnrnn nnoxo, ouent neponno.
70. unrana c u. ontme uaca n samernna, uro ona yxe ycrana.
e npenoxnna oroxnyrt.
- moxer trt, nounraer H., noxa nt oroxnere,- cxa-
sana x.
- n nnoxo cex uyncrnyer,- orneuana u.
- n, xaxercx, n nuepa nnoxo cex uyncrnonan?
- ouemy nt rax ymaere?
- ora on unran co mno, mne noxasanoct, uro y nero nnoxoe
nacrpoenne.
u. ornernna:
- H. ronopnr, uro nt ne omnnnct, y nero nuepa ecrnnrentno
tno nnoxoe nacrpoenne.
71. tuno, npexe uem cnxrt nnarte, xora x noxyct cnart,
x ero unmy merxo. eronx x roxe ntmna n necrnmnt n nauana
uncrnrt nnarte. o mne xro-ro noomen. o npnxocnonennm x cpasy
ysnana, uro +ro tn X.
72. naxt tn raxo manentxn +nnso: nocne neuepnero
uax x nomna n y]ernym xomnary, urot nannrt ns uannxa ren-
no not n xpyxxy. +rn uact paorann . . n . ., no xo mne
noomna . . n cxasana axrnnonorne: ~.
ora x nonxna, n uem eno: . " npnx n xnnnnxy no cnoemy
eny, xorena nponepnrt menx, ysnam nn x cen-ro npemx, xora ona
ne paoraer. tuno raxne myrxn~ n nponepxn~ nosmymamr
menx, no+romy x cxasana c paspaxennem:
- ouemy xe nt ne orneuaere mne na nonpoc?
- axax rt cepnrax,- cxasana . .
- enx paspaxaer ro, uro nt xornre, urot x nac npnnxna
sa . . nnn sa . .
. . oromna or menx n ontme nnuero ne cxasana. a cneym-
mn ent nepe yrpennnm uaem x cnena n cronono na nnane n
unrana xnnry. . . noomna xo mne n nmecro roro, urot cxasart
axrnnonorne, uro moxno canrtcx nnrt ua, pesxo noxnonana
menx no nneuy. monua ncrana n cena sa cron. ocne uax x
cnpocnna:
- . ., sauem nt rax pesxo xnonaere no nneuy?
- rex snana nnrt ua.
73. ne nyxno tno ntrn ns y]erno xomnart n necrnmnt.
o n nepxx x ncrpernnact c " xoropt nsxn menx sa pyxy. r
neoxnannocrn x nspornyna, n ry xe cexyny ysnana, uro +ro X.,
n yntnynact. 3ro nponsomno rax tcrpo, uro x axe ne snam, sa-
mernn nn X., uro x nspornyna.
74. xonna n nnnorexy ennennx cnentx~ sa xnnramn.
enx conponoxana . . nnnorexe xro-ro noomen xo mne n
noxan mne pyxy. yxa noomemero xo mne uenonexa noxasanact
ouent snaxomo, no x nnxax ne morna cpasy ncnomnnrt, utx xe +ro
pyxa, n cnpocnna y . .: ro +ro?~
- ero ne snam,- orneuana . .
uenonex, epxanmn menx sa pyxy, eme pas noxan mne pyxy.
npyr ysnana, xro +ro, n, cmexct, cxasana:
- rex ne ysnana, xorx uyncrnym, uro xro-ro ouent sna-
xomt.
3ro tn . n cxasan axrnnonorne:
- 3ro or neoxnannocrn.
- a, x ne ymana, uro rt sect.
75. xonna n ennenne cnentx~. ora mt mnn no necr-
nnne, x nouyncrnonana, uro necrnnna epenxnnax. cxasana o
+rom . . na nornepnna cxasannoe mnom.
76. mna no ropoy c . . am nyxno tno nporn uepes
mocr. eno tno n xnnape, xora pexa tna noxptra ntom, no-
+romy x ne morna omymart sanax pexn, xax +ro tnaer otuno
nerom. o, xora mt nauann nepexonrt mocr, x +ro samernna, rax
xax nouyncrnonana no noramn ocxn. ocr xonunncx, x +ro raxxe
samernna n cxasana . .: t yxe npomnn uepes mocr~.
77. unrana c . . pyr ona ncrana n xya-ro ymna. uepes
mnnyry ona nepnynact, nsxna menx sa pyxy n nponena em no cnnnxe
xaxoro-ro xnnornoro, xoropoe ona epxana n pyxax. nauana x
noymana, uro +ro xomxa, no xora ocmorpena ronony n ynnena
nnnnte ymn, ro ynnnenno nocxnnxnyna: ponnx!~ ne omn-
nact. 3ro tn ecrnnrentno xponnx. nnena xponnxon ouent
anno, a o rom, uro tn xponnx y nac n xomnare, x conepmenno ne
snana. or nouemy x rax ynnnnact, xora no ymam ysnana xpo-
nnxa.
LO,
78. xonna n unsnorepanenrnuecxn nncrnryr. ora mt na-
,uann nrn no necrnnne, x momenrantno nouyncrnonana, uro na necr-
nnne nexnr xonep.
79. naxt x nnxax ne morna narn nnarouex. nonpocnna
xoro-ro ns exypntx narn ero. exypnax nepecmorpena ncm xom-
nary, ncxana nnarouex yxnantno no ncex mecrax, uyrt nn ne no
noxxamn crynten n xponarn, no nnarouxa ne namna. ora x na-
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uana cama ncxart n ouent cxopo namna nnarouex, xoropt tn ne
rax yx anexo: on nncen na xpam xponarn co cropont crent.
80. norepxna nronxy n nonpocnna exypnym noncxart. na
onro ncxana na nony, na crone n ne namna. na cxasana, uro, nepo-
xrno, nronxa ne ynana, a ocranact re-nnoyt n nemax. ne no-
nepnna n crana ncxart nronxy cama. namna ee na nony nosne rym-
ouxn.
81. ax-ro pas onro ne npnxonna nounax exypnax n . .,
ynoxnn ere, cxasana mne, uro ona noer sa exypno.
- cnn xouemt, nem co mno,- npenoxnna ona.
- opomo, rontxo mt nostmem c coo xnmu, urot norom or-
xptrt nept, net sect nnxoro ner,- cxasana x.
ora x pana xnmu, . , sanporecronana:
- 3ro xe ne ror xnmu, uro nam nyxen, n ecnn mt saxpoem
nept, ro ne noem ontme n om.
- snam, uro +ro ror xnmu, uro nam nyxen.
o . . ne nepnna mne. pemnrentno cxasana:
- txonre, a x saxpom nept n oxaxy nam, uro +ro ror
xnmu.
. . noxoneanact necxontxo mnnyr n ntmna. ynepenno sa-
xnonnyna nept, a norom nerxo ornepna nsxrtm mnom xnmuom.
. . npnmna n nocropr n n reuenne necxontxnx ne ncem paccxa-
stnana o rom, xax ynepenno x ncrannxna xnmu n samox.
82. as x onxna tna unrart c . ., no ona nnxax ne morna
narn n xnnre ro mecro, re tno ormeueno norrem, nsxna y nee
xnnry, nponena nantnamn no crpannnam n yxasana . . ormerxy.
3ro ne enncrnennt cnyua c ormerxamn n spxunx xnnrax. nourn
ncera yxastnam unrammemy ro mecro, orxya nao unrart.
83. ourn nnxro ns cntmamnx ne moxer nonxrt, uro snaunr
unrart ntpasnrentno axrnnonorne~. noro pas x +ro oxcnxna
unrammemy mne n cnoe pyxo emoncrpnponana +ry ntpasnrent-
nocrt, no rnasa spxunx +roro nourn ne ynannnnamr. exy rem x
n re ern, xoropte naxoxrcx y nac, npexpacno +ro uyncrnyem. a-
npnmep, ., ecnn ona ronopnr o npnxrntx e nemax nnn nmxx, ona
enaer mxrxne, xax t xoro-ro nacxammne nnxennx nantnamn;
naoopor, ecnn e nemt ne npannrcx nnn ona xem-nnyt neo-
nontna, ona nponsnonr nantnamn tcrpte n pesxne nnxennx,
a net +romy ee cnennantno ne yunnn. nuno x nastnam ntpasn-
rentntmn pyxamn~ raxne pyxn, n xoroptx x omymam, ronopx cno-
namn spxunx n cntmamnx, nnronannm ronoca~, xnnoe, nonnx-
noe nnno~ n r. .
84. eanno x nsxna yrtnxy, n xoropo tn yxcyc, n cnpo-
cnna y .:
- ax rt ymaemt, mnoro nn sect yxcyca?
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. cenana ynnnennoe nnxenne pyxo.
- oneuno, mnoro.
enx +ro paccmemnno, x uyncrnonana, uro n yrtnxe yxcyca
tno concem mano, no rax xax . ne nnnr, a rontxo cntmnr
(. cnenax), ro e na cnyx noxasanoct, uro yxcyca mnoro. cxa-
sana:
- ect nourn nnuero ner.
. nsxna y menx yrtnxy n necxontxo pas ncrpxxnyna ee.
- a, renept n x uyncrnym, uro sect mano, a mne nocntma-
noct, uro mnoro.
85. n ern rynxnn na ynnne. menx samepsnn pyxn, n x na-
uana naenart nepuarxn, no n +ro npemx utx-ro pyxa npnxocnynact
x pyxany moero nantro. o mxrxomy, cnoxonomy npnxocnonennm x
ysnana, uro +ro tna u.
86. ax-ro x ntmna na nnomaxy napanoro xoa, urot
ysnart, xaxax noroa, rax xax x conpanact nrn n ropo n nnno-
rexy c . . nept ne saxnonnyna na samox, a rontxo npnxptna
n epxana pyxy na pyuxe. pyr xro-ro noxonr x nepn n xouer
norn n om. ysnana myy . ., no noymana, uro +roro neo-
crarouno, nyxno eme nocmorpert pyxy. nsxna sa pyxy . ., n
ona cxasana axrnnonorne:
- uro, ncn.yrana.ct?
- er, x namy myy ysnana, no mne nyxno tno eme namy
pyxy nocmorpert.
87. cnn x ny c xem-nnyt ns ropoa n noxoxy x namemy
omy, x +ro ysnam, rax xax nsyunna nce ocoennocrn rporyapa n
mocrono na name ynnne, xoropte pasnnuam noramn. ax-ro x
. nosnpamanact ns ropoa c . .; xora mt nonepnynn x namemy
omy ns ocnnrantnoro nepeynxa, x cxasana:
- y, mt yxe oma.
- a.
88. naxt x nam npnmna nama tnmax corpynnna. c nem
ne nnenact roa rpn. na noomna xo mne n xpenxo noxana mom
pyxy. oxarne noxasanoct mne snaxomtm, no x nnxax ne morna
ncnomnnrt, xro +ro.
- t ysnaemt menx?
- er.
- oyma: moxer trt, ncnomnnmt.
- t u. .
- a.
89. rynxna na nnomaxe napanoro xoa. o mne noo-
mna u. .
- ynxemt? - cnpocnna ona.
- a, rynxm. nt orxya nere?
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axas 81.2
- roxe rynxm. mna mnmo n ynnana rex. t menx
ysnaemt?
- a, x nac cpasy ysnana.
90. n ern rynxnn na ynnne c .. npeynpenna . .,
uro xy . n uro nyxno cmorpert n ry cropony, orxya ona yer
nrn. . onro ne tno, n x yxe ymana, uro ona ne npner. o
nor . .. ocranonnnact n nsxna xoro-ro sa pyxy. cnerxa npnxoc-
nynact x +ro pyxe n cpasy ysnana, uro +ro . monua nsxna ee sa
pyxy, no ona ntepnyna cnom pyxy n npoonxana monuart. . xax-
ro neonpeenenno ornernna na moe noxarne.
- t menx ne ysnaemt? - paccmexnact x.
ora . noxana mom pyxy n ornernna:
- a, x rex. ne ysnana, y rex xaxne-ro pyrne pyxn crann.
- uro x, mon pyxn mornn nsmennrtcx sa +rn necxontxo ne,
uro mt c roo ne nnennct.
91. naxt x tna y cnoe nopyrn . art ana . uncrnrt
xapro]ent. cxasana, uro roxe yy uncrnrt. . ouent ynnnnact:
- eyxenn rt ymeemt uncrnrt xapro]ent? t net ne npn-
ntxna x +romy.
- nor nocmorpnm, xro ns nac nyume yer uncrnrt,- cxasana
x n nsxnact sa nox.
tcrpo ocmarpnnana nantnamn xapro]ent, n ecnn naxonna
necpesannte xopouxn, cpesana nx. ora x ouncrnna necxontxo xap-
ro]ennn, . cxasana mne:
- ama ronopnr, uro rt uncrnmt nyume menx, a x ymana, uro
rt concem ne ymeemt.
92. ax-ro pas, xora x cena unrart c . " x samernna, uro
ona n +ror ent nnoxo cex uyncrnonana, n cnpocnna:
- uro c namn?
- nuero,- ornernna ona.
- ne xaxercx, uro nt ontnt.
- a, x ontna ymo.
. . xorena cxptrt or menx, uro ona uem-ro paccrpoena, no x
xopomo +ro nouyncrnonana n npenoxnna e cenart na npemx
nepeptn.
93. Fontmnncrno cnentx naxonrcx n nonno sanncnmocrn or
spxunx n ror momenr, xora nm nyxno nert nnrxy n nronxy. ront-
xo nemnorne cnente nsannxmrcx or +ro sanncnmocrn n nenamr
nnrxy n nronxy camn. enamr onn +ro raxnm cnocoom: ymxo nronxn
onn npnxnatnamr x xonunxy xstxa, n xora xonen nnrxn npnxacaer-
cx x ymxy. cneno uyncrnyer +ro xstxom. o x nenam nnrxy n nron-
xy nntm cnocoom: epy nronxy ontmnm n cpennm nantnamn neno
pyxn (nnsxo x ymxy), a nnrxy yxasarentntm n ontmnm nantna-
mn npano pyxn n nerxo nenam ee n ymxo nronxn. cnn nrna xopo-
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rax, ne xpnnax n ne cxontsnr n nantnax, x nenam nnrxy cpasy.
+rom ornomennn x ne rontxo ne naxoxyct n sanncnmocrn or spxunx,
a, nanpornn, uacro, ecnn tnaer ne ocoenno cnerno, xro-nnyt ns
namnx corpynnxon npocnr nert nm nnrxy n nronxy. ecxontxo
pas menx o +rom npocnna . . ee cnpamnnana: eyxenn nt ca-
mn ne moxere nert?~ - er, na nope nacmypno, n x ne nnxy ym-
RO, nronxa ouent ronxax~. nrepecno ro, uro n ronxne nronxn x ne-
nam nnrxy cxopee, uem n roncrte.
94. nn pas . . copanact napnrt napennxn c nnmnxmn.
ora ona nauana nennrt napennxn, x e npenoxnna: ana x re-
e nomory~. . . ouent ynnnnact: ee xe yer ouent rpy-
no!~ ce-raxn ana mne nennrt. cnpannnact c +rnm enom rax yc-
nemno, uro . ., nnxora ne nnenmax cnentx, rontxo pasnonna
pyxamn. +ror ent . . paccxastnana ncem, xro x ne npnxonn,
o rom, xax x nomorna e nennrt napennxn, n noxastnana mon nant-
nt, xoropte tnn ncnauxant nnmnxmn.
95. cnyuano npnxocnynact x cnnne . . n omyrnna, uro na
ee xanare npncox xycouex xpaxmana. oropana +ror xycouex
n noxasana . . na ynnnnact n cxasana: cnn t rt mne ne
noxasana, x t n ne samernna concem~.
96. ne cxasann, uro xo mne npnmna . o xora . noxana
mne pyxy, x cpasy nouyncrnonana, uro ona uem-ro ouent paccrpoena.
cnpocnna c ecnoxocrnom: uro c roo?~ . paccxasana mne.
97. ax-ro x npnmepxna nantro. osne menx tnn . u. n . .
nn cmorpenn nantro, oeprnnann ero. oomen X. n roxe npnxoc-
nyncx x nantro. uepes pyxan x ysnana, uro +ro on.
98. ax-ro x noomna nocmorpert na panencxne uact. ora
x npnxocnynact x uacam, tno nononnna 9-ro, no uact n +ro npemx
xax pas nnn, rontxo ne nononnny 9-ro, a 9 uacon. npnxocnynact,
xora onn nnn uerneprt pas, no+romy nacunrana nxrt yapon.
99. naxt, xora x ncrana nocne oea ns-sa crona n nanpa-
nnnact x nepn, xro-ro nsxn menx sa pyxy. cpasy no pyxe ysnana,
uro +ro 3., no rax xax +ro tno conepmenno neoxnanno, ro x ne or-
nernna na ero pyxonoxarne n croxna n nonnom neoymennn. tuno
xo mne nocroponnne ne noxoxr n ro npemx, xora x rontxo ncram
ns-sa crona. 3. cnpocnn: t ysnann menx?~ ornernna cmymenno:
t 3.?~ -n oxcnnna, uro x pacrepxnact or neoxnannocrn.
100. mna cnnsy nnepx n npoxonna uepes y]ernym xomnary
n crononym x yxnny. utx-ro pyxa xnonnyna menx no nneuy. oc-
ranonnnact n cxasana: . .!~ . ., xoropax nnena +ror momenr,
noomna xo mne. t yxe snaemt, uro +ro . .?~ - a, xorx ona
n +ro npemx n ne paoraer, no x yxe xopomo snam ee pyxy~.
101. o npemx ortxa x nexana na xponarn. pyr x nouyncrno-
nana nnnom nnxenne nosyxa. nporxnyna pyxy, ymax, uro
xo mne noxoxr. ecrnnrentno, . . npnmna crannrt mne rep-
momerp.
102. naxt x mna no ynnne c . pyr xro-ro nonoxnn pyxn
na nneuo mne n e ononpemenno. t ocranonnnnct. or, xro noo-
men x nam, monua nsxn nac sa pyxn. o pyxe x cpasy ysnana, uro +ro
tna ., no . ne ysnana ee no pyxe. . saronopnna, xora x npons-
necna ee nmx, n no ronocy . ee ysnana.
103. mna no ynnne n, necmorpx na ro uro tna n orax, omy-
rnna no noramn xenesnym nnnry, xoropo saxptnaercx xonoen
xanannsannn. ect xanannsannx?~ -cnpocnna x y . .- a~.
104. ax-ro xo mne npnmna ., n, ena ona ycnena noxart mne
pyxy, x samernna, uro ona uem-ro paccrpoena. uro c roo?~ -
cnpocnna x.- nuero~.- mne xaxercx, uro rt n nnoxom na-
crpoennn~.- er... npocro samepsna~. naxo, xax . nn yne-
pxna menx, uro ona n xopomem nacrpoennn, x e ne nonepnna. ne
omnnact: uepes necxontxo ne . cosnanact, uro ona ecrnn-
rentno tna paccrpoena n ror ent, xora npnxonna xo mne. npo-
1 cro ne xorena rex paccrpannart, xorx snana, uro rt cpasy xe no-
uyncrnyemt, n xaxom x nacrpoennn~.
105. xonna n ropo c . . n . . ce npemx x mna c . .,
no ona co mno ne pasronapnnana n n opore nn o uem menx ne npe-
ynpexana. onom mecre x nouyncrnonana no noramn conep-
menno rnaxym opory n oraanact, uro mt nomnn n nont nac-
cax. oymana x +ro noromy, uro x necxontxo pas tnana n naccaxe
n yxe nsyunna re ocoennocrn, no xoroptm x mory onpeennrt, uro
naxoxyct n naccaxe. cxasana . .: t n naccaxe~. . . ce-
nana mne yrnepnrentnt snax pyxo.
106. esnna x cnoe nopyre, xoropax xnner anexo or nac.
o mno exana . . ora mt comnn c rpamnax, x samernna, uro
. . nomna ne no ro opore, no xoropo x xoxy c nopyro. t
c . xonnn ne sect~,- cxasana x. . . ornernna: a, x snam, uro
nam yonee xonrt no pyro cropone, re ponnee, a ceuac nam
moxno nrn n sect~.
107. o mne noomna . . n nosnana menx sannmartcx. cpasy
samernna, uro . . n nnoxom nacrpoennn, no nnuero e o +rom ne
cxasana. a cneymmn ent (+ro tn ntxono ent) . . cnona
sannmanact co mno. ax rontxo ona nosoponanact co mno, x cpasy
nouyncrnonana, uro ona n xopomem nacrpoennn n axe nosyxena.
ne ntepxana n cxasana: uepa mne xasanoct, uro nt n nnoxom
nacrpoennn, a ceronx - n xopomem. pana nn +ro?~ - a,
npana~,
108. ax-ro x esnna n ry epennm, re nponena nepnte rot
cnoero ercrna. ocne roro xax menx ynesnn ns epennn, x nn pasy
ne tna n epenne n xnna nce npemx n ropoe. enept, xora x cnona
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ouyrnnact n epenne, x nsxnnna xenanne norn x pexe, urot
noponrt no epery, a raxxe saxorena noxonrt no ntcoxo rpane.
ora x xonna x pexe n no pyrnm mecram, menx conponoxana .
osnpamaxct omo, mt nomnn uepes sapomennt oropo, re po-
cna ntcoxax rpana. tna es uynox n no+romy xopomo uyncrnonancx
npnxocnonenne rpant x monm noram. pyr x ocranonnnact n cxna-
rnnact pyxamn sa norn, xoropte nauann cnntno uecartcx,- oxasa-
noct, uro mt samnn n xryuym xpannny.
- ne xouy antme nrn no +ro opore,- cxasana x. . sacme-
xnact.
- t xe xorena ncntrart nce epenencxne yonontcrnnx.
- raxom yonontcrnnn x xax pas ne ymana, a rt menx sa-
nena cma.
- er, x ne napouno rex sanena, x ne cmorpena na rpany n ne
nnena, uro sect xpannna, y menx roxe uemyrcx norn.
100. ne npannnoct rxnyrt ns xonona nepo c noo, n, ecnn x
snana, uro . nyxna noa, x pana nepo n mna x xonony. anennn
nepo sa nenouxy, x eprana xanar, n, xora nepo cnycxanoct n xo-
noen, x nerxo epxanact pyxo sa xanar, urot uyncrnonart, xora
nepo xocnercx not n xonone. uyncrnyx, uro nepo yxe xocnynoct
nonepxnocrn not, x eprana sa xanar, urot ysnart, napanact nn
n nepo noa. cnn x uyncrnonana, uro nepo crano rxxentm, x rx-
nyna ero nnepx, rax xax snana, uro ono yxe nanonnnnoct noo. o
ea tna n rom, uro x tna manentxax n ecnn croxna na semne, ro
ne morna nepexpyrnrt apan. pnxonnoct cranonnrtcx na cpy xo-
nona, a +roro mne enart ne nosnonxnn, rax xax rnnnax ocxa morna
xaxym mnnyry onomnrtcx, n x ynana t n xonoen. nanpxrana
nce cnnt, cranonnnact na ntnouxn, rontxo t nepexpyrnrt apan.
nora +ro mne yananoct, a nnora pyxa ne ntepxnnana rxxecrn
nepa, n apan, nonepnynmnct oparno n mom cropony, ontno ya-
pxn menx no ny xenesno pyuxo.
110. sannmanact c . . nam noomna . . n nosnana menx
sanrpaxart. axt ent, xora . . rontxo nepnt pas noxonr
xo mne, x ocmarpnnam, ne naena nn ona mxy nansnanxy nnn ne
nnno nn xomnnannn ns-no mxn. axym xe nponepxy x npons-
nena n na +ror pas n ncnnecnyna pyxamn. s-no mxn . . tna na
nenym uerneprt nnna xomnnannx. ce rpoe mt nauann cmexrtcx,
ocoenno . . xoxorana. cxasana: nac nnxro rax xnnonncno
ne oenaercx, xax . .~. . . eme ontme pacxoxoranact. ouemy
nam rax cmemno?~-cnpocnna x.- nmymct xnnonncntm nn-
om . , na ne snana, uro y nee nnna xomnnannx, n croxna na
nepxy necrnnnt, a nnnsy croxnn nocroponnne~. onpannn mxy,
. . ymna, a x n . . ynpann cryntx na mecro. noymana:
yxno ocmorpert . .: moxer trt, y nee nnna xomnnannx~.
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ocmorpena . . n onapyxnna, uro n y nee c oxon n csan nnna
xomnnannx, xorx ropaso mentme, uem y . . o renept . . yxe
ne cmexnact, a tna cmymena n norxrnnana xomnnannm n rex me-
crax, re x noxasana e.
III. ora ymep axa. . . opoten, mne o +rom ne cpasy
cxasann no ro npnunne, uro x eme ne concem onpannnact nocne o-
nesnn. rontxo sameuana, uro . . n ouent rxxenom nacrpoennn.
ne cnpamnnana o npnunnax ee nnoxoro nacrpoennx, no snana, uro
ona no npemx moe onesnn ne cxaxer mne. uepes na nx y menx
yxe tna nopmantnax remneparypa. ncrana c nocrenn. ent xpe-
mannn rena . . yrpom xo mne noomna . . n nsxna menx sa pyxy.
o +roro momenra x eme rnyoxo nepnna n ro, uro . . ntepxnr
onepannm. o xora . . nsxna menx sa pyxy, x cpasy nouyncrno-
nana, uro ona coomnr mne o ero cmeprn. . . ycanna menx na n-
nan n necxontxo cexyn nnuero ne ronopnna, a norom cxasana: ac
nocrnrno ontmoe rope~.- mep nanmnp erponnu~,-oannna
x.- a~.
112. enx nosnaxomnnn c . ronopnna c nnm neonro, ncero
mnnyr 15, no nce-raxn ycnena sanomnnrt ero pyxn. pomen mecxn,
n x ncrpernnact c . n 3e. n noxan mne pyxy n nauan nncart
na moe naonn cnoe nmx. ocranonnna ero. nac n rax ysnana
cpasy~.
113. amn ern esnnn xarartcx n anromonne; x roxe noexana.
namn tna . . Bo]ep xoren mne ocrannrt yonontcrnne n no-
+romy cnpamnnan, xaxax esa mne npannrcx - tcrpax nnn same-
nennax?
- uem tcrpee, rem nyume,- orneuana x. Bo]ep nycrnn ma-
mnny co cxopocrtm n 40 xm n uac.
- ax rt cex uyncrnyemt? - cnpocnna . .
- opomo. ne xaxercx, uro mt eem tcrpee, uem pantme.
- a, nepno...
- ceuac uro rt uyncrnyemt?
- uro mt eme tcrpee eem. cex uyncrnym npenocxono!
114. naxt yrpom, xora . . npnmna n xnnnnxy, x ncrpe-
rnna ee n necrnmne. oponaxct co mno, ona nxno noxana mne pyxy
n menenno nomna no necrnnne nanepx. mna pxom n no+romy uyn-
crnonana, uro e rpyno nrn nanepx. cnpocnna: t neso-
pont?~
115. as xora-ro . . unrana mne. nam noomna . n nauana
pasronapnnart c . . nonoxnna cnon pyxn na ropno . . n . n
cnymana nx ronoca. orom x ocmorpena nnno . n nnno . . uro,
xpacannnt?~ - cnpocnna n myrxy . .- nuero, y rex nnno nyu-
me, uem y It.~.- er, . nyume, cnexee~.- oxer trt, cnexee,
no ueprt nnna y rex nyume~.
pasronope c , . x paccxasana o rom, xax x ocmarpnnana nnna
. . n . xaxnre, npannntno nn x onpeennna, uro y . . nnno
xpacnnee, uem y .?~ - pannntno~.
116. naxt x, . . n . (nocnenxx cnyxnna nam npono-
nnxom~) nomnn na ypannenxy. Ftnana x n +rom paone n pantme,
no renept x ormernna, uro . neer nac ne no ro opore, no xoropo
x xonna c . . antre nam roxe npnxonnoct cnycxartcx c ropt,
no raxnx ontmnx ptrnnn x ne sameuana, a renept mt no xonenn
nponannnnct n cner. ouemy nt nere ne ram, re mt mnn npomnt
pas?~ -cnpocnna x y . .- 3ro . neer nac nnxame opo-
ro~.- auem? et sect xyxe nrn~. a oparnom nyrn mt mnn
c . . rontxo nnoem. cpasy ormernna: or +ro ra opora, no xo-
ropo mt mnn n nepnt pas. ee ysnam noromy, uro sect ner nt-
crynon n ptrnnn, a nyxno rontxo nonnmartcx n ropy~.
117. moe xomnare mnoro xomnarntx pacrenn. axoe yrpo x
nx ocmarpnnam nnnmarentno - ne nyxno nn nonnrt, ne cnomanact
nn na xaxom-nnyt pacrennn nerouxa. naxt, ocmarpnnax nay-
uox~, x samernna, uro na ono nerouxe nncrtx cnerxa npnnxnn. na-
uana ncxart ro mecro, re tna nanomnena nerouxa. o necmorpx na
camt rmarentnt ocmorp, n nepnym mnnyry ne onapyxnna mecra
cnoma. em ne menee x tna ynepena, uro nerouxa cnomana. cne-
ymmym mnnyry x onapyxnna, uro nerouxa ecrnnrentno cno-
mana.
118. ax-ro x nam samna nama npexnxx yopmnna c nonopox-
enntm ctnom. na paspemnna mne ocmorpert nnno peenxa, xoro-
pt cnoxono nexan na ee pyxax. na npnxacaxct nantnamn x ero
nnunxy, x ocropoxno ocmorpena ero n yexenno cxasana: noc
concem xypnocentxn~. art peenxa sacmexnact n noxasana mne
cno noc. t rax xe xypnoct, xax n nam ctn~.
119. oponaxct co mno, . . noaxana mne pyxn, n x samernna,
uro ona n nnoxom nacrpoennn. uem rt rax paccrpoena nnn neo-
nontna?~ - cnpocnna x. nuem~,- xoporxo ornernna . o ee orner
eme ontme yenn menx n rom, uro ona uem-ro neonontna. uepe~
necxontxo mnnyr . . cnyuano cxasana mne ry npnunny, xoropax
ntsnana neyonontcrnne y . .
120. pn onom nocemennn ysex penonmnnn n ono xomnare
. . noxasan mne neontmoe snamx, na xoropom tnn ntmnrt
nn]pt. cmarpnnax nantnamn xaxym nn]py, x npounrana cney-
mmee: 1905 r.~. 3ro snamx penonmnnn 1905 roa?~- a~,-or-
nernna . . no ns renxa~,- samernna x.
121. naxt x tna y . . na, snax, uro x ocoenno nnrepe-
cymct xnnramn, noxastnana mne cnom nnnorexy. a nepennere
ono ontmo nono xnnrn x onapyxnna pente]noe nsopaxenne
uenonexa no nect pocr, c nonxro nnepx pyxo. 3roro uenonexa n +ry
~
nosy x ouent xopomo snam. o+romy paocrno nocxnnxnyna: ona-
pnm ennn!..~
122. epe npasnnxom 1 ax nx ncex nocnnrannnxon name
xnnnnxn noxynann xaxne-ro noapxn. axne nmenno noapxn - +ro
epxann n cexpere or menx, no x pemnna paccmorpert nce noapxn,
xora ocranyct ona. osnparxct c neuepa ns 3a, x oc/rann-
na nopyry, xoropax nouenana y menx, ymtnartcx, a cama nomna n
ony ns xann, re, xax mne xasanoct, onxnt tnn nexart
noapxn.
a crone nexann xyntxn co cnaocrxmn-+ro menx ne nnrepe-
conano, n x noomna x oxny, na xoropom paccunrtnana narn uro-
nnyt nnrepecnoe. on pyxn naronxnynnct na apente] ennna
(xax x cama onpeennna). antme, na nexoropom paccroxnnn, nexan
eme onn apente], xoropt x raxxe cpasy ysnana,- +ro tn a-
pente] ymxnna. ora x nosnparnnact n xomnary, nopyra yxe
oxnana menx.
- e rt tna?
- euac x ree nce paccxaxy: x nonyuy n noapox, no-nepntx,
apente] ennna, no-nroptx, apente] ymxnna,- c ropocrtm
cxasana x. opyry +ro paccmemnno.
- t ona xouemt nonyunrt rax mnoro noapxon n npyr nnuero
ne nonyunmt.
- or ynnnmt, nonyuy.
1 ax x ecrnnrentno nonyunna apente] ymxnna, a uepes
necxontxo ne, xora oxonunnact ercxax ntcranxa, mne paspe-
mnnn nsxrt n mom xomnary apente] ennna.
123. menx n xomnare tna xnracxax posa. naxt x same-
rnna, uro ona crana ne raxo ntmno, xaxo tna pantre. ocro-
poxno nauana ocmarpnnart nnerox n onapyxnna, uro xro-ro cpesan
ony nerouxy. 3ro ne nonpannnoct mne, no x ne nmnm eccmtcnen-
no nopun pacrennx. xorena ysnart, xro cpesan nerxy, no nnxro
+roro ne snan. . . ronopnna mne: a rt cama morna cnomart ee
cnyuano~. 3ro ynnnno menx, rax xax x ouent ocropoxna c nneramn,
a xnracxax posa - pacrenne ne rpanxnncroe, n cnomart na ne
nerxy cnyuano - ne rax npocro. romy xe nerxa tna cpesana,
c +rnm cornacnnact spxuax corpynnna, xora x e noxasana nnerox,
no . . o cnx nop yexaer menx, uro nerxy cnomana x. 3ro
paccmemnno menx, n x ornernna: 3ro nosmoxno tno t ror-
a, ecnn t x naxonnact n eccosnarentnom cocroxnnn. o ra-
xoro cocroxnnx y menx ne tno, cneonarentno, nerxa xem-ro
cpesana~.
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onxnne
1. naxt x xonna n napx c . . n . . cm opory x uyncr-
nonana, uro co cropont . . naxner cnexnmn xnoxamn. onro ne
pemanact cnpocnrt y . ., nouemy or nee naxner xnoxamn. axo-
nen, xora mt yxe nxonnn n napx, x ne ntepxana n cxasana: ax
xopomo naxner xnoxamn!~ . . ornernna: e rt nx cnt-
mnmt?~ - x n nnsxo ner, +ro naxner nncrtxmn cyxnmn~,- rono-
pnr . . o x ynepenno ornernna: xopomo snam sanax xnox n
cyxnx nncrten~. ora mt cenn na cxamexy, . . npyr ncnom-
nnna, uro y nee n cymouxe nexar xnoxn. o nnx n satna~,- cxa-
sana ona. axnm opasom, necmorpx na ynepennx, uro xnox nnsxo
ner, menx nce-raxn ne omanyno moe oonxnne.
2. esanncnmo or roro, xaxoe tnaer npemx roa: necna nn, nero
nn, ocent nnn snma, no x ncera no sanaxam uyncrnym ontmym pas-
nnny mexy ropoom n napxom. ecno x uyncrnym, xax pesxo nax-
ner nnaxnax semnx, cmonncrt sanax cocnt, sanax epest, ]nanox,
monoo rpant, a xora nnerer cnpent, x cntmy +ror sanax, eme
noxox x napxy. erom x uyncrnym sanax pasntx nneron, rpant n
cocnt. nauane ocenn x cntmy n napxe cnntnt, ne noxoxn na
pyrne sanaxn, sanax ynxammnx n yxe cyxnx nncrten; n xonne
ocenn, ocoenno nocne oxx, x omymam, xax naxner moxpax semnx
n namoxmne cyxne nncrtx. nmo xe x ornnuam napx or ropoa, no-
romy uro nosyx sect onee uncrt, ner rex pesxnx sanaxon nme,
anromonne, pasno nnmn, sanaxon, xoropte n ropoe ncxoxr nou-
rn ns xaxoro oma.
3. uacro tnaer rax, uro mne sayyr cxasart o rom, uro n moe
xomnare xer menx mox nopyra " no, xora x nxoxy n cnom xom-
nary (a uacro eme rora, xora rontxo noxoxy x orxptro nepn
xomnart), x cama no ee sanaxy onapyxnnam ee npncyrcrnne n ny
x ne. e nomnm raxoro cnyuax, urot x xora-nnyt n +rom omn-
nact.
- 4. ora x nooy nnsxo x xannery X., ro uacro no sanaxy ue-
pes nept ysnam, uro on n xannere.
5. o yrpam, xora . . ntxonr na exypcrno, x ncera ysnam
ee no sanaxy nannpoc.
6. naxt, xora x samna n crononym nepe nroptm sanrpaxom,
x no sanaxy onpeennna, uro na sanrpax nxpa ns axnaxan, n ne
omnnact.
7. xonna n ropo. ox n nepnt marasnn, x no sanaxy onpe-
ennna, uro n nem cecrnoe ne npoaercx. ora x samna n pyro
marasnn, x npexe ncero ycntmana sanax coneno ptt. a mo
nonpoc: ect n pta ecrt?~ -. . ornernna: a, ecrt~.
8. ora mt npoxonnn mnmo anrexn, x no ee sanaxy onpeennna,
uro mt nnsxo or oma, rax xax anrexa naxonnact neanexo or nac.
9. ora x ceronx npoxonna no xomnare, menx ocranonnn " n
npexe, uem on cxasan: or cnexne rasert~, x yxe no sanaxy ys-
nana, uro on epxan cnexne rasert, eme naxnynmne rnnorpa]cxo
xpacxo.
10. ax-ro x mna ns napxa c X. n coomana emy no opore:
ect naxner cnexnm xneom. sect na ncm ynnny naxner
opmom~. X. cxasan: t npoxonm mnmo cronono nayuntx pa-
ornnxon~.
. II. omnm, uro n npomnom roy y menx tn raxo cnyua: x un-
rana c . rasery. ce rasert, xoropte nmennct y nac, tnn npoun-
rant. . nomna x X. nsxrt nonte rasert. o xora ona npnnecna
nonte rasert n ana mne ony ns nnx, x cxasana e:
- +ry rasery yxe unrana.
- rxya rt snaemt? net ree eme ne unrana,-cxasana .
- no sanaxy cntmy, uro x unrana +ry rasery c . .
- e moxer trt. cnn X. an, snaunr, eme ne unrann,- nos-
pasnna .
ora x nonpocnna npounrart mne nasnanne oxnaa n +ro ra-
sere, n, xora ona npounrana, x eme necxontxo pas nonropnna, uro
+ry rasery x unrana c . . ennmnct, uro x ne omnamct, . no-
mna nsxrt pyrym rasery.
12. mna no ropoy c . . n ronopnna e: or sect naxner
xnoxamn. ect pto naxner. nor onxrt xnoxamn~. a mon sa-
meuannx . . orneuana: a, npannntno~.
13. ora x tnam na emoncrpannxx, ro no camtm pasnoopas-
ntm sanaxam x uyncrnym, uro noxpyr menx nponcxonr ontmoe
nnxenne. o re sanaxn, xoropte x omymam, ne cnnnamrcx nx menx
n cnnomno xaoc, x nx ncera ornnuam onn or pyroro. omnm ra-
\xon cnyua. xonna na emoncrpannm n ent epnoro max. t
npnmnn na a+popom n ocranonnnnct. pyr o moero oonxnnx o-
neren cnntnt sanax nomae. cnpocnna y . .:
- ect nnsxo ecrt xonnnna?
. . nocmorpena no nce cropont n ornernna mne:
- ymam, uro sect nnxaxo xonnnnt ner, rax xax x ee ne
nnxy.
eme nnnmarentnee nuyncrnonanact n oecnoxonnmn menx sa-
nax n onxrt cxasana:
- uyncrnym, uro +ror sanax ner c npano cropont. ocmor-
pnre nyume.
. . nocmorpena n ry cropony, xya x e noxasana no sanaxy.
pox necxontxo maron, ona cxasana:
- enept n x nnxy, uro cronr xonnnna. ontxo ona rax anexo,
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uro ee ena nnno. cnn t rt mne ne cxasana, x cama nnuero t ne
ynnena.
14. ax-ro n nauane nera x cnena n namem cay. pyr x nouyn-
crnonana sanax yxon n na]rannna. ora xo mne noomna . "
x cnpocnna y nee:
- ro ceuac npnxonn cma?
- nxoro ne tno,- orneuana . . t nomnn rynxrt no ca-
nxy. nce npemx nonopaunnanact n ry cropony, re croxn cron, n
nnxax ne morna nonxrt, nouemy . . cxasana, uro nnxoro ner, ecnn
x cntmy sanax c ro cropont. ora x sanrpaxana, x yxe n cronono
nouyncrnonana npnnonnmn menx n neoymenne sanax, nosnana
. . n cnpocnna:
- ro ceuac nomen n crononym?
- aoune,- ornernna ona. nospasnna:
- er, x cntmy sanax yxon n na]rannna, a or paounx naxner
raaxom n nontmn ocxamn, xoropte onn crporamr n cay.
- nnxaxoro sanaxa ne cntmy n ne mory nonxrt, uro rex ec-
noxonr,- cxasana . . cnpocnna:
- xro npomen mnmo menx, xora x ncranana ns-sa crona?
- poxonna .
- uro ona enana n cay?
yr . ., naxonen, nonxna, xaxo sanax menx ecnoxonn:
- . uncrnna n cay snmnne xocrmmt n nantro, no x ne ymana,
uro rt cntmnmt sanax or nee, n ne oparnna nnxaxoro nnnmannx.
15. ax-ro x samna n cnom xomnary n cpasy nouyncrnonana sanax
cnexe rasert. noomna x crony, noncxana, no rasert ne namna.
npomnact no xomnare, coopaxax, orxya nsxncx +ror sanax. ue-
pes uac x nosnparnnact n cnom xomnary, no sanax cnexe rasert
nnuyrt ne ymentmnncx. oneprnyn cno cron ocnonarentnomy oc-
morpy, x na cnonx panencxnx xnnrax onapyxnna nonym rasery,
xoropym mne npnnecna . ., xora menx ne tno n xomnare.
16. ora-ro anno X. yesxan na necxontxo ne. n npnexan
nymx nxmn nosxe, uem mt ero oxnann. ora on npnmen n ore-
nenne, mne nnxro o +rom ne ronopnn, no no sanaxy x roruac ysnana
; ero. ne omnnact. uepes necxontxo mnnyr nocne roro, xax x ona-
pyxnna, uro X. yxe nosnparnncx ns cnoe noesxn, xo mne noomna
. . n coomnna: xe npnexan X.!~ ornernna, uro yxe snam o
+rom.
nomnm pyro cnyua. ax-ro X. roxe yesxan na necxontxo
ne. rouno ne snana, xora on npneer. o necmorpx na +ro, x na
paccroxnnn nyx xomnar ysnana no sanaxy, uro on yxe npnexan.
na x ycnena nouyncrnonart sanax X., xax . . cxasana mne:
nam ner X.~.
17. o npemx cnoero ornycxa . . necxontxo pas npnxonna n
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orenenne. ne nnxro ne ronopnn, uro ona npnmna, no x ncera +ro
sameuana cama n, xora cnpamnnana exypnym, npnmna nn . .,
nonyuana yrnepnrentnt orner: a, npnmna~.
18, nora, xora mne nyxen X., x ny nanepx, re naxonrcx ero
xanne.r. o ecnn n +ro npemx on npoxonr mnmo menx, ne noospe-
nax roro, uro x ero nmy, x cama sony ero. oneuno, x ne ncera mory
rouno yxasart, c xaxo cropont on ner, rax xax sanax pacnpocrpa-
nxercx no nce cropont.
19. ecmorpx na ro uro mne neocrynnt spnrentnte n cnyxonte
nneuarnennx, x nce-raxn ropxuo nmnm npnpoy. et x mory omy-
mart pasnnunte sanaxn, mory ocxsart xaxt nenecrox nnerxa,
xaxym rpannnxy, xaxym nerxy n ee nncrtx. uyncrnym, xax ro-
pxuo neuer connne, xax npnxrno ocnexaer rent nnn npoxnanax
noa, xora nce moe reno nsmyueno xapo, ouent nmnm tnart y
mopx. ncera no sanaxy ysnanana, xora mt mnn no nanpannennm
x mopm. ycrt x ne nnena ero, nycrt x ne cntmana, xax ono mymnr,
xora xarnr cnon nonnt, no nnsocrt mopx, ero ontxnxmmn sanax
ocrannxmr mne nennxoe nacnaxenne. npnxonna na eper mopx
c uyncrnom naroronennx n npexnonennx nepe ero momtm n xpa-
coro, xoropym x mtcnenno cee pnconana.
20. no sanaxy ysnam n nnsocrt pexn. ora x esnna n epe-
nnm, x nmnna neuepamn xonrt x pexe nnn x nenae, xoropax nnsxo
or pexn. ora x rontxo npnexana n epennm, mne eme nnxro ne yc-
nen cxasart o rom, uro concem nnsxo pexa. o sanaxy n no uncromy
nosyxy x cama onpeennna, uro pexa neanexo.
21. ora x nnna ua, x no sanaxy ysnana, uro npnmna . ocne
uax x cnpocnna y nee: t npnmnn n ro npemx, xora x nnna
ua?~ - a~.
22. ne nyxna tna . . o x ne snana, re ona. pyr x yc-
ntmana no sanaxy ee nannpoc, uro ona npomna mnmo menx. ee no-
snana, n ona noomna xo mne.
23. cnn co mno snaxomnrcx nont uenonex, ro x cxopo onpee-
nxm no sanaxy, xypnr nn on. anpnmep, x neanno nosnaxomnnact
c . n n nepnym mnnyry onpeennna, uro on ne xypnr. ne omn-
nact.
24. menx tna , na nonpocnna menx npnnecrn e not. o-
ra x nepnynact n xomnary c noo, x cpasy xe nouyncrnonana sanax
nypt. cnpocnna .:
- t nypnnact, xora x ntxonna?
- a, nypnnact,- orneuana ona.
25. o npemx oea xo mne noomen X. ecmorpx na cnntnt sa-
nax opma n cronono, x cpasy onpeennna no sanaxy, uro on ne-
anno xypnn..
26. naxt neuepom, xora x ns cnoe xomnart ntmna n ne-
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crnmnt, x no sanaxy nannpoc ysnana, uro y nac xro-ro ecrt nanepxy
n naoparopnn. ora xo mne noomna . ., x cnpocnna y nee:
- ro y nac ecrt?
- ouemy rt ymaemt, uro xro-nnyt ecrt?
- oromy uro x uyncrnym sanax nannpoc.
- a, ceuac y X. cnnr necxontxo uenonex. nnx conemanne
ornocnrentno npnopa.
27. ax-ro x ortxana nocne sanxrn. nacrontxo ycrana, uro
ne samernna, xax ycnyna. o npemx moero cna n xomnary samen X.
rax rnxo, uro x ne nouyncrnonana nnpann or ero maron. o no sa-
naxy oexonona x ysnana, uro +ro X. cronr neanexo or xponarn.
npocnynact, xax rontxo omyrnna sanax, n cnpocnna: ro +ro?~
ora X. noomen xo mne.
28. ora-ro mox nopyra . nosnaxomnna menx co cnonm rona-
pnmem. onopnrt mne c nnm ne npnmnoct, on rontxo nanncan na
moe pyxe cnoe nmx. oneuno, +ro tno eno nyx cexyn, n, necmor-
px na +ro, x onpeennna, uro on xypxmn uenonex. ora x o +rom
coomnna ., ona nornepnna +ro.
29. xorena orxptrt oxno n cnoe xomnare. ora x orxptna
nepnym pamy, ro uepes nropym, eme saxptrym pamy x no sanaxy
ysnana, uro ner oxt. ora x orxptna n nropym, napyxnym pa-
my, na mon pyxn ecrnnrentno crann naart xannn oxx.
30. npoxonna uepes necrnmnt n nouyncrnonana ram sanax
. . snana, uro ona n ornycxe, a no+romy ynnnnact, uro uyncr-
nym ee sanax. noymana, uro y corpynnxon yer copanne. no-
mna x . . n cnpocnna ee:
- nac ceuac yer copanne?
- e snam, mne nnxro nnuero ne ronopnn,- orneuana ona.
- npnmna nn ceuac . .? - cnpocnna x.
- a, npnmna, ona eme ne saxonunna cnom paory n nx +roro
npnxonr nocne oea.
- e ona ceuac?
- na n necrnmne naenaer xanar.
ne crano axe npnxrno, uro menx moe oonxnne ne omanyno.
oymart rontxo, nacxontxo samenxmr cnenornyxomy spenne n cnyx
pasnoopasnte, orarte omymennx n oonxnne, xoropte y spxunx
n cntmamnx anexo ne n nouere.
31. cnena, unrana. o mne noomen X. n an mne ue-ro
anr.
- n tn na nony nosne nepn n rnom xomnary,- cxasan X.
- euac y menx tnn enouxn . n ., no y . raxoro anra
ne tno, +ro, nanepnoe, . norepxna.
nonmxana anr n no sanaxy onpeennna,, uro on npnnane-
xnr .
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- a, x no sanaxy uyncrnym, uro +ro anr .
na x +ro cxasana, xax enouxn npnmnn sa anrom. ro ecr-
nnrentno norepxna .
32. naxt x samna n naoparopnm, n, necmorpx na ro uro n
ne naxno oexononom, x nce-raxn cpasy nouyncrnonana sanax uec-
noxa. nauana x nnxax ne morna nonxrt, orxya nsxncx +ror sanax.
ora x n xonne nx ynnena " nouyncrnonana, uro or nero naxner
uecnoxom. xasanoct, uro on tn n naoparopnn n ro npemx, xora
x rya saxonna, n noromy ram naxno uecnoxom.
33. ax-ro x cnpocnna:
- . ., xaxnmn yxamn nt ymnnnct neanno?
na ornernna:
- nxaxnmn. noome nent ro yxe ne ymnnact.
- e moxer trt, x net uyncrnym or nac sanax yxon,-nos-
pasnna x.
o . . npoonxana ynepxrt menx, uro ona ymnrcx pas n ro.
ora npn xaxo ncrpeue c nem x, ecnn sanax or nee tn cnntnt,
cnpamnnana: ceuac nt ne ymnnnct?~ - a, ceuac x ymn-
nact~. ax nonropxnoct necxontxo pas, n nocne +roro . . nepe-
crana ronopnrt, uro ona ymnrcx pas n ro.
34. o npemx urennx c . . x nouyncrnonana, uro naxner nono
oyntm. cnpocnna y . ,: t n nontx ry]nxx?~ - a~.-
xora nt nx naenn?~ - eronx~.- n uyncrnym, uro eme
concem nont sanax~.
35. nx sa na o oxrxptcxnx npasnnxon nx namnx ere
npnnesnn noxy n xauenn. ocranxy n ocxy nx xauene nocra-
nnnn n necrnmne. n +ro npemx npoxonna uepes necrnmnt n no-
uyncrnonana sanax cnexero epena. eme ne snana o rom, uro npn-
nesnn noxy n xauenn, no+romy cnpocnna y . ., nouemy n necrn-
mne naxner cnexnm epenom. . . oxcnnna mne n noxasana
noxy. ocxa tna conepmenno nonax, n or nee ncxonn xpenxn
sanax cnexero epena.
36. ax-ro x tna na copannn n 3e. ono cropont nosne
menx cnena mox nopyra ., a c pyro mecro tno cnoonoe. pn-
mna . . n sanxna +ro mecro. o eme sa necxontxo mnnyr o ro-
ro, xax npnmna . ., x nouyncrnonana no sanaxy, uro neanexo
or nac naxonrcx . . ora . . cena, x cnpocnna ee, npnmna
nn . .
- a, npnmna nmecre co mno n ceuac cnnr nosne menx.
a pyro ent . . cnpamnnaer menx:
- uro +ro . ne npnxonr x nam?
- ax ne npnxonr? asne nt ee nuepa ne nnenn na copa-
nnn? - ynnnnact x.
- er, ne nnena.
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- e moxer trt, net nt xe cnenn nosne . ., a x cnena
mexy nem n .
- nac nnena, a . ne nnena... xem xe . cnena?
- . cnena nosne . .
- n . . ne nnena.
- uent crpanno, net x n ro uyncrnonana, xora nt noomnn
x nam, a nt ne nnenn nx.
. . cmyrnnact... nonxna, n uem eno. na npocro xorena ys-
nart, c xem x npnmna na copanne, no ne xorena npxmo o +rom
cxasart.
37. naxt x xonna n anrexy c . na roxe ne nnnr, no ona,
xax n nce cnente, npnntxna ontme opnenrnponartcx no cnyxy. o-
ra mt noxonnn x anrexe, . npncnymnnanact, urot ne nporn
nept, a x crapanact no sanaxy onpeennrt, re nept. ne noxasa-
noct, uro mt yxe nemnoro npomnn nxo. cxasana o +rom " no
ona ne nonepnna mne n npoonxana nrn antme. orom, nnx, uro
onro ner nepn, ona ocranonnnact n nauana npncnymnnartcx. +ro
npemx noomen x nam xro-ro ns spxunx n nponen nac x nepn. xasa-
noct, uro x tna npana, xora ronopnna, uro mt yxe npomnn nept.
38. ax-ro x pasronapnnana c X., a xora on oromen or menx, x
ntmna n necrnmnt, noromy uro xorena norn n xyxnm sa uannxom.
ora x npoxonna no necrnmnm, mne noxasanoct no sanaxy, uro X.
cronr ram. nomna n xopnop n na necxontxo cexyn ocranonnnact.
ne noymanoct, uro X. noer sa mno na xyxnm. e oxanmnct
ero, x nomna cama. o norom oxasanoct, uro X. ecrnnrentno nomen
sa mno. croxna n xyxne, pasronapnnana c . . pyr ona ornx-
nynact n cxasana mne: t snaere, n nepxx cronr X. n cmorpnr, xax
x c namn ronopm~. o cnx nop ne snam, nouemy mne rax xasanoct,
uro X. noer sa mno n xyxnm. ncnomnnam rontxo, uro, nepe rem
xax ntrn n xopnop, x nonpannna na cee nnarte n nonoct n noy-
mana: " nanepno, nonnrepecyercx, xya x conpamct nrn~.
39. naxt neuepom, n ror uac, xora onxna npnxonrt nou-
nax exypnax, x xax pas ncxana ee. nouyncrnonana, uro xro-ro
npomen no xomnare. nosnana. oomna . . ora x nauana c
nem ronopnrt, x nouyncrnonana, uro +ro or nee naxner xneom. t
xymaere xne?~ - a, xymam. nt no sanaxy uyncrnye-
re?~ - a~.
40. nn pas x no sanaxy ysnana, uro ecrt apnxoct. 3ro tno
rax. nauane nmnx x naxonnact n ropoe . norne ronopnnn, uro
n +ro nero nnoxo ypoxa na apnxoct n uro onn ouent oporn. e,
y xoro x rocrnna, pexo noxynann apnxoct, no nce xe noxynann.
ax-ro yrpom mt nnnn ua. xomnare naxno pto n nomnopamn,
no, necmorpx na +ror sanax, x nce-raxn nouyncrnonana sanax apn-
xocon. cnpocnna y .: t noxynana ceronx apnxoct?~ - a,
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xynnna, no x eme ne ycnena nx nomtrt, n onn nexar n rapenxe na
+rom crone~.
41. rocrnna n epenne y snaxomtx. nn pas, xora x sanrpa-
xana, x nouyncrnonana, uro n xomnare sanaxno monm oexononom.
nosnana . n cnpocnna: ee npannrcx mo oexonon?~ na cmy-
rnnact: a, npannrcx~. . crano crtno, n ona cxasana: t ns-
nnnn menx, uro x es paspemennx epy rno oexonon. rontxo xo-
rena nocmorpert~.
42. ax-ro nerom mt c . . unrann n cay. Ftno ouent xapxo.
- nx, a mne ocnexnrtcx oexononom,- nonpocnna ona.
- onre n nostmnre y menx n mxa]y. unaxon cronr c npano
cropont.
. . nomna. o xora ona cnona noomna xo mne, x nouyncrno-
nana, uro or nee naxner yxcycom, a ne oexononom. nauana cme-
xrtcx.
- ouemy or nac yxcycom naxner?
- oromy, uro rt menx omanyna.
- ax omanyna?
- rex ram cronr yxcyc, a oexonona ner.
- xcyc antme cronr, a oexonon npxmo cnpana n ontmo
yrtnouxe. asne nt no sanaxy ne mornn ysnart, re yxcyc n re
oexonon?
- ysnana rontxo rora, xora yxe ncx onnnact yxcycom.
43. ora-ro ns . npnesxana mox nopyra. or nee uyncrno-
nana sanax yxon nmosa~. ora ona yexana n npncnana mne
nnctmo, x cpasy ysnana, uro ono or nee, noromy uro ono naxno y-
xamn nmosa~.
44. ax-ro mox nopyra samna xo mne co cnonm ronapnmem.. ero
nnena nepnt pas, no, xora on noomen xo mne, x no sanaxy onpe-
ennna, uro on uenonex uncronnornt. ne omnnact. s paccxason
o nem x ysnana, uro on ouent uncronnornt.
45. nn pas x xonna na xnaprnpy x . . ora x samna n ee
xomnary, ro cpasy nouyncrnonana sanax xepocnna. uro nt enann
sect c xepocnnom?~-cnpocnn:a x. cnyuano onpoxnnyna xe-
pocnnxy n +ro xomnare, n xepocnn nect ntnnncx na non~,-orne-
uana . .
46. tna y cnoe nopyrn. t conpannct yxonrt na ynnny,
no+romy npoxonno uepes xyxnm. nouyncrnonana sanax cenexn n
cxasana o +rom nopyre. na ornernna: ama ceuac uncrnr ce-
nexy~.
47. o npemx urennx c . . x nouyncrnonana, uro or nee naxner
xnoxamn. t xymaere xnoxo?~ - a~.
48. nn pas x nouyncrnonana n cronono sanax cnpenn. cnpo-
cnna y . .: a crone cronr cnpent?~ - er~,- nouemy xe n
cronono naxner cnpentm?~ - 3ro x naymnnact yxamn n-
pent~,- orneuana . .- er, x uyncrnym sanax nneron~. . . no-
cmorpena na cron n cxasana mne: n ne samernna, uro na crone
cronr cnpent. ymana, uro rt uyncrnyemt sanax yxon~.
49. t c . . unrann n cronono nosne oxna. nce npemx uyn-
crnonana sanax nneron, xoropte yxe nauann ynxart. cnpocnna y
. .: rxya +ro naxner nneramn?~ - ne snam, x nx nnre ne
nnxy~. noomna x y]ery, nnert sanaxnn cnntnee. oraanact,
uro na nepxy y]era croxr nnert. nosnana . , na nocmorpena
na nepx y]era n cxasana: a, ram croxr nnert~. t nx ocrann,
onn ecrnnrentno yxe nauann ynxart.
50. ax-ro x ntmna n necrnmnt n nouyncrnonana sanax xpacxn.
cnpocnna . .: ouemy naxner xpacxo?~ na ornernna:
pnxonnn manxpt, no onn nnuero ne xpacnnn, rontxo nocmor-
penn~.
51. nac n ymtnantno xomnare tn pemonr, no+romy . . y-
pana nce ercxne nonorenna, n rom uncne n moe. na cnoxnna nce
nonorenna nmecre, a xora x cnpocnna y nee o cnoem nonorenne, ona
ne morna ero narn, nce nonorenna tnn onnaxont. na mne ana
ono nonorenne, x nonmxana ero n cxasana: 3ro nonorenne apn,
x no sanaxy uyncrnym~. ora . noxasana mne nce nonorenna, n no
sanaxy x namna cnoe.
52. ne nyxno tno nocmorpert na uact. ora x samna n cro-
nonym, x nouyncrnonana sanax xnea n xncenx. ouent ynnnnact,
uro rax cxopo npomno npemx. nac yxnn n 8 uacon, a x ne ymana,
urot yxe tno 8 uacon. nocmorpena na uact, tno uerneprt 8-ro.
oxonuarentno pacrepxnact n no+romy nosnana . . ouemy rax
pano yxnn? nn uact orcramr?~ - er, uact ne orcramr, +ro x
xouy pantme npnroronnrt yxnn~.
53. ora x sannmanact na npnope c X,, x nouyncrnonana n nao-
paropnn sanax nannpoc. ro npnmen?~ - cnpocnna x y X. pn-
mna . . nepennctnart meent~.
54. nn pas mt nce rynxnn n cay, a xora npnmnn n xomnary,
x cxasana . .: ro +ro neanno tn sect, X. nnn . .?~ - o-
uemy rt rax ymaemt? nnxoro ne cntmana~.- axner yxa-
mn~.- x nnuero ne uyncrnym. oxer trt, xro-nnyt n tn~.
55. ro npemx xora x n . . paorann n naoparopnn, x nouyn-
crnonana, uro xro-ro saxypnn. ne snana xro, rax xax ram paoran
xoncrpyxrop n tn X. ro ceuac xypnr?~ -cnpocnna x. X.~,-
ornernna . .
56. ntmna ns cnoe xomnart n nouyncrnonana n y]erno xom-
nare sanax . . noomna x rene]ony. . . croxna ram.
57. tna n ymtnantno xomnare n nouyncrnonana, uro . .
nnsxo or menx. xopomo snam sanax . " no+romy ynepenno no-
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snana ee. na noomna. nosnana nac noromy, uro nouyncrnonana
nam sanax~.
58. naxt nem y nac tn cnntnt yrap or oronnennx. sa-
mernna +ro cpasy, xax rontxo noxnnncx cnat sanax, no ne snana,
orxya on ner. ora sanax tn yxe ouent cnntnt, x cnpocnna
y..:
- ruero +ro raxo yrap n xomnarax?
- e snam. n xaxnx xomnarax?
- ese.
- oxer trt, saronnnn nanny?
- er, x ceuac tna n nanno, ram xax pas +roro sanaxa ner.
- ceuac noy ysnam,- cxasana . . ora x nomna sann-
martcx n naoparopnm, ram sanax tn eme cnntnee. cxasana u.,
uro y menx pasonenact ronona or raxoro sanaxa.
nt uyncrnyere sanax?
n sect ouent cnntnt,-
cxasana x. u. ornernna:
- emnoxxo uyncrnym, no on mne ne ocoenno memaer.
neuepy yrapa yxe ne tno, no y menx nce-raxn o noun onena
ronona.
59. ora xo mne noomna . ., x cnpocnna ee: ouemy or nac
naxner na]rannnom?~ - naenana mnxny, a ona tna nepect-
nana na]rannnom, n, nepoxrno, sanax eme ocrancx na nonocax~.
60. ora x samna n ymtnantnym, x nouyncrnonana, uro ram nax-
ner nsnecrtm. cnpocnna y . .: ymtnantno ecrt paoune?~ -
a, ecrt, onn ram uro-ro enamr~.
61. ora x ronopnna c . ., x nouyncrnonana, uro or nee naxner
npocrtm mtnom, e cxasana o +rom. mtna ronony na nx
romy nasa~.- mtnom naxner ouent cnntno, xax yro nt rontxo
ceronx nomtnn ronony~.
62. nac tn pemonr nanno, n x ymana, uro n +ror ent nan-
nym ronnrt ne yyr. o xora x samna rya, x nouyncrnonana no
sanaxy, uro nnnry n nanno rontxo uro saronnnn.
63. samna ns necrnmnx n y]ernym xomnary n ysnana no sa-
naxy, uro ram X. n croxn cnnno x nepn n ne nnan menx. no-
omna x nemy n rponyna ero pyxo, rora on nonepnyncx xo mne.
64. eronx, xora x cena oeart, x no sanaxy ysnana, uro na
nepnoe mn, na nropoe ctpnnxn, ne omnnact.
65. naxt x n , ntmnn ns moe xomnart n necrnmnt. am
naxno nannpocamn. cxasana .: cnn rt uyncrnyemt sect sanax
nannpoc, rax +ro noromy, uro nanepxy n naoparopnn paoramr n xy-
pxr, a sanax uyncrnyercx raxxe sect~.
66. samna n cnom xomnary n no sanaxy ysnana, uro n xomnare
rontxo uro nomtnn non. nocmorpena pyxo, non tn eme moxpt.
67. samna n y]ernym xomnary n nouyncrnonana ram sanax
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nocroponnnx nme. cnpocnna y . .: ro npnmen?~ - pn-
mnn cnecapn~.
68, nonyunna n enteno cnoe ente n nnarte. ne ann ony
nemt, x ne ycnena eme nocmorpert, uro +ro raxoe, no yxe no sanaxy
ysnana, uro +ro tno moe nnarte.
69. ne nyxna tna . . ee snana n xomnary, no ona ne noo-
mna. uepes necxontxo mnnyr nocne +roro x ns necrnmnx samna n
y]ernym xomnary n no sanaxy ysnana, uro . . tna ram. noo-
mna x rene]ony - ona croxna y rene]ona.
70. ora x nomna n crononym x sanrpaxy, x no sanaxy ysnana,
uro na sanrpax tnn nnnunxn, ne omnnact.
71. samna n nannym xomnary n no sanaxy ysnana, uro n xom-
nare nexnr moxpoe ente, nocmorpena pyxo, n ecrnnrentno, n
nanno tno ente.
72. naxt, xora . . npnmna na paory, x cnpocnna y nee:
ouemy or nac naxner xapentm xapro]enem?~ - oma xapnna
ero n nomna cma npxmo ns xyxnn~.
73. nn pas x ortxana n ycnyna. nxmax, x nouyncrnonana,
uro nosne menx naxno xnoxom. no cne noymana, uro +ro mne rax
xaxercx. o xora x npocnynact, nosne menx ecrnnrentno nexano
xnoxo, xoropoe mne nonoxnna . .
74. rynxna n cay c . ., a xora mt samnn n om n npnmnn
n crononym, x cxasana: ect naxner xnoxamn~. , . cnpocnna:
axnmn, cnexnmn nnn neuentmn?~ - euentmn~,- ornernna
x,- a, neuente xnoxn nexar n y]ere~.
75. ax-ro xo mne noomna , . cpasy nouyncrnonana uro or
nee naxner semne n nneramn. ynnnnact, rax xax ymana, uro mne
+ro noxasanoct. . . cxasana: ree copnana nocnenne nnert n
namem cay~,- n ana mne nnert.
76. cnn y namnx cocee sannerana enax axannx, x +ro uyncr-
nonana cpasy, xora nxonna n ca.
77. ax-ro pas x nent ent uyncrnonana n cnantne cnntnt sa-
nax nantme. o x ne snana, y xoro ns ere croxr nantmn. ne
noxasanoct, uro sanax ocoenno cnntno uyncrnyercx rora, xora x
npoxoxy mnmo oxna. noomna x oxny n namna ram craxan c y-
xerom nantme.
78. as x samna n crononym n nouyncrnonana sanax eno axa-
nnn. snana, uro y nac na crone croxnn nnert, no axannn ram ne
tno rora, xora x nx cmorpena. noomna x crony n cnona ocmor-
pena nnert. onapyxnna cpen nnx necxontxo nerox eno
axannn,
79. ax-ro necno, n ro npemx xora nnena uepemyxa, x nosnpa-
manact omo co cnoe nespxue nopyro. opyre xasanoct, uro
mt eme ne omnn o namero napanoro; a mne xasanoct, uro mt xax
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pas naxonmcx npornn napanoro. t yxe npomnn, noromy uro
sect ouent naxner uepemyxo, a ona pacrer neanexo or namero na-
panoro~. o nopyra npoonxana nrn antme. axonen, ona same-
rnna no rporyapy, uro mt yxe npomnn nam nxo, n nepnynact o-
parno. ora mt noomnn x nepn, x cxaaana nopyre: onepnnct
nor n +ry cropony, ram pacrer uepemyxa, nor no+romy x n snana, uro
mt yxe npomnn napanoe~.
80. ax-ro y nac noryx +nexrpnuecxn cner. exypnax . . oc-
ranact n nonno remnore, axe es cnnuex. n +ro npemx tna c
nem. noy n xyxnm ncxart cnnuxn n namny~,-cxasana . .
npononna ee n necrnmnt n ocranact xart ee n y]erno xom-
nare. ora ona nepnynact, x no sanaxy ysnana, uro ona ner c sax-
xenno cnnuxo. namnt ne namna. uro mne enart n remnore?~-
xora-ro nnena n y]ere cneuy. oxer trt, ona n re-
nept ram?~-cxasana x. ecrnnrentno, x namna cneuy n y]e-
re. nacno ree, uro rt ntpyunna menx ns et~,-cxa-
sana . .
81. samna n ymtnantnym xomnary n omyrnna sanax mxrntx
xanent. ortcxana . . n cnpocnna ee: t tnn n ymtnantno c
mxrntmn xannxmn?~ - a, tna~. nouyncrnonana, uro or . .
eme naxner mxrntmn xannxmn.
82. ax-ro anno x cnena n naoparopnn n neuarana na mamnn-
xe. pyr x nouyncrnonana sanax yxon, a sarem utn-ro marn. ro-ro
ocranonnncx neanexo or menx. noymana: ro t +ro mor trt?
et X. n ocxne~. o uepes cexyny x ysnana, uro +ro ecrnn-
rentno X., xorx mne nnxro ne ronopnn o rom, uro on yxe npnexan.
ora X. noomen xo mne, on cxasan: rontxo uro npnexan ns
ocxnt~.
83. ymam, uro ne cenam ontmo omnxn, ecnn nontramct
cpannnrt oprant uyncrn (oonxnne, ocxsanne n np.) cnenornyxone-
mtx co spennem n cnyxom spxunx n cntmamnx. et ecnn paspa-
xart cnyx xaxnmn-nnyt pesxnmn snyxamn, a spenne xaxnmn-nno
nenpnxrntmn spnrentntmn nneuarnennxmn, ro spxune nnn cntma-
mne rax nnn nnaue orneuamr na paspaxenne. ouno rax xe n cne-
n.ornyxo yer pearnponart, ecnn ero ocxsanne nnn oonxnne pas-
paxaercx uem-nno n oxpyxamme ero ocranonxe. anpnmep, ec-
nn x omymam xaxo-nnyt sanax, xoropt mne npannrcx nnn, na-
oopor, ne npannrcx, x yxe naunnam na nero pearnponart. cnn +ro
ncrpeuaercx n ro npemx, xora x sannmamct, x yxe ne mory cnoxono
sannmartcx. naxt, xora x unrana c . ., ona necxontxo pas
ncranana ymnrtcx. yxn y nee tnn nnoxne, pesxne, c npnmectm
sanaxa xaxo-ro rpant. menx cnauana noxnnnact nerxax romnora,
a sarem nauana onert ronona. nonpocnna . .: cnn moxno, ne
ymnrect no npemx urennx. 3rn yxn ouent nnoxne, n or nnx onnr
ronona~. . . nooemana ne ymnrtcx n, xaxercx, concem sapo-
cnna cnon yxn.
84. nn pas x cena unrart c . . n nouyncrnonana, uro or nee
naxner naneptxnxo.
- t uem-nnyt paccrpoent? - cnpocnna x.
- uro?
- r nac naxner naneptxnxo, n x noymana, uro nt ee rontxo
uro nnnn.
- a, y menx ceuac nnoxo c cepnem, n x npnnxna naneptxnxy.
85. naxt x mna no xopnopy c . . na ocranonnnact n na-
uana c xem-ro ronopnrt. nouyncrnonana sanax oexonona an-
tm~ n noymana, uro . . ronopnr c . . ora mt nomnn, x
cnpocnna: t ronopnnn c . .?~ - a~.
86. cnena n cronono na nnane n nouyncrnonana no sanaxy,
uro npnmna . . cronono ee eme ne tno, ona tna nnn n necrn-
mne, nnn n y]erno xomnare. ora x nouyncrnonana ee marn n
cronono, x nosnana . . na noomna xo mne.
87. ax-ro x unrana c . . n nouyncrnonana concem nnsxo sanax
mannnt. ouemy naxner mannno?~ - oromy uro u. npnnecna
ree mannny n cronr nosne nac, xer, noxa x ree ounram ]pasy~.
88. . II. nosnana menx yxnnart. snana, uro na yxnn yer
xaxax-nnyt xama, no xora x samna n crononym, x nouyncrnonana
sanax xamn n eme sanax nomnopon. cena na cnoe mecro n namna
ram rapenouxy c nomnopamn, n pxom c nem croxna rapenxa c
xame.
89. o mne samna ona ns cnentx. ora x x ne noomna, x no-
uyncrnonana, uro or nee naxner poso. ouemy or rex naxner po-
so?~ - oromy uro y menx ecrt posa~.
90. ora x ncrpernnact co cnoe nopyro F., x cpasy nouyncr-
nonana, uro or nee naxner oexononom amenne~. t ymnnact
amenne~?~ - cnpocnna x.- a~.
91. ax-ro x nomna n ymtnantnym xomnary n eme n nepxx, no-
uyncrnonana sanax apnapt. noymana, uro apnapa xynaercx.
ora x samna n nannym, ram ecrnnrentno tna apnapa, yxe
paserax.
92. n . cnenn n moe xomnare. omyrnna sanax cyna n cxa-
sana: xe . . pasnnnaer oe~.- x axe ne oparnna nnnma-
nnx, xorx ona cryunr rapenxamn~,- ornernna .
93. neuarana na mamnnxe n cnoe xomnare n npyr omyrnna
sanax nannpoct. nonepnynact n cnpocnna: 3ro nt, . .?~ -
a, x~.
94. samna n crononym n ysnana no sanaxy, uro sanrpax yxe na
crone. nomna mtrt pyxn, a xora mna ns ymtnantno, . . cxa-
sana mne, urot x cannact sanrpaxart,
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95. unrana n xomnare nrp c . ., a xora ntmna n crononym,
nouyncrnonana sanax mxrntx xanent. oraanact, uro yxe npn-
mna . . uepes nec.xontxo mnnyr nocne +roro x samna n cnom xom-
nary. . . paorana sa monm cronom. 3ro nt tnn n cronono, xor-
a x mna ns xomnart nrp?~ - a~.
96. nent ent paorana n ouent ycrana. cnoonnact x sa
uac o yxnna n nerna na nnane n cronono, urot nemnoro orox-
nyrt. cpasy nauana sactnart, no npyr omyrnna sanax X. y-
mana, uro on nooer xo mne, n npnnonxna ronony. o on ne noo-
men. ora mne noxasanoct, uro on ymen, x nomna n xomnary nrp
n cnpocnna y . .: Ftn ceuac X,?~ - a, na mnnyrxy sa-
xonn~.
97. na nx tna y cnoe nopyrn, a xora nepnynact x cee n
nncrnryr n nomna n ymtnantnym xomnary, ro cpasy (eme ne nxox
n xomnary) nouyncrnonana xaxo-ro sanax, xoroporo y nac pantme
ne tno. ox n ymtnantnym, x ocranonnnact, urot nyume ys-
nart, uro +ro sa sanax. anax tn nemnoro noxox na sanax cocnono
cmont. uepes necxontxo mnnyr mne cxasann, uro n ymtnantno na
nnnre cymnrcx nax.
98. ax-ro xo mne noomen X. nouyncrnonana or nero sanax un-
croro nosyxa. t tnn ceuac na ynnne?~ - a, x rontxo uro
npnmen~.
99. o mne noomna . . e nt ceuac tnn?~-cnpocnna
x. rontxo uro npnmna ns ropoa~.- a, or nac naxner uncrtm
nosyxom~.
100. ora-ro x samna n cnantnm n nouyncrnonana sanax yxon.
3ror sanax tn noxox na sanax yxon X. noymana, uro, nepoxrno,
npnxonn X. o xora x noomna x cryny, na xoropom paorana, sa-
nax uyncrnonancx eme cnntnee. nnuero ne nonnmana. cxope xo
mne noomna . . n cxasana: or ree nepeann yxn~. yxn cro-
xnn na moem crone.
101. tna y cnoe spxue snaxomo. na xorena nayunrtcx un-
rart no Fpanm, n x e nanncana panencxym asyxy. yxno tno
no xaxo panencxo yxno nanncart spxuym yxny. naxomax
nsxna uepnnna n cena nncart. ora snaxomax rontxo npnnecna uep-
nnna, x nouyncrnonana cnat sanax yxon. cnpocnna y nee:
- t ymnnact?
- er, y menx axe yxon ner.
- . nouemy xe naxner yxamn?
- e snam. ne uyncrnym sanaxa yxon.
na npoonxana nncart. o x nce-raxn ne nepecranana uyncrno-
nart. axonen, snaxomax oraanact. na mne noxasana yrtnouxy,
n xoropo tnn uepnnna. 3ra yrtnouxa tna pantme c yxamn, n
sanax n ne eme coxpannncx.
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102. o mne xax-ro npnmnn cnente enouxn. r ono; ns nnx
naxno ne ro nasennnom, ne ro nomao, n x cnpocnna y nee:
- uem rt namasanact?
- nuem.
- enpana, or rex naxner uem-ro.
ora enouxa cxasana: masanact ymncro nomao~.
103. a oeom x nouyncrnonana sanax xnox. ora x pana
xne co cnoe rapenouxn, x onapyxnna ram xnoxo.
104. ax-ro y corpynnxon tno copanne, a x rynxna n cay.
pyr x nouyncrnonana sanax nannpoct . . na ncera xypnr
onn n ror xe copr nannpoc, n x yxe esomnouno ysnam, ecnn ona
xypnr n cay. ocranonnnact npornn roro mecra, re x nouyncr-
nonana . ,, n nosnana ee. na noomna xo mne. nac oxonunnoct
copanne?~ - a, rontxo uro oxonunnoct~.
105. o mne onaxt noomna . . nouyncrnonana or nee
sanax maxopxn. ouemy or nac naxner raaxom?~ - e snam, x
xe ne xypm~.- re nt ceuac tnn?~ - tna y cex n xnap-
rnpe. am paoramr paoune n xypxr. epoxrno, x roxe nponaxna
maxopxo~.
106. exana xax-ro pas noutm n . cnana, no nce-raxn cxnost
con uyncrnonana, uro n xyne ncm nout xypnnn. rpom X.. cnpocnn
menx: ax ree cnanoct?~ - nuero, rontxo x ncm nout uyncr-
nonana, uro sect xypxr~.- a, sect eyr xypxmne~.
107. nept ns moe xomnart ntxonr n y]ernym xomnary, ue-
pes xoropym nce npoxoxr n pyrne xomnart. ora x noxyct cnart,
x ncera npnxptnam nepn, rax xax uacro menx ynr xaxo-nnyt
sanax, ecnn nept tnaer orxptra. rpom, xora ern eme cnxr, a
nounax exypnax yxe ncraer, ona orxptnaer crannn n ]oprou.xy n
cronono, n, ecnn y menx n xomnare nept orxptra, menx ynr cne-
xn nosyx.
108. nexana, ortxana. o mne noomen X. n nonoxnn pyxy na
moe nneuo. eme ne ycnena nsxrt ero sa pyxy, no yxe no sanaxy
ysnana, uro +ro on.
109. sannmanact c X. y nero n xannere. pyr noryx cner.
+rom mne cxasan X. orom x omyrnna 3airax saxxenno cneun. t
saxnrann cneuy?~ - cnpocnna x. a, saxer~.
110. rynxna n cay c . pyr x n . nouyncrnonann sanax-
oexonona. ora x nomna n xomnary, x cnpocnna y . .: ro
npnxonn n ca?~ - nxro~.- ax xe nnxro, net x n . uyncr-
nonann sanax oexonona~.- satna, +ro npnxonna x~.
III. naxt x unrana c . . nouyncrnonana no sanaxy, uro
npnmen X. n uro on cronr neanexo or nac. . . npoonxana un-
rart n nnuero mne ne ronopnna. X. tn mnnyr 10. ora on ymen,
. . cxasana: ect tn X. n croxn neanexo or nac, x ne snam,
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xax x unrana ree. oxer trt, rt nnuero ne nonxna~.- nce no-
nnmana) no x uyncrnonana, uro X. tn sect~.
112. ne nyxna tna exypnax, no x ee ne namna n xomnare
nrp. e tno ee n n cnantne. ora x ntxonna eme ns cnoe xom-
nart, x nouyncrnonana n y]erno xomnare sanax nannpoc. o+romy,
xora x nnre ne namna exypno, x pernna, uro y corpynnxon
copanne n onn nce n xannenxpnn.
113. noomna x xannenxpnn n nemnoro npnorxptna nept.
ne n nnno yapnn rennt nosyx, rycro nactmennt raauntm
tmom. naunr, nce ceuac na copannn~,- cxasana x ., xoropax
cnena n moe xomnare. ne omnnact: y corpynnxon ecrnn-
rentno tno copanne.
114. cnena n cay co cnoe nopyro. eno tno nerom. t
cnenn na saropoxe xnymt. xouy neut na rpany~,- cxasana
nopyra. rt ne crecnxemtcx npncyrcrnnx X.?~-cnpocnna x.
ro sect ne cntmno~.- mne xaxercx, uro on n cay. ouent
xcno uyncrnym sanax ero yxon~. opyra tna nespxuax, no, xax
ona nn npncnymnnanact, ne ycntmana nnuero. a, X. tn sect n,
nanepnoe, neanexo or nac. ceuac x ne uyncrnym yxe ero sanaxa:
snaunr, on ymen~,- cxasana x.
115. tna y cex n xomnare. o mne npnmna . ora ona no-
omna xo mne, x nouyncrnonana, uro or nee naxner xanycro, xax
yro ona xymana opm. ouemy or rex opmom naxner?~ - e
snam... , x yxe nonxna: oma mama xapnna xanycry~.- or rt
ncx n nponaxna~.
116. u. nosnana menx unrart. t nauann unrart. o uepes ne-
cxontxo mnnyr x nouyncrnonana sanax xonact n xnea. cnpocnna
y u.: t ceuac ne sanrpaxaere?~ - er, oro . xymaer xonacy
sect sa cronom~.
117. ora-ro . . cnpocnna menx: ouemt rapann?~ ne no-
xasanoct, uro ona cxasana cnpent~, no+romy x ornernna: me t,
xoneuno, xouy~.- euac x ree npnnecy~. o xora . . cnona
noomna xo mne, x nouyncrnonana, uro or nee naxner nonce ne cn-
pentm, a pto. e xe y nac cnpent? r nac pto naxner~.-
ax x ree pty n npnnecna, a cnpenn y menx ner~.
118. euepom x sannmanact c . . xe tno 12 uacon noun.
nomna noxnrtcx cnart. o, xora x ntmna n necrnmnt, x nouyn-
crnonana cnntnt sanax nannpoc. nonxna, uro nanepxy n naopa-
ropnn eme paoraer X. c . . nepnynact x . . n cnpocnna: ax
nt ymaere, ne ymen nn eme . .?~ - e snam, ne cntmana~.-
mne xaxercx, uro eme ne ymen. emre nocmorpnm, ecrt nn ero
nantro na nemanxe~. t ntmnn n necrnmnt - nantro . . nnceno.
uyncrnym no sanaxy nannpoct, uro onn eme ne pasomnnct~.
119, unrana c . . pyr ona nepecrana unrart, uro-ro cxa-
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ig-
s-
sana mne tcrpo n ncrana. ee ne nonxna. uepes necxontxo cexyn
x nouyncrnonana sanax yxon. cne sa +rnm xo mne noomen X., xo-
ropt rontxo uro npnexan ns nena.
120. ax-ro x yxe conpanact noxnrtcx cnart n npyr nouyn-
crnonana n cnantne sanax yxon. uepes necxontxo mnnyr x nepe-
crana uyncrnonart sanax. ora x nosnana exypnym n cnpocnna:
ro npnxonn ceuac?~ - ect tna . .~.
121. ax-ro no npemx urennx c u. x nouyncrnonana n xanne sa-
nax xnoxa. ro +ro xymaer xnoxn?~-cnpocnna x. noxn
xymaer H.~.
122. naxt xo mne samen ronapnm. r nero ouent naxno t-
mom. cnpocnna: e ronnn nn rt ceronx neut?~ - er. ouemy
rt rax ymaemt?~ - a noromy, uro or rex rax n necer tmom~.-
ne snam nouemy. x, a! yxe ncnomnnn: y nac ceronx ouent
tmnna nnnra, n ncx xnaprnpa nanonnnnact tmom. uennno, n x
nponax nm~.
123. ax-ro no npemx uax x nouyncrnonana sanax oexonona. o-
ra x ntmna n y]ernym xomnary, sanax uyncrnonancx c ro cro-
pont, re naxonncx rene]on. noomna rya - ram croxna . .
124. menx tna " n x saepxanact c nem o roro npemenn,
xora nauann roronnrt cron x oey. ne xorenoct ntrn n ca xort
na 5 mnnyr. tcrpo oenact n ntmna. uepes 5 mnnyr x nepnynact
n xomnary n nouyncrnonana sanax cyna, no ern eme tnn n xomnare
nrp, n x pemnna, uro mory norynxrt eme necxontxo mnnyr. ymna
onxrt n ca n eme norynxna mnnyr 10.
125. nomna n cnantnm, urot nocmorpert na uact. a cronom
cnena . . roxe cena n nouyncrnonana sanax manapnnon nnn
anentcnnon concem nnsxo. pasronapnnana c . ,, no o sanaxe nn-
uero ne cnpocnna. uepes necxontxo mnnyr x cnyuano onapyxnna
na crone xopxn or manapnna.
126. ax-ro xo mne noomna . ., n x nouyncrnonana or nee
sanax manapnnon. ouemy or nac naxner manapnnamn?~ - o-
romy, uro x ynpana co crona xopxn or manapnnon~.
127. npocnynact n 6 uacon yrpa, no ncranart tno eme pano, n
x npoonxana nexart n nocrenn. uepes uac x nouyncrnonana nnxe-
nne n xomnare nrp. oraanact, uro nauann ynpart n xomnare. ue-
pes necxontxo mnnyr x omyrnna raxo sanax, xaxo tnaer npn
moxe nona. rxya mor trt +ror sanax? ne uyncrnonana, urot
yopmnna npnxonna n mom xomnary. noymana, uro n y]erno
xomnare momr non n orrya sanax nomen xo mne n xomnary, ne-
cmorpx na ro uro nept tna saxptra. ora x ncrana n ntmna n
y]ernym xomnary, ro nponepnna pyxo - non tn yxe ntmtr. ne-
onarentno, x ne omnnact, npenonoxnn, uro ns y]erno sanax
npomen n mom xomnary, xoropym eme ne ynpann.
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128. samna n crononym n ro npemx, xora roronnnn cron x san-
rpaxy, n ysnana no sanaxy, uro na sanrpax yer napent xapro-
]ent c cenexo. ne omnnact.
129. ne cxasana . ., uro y nac. ecrt nocernrenn, xoropte npn-
mnn nosnaxomnrtcx c namnm nncrnryrom. cnena n xomnare nrp
n pasronapnnana c . o sanaxy x nouyncrnonana, uro n xomnary
samnn namn nocernrenn. uepes necxontxo mnnyr xo mne noomna
. . n cxasana: nn sect~.
130. ax-ro x c . ntmna ns cnoe xomnart n y]ernym xom-
nary n omyrnna sanax pncono xamn. eronx na yxnn pnconax
xama~,- cxasana x. rora onosana na yxnn, no ern yxe noyxn-
nann, sanax pncono xamn eme uyncrnonancx n cronono n y]erno
xomnare.
131. naxt c yrpa x ymna x nopyre n nepnynact rontxo neue-
pom. ox n necrnmnt, x nouyncrnonana sanax nannpoct n cxa-
sana .: naunr, n naoparopnn paoramr na npnopom, noromy
uro x uyncrnym, xax cnntno naxypeno~.
132. tna y cnoe nopyrn . ora mt oeann, . cnena px-
om co mno. o sanaxy x ysnana, uro ona yxe ecr nropoe nmo.
ne omnnact.
133. tna n naoparopnn. ora x orrya ntmna, ro, naxo-
xct eme na nepxne nnomaxe necrnnnt, x nouyncrnonana sanax
nnnunxon n onpeennna, uro yxe naxptr cron x sanrpaxy. ora x
cnycrnnact nnns n npnmna n crononym, ern cannnct sa cron.
134. cnena n cnoe xomnare c . nept tna orxptra, n x no-
uyncrnonana sanax nannpoc. . xorena uro-ro mne ronopnrt, no x
ncrana n ntmna n y]ernym xomnary. ocranonnnact, rax xax no-
uyncrnonana, uro ner X. n noomen xo mne n cnpocnn, uro mne
nyxno. ornernna: ne nnuero ne nyxno. ntmna noromy, uro
nouyncrnonana sanax nannpoc~.- 3ro ns xannenxpnn naxner~,-
cxasan X.
135. ocmarpnnana yse oopyxenntx cnn . ocne roro
xora x ocmorpena uacrt mysex n mt copannct yxonrt, mon pyxn
tnn cnntno ncnauxant. ac npnrnacnnn n ony xomnary, urot x
nomtna pyxn. ne snana, uro sro sa xomnara tna, no cpasy, xax
rontxo mt n nee nomnn, x nouyncrnonana n ne ror ocot sanax,
xoropt tnaer n rex xomnarax, re nmemrcx xaxne-nnyt crapnn-
nte ymarn, npenapart n pyrne nemn nx nayunoro nontsonannx.
. , cxasana mne: t naxonmcx n xannere nx sanxrn nayu-
ntx paornnxon~.
136. ora . . npnmna co mno sannmartcx, x nouyncrnonana,
uro or nee naxner pesnno. euemy or nac naxner pesnno?~ -
oromy uro x npopaartnana c ertmn cnono mxu~ n epxana mxu
n pyxax~.
137. naxt x nosnpamanact c X. ns 3a. onom mecre x
nouyncrnonana sanax cnexero xnea. a pyro cropone ynnnt +ror
sanax ycnnnncx. cnpocnna y X.: uem naxner?~ - e snam, ne
pasepy~.- neom cnexnm~.- -a... a, sect na yrny nexapnx~.
138. tna n cnoe xomnare c . n uro-ro e ronopnna, xom-
nary tcrpo samen X. . no ycnena menx npeynpenrt o +rom. o
x cama o +rom ysnana no sanaxy n rnxo nosnana X. ora X. ntmen
ns xomnart, x cnpocnna y .: ouemy xe rt menx ne npeynpen-
na, uro npnmen X., net x xe c roo ronopnna n +ro npemx?~ -
ne ycnena npeynpenrt, a rt yxe cama nouyncrnonana~.
139. ax-ro yrpom x eme xpenxo cnana, xora . . npnmna menx
ynrt. ouyncrnonan, uro . . nonoxnna na moe nneuo pyxy, x
npocnynact n cpasy omyrnna sanax naxct. ora x concem npocny-
nact, ro nonxna, uro . . uncrnna erxm ornnxn.
140, nosnpamanact ns 3a c . . ora mt nepexonnn
ynnny, x cxasana: or sect na yrny nexapnx~.- a, orxya rt
snaemt?~ - no sanaxy xnea uyncrnym~.
141. mna c . . n 3. t tnn nourn nosne nncrnryra.
pyr x nouyncrnonana sanax xon]er. cnpocnna y . .:
- or n +rom mecre npoamr xon]ert?
- a, sect na ynnne npoamr.
142. mna no ynnne c . . n npyr nouyncrnonana sanax mara-
snna. cnpocnna:
- ect marasnn?
- er, xaxne-ro nopora.
- n xaxo nop nopora?
- ect ]pyxront marasnn.
- or nnnre, x xe uyncrnym no sanaxy, uro marasnn, a nt nn-
nre rontxo nopora.
143. nn pas x nexana na nnane n cronono. ro-ro cnerxa
rponyn menx sa nonoct, no x ne oparnna na +ro nnnmannx, ymax,
uro xro-nnyt ns ere cnyuano saen menx. pyr xpa xanara
saxptn mne nnno. o sanaxy x ysnana, uro +ro tna . ., xoropax
uacro myrnr co mno.
144. sannmanact c . . n moe xomnare. ora mt cenann
nepeptn, x nomna nnrt noy. ax onxrt n xomnary, x omyrnna
sanax . . n cnpocnna . .: ect . .?~ - a~.- o-ro x
uyncrnym, uro em sect naxner~.
145. ax-ro x xorena norn n xomnary nrp. o xora x samna n
crononym, x nouyncrnonana neanexo or cex sanax X. yntny-
nact n es ncxxo npnunnt nepnynact onxrt n cnom xomnary. uepes
necxontxo mnnyr nocne +roro xo mne noomen X., n x nouyncrnonana
or nero ror xe sanax, xoropt uyncrnonana n n cronono.
146. ax-ro x croxna n cronono nosne cronnxa n nnna noy.
nmo menx npomna . . annnmnct not, x nomna n cnom xom-
nary. o, nnmt rontxo x samna n xomnary, cpasy nouyncrnonana n
xomnare sanax . 3ro tno rax neoxnanno, uro x or ynnnennx
ocranonnnact, ymax, uro mne npocro nouynncx sanax . o x ne
omnnact. . ecrnnrentno cnena y menx n xomnare.
- t anno npnmna?
- er, rontxo uro.
- xro ree orxptn nept?
- . .
- ouemy xe ona mne nnuero ne cxasana? et ona ceuac npo-
xonna mnmo menx.
- na xorena ree cxasart, no, xora ynnena, uro rt nemt
cma, pemnna, uro rt n cama ysnaemt o rom, uro x npnmna.
- a x n ysnana, no ne nonepnna cee.
147. naxt y menx tna . +ro npemx . . nosnana menx
nnrt ua. ocne uax, npoxox uepes y]ernym xomnary, x nouyncr-
nonana ram sanax ., a xora npnmna n cnom xomnary, . ne tno.
nepnynact n y]ernym xomnary, noomna x crony n ysnana, uro
. nter ua. t sect? x ynnnnact, nouemy sect naxner roo~.
148. o mne noomna . . (eno tno neuepom) n cnpocnna:
- cnn xouemt, nem nounraem.
- pasne cner ecrt?
- a, ecrt, nouemy rt ymaemt, uro ne tno cnera?
- oromy uro x ceuac uyncrnonana sanax ropxme cneun.
- a, cneua ropena; +ro . . saxrna cneuy n xomnare nrp,
rax xax ncxana na nony xaxym-ro menxym nrpymxy.
149. naxt neuepom x unrana n cronono. neanno ncrana
nocne rpnnna n eme ne concem nonpannnact; x tna ncx saxyrana,
n axe uacrt nnna tna saxptra, npnuem mo noc concem tn
cnpxran no nnarxom. o nor x nouyncrnonana sanax ropxme cneun,
enx +ro sannrepeconano, n x nomna n xomnary nrp.
- . ., +ro y nac ropnr cneua?
- axe ne, a uro?
- uyncrnonana, uro ropnr cneua, n npnmna nponepnrt.
- ner noryx, n x saxrna cneun, a onn rex ecnoxoxr axe
uepes nnarox,- nomyrnna . .
150. unrana c . . n npyr omyrnna ror sanax, xaxo otu-
no tnaer n anrexe. ne nonnmana, orxya ncxonn +ror sanax.
anax uyncrnonancx concem nnsxo. nonoxnna pyxy na cron n o-
napyxnna na nem xyneuex c mamnynem, xoropt rontxo uro xy-
nnna n anrexe . . n nonoxnna na cron nosne menx. xe rax nnn-
marentno cnymana urenne, uro ne samernna, xora noxonna
. ., a nor sanax nouyncrnonana cpasy, necmorpx na ro uro tna
cocpeorouena.
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151. a yxnnom . . noxasana mne, uro ona nocrannna sa ra-
penxo nmne.
- uro n nmne? - cnpocnna x.
- ama ysnaemt,- ornernna . .
oena xamy n crana ocranart nmne. pexe uem x ycnena
nocrannrt nmne nosne cex, x nouyncrnonana sanax xannt n no
+romy sanaxy ysnana, uro n nmne tna xanna.
152. ne snana o rom, uro n cay tn xonoen xanannsannn,
npnxptrt rontxo xycxom tpxnoro xenesa. xonna no cay (on
mne tn eme nesnaxom). ora x noomna x xycry cnpenn, mox
npanax nora nonana n xaxym-ro tpxy; n ro xe npemx no neno
noro oropnancx xycox ptxno semnn, n oe norn crann cxontsnrt
n xmy. nouyncrnonana sanax uero-ro sarxnoro n saxpnuana. nc-
nyre x yxnarnnact sa nerxn cnpenn, n onn menx cnacnn or naennx
n xmy. Hennxxct sa xycr, x ntnyna nory ns xmt. o mne noexan
onn mantunx n ynen menx or xonona xanannsannn.
...,,.,-... 153. cxasana F., uro y X. yxn amennx~.
- - er, +ro y menx amennx~,-nospasnna F.
: - y nero roxe,- cxasana x.
- nero nosnxa~.
- t omnaemtcx, nosnxa~ y menx.
F. onro ne cornamanact co mno, no norom cnpocnna y X.,
n on e cxasan, uro y nero yxn amennx~.
154. mna c . . no ynnne. na mne nnuero ne cxasana n
cpasy nonepnyna nox. t noomnn x nepn, n x ynnnenno cnpo-
cnna: asne nam n anrexy nyxno?~ - a~.
155. unrana c . . n cnoe xomnare. o sanaxy x nouyncrno-
nana, uro X. n eme xro-ro npnmen n xomnary. rnxo cnpocnna y
. .: ro npnmen?~ - pnmen X. c xem-ro ns peaxnnn~.
156. rynxna no ynnne c ." mt xonnn noxpyr namero oma.
ora mt nonopaunnann, x ncera snana, n xaxym cropony mt nem.
o nor x o uem-ro saymanact n satna, nonopaunnann N mt n
oparnym cropony. ora mt npoxonnn mnmo anrexn, x cpasy no-
uyncrnonana sanax n ysnana, n xaxym cropony mt nem.
157. npnmna ns ropoa n, ena nomna n necrnmnt, nouyn-
crnonana sanax opma. amn yxe oeamr~,- cxasana x. ne
omnnact: ern yxe cnenn sa cronom.
158. unrana c . ., no nor ona ocranonnnact n o uem-ro na-
uana ronopnrt. noymana, uro . . ronopnr c ., noromy uro or
roro, xro noomen, cnntno naxno xyxne. nonno yraan mom mtcnt,
. . cxasana: a, nx, x ronopm c .~.
159. ne nyxna tna . ., x ee n xomnare ne namna n nomna
n nannym. ox rya, x .no sanaxy ysnana, uro xynaercx .
160. naxt mne cnyuano nonanoct ro nonorenne, xoroptm
ntrnpanact ., x +ro cpasy ysnana no sanaxy. ocne +roro x crana
cnenrt, 4TO("ii,i mne ne nonaanoct nonorenne . nn pas x ncxana
cnoe nonorenne, r.osne menx tna . . ora x no sanaxy namna
nonorenne ., x ana ero nonmxart . . or +ro nonorenne .~.
o . . ornernna: nnxaxoro sanaxa ne uyncrnym; no-moemy, nce
onnaxonoro sanaxa~.
161. ax-ro sa sanrpaxom mne ann ua es monoxa. nonxna,
uro monoxa ner. ora x nannnact uam n noomna x pyromy crony,
ro ynnena na crone xo]ennx. osne menx tna . . cnpocnna:
- eronx ner monoxa?
- er.
- uro +ro n xo]ennxe?
, ne oxnaxct ornera, x nsxna xo]ennx n nonecna ero x
nnny.
- , +ro xo]e,- cxasana x n nocrannna xo]ennx oparno na
cron.
162. tna y ., n mt cnenn n canxe. ac nosnann n xom-
nary oeart. ora x nomna n xomnary, ro cpasy onpeennna no
sanaxy, uro na oe cyn n xapxoe. ne omnnact.
163. tna na neuepe. me tno mnoro, a cneonarentno, n
mnoro ncxxnx sanaxon. pyr x nouyncrnonana snaxomt mne sanax
oexonona. 3ror sanax x uyncrnonana xax-ro or . ., no x snana, uro
. . ocranact exypnrt n xnnnnxe. noymana, uro, moxer trt,
npnmna cecrpa . ., n cnpocnna o +rom y . . er, x nnre no
nnxy cecrpt . .~,- orneuana . .
uepes necxontxo mnnyr nocne +roro x nam noomna cecrpa
. ., n x nouyncrnonana, uro or nee naxner nmenno rem oexono-
nom, sanax xoroporo x n nouyncrnonana.
IR4. no npemx x unrana c . . Bexcnnpa. as . . rono-
pnr mne:
- 3ra xnnra eme naxner rnnorpa]cxo xpacxo; nepoxrno, ona
neanno ntmna ns neuarn, n no+romy y menx rax cnntno eper n
ropn;e, xora x naunnam unrart +ry xnnry.
- e moxer trt, +ra xnnra yxe crapax n concem ne naxner
rnnorpa]cxo xpacxo,- ornernna x.
ecrnnrentno, xnnra tna crapax, nsannax n 1902 r.
165. ne nyxen tn X., x nomna x ero xannery. ora x npo-
xonna uepes nepxnn necrnmnt, ro nouyncrnonana, uro ns sana
naxner nannpocamn. ynnnnact n ocranonnnact.
snana, uro y nac nnxoro n +ro npemx ne tno. orom x ncnom-
nnna, uro na uaca nasa y nac tna +xcxypcnx. naoparopnn
tnn +xcxypcanrt, no+romy ram n tno naxypeno.
166. ax-ro x nouyncrnonana, uro y nac n ome naxner xpacxo.
nauana x ne nonxna, orxya +ror sanax, no uepes necxontxo mnnyr
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coopasnna: x ncnomnnna, uro pemonr n xannere X. ne saxonuen
n, no nce nepoxrnocrn, ram xpacxr uro-nnyt. ne omnnact;
i n xannere ecrnnrentno xpacnnn non.
1. 167. tna n cnoe xomnare n nouyncrnonana sanax cnnpra.
1: nomna n ercxym cnantnm - sanax cnnpra tn eme pesue.
1 cnpocnna y . .: ouemy sect naxner cnnprom?~ na oxc-
It nnna mne, uro pacrnpana cnnprom .
1 168. uyncrnonana, xora . . mna rynx.rt c ertmn. +ro
1 npemx x cnena n cronono na nnane n unrana. ora x ycrana un-
1 rart, ro nomna n xomnary nrp, urot npornct nemnoro, n nouyn-
1. crnonana ram sanax apnapt. enx +ro ynnnno: x tna ynepena,
.1 . uro n apnapa nomna rynxrt. pemnna, uro +ro mne rax xaxercx,
1 no n +ro npemx xo mne noomna apnapa: ona roxe nouyncrnonana,
uro x samna n xomnary, n nauana ncxart menx no xomnare.
1" 169. naxt na ypoxe xnmnn, xora . ronopnn o cnocrnax
II: rason n merannon, x cxasana emy, uro mente n cepepxnte monert
I- nmemr cnat sanax.
1 . nospasnn:
Is - er, x mnoro pas nmxan mente entrn n nnxaxoro sanaxa
14 ne uyncrnonan. xopomo snam, uro nn met, nn cepepo ne nmemr
sanaxa.
npenoxnna emy nsxrt entrn n nponepnrt nmecre co mno.
1 n ocran necxontxo moner, n mt crann ycepno nx nmxart.
, - a,- cxasan . cmymenno,- renept n x uyncrnym, uro sa-
" nax ecrt.
1 - y nor, x xe nam ronopnna, uro ecrt sanax, a ocoenno, ecnn
1? monery nemnoro norepert, sanax yer cnntnee.
1; 170. naxt x mna n ropoe c . . n npyr nouyncrnonana
sanax nneron enoro raaxa. cnpocnna:
- t nnnmt re-nnyt nnert?
- a, mt npoxonm mnmo xopomero nanncannxa, re mnoro
nneron raaxa.
171. mna c F. no ynnne (+ro tno n nauane nmnx) n nouyn-
crnonana sanax eno axannn.
- t nnnmt axannm? - cnpocnna x.
- a, mt npomnn mnmo nneryme axannn.
172. onro ne ntxonna ns cnoe xomnart. nept x saxptna,
. no+romy sanax ns pyrnx xomnar ne nponnxan xo mne. ora xe
x ntmna n necrnmnt, ro nouyncrnonana sanax nannpoc. cnpocnna
. y . .:
- ro nanepxy ecrt?
- euac nnxaxoro ner, a tn neanno . .
173. menx tna . n nonpocnna art e ony xnnry.
- ne nyxno nrn nanepx n nnnorexy sa xnnro,- ornernna
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x ii nomna nanepx. samna n nnnorexy, noomna x mxa]y rnxo
n ocropoxno. epoxrno, X. +ro samernn. n noomen xo mne.
- ect paoramr necxontxo uenonex.
- a, x uyncrnym, no mne nyxno nsxrt xnnry.
- t moxemt enart nce, uro ree nyxno, n ne opama na
nac nnnmannx.
174. Ftn cnoont ntxono ent, n x c yrpa nrpana c ertmn
n xomnare nrp. ne nyxno tno na mnnyrxy ntrn n crononym
n, xora x ntmna, nouyncrnonana n cronono sanax X. oraa-
nact, uro aro on, ne xenax nam memart, nanman sa namn n ne-
pxx cronono. a pyro ent X. cxasan mne, uro on nnen, xora
x nrpana c ertmn, no ne xoren nam memart.
175. o mne noomna u., n x cpasy nouyncrnonana or nee sanax
yxon aa~. ora x y nee cnpocnna: t ymnnnct a-
o~?~ - ona ornernna: a, or namero noca nnuero ne cxpoemt~.
176. cnena na nnane. xom co mno cnena . . nouyn-
crnonana, uro or nee naxner pesnno.
- ouemy or nac naxner pesnno?
- menx n pyxe npnop, x noy ntcnymnnart .
177. cnena c . . n ee xannere, a rax xax . . pasrona-
pnnana c npauom, ro x cnena cnoxono. pyr moe nnnmanne npn-
nnex sanax co cropont nepn. nonepnynact rya. . . cxasana:
ma npnmna u.~.
178. ax-ro uacon n 7 yrpa x npocnynact, uyncrnyx cnntnt
sanax maxopxn. nepnym mnnyry x nnxax ne morna nonxrt, orxya
mor nrn +ror sanax. uepes necxontxo mnnyr xo mne noomna e-
xypnax n cxasana:
- yxno ceuac ncranart, noromy uro npnmnn paoune enart
pemonr.
- re onn ceuac?
- nn ymnn no nop, a pantme tnn n ymtnantno xomnare.
179. tna y cex n nnnorexe. epe oeom x nomna nnns.
axoxct eme na nepxne nnomaxn necrnnnt, x nouyncrnonana
sanax apysa. oraanact, uro y nac x oey na rperte yer
apys.
180. tna n cay, xora menx nosnann oeart. xox n nept
xomnart nrp, x nouyncrnonana sanax tnn, xoropym paspesann n
y]erno xomnare. ecrnnrentno, na rperte nam noann tnm.
181. ocne ntxonoro nx . . cxasana mne:
- uepa n ropoe tnn manenpt. t ne snaemt, npoxonnn nn
mnmo nac?
- ne nnxro ne ronopnn o rom, uro npoxonnn, no x ymam,
uro a, rax xax y nac n cay tn raxo sanax, xax yro t na
ynnne tno mnoro nme.
182. naxt, xora xo mne noomna . ., urot unrart co
mno, x nouyncrnonana, uro or nee naxner xnoxamn.
- r nac naxner xnoxamn,- cxasana x.
. . ocrana ns xapmana xnoxo n ana mne.
183. ax-ro oxono II uacon, sax n xomnary nrp, x nouyncrno-
nana sanax oexonona, xoroptm ymnnact . . noomna x mxa-
]y - ram croxna . .
- ouemy nt npnmnn rax pano?
- oromy uro y menx ecrt sect paora.
184. ax-ro nocne sanxrn x nerna oroxnyrt n ycnyna. pyr
uyncrnym, uro n moe xomnare naxner oexononom X. nauana
npoctnartcx, ymax n ro xe npemx: ouemy xe x uyncrnym sa-
nax X.?~ ax t n orner na moe neoymenne no cnnnxe xponarn
rnxo nocryuann. nporxnyna pyxy - sa cnnnxo xponarn ecr-
nnrentno croxn X.
185. 9 uacon neuepa x nomna n xomnary nrp n cnpocnna . .:
- e snaere nn nt, xax cex uyncrnyer X.?
- e snam: on cpasy ymen, xax rontxo nosannmancx c .
- mne xaxercx, uro on saxonn nocne yxnna.
- er.
- x nam ronopm, uro tn. ora nt nonnmann xaranxy, x
npoxonna uepes crononym n uyncrnonana ero sanax.
- a, nepno! satna, rax xax on cma ne saxonn, a tn
rontxo n cronono.
186. cnena na nnane n cronono. nmo menx npomna . .
c ., n x nouyncrnonana sanax ropxme cneun. noymana, uro no-
ryx cner, n nomna cnpocnrt o +rom . . a, cner ne ropnr, n x
xoxy co cneuo~.
187. unrana c . . n cnantne, rya xro-ro samen. o sanaxy
nexapcrna x ysnana, uro npnmna . ., n nosnana ee.
- t no sanaxy nexapcrna ysnaemt menx?
- a.
188. Ftn ntxono ent. ocne neuepnero uax . . ymna ry-
nxrt c ertmn n ca. na npeynpenna menx, uro n nomemennn nn-
xoro ner. tna n cnoe xomnare. pyr y menx nosnnxno cnntnoe
xenanne norn x napano nepn n nocmorpert, ne snonnr nn .
nnyr 10 x mennna, rax xax ymana, uro rontxo apom nty
na xono. axonen, x ne ntrepnena n nomna n necrnmnt. o-
xox x napano nepn, x nouyncrnonana sanax oexonona n no-
+romy cmeno orxptna nept. a neptm croxna .
- t anno snonnrt?
- a, x yxe xorena nrn x uepnomy xoy, no ram roxe saxptra
nept n xopnope.
- ce panno n ome nnxoro ner, n c uepnoro xoa ree ne or-
~
axas 812
xptnn t. enx nce npemx rxnyno nocmorpert, ne snonnmt nn rt,
no mne ne xorenoct ntxonrt apom.
189. tna n cnoe xomnare n onpeennna no sanaxy, uro ns
y]erno xomnart naxner xomnorom ns cymentx ]pyxron. a oe-
om, xora x nnna xomnor, ro onapyxnna, uro n xomnore ecrt cy-
mente rpymn n apnxoct, a xnoxn cnexne.
190. naxt, uacon n 6 neuepa, x ntmna n ca n omyrnna, uro
n nosyxe cnntno naxner oxeno cnexecrtm. cnpocnna y . .:
- Ftn oxt?
- er.
- nouemy xe raxo cnexn nosyx?
- pocro noromy, uro xopomn neuep.
ora mt xorenn cecrt na cxamexy, ona oxasanact nemnoro
moxpo. onxrt cnpocnna . .:
- nouemy xe cxamexa moxpax, ecnn oxx ne tno?
- satna: oxt tn eme n 4 uaca, no men neonro.
- or nnnre, nt satnn, a menx ynepxere, uro +ro npocro xo-
pomn neuep.
. ax-ro no npem
+aropnm npnmna
ro +ro npnmen?
1n neuep.
191. ax-ro no npemx monx sanxrn c X. na unramme mamnne
arrxrnn-nm nnnmna . . n eme xro-ro. cnpocnna y X.:
n naoparopnm npnmna
ne noxasanoct, uro X. ornernn:
- cene snam.
enx +ro ynnnno, rax xax x uyncrnonana sanax ne ee~, a ero~.
cxasana:
- ax +ro net myxunna.
- ree n ronopnn, uro npnmen . . n . ,
- x nac ne nonxna, no uyncrnym myxcxo sanax.
192. ora-ro x nponoxana . . o ee xnaprnpt, a norom nme-
cre c nem nomna n n xnaprnpy. ox n crononym, x cpasy nouyn-
crnonana sanax myxcxoro xocrmma n nannpoc.
- ro y nac ecrt?
- er nnxoro.
- ouemy xe rax cnntno naxner myxcxnm xocrmmom?
- oxer trt, noromy, uro ceronx . tn nent ent oma
n sannmancx n +ro xomnare. euac ero ner.
193. samna n xomnary nrp n ocranonnnact, urot nuyncrno-
nartcx, ecrt nn ram xro-nnyt. o. mne noomna . . yxe or-
xptna por, urot saart e onn nonpoc, no npyr omyrnna sanax
xnea n saana concem pyro nonpoc:
- t xymaere xne?
- a, x cnemy n na xoy em.
194. neuarana na mamnnxe n cnoe xomnare. pyr sanax ro-
pxme cnnuxn npnnnex moe nnnmanne. axe ncnyranact nemnoro,
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rax +ro tno neoxnanno. ncrana co cryna n noomna x nepn.
nepxx croxna . ,
- uro cnyunnoct? - cnpocnna x.
- npnmna x cee, a cnera ner, x saxrna cnnuxn.
195. ax-ro x exana n rpamnae. ocne ono ocranonxn x no-
uyncrnonana sanax uepemyxn. cnpocnna y cnoe cnyrnnnt:
- rxya +ro naxner uepemyxo?
- rpamna nomna xaxax-ro enymxa c yxerom uepemyxn.
196. naxt x nannna ns rpa]nna not, no, xora nonecna
craxan x ryam, nouyncrnonana, uro noa nmeer xaxo-ro neonpe-
enennt sanax. nmo menx npoxonn X. n samernn, uro x ne
pemamct nnrt noy, n noomen xo mne.
- oa uncrax, moxno nnrt.
- o ona nmeer xaxo-ro crpannt sanax.
- a nn ona ouent uncrax, npospaunax.
cxasana:
- onxno trt, xnnxuenax noa tna n xynmnne, xora ocrt-
nana, n o cnx nop coxpannna sanax xynmnna.
197. antme x uacro tnana n mxone cnentx, re yunnact mox
nopyra. pen crapmnx nocnnrannnxon tn onn cryenr, nocnn-
mn xoxanym xyprxy. 3ra xyprxa nsanana cnntnt sanax xoxn.
cnn x naxonnact n xopnope, ro no sanaxy xoxn ysnanana, uro
mnmo menx npomen +ror cryenr. nora x c nopyro rynxna n xo-
pnope nnn n sane n, xora uyncrnonana sanax xyprxn, coomana
nopyre:
- euac mnmo nac npomen .
- rpanno, orxya rt snaemt? n ecrnnrentno npomen n
axe cxasan nam: pancrnyre, enymxn!~-no rt xe +roro ne
cntmana.
- no sanaxy ero xyprxn ysnana, uro on npoxonn.
198. ora-ro x tna y , na yexana na auy sa ropo, a x
ocranact y nee. uaca uepes na mart . npenoxnna mne nrn nme-
cre c nem x rpamnam, urot ncrpernrt . t ntmnn na ynnny,
no, npox maron c nanart, x npyr nouyncrnonana sanax oexo-
nona ., n, cenan eme necxontxo maron, mt noomnn x ., xoro-
pax yxe cama mna or rpamnax omo.
199. ora x n u. nepnynnct ns ropoa, nam orxptna nept .
na nomna pxom co mno, n x nouyncrnonana, uro or nee naxner
rem xe oexononom, xax n or u. momenrantno noymana: na
naymnnact rem xe oexononom nx roro, urot x ne pasnnuana,
yer nn ona n xnaprnpe~.
3ro npenonoxenne tno nnonne nepoxrntm, rax xax x snana,
uro . n u. xorenn menx esopnenrnponart, urot x ne uyncrno-
nana npncyrcrnnx . o +ro nm ne yanoct, rax xax x nonxna nx
namepenne n crana opamart nnnmanne ne rontxo na onn sanax
onoro n roro xe oexonona, a noome na nce npnsnaxn, xoropte
mne mornn t nomout pasopartcx n namepennxx u. n . o x e-
nana nn, uro nnuero ne nonnmam.
200. tna ontna n nexana n cnoe xomnare. uyncrnonana,
uro naxner na]rannnom. ora x ntmna n necrnmnt, sanax na]-
rannna tn eme cnntnee. osxe xo mne noomna . . cnpo-
cnna ee:
- a necrnnne nocrennnn xonep?
- a, orxya rt snaemt?
- nouyncrnonana sanax na]rannna n cpasy coopasnna, uro
nocrennnn xonep.
- rt ne omnnact,- cxasana . .
201. ora menx snaxomnnn c . ., ro x croxna c ono cro-
pont nosne crona, a ona naxonnact na pyro cropone; ntmno rax,
uro noann pyr pyry pyxn uepes cron. ora . . nsxna menx sa
pyxy, x cpasy nouyncrnonana, uro or nee naxner nannpoco. uepes
necxontxo ne nocne +roro x nouyncrnonana sanax nannpoc n nec-
rnmne n cnpocnna y . .:
- ro xypnr?
- ypnr . .
- x rax n noymana, uro ona xypxmax, xora snaxomnnact c
nem, xorx ona n ror momenr ne xypnna, xora noxana mne pyxy.
202. 7 noxpx, n ro npemx xora no ynnne npoxonnn emoncr-
panrt n noome tna macca nme, . . c ertmn n co mno roxe
ntmna na ynnny. r cxonnennx mnoxecrna nme nosyx tn na-
ctmen camtmn pasnoopasntmn sanaxamn. pyr x nouyncrnonana
sanax, noxoxn na sanax xon]er. o +rom cxasana . . na no-
nmxana nosyx n cxasana, uro roxe uyncrnyer +ror sanax. o +ro
ne xon]ert naxnyr, a xaxne-ro yxn nmemr raxo sanax~,-cxa-
sana x.
203. camtm pasnoopasntm sanaxam na ynnne, nepenonnen-
no nmtmn, npncoennnncx sanax ensnna. cnpocnna y . .:
- eyxenn ceuac moryr esnrt anromonnn?
- er, +ro npoesxamr rycennunte rpaxropt, n or nnx ner
sanax ensnna.
204. ora mt npoxonnn mnmo xooneparnna, . . cnpocnna
menx:
- uro sect raxoe?
- o-moemy, xooneparnn.
- t no sanaxy ysnana?
- a-
205. unrana c . . n ercxo cnantne. pyr x nouyncrno-
nana sanax . . urot nponepnrt, no omnnact nn x, x nonepny-
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xact nasa - sa cnnnxo moero cryna ecrnnrentno croxna . .
yxe ysnam nac no sanaxy~,- cxasana x, xora ona nsxna menx
sa pyxy.
206. a oeom x no sanaxy ysnana, uro na rperte yyr man-
apnnt, xorx na rapenouxy mne eme nnuero ne nonoxnnn, a npocro
na crone n rapenxe nexann manapnnt.
207. ax-ro mt tnn n ropoe, samnn n oynno marasnn. . .
nnuero mne ne ronopnna o rom, uro mt saem n +ror marasnn, no x
+ro ysnana no sanaxy nono oynn. ecrnnrentno, . . noxy-
nana nx apnn ornnxn.
208. sannmanact c X. n ero xannere n nouyncrnonana, uro n
naoparopnn xro-ro xypnr. cnpocnna y X.:
- naoparopnn xro-nnyt paoraer?
- a, paoraer .
- nept orrya saxptra?
- axptra.
- naunr, x uepes saxptrym nept uyncrnym, uro n naoparo-
pnn xypxr.
209. a ont ro sa yrpennnm uaem erxm ann xyneuxn c
rocrnnnamn. epeo mno roxe nonoxnnn xyneuex, no x onro nnna
ua, a ern yxe nauann ecrt cnon rocrnnnt. nouyncrnonana sanax
manapnnon n oraanact, uro n xyneuxe ecrt n manapnnt. ne
omnnact.
210. unrana c . . n moe xomnare n nouyncrnonana no sa-
naxy nannpoc, uro n xomnary xro-ro samen. noxasana nantnem n
cropony nepn, orxya uyncrnonana sanax. na cxasana mne: a-
mna . .~.
211. o npemx oea x nouyncrnonana, uro n cronono naxner na-
neptxnxo. ora x noena n nomna n ercxym cnantnm, ram tna
. . cnpocnna ee:
- t snaere, xro nnn naneptxnxy, xora x oeana?
- ne snam. ceuac cnpomy.
. . oparnnact x exypno, a sarem cxasana mne:
- 3ro . . npnnnmana naneptxnxy.
212. unrana c . . n ercxo cnantne. ocne urennx x nomna
n cnom xomnary. ora x orxptna nept n samna n xomnary, ro no-
uyncrnonana no sanaxy, uro n xomnare xro-ro ecrt. noomna x
crony n narxnynact na oronnnyrt cryn, na xoropom cnena . .
na cxasana: samepsna nanepxy n npnmna aannmartcx n rnom
xomnarxy~.
213. ax-ro x nomna x ono corpynnne mxont cnentx sa
xnnramn. mecxna na ne tna y nee. ora conponoxanmax menx
. . nocryuana n nept, nam xro-ro orxptn ee, no x, xoneuno, ne
; morna cntmart, xro +ro orxptn. aro x nouyncrnonana, uro ns xom-
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nart ner sanax nannpoc. orpynnnt ne tno oma, n x ymna.
oporo x ymana: ro t oro mor trt y . ., net ona xnner
ona n ne xypnr?~
pyr x ncnomnnna, uro y . . ecrt oren, xoropt, nepoxrno,
npnexan x ne. ne omnnact: oma mne . . cxasana, uro x . .
ecrnnrentno npnexan oren.
214. naxt nocne oea, npoxox uepes y]ernym xomnary,
x nouyncrnonana sanax canor, cmasanntx errem. enx +ro ouent
ynnnno. nomna n cnantnm n cnpocnna FJ. .:
- ro y nac tn ns uyxnx?
- e snam, x nnxoro ne nnena.
- x ymam +ro noromy, uro nouyncrnonana sanax canor.
t nomnn n y]ernym xomnary. am nnxoro ne tno. ora
. . sarnxnyna n necrnmnt n cxasana mne:
- 3ro npnmna . n nontx canorax.
215. eme xpenxo cnana, xax npyr nouyncrnonana sanax x-
nox. orom uro-ro xononoe crano npnxacartcx x moemy nocy.
npocnynact n namna na cnoe noymxe necxontxo xnox. na-rpn
xnoxa saxarnnnct xo mne no npocrtnm, xoropo x tna yxptra.
. croxn nosne moe xponarn n npnxnatnan xnoxo x moemy nocy.
- auem rt pasynn menx? - cnpocnna x.
- urot rt xymana xnoxn.
- t mor t n norom art ne xnoxn, sauem xe ynrt?
- nuero, rt eme ycneemt ntcnartcx, ceuac rontxo 6 uacon
yrpa.
- n, ne mema mne cnart!
- er, rt cnauana cemt xnoxo, a rora yemt cnart.
o cnart mne ontme ne npnmnoct, rax xax x ne xorena ecrt
xnoxo, a . ne orcranan or menx.
216. naxt x onro tna n cay, a xora npnmna n cnom xom-
nary, nouyncrnonana sanax xnox. o mne n n ronony ne npnmno,
urot xro-nnyt npnnec mne xnoxn. noomna x xponarn n xo-
rena nsxrt mxy, xoropym x nepemnnana. o ena x npnnonxna
xpa mxn, xax uro-ro crano naart na non. ocmorpena pyxo
xponart - na xponarn nexann xnoxn, xoropte tnn n na mxe.
yntnynact n noymana: 3ro, onxno trt, X. nonoxnn na
mxy xnoxn~.
nosnana . . n cnpocnna:
- t ne nnenn, xro npnnec mne xnoxn?
- er, ne nnena. anepnoe, X., noromy uro, xpome nero, nnxro
ne npnxonn.
217. ax-ro . . rynxna c ertmn n cay, n x x nnm ntmna.
axanyne ntnan neontmo cnexox n ronxnm cnoem noxptn semnm.
. . cxasana mne:
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- ce xpyrom noeneno, rontxo ona maprapnrxa seneneer na.
xnyme. . . noomna x xnyme, copnana onn nnerox n ana mne
nonmxart. cpasy no sanaxy ysnana, uro +ro ne maprapnrxa, a ca-
onax pomamxa.
218. tna n cay. ne cxasann, uro xo mne npnmna . ora
. noomna xo mne, x cpasy nouyncrnonana or nee raxo sanax, xa-
xo tnaer n anrexax.
- t tna n anrexe? - cnpocnna x.
- a, x noxynana xpacxy.
219. o npemx urennx c . . mne saxorenoct nnrt. nomna,
ntnnna noy n nepnynact n cnantnm. nouyncrnonana n cnantno
sanax anentcnna, xoroporo pantme ne uyncrnonana.
- ro +ro xymaer anentcnn?
- ,- cxasana . .
220. samna n cnom xomnary n cena na cryn nosne crona. no-
uyncrnonana sanax xon]er n anentcnnon, no noymana, uro +ro sa-
nax pacnpocrpannncx ns y]erno xomnart n mom xomnary. naxo
sanax uyncrnonancx nnsxo, n x mamnnantno nonoxnna pyxy na
cron. a crone nexana ontmax xpyrnax xopoxa c xon]eramn n na
ne xyneuex c anentcnnamn. 3ro tnn rocrnnnt nx menx x 1 ax.
221. ox n cnom xomnary, x nouyncrnonana ror sanax, xoro-
pt nmemr nopr]enn. 3ro ynnnno menx. noomna x crony n
ocmorpena ero pyxo. a crone nnuero ne tno, noymana, uro,
moxer trt, n mom xomnary saxonna . . n y nee tn nopr]ent.
pyxax y menx tna xnnra, n x noomna x nnany, urot nono-
xnrt ee na nonxy. nyuano x sanennnact pyxo sa nopr]ent, xo-
ropt nexan na nnane. oraanact, uro . . ocrannna cno
nopr]ent. ora . . npnmna sannmartcx co mno, x n myrxy cxa-
sana:
- t snaere, mne xro-ro nopr]ent noapnn.
- er, +ro x satna nsxrt cno nopr]ent.
222. naxt x nosnpamanact ns napnxmaxepcxo c . . o-
nom mecre ona ocranonnnact, n x nouyncrnonana sanax anentcnnon.
- ornre cxymart anentcnn? - cnpocnna . .
- ne orxasanact t.
223. tna n ercxo cnantne. . . cxasana mne, uro npn-
men .
- e moxer trt, net on yexan n nen,- nospasnna x.
- naunr, yxe npnexan.
nce xe ne nonepnna . " no xora nomna n necrnmnt, ro no
sanaxy nannpoc ecrnnrentno ysnana, uro npnmen . ymna x
cee n xomnary. uepes necxontxo mnnyr xo mne samen , r nero
naxno mxrntmn xon]eramn. oraanact, uro . . yrocrnna ero
+rnmn xon]eramn. a cneymmn ent x cnpocnna y nee:
- t nuepa yromann . mxrntmn xon]eramn?
na sacmexnact n ornernna:
- a, orxya rt snaemt?
- no sanaxy ysnana.
224. namnx corpynnxon tno copanne, no x na nem ne npn-
cyrcrnonana, a ortxana. ora x npoxonna mnmo naoparopnn,
re tno copanne, x nouyncrnonana sanax nannpoc . asne on
roxe na copannn? er, +ro mne rax xaxercx~,-noymana x.
uepes nonuaca xo mne samen .
- t roxe tn na copannn?
- a, no x onosan nemnoro.
- ne nnxro ne ronopnn, uro rt npnemt.
225. tna n cnoe xomnare n cnnmana yxpamennx c nonoro-
ne enxn, xoropax nauana yxe octnartcx. xomnary nponnx sa-
nax nannpoc n npnnnex moe nnnmanne. nomna n naoparopnm
c rem, urot nosnart . . n cnpocnrt y nee, xro x nam npnmen.
o . . eme ne ycnena noorn xo mne, n x ymna n xomnary. o
mne noomna cannrapxa, no x ne ycnena saart e mo nonpoc,
rax xax n +ro npemx noomna . .
- ro y nac ecrt? - cnpocnna x.
- nac mnoro nme,- ornernna . . c raxnmn nnxennxmn
nantnen, rouno e ne xorenoct orneuart na mo nonpoc.
- nce-raxn xro xe?
- nopnnx... . . ...
- . . ne xypnr, x snam.
. . ymna. menx noxnnnoct uyncrno ocat, rax xax mne xa-
sanoct, uro n xnnnnxe tn ., a . . nouemy-ro ne cxasana mne
+roro. oneuno,-ymana x,-x mory n omnartcx~. o nropo
nononnne +roro nx . . cnpocnna y menx:
- eronx tn .?
- a,- ornernna x neonpeenenno.
- rxya nt snaere?
- ne cxasana .
- a, on tn, no x ero ne nnena.
a cneymmn ent, xora n xnnnnxy npnmna . ., x onxrt
cnpocnna y nee:
- ro nuepa tn y nac?
- a mnoro nme tno...
- . ., xax nam no crtno! snam, uro tn . auem nt
cxptnaere?
. . ouent cmyrnnact.
- nnmt nn, on ouent cnemnn n ne mor x ree sarn. my
tno neyono nepe roo, n on npocnn nyume ne ronopnrt ree,
uro on tn.
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- nt t emy oxcnnnn, uro tnamr raxne momenrt, xora
x n cama mnoroe uyncrnym, a ecnn mne ronopxr nenpany, menx +ro
paspaxaer.
- a x emy rax n cxasana n ynepxna ero n rom, uro cxptnart
nentsx, ecnn rt cama uyncrnyemt uro-nno. o on +roro ne nonxn
n nocrannn nac n camoe nenpnxrnoe nonoxenne.
226. ax-ro neuepom x nosnparnnact omo or snaxomtx. a-
panym nept mne orxptna . ., n x nouyncrnonana, uro or nee
naxner xneom. . . ouent sannrepeconanact, c xem x npnmna,
n ntrnxnyna na ynnny. cxasana:
- uero xe nt c xycxom xnea ntrnxtnaere na ynnny?
- xouy xymart, a mne nexora npncecrt sa cron, x xoxy
n xymam xne.
227. tna n ropoe c . ., n, xora mt npoxonnn mnmo
xnocxa, x nouyncrnonana sanax anentcnnon.
- t nnnre re-nnyt anentcnnt?
na ornxnynact.
- a, mt npomnn mnmo anentcnnon.
228. . . paorana co mno n moe xomnare, a norom ntmna
n nnnorexy, re paorann nonorept. uepes orxptrym n nnno-
rexy nept x omyrnna sanax macrnxn, xoropo nonorept noxpt-
nann non. ora . . nosnparnnact xo mne, x cnpocnna:
- xe noxptnamr non macrnxo?
- a, a rt no sanaxy uyncrnyemt?
- o sanaxy.
229. tna n onom ns paonon ropoa, nastnaemom ypan-
nenxo. ect x nouyncrnonana, uro n nosyxe mnoro tma, a n py-
rne sanaxn ontme coornercrnonann sanaxy cena, a ne ropoa.
cnpocnna y . .:
- e nanomnnaer nn nam ypannenxa epennm
- a, nanomnnaer.
- naunr, mon omymennx nc omantnamr menx, net nt ro xe
camoe uyncrnyere?
230. tna n ropoe c . . na samna n onn marasnn, no ne
cxasana npenapnrentno n xaxo.
- uro rt sect uyncrnyemt?
- anax ptt.
- eme uro?
nuyncrnonanact n sanax n cxasana:
- uyncrnym sanax nnmonon. asne sect n nnmont ecrt?
- a.
231. cnnmxom npnntxna x romy, uro nennxom pyxonoxyct
oonxnnem n ocxsannem, n no+romy nce, uro x nocnpnnnmam ns
oxpyxamme cpet, xaxercx mne raxnm xe otuntm, xax ecnn t
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x nocnpnnnmana nocpecrnom spennx n cnyxa. o x sameuy, uro t-
namr cnyuan, xora x cama nopaxamct romy, uro y uenonexa npn ns-
necrntx ycnonnxx oprant uyncrn moryr trt xpane pasnnrt.
pnnoxy raxo npnmep.
tna n ymtnantno xomnare n mtna ronony. omnara tna
nonna noxntx napon, n +ro nemnoro npnrynnxno oonxnne. nept,
xoropax ntxonna n necrnmnt, tna saxptra. pyr x nouyncr-
nonana cnat sanax nannpoc. ynnnennem x noymana: eyxe-
nn npnmen ,? et ceuac xe oxono 10 uacon neuepa~. +ro npemx
mnmo menx npoxonna exypnax cecrpa. ocranonnna ee sa pyxy.
- ro npnmen?
- pnmen . no eny x . .
- rax n ymana,- ornernna x n mtcnenno saana cee non-
poc: ouemy xe x rax ymana, net morna t npnrn . ., xoro-
pax roxe xypnr. eyxenn x c nomomtm oonxnnx morna ysnart,
uro sanax rex nannpoc, xoropte xypnr ,, uem-ro ornnuaercx or sa-
naxa nannpoc, xoropte xypnr . .?~
232. ax-ro x npocnynact n nocmorpena na uact. nn croxnn.
aconmrno ne nnxy cnera n axe npnnnsnrentno ne morna onpe-
ennrt npemx. o nor x uepes saxptrym nept omyrnna ror sanax,
xaxo otuno ncxonr ns xyxnn. 3ro ano mne nosmoxnocrt onpe-
ennrt, uro yxe yrpo. xora x comna nnns n nocmorpena na uact
n cnantne, ro ynnena, uro yxe 8 uacon.
233. naxt yrpom x samna n cnom xomnary n nouyncrnonana,
uro y menx ocoenno cnntno naxner posamn. axanyne mne noa-
pnnn post, no n annym mnnyry x xcno uyncrnonana sanax concem
cnexnx pos. cnennantno noomna x crony n onapyxnna na nem
cnexn yxer pos - nx rontxo ceuac npnnecna . .
234. onn uynt macxn neuep x nomna n napx c . y-
nxmmnx, xax n ncera n xopomym noroy, tno ouent mnoro. 3ro
x morna onpeennrt no camtm pasnoopasntm sanaxam.
ne ne xorenoct cecrt na cxamexy n rex mecrax, re tno mno-
ro nme, no+romy x npocnna . narn nanonee esnmnt yro-
nox. ono annee mt namnn cxamexy, na xoropym n cenn. uepes
nexoropoe npemx x omyrnna nenpnxrnt sanax ntxnoro uenonexa.
cxnarnna . sa pyxy n npomenrana:
- txnt xro-ro...
- a, noomen rontxo uro xaxo-ro cyexr.
t ncrann n ymnn na pyroe mecro.
235. n . . cnenn n naoparopnn sa cronom. pyr x nouyn-
crnonana sanax apysa (+ro tno yxe n 10 uacon neuepa).
- ouemy naxner apysom? - cnpocnna x.
- . . npnnecna nam apys,- cxasana . . n noonnnyna
xo mne rapenxy c napesanntm apysom.
npannonnoe uyncrno
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1. ora x ny no ynnne, x uyncrnym uepes corpxcenne mocro-
no, npoesxamr nn anromonnn, rpamnan, anroyct n r. . axe
uacro naxoxct n nomemennn, xoropoe nnsxo x ynnne, x uyncrnym,
xora no ynnne npoesxamr. nora xro-nnyt ns cntmamnx yne-
pxer menx, uro na ynnne nonce ne npoesxamr, a npncnymanmnct,
ronopxr: a, npoexan anromonnt (nnn anroyc)~.
2. cnn x nocryuyct n xanner x X., ro, crox sa saxptro
neptm, x uepes non uyncrnym, xora on ncraer n oronnraer cryn.
3. ouno rax xe (uepes corpxcenne nona) x no maram ysnam
esomnouno nexoroptx corpynnxon.
4. ncera ysnam, xora no xomnare npoxonr apnx. o yr-
pam ns cnoe xomnart x uyncrnym, xora ona npoxonr n xomna-
ry nrp.
5. Ftnax n rocrxx y ., x ncera ornnuam ee noxoxy or noxoxn
pyrnx unenon cemtn: y . (. cnenax) onee mennrentnax n ne-
ynepennax noxoxa axe n cnoe xnaprnpe.
6. ax xe nerxo, xax n sanaxn, x omymam n pasnnuam pasnnu-
noro poa cryx nnn mym nepennraemo meenn. ce +rn nnxennx
nepeamrcx mne uepes nnpannn nona. naxt x sannmanact c .
n cronono, re croxr na ontmnx epenxnntx xanenapx, npn-
cnoconenntx nx namnx ere rax, urot moxno tno nonopaun-
nart xanenapt na nmym cropony. ora xanenapt nonopaunnamr,
on nponsnonr cryx. na ns corpynnn paorana y xanenapx n ro
npemx, xora x sannmanact. mymax cryx, xoropt menx paspa-
xan n meman mne cocpeorounrtcx, x ne cpasy nonxna, uro cryuann
xanenapem, n cnpocnna y .:
- ro cryunr?
- nnxaxoro cryxa ne cntmy,- orneuana ona.
e orner menx ouent ynnnn. tna ynepena, uro ecnn x omy-
mam cryx uepes nnpannn nona, ro . onxna tna ycntmart ero
pantme menx. o y xanenapx npoonxann cryuart, n x ne morna
xax cneyer cocpeorounrtcx na rom, uro mne unrana . ntxana
npemx, xora cryx nonropnncx necxontxo pas, n cnpocnna:
- eyxenn nt n renept ne cntmnre?
. ornernna mne:
- ntmy. 3ro cryuar xanenapem, no mne +ror cryx no mema-
er, n x ne oparnna na nero nnnmannx.
rora noymana, uro spxune n cntmamne nacrontxo npnnt-
xamr x pasnnunomy mymy n cryxy, uro uacro camn nnaamr n sa-
nyxenne, xora ynepxmr menx, uro onn nnuero ne cntmar nnn ne
nnxr.
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7. Ftno t omnouno ymart, uro oonxrentnte, ocxsarentnte
n pyrne omymennx ocrynnt cnenornyxomy, a raxxe n mne rontxo
n re uact, xora mt opcrnyem, a no npemx cna repxem ncxxym
uyncrnnrentnocrt. s cnoe nnuno xnsnn x snam, uro cnntnte
sanaxn nnn cnntnt cryx n non uacro yxr menx. pnney
npnmep.
naxt ncm nout menx ecnoxonn xaxo-ro cryx, x uacro npo-
ctnanact, no nnxax ne morna nonxrt, uro t +ro snaunno. nora
mne xasanoct, uro menx yxr utn-ro marn n moe xomnare. rpom
x oparnnact x exypno c nonpocom:
- ro +ro cryuan ncm nout?
- 3ro cctnann yront n xouerapxy,- ornernna exypnax.
- nt npnxonnn n mom xomnary?
- a, x ns rnoero oxna nanmana sa paounmn.
8. . ., snax, xax nerxo x uyncrnym pasnnunoe nnxenne n
xomnare, npnymana ynrt menx raxnm cnocoom: xora ona ner
x oxny orxptnart crannn, ona cnon marn enaer namepenno rpom-
xnmn, or uero nnpannn nona cranonxrcx onee omyrnrentntmn.
nemenenno npoctnamct, xora uyncrnym ee marn. ora . .
noxonr xo mne n ronopnr, uro yxe nopa ncranart. nora cny-
uaercx n rax, uro x nouyncrnym ee marn, no eme ne ycnem npo-
cnyrtcx. urot oxonuarentno pasynrt menx, . . npnxonrcx
nonoxnrt cnom pyxy na moe nneuo. uyncrnyx ee pyxy, x concem npo-
ctnamct.
9. naxt x cnena y oxna cnoe xomnart. oxnana nea-
rora, xoropt co mno unraer. pyr x nouyncrnonana utn-ro marn
n xomnare. nonxna, uro +ro men ne nearor. o nuyncrnonanmnct
nnnmarentno, x nouyncrnonana marn cnoe nopyrn. ne omnnact:
+ro tna ona, no x ee n +ro npemx ne xana, n cama nenontno yn-
nnnact romy, uro x ysnana ee n raxoe npemx, xora oxnana pyroro
uenonexa.
10. ecxontxo ne romy nasa x cnena c u. n xanne. t
unrann xnnry, no menx nce npemx ornnexan xaxo-ro cryx. nono-
xnna pyxy na cron n roruac ysnana, uro xro-ro neuaraer na pa-
nencxo mamnnxe. cnpocnna o +rom u. na ornernna:
- 3ro neuaraer .
- ax on menenno neuaraer,- samernna x.
- t pasne uyncrnyere +ro? - cnpocnna u.
- a, x xopomo uyncrnym xaxt yap xnannm.
II. sannmanact c . . n cnoe xomnare. xom c moe xom-
naro naxonrcx ercxax xomnara nrp. ne ouent memana apnx,
xora ona erana no xomnare. . . npnmnoct nrn n xomnary nrp,
urot ocranonnrt apnm.
12. eronx x unrana c u. n moe xomnare. ax xe, xax n nuepa,
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o +rom
apnx cnoe erorne merana mne cocpeorounrtcx.
cxasana u. na ornernna:
- et apnx ne ouent rpomxo cryunr.
- oxer trt, no mne uepes non nepeamrcx nnpannn ouent
xcno. cpasy nouyncrnonana, xora nt nomnn n mom xomnary.
13. ne rontxo uyncrnym, xora npoxoxr no xomnare, no mory
axe no nnpannn onpeennrt, uem nponsnonrcx ror nnn nno
cryx. ax, nanpnmep, ceronx x unrana n moe xomnare. xomnare
nrp apnx xarana map na xaranxe. nmt rontxo x omyrnna nn-
pannn, x roruac onpeennna, uro apnx xaraer map. cxasana o
+rom u. t nsymnrentno xopomo nce nocnpnnnmaere~,- cxasana
ona.
14. cnn x nxoxy n nesnaxomoe mne nomemenne, x cpasy ys-
nam, xaxo non nnn necrnnna n +rom nomemennn. ax, ecnn necr-
nnna epenxnnax, x omymam xax t onee nnrentnt cryx or
cnonx maron, a ecnn ona nemenrnax, mne xaxercx, uro cryx or
monx maron xopoue. ora x npnmna nepnt pas n ncrnryr +xc-
nepnmenrantno mennnnt, x cpasy nouyncrnonana, uro n rom sane,
re mt cnenn na copannn, non ne epenxnnt, a raxo xe, xax
necrnnna.
15. eronx x unrana c H. o npemx urennx x otuno crannm
norn na nepexnanny cryna, urot mne yonee tno epxart pyxy.
raxo xe nose x cnena n ceronx. H. nemnoro nonepnyncx, n ero
cryn sacxpnnen. roruac omyrnna +ror cxpnn n or neoxnannocrn
cnntno nspornyna n axe ntnycrnna pyxy H. n ne mor nonxrt,
uro co mno cnyunnoct. ora xe x emy oxcnnna, n uem eno, on
cxasan: a, x nonepnyncx, n cryn nemnoro sacxpnnen~.
16. ne npnmnoct necxontxo pas nntrt no nenpy na napo-
xoe. 3ro tno nerom, n x nce npemx naxonnact na nanye. ouent
xopomo uyncrnonana nnxenne napoxoa, a paora mamnnt nano-
mnnana mne nenne ontmoro cepna, xoropoe naxonrcx xax t
no nanyo. axoe nneuarnenne y menx tno orroro, uro nanya
xopomo nepeanana mne re nnpannn, xoropte coomannct e or
paoramme mamnnt.
17. ymam, uro cpen spxunx nemnoro naercx raxnx, xo-
1 ropte nonepxr, uro cnenornyxo moxer cnymart~ nenne n mystxy.
i mexy rem cnenornyxo ouent xopomo omymaer snyx ronoca n
1 nrpy na mystxantnom nncrpymenre n moxer nonyunrt ontmoe yo-
, nontcrnne. oneuno, cnymaer~ cnenornyxo ne ymamn, a pyxamn.
1 ne ouent npannrcx xnacrt pyxn na poxnt nnn na xaxo-nnyt
1 -nncrpymenr n ro npemx, xora na nem nrpamr. axxe x nmnm ep-
| xart pyxy y ropna nommero nnn ronopxmero. epexo x onpee-
nxm ronoc roro, xoro x cnymam. pnney npnmep. naxt n moem
.npncyrcrnnn pasronapnnann mexy coo . . n u. onoc . . x
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cnymana yxe mnoro pas, n mne npannrcx ee ronoc. onoc u. x nn-
xora eme ne cnymana, no+romy nonnrepeconanact ee ronocom. na-
uana x nonoxnna cnom pyxy na ropno . . n sarem na ropno u.
omyrnna, uro y u. ronoc nemnoro nnxe, uem y . .; nmecre c
ornm x nouyncrnonana, uro y u. npnxrnt remp ronoca. cnpocnna
y . ., npana nn, uro y u. ronoc nnxe, uem y nee. . . orne-
rnna mne:
- er, no-moemy, ne nnxe, a npocro ona ronopnna ceuac
rpomue, uem ncera.
o mne nce-raxn xasanoct, uro y u. ronoc nnxe, n x pemnna
cnpocnrt o +rom mom nopyry ., xoropax onaaer xopomnm my-
stxantntm cnyxom. a cneymmn ent x nosnaxomnna . c u. n
nonpocnna ee oparnrt nnnmanne na ronoc. oronopnn c nem, .
cxasana mne:
- a, y nee ronoc nemnoro nnxe, uem y . . ontxo y nee
concem pyro remp ronoca, n no+romy ne cpasy moxno onpeennrt,
y xoro ns nnx nnxe, no rt nce-raxn ne omnnact.
" 18. Fnaroapx romy uro x pyxo mory omymart ronoc, ecnn
epxy pyxy y ropna ronopxmero, x uacro xnay pyxy na cnoe ropno
n ro npemx, xora ronopm c xem-nnyt. enam x +ro noromy, uro,
uyncrnyx cno ronoc, x mory nm o nexoropo crenenn ynpannxrt:
ronopnrt nnxe nnn ntme, rnme nnn rpomue, pesue nnn mxrue. cnn
+ro moe npnsnanne noxaxercx xomy-nnyt crpanntm nnn cmem-
ntm, ro +ro yer nectma nenpannntno, no mox pyxa omymaer mo
ronoc nourn rax xe, xax ecnn t x morna yxom cntmart cno ronoc.
ymam, uro tno t ouent nennoxo, ecnn t nce rnyxonemte
epxann pyxy y cnoero ropna n ro npemx, xora onn ronopxr. x
peut n raxnx cnyuaxx tna t ropaso npnxrnee n xcnee. cnn x
snaxomnmct c nontm uenonexom, x uacro npneram x raxomy cno-
coy ynpannxrt cnonm ronocom.
19. cnn x pyxo omymam remp ronoca, ro ns +roro xcno, uro
x mory onpeennrt, xoneuno, moxer trt, ne ncera, y xoro t-
naer onee cnmnarnunt ronoc, a y xoro on menee cnmnarnuen. ax,
nanpnmep, neanno x cnymana ronoc y . . n npncyrcrnnn .
eme ne tna snaxoma c ronocom . . ocnyman ee ronoc ne onee
ono mnnyrt, x cxasana .: ne xaxercx., uro y . . ne oco-
enno cnmnarnunt ronoc. ne ropaso ontme npannrcx ronoc
y u.~. . ornernna: a, y . . camt otxnonennt ronoc, n rt
nepno onpeennna: y u. ecrnnrentno npnxrnt ronoc~.
20. no nero x yesxana na ortx n eccy c . . na onena
manxpne, no+romy uacro yxonna n xnnnnxy, a x ocrananact ona
nnn n cay, nnn n xomnare. naxt y menx cnntno pasonenact
ronona or connna, n x nomna n xomnary, urot nemnoro nonexart.
axptrt nept na xnmu x ne morna, rax xax x ne ycntmana t,
ecnn t . . cryuana, npnymana cneymmee: x nocrannna x
nepn cryn n na nero nocrannna eme cxameeuxy. cnn n xomnary
noer xro-nnyt, ro x cpasy nouyncrnym, noromy uro cxameeuxa
ynaer na non. crponnmnct raxnm opasom, x nauana tno sact-
nart, xax npyr nouyncr-nonana, uro cryn n cxameeuxa c rpoxorom
nonannnnct na non n ncne sa +rnm no xomnare saronano necxont-
xo nap nor. ncxounna c xponarn n ncnyranno cnpocnna: ro
+ro?~
o mne noomnn enouxn ns roro nncrnryra, n xoropom mt
xnnn, n cxasann, uro xo mne npnmnn ronapnmn. ora x nauana ro-
nopnrt c ronapnmamn, onn mne paccxasann, uro, nnuero ne noospe-
nax, onn cmeno orxptnn nept n tnn xpane ynnnent rem, uro
na non crann naart cryntx.
21. sannmanact n cnoe xomnare. roronnna ypox no xaxomy-
ro npemery n tna ouent cocpeorouena. xomnary samna . .
mtrt non. na rax cnntno saronana noramn, uro x or neoxnanno-
crn yxacno ncnyranact; xaxercx, uro, ecnn t ona eme pas ron-
nyna, y menx morna t saxpyxnrtcx ronona. a menx noome ouent
nenpnxrno ecrnymr neoxnannte n pesxne npnxocnonennx n xa-
xo-nnyt cnntnt cryx.
22. unrana c u. pyr x nouyncrnonana utn-ro marn n or ne-
oxnannocrn nspornyna. u. cxasana: 3ro n cocenmm xanny
samen X.~.
23. pemenno mt c . . unraem n ercxo xomnare nrp, urot
e yonee tno nanmart sa ertmn. apnx nce npemx eraer no
xomnare nnn xaraer mapt no xaranxe n nponsnonr yxacnt cryx.
raxo ocranonxe mne ouent rpyno nocnpnnnmart ro, uro un-
raer . . pnxonrcx nanpxrart nce nnnmanne, urot ne npony-
crnrt uero-nnyt. nce-raxn ro ono, ro pyroe cnono x ne nomy.
nnmy +ro n ynepena, uro ouent nemnorne ns spxunx n cntma-
mnx nonepxr n ro, uro mne, rnyxo, rax xe, xax n nm, rpyno sann-
martcx, ecnn noxpyr nponcxonr ncxxax nosnx. o ]axr ocraercx
]axrom!
24. tuno, xora x c u. unram n xanne, ram sannmaercx H.
nora on neuaraer na mamnnxe, a ecnn ncraer co cryna, ro npons-
nonr nnxenne. o +rnm npnsnaxam x yxe snam, uro on nax.onrcx
n xanne. o onn pas, xora mt unrann c u., x ne uyncrnonana nn-
xaxoro nnxennx n noymana, uro H. ner n xanne. ora mt sa-
xonunnn unrart, x cnpocnna y u.: re xe H.?~ - ro ner, on
concem ne tn ceronx~.
naunr, x ne omnnact. ne rax n xasanoct, uro ero ner, no-
romy uro nnxro sect ne nponsnonn nnxennx.
25. naxt, xora x samna n cnom xomnary, mne noxasanoct,
uro y menx n xomnare xro-ro ecrt (x uyncrnonana utn-ro marn).
ocranonnnact, urot nyume nuyncrnonartcx. o mne noomen X.
n cxasan: 3ro x samen nocmorpert~.
26. neuarana na mamnnxe, a xo mne n xomnary samen X.
ero nouyncrnonana no maram, no npoonxana neuarart n axe
ne cpasy ocranonnnact n rora, xora on npnxocnyncx x moemy nne-
uy. xorena onncart crpouxy, onncana n nonepnynact x nemy.
27. cnn x naxoxyct nnsxo nosne poxnx, x ouent xopomo uyn-
crnym snyxn ne rontxo rora, xora epxy pyxy na xptmxe poxnx,
no axe n rora, xora cnnmam pyxy c poxnx. +rom ner nnuero
crpannoro: net nnpannn snyxa coomamrcx ncemy nncrpymenry,
a rax xax nncrpymenr cronr na nony, ro nnpannn nepeamrcx ue-
pes non, n x noramn omymam nx, ocoenno ecnn nrpammn eper
cnntnte axxopt. naxt x tna y cnoe nopyrn . na cena
nrpart na nnannno, a x nexana na nnane, xoropt croxn pxom c
nnannno. ne samernna, xax ycnyna, no npyr menx pasynnn
cnntnte nnpannn snyxon. . nrpana xaxym-ro nemt, xoropax co-
croxna ns cnntntx axxopon. nexana na nnane, n mne xasanoct,
uro nnyrpn nnana naxonrcx mystxantnt nncrpymenr, noxoxn
na nnannno,- rax cnntno mne nepeanannct nnpannn snyxon.
28. nn pas x tna n pacnom yronxe cnentx na xaxom-ro ox-
nae. ora oxnaunx oxonunn ronopnrt, yxono opxecrp sanrpan
nrepnannonan~. oneuno, mne nopyra cxasana o rom, uro nr-
pamr nrepnannonan~, no x cama nacrontxo xopomo uyncrnonana
nnpannn uepes non n cxamexy, uro morna conepmenno nepno e-
nart nnxennx pyxo n raxr mystxe. epxana pyxy nopyrn n
enana nnxennx. opyra cxasana, uro x ne cenana nn ono
omnxn.
29. menx tn ronapnm, xoropt nrpan na xnapnere. nn
pas, xora on nrpan n opxecrpe, x cnena pxom c nnm. ne nomnm,
xaxym nemt rora nrpann, no nomnm xopomo, uro ronapnm epxan
menx sa pyxy, a x enana nnxennx n raxr mystxe. ora xon-
unnn nrpart, x cnpocnna ronapnma:
- ax, no-rnoemy, x npannntno enana nnxennx?
n ornernn:
- onepmenno npannntno.
30. neuarana na mamnnxe n cnoe xomnare. xomnary xro-ro
samen (x nouyncrnonana marn), no ne noomen xo mne. cnpocnna:
- ro +ro?
ora noomna . . n cxasana:
- 3ro x c sanxosom.
. 31. cnn x epxy xoro-nnyt sa pyxy, x uyncrnym, xora on
xamnxer nnn cmeercx. . . ouent xamnxer, n no npemx urennx x
uacro npomy ee nomentme xamnxrt: nac raxo nexopomn xa-
ment, uro on na menx ecrnyer rax, cnonno x cama xamnxm~.
32. naxt x pasronapnnana c X. ne noxasanoct, uro on xam-
nxer. t xamnxere?~ - cnpocnna x.- a~.
33. tna c . n pacnom yronxe cnentx. am unrann rasery,
n . nepeanana mne ee coepxanne. pyr x nouyncrnonana, uro
. cmeercx. ouemy rt cmeemtcx?~ - oromy uro nx yxe uer-
neprt pas ncraer nnrt noy~.
34, ora-ro x unrana c . . ne snana, uo e uro-ro pac-
cxastnaer . ., no+romy ynnnnact, xora nouyncrnonana, uro
. . cmeercx. ouent cocpeorouenno cnymana urenne, n mne ne
nonpannnoct, uro . . nauana cmexrtcx. cnpocnna ee c neyo-
nontcrnnem: ouemy nt cmeerect? et ceuac nnuero cmemnoro
n xnnre ner~.- enx paccmemnna . .~,- ornernna . .
35. unrana c u. ro-ro samen n xanny. nspornyna, xora
nouyncrnonana marn. u. cxasana: ma samen paoun, on cmor-
pnr oronnenne~.
36. menx tnn nopyra c ronapnmem. na nepeanana mne
onn ero nonpoc, n n ro npemx, xora ona mne ronopnna, x nouyncr-
nonana, uro ona sacmexnact. ouemy rt cmeemtcx?~ - cnpocnna
x. opyra oxcnnna.
37. cnena n cnoe xomnare c ., a ern rynxnn no nope.
ora onn nepnynnct c nporynxn n npnmnn n xomnary nrp, x cpasy
+ro nouyncrnonana no nx erorne, no cryxy crynten n no xarantm
mapon na xaranxe. cnpocnna .: ern yxe npnmnn?~ - a~.
38. nn pas x yesxana na necxontxo ne n nen. ora x
nepnynact n aptxon, x tna ouent ycranax nocne oporn n cpasy,
xax rontxo npnnxna nanny, nerna cnart. xpenxo ycnyna, no nce-
raxn uyncrnonana cxnost con, xax ern nrpann n xomnare nrp. o-
ra x npocnynact, n xomnare nrp tno rnxo. noymana, uro, mo-
xer trt, ern ymnn yxnnart. crana xart, no nnuro ne napy-
mano rnmnny. ncrana n nomna n pyrym xomnary nocmorpert na
uact. uact noxastnann nononnny 12-ro noun. ern yxe anno
cnann, no+romy n n xomnare nrp tno rnxo.
39. ax-ro x tna n xomnare nrp. apnapa n nron nrpann n
nacrontnt xpoxer na ontmom crone, a x naxonnact na nexoro-
pom paccroxnnn or crona n cnena sa manentxnm cronnxom, re
nncana . . orx x n ne naxonnact nosne crona, re nrpann ern,
x nce xe uyncrnonana, xora xarnnnct mapt. urot nponepnrt cex,
x cnpocnna y . .: 3ro mapt xarxrcx?~ - a~,-orneuana ona.
40. naxt u. . neuarana na mamnnxe, a x cnena sa py-
rnm cronom na raxom paccroxnnn, uro axe ne morna ocrart pyxo
o roro crona, sa xoroptm cnena u. . o x uyncrnonana, xax ona
neuarana na mamnnxe.
- t menenno neuaraere,- cxasana x.
u. . noomn.a xo mne n cnpocnna:
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- rxya rt snaemt?
- uyncrnym uepes non, xax nt neuaraere.
- a, x ne ocoenno tcrpo neuaram.
41. unrana c . . n cnoe xomnare n npyr (no maram) no-
uyncrnonana, uro xro-ro rontxo uro nomen n xomnary. . . eme ne
ycnena ocranonnrt urenne, a x yxe nonepnynact x nepn. ora
. . cxasana: pnmna . .~.
42. unrana c u. n rperte xanne. pyr x nouyncrnonana
cnntnte nnpannn nona. r neoxnannocrn x nspornyna. u. cxa-
sana:
- am npnmna . . c nopnnxom.
- e onn?
- nn n nepno xanne uro-ro enamr.
t npoonxann unrart, no nor onxrt uro-ro cnonno ynano na
non, n x onxrt nspornyna.
- 3ro ynan xaxo-ro xmnx,- cxasana mne u.
ora x ynnena . ., x cnpocnna ee:
- uro nt enann n nepno xanne?
- t cctnann npoyxrt.
- t ram rax nosnnnct, uro x nce npemx nyranact, xorx tna
ne rax nnsxo or nac.
43. unrana c . . n nouyncrnonana (no maram), uro xro-ro
samen xo mne n xomnary. nonepnynact x nepn. 3ro tna . .
44. ne nyxna tna . ., no x ee eme ne snana, a nomna cna-
uana n crononym nannrtcx not. ora x nnna noy, x no maram
ysnana, uro . . npoxonr mnmo menx. nosnana ee. na noo-
mna xo mne.
45. ro npemx xora x unrana c . . n cnoe xomnare, ern
mnn rynxrt. s y]erno xomnart n mom xomnary nepeanannct
nnpannn or nx maron. necxontxo pas nspornyna. . . rono-
pnna: 3ro nomna apnx. ceuac nomna apnapa~.
46. ora x nnna ua, x nouyncrnonana cnntnte nnpannn or
xaxoro-ro cryxa. ne morna rouno onpeennrt, re cryuar, no cryx
omymancx concem nnsxo. nosnana . . n cnpocnna:
- ro +ro cryunr?
- ora?
- nor ceuac.
- 3ro cryuar nnnsy n xouerapxe.
- xaxercx, xax yro t sect, n cronono.
47. cnena na nnane n cronono n nouyncrnonana, uro
apnx nosnpamaercx ns ymtnantno. ron yxe tn naxptr x
sanrpaxy, n apnx nomna canrtcx na cnoe mecro. nouyn-
crnonana, xora ona oronnrana cryn, n roxe nomna n cena sa
cron.
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48. unrana c . . n xomnare nrp. apnx cnntno cryuana.
ro +ro cryunr?~- apnx map pocaer na non~,- cxasana . .
49. neuarana na mamnnxe n nouyncrnonana no maram, uro
xro-ro nomen n mom xomnary. nonepnynact, xo mne noomna .
50. samna n cnantnm n nouyncrnonana, uro xro-ro nonnnyn
cryn. ocranonnnact. o mne noomna . IJ. ro +ro nonnnyn
cryn?~ - cnpocnna x. . .~.
51. no npemx X. onro tn n xomannponxe. o nor n onn
npexpacnt ent, xora x paorana n cronono, x nouyncrnonana
marn X. nepecrana paorart. uyncrnonana, uro X. nomen cna-
uana n xomnary nrp, a norom nanpannncx xo mne. nonepnynact
emy nancrpeuy n yntnynact, rax xax tna ynepena, uro +ro tn X.
52. ax-ro x c . . unrana n cnoe xomnare. nouyncrnonana
xaxo-ro cryx.
- e +ro cryuar? - cnpocnna x.
. . crana ncnymnnartcx.
- ne xaxercx, uro cryuar nanepxy,- cxasana . .
- ro xe moxer nanepxy y nac rax cryuart?
- 3ro ne y nac, a n mxone.
- e moxer trt. et na moe xomnaro nropo +rax, a ne
rpern. ne, nanpnmep, xaxercx, uro +ro ern cryuar n xomnare nrp.
- no-moemy, ner.
- ocnymare nyume... or ceuac...
. . eme nocnymana n cxasana:
- a, +ro n xomnare nrp cryuar ern.
53. tna na ortxe n ecce co cnoe nopyro F. t yxe
conpannct yesxart, no+romy onaxt yrpom F. ymna sa nneramn,
a x ocranact ona. nept n name xomnare nnoxo saxptnanact, a n
xopnope oxna tnn orxptrt, n cxnosnxx nce npemx orxptnan
nept, mne xe nyxno tno nepeoenartcx. pemnna noonnnyrt
x nepn ontmoe xpecno. nor, xora x yxe naenana nnarte, x
nouyncrnonana, uro nnraercx xpecno. cxasana rpomxo:
- entsx!
xora concem naena nnarte, noomna x nepn; sa neptm
croxn npo]eccop roro nncrnryra, n xoropom mt xnnn.
- 3ro x xoren sarn x nam n xomnary. ne nyxna nama no-
pyra,- nanncan npo]eccop na moe pyxe.
- na eme ne npnmna co crannnn, a x xax pas nepeoenanact,
no+romy npocnna nac nooxart.
54. cnena yxnnana n nouyncrnonana no maram, uro mnmo
menx npoxonr . . c apne. cxasana napouno:
- pnner nam!
oomna . .
- omy npnner?
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- am n apnn.
55. croxna nosne rymouxn n pesana ymary. nouyncrnonana
utn-ro marn n ysnana, uro +ro ner X. nporxnyna x nemy pyxy.
n noomen xo mne n nauan uro-ro ronopnrt.
56. uacro ntm noy naromax. nn pas x nomna n crononym
n noomna x cronnxy, re cronr rpa]nn c noo. nsxna rpa]nn
n yxe xorena nannnart n uamxy noy, no npyr nouyncrnonana no
nnxennm crynten, uro ern caxrcx yxe nnrt ua. nocrannna
rpa]nn na npexnee mecro, ne nannn cee not. o mne noomna
. . n cxasana, urot x cannact nnrt ua.
57. tna nesopona, no+romy nexana n nocrenn. ycnyna
nem. pyr menx pasynnn xaxne-ro nerxne ronuxn n xponart.
ora x concem npocnynact, ro ysnana, uro yopmnna moer non n
xomnare n no+romy necxontxo pas ronxnyna xponart. .
58. ax-ro x cex nnoxo uyncrnonana n nerna cnart pantme, uem
ern xonunnn nrpart. o ycnyrt x ne morna. ern nrpann n xom-
nare nrp n xernn, a rax xax mapt xarnnnct no nony, ro nonyuancx
cryx, xoropt it meman mne cnart. ycnyna rontxo rora, xora
ern xonunnn nrpart.
59. . . exypnna nent ent n onxna tna nouenart. e-
uepom, xora ona ynoxnna ere cnart, ona cxasana mne:
- eme onxna cerart x cee na xnaprnpy, urot ynoxnrt
cnom enouxy, a xnmua or nepn ner. ne snam, xax nporn n or-
enenne, ecnn x nty.
oyman, ona nonpocnna:
- ocnn, noxanycra, na oxne n xomnare nrp. ntnesy n
oxno, a rt saxpoemt n nooxemt menx. ora x npny, x rpn pasa
nocryuy n crexno.
t rax n cenann. xopomentxo saxptna oxno nocne roro, xax
. . ntnesna, n xana ee. uepes necxontxo mnnyr x nouyncrno-
nana rpn cryxa n oxno, na xoropom x epxana pyxy. nemnoro npn-
orxptna oxno, urot moxno tno npocynyrt pyxy, n cnpocnna:
- 3ro nt?
. . ornernna mne axrnnonorne:
- a, x-
60. xonna x . . ora x noomna x nepn xnaprnpt n no-
cryuana n nept, mne noxasanoct, uro xro-ro noomen x nepn, no-
romy uro nept cnerxa epnynact. cxasana:
- 3ro x.
ne orxptna nept . . n cnpocnna:
- orxya rt snaemt, uro x cnpocnna, xro sect?
- t, nepoxrno, nsxnnct sa pyuxy nepn, nept epnynact, n
x ysnana, uro xro-ro noomen x nepn, no+romy n cxasana, uro
+ro x.
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61. ora mox nopyra .eme yunnact n mxone cnentx, x nno-
ra rynxna c nem n nx cay uacon o II neuepa. exoropte ns na-
mnx nountx nocnnrarentnnn oxnnct mne orxptnart nepn rax
nosno, rax xax n cocenem mxontnom xopnope tno remno, a x
nx ne morna ycntmart, xora onn cnpamnnann, xro snonnr. no-
coneronana nm enart rax: xora na mo snonox onn nooyr x
nepn, ro onn onxnt cnerxa epnyrt nept, a x onxna tna or-
neuart, uro npnmna x. ax mt n enann.
62. ax-ro . . nonpocnna menx norynxrt c apne n cay.
yxe tna oera, a apycx eme ner.
- t nn noxa, x npnney x ree apycm.
ymna n ca n mnnyr 10 xana apycm. necxontxo pas no-
xonna x ramypy, urot nouyncrnonart, xora yer nrn apycx,
no ee nce ne tno. ora, naxonen, x eme pas noomna x ramypy
n nsxnact sa pyuxy nepn, ro nouyncrnonana marn n ramype. or-
xptna nept - mne nancrpeuy ntmna apycx.
63. menx tna ., no ona na mnnyrxy ntmna ns xomnart.
cnena na nnane n nouyncrnonana, uro xro-ro ner. ynnnnact
romy, uro noxoxa concem ne raxax. o mne noomen nam crap-
mn ., xoropt xonn n ncxan menx.
64. sannmanact c . . n cnoe xomnare. xomnare nrp ern
cnntno cryuann mapamn, n x ne ncera pasnpana ro, uro mne un-
rana . . nauana nepnnnuart n npn xaxom nonom cryxe nspa-
rnnana.
- e opama nnnmannx,- cxasana . .
- n rax crapamct ne opamart nnnmannx, no mne xaxt
cryx nepeaercx n paspaxaer menx.
65. cnena n napnxmaxepcxo n npyr nouyncrnonana, uro no
ynnne npoexan anromonnt. nspornyna.
- uero rt ncnyranact? - cnpocnna . .
- nouyncrnonana, uro npoexan anromonnt, n or neoxnan-
nocrn nspornyna.
- xax rt ysnana, uro +ro anromonnt?
- nouyncrnonana corpxcenne nona n sanax ensnna.
- a, +ro anromonnt npoexan.
66. no npemx x c . . nepeneuartnana spxune xnnrn na mpn]r
Fpanx. 3ra paora tna n nopxxe connanncrnuecxoro copenno-
nannx.
t naunnann paorart n 7 uacon yrpa. pnxonnoct ncranart
pantme. nora mt oe tnann concem connte n n raxnx cnyuaxx
onnnxnn pyr pyra n uem-nnyt. . . onnnxna menx n rom, uro
x nnoxo nonnmam, uro ona mne nxryer, a x. ee n rom, uro ona sact-
naer na xnnro n nnoxo mne nxryer. a +ro noune y nac nnora
ntxonnn cmemnte xon]nnxrt. naxt . . ocoenno nnoxo
nxronana, a mne net nyxno tno ne rontxo nonxrt ro, uro ona
nponxryer, no eme n naneuarart.
- t ceronx nnoxo nocnpnnnmaemt.
- er, x ouent xopomo nocnpnnnmam, a nt ene-ene nantnamn
nnraere.
. . paccepnnact, x roxe. ouent tcrpo neuarana na ma-
mnnxe, no xora paccepnnact, eme tcrpee nauana neuarart. pyr
. . ycntmana, a x nouyncrnonana, cnonno uro-ro nsopnanoct nnn
xro-nnyt ntcrpennn. t ononpemenno nspornynn n xpenxo
cxann pyr pyry pyxn. ecxontxo mnnyr mt cnenn n onenenennn.
na mox pyxa nexana na crone, n x uyncrnonana xaxoe-ro ryenne.
nepnax npnmna n cex n nonxna, uro cnyunnoct.
- a net +ro nonnyna crpyna na mamnnxe. morpnre, xoneco
o cnx nop neprnrcx, xax cymacmemee,- cxasana x.
- x cpasy ne coopasnna, uro +ro c mamnnxo uro-nnyt
cnyunnoct. noymana, uro nponsomen xaxo-nnyt nsptn y n-
rona n-xomnare,- orneuana . .
t, xoneuno, ncxpenno nocmexnnct na cnonm ncnyrom, noo-
paxax, uro y nac na nnnax, nanepnoe, tno raxoe xe ntpaxenne
ncnyra, xax y roronencxoro roponnuero n unnonnnxon, xora nm
oxnnnn, uro npnexan nacroxmn pennsop.
67. unrana c u. nam noomna . . n nauana uro-ro paccxa-
stnart u. n +ro npemx ortxana, no u. epxana menx sa pyxy.
pyr x nouyncrnonana, uro ona cmeercx. uro raxoe?~ - cnpocn-
na x. u. oxcnnna, nouemy ona cmexnact.
68. ora x unrana c u" x nouyncrnonana utn-ro marn, a sarem
nnxenne nosyxa. ora x yxe omyrnna nnxenne nosyxa,
u. cxasana: amen X.~. naunr, x nouyncrnonana marn X. eme rora,
xora on eme ne nomen n xanny, a rontxo noxonn x nepn.
69. ora-ro x cnena, unrana sa cronom n nnnorexe n npyr
nouyncrnonana cnntnte nnpannn or xaxoro-ro ryennx. cnauana
ne snana, uro +ro snaunr, no norom coopasnna, uro X. nponepxer
npnop. pnop npnnonncx n nnxenne +nexrpnuecxnm roxom n
nponsnonn mym. cnena anexo, concem na pyrom xonne xomna-
rt or roro mecra, re naxonncx npnop, n, necmorpx na +ro, ouent
xopomo uyncrnonana ero mym. X. paoran n reuenne necxontxnx
uacon. pasa na nnn rpn ntxonna ns nnnorexn n, xora cnona
nosnpamanact rya, uyncrnonana, uro npnop nce eme mymnr. sa-
epxanact n nnnorexe o II uacon neuepa n ymna cnart, ne ox-
anmnct, xora npnop sarnxner.
70. onn nernn neuep x ntmna n ca. xe tno nauano
11-ro. cena na cxamexy, xoropax croxna no saopom, n onep-
nact cnnno o saop. pomno mnnyr 10. pyr x nouyncrnonana,
uro saop cnntno nomarnyncx, a sarem x omyrnna xaxne-ro ronuxn
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n saop, cnonno na nero xro-nnyt nes, n ne onn. pome menx,
n cay nnxoro ne tno, no+romy x ncnyranact. copnanact c mecra
n n onn mnr tna n xomnare. sanepna nept n rora rontxo ycno-
xonnact. uennno, xro-nnyt ns cocenero nopa xoren sarnxnyrt
x nam n ca, a rax xax saop ntcoxn, ro emy npnmnoct nesrt na
saop.
71. naxt na xypopre, yyun ne concem sopono, x ocra-
nact oma, a F. ymna x mopm ona. nncana. nept x ne sanepna
n axe ne nocrannna x ne cryn, rax xax snana, uro nnxro uyxo
ne moxer norn. cxope nocne roro, xax ymna F., x nouyncrnonana
utn-ro marn n xomnare. Barn tnn ne F., a nesnaxomoro uenonexa.
cnpocnna:
- ro npnmen?
o mne noomen npo]eccop .
- 3ro samen x c ronapnmamn. nn cmorpxr nncrnryr, n mt
samnn n namy xomnary. ax nt ysnann, uro mt npnmnn?
- nouyncrnonana, uro xro-ro xonr no xomnare, n cnpocnna.
72. neuarana na mamnnxe n cnoe xomnare. ro-ro samen.
nonepnynact. o mne noomna u.
- rontxo orxptna nept, a nt yxe n nonopaunnaerect,- cxa-
sana ona.
- oromy uro x nouyncrnonana, uro xro-ro nomen.
73. nnoxo cex uyncrnonana n nexana n nocrenn. nemnoxxo
sapemana, no npyr nouyncrnonana cnat ronuox n xponart.
cnpocnna: ro?~
om pyxy nsxna ., xoropax rontxo uro npnmna.
74. unrana c u. n xanne. ne noxasanoct, uro uro-ro ynano
na non. nspornyna. 3ro H. yponnn xnnry, n ona ynana na non~,-
cxasana u.
75. ax-ro x tna n naoparopnn n cnymana npnop, xoropt
nepeanan xonnepr. ora x nonoxnna pyxy na pynop, x ysnana,
uro nrpaer poxnt. nonoxnna pyxy na pyro npnop n ononpe-
menno cnymana es pynopa, ysnana no nnpannxm, uro oa pyno-
pa nepeamr ony n ry xe nemt, ncnonnxemym na poxne.
76. unrana c u. n nouyncrnonana no maram, uro xro-ro ner
n xanny. ora x yxe nouyncrnonana nnxenne nosyxa, u. cxa-
sana: pnmna . . ax nt ee nouyncrnonann, net oa rax rnxo
samna, uro axe x ne ycntmana, uro ona ner?~
77. unrana c u. n nouyncrnonana marn concem nnsxo. u. sa-
mernna, uro x uro-ro omymam, n cxasana: 3ro n naoparopnn x cro-
ny noomen X.~.
78. ax-ro yrpom x cnena n cnoe xomnare. nauana x uyncrno-
nana, xax ern nosnnnct n xomnare nrp, a norom ram crano rnxo.
noymana, uro ern yxe nomnn nnrt ua, n ntmna n crononym.
103
ce ern cnenn sa cronom. . . cxasana: cnexy sa ., n mne
nexora tno nosnart~.
79. ax-ro x croxna c u. n cronono n npyr nouyncrnonana marn
. . ynnnnact, rax xax . . tna n ornycxe, a x ne snana,
uro ona npnmna. nonepnynact n ry cropony, orxya uyncrnonana
marn. . . noomna xo mne. ouemy nt npnmnn?~ -nonnrepe-
conanact x. npnmna na postrptm c ertmn~.
80. ax-ro x cnena na nnane n cronono n no maram ysnana
. . noymana, uro +ro mne rontxo xaxercx, rax xax c yrpa e-
xypnna . . o x ne omnnact: . . ecrnnrentno npnmna n
cmennna . .
81. samna n xomnary nrp. apnx n erx xarann mapt no
xaranxe. cena na cryn sa cronom. uyncrnonana, xax xarannct
mapt. o nor crano rnxo. noomna x xaranxe, urot ysnart, no-
uemy ern nepecrann nrpart. ora x noomna x xaranxe, apnx
n erx croxnn na ne.
82. naxt x nerna cnart pantme otxnonennoro, rax xax
y menx onena ronona. o mne nyxen tn X., n x npocnna uepes
exypnym, urot on samen xo mne. yxe nauana sactnart, xax
npyr nouyncrnonana marn X. cpasy orxptna rnasa n nporxnyna
pyxy. X. noomen xo mne.
83. cnn xro-nnyt ns cntmamnx ymaer, uro nx cnenornyxnx
espasnnuno, xaxax yer noxoxa y rex nme, xoropte ero oxpy-
xamr, on omnaercx. enx nnuno noxoxa nexoroptx nme pas-
paxaer. ax, nanpnmep, x uacro unram n cronono. . . mnoro pas
npoxonr no cronono, n ero noxoxa ouent paspaxaer menx. ne
snam, xaxo snyx nonyuaercx or ero noxoxn na cnyx, no nx menx,
xax nx omymamme nntm cnocoom pasnte snyxn n cryx, xaxer-
cx, uro . . xonr ne na nyx norax, a na uertpex, npnuem ne cry-
namr rnme, a ne rpomue. oxoxa . . ocoenno cnntno paspa-
xaer menx, xora x tnam n nepnnom cocroxnnn. raxnx cnyuaxx
mne xouercx nonpocnrt . . ntrn ns xomnart. +ro noromy rax
xaxercx, uro on ne samnypontnaer ornnxn n npncryxnnaer xa-
nyxamn.
84. ora-ro x cnena n cnoe xomnare. o mne samna . .
samernna, uro y nee nemnoro nsmennnact noxoxa.
- t naenn pyrne ry]nn?
- a, x ceronx n pyrnx ry]nxx.
- nanepnoe, na ntcoxnx xanyxax, noromy uro ouent cryunre.
ocmorpena ry]nn . .: xanyxn ecrnnrentno tnn ouent
ntcoxne. +roro nx x es paspaxennx ne mory uyncrnonart no-
xoxy . . ora . . naena nonte ry]nn na ntcoxnx xanyxax,
ro ee noxoxa paspaxana menx rax xe, xax n noxoxa . .
85. ax-ro x croxna nosne rene]ona c exypno n nouyncrno-
104
nana (no maram), uro n y]erno xomnare npomen . . n +ro
npemx tna conepmenno cnoxona, no noxoxa . . ntsnana no
mne poxt.
86. tna n xannere acnnpanron n nouyncrnonano cnntnoe
corpxcenne nona, xax t or cnntnoro ronuxa. nspornyna.
- uro raxoe? - cnpocnna u.
- nouyncrnonana cnntnoe corpxcenne nona n no+romy nspor-
nyna.
- ma nnxro ne npnxonn, a nnnsy rpomxo xnonnynn neptm.
87. sannmanact c . .: x neuarana na mamnnxe, a . . nx-
ronana mne. ncr ymarn, na xoropom x neuarana, tn ysxn n ne
saxptnan ncm crpoxy. nemnoro ornnexnact n ne npocnenna sa
rem, urot ocranonnrt mamnnxy, xora xonunrcx ymara. o x no
cryxy mamnnxn nouyncrnonana, uro ymara yxe xonunnact n uro x
necxontxo pas yapnna no nycromy mecry.
88. nn pas x nomna n naoparopnm, re x otuno unrana
c acnnpanramn. ora x tna yxe n nepxx xannt, ro nouyncrno-
nana, uro nosne crona xro-ro nonnnyn cryn. noymana: epoxr-
no, H. oronnraer nx menx cryn~.
noomna x crony, H. noan mne pyxy n cxasan, uro on yxe
nocrannn nx menx cryn.
89. Ftn raxcn cnyua: x unrana c u. n npyr omyrnna ouent
cnntnte nnpannn nona, xax yro t nect om copornyncx.
ncnyranno nspornyna.
- uro c namn? - ynnnnact u.
- asno nt nnuero ne cntxann?
- er, a uro?
- nouyncrnonana ouent cnntnoe corpxcenne n axe ncnyra-
nact.
- nnuero ne cntmana. oxer trt, re-nnyt anexo cryx-
nynn nnn uro-nnyt ynano.
- nt ne uyncrnonann corpxcennx nona?
- er.
ax mt n ne ysnann, oruero nponsomna raxax: cnntnax nnpa-
nnx nona.
90. 21 xnnapx x tna na rpaypnom neuepe n 3e. cnena
no nropom pxy or +crpat. ora oxnnnn, uro copanne orxptro,
xro-ro nauan ncnonnxrt nn poxne rpaypnt mapm Bonena. t nce
ncrann. epxana n pyxe cno ]erpont eper, n npn nepntx xe
snyxax poxnx x nouyncrnonana, uro uepes mo eper nepeamrcx
snyxn, n nacrontxo xopomo, uro axe . . n . +ro nouyncrnonann,
xora x nx pyxn nonoxnna na eper. npoonxenne ncero neuepa
x epxana eper n pyxax n uyncrnonana, xora naunnann nrpart na
poxne. cnn x xnana eper na xonenn n cnnmana c nero pyxn, x sna-
B
unrentno xyxe uyncrnonana snyxn. tcoxnx n rnxnx snyxon x
uepes eper ne omymana, a rontxo onee nnsxne, npnuem snyxn ne
cnnnannct n ony cnnomnym nnpannm, a nepeanannct coornercr-
nenno ncnonnxemo na poxne nemn: rnme nnn rpomue, tcrpee nnn
menennee nrpann, n x ro xe camoe uyncrnonana uepes eper.
91. unrana n xomnare nrp c . ., a apycx ouent cryuana
cnonmn nrpymxamn, x nnuero ne nonnmana ns roro, uro mne unrana
. ., rem onee uro ona unrana nnoxo. ne npnmnoct yrn ns xom-
nart nrp n crononym, urot . ne memana mne nocnpnnnmart
urenne.
92. euepom x cnena n cronono na nnane n unrana. o noxo-
xe x ysnana, uro yxe npnmna na exypcrno . " n, xenax npone-
pnrt, ne omnnact nn x, nosnana ee n ro npemx, xora ona npoxonna
mnmo menx.
93. naxt n moe xomnare xro-ro orxptn oxno. saxptna
ero, noromy uro tno xonono, n ymna n crononym. o maram x
ysnana, uro mnmo menx npoxonr yopmnna, x nosnana ee n cnpo-
cnna: 3ro nt orxptnn oxno?~. opmnna yrnepnrentno nomaxa-
na pyxo.
94. cnena n xomnare nosne nepn, xoropax ntxonna na an-
xon. 3ro tno snmo. enx oxpyxano mnoro cntmamnx ere. ne
xasanoct, uro onn uero-ro xyr, no+romy n x cnena cnoxono n
tna cocpeorouena. pyr x nouyncrnonana, uro anxonnax nept
n anxon nauann corpxcartcx. ncxpnxnyna, a ern cpasy noe-
xann x anxonno nepn.
nocnecrnnn x ysnana, uro corpxcenne nona nponsomno or ny-
meuntx ntcrpenon, xoroptmn canmronann no npemx noxopon
. . ennna. xpyxammne menx ern +ro samernnn rontxo nocne
roro, xora x ncxpnxnyna. onyunnoct rax, uro x nepnax nouyncrno-
nana corpxcenne. o ern +roro ne nonxnn n noymann, uro x ycnt-
mana canmr. nn nepecrann nepnrt romy, uro x ne cntmy. onro
nocne +roro cnyuax ern erann sa mno n xpnuann uro-nnyt no
moemy apecy, urot ysnart, yy nn x cntmart. oneuno, x nnuero
ne cntmana n coxpanxna nonnoe cnoxocrnne. 3ro yenno ere n
rom, uro x ecrnnrentno nx ne cntmy.
95. . . mna rynxrt c ertmn na ynnny n nonpocnna menx or-
xptrt nm nept n cemt uacon.
- o net x yy n xomnare n ne nouyncrnym, xora nt yere
cryuart n napanoe.
- ree oxcnm, xax cenart: n cemt uacon rt saxrn cner n
xannenxpnn n ntn n necrnmnt x nepn.
onno n cemt uacon x nomna n xannenxpnm, saxrna cner n ntmna
n necrnmnt. nonoxnna pyxy na pyuxy nepn n xana cryxa. po-
mno mnnyrt ne. axonen x nouyncrnonana, uro n nept rnxo nocry-
uann. nemnoro npnorxptna nept n nsxna sa pyxy . ., x ee ysna-
na n nocne +roro yxe concem pacnaxnyna nept.
96. outm menx pasynn xaxo-ro cryx. noymana, uro yxe
yrpo n n xomnare ynpamr, no+romy n cryuar. o, xora x ncrana n
nocmorpena na uact, tno rontxo uertpe uaca yrpa. uennno, n xo-
uerapxe cryuan ncronnnx, n +ror cryx nepeancx n mom xomnary.
ontme ne morna ycnyrt. rpom x cnpocnna exypnym, ne cntxa-
na nn ona xaxoro-nnyt cryxa. er, no x roxe ymam, uro cryuann
n xouerapxe~. (ox xomnara naxonnact na xouerapxo.)
97. ax-ro neuepom x nomna n namy nnnorexy, urot nsxrt
cee xnnry. saxptna sa coo nept na anrnncxn samox n nauana
ncxart xnnry. o nor x crana uyncrnonart, uro cryuar n nept. o x
+roro ne nonxna n noymana, uro xro-nnyt cronr nosne npnopa n
cryunr, no+romy ne opamana nnnmannx na cryx n npoonxana nc-
xart xnnry. ora x ntmna ns naoparopnn, ro utn-ro xononte
pyxn nsxnn menx sa pyxy. r neoxnannocrn x ncnyranact n uyrt ne
ntponnna xnnry, no roruac xe onpannnact. 3ro tn . ,, xoropt
npnmen paorart na npnope.
- rxpore mne nept,- nonpocnn . .
ora x comna nnns, xo mne noomna . .
- rax cryuana x ree, uro axe pyxa saonena.
- ax +ro nt cryuann? uyncrnonana cryx, no noymana, uro
+ro paoramr nosne npnopa.
98. ax-ro neuepom x cnena na nnane n cronono n nouyncrno-
nana, uro xro-ro npomen no xomnare rouno rax, xax xonr . .
snana, uro . . n +ro npemx ne onxno trt. epoxrno, na moem
nnne ntpasnnoct ynnnenne, noromy uro xo mne noomna . . n
cnpocnna:
- t ynnnent, uro x npnmna? ne nyxno tno noronopnrt
c nouno exypno no nonoy ee nanmenn na cnom ere.
99. eanno x npounrana n xypnane nsnt cnentx~ o rom, uro
onn cneno mantunx-mxontnnx npenoxnn ntnycrnrt ocote ua-
nnxn, nnyrpn xoroptx nmencx t xmnuex, coepxamn na craxana
not nx roro, urot cneno ne pasnnnan noy n ro npemx, xora on
nannnaer ee n uamxy. oneuno, +ro tno t nennoxo, no nnuno x oco-
o nyxt n raxnx uannxax ne uyncrnym. cnn mne npnxonrcx na-
nnnart noy ns uannxa n uamxy nnn craxan(nce panno xaxym - xo-
nonym nnn ropxuym), x uamxy epxy n pyxax ne rax, xax spxune,
a nnaue, oxnartnam ee rax, urot nantnt uyncrnonann n remnepary-
py not, n xonnuecrno ee. cnn x nannnam ropxuym noy, x uyncrnym
nantnamn ry rouxy, o xoropo oxonr noa. ouno rax xe x uyncr-
nym n xononym noy. ouent pexnx cnyuaxx x nepennnam noy ue-
pes xpax uamxn. 3ro tnaer otuno rora, xora x ymam o uem-nn-
yt pyrom n nposenam noy. opaso uame tnann cnyuan, xora
A. H., xoropax nnnr, onnnana mne pyxn xnnxrxom, xenax nomout
mne nannrt not. 3ro tnano rax uacro, uro x xareropnuecxn orxasa-
nact or ee nomomn n nannnana noy cama.
100. ne unrana . . n ercxo cnantne n ro npemx, xora ern
ortxann. pyr x nouyncrnonana, uro xro-ro cryunr.
- ro +ro cryunr? - cnpocnna x.
.. ornernna:
- 3ro apycx cryunr noro no cnoe xponarn.
apycx cryuana ne cnntno, no +ror cryx nepeanancx uepes non
ouent xopomo.
101. naxt snmo x tna n mystxantnom rexnnxyme co cnoe
nopyro. t cnenn n xopnope na nnane. uepes xopnop npoxo-
nno mnoro cryenron, n ecnpeptnno uyncrnonancx ronor nx nor.
o nor x nouyncrnonana, uro xro-ro ner raxo noxoxo, cnonno na
norax y +roro nymero tnn orpomnte ranomn.
- t cntmnmt,- oparnnact x x H.,- xax xro-ro ner n neser
sa coom ranomn?
- a, x cntmy, no mne crpanno, xax rt morna +ro nouyncrno-
nart. et +ro moxno rontxo cntmart,- cxasana H. ynnnenno.
- er, +ro moxno ne rontxo cntmart, no n uyncrnonart, n x
cpasy +ro nouyncrnonana.
ora mt npnmnn x H. omo, x cnxna nantro, paccrernyna o-
rt, no ne cnxna nx n rax n paccrernyrtx orax npomnact no xom-
nare. H. paccmexnact:
- ax xopomo rt ycnena nepexnarnrt +ry noxoxy, xorx rt ne
rax cnntno cryunmt, xax ror, xro npomen n rexnnxyme, no no snyxy
noxoxa raxax xe.
102. n H. rynxnn n xopnope mxont cnentx. pyr or uero-
ro nponsomno cnntnoe corpxcenne nona.
- uro +ro ynano? - cnpocnna x y H.
- 3ro . n . oponnct, n oa ynann na non.
103. n ern ns name xnnnnxn esnnn xarartcx n anromon-
ne. . . noexana c namn. nannax n rpxcxax esa omymaercx npe-
xpacno. ora mt exann no ynnne . nxnexra, anromonnt men
ponno n nnanno, rax xax +ra ynnna ac]antrnponana; n nexoroptx
mecrax ecrt nontmennx n nonnxennx mocrono, n +ro uyncrnonanoct
no npemx est. enee samerntm xnnxercx ror momenr, xora anro-
monnt nonopaunnaer na pyrym ynnny. nx roro urot +ro ysna-
nart esomnouno, nyxno ouent nnnmarentno npocnenrt re ocoen-
nocrn, xoropte nce xe omymamrcx npn nonoporax anromonnx.
ouent nnnmarentno cnenna sa xaxtm corpxcennem anromonnx n
crapanact nuyncrnonartcx no nce ocoennocrn ero nnxennx. ax
mne xaxercx, onn cocroxr n rom, uro, no-nepntx, ycnnnnaercx cryx
moropa n rem camtm ynennunnamrcx nnpannn; no-nroptx, tcrpora
108
est samenxercx, n, n-rpertnx, anromonnt uyrt-uyrt cxnonxercx
n cropony, coxanennm, x ne morna nponepnrt +rn omymennx;
trt moxer, x n omnanact, rax xax . . tna sanxra c ertmn.
ory cxasart rontxo ono: xora x omymana ony ns ormeuenntx
mnom ocoennocre, ro sarem cnpamnnana y . .:
- t nonepnynn?
na orneuana:
- a, ceuac nonepnynn.
o net ona morna n ne paccntmart moero nonpoca n ornernrt
mne nenpannntno. t esnnn sa ropo n none. opora tna nepon-
nax, n anromonnt cnntno corpxcancx. axo rpxcxo est x ne
nmnm, n ona yromnna menx. ora x .omyrnna, uro esa crana onee
ponnax, x cnpocnna y . .:
- t yxe n ropoe?
- a.
arem, uepes nexoropoe npemx x nouyncrnonana, uro anromonnt
samenxer xo n, naxonen, concem ocranonnncx,-x coopasnna, uro
mt yxe noexann x namemy omy; x nauana ncranart n nepnax
ntmna ns anromonnx.
104. tna n cnoe xomnare n no ercxo cemenxme noxoxe
ysnana, uro xo mne samna apnx. cenana necxontxo maron nne-
pe, n apnx naexana na menx.
10t. tna n cnoe xomnare, no cnena ne sa cronom, a nosne
xponarn na manentxom cryne. xana . " xoropax onxna tna
npnrn sannmartcx co mno. na onro ne npnxonna. axonen, x
nouyncrnonana ee marn n nnxenne crynten nosne crona. ncrana
n noomna x crony. . . tna ram.
106. nepexnatnana co crona na nnan nenym xnny spxunx
xnnr. a camo nepxne nonxe nexana xopoouxa c nnamomerpom.
ora x nonoxnna xnnrn, onn nce pacctnannct no nnany; n ro xe
npemx x nouyncrnonana cnat cryx o non. noymana, uro +ro
ynana xopoouxa. oronnnyna nnan or crenxn n npnxocnynact
pyxo x nony -mne no pyxy nonanact xopoouxa.
/"107. unrana c . . n nouyncrnonana, uro ona cmeercx.
: - uro raxoe? - cnpocnna x.
- 3ro . . paccmemnna menx.
108. ax-ro x cnena c X. na nnane n moe xomnare n uro-ro
ronopnna emy. +ro npemx x nouyncrnonana no maram, uro xro-ro
samen n xomnary. samonuana. 3ro saxonna . .~,-cxasan
mne X.
109. xonna x . . ora x cnxna nantro n cena na nnan,
ro cnpocnna:
- re xe nama mama?
- na nexnr na xponarn n, xaxercx, cnnr.
109
uepes necxontxo mnnyr x nouyncrnonana marn c ro cropont,
re cronr xponart.
- ro +ro y nac xonr?
- 3ro ncrana mama n xouer noorn x ree.
110. ax-ro neuepom x noxnnact cnart. pyr x nouyncrnonana
neotuanoe .corpxcenne nona: xasanoct, uro nam om copnancx co
cnoero mecra n noxarnncx na xonecax. 3ro corpxcenne npoonxa-
noct necxontxo cexyn. ntexana n y]ernym xomnary n nosna-
na . .
- t nnuero ceuac ne cntmann nnn ne nouyncrnonann?
- ax xe, cntmann: no ynnne npoexano uro-ro rxxenoe n c ra-
xnm rpoxorom, uro nect om saryen.
- roxe nouyncrnonana, xax cnntno corpxcancx nox.
III. tuno, xora mne npnxonrcx exart n rpamnae, noese, an-
romonne, x no cnntntm nnpannxm uyncrnym nx nnxenne. -
naxt x copanact exart n ropo. n conponoxanmax menx . u.
cenn n rpamna. o npomno yxe necxontxo mnnyr, a rpamna nce
eme croxn. 3ro ynnnno menx, n x oparnnact x . u. c nonpocom:
ouemy rpamna cronr?~ - er roxa~.
112. naxt mne ann noepxart manentxoro peenxa. nep-
nym mnnyry x uyncrnonana, uro peenox nexnr cnoxono n mon-
unr. o n cneymmym mnnyry peenox sannrancx, n x uepes ero
rentne xcno omyrnna ero cnntnt xpnx. 3ro menx oecnoxonno, n x
nocnemnna nepeart ero marepn: t nocmorpnre: moxer trt,
y nero ne cyxne nenenxn?~
mne omymennx
1. axne momenrt, xora x ysnam ne rontxo rex nme, xoro-
ptx nnxy xaxt ent, no n rex, xoroptx nnxy pexo, x ne mory
ornecrn x onnm ocxsarentntm nnn oonxrentntm omymennxm. ue-
nnno, sect naxnym pont nrpamr n pyrne uyncrna - mtmeuno-
cycrannoe n eme, nepoxrno, xaxne-nnyt pyrne penenropt. et
nenocpecrnenno ocxsannem x uyncrnym xpenxoe n cnaoe noxarne
pyxn. mory eme cxasart, uro n xoxnoe omymenne nomoraer mne
ysnanart nme, rax xax y onnx tnamr pyxn onee rennte n mxr-
xne, y pyrnx - onee xononte nnn ne concem rnaxne.
2. cnn xro-nnyt ns namnx corpynnxon nooer xo mne n
ro npemx, xora mon pyxn sanxrt xaxnm-nnyt npemerom, ro onn
otuno npnxacamrcx x moemy nneuy. xe no onomy nx npnxocno-
nennm x ysnam, xro noomen. onnx tnamr xorx n noptnncrte,
no nerxne nnxennx, y pyrnx - mennrentnte, no pesxne, nenpn-
110
xrnte. syunn nnxennx xaxoro corpynnxa n orentnocrn, x yxe
es rpya ysnam, xora xo mne npnxacamrcx " . ., -. . n p.
3. ecxna rpn romy nasa x nosnaxomnnact c . ., xoropt
paoraer y nac. ronopnna c nnm ncero mnnyrt rpn. crpernn ero
nropnuno, x ysnana ero, nnmt rontxo on cnpocnn y menx: ax nt
xnnere?~ ne snana o rom, uro on tn n name naoparopnn, n ys-
nana ero ncxnmunrentno no pyxe.
4. cnn x ne sameuam, uro sa mno nanmamr n ro npemx, xora
x uro-nnyt enam nnn rynxm, x ncera uyncrnym cex cnoonee.
mory sannmartcx uem yrono n rynxrt n xomnare nnn cay, ne na-
rtxaxct nn na xaxne npemert. o ecnn x ysnam, uro sa mno na-
nmamr, a eme re nmn, npncyrcrnne xoroptx nemnoro nonnyer
menx, x repxm nce cnoe cnoxocrnne. cnn x unram xnnry, x yy
unrart concem ne re cnona, xoropte nanncant n xnnre; ecnn x nnmy
na mamnnxe, x yy nyrart yxnt, a ecnn x rynxm, x naunnam xonrt
xyxe n nenpemenno narxnyct na xaxo-nnyt npemer. s +roro
nnno, uro n ro npemx, xora cnenornyxo sannmaercx, rynxer nr-
paer, xymaer n r. " on uyncrnyer cex ne nyume, uem spxun n cnt-
mamn uenonex, xoropomy memamr sannmartcx xaxax-nnyt nosnx,
xpnx, cryx n noome ncxxn mym. asnnna rontxo n rom, uro cnt-
mamn uenonex nocnpnnnmaer nce +ro yxom, a cnenornyxo nocnpn-
nnmaer ncem cnonm cymecrnom nce ro, uro moxer ero paspaxart
nnn memart cnoxono sannmartcx.
5. naxt nerom x yesxana ns namero nncrnryra na ortx.
a oparnom nyrn n aptxon mne npnmnoct exart mocxoncxnm noes-
om c rere, xoropax exana n ocxny. a noxsane n aptxone menx
onxnt tnn ncrpernrt, no mt pasomnnct c rem, xro ncrpeuan
menx, a mocxoncxn noes croxn n aptxone rontxo 40 mnnyr.
pomno +ro npemx, n rere neoxonmo tno canrtcx n noes. e-
meno tno, uro rerx ocrannr menx n xenesnoopoxno nonnxnnnn-
xe, orxya x yy snonnrt no rene]ony n cno nncrnryr. erx npo-
nonna menx n nonnxnnnnxy n ocrannna ram n npnemno. oneuno,
snonnrt no rene]ony x cama nnxax ne morna, nyxno tno xoro-
nnyt nonpocnrt cenart +ro. o x net nnxoro ne snana n nonn-
xnnnnxe. cnena n npnemno n uyncrnonana, uro mnmo menx npoxo-
xr nmn. o xax x nnm oparnrtcx? et x nx ne nnxy. nert
rax- roxe nentsx. yxno tno uro-ro npenpnnxrt. ncrana co
cxamexn n cenana necxontxo maron no romy nanpannennm, or-
xya x uyncrnonana sanax ns pyro xomnart. ocranonnnact,
urot nuyncrnonartcx, ecrt nn ecrnnrentno ram nept n pyrym
xomnary. o sanaxy n no nnxennm nosyxa x ysnana, uro nept
ecrt. noomna npxmo x nepn, ona tna orxptra, n x nomna n
xomnary. ne noxasanoct, uro n +ro xomnare xro-ro npomen concem
nnsxo or menx. apanmnct cmenocrn, x cnpocnna: xaxnre no-
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xanycra, ecrt nn sect rene]on?~ o mne noomen xaxo-ro myx-
unna n nsxn menx sa pyxy. oxer trt, on mne uro-nnyt ronopnn,
x net nce panno nnuero ne cntmana. emy oxcnnna, uro x no
nnxy n ne cntmy n uro on moxer nncart mne na moe pyxe. yx-
unna nanncan mne, uro rene]on ecrt n uro on nosnonnr... axnm o-
pasom, oonxrentnte, xoxnte n pyrne omymennx nomornn mne
ntrn ns raxoro sarpynnrentnoro nonoxennx n conepmenno ne-
snaxomo mne ocranonxe, cpen nme, xoropte nepnt pas n
cnoe xnsnn nnenn menx. cnn t x nnuero ne uyncrnonana n
npoonxana cnert, ro mne, trt moxer, npnmnoct t n nent ent
cnert n npnemno. nxro net ne snan, xax xo mne oparnrtcx n
xax co mno saronopnrt, ecnn x ne nnxy n ne cntmy.
6. cnn x snaxomnmct c nontm uenonexom, x ouent xopomo uyn-
crnym, ecnn on nonnyercx nnn pacrepxncx n ne snaer, xax co mno
saronopnrt. Fnaroapx romy uro x cex uyncrnym ropaso nyume,
uem mo coecennx, x mory ntnecrn ero ns nectma nenpnxrnoro
nx nero cocroxnnx. otuno tnam nnnnnaropom ecet. eanno
mox nopyra . nosnaxomnna menx co cnonm ronapnmem. . emy
yxe paccxastnana oo mne, no, necmorpx na +ro, on xpane pacre-
pxncx, xora snaxomnncx co mno. snana, uro on nnrepecyercx nn-
reparypo, ouent nmnr no+snm n axe cam nnmer crnxn. , nac
nerxo sanxsancx pasronop na +ry remy, rem onee uro xyoxecrnen-
nax nnreparypa n no+snx ocrannxmr mne nennuamee nacnax-
enne. e npomno n 10 mnnyr, xax mo nont snaxomt uyncrnonan
cex conepmenno cnoono. uepes necxontxo ne mne nepeana no-
pyra, uro mo nont snaxomt nocne ecet co mno o nnreparype
cran ronopnrt, uro ero nnoxoe nacrpoenne yxe npoxonr n on ouent
ononen, uro ncrpernn uenonexa, c xoroptm mor ronopnrt o rom, uro
ero rax nnrepecyer, r. e. o no+snn n noome o nnreparype.
7. ocne saxptrnx 15-ro xonrpecca ]nsnonoron nam nncrnryr
nocernnn mnorne unent xonrpecca. oneuno, x nmena nonnym nos-
moxnocrt ronopnrt c namnmn rocrxmn, ecnn xro-nnyt ns nnx snan
pyccxn xstx. naxomxct co mno, onn xpane cmymannct. omnm
onoro npaua, nonxxa, yxe crapnxa. n nsxnnn xenanne norono-
pnrt co mno, no conepmenno pacrepxncx. cpasy no ero pyxe no-
uyncrnonana, uro on cmymen n pacrepxn. oopxmme yntnynact
emy n cnpocnna: rxya nt?~ ourennt yuent rax opaonan-
cx moemy nonpocy, uro c nennuame paocrtm n roronnocrtm orne-
rnn mne: ns ontmn, ns apmant~.- axoe nneuarnenne npo-
nsnen na nac nam onercxn oms?~ - uent xopomee~,- orneuan
mo coecennx, xoropt nacrontxo yxe npnoopnncx, uro ocme-
nnncx cnpocnrt menx: uro nt snaere o xonrpecce ]nsnonoron?~
o orner ouent yonnernopnn ero, n on pyxecxn pacnpomancx co
mno. cnn t x uyncrnonana cex n raxom xe sarpynnrentnom co-
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croxnnn, xax mon nonte snaxomte, ro nectma nepoxrno, uro namn
ecet ne nomnn t antme coomenn pyr pyry namnx nmen n
]amnnn.
8. xopomo snam, uro ncxxn cneno nennxom nonaraercx na
cno cnyx: re t on nn tn, on ncera uerxo ncnymnnaercx no nce,
uro ero oxpyxaer. o ecnn x ny no ynnne c xem-nnyt ns cnentx
nopyr, x yxe ne uyncrnym cex rax cnoono, xax rora, xora x
ny co spxunm. ne nnonne nonaramct na cnyx cnenoro, no snam,
uro onn cnyx ne oecneunnaer cnenoro or naennx. nyrn co cne-
ntmn x cama cnexy sa oporo, r. e. crapamct nouyncrnonart, re
naunnaercx nontmenne, nonnxenne nnn ponnoe mecro, a panno cne-
xy n sa sanaxom. naxt x tna n nnnorexe cnentx, n mne npn-
mnoct nosnpamartcx omo c . ora mt ntmnn ns nnnorexn na
ynnny, x cpasy samernna, uro . nonepnyna n npornnononoxnym
cropony or roro nanpannennx, xya nam nyxno tno nrn. o
+rom e cxasana, no ona ornernna: er, mt nem rya, xya nyx-
no~. ona tcrpo samarana no nsxromy em nanpannennm. er,
mt nem ne rya... a rt xort rax ne cnemn, mt ceuac xya-nnyt
nonernm~. na x +ro cxasana, xax mt c pasery nonerenn nnns. r
raxo neoxnannocrn mt oe ne cpasy nonxnn, xya ynann. orom
nouyncrnonann, uro xarnmcx nnns no necrnnne. ecrnnna tna cry-
nenex n nocemt, a moxer trt, n ontme, no ona nam noxasanact ne-
otuano nnnno, n nyremecrnne no ne xasanoct neunocrtm.
ora, naxonen, mt ntxarnnnct npxmo na rporyap, nam ncnyr npo-
men, n mt paccmexnnct. rxya ona nsxnact, +ra necrnnna?~ - cxa-
sana . ree ee nocrannna, noromy uro rt mne ne nepnna, uro
mt nem ne n ry cropony~,- ornernna x. . cxasana: enept n x
nnxy, uro mt nomnn ne n ry cropony~.
9. ny snmy n cocenem xopnope namero oma xnnn acnnpan-
rt. yxe tna snaxoma c necxontxnmn enymxamn. naxt onn
nosnaxomnnn menx co cnonm ronapnmem. n, nanepnoe, nonaran, uro
x mory- nonnmart rontxo npnmnrnnnte pasronopt, no+romy npexe
ncero cnpocnn: crt nn y nac ponte?~ ornernna emy: ruero nt
ne cnpocnre menx, uro x unram nnn snaxomnmct nn x c rexyme no-
nnrnxo?~ samernna, uro nocne monx cnon acnnpanr ouent cmy-
rnncx n nauan nsnnnxrtcx sa ro, uro rax neymeno nauan ronopnrt co
mno. Ftrt moxer, mnorne cxaxyr, uro mo orner acnnpanry tn
pesox, no eno n rom, uro x ne naxoxy nn manemero yonontcrnnx
n pasronopax o pontx, xoroptx x nourn ne snam, noromy uro onn
menx pocnnn eme n ercrne. cnn xomy-nnyt npnxrno cntmart
raxne rporarentnte~ nemn, ro nx +roro ecrt mnoro raxo nnrepa-
rypt, re anrop co ncemn noponocrxmn onnctnaer, xax crpaamr
ern or xecroxocrn ponrene.
10. uacro ymamr, axe nnsxne mne nmn, uro or menx moxno
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cxptrt xaxoe-nnyt neyonontcrnne nnn cmymenne c nx cropont.
3ro nm yaercx nectma pexo, a n ro n rex rontxo cnyuaxx, xora
x cama tmam uem-nnyt paccrpoena n ne cnexy sa pyrnmn.
nomnm, uro onaxt nerom, xora . . tna n ornycxe, x noexana
x ne. cama rontxo uro nepnynact ns ornycxa n nent mecxn ne
nnena ee. ora x npnexana x . . n ona noomna xo mne, ro x
cpasy samernna, uro ona ne ocoenno onontna monm npnxoom.
cnpocnna:
- oxer trt, nt sanxrt nnn xornre oroxnyrt, rora x yy?
- er, nnuero, x cnoona, ocranacx.
-; mne xaxercx, uro nac uro-ro cmymaer.
- er, x rontxo ne concem sopona.
ax xax . . ronopnna, urot x ne yxonna, x ocranact y nee.
uepes uac . . ronopnr mne:
- ne snam, uro mne enart. ox enouxa ycrponna ceuac ne-
nym rparenm, noromy uro x e oemana noexart c ne x rere.
- naunr, no+romy nt n tnn cmyment, xora x npnmna?
- a, x npocro ne snana, xax mne ornneut enouxy.
- raxom cnyuae nt nnre c nem, a x yy ona. e ecnoxo-
rect oo mne n nnre cmeno, xax yro t menx n ner.
. . cnauana ne cornamanact ocrannxrt menx, no x ee yronopn-
na, n ona nomna c enouxo, a x ocranact rynxrt n cay.
II. ora-ro x unrana c . . cropnm ecrecrnenntx nayx~.
ono rnane onnctnanoct, xax paoran eonapo a nnun. ne
+ro ouent nonpannnoct, n, xora . . npounrtnana ero nmx, x a-
xe yntanact. nx mom yntxy, . . naunnana cmexrtcx. xax-
t pas uyncrnonana, xora ona cmexnact, n mne +ro ne npannnoct.
1.2. nac nonnyna rpya n oronnennn, n onn ent ne ronnnn.
xomnarax tno xonono. a pyro ent saronnnn. nepnax +ro
onapyxnna n noxasana exypno cecrpe . ., xoropax ymana, uro
eme ne saronnnn.
13. ax-ro n ntxono ent x ortxana nocne oea n ycnyna.
ora exypnna . . o x uam menx pasynn X. ero ysnana n
ynnnnact romy, uro ynn on, a ne . . ora x nnna ua, ro ysna-
na ro maram, uro n cronono xonr . . nosnana ee. ouemy
menx ynn X., a renept nt sect?~ - oromy uro . . ymna no
eny, n x ee samenxm~.
14. ora-ro y nac tn ontmo pemonr na nepnom +raxe n mt
npemenno xnnn na nropom, n naoparopnn. eno tno nerom. ny
nout mne ne cnanoct, n tno rax xapxo, uro x npocro ne naxonna
cee mecra. pemnnact yrn nnns n ntrn nemnoro n ca. o ne-
anexo or moe xponarn croxna xponart exypno cecrpt, xoropax
ecnn ne cnnr, ro ne nycrnr menx. yxno tno ysnart, cnnr nn e-
xypnax. ncrana n rnxo noomna x ee xponarn. exypnax ne ncra-
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na. nonoxnna pyxy na xpa nocrenn. exypnax ne nomenennnact.
naunr, cnnr~,- noymana x; ne naenax ry]ent, ocax, x cnycrn-
nact nnns, nsxna xnmu or nepn n ntmna n ca. oxnact, urot
nnxoro ne nnycrnrt n om, no+romy saxnonnyna nept na anrnncxn
samox.
out tna rennax; nspexa rontxo uyrt-uyrt nexn npoxna-
nt nerepox. osyx tn nanoen apomarom entx raaxon. ocrano-
nnnact n nyx marax or nepn n necxontxo pas nsoxnyna nonno
rpytm. axo-ro xyuox ynan mne na nneuo. nspornyna n noy-
mana, uro nyxno nepnyrtcx omo. noomna x nepn, ocranonn-
nact n onena noxpyr cex pyxo. ouent oxnact, urot xro-
nnyt ne nomen nmecre co mno. o nnxoro ne tno. tcrpo
ornepna nept n nexana n necrnmnt. ora x nonxnact nanepx n
raxnm xe opasom, xax nepnt pas, noomna x exypno, ona no-
npexnemy cnana. roxe nomna, nerna n cxopo ycnyna. rpom x
cnpocnna exypnym: ax nam cnanoct?~ - opomo~.- mne
ne cnanoct~,- cxasana x, xenax ysnart, cntmana nn uro-nnyt e-
xypnax. o tno xcno, uro ona nnuero ne cntmana, n x e nnuero
ne cxasana o cnoe manentxo nporynxe.
15. norne spxune ymamr, uro xpacora n oaxnne npexpacnoro
necennero nnn nernero neuepa conepmenno neocrynnt nonnmannm
cnenornyxoro. 3ro ne concem rax. oneuno, mt ne moxem nenocpe-
crnenno nmonartcx nonno nyno, xpxnmn snesamn n r.. +rom
moryr paccxasart rontxo spxune. o net xpome nynt n snes ecrt
eme nerxn nerepox, apomar nneron, poca na nx nenecrxax. ce +ro
nnonne ocrynno omymennm cnenornyxnx, n ecnn spxun n cntma-
mn uenonex cymeer xopomo nepeart nm ro, uro on nnnr n cnt-
mnr, ro y cnenornyxoro moxer cosartcx eme onee nonnax xaprnna
xpacort necennero nnn nernero neuepa. npnney manentxn orpt-
nox ns cnoero nennnxa. ...Ftn raxo uynt neuep. ne xaxercx,
uro sa nce nero eme nn pasy ne tno raxoro neuepa. eyepxnmo rx-
nyno n ca, re naroyxann ente raaxn, nerynnn n nacrypnnn.
cnena na cxamte n ymana... na ynonnmt nerepox renntmn
crpyxamn cxontsnn no moemy nnny n pyxam. o mne noomna . .
cnpocnna ee: axo ceronx neuep, nynnt nnn remnt?~ - a,
nynnt. eo uncroe, cnnee, c xpynntmn snesamn~. onro cnena
n cay, a xora nerna cnart, ne morna ycnyrt. axnne +roro neuepa
;u!.ieKo orornano or menx con...~
16. mna n ropo c . ora mt nonepnynn sa yron na pyrym
ynnny, x +ro samernna n cxasana: t yxe nonepnynn~.- a~,-
ornernna .
17. unrana n cnoe xomnare c . . ouyncrnonana utn-ro ma-
rn, a sarem cnat sanax na]rannna. cnpocnna y . .: ro
npnmen?~ - pnmen -p .~.
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18. unrana n xannere c u. n nouyncrnonana (cnauana no ma-
ram, a sarem no sanaxy), uro xro-ro npnmen. u. cxasana: amna
. .~.
19. unrana c u. n npyr omyrnna nnxenne nosyxa n sanax
cnexe rasert. cnerxa nspornyna. u. npeynpenna menx: 3ro
. nonoxnn na cron nonte rasert~.
20. tna n ropoe c . . t croxnn na ynnne n oxnannn
rpamnax. eoxnanno x omyrnna corpxcenne mocrono n sanax en-
snna. ysnana, uro mnmo nac npoexan anromonnt. ro npemx xora
x nouyncrnonana, uro eer anromonnt, x nspornyna, a rax xax .
oparnna na +ro nnnmanne, ro mne npnmnoct oxcnnrt e, nouemy
x nspornyna.
21. mna no ropoy. am nyxno tno nepexonrt ynnny, no
mox cnyrnnna ocranonnnact. o corpxcennm mocrono n no sanaxy
ensnna x onpeennna, uro npoesxaer anromonnt.
22. epe nocrynnennem n xnnnnxy nx cnenornyxonemtx x xn-
na n pyrom ropoe. naxt x mna no ynnne c enouxamn. o nor
enouxn oromnn or menx, n x ocranact ona na rporyape. uyncrno-
nana, uro nnsxo ecrt crena, n noomna x ne. tna ncnyrana n
ne snana, uro mne enart. t ne ocoenno anexo oromnn or cnoero
oma, no nepnyrtcx ona omo x ne morna, rax xax nyxno tno
nepexonrt ynnny, a +ro tno onacno: x morna t nonacrt n no
rpamna, n no anromonnt. cena na ntcryn crent n nauana
xart, uro xo mne nooer xro-nnyt ns snaxomtx. onro rax
cnena. o nor xro-ro nsxn menx sa pyxy, a norom onxn. o nnartm
n no sanaxy x ysnana, uro +ro tna nama xyxapxa. e, xax morna,
oxcnnna, uro enouxn menx pocnnn na ynnne. yxapxa +neprnu-
ntmn nnxennxmn cnonx pyx ntpaxana cno rnen n noxasana mne,
uro ona yer nrt enouex.
23. onn ns nernnx ne nce ymnn ns omy na nporynxy, a
menx, xax rnyxym, ocrannnn oma, n npnrom cnyuano sanepnn na
anxone. onro cryuana n anxonnym nept, no nnxro ne orxpt-
nan; anxon tn sannr connnem, xoropoe cnntno nexno, n ne tno
nn onoro nepmxa cnacnrentno renn. menx pasonenact ronona,
x ne morna ontme naxonrtcx na anxone. snana, uro c nyx cro-
pon anxon noepxnnann ne ronxne xononxn. ne npnmno n rono-
ny, uro no ono ns +rnx xononox x morna t cnycrnrtcx nnns n no-
nacrt n ca. 3ro tno pncxonannoe eno, no x tna rax nsmyuena
xapo, uro pemnna cnesrt. cnxna ry]nn n ocrannna nx na anxo-
ne, a cama nonesna sa aptep. nouyncrnonana, xax cnntno nnoct
moe cepne (mne xasanoct, uro x omymam cnntnt rpoxor n rpyn
n n nncxax) n xax poxann pyxn. xapnnsa anxona x cocxontsnyna
na xononxy n, rax xax ona tna conepmenno rnaxax, crana tcrpo
cxontsnrt nnns. orn mon xocnynnct xenesno pemerxn, xoropax
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c nyx cropon oropaxnnana xptntno (anxon tn na xptntnom ca-
ono nepn); x ncrana na pemerxy, a norom cocxounna na xptntno.
rax nonnonanact (yxe or roro, uro narononyuno cnycrnnact n
ca), uro ne morna nrn n cena na xptntno. o tna cenana ront-
xo nononnna ena: caonax nept n om roxe tna sanepra, a cao-
nax orpaa tna cnnmxom ntcoxa. urot nonacrt n om, x onxna
tna nepenesrt uepes +ry orpay, norn n nepeynox, orrya no nop
n rontxo uepes uepnt xo norn n om. noomna x orpae n no-
nesna na nee. ocrpte xenesnte npyrtx x pasopnana cee nnarte,
no ne ynana. ocxounn c orpat na semnm, x ocropoxno nomna n
nepeynox; octmn noramn x pasnnuana xaxt xament n no romy,
nacxontxo xamnn tnn rnaxnmn nnn ocrptmn, ysnanana nanpanne-
nne x omy. o nope no sanaxy ns xyxnn x nomna x nepxm uepno-
ro xoa n nomna n om. o, nox n xopnop, x nouyncrnonana ronor
mnornx nor. 3ro ern nepnynnct c nporynxn. xomnare na crone x
namna pyuxy, xoropo orxptna anxonnym nept, n nsxna cnon
ry]nn. Hent ent x tna cnntno nosyxena cnonm nonnrom~:
net x pncxonana pasnrt cee ronony, ecnn t ne yepxanact na
rnaxo xononxe nnn, nepenesax uepes orpay, cenana nenepnoe
nnxenne.
24. ce ymnn rynxrt n sanepnn om, ocranancx orxptrtm ront-
xo uepnt xo. ocranact ona; mne tno cxyuno. onro ymana,
uem t mne sanxrtcx, n, naxonen, ncnomnnna, uro n cay nnerer mn-
nonnnx n uro x mory nanomart cee nneron. o nept n ca tna sa-
nepra. oxno tno nonacrt rya rontxo uepes orpay. cnxna ry]-
nn, cnxsana nx uynxom n nepexnnyna uepes nneuo (x orpae x onx-
na tna nrn oco, urot pasnnuart opory, a n cay nentsx tno
trt es ry]ent, rax xax on tn sacopen xamnxmn, xenesom, rnosx-
mn) . uepes orpay x nepenesna narononyuno, cnerxa rontxo nonno-
nanact. cay x naena ry]nn n nomna ncxart mnnonnnx. ycron
mnnonnnxa tno mnoro, n x no sanaxy nx nneron namna. nauana
ocmarpnnart nerxn mnnonnnxa, crapaxct cpen rpyonaro nncrnt
ortcxart nexnte, menxonncrte nenecrxn nneron. nanomana
ontmo yxer nneron, no pyxn mon tnn nsopant mnnamn, n ne-
xoroptx mecrax counnact xpont. axnm xe opasom, xaxnm x nonana
n ca, x ntpanact ns nero.
25. naxt x mtna ronony. ne nyxna tna yrtnxa c yxcy-
com, no x rax cnemnna, uro cxnarnna nepnym nonanmymcx yrtnxy.
ora xe x crana nannnart n ras coepxnmoe yrtnxn, x no sana-
xy nouyncrnonana, uro +ro ne yxcyc, a opnt pacrnop, xoropt
tn n conepmenno raxo xe yrtnxe xax n yxcyc. a n na omyme-
nne, xora x nannnana na pyxy, +ror yxcyc~ tn concem ne nacrox-
mnm yxcycom.
26. n ern ntmnn rynxrt na ynnny c . .
27.
t samernna uro-nnyt ceuac? - cnpocnna menx . .
a, npoexan anromonnt.
epno, on rontxo uro npoexan mnmo nac. ax rt +ro ysnana?
nouyncrnonana sanax ensnna n corpxcenne mocrono.
. e snam, uem oxcnnrt raxne crpannte xnnennx, xora x
es nocroponne nomomn oratnamct o uem-nnyt nnn cxaxy uro-
nno raxoe, o uem n +ro npemx ronopxr re, xro tnaer co mno. nn
+ro npocro cnyuanoe connaenne, nnn xe pesyntrar moero upesnt-
uano uyrxoro ornomennx x oxpyxamme cpee; ncnecrnne +roro
y menx cnntno pasnnra coopasnrentnocrt. cxnonna ymart, uro
nepnee ncero nropoe npenonoxenne. ax, nanpnmep, x onn pas
mna cnepxy nnns, n, xora tna yxe na nocnennx crynentxax necr-
nnnt, y menx xnnnoct cnntnoe xenanne noorn x nepn n orxptrt
ee. ne xasanoct, uro sa neptm cronr . n snonnr. noomna n or-
xptna nept - sa neptm ecrnnrentno croxna ., n, xora ona yc-
ntmana mon marn na necrnnne, ona nosnonnna, ne noospenax roro,
uro mna x. cne sa mno no necrnnne cnycrnncx X., xoropt ycnt-
man snonox, no x yxe ycnena orxptrt nept.
pyro pas x yxonna c . x ne. t yxe ntmnn n xopnop, no
ocranonnnnct, rax xax . . eme pasronapnnana c . . npyr no-
nepnynact n ronopm:
- o cnnannx, . .!
nna sacmexnact.
- ouemy rt cmeemtcx? - cnpocnna x.
- oromy uro ceuac ntmno xopomo: . , ronopnr: nx, rt
xorx t cxasana: o cnnannx, . .!~ rt cpasy xe nonropnna
ee cnona, xax yro t ycntmana ee.
me onee nnrepecnt npnmep. tna n omecrne necxontxnx
ronapnme. nn mne coomann, o uem ronopxr mexy coo, no ne
ncera n ne nce. pyr x ronopm: rax nmnm epxart pyxy na
poxne n ro npemx, xora nrpamr~.
ce ynnnnnct, rax xax n +ro npemx onn ronopnnn o mystxe. o
mne nnxro nnuero ne cxasan, x cnena n epxana sa pyxy ony e-
nouxy n nouemy-ro noymana o mystxe.
me onn nnrepecnt npnmep. unrana c u. n moe xomnare, x
u. noomna . . ora ona ymna, u. cxasana mne:
- . . npeynpenna menx, uro ona ner rynxrt.
cnpocnna:
- na npocnna nac saxeut cner n xannenxpnn n orxptrt e
nept n cemt uacon?
. ouent ynnnnact.
- a, a, ona o +rom n ronopnna.
noro pantme tno raxnx ]axron, no, x coxanennm, x nx ne sa-
nnctnana n ceuac ne npnnomnm.
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28. npoxonna uepes crononym n cnantnm n nouyncrnonana,
uro xro-ro cnerxa npnxocnyncx xo mne, n n ro xe npemx nouyncrno-
nana sanax . . o x ne ocranonnnact, rax xax mne nyxno tno
nocmorpert na uact. ora x mna oparno, x noomna x nnany, re
cnena . .
- t xorenn menx ocranonnrt?
- a.
- ne morna ocranonnrtcx. . npocnna cxasart e, cxontxo
npemenn.
29. ax-ro y menx onxen tn trt ypox no reorpa]nn, no x ne
sameuana nn no sanaxy, nn no noxoxe, urot npnmna . ., xoro-
pax onxna tna sannmartcx co mno. noomna x . . n cnpo-
cnna:
- . . ner?
- er.
30. naxt npaun nponepxnn, cntmy nn x snyxn nnn uyncr-
nym. ora rpyxy epxann na ronone n anann snyxn, x uyncrno-
nana, no, ecnn rpyxy cnnmann c ronont n oranxnn, x nnuero ne
cntmana. o nor x omyrnna sanax c npano cropont n nonepnynact
n +ry cropony. . . cnpocnna:
- ntmnmt?
- er, x nouyncrnonana sanax n no+romy nonepnynact.
- 3ro x ree noomen npau.
31. ecxontxo ner romy nasa nerom x tna y . . cay t-
no mnoro nneron, n . . nonna menx or xnymt x xnyme n noxa-
stnana mne nce nnert. orom ona ymna n xomnary x cnoe enouxe,
a menx ocrannna ony n ecexe ns xycron. xymana xnoxo, a xor-
a cena, ntmna ns ecexn, urot eme copnart xnox. o +roro x
cama eme ne xonna no cay . ., no menx +ro ne ncnyrano, n x cme-
no nnnynact nnepe. y n nyremecrnonana xe x: samna n xycrt pos
n onro ne morna narn ns nnx ntxoa, ncnapanan cee pyxn mnna-
mn. o x ne yntnana n npoonxana nasnrt n xycrax mexy xnyma-
mn. yxe nauana ymart, uro ne ntepyct ns +roro nanpnnra, xax
npyr mne no norn nonanoct xnoxo. noymana: cnn xnoxo ne-
xnr sect, snaunr, nnsxo annex, nosne xoropo xnonn~. nanpa-
nnnact n ony cropony - xnoxn no noramn crann nonaartcx uame
n cnyxnnn mne nyrenontmn snesouxamn. axonen, x omyrnna
no noramn opoxxy, noctnannym necxom. cenana necxontxo
maron no opoxxe - n npxmo x moemy nnny npnxocnynact nerxa c
xnoxamn. axnm opasom, xnoxn, nanxnmnecx na semne, ntnenn
menx na opoxxy, n x ysnana, re x naxoxyct. ora xo mne npn-
mna . ,, x cnena n ramaxe c ecxrxom xnox. paccxasana . .
o cnoem nepnom camocroxrentnom nyremecrnnn~ n ee cay, n mt
onro cmexnnct na monmn npnxnmuennxmn. crantnym uacrt nx,
a raxxe n nect cneymmn ent x xonna n cay ona, n mne +ro t-
no ouent npnxrno: x nnxomy ne memana n mne nnxro ne meman.
32. 3ro tno snmo. tna necxontxo ne y . as yrpom x
npocnynact n cnpocnna, cxontxo npemenn. . ornernna, uro cemt ua-
con n uro ona yxe ncraer, a x urot eme nonexana. uepes uac x
onxrt nosnana . mecro nee xo mne noomna . n cxasana: e
ner, ona ymna no xosxcrny~.
nouemy-ro ne nonepnna cnonam . nonepnynact nnnom x cre-
ne n npoonxana nexart n nocrenn. nnyr uepes 10 x nouyncrnona-
na, uro . cena na xponart cnnno xo mne. noymana: ona, na-
nepno, naena nantro n napouno cena cnnno xo mne, urot x cpasy
ynnena, uro ona n nantro. npoonxana ne opamart nnnmannx na
ro, uro . cnnr na xponarn. ora ona npnxocnynact x moemy nne-
uy. ntnyna pyxy ns-no oexna.
- t cnnmt? - cnpocnna ., enax pyxo raxne nnxennx, uro-
t saert mom pyxy pyxanom nantro.
- er, x anno ne cnnm.
- x rontxo uro npnmna... onna sa xneom... a nope uy-
nax noroa, cnernr xpxoe connne...
ax ronopnna ., no x uyncrnonana, uro or nee concem ne naxner
cnexnm nosyxom, a, naoopor, uyncrnonancx sanax mtna, xoroptm
ona ymtnanact. nauana oenartcx. . nomna cnxrt nantro, a no-
rom noomna xo mne, nomorax ortcxnnart mon nemn, xoropte ona
xya-ro ypana. enana nn, uro ne opamana nnnmannx na ., no
x xopomo samernna; uro ona tna n onom nnarte, naxnnyrom npx-
mo na ronoe reno. napouno cnpocnna:
- ouemy rt nce npemx nepeoenaemtcx?
- er, x net tna n nantro, a renept pasenact.
uepes uac mt ntmnn na ynnny c " n x nouyncrnonana, uro nn-
xaxoe connne ne cnernr n uro ner cner. ., xax t onpantnaxct,
cxasana:
- ant, uro ncnoprnnact noroa.
ornernna:
n ne ymana, uro ona xopomax; ree, nanepnoe, rax noxasa-
noct, xora rt menx ynepxna, uro cnernr xpxoe connne.
. cmyrnnact n nnuero mne ne ornernna.
33. ro xnaprnpe, re x npemenno xnna, tna ona ouent con-
neunax xomnara, n x nmnna cnert na oxne n +ro xomnare, xora
cnernno connne. naxt x cnena na oxne n no sanaxy, a raxxe
no nnxennm nosyxa nouyncrnonana, uro xro-ro noomen xo mne.
nporxnyna pyxy nnepe, n mox pyxa naronxnynact na xoro-ro n
axono xyprxe. axo oext ne tno nn y xoro ns rex, xro menx
oxpyxan. nonxna, uro +ro xro-ro uyxo, n orepnyna pyxy. oo-
memn concem nnsxo nocroxn nosne menx necxontxo mnnyr. 3ro
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tn uyxo uenonex n, onxno trt, ne snax o rom, uro x ne nnxy n
ne cntmy, uro-ro cnpamnnan y menx. o, ne nonyunn nnxaxoro or-
nera, ymen or menx.
34. nnm nerom x esnna n eccy c . . namn noexan n ee
ctn ., mantunx monx ner. t ocranonnnnct, n ono xnnnnxe n xn-
nn na nepnom +raxe. nx roro urot nonacrt n ymtnantnym xomna-
ry n n yopnym, nyxno tno nporn ontmo xopnop n eme sarn
n neontmo xopnopunx, xoropt nen raxxe n x ntxono nepn
caa. cxopo nayunnact ona xonrt n ymtnantnym, yopnym n n
ca. nept, ntxonnmax n ca, otuno ncm nout tna orxptra; no-
+romy, xora mt noxnnnct cnart, sannpannct na xnmu. naxt
noutm y menx cnntno onena ronona n tno xapxo. urot ne ecno-
xonrt . ., x cama rnxo ncrana n nomna n ymtnantnym xomnary,
urot cmounrt nnarox n sanxsart nm ronony. osnparnnmnct n xom-
nary, x sanepna nept na xnmu n, noox x cnoe xponarn, crana
noxnrtcx. pyr x nouyncrnonana, uro xro-ro oco noxonr xo
mne. 3ro tn . n cxnarnn menx sa pyxy n cxasan axrnnonorne:
- uro rt enaemt?
cpasy samernna, uro . sno, n +ro ynnnno menx. ornernna
rnxo n cnoxono:
- uro xe x ocoennoro enam? menx onnr ronona, n x xon-
na cmounrt nnarox.
- t mamy ncnyrana.
- uem?
o . nnuero ne ornernn n pesxo orronxnyn mom pyxy. nonx-
na, uro . tn sno noromy, uro ero nnesanno pasynnn, no uem x
morna pasynrt . .? 3roro x ne nonnmana n ysnana nce rontxo
yrpom. eno tno nor xax: nn . ., nn . ne cntxann, xora x
ntxonna ns xomnart, a xora x nosnparnnact n sanepna nept,
. . npocnynact n crana cnpamnnart:
- ro +ro?
asymeercx, x ee nonpoca ne cntmana n nnuero e ne ornernna.
npouem, x axe n ne noospenana, uro ona npocnynact n xpnunr.
e nonyunn ornera n nnx, uro x moe xponarn xro-ro ner~,
. . eme ontme ncnyranact n crana snart . n npocnyncx. . .
ronopnr emy:
- nam nopt sanpamrcx!
. ncxounn co cnoe xponarn n pocnncx xo mne (rora, xora x
n nouyncrnonana, uro xo mne xro-ro ner). snan menx, . cxasan:
- a +ro nx ncranana.
ocne roro xax . . paccxasana mne ncm +ry cneny n oannna:
xorena ntcxounrt na ynnny~, x onro cmexnact na nem.
- eyxenn nt ne onycxann nosmoxnocrn, uro x morna ntrn
n yopnym?
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- onycxam, no cnyunnoct uro-ro nenonxrnoe: x nnxy, uro
nosne nepn xro-ro cronr n enom, x noymana, uro +ro .nopt or-
xptnn nept n croxr n nepxx. orom +ro enoe nomno x rnoe xpo-
narn, n +ro concem nepenyrano menx.
- ax xe nt ne coopasnnn, uro, ecnn t +ro tnn nopt, a nt
nauann xpnuart, ro pasne onn crann t cnoxono noxnrtcx na mom
nocrent?
- cnpocontx ne coopasnna, a rontxo nnena ro, uro ena-
noct.
35. no npemx . . n . . xonnn sannmartcx c omxontnn-
xamn paounx ]apnxn pacnax nnrt~. naxt . . nsxna menx
c coo n ercxym xomnary~ n nosnaxomnna menx co cnonmn yue-
nnxamn. exoropte pexrnmxn rax npnnxsannct xo mne, uro, uyrt
ne nnaua, npocnnn menx npnxonrt x nnm. uacro crana tnart n
ercxo xomnare~. uro-nnyt paccxastnana erxm, a onn cn-
enn rax rnxo, xax nnxora. . . ronopnna mne:
- nn rex cnymamr nyume, uem nac.
coenno onn mantunx, y xoroporo neanno ymepna mart, npn-
nxsancx xo mne, n, ecnn x onro ne npnxonna, on saxnnxn , .:
- cnn nx ne npner cxopo, rax x n na sanxrnx ne yy xo-
nrt.
Ftn mapr, cner raxn. ercxax xomnara~ naxonnact na y-
pannenxe, xoropax nsonnonana rpxstm. n . . nomnn na ypan-
nenxy nemxom. a ynnnax tno mnoro not, x uyncrnonana,
xax ona mnenaer no monmn noramn. a xaxo-ro ynnne, neanexo
or ypannenxn, x omymana, uro mocronax noxarax, xax yro mt
cxonnn c neontmo ropxn. . . uro-ro cmemnoe paccxastnana
mne, a norom ronopnr:
- omat.
- axax nomat? - cnpocnna x.
- nor eer c renero csan nac. ana exart cxopee.
- ne mory exart, sect rax cxontsxo, a eme cnycx nnns.
- , ana exart, a ro nac nomat nepeeer.
- , x ne mory exart, ynay!
- xope, cxope!
- yxe naam!
t ouent cmexnnct n, cnortxaxct na xaxom mary, exann
nnns. pyr n rom mecre, re tno ocoenno mnoro not, x ynana
n noramnna sa coo . , r cmexa mt cpasy ne mornn ncrart na
norn. o, necmorpx na ro uro x cmexnact, x nce xe nouyncrnonancx
no corpxcennm mocrono, uro eer renera. ora mt ncrann, . .
cxasana:
- oncem nnsxo or nac npoexana renera; name cuacrte, uro
ona ne nepeexana nac. 3ro rt nnnonara - sauem ynana?
r
- nt sauem cmemnnn menx n raxom onacnom mecre?
t tnn moxpt n ncnauxant rpxstm, no +ro nncxontxo ne nc-
noprnno nam nacrpoennx.
36. ax-ro mox nopyra . xonna n rnasnym nonnxnnnnxy na
yxont n npocnna menx xonrt c nem. ne ono ne xouercx
nrn~,- ronopnna ona.
onn ns oxnnntx ne mt nomnn n nonnxnnnnxy. pau
cxasan ., uro ner nnxaxo naext na ro, uro yxont moryr oxa-
sart xaxym-nnyt nontsy e. . anno snana, uro nnxaxnmn cpe-
crnamn nenosmoxno nosnparnrt e spenne, no rem ne menee ona
ouent paccrponnact nocne cnon npaua. ora mt ns nonnxnnnnxn
ntmnn na ynnny, oxt yxe npomen, no tno ouent rpxsno.
. tna nacrontxo paccrpoena, uro conepmenno ne coopaxana, no
xaxo opore mt nem, a n rom mecre concem ne snana oporn; no x
xopomo uyncrnonana, ecnn mt cxonnn c rnaxo opoxxn n cro-
pony. opomo nonnmax, uro . conepmenno ne nnaeer coo, x nce-
neno cocpeorounna cnoe nnnmanne na rom, urot cnenrt sa opo-
ro, n nena . nn pas . nnesanno nonepnyna n cropony n ynana
c rporyapa; x ne ycnena ee noepxart. nomorna e ncrart n,
nsxn ee no pyxy, nomna no rporyapy, crapaxct cnenrt sa rem,
urot mon norn uyncrnonann rnaxym opoxxy. ora mt npnmnn
omo, ro . cxasana:
- t nsnnnn menx. tna rax paccrpoena, uro nnuero ne no-
nnmana, n, ecnn t ne rt, x t ne omna omo. o menx ynnnxer
ro, xax rt morna necrn menx? et rt xe ne cntmnmt n ne snaemt
oporn.
- uyncrnonana noramn, no xaxo opore mt nem, n, ecnn rt
cnopaunnana n cropony, x rex ocranannnnana.
37. onn ns xrxptcxnx npasnnxon x, xax n ocrantnte
pexra, nonyunna rocrnnnt. pen xnox x namna ono ontmoe,
no nemnoro crpannoe xnoxo~. rpanntm ono tno noromy, uro ne
nmeno roro sanaxa, xaxo nmenn ocrantnte xnoxn. noymana,
uro +ro xaxo-nnyt ocot copr xnox, n ocrannna ero na saxycxy.
ora x, naxonen, xorena cxymart +ro xnoxo~, ono oxasanoct ra-
xnm rneptm, a orxymennt mnom xycouex tn roptxonartm n
repnxnm, ns orxymennoro ornepcrnx exan cox, a xora x npna-
nnna xnoxo~, ono cnonno sacxpnneno nnyrpn. pemnna, uro +ro
mepsnoe xnoxo, n ornecna ero n y]ernym xomnary na cron. no-
mna n ercxym cnantnm x . . n cxasana e:
- a crone n y]erno xomnare nexnr ontmoe xnoxo: +ro
x ntpocnna, noromy uro ono mepsnoe.
. . nomna nocmorpert +ro mepsnoe xnoxo~.
- er, +ro ne x;noxo, +ro ana.
nonmxana any~.
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- e moxer trt, +ro ne ana, x any xopomo snam.
o . . ynepxna menx, uro +ro ana.
- or nostmn, nonpoy.
- a x yxe npoonana - +ro uro-ro roptxoe, a ana ne roptxax.
- 3ro rontxo xopouxa roptxax, a nnyrpn cnaxne sepna.
. . ntctnana na nmne mnoro menxnx sepen ns ant~.
sacmexnact.
- asne n ane tnamr raxne sepna? a onn n ne cnaxne,
a xncnte, a nor nonpoyre +ro sepntmxo!
. . nonpoonana n cornacnnact, uro +ro ne ana. a pyro
ent x ysnana, uro mepsnoe xnoxo~ n ana~ tnn ne uem nntm,
xax rpanarom. o x nnxora pantme ne xymana rpanaron n no+romy
ne morna snart, uro mexy xnoxamn y menx tn n rpanar.
38. croxna y oxna n cnoe xomnare n ocmarpnnana nnerox. ro-
ro noomen xo mne n nonoxnn na moe nneuo yron. o sanaxy n
]opme nncrten x ysnana, uro +ro nnon. ora x ntmna n crononym,
urot nporn n ca, ro nouyncrnonana n ram sanax nnonon. no-
omna x crony n ocmorpena ero - mox pyxa narxnynact na xynmnn,
n xoropom tnn nnont.
39. cnena n cronono n yunna ypox no ]nsnxe. o mne noo-
men . n mxrxo nsxn menx sa pyxy. ynnnenno nocmorpena na
nero. ro pyxy x ysnana, no or nero naxno oexononom, a +ror sanax
x uyncrnonana or nero nnepnte n no+romy no cpasy ysnana ero.
noymana: ro xe +ro?~
. nonropnn pyxonoxarne, n x ero ysnana. yntnynact n un-
crocepeuno cosnanact: ne cpasy rex ysnana~.
( sanaxe oexonona x nocrecnxnact cxasart.)
40. xorx n ne morna nnert axaemnxa . . opotena, xora
on nexan n rpoy, no nce-raxn x xorena orart emy nocnenn onr.
nx roro urot x morna noexart n xpemaropn, re yxe naxonnoct
reno . ., ns 3a npncnann anromonnt. mamnne . . cn-
ena pxom co mno n uro-ro paccxastnana o . ., no x tna na-
crontxo paccrpoena, uro nnuero ne nonnmana. ora mt ntmnn ns
mamnnt n nanpannnnct x xpemaropnm, x cpasy omyrnna sanax mno-
xecrna nneron. e snam nouemy, no +ror sanax nopasnn menx: mne
xasanoct, uro rax naxnyr nnert rontxo ram, re nexnr reno ymep-
mero uenonexa. anax xpnsanrem xasancx mne mornntntm sa-
naxom.
t ne mornn noorn nnsxo x rpoy . ., a ocranonnnnct na
raxom paccroxnnn or nero, uro . . morna nnert xopomo noxo-
noro n paccxasart mne o nem.
e snam, cnococrnonan nn +romy pesxn sanax nneron nnn
cnona . ., no x ncem cymecrnom uyncrnonana, uro naxoxyct nea-
nexo or rpoa , ., n tna rnyoxo norpxcena. menx noxamn-
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nannct norn, myrnnoct n ronone, x ynorpeonxna neuenoneuecxne
ycnnnx, urot ne norepxrt cosnanne...
a oparnom nyrn x aconmrno nnuero ne nonnmana ns roro, uro
mne ronopnna . .
o oma, xora x mna no necrnnne nanepx, mne c nopasnrent-
no xcnocrtm ncnomnnncx sanax nneron - x narypantno omymana
ero n namem nomemennn. Ftn momenr, xora crynentxn necrnnnt
saxoneannct no monmn noramn, a n moem oprannsme nacrynnna
xaxax-ro rnmnna. urot ne ynacrt, x cxnarnnact sa . ., n ona
npnnena menx n mom xomnary, tna n nonycosnarentnom co-
croxnnn.
5 noxpx na neuepe n 3e , . noxastnana mne mnoro xpn-
sanrem n sane. anax +rnx nneron nanomnnn mne o cmeprn . .
41. npocnna nonym yopmnny ypart mom xomnary. xc-
nnna, uro nyxno cenart, n ntma ns xomnart.
nnyr uepes 10-15 x nosnparnnact n xomnary n saxamnxnact
or ntnn. xasanoct, uro yopmnna ne rontxo nonxna yxacnym
ntnt, lie n xomnary nomena nnoxo: no oramn x uyncrnonana
nnoxo ntmerennt non. nosnana exypnym nocnnrarentnnny n
npocnna ee ocmorpert mom xomnary. tna npana. ocnnrarent-
nnna nnonne cornacnnact c rem, uro xomnara ypana nnoxo n nonna
ntnn. pnmnoct n cnntnym ntmry orxptnart oxno, urot ouncrnrt
nosyx n xomnare or ntnn... opxy xomnart x c rex nop nponsno-
nna cama, noxa paorana +ra yopmnna.
42. n cnoe xomnare nepennrana cron, na xoropom croxna
crary+rxa ymxnna. pyr x nouyncrnonana, uro na non uro-ro
ynano. ony cexyny x coopasnna, uro ynana crary+rxa ym-
xnna, n pocnnact n ry cropony, orxya nouyncrnonancx cryx. a
nony nexana pasnnmaxcx na xycxn crary+rxa. ontmnm oropue-
nnem x nauana conpart xycxn rnnca - ronona ymxnna concem
ornnact or rynonnma. ntranact xax-nnyt npncrponrt ronony
na npexnee mecro, no or nonnennx y menx poxann pyxn, n ronona
naana na cron. axonen, mne yanoct nenrouxo npnxpennrt ro-
nony x rynonnmy, n n raxom nne (c ornrtm oxom) x ocropoxno
nocrannna crary+rxy na rymouxy. nocnecrnnn mne yanoct npn-
xnenrt ronony x rynonnmy.
43. tna n cnoe xomnare n unrana. o nnxennm nosyxa
(maron n ne uyncrnonana) x omyrnna, uro xo mne xro-ro noxonr,
cneymmym cexyny x omyrnna sanax nneron n nporxnyna pyxy
nnepe - mox pyxa narxnynact na napnncct.
manunnte omymennx
1. cnn x nouyncrnym nnesannym n cnntnym ont or uero-
nnyt, a xo mne n +ro npemx xro-nnyt nooer, ro x nnora
ne cpasy ysnam, xro +ro. ax, nanpnmep, ceronx x npoxonna no
cronono, a xro-ro ns corpynnn croxn nosne xanenapx n ne cnt-
man, xax x mna. narxnynact na +ry corpynnny, n ona cnyuano
yapnna menx noxrem n rnas. nouyncrnonana cnntnym ont n
axe ntponnna ns pyx nemn. ora corpynnna cxasana: snn-.
nn~, x nce-raxn ne ysnana, xro +ro tn.
onxna nouepxnyrt, uro n no ncex pyrnx cnyuaxx, xora
moe nnnmanne nennxom cocpeoroueno na uem-nno, x xyxe noc-
npnnnmam nce ro, uro nponcxonr noxpyr menx. ne cpasy mory
nouyncrnonart npnnnxenne xoro-nnyt xo mne nnn ne cpasy
ysnam roro, xro nsxn menx sa pyxy. cnn xe moe nnnmanne nnuem
ne ornneueno, rora x xopomo uyncrnym nce, uro nponcxonr noxpyr.
2. naxt mne noann cpasy rpn nnctma. nctma tnn pa-
nencxne, n nx onoxxa tna mne yxe snaxoma no npetymnm
nnctmam. enax cxopee ysnart, uro mne nnmyr nopyra n rona-
pnm, x noexana n cnom xomnary, urot ncxptrt nnctma. o o-
pore x ncrpernna X,, xoropt nosoponancx co mno. o x rax tna
sanxra nnctmamn, uro ne concem ysnana X. ox o cnoe xom-
nart, x noymana, uro nyxno xe ysnart, xro co mno soponancx.
nepnynact oparno n ca, re eme tn X. 3ro nt nosopona-
nnct co mno?~- - a, x~,- cxasan X.
3. cnn x nonyuam ocoenno cnntnoe nneuarnenne or xaxo-
nnyt xnnrn nnn eme or uero-nnyt, x ynomyct mtcnxmn a-
nexo or ecrnnrentnocrn. omnm raxo cnyua: x cnena n unrana
xnnry. +ro npemx xo mne noomna . . na mne uro-ro cxasana,
x ee ne nonxna, no pemnna, uro ona cxasana mne nor uro: nx, nn
n nsonxrop~.
oymana x rax noromy, uro y menx n ro npemx onena pyxa n
x xaxoe yrpo xonna na nepenxsxy (a eno tno xax pas yrpom).
, xoneuno, ornoxnna xnnry n nomna n nsonxrop. . . ram ne
tno. cena xart ee. y, xy, a . . nce ner. pomno mn-
nyr 10, n mne yxe naoeno xart. pyr npnxonr ona.
- ouemy xe rt cma npnmna? - cnpocnna . .
- a nt xe mne cxasann: nx, nn n nsonxrop~.
- er, x rex nonpocnna notrt c acnnem, urot on cnen
cnoxono.
t neceno pacxoxorannct.
- concem nnuero ne nonxna ns roro, uro nt mne cxasann,
a npocro no npnntuxe x nepenxsxe npnmna cma.
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- ne ronopnr X., uro rt xemt menx n nsonxrope, a x yne-
pxm ero, uro rt cnenmt sa acnnem.
4. naxt x unrana ony n mnp~ . oncroro, a xora oxon-
unna xnnry, ro copanact nrn n mxony cnentx, re naxonnact
mox nopyra . tna no nneuarnennem npounrannoro, no+romy
mna nourn mamnnantno. ne nyxno tno nonxrtcx no necrnnne
na rpern +rax, sarn n onn xopnop, a sarem nonepnyrt n pyro
nanpano. rax n cenana, nonepnyna nanpano. y, npyr no
noramn xaxax-ro crynentxa n onxrt nnnnt xopnop, a ram xa-
xne-ro nepn. ocranonnnact, urot coopasnrt, re x ny. xo-
pomo snam opory x mxone cnentx. nomnnna, uro na rpertem
+raxe n xopnopax ner nnxaxnx crynenex. axonen, x nonxna,
n uem eno. no opore rax sameuranact, uro satna ntrn na
rpern +rax, a omna rontxo o nroporo n nonepnyna n xopnop.
nepnynact onxrt x necrnnne n yxe es npnxnmuenn npnmna n
xomnary x enouxam.
5. . . nonpocnna menx ornecrn xnmun n xanner X. nent
ent tna sanxra n rontxo uro ocnoonnact. ouent ycrana, n,
xora nonnmanact no necrnnne, y menx axe nemnoro saxpyxn-
nact ronona. oox x xannery, x nocryuana onn pas. ne
ne orxptnn. nonropnna cryx, nept rnxo npnorxptnact. npo-
rxnyna pyxn c xnmuamn n, ne nxox n xanner, cxasana: pocnnn
nepeart~.
utx-ro pyxa nsxna xnmun. ora x nomna n xanner. o menx
ynnnno ro, uro X. xax t ne noxox na cex, cnonno ne ysnan menx.
yxa +roro X.~ tna nemnoro ne raxax. o net nnxro pyro
ne mor trt n ero xannere. necmeno cxasana: yxe naneua-
rana 21 crpannny...~
.npyr x ysnana, uro +ro ne X. ouent cmyrnnact n ntexana
ns xannera. uepes necxontxo mnnyr menx nosnan X. n oxcnnn,
uro +ro tn onn nnxenep. a, x uncrocepeuno npnsnanact, uro
n re momenrt, xora x tnam ycranax n noanox sanxra xaxnmn-
nnyt pyrnmn mtcnxmn, x xyxe nocnpnnnmam nce ro, c uem
x conpnxacamct n uro menx oxpyxaer. mory +ro oxcnnrt ne
rontxo rem, uro ocnaenaer ]nsnonornuecxax uyncrnnrentnocrt
opranon uyncrn, no eme n rem, uro npn nonno ]nsnuecxo ycrano-
crn ocnaenaer n nnnmanne x oxpyxamme cpee. +rom ecrt
neuro omee co spennem n cnyxom. et, xora spxun n cntma-
mn uenonex uyncrnyer cnntnym ycranocrt, on raxxe uacro omn-
aercx n spnrentntx n cnyxontx nneuarnennxx. n moxer npnnxrt
nesnaxomoro uenonexa sa snaxomoro n, naoopor, snaxomt ronoc
sa uyxo. ecnn mtcnt spxuero uenonexa ynocnr ero noopaxenne
n npecrannenne anexo sa npeent ro ocranonxn, n xoropo on
naxonrcx, ro on, noono exxenm, naener amcxn uynox nmecro
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rancryxa nnn, noono Ferxoneny, yer repxrt cnon mnxnt no
npemx nporynox sa ropoom.
snam ns paccxason spxunx, xax uacro spxune n cntmamne
nnaamr n sanyxenne: spenne n cnyx uacro nx omantnamr, onn
xaxo-nnyt npemer onn npnnnmamr sa pyro, onn ue-nnyt
ronoc nm xaxercx pyrnm ronocom n r. . euro ananornunoe t-
naer n co mno. ax, onaxt neuepom x tna n naoparopnn; mne
noxasanoct, uro x uyncrnym snyxn ]ncrapmonnn, na xoropo
X. nnora nrpaer. 3ro ynnnno menx, rax xax X. cxasan mne, uro
oil npner n xnnnnxy n 10 uacon neuepa, a tno rontxo 9. comna
nnns n cnpocnna . " xro +ro nrpaer. t ne cntmann, urot
X. nrpan na ]ncrapmonnn?~ - er, on eme ne npnmen~.
3ro xnnenne x oxcnxm rem, uro x morna omyrnrt xaxne-nno
nnpannn, nepeammnecx c ynnnt uepes non, n onn omanynn menx.
6. naxt, xora x eme xpenxo cnana, mne ouent xcno noxa-
sanoct, uro nounax exypnax npnxocnynact x moemy nneuy. npoc-
nynact, ymax, uro yxe nyxno ncranart. nomna n ymtnantnym
xomnary n ymtnact. arem nosnparnnact n cnantnm, oenact n na-
uana ynpart nocrent. +ro npemx xo mne noomna exypnax n
cnpocnna:
- ouemy rt rax pano ncrana?
- pasne nt menx ne ynnn?
- er, ceuac rontxo 6 uacon yrpa, n rt menx pasynna.
- rpanno, xax xe +ro morno cnyunrtcx? et x rax xcno no-
uyncrnonana, uro nt menx ynre.
oxonunna ynpart nocrent n cena unrart, rax xax cnona no-
xnrtcx mne ne xorenoct.
7. naxt x onosana x neuepnemy uam. exypnax ymna
rynxrt c ertmn n ca, n nexomy tno nannrt mne nropym uamxy
uax. xorena ncrart ns-sa crona n cama nannrt, no n +ro npemx
y menx nsxnn uamxy. ora mne noann ua, x nsxna sa pyxy roro,
xro noan, n mne noxasanoct, uro +ro . . pana, x n +rom ne
tna ynepena n ono mrnonenne ymana, uro +ro X., no x ne noy-
mana, uro X. nooer nannrt mne ua, n no+romy pemnna, uro
nosne menx . .: y nee pyxn ontmne, xax y myxunnt, n no pyxe
ee nerxo npnnxrt sa myxunny. uro-ro nauana ronopnrt, opa-
maxct x +ro . .~, no xora X. axrnnonorne cnpocnn:
uro?~ - x oxonuarentno ysnana, uro +ro X,, n ouent cmyrnnact.
8. nayunnact ysnanart no ntxnmuarenm, xora n moe xom-
nare ropnr cner n xora ne ropnr. snam x +ro rax: ecnn cner ro-
pnr, ro ntxnmuarent nonepnyr naneno, a ecnn cner ne ropnr, ntxnm-
uarent nonepnyr nanpano.
naxt xo mne npnmna nespxuax nopyra co- cnonm nonyspx-
unm ronapnmem. +rnm ronapnmem x eme ne tna snaxoma. ora
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onn xo mne npnmnn, menx n xomnare ne tno. exypnax cama npo-
nonna n mom xomnary rocre, saxptna crannn n saxrna cner. uepes
2-3 mnnyrt x nomna n xomnary. cnera concem ne nnxy, no+romy
ne snana, ropnr nn cner. noomna x ntxnmuarenm: mne noxasa-
noct, uro on saxptr. cxasana: euac x saxry cner~ -n nonep-
nyna ntxnmuarent.
opyra nsxna menx sa pyxy:
- . ronopnr, uro rt norymnna cner.
r cmymennx x ouent noxpacnena. cnona nonepnyna ntxnm-
uarent, n cner saropencx. ora x noomna x nopyre, ona cxasana:
- . npocnr nepeart ree, urot rt ne cmymanact, +ro c
xaxtm tnaer.
9. naxt x npnmna ns naoparopnn nnns. ora x npoxo-
nna uepes necrnmnt, xo mne noomna ona mox snaxomax, xoro-
pax rontxo uro npnmna. rax tna yrnynena n xaxne-ro mtcnn,
uro conepmenno espasnnuno ncrpernna snaxomym, a xora ona
cnpocnna: t cnoona?~-x paccexnno orneuana e: no-
ona~. noymana: ro xe +ro raxo? a eme ronopnr axrnno-
norne~.
npenoxnna cnoe rocrte nmesno, no ouent cepxanno (rax
xax npoonxana ne ysnanart ee) cnxrt nantro n nrn xo mne n
xomnary. asenaxct, rocrtx cnpamnnana: t anno nnena .?~
ornernna: x ne ceronx conpamct exart~-n cnona noy-
mana: y, xro xe +ro raxo? axe . snaer~.
pemnna, uro +ro ona mox snaxomax ns 3a, xoropym
x yunna ronopnrt axrnnonorne. o xora mt samnn n mom xom-
nary, x npyr coopasnna, uro +ro tna . nnuero ne cxasana .
o rom, uro x ne cpasy ee ysnana, onaxo npomno mnnyr 10, npexe
uem x ycnena onpannrtcx or cnoero cmymennx. ne tno ouent
crpanno, nouemy x ne ysnana ., net x ee ncera ysnanana, axe
na ynnne. +ro mory oxcnnrt rontxo rem, uro, xora ona noo-
mna xo mne, x tna cocpeorouena na uem-ro pyrom n axe sa-
tna, re x naxoxyct. ro npemx, xora ona nsxna menx sa pyxy,
mne xasanoct, uro x npoyxamct or rnyoxoro cna x ecrnnrent-
nocrn.
10. ax-ro x tna n cay mxont cnentx c . na uro-ro pac-
cxastnana mne o onom nocnnrannnxe. +ro npemx x nam noo-
mna mart . na noxana mne pyxy n nanncana na pyxe:
- pancrny!
o x ne ysnana, uro +ro tna m~.rt ., a npnnxna ee sa nocnn-
rannnxa, o xoropom mt ronopnnn. pannoymno ornernna:
- pancrny!
. cnpocnna:
- t ne ysnana mom mamy?
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axas ~ 12
- er. pasne +ro rnox mama?
- a.
nsnnnnnact nepe mareptm . sa ro, uro rax nenexnnno e or-
nernna.
II. ax-ro noutm x npocnynact n nomna nocmorpert na uact.
ne noxasanoct, uro na uacax tno es 20 mnnyr 7. noomna x
nocrenn exypno n nauana ee ynrt. exypnax ouent xpenxo
cnana, x c rpyom pasynna ee.
- cranare, yxe cxopo 7 uacon, a nt rax xpenxo cnnre.
cnn yer xro-nnyt snonnrt, ro nt n ne ycntmnre.
exypnax ncnyranact, uro npocnana, n ncxounna c nocrenn. o-
cmorpen na uact, ona cxasana:
- euac rontxo es 20 mnnyr 4 uaca.
ne crano neyono, uro x nanpacno pasynna exypnym, n x
nsnnnnnact nepe nem.
12. naxt x cmorpena na nontx nnartx, xoropte cmnnn nx
. n . narte . tno yxe ntrnaxeno, a nnarte . eme ne rna-
nnn. r +roro nnartx xasannct cmnrtmn ns neonnaxono marepnn.
uro nnarte . tno ns nontrt, +ro x ysnana, no nnarte . noxasa-
noct mne mapxnserontm, rax xax, ne yyun npornaxenntm, ono
tno onee ynpyrnm. ora oa nnartx tnn npornaxent, x ysnana,
uro onn ns onoro marepnana.
13. cnena n nnnorexe sa cronom n unrana. ne noxasanoct,
uro x uyncrnym sanax oexonona . . necxontxo pas nonopaunna-
nact n pasnte cropont, no nn c ono cropont sanax ne tn cnnt-
nee. pemnna corn nnns n cnpocnrt y . ., tna nn ona nanepxy.
xomnare nrp x noomna x . . n cnauana nuyncrnonanact, naxner
nn or nee oexononom. o oexononom or nee ne naxno. t ne tnn
rontxo uro nanepxy?~ - er~.
rox or . ., x npyr nonxna, nouemy mne xasanoct, uro x
uyncrnym oexonon . ,: xora . . unrana mne, ro na moe pyxe
ocrancx ee sanax. . . pantme menx nomtna pyxn, a x pyx eme ne
mtna, n oexonon coxpannncx na monx pyxax, n +ro nneno menx n sa-
nyxenne.
14. naxt nent ent x tna ouent cmymena, rax xax, uro t
x nn enana, n xaxym t xomnary nn nomna, x nce npemx uyncrno-
nana sanax yxon X. ax, nanpnmep, x tna n nanno n ymtnanact.
pyr uyncrnym +ror cnnammn menx c ronxy sanax. c neyo-
nontcrnnem noymana: ouemy X. npnmen cmorpert, xax x ymtna-
mct?~
rax n reuenne nenoro nx x nce ymana: ouemy X. cnenr sa
mno?..~
ontxo neuepom, xora x noxnnact cnart (n necomnenno, tna
ona n cnoe xomnare), x nonxna, nouemy menx ecnoxonn sanax y-
xon X.: yrpom n +ror ent x naymnna cee nonoct raxnmn xe y-
xamn, xax y X., no+romy, xora x enana nnxennx ronono (nonopa-
unnanact n xaxym-nnyt cropony nnn naxnonxnact), x n uyncrno-
nana sanax or cex. o x conepmenno satna o rom, uro naymnnact
yrpom, n nor nponena raxo ecnoxont~ ent.
15. ne nyxna tna . . necrnmne tno naxypeno, n x no-
ymana, uro . . cnnr sa cnonm cronom. noomna x crony - ram
cnena xaxax-ro xenmnna n xanare n nncana. nonoxnna pyxy na
ee pyxy nnxe noxrx n xana, uro ona oparnr na menx nnnmanne, no
xenmnna npoonxana nncart. axonen, x nepnax saronopnna
(x rnxo cxasana ro, uro mne nyxno tno). enmnna nsxna menx sa
pyxy, n x no ee pyxe cpasy ysnana, uro +ro ne . . ouent cmyrn-
nact n pacrepxnact. oomen X. n cxasan mne: 3ro ne . ., +ro
nonax saneymmax xosxcrnom~.
16. tna n cnoe xomnare n neuarana na mamnnxe (nncana
nnctmo n ouent ynnexnact +rnm). ne samernna roro, uro xo mne n
xomnary nomnn: xro-ro nsxn menx sa pyxy n noxan ee. ne ysnana,
xro +ro, xorx cpasy xe ormernna, uro nsxn menx sa pyxy snaxomt
uenonex.
- ne snam xro,- cxasana x, uyrt yntaxct cmymenno.
ne cnona noxann pyxy, no x ne ysnanana. ora pyro ueno-
nex nsxn menx sa pyxy.
- .! - cpasy ysnana x.
. xoren nanncart na moe pyxe nmx roro, xoro x ne ysnana.
o ryr cnyunnoct neuro xomnunoe: x npyr coopasnna, uro uenonex,
pyxn xoroporo noxasannct mne snaxomtmn, ne xro nno, xax ., n x
c nsymnennem rpomxo cxasana:
- .!..
symnenne moe oxcnxercx cneymmnm: mne ronopnn .,
uro . yexan n oxpecrnocrn ocxnt, n cxasan, xaxoro uncna .
nosnparnrcx. enept xe . npnmen conepmenno neoxnanno nx
menx, a x na ncxxne neoxnannte ocroxrentcrna pearnpym cnntno.
euro noonoe cnyunnoct co mno n na +ror pas; x uyncrnonana, uro
noxpacnena, n na necxontxo mnnyr pacrepxnact.
emneparypnte omymennx
1. centm, xora eme ne ronnnn, y nac tno ouent xonono.
o nor onaxt menx pasynnn, x cpasy nouyncrnonana, uro n xom-
nare y menx xax yro rennee. noomna x arapee, ona tna uyrt-
uyrt rennax. nem y nac tno yxe concem renno, n arapen tnn n-
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crontxo ropxune, uro nentsx tno x nnm npnxocnyrtcx. ora npn-
mna . ., x cxasana:
- ospannxm!
- uem?
- eyxenn nt nnuero ne uyncrnyere?
- er.
- am ne xapxo?
- er.
nonena . . x arapee. na nocmorpena pyxo n cxasana:
. - enept x nonnmam, uro yxe saronnnn.
enx ouent ynnnno ro, uro . . ne morn;a samernrt raxo
ontmo pasnnnt n remneparype namnx xomnar, net tno ouent
xonono, n npyr crano renno.
2, orxptnana oxno n cnoe xomnare. tuno, xora x orxpom
nnyrpennmm pamy, x yxe uyncrnym, xonono na nope nnn renno.
eronx, xora x orxptna nnyrpennmm pamy, a napyxnax tna co-
ncem saxptra, x nouyncrnonana, uro na nope renno. ecrnnrentno,
ceronx tno rax renno, uro axe cner raxn.
3. . . nocrannna xo mne na cron +nexrpnuecxym namnouxy n
nauana ncrannxrt nnnxy n poserxy, a x epxana pyxy na namnouxe.
ora cner saxercx, x cpasy nouyncrnonana, noromy uro namnouxa
momenrantno crana narpenartcx.
4. sannmanact c X. n ero xannere. pyr n. omyrnna nonepx-
nocrtm nnna, uro n oxno cnernr connne.
- nam n oxno cnernr connne?
- a.
5. nannnana n nanny noy, rax xax conpanact mtrtcx. oa
tna ouent ropxuax, n nosne nannt tno xapxo. o nor norxnyno
xonoxom, x oraanact, uro xro-ro orxptn nept ns ymtnantno,
re tno ne rax renno. noomna x nepn, ona tna nonyorxptra.
cnpocnna:
- ro?
oomna . .
- 3ro nt orxptnn nept?
- a.
6. ne cxasan X., uro noryx cner. uepes uac nocne +roro x nonn-
repeconanact, ropnr nn yxe cner. nomna n cnantnm n npnnoxnna
pyxy x +nexrpnuecxo namnouxe, no ona tna xonono. nonxna,
uro cner eme ne saxercx.
7. u. nosnana menx unrart. ora x npnmna n xanny n cena
na cryn, ro nouyncrnonana, uro cryn rennt. cnpocnna:
- ro ceuac cnen na +rom cryne?
- ect cnen H.,- ornernna u.
8. ax-ro mne nyxen tn X. nomna n nnnorexy n noomna
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x nnany, urot ysnart, ner nn na nnane X. a nnane x ero ne na-
mna, no n onom mecre nnan tn rennt, n x noymana, uro X.
rontxo uro ymen orcma. nosnana X., n on noomen xo mne.
- t cnenn na nnane rontxo uro?
- a, x ncran mnnyry romy nasa.
9. naxt x conpanact nrn n ropo c . . o +roro x eme ne
tna na nope n ne snana, xaxax noroa. ora mt ntmnn na
ynnny, x nouyncrnonana, xax nauano corpenartcx moe nnno. no-
nxna, uro +ro cnernr connne. cxasana . .: ymana, uro ce-
ronx nnoxax noroa, a oxastnaercx, uro axe connne ecrt~.
10. onn snmnn ent, xora na nope tna orrenent, x nomna
n ropo. erep tn rennt no-necennemy, no connna x ne uyncrno-
nana, xora ntmna na ynnny. ontxo uepes na uaca, nx no ropoy,
x npyr omyrnna nnnom rennte nyun connna.
- t uyncrnyemt connne? - cnpocnna . .
- a, x cpasy nouyncrnonana.
- no ntpaxennm rnoero nnna samernna +ro, noromy n cnpo-
cnna rex.
xyconte omymennx
1. a oeom mne noann apys. onpoonan ero, x cpasy onpee-
nnna, uro apys eme ne ospen. cxasana o +rom exypno.
na ornernna: Hner on nmeer xopomn, no+romy mt ymann, uro
on n na nxyc yer xopomn~.
2. . . npenoxnna mne cxymart nomnop. cornacnnact. y~
max nomnop, x samernna, uro na nxyc on onee xncnt, uem re no-
mnopt, xoropte mt noxynaem na asape. cnpocnna y . .
- 3ro nomnopt ns namero caa?
- uro, xncnte?
- a.
3. xymana rpymn. na rpyma tna rnepa na omynt, no x no-
ymana, uro ona npocro eme ne nomxnact. ora xe x nonpoonana
rpymy, no nxycy ysnana, uro ona eme ne spenax.
4. naxt x ena xnoxn. ne noxasanoct, uro ono xnoxo tno
rnnnoe n cepenne. ornoxnna ero n nsxna pyroe. ora xo mne
noomna . ., x e noxasana rnnnoe xnoxo.
- er, ono ne rnnnoe, a nonroe.
- nnnoe, x net xymana ero n no nxycy ysnana, uro ono n ce-
penne rnnnoe. axe cox ram onee nnnxn, uem n xopomem xnoxe.
a rnas ne nnno, uro ono rnnnoe, xaxercx, uro nonroe.
3
3xcxypcnx no nopen nnonepon
3ro tna yxe nropax +xcxypcnx no nopen nnonepon. t npoxo-
nnn nent px xomnar, nonnmaxct nnepx no necrnnnam n cnona
cnycxaxct nnns. or mt saxonm n onn san c mpamopntm nonom.
ect onee npoxnano, uem n pyrnx xomnarax, n n ro xe npemx
omymaercx cnexn nosyx. . . nnuero mne ne ronopnr.
- t n nmnem cay? - cnpamnnam x y . .
- a, xax rt ysnana?
- sect onn pas tna na roa romy nasa.
. . nononr menx x nneram. nx ocmarpnnam pyxamn n ysnam
re nantmt n xaxryct, xoropte x pantme nnena. ameuam, uro nne-
ron crano mentme. nomnm, uro n nepnym +xcxypcnm x ocmarpnnana
nnert, xoropte croxnn noxpyr accena, a renept nx ner.
ora mt npnmnn no nopen nnonepon, nam npnmnoct onro
xart pyxononrenx. t cenn na nnanunx. ocmorpena ero n cxa-
sana . .:
3ror nnan tn noxptr apxarno marepne, no ona concem
yxe ntrepnact, rpyno axe ysnart,
uro +ro tn apxar.
ntnnen,- or-
-J----- I J. u
roxe ymam, uro +ro apxar, no concem
nernna . .
axnm opasom, x ocxsannem, a . . c nomomtm spennx onpee-
nnnn, uro nnan pantme tn noxptr apxarno marepne, xoropax
renept ntrepnact n ntnnena.
o nopne nnonepon x ocmorpena moenn camoneron, xoropte
enann ern. cron moenn camonera ern oxnennann ronxo yma-
ro. s necxontxnx moene mne ocoenno nonpannnact ona: ona
tna ouent axxyparno cenana n rax nsxmna, uro npnnena menx n
nocropr: xasanoct, ona nor-nor nsnernr n nosyx es moropa. cxa-
sana . . o +rom. t yraana, ona nyume pyrnx~.
t ocmarpnnann xomnary, n xoropo nnonept sannmamrcx
cxyntnrypo. . . ana mne ocmorpert ony crary+rxy. onona cra-
ry+rxn tna xypuano, a na mexax axenapt. 3ro ymxnn~.
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. . noxasana mne pyrym crary+rxy ymxnna. n nonynexan
n epxan n pyxe nncroner. nnxora npexe ne nnena cxyntnrypt
ymxnn na y+nn~, no, necmorpx na +ro, cpasy ysnana, xaxo mo-
menr nsopaxaer ocmarpnnaemax mnom cxyntnrypa.
- 3ro ymxnn na y+nn. or n nncroner. re xe anrec?
ocmorpena pyxo cronnx, no anreca ne namna.
- axnm opasom rt ysnana, uro +ro ymxnn na y+nn?~ -
cnpocnna . .
- net unrana o +rom n xnre, a annax nosa crary+rxn co-
ornercrnyer romy, uro x unrana.
ora x ocmarpnnana nnno ymxnna a y+nn~, ro onapyxn-
na, uro y ymxnna ornr xonunx noca. oparnna na +ro nnnma-
nne ..
- x n ne samernna,-ornernna ona, naxnonxxct na crary+r-
xo,- renept n x nnxy, uro y crary+rxn ymxnna ornr noc, a
pantme ne nnena.
ne noxasann crary+rxy enouxn. ee ocmorpena. a ronone y
enouxn tna ncnancxax manouxa. naxt x ocmarpnnana raxne
manouxn na ncnancxnx erxx, n renept, xora x na crary+rxe ona-
pyxnna raxym xe manouxy, x ysnana, uro +ra crary+rxa nsopaxaer
ncnancxym enouxy.
. . nonena menx x roeneny, na xoropom nsopaxen . . e-
nnn n momenr npnesa n erporpa n anpene 1917 r. ocmarpnnana
roenen pyxamn. npeenxm, uro ennn cronr na rpysonnxe, nonxn
nnepx npanym pyxy. cmarpnnam ]nrypt, xoropte naxoxrcx nosne
rpysonnxa, n onpeenxm, uro +ro nsopaxent nmn - marpoct, con-
art, paoune. oe noopaxenne xnno pncyer mne +ror anexn
npomemn ent, n mne xaxercx, uro nepe monmn nespxunmn rna-
samn mentxamr nnnmarentnte, ceptesnte nnna c ycrpemnenntmn
na ntnua rnasamn, a necennee xpxoe connne n ntmnne - xax ncno-
nnncxoe, xpacno-sonoroe snamx...
ne uyxrcx nnxymmne npnnercrnennte nosrnact rex, xro
rora ncrpeuan nanmnpa ntnua. ennt necennn nerepox pas-
nocnr +rn nosrnact - onn nerxr ntcoxo n anexo, x cnnemy ney, x
cnepxammemy connny.
. . nonena menx x ono crarye n xorena cxasart, xoro nso-
paxaer +ra craryx. ocranonnna . . nnxennem pyxn.
- e ronopnre, x cama xouy ysnart.
- ro xe +ro?
- 3ro onapr mantunxom.
- rxya rt snaemt?
- onn pas ocmarpnnana +ry crarym, ona mne ouent nonpann-
nact, n x nomnm ee o cnx nop.
- uro xe y onapra n pyxax?
13S
- ono pyxe cxpnnxa, a n pyro - cmtuox.
ora x tna nepnt pas n +rom mysee na roa romy nasa,
mne noxastnann crarym nant. ora nama pyxononrentnnna no-
xasana mne +ry crarym, mon nantnt nouyncrnonann uro-ro snaxomoe,
no n namxrn ne tno xcnoro nocnomnnannx o +ro crarye. o nor
mon pyxn xocnynnct ronont nant, xoropax ntxnmaer moxpte no-
noct, n no +romy npnsnaxy x cpasy ysnana nany. name xnnnnxe
ecrt craryx enept ennecxo. mysee mne noxasann crarym,
xoropax nsopaxaer ee. o x samernna, uro y +ro enept en-
necxo ueprt nnna xpynnee n rpyee, a ]nrypa nonnee n ne rax
crpona, xax y name enept.
. . noxasana mne ne crary+rxn ]pannyscxnx anepnn. nep-
no anepnnt xpacnnax npnuecxa, no mne ontme nonpannnact nro-
pax anepnna. na epxanact rontxo na xonunxax nantnen ono
norn. or +ra anepnna rnxo nsornyna ronxn, nsxmnt cran.
pyt ee ropaso nexcnoe n xpacnnee, uem y nepno, nnno raxxe
tno nyume n nexnee.
- o-moemy, +ra anepnna xpacnnee nepno,- cxasana x . .
- t yraana.
accmarpnnax norn nropo anepnnt, x samernna, uro ns-no
nsnnnanmecx mouxn nnnt xoporentxne nanranonunxn. nn ena
tnn samernt na norax anepnnt ronxo cxnaxo, no ona ne
ycxontsnyna or monx nantnen. 3ra crary+rxa nacrontxo xopoma n
yauna, uro x, nontsyxct rontxo onnm ocxsannem, morna nsopa-
snrt nory anepnnt, xora nepnynact omo. 3ro tn orner na non-
poc ono corpynnnt:
- uro rt nnena n mysee?
nourn n rounocrn nsopasnna rannymmym anepnny.
na roa romy nasa n +rom mysee x ocmarpnnana crary+rxy. e-
nept . . saxorena nponepnrt, nomnm nn x +ry crary+rxy. npn-
xocnynact x crary+rxe, erno ocmorpena ee n no opoe n nne ptt-
ero xnocra, a raxxe no ronxnm xosnnntm noram ysnana e]ncro-
]enx. n nnuyrt ne noxopomen!
ora-ro x ocmarpnnana crary+rxy on-nxora. na xopomo co-
xpannnact n moe namxrn, n, xora . . noxasan mne crary+rxy, x
cpasy cxasana:
- 3ro on-nxor.
- ax rt ysnana?
- nomnm, uro y nero opoxa +cnantonxo, nonyorxptrt
por. a na ronone rpeyrontnax mnxna; norn raxxe oyrt n ry]nn, a
na nnx mnopt.
npocnna . . noxasart mne, re cronr craryx a]nt.
- +ro craryn ne snam. ax ee narn?
- nam paccxaxy: a]na nsopaxena nonyxenmnno, nony-
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epenom; ns-no norre na nantnax pyx ntpacramr nncrtx, a norn
npenpamamrcx n xopnn epena. san a]nt cronr nonnon, on o-
nxn ee.
- ora rt ocmarpnnana +ry crarym? - cnpocnna . .
- na roa romy nasa.
- rt ee rax xopomo nomnnmt... nor nornxn, ne a]na nn
+ro?
ocmorpena crarym n paocrno nocxnnxnyna:
- a, a, +ro a]na n nonnon!
. . noxasana mne xaxym-ro crary+rxy. onpeennna rontxo
ro, uro crary+rxa nsopaxaer myxunny, nnno tno c opoo, no
xoro? - +roro x ne morna onpeennrt.
- axoe npornnnoe nnno! - cxasana x.
- ouemy?
- oc xax y xnmno nrnnt, rnasa nantxare, a no ysxn, xax
nenrouxa.
- 3ro monax. xax rt ymaemt, ns uero cenana +ra cra-
ry+rxa?
- o-moemy, ona epenxnnax.
. . ocmorpena crary+rxy co ncex cropon.
- a, ona ns epena, rontxo ntxpamena.
- axax uncrax paora! pasy ne ysnaemt, uro crary+rxa epe-
nxnnax,- samernna x.
na roa romy nasa x nnena n mysee mcr an-axa ycco.
o crpanno ro, uro n moe namxrn ne ocranoct xpxoro nocnomn-
nannx o +rom. . . noxasana mne +ror mcr, x samernna, uro on
mne snaxom, n cnnnnact ncnomnnrt, xro xe +ro.
- y...-nauana ronopnrt . .
- a, an-ax ycco! yxe ysnana ero, ne no nnny, a no
oexe.
- or nocmorpn, xro +ro? - cxasana . ., anax mne n pyxn
cxyntnrypnym rononxy xenmnnt. ocmorpena ee.
- 3ro ronona xaxo-ro npnnopno amt npemen mo-
nnxa XIV.
- rxya rt snaemt?
- pantme ocmarpnnana +ry ronony, nor na ne n napnx, a noc
.xaxo-ro nexopomn, ropart.
3xcxypcnx n cropnuecxn myse
. . noxasana mne apente] neaneprantna. Fapente] tn
npocr n nx ocxsannx ne ouent narnxen, no nce-raxn x morna pac-
cmorpert neaneprantna: ero nnnnte oestxntn pyxn, ysxax
rpynax xnerxa, noxart n ysxn no cosann n moem npecranne-
nnn raxoro uenonexa, o xoropom x morna cxasart: axo yponn-
nt uenonex!~
. . nonena menx x xaxomy-ro xamennomy nsnaxnnm n cnpo-
cnna menx: uro +ro raxoe?~
nepnym mnnyry x ne morna ornernrt na nonpoc . ., no, npo-
onxax ocmarpnnart ncryxana, x npyr ncnomnnna o rom, uro mne
npnxonnoct unrart o xamenntx aax~.
- 3ro, xaxercx, aa.
- re rt ee nnena?
- antme nnxora ne nnena, no unrana o rom, uro n crapnny na
mornnax crannnn xamenntx a.
ocmarpnnana mnnnarmpnym cxyntnrypy naroncrno~ ns xns-
nn yxpanncxoro napoa. 3ro tna nnrepecnax cnenxa, no xpome
nme, cnenmnx na cryntxx, x onapyxnna na nony xypnny, ne-
ryxa n omaprnmm yrnapt. ce +rn nemn x ysnana cama n axe yxa-
sana nenecry n mart nenecrt. snana x mart no mopmnnncromy
nnny n no nnarxy, xoroptm ona tna nonxsana.
. . nonena menx x onomy mcry. o xypuano ronone x ys-
nana, xro +ro.
, - 3ro ymxnn!
- t xann, uro rt cxaxemt,- orneuana . .
o ee cnona x npnnxna xax nponnm n yxacno cmyrnnact, na-
uana ocmarpnnart mcr ouent nnnmarentno (axe noxpacnena or
nanpxxennx). . . nnena moe cmymenne.
- y, uro xe rt monunmt?
- nce-raxn ymam, uro +ro ymxnn.
- a, xoneuno, +ro ymxnn.
ocmarpnnana ontmo cron rpeuecxo paort. a noxxax
crona x ynnena crpannoe yxpamenne. nauana x ynnena uenoneue-
cxym ronony n rynonnme, xoropoe npnnanexano, necomnenno, xen-
mnne, cyx no ]opme rpyn. o xaxomy xnnornomy npnnanexana
nnxnxx uacrt rena, sarpynxmct cxasart, rax xax ne norn tnn no-
mannte, a csan nsnnnancx nnnnt xnocr.
- cmorpn, uro +ro? - cxasana . ., xnax mom pyxy na xa-
xo-ro npemer.
o monmn pyxamn tna nocxonax ronona xenmnnt c pexnmn
nonocamn. ocmorpena nnno n no rnyoxnm mopmnnam onpeennna,
uro +ro crapyxa. o npocro omorxano oexe x ysnana, uro ne-
peo mno xpecrtxnxa. no pyxo ona npnepxnnana nanxy, x
xoropo tn npnnxsan xnox mepcrn, a n pyro epxana nepereno.
3rn nemn x nnena anno, eme n ercrne, no renept ysnana nx es
rpya.
pornn crapyxn-npxxn cnena pyrax xpecrtxnxa - nnno y nee
xpyrnoe, es mopmnnox. 3ro tna enymxa, oerax rax xe npocro:
n omorxanym pyamxy n mxy, rontxo ]acon tn nonapxnee. e-
nymxa cxnonnnact na npocrtm rxanxnm cranxom. nxora npexe
mne ne npnxonnoct ocmarpnnart rxanxne cranxn, no no nnrxam, xo-
ropte tnn nporxnyrt uepes cranox, x onpeennna, uro nepeo mno
rxanxn cranox.
am paspemnnn sarn n nonornuecxoe orenenne mysex, re
tnn pasnnunte nopot semnn, ocrarxn ncxonaemtx xnnorntx n
uyuena nrnn. cmarpnnax uyueno, xpoxanx, y xoroporo nantnt na no-
rax coennent nnanarentno nepenonxo, x cpasy onpeennna, uro
+ro noxnax nrnna.
3xcxypcnx n cropnxo-nnreparypnt myse c . .
t nomnn nanepx, n orenenne ymxnna. ect . . noxasana
mne ony nemnny, xoropym x ocmorpena. 3ro tna xpacnnax neont-
max coauxa, ona uro-ro epxana n syax. pncmarpnnaxct nnn-
marentnee, x ysnana, uro n syax y coaxn xaxax-ro nrnna. o ]op-
me ronont, no ntrxnyro mee n nepenonuartm nanxam x ysnana
yrxy. onona ee nncena nnns, nanxn orrontpnnnct. oaxa ee cxna-
rnna sa ropno.
- penonaramr, uro +ra coauxa croxna na crone y ymxn-
na,- cxasana . .
3ro opaonano menx: npnxrno tno npnxocnyrtcx x rem nemam,
na xoropte xora-ro cmorpen n x xoroptm axe npnxacancx nmn-
mt ymxnn.
r cronnxa, na xoropom croxna coauxa, x cama noomna x py-
romy npemery. 3ro tn nnan, noxptrt yxe norepro menxono
marepne.
- 3ror nnan roxe, xaxercx, croxn y ymxnna.
- eyxenn?! - x, neonro ymax, ycenact na nnan.
- anrtcx nentsx,- cxasana . .
- +ro snam, no mne saxorenoct nocmorpert, yono nn tno
ymxnny cnert na +rom nnane.
. . noxasana mne xnanecnn, xoropt, xax npenonaramr, tn
y ymxnna. orxptna xptmxy n nauana npoonart xnannarypy.
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norne xnannmn, xax x uyncrnonana, tnn yxe ncnopuent n ne
nponsnonnn snyxa. o nexoropte ns nnx emr nponsnonnn snyx,
xorx n ne uncrt, no rpomxn.
onom ns orenon mysex . . ana mne cryn, a cama nomna x
npexropy. nnyr 5 x oxnana . . nmo menx npoxonnn nocern-
renn mysex, n x no nnpannn nona omymana nx nnxennx. o nor x
nouyncrnonana xaparepnym noxoxy . . ecrnnrentno,
. . noomna xo mne.
- nnnrentno, uro x nac ysnana axe sect, net mnmo menx
npoxonnn nmn, n x cnena cnoxono o rex nop, noxa ne nouyncr-
nonana namy noxoxy. t +ro samernnn?
- a, rt cpasy ncrana.
3xcxypcnx
8 apra
c , . na ntcranxy, nocnxmennym
a ntcranxe . . noxasana mne ue-ro mcr. o xypuano ro-
none n no ]opme na moxno tno ymart, uro +ro ymxnn. camom
ene, +ro tn ymxnn mantunxom, no pyxa, na xoropym ymxnn
onepcx mexo, no nennunne ne coornercrnonana mantunxy: ona tna
cnnrxom nennxa.
- ymana, uro rontxo y roronencxoro oaxennua tnn raxne
pyxn,- nomyrnna x.
- npexnnx mysex roxe cunraer, uro pyxa noprnr ncm cxyntn-
rypy,- cxasana , .
- ect ecrt manentxax crary+rxa rannymme yxpannxn,-
cxasana . ., no ne morna noxasart mne crary+rxy, rax xax ona
croxna n nnrpnne. t ocmarpnnann pyrym cxyntnrypy. o nor nam
pyxononrent an mne n pyxn xaxym-ro crary+rxy. ocmorpena ee:
n monx pyxax rannymmax ronax yxpannxa. ysnana +ry crary+rxy
no nose, n xoropo tna nsopaxena yxpannxa, no ee nannonant-
nomy xocrmmy n no nenxy ns nneron, xoropt tn naer na ronony.
3ra crary+rxa ouent nonpannnact mne.
- e snaemt nn rt, xro +ro?-cnpocnna . . n ana mne
ocmorpert utm-ro ronony.
- er, ne snam.
- cmorpn nnnmarentno: moxer trt, rt xora-nnyt nnena?
- er, ne nomnm... ro xe +ro?
- Ferxonen.
tna npana, no nnxora npexe x ne nnena Ferxonena.
- axoe sameuarentnoe nnno,- samernna x n ne cpasy morna
oropnart pyxn or ronont Ferxonena,
- nnxy, ree xouercx nmert y cex mcr Ferxonena.
- ax xouercx, uro x ne npout yramnrt ero orcma,- nomy-
rnna x.
ora mt ocmorpenn ncm ntcranxy, x nonpocnna . . nonecrn
menx eme pas x ronone Ferxonena.
- or +ro rt cama ysnaemt,- ynepenno cxasana . .
nauana ocmarpnnart ronony n nnno, oxamnennoe opoo.
- onona axaemnxa annona,- ynnnnact x.
- nnmt, ysnana.
ysnana ronony . . annona, rax xax y nac tna rouno raxax
xe cxyntnrypa, no x ne oxnana ynnert ee na ntcranxe. or no-
uemy x tna necxontxo ynnnena.
3xcxypcnx n oonornuecxn myse c . .
nxora n xnsnn mne ne npnxonnoct nnert xnnoro necna, a-
xe ero uyuena x ne ocmarpnnana. oonornuecxom mysee mne nnep-
nte noxasann uyueno necna. . . nnuero mne ne cxasana, a npocro
nonoxnna mom pyxy na xaxoe-ro uyueno. no tno upesntuano
npnxrnoe nx ocxsannx. ycrax menxonncrax mepcrt n ]opma ro-
nont (noxoxax na coautm ronony) nanomnnnn mne onncannx nec-
non n nnreparype.
- 3ro necen,- cxasana x ynepenno.
- a.
- axo uyecnt! ne mory ornxrt or nero pyx.
ecxontxo pyrnx uyuen xnnorntx n nrnn (yrxn n xypt) x ys-
nanana nnn noromy, uro npexe nx ocmarpnnana xnntmn, nnn xe
nomnnna onncannx nx n nnreparype. ax, nanpnmep, uyueno sana x
ysnana noromy, uro xora-ro ocmarpnnana xnnoro sana, a uyueno
nncnnt ysnana no onncannm n nnreparype. rxy n xypnny x ne pas
ocmarpnnana xnntmn n renept cpasy xe nx ysnana. . . noxasana
mne orpomnte xocrn xaxoro-ro xnnornoro. cexyny noymana n
ncnomnnna:
- 3ro sy mamonra, a +ro xocrn mamonra. omnnre, x nx ocmar-
pnnana n pyrom mysee?
na mt samnn n oonornuecxn myse, x cpasy xe omyrnna
pesxn sanax na]rannna. ecrnnrentno, na ncex uyuenax x onapy-
xnna xpynnnxn na]rannna. anax noecrnonan na menx nenpn-
xrno. menx cpasy xe nauana onert ronona; +ro memano mne no-
cnpnnnmart erann ocmarpnnaemtx mnom uyuen.
3xcxypcnx na ntcranxy nanarnnernx onercxo
xpannt
- ocmorpn n ysna, xro +ro,- cxasana . . n noxasana mne
cxyntnrypy, nsopaxammym manentxoro mantunxa, cnxmero na
cxameeuxe, a pxom c nnm n xpecne - xenmnny co cnnnamn n pyxax.
- anentxn ymxnn n pnna onononna! n cnymaer
cxasxn...
ne omnnact. anentxn ymxnn, cnerxa npnnonxn nnno,
cmorpen na cnom nxnm n nnnmarentno cnyman ee, a ona, cxnonnn
na uynxom opoe mopmnnncroe nnno, uro-ro emy ronopnna.
- ameuarentnax cnenxa! - nocxnnxnyna x.
uent cnntnoe nneuarnenne na menx nponsnena cxyntnrypa
cnancxax xenmnna nepe ornpannennem na ]ponr npomaercx co
cnonm ctnom~.
enmnna n ncnancxo manouxe epxnr na pyxax manentxoro
ctna. art npnxnmaer ero x rpyn. yt ce cxart, noxpyr pra ne-
xar rnyoxne cxnaxn, ntpaxammne ee marepnncxoe crpaanne, a
rnasa ycrpemnent na ctna, xoropt rxnercx x ne nnunxom. oe
noopaxenne xnno pncyer mne +ry rpycrnym cneny - npomanne ma-
repn c peenxom. ne enaercx ouent rpycrno, no x ncnomnnam mno-
rnx reponuecxnx ncnancxnx xenmnn, xoropte conepmann ecnpn-
mepnte nonnrn n opte c ]amncramn n yrnerarenxmn sa nesanncn-
mocrt, sa nacroxmym uenoneuecxym xnsnt, n x rnyoxo ynepena, uro
ncnancxn napo +roro otercx.
ne noxasann mcr Bora ycranenn, x ero eme nnxora ne oc-
marpnnana. ne ouent nonpannnoct ero ronxoe, myxecrnennoe, or-
xptroe nnno; rontxo noc ero mne noxasancx cnnmxom nnnntm, a
+ro ne n moem nxyce.
3xcxypcnx c . . n Forannuecxn ca
ocmarpnnana ono pacrenne. uopma ero nncrten nanomnnna
mne oneanp. o y +roro pacrennx nncrtx tnn ropaso ronme, uem
y rex oneanpon, xoropte mne npnxonnoct ocmarpnnart.
- axoe +ro pacrenne? no noxoxe na oneanp.
- a, +ro raxo nn oneanpa.
anax nncrten onoro pacrennx nemnoro nanomnnaer sanax re-
pann, no nncrtx tnn necxontxo nno ]opmt, uem y repann.
- e snam, xaxoe +ro pacrenne. no nanomnnaer mne repant.
- 3ro enax repant.
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o romy nasa x ocmarpnnana ananonym nantmy. enept
. . nnrepeconanact, ysnam nn x ee. . , noxasana xaxoe-ro pac-
renne. o orpomntm, cnerxa nonnncrtm nncrtxm x cpasy ysnana, uro
+ro ananonax nantma.
3xcxypcnx n xnt nocenox
xe c yrpa moxno tno oxnart, uro ent yer xapxn. ora
xe mt naxonen copannct n nomnn x rpamnam, connne sannno nac
xryunmn nyuamn.
a noxsane macca nme: x nx uyncrnonana ne rontxo no sanaxy,
no n no nx ronuxam...
noes canmcx ouent tcrpo. uepes 2-3 mnnyrt uyncrnym
nnpannn - noes noexan... uepes nexoropoe npemx uyncrnym, uro
noes samenxer xo n ocranannnnaercx. 3ro nepnax crannnx. xom
co mno na nnane cnnr nron . nepeam emy axrnnono-
rne :
- oes ocranonnncx. oes cronr na crannnn. oes yxe eer.
ax ncm opory x uyncrnonana ocranonxn n coomana o +rom
nrony.
rannnx xnoro nocenxa. s name rpynnt x n . . nepntmn
cnemnm x ntxoy. oes cronr ncero 2 mnnyrt.
. . nepnax cxonr c nonoxxn. omnx, uro nyxno cnemnrt, x
tcrpo cneym sa . . pyr ona xya-ro ncuesaer. nnuero ne no-
ospenam, nptram c nonoxxn na semnm n ena ne naam. xastna-
ercx, uro nam naron tn anexo or nnar]opmt n nonoxxa, c xoro-
po x nptrnyna, tna ntcoxo na semne. nxro ne oxnan or menx
raxo cmenocrn, n npononnxn noomnn xo mne yxe rora, xora x
cnptrnyna c noesa.
em n nanpannennn xnoro nocenxa. pasy sameuam, uro no-
nnmaemcx na nosntmennocrt, n rax nem mnnyr 10. apxo necrep-
nnmo. menx ycraer cepne n n nerxnx ne xnaraer nosyxy. e-
cxontxo pas ocranannnnamct, urot nsoxnyrt... osntmennocrt
oxonunnact. em no neponno opore - na xaxom mary xmxn n
ptrnnnt a nnnnte cnet or xonec. rn rpyno, norn cxontsxr
no rpane. uepes nonuaca x sameuam, uro naxner tmom.
- t yxe n nocenxe? - cnpamnnam x y cnyrnnnt.
- a, nomnn n nocenox. oem x omy ortxa.
Fnns oma ortxa mt cenann nonyuacono npnnan... nexana
na pasocrnannom oexne; npyr moe nnnmanne npnnnex roptxonart
sanax nontnn. nporxnyna pyxy n cropony sanaxa n ecrnnrentno
namna xycrnx nontnn. cmarpnnax na semne rpany, x onapyxnna
necxontxo manentxnx penonnntx crnonnxon. onxno trt, mt
pacnonoxnnnct no epenom, ecnn n rpane nonaamrcx penonnnte
pacrennx~,- noymana x.
ncrana n onena noxpyr cex pyxo: a, nor n cyxo crnon xa-
xoro-ro epena...
ocne ortxa mt ornpannnnct n nec, n xoropom conpannct npo-
necrn necxontxo uacon.
nsnemorana or xaxt, a xora nouyncrnonana sanax xnea,
mxca, orypnon, xoropte nearorn ocranann ns xopsnnox na sanrpax,
nouyncrnonana ornpamenne x nnme.
- ot! pexe ncero not! - rpeonana x.
anrpaxart x nauana nocne roro, xax ntnnna ne uamxn not.
ocne npoonxnrentnoro ortxa mt pemnnn norn x npyy. cm
opory x II apnapa mnn c . ., n raxom xe nopxxe mt nomnn x
npyy... cpasy samernna, xora opora crana nonnxartcx. nauana
+ro tno rontxo npnxrno, no nrn no ropy mne nerue, uem n ropy;
no norom, xora cnycx cran xpyue, mt ena ne cxarnnnct nnns: ap-
napa ne morna nrn no raxo opore n na xaxom mary optnanact.
nauana x noepxnnana . ., no, rax xax mne tno cmemno, uro
mt uyrt ne xyapem xarnmcx, x ne yepxanact n ena cama ne cxa-
rnnact nnns. o nor no monmn noramn cpannnrentno ponnax opora.
- re xe npy? - cnpocnna x.
o . . ne ycnena mne ornernrt, rax xax x yxe cama nouyncr-
nonana sanax npya.
- am npy? - noxasana x pyxo nnpano.
- a, npy.
nouyncrnonana no noramn ocxn.
- uro +ro, mocr?
- a.
- or yxe mt nepemnn mocr,- cxasana x, xora nouyncrno-
nana no noramn semnm. yxe necxontxo ner ne xynanact n renept
paa tna cnyuam ntxynartcx... ne ymem nnanart, no xynanact .c
nacnaxennem n npocro ntpnanact ns pyx . ., xoropax oxnact
nycrnrt menx rnyxe. . . necxontxo pas snana menx na eper, no
x ne xorena ntxonrt ns not.
- xe nce namn nyr oenartcx,- cxasana . . n noramnna
menx. ntpnanact n nomna x epery cama. uyncrnonana, uro noa
c xaxtm marom mentuana, snaunr, x ny x epery. or yxe n not
ner, no noramn necox. ocranonnnact n nauana snart . .
oparnt nyrt x omy ortxa mt nomnn ne necom, no+romy
es ocooro rpya npnmnn x omy ortxa n paccennct na cxamexe.
uepes nexoropoe npemx n nosyxe noxnnncx sanax nnarn.
- euac yer oxt,- cxasana x . .
ecrnnrentno, uepes mnnyry nomen cnntnt oxt. t no-
mnn n nomemenne oma ortxa n npotnn ram oxono uaca. ora
mt nnont ntmnn iio nop, x nouyncrnonana no noramn nyxn, a ma-
nentxn oxt npoonxan eme nrn.
pnnnxancx neuep, n mt ornpannnnct x crannnn. oxt ne
npexpamancx. . . ronopnna mne, uro rpemnr rpom. nn pas yap
rpoma tn nacrontxo cnnen, uro x +ro nouyncrnonana n nspornyna.
rn tno ouent rpyno: norn, xax no nty, cxontsnnn no moxpo
rpane. apnapa mna nnoxo n pacxaunnana . . n menx. or n cran-
nnx. o ena mt cenn na cxamexy, xax . . crpemnrentno noe-
xana xya-ro. n apnapa ocrannct na cxamexe. pyr nonxncx
cnntnemn nerep, ryun ntnn n necxa sactnann nac. nepnoe
mrnonenne x noymana, uro +ro yparan, no ryr x nouyncrnonana, uro
poxnr semnx. nonxna, uro ner noes (mt cnenn na nnar]opme,
neanexo or pentcon). osanoct raxoe nneuarnenne, cnonno noes
munrcx npxmo na nac. ormarnynact nasa, cnpxrana norn no cxa-
mexy, a ronony n oexno, xoroptm n tna noxptra. ora noes
npoexan, x nam noomnn . . n . .
- poexan xyptepcxn noes,- cxasana . .- t ncnyra-
nact?
- uent! cnpxrana ronony, xax crpayc.
ao mno nauann cmexrtcx. uepes nexoropoe npemx . . cxa-
sana mne, uro ner cxopt noes. t croxnn nosne nepn crannnn.
- ouemt norn nnxe, urot nyume nouyncrnonart?
- opomo.
t noomnn nnnxe, no ena nonxncx nnxpt n sapoxana
semnx, x pocnnact nasa. . . crapanact yepxart menx, no x, xe-
nax nocmemnrt nearoron, yexana or oporn n xpnuana:
- e xouy! e xouy!
. . cmexnact.
- axax xe rt rpycnxa!
- y, a xax xe? eme ne xouy ymnpart, a no cxoptm noesom
n rem onee...
auancx oxt, n mt ymnn n nomemenne y]era. am xro-ro ns
nocroponnnx nnn noapnn mne nnert. cmorpen nx, x ysnana no
]opme nenecrxon, uro +ro reoprnnt.
axonen, noomen n nam noes.
noese . . paccxasana mne, xaxne crannnn mt yem npoes-
xart no opore n aptxon. nor. xora noes ocranannnnancx na
crannnxx, x +ro uyncrnonana n, opamaxct x . ., ronopnna e na-
snannx crannn.
- epno,- orneuana . .
t nosnparnnnct omo yxe uacon n 10 neuepa, ycrante n cnntno
npomoxmne.
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axas 812
ennnrpacxne +xcxypcnn
anno x meurana notnart n ennnrpae y cnonx pyse, a rax-
xe conepmnrt px +xcxypcn n nennnrpacxne mysen. nor no nro-
po nononnne max 1950 r. mox meura, naxonen, ocymecrnnnact - x
ntexana n ennnrpa n ornnunemem pacnonoxennn yxa. ronone
yxe ponnnct mtcnn o rom, xya noy n ennnrpae, uro ysnam, uro
ynnxy n +rom uyecnom ropoe, re xora-ro xnnn ymxnn, epmon-
ron, expacon, Fennncxn n mnorne pyrne pyccxne nncarenn, no-
+rt, xpnrnxn n penonmnnonept.
pnexan n ennnrpa, x n ror xe ent n conponoxennn
. . n . F. ornpannnact na auy x unncxomy sannny. enx ontx-
nnn uyecnt nosyx nennnrpacxnx au n npnnocnmt cnexnm ne-
repxom sanax mopx. a cneymmn ent mt nepnynnct n ropo n,
necmorpx na nponnnno oxt, ornpannnnct n tnmym erponan-
noncxym xpenocrt. Ftn noneentnnx, n pyrne mysen tnn sa-
xptrt.
ocne ecet, xoropym nponena c namn +xcxypcono, nam npe-
noxnnn sarn n nomemenne yxacno erponannoncxo rmptmt.
pasy xe, xax rontxo mt nomnn n ysxn xopnop, xya ntxonnn
nepn xamep, x omyrnna raxo xono, raxym nponnstnammym o xo-
cre ctpocrt, uro nenontno copornynact npn mtcnn, uro sect n
onnountx xamepax romnnnct n yracann nyumne nmn pyccxoro na-
poa, cronanmero xora-ro no rnerom napcxoro camoepxannx n
xanapmepnn. ne paspemnnn norn n ony xamepy n ocmorpert ee.
o +roro npemenn mne rontxo n xnnrax npnxonnoct unrart o
saxnmuenntx n xamepax, n xoroptx onn npononnn mnorne rot, a
nnora n ncm xnsnt. axe n mtcnxx +rn xamept npecrannxnnct
mne xonontmn, ctptmn n mpauntmn. o ro, uro x ynnena n xa-
mepe erponannoncxo rmptmt, n ecrnnrentnocrn tno eme
yxacnee. amepa +ra nomemanact na nepnom +raxe. ocropoxno
oomna ncm xamepy, ysxym, no npoonronarym. o noramn x omy-
rnna xonont xamennt non. rent tnn ctpte, rpyo omryxary-
pennte. nony tna npnnnnuena ysxax n nnnnax xenesnax pxa-
nax xponart, ouent nnsxax, c raxnm ronxnm rm]xxom, uro xenesnte
npyrtx xponarn omymannct no nnm xax pepa xaxoro-ro crpam-
noro cxenera. nnnuennt n non xenesnt rayper n npnxpennen-
nt x crene neontmo cron - nepnee, rpyt xycox xenesa es
noxex - cocrannxnn ncm ocranonxy xamept. ocmorpena raxxe
rnasox n roncro n rxxeno nepn, rpomant samox, a sarem oxno,
xoropoe pacnonoxeno rax ntcoxo na nonom, uro x ena ocrana o
nero xonunxom cpenero nantna, npnuem ncrana na ntnouxn. 3xc-
xypcono cxasana nam, uro nce xamept conepmenno onnaxonte, n
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npenoxnna ocmorpert xapnep. oneuno, n xnnrax x n o xapnepe un-
rana, no ro, uro ynnena, npensomno nce mon oxnannx. s omero
xopnopa x nonana n ouent ysxn neontmo xopnopunx, xoropt
or omero xopnopa orenxncx rxxeno roncro neptm. axax xe
nept ns xopnopunxa nena n xpoxornt uynanunx~ (pyroro na-
snannx x ne mory narn) c xamenntm nonom, ctptmn crenamn n
concem es oxna.
apnep tn cront recen, uro n nem moxno tno cenart ncero ne-
cxontxo maron n nnny n mnpnny, a ecnn uenonex noxnncx .na non,
on ne mor ntrxnyrtcx no nect pocr. +rom xapnepe nosyx tn rax
yymnnn, uro y menx cpasy xe nauano nepmnrt n ropne, no, xpome
roro, x momenrantno samepsna, xorx tna oera n emncesonnoe
nantro n rennt mepcrxno nnarox. ne npocro ntmna, a nte-
xana ns xapnepa - raxo yxac oxnarnn nce moe cymecrno.
- ax crpamno! - cxasana x, opamaxct x . . n . F.
ne npeynennunnam cnonx nocnpnxrn, a nnmt npannno onn-
ctnam ro, uro omymana n nepexnnana.
t nonxnnct na nropo +rax n npomnn no xopnopy, n xoro-
pt raxxe ntxonnn nepn nepxnnx xamep. ne noxasanoct, uro n
nepxnnx xamepax tno ne rax xonono n ctpo, no axe n xopnope
remneparypa tna snaunrentno rennee n ne rax naxno ctpocrtm,
xax nnnsy. t noomnn x xamepe, re tn saxnmuen . . optxn.
am cxasann, uro n +ro xamepe on nncan cnom ntecy ern connna~.
x noymana: ponnxan nn xort onn conneunt nyu x nexcem
axcnmonnuy, xora on tn sect saxnmuen n nocroxnno ynocnncx
mtcntm n yymee, npecrannxx cee ro nonoe, nyuesapnoe connne,
xoropoe osapnr cnonmn xpxnmn nyuamn ononnennym xnsnt ncero
uenoneuecrna?~
... nycrnnmnct nnns, mt samnn n erponannoncxn coop, n
mne noxasann rponnnt pyccxnx nape, naunnax c erpa 1.
a +rom saxonunnact nama +xcxypcnx n erponannoncxym xpe-
nocrt. ce ro, uro x morna ocmorpert, nancera ocranercx n moe na-
mxrn. cnn x ne rax nce nnena, xax spxune, rem ne menee x nocnpn-
nnmana n omymana nce, uro ocrynno nocnpnxrnm uenoneuecxoro op-
rannsma. nneuarnennx mon xorx n cnoeopasnt, no rem ne menee
cnntnt n nacrontxo xpxn, uro noponnn n moem yme nemano nontx
mtcne n xenanne paccxasart pyrnm nmxm o rom, uro x nnena~
n tnme erponannoncxo rmptme.
a cneymmn ent nennnrpacxoe neo cxannnoct na namn, n
mt, ecnn ne n onnx nnartxx, ro no ncxxom cnyuae n cyxnx nantro,
nonann n tnmn nmnn nopen, pxom c xoroptm naxonrcx 3p-
mnrax. ontmomy namemy coxanennm, +ra +xcxypcnx oxasanact
onontno neyauno noromy, uro, no-nepntx, uacrt 3pmnraxa sa-
xptnact na pemonr, a no-nroptx, nam nonanact ne ocoenno nmes-
nax n nnnmarentnax corpynnna-+xcxypcono. na nac npomuana~
no ro uacrn mysex, xoropax tna orxptra, n x mano uro morna
ocmorpert pyxamn. a cxyntnrypa, xoropym mne noxastnann, tna
nnn yxe snaxoma mne, nnn xe croxna rax ntcoxo, uro x nnena~
rontxo norn crary,- +ro, xoneuno, ne anano mne nn manemero
npecrannennx o nce ]nrype n nnne nsopaxaemoro uenonexa.
pome roro, tno mnoro xaprnn, no, nocxontxy mt npoxonnn uepes
sant tcrpo, nn . F., nn . . ne ycnenann nepeanart mne
coepxanne ncex xaprnn. aro n nexoroptx sanax x ocmarpnnana
crapnnnym meent, xoropax xora-ro naxonnact n napcxnx rocrn-
ntx n npexpacno coxpannnact o nacroxmero npemenn. cnn t x
orpannunnact rontxo urennem n xnnrax o raxnx cronax, nnanax,
xpecnax n cryntxx, ro ne morna t npecrannrt ncm. +ry ocranonxy
cro oruernnnocrtm n xcnocrtm, xax npecrannxm renept, nocne
roro xax ocmorpena nce pyxamn, a . . n . F. paccxasann mne o
nnere epena n omnnxn.
ouent nnrepeconanact, xaxne oxna n sanax, r. c. xaxnx onn pas-
mepon, xaxne crexna, nooxonnnxn, rnyoxn nn oxonnte nnmn. c-
marpnnana pyxamn mpamop cren, cmorpena nepn - xopoue ronopx,
ocmarpnnana nce, uro tno ocrynno monm pyxam. ocne pxa san
nac nponenn n snmnn ca. ect tna cxyntnrypa n nemnoro senenn
(trt moxer, pantme ee tno ontme).
ne noxasann, mexy npounm, xpacnnym cxyntnrypy: n ontmo
mopcxo paxonnne, n xoropym tna axe nannra noa, nexana, o-
noxornnmnct na pyxy, ortxammax nnm]a. ne ouent nonpannnact
+ra ]nrypa - raxax nsxmno no+rnuecxax n essaornax...
otnann mt raxxe n n yccxom mysee, nomemammemcx n tn-
mem nxanoncxom nopne, xoropt crponncx npn xarepnne II n
npenasnauancx em nx pnropnx pnona. pnon ymep pantme, uem
tno saxonueno crponrentcrno nopna, n xarepnna II noapnna ero
cnoemy nnyxy.
cnn +xcxypcnx n 3pmnrax tna neyauna, ro n yccxom mysee
nam nonesno no ncex ornomennxx. pexe ncero nam ntennnn +xc-
xypconoa - nayunoro corpynnxa mysex, xoropt tn rax nme-
sen n nnnmarenen x nam, uro paspemnn mne mnorne npemert oc-
marpnnart pyxamn. c cnema mt npomnn (ecnn ne omnamct) 22 sa-
na, n xoroptx tno ouent mnoro ne rontxo xaprnn, no n raxo
cxyntnrypt, xaxo x pantme ne nnena. euac x ncero ne mory
npnnomnnrt, no cxaxy, uro nexoropte ns cxyntnryp x cama ysna-
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nana, noromy uro pantme unrana o nnx. ax, nanpnmep, x ysnana
manentxoro epaxna, na xoroporo nanann smen, noocnannte pas-
rnenanno ornne epo. anee, cama ysnana opmmnxcx nrex n
epaxna - ysnana epaxna noromy, uro on cronr na semne n epxnr
n pyxax oropnannoro or ero marepn on, semnn, nrex. unrana
xora-ro o npnxonannom x cxane pomeree, y xoroporo open ntxne-
ntnaer neuent. . mysee x camocroxrentno ysnana +ry cxyntnrypy,
no rontxo sect open xnmer ne neuent, a cenesenxy. 3ra cxyntnrypa
nponsnena na menx norpxcammee nneuarnenne.
orpxcna menx n cxyntnrypa ymnpammero na noxe oxpara
(mne cxasann, uro +ro oxpar), nocne roro xax on ntnnn uamy c
xom, naxoxct n rmptme. oxpara orxptrt por, samepmne n cy-
opore pyxn n xyrxoe, ocrynnoe axe nocnpnxrnm pyxn ntpaxe-
nne nnna.
moe namxrn xcno coxpannnact eme raxax mnnnarmpnax
cxyntnrypa: na cxauyme noman cnxr xasax n xasauxa. cmorpen
nx ronont n nnna, x cama onpeennna no uepram nnna, re cnnr xa-
sauxa n re xasax.
...t rax onro xonnn no sanam yccxoro mysex, rax mnoro nn-
enn xaprnn, cxyntnryp n pyrnx npemeron, uro mne npnmnoct
t ceuac mnoro nncart o +rom. nonaram, uro ocrarouno yer n
npnneenntx npnmepon, urot y unrarenx cosanoct npecrannenne
o rom, xax x npn nomomn ocxsannx snaxomnnact co cxyntnrypamn n
pyrnmn npemeramn, naxoxmnmncx n mysee, n xaxoe oraroe, na-
ctmennoe xpxnmn opasamn nneuarnenne ynecna x, yxox ns mysex.
ax n 3pmnraxe, rax n n yccxom mysee x nnrepeconanact pasme-
pamn oxon, nnm, onnxo cren n nepxmn xaxoro nonoro sana.
xox ns yccxoro mysex, mt camtm ncxpennnm opasom ntpa-
snnn naroapnocrt namemy +xcxypconoy, x noapnna emy +xsem-
nnxp cnoe xnnrn.
auno tna n cneymmax +xcxypcnx n ernn nopen erpa 1,
n xoropom on xnn, xora npnexan ns ocxnt n erepypr. 3ro con-
cem npocro omnx xax cnapyxn, rax n no nnyrpennem ypancrne.
nnre ne onapyxnna mpamopa: crent n noronxn omryxarypent
n noenent, nont epenxnnte. o ncex xomnarax n neontmom xonn-
uecrne coxpannnact npocrax, no eme xpenxax meent. xannere
erpa mne ann ocmorpert ero xanar. anar +ror yxe nerxn, no ra-
xo ontmo n rxxent, uro no onomy +romy x morna cynrt o nc-
nonnncxom pocre +roro ymnoro, antnonnnoro napx. a nnctmennom
crone croxna ouent rxxenax, xaxercx uyrynnax, uepnnntnnna, x xo-
ropo na nenouxe tna npnxpennena nectma ynecncrax pyuxa,- x
ne morna nocrnrnyrt, xax moxno tno yepxart rpemx nantnamn
raxym rxxenym pyuxy. oxasann mne n nerxym ynnxy~, c xoro-
po otuno nporynnnancx erp: ona raxxe nmena nectma nnymn-
rentnt nn, ecnn npnnxrt no nnnmanne ee npounocrt n ynecnc-
rocrt.
tnme napcxo rpanesno~ xomnare n crapom y]ere croxno
necxontxo oxanon, xax x noymana. ne cxasann, uro +ro napcxne
xyxn, xoropte erp nonocnn cnonm rocrxm, npenapnrentno na-
nonnnn nx nnnom nnn npocro pyccxo cnnyxo. Ftnn ryr xyxn
Fontmoro opna~, nmemanmne nnrp n ontme cnnyxn.
am cxasann (a x n cama unrana o +rom pantme), uro, xora
erp rnenancx na xoro-nnyt ns cnonx nponnnnnmnxcx npnnnxen-
ntx, on sacrannxn nx sannom ntnnnart ontmo mrpa]no xyox.
+rom mysee nam rax xe, xax n n yccxom, ne nsmenxno cuacrte.
o ncemy nopny nac conponoxan nayunt corpynnx mysex, pas-
pemax mne ocmarpnnart pyxamn pemnrentno nce. nnsy mt samnn
axe n xyxnm n ocmorpenn racrapnnnym nnnry, xornt, orpomnt
yrmr n eme xoe-xaxym ynenenmym xyxonnym yrnapt, no xoropo x
morna cocrannrt cee npecrannenne o neotxnonenno npocrore n
omamne xnsnn napx erpa.
arem mt nonxnnct na nropo +rax - n noxon xarepnnt 1, n
sect, xax n nnnsy, nce tno ouent npocro n npouno. am yxasann
na neut, xoropo nontsonanact cama xarepnna 1 n rex cnyuaxx,
xora erp xenan nponecrn necxontxo uacon na nononnne xent c
nem n cnonmn ertmn. ora xarepnna cama pasorpenana xymantx
n yromana erpa. onounnantne xarepnnt nam noxasann ontmym
crapym xponart, xoropax necxontxo nanomnnana mne nmntxy, rax xax
nmeer no oxam saropoxn~. ocmorpena raxxe oexno n nepnny -
onn yxe ouent nerxn x npocrt... oxasann mne concem xpoxornym
ercxym xontent, n xoropo cnann ern erpa, n ocoennocrn ero
nmnmt ctnnmxa, xoroporo mart n oren snann mmeuxa - erx,
ermmeuxa, orcma mmeuxa. o x ontmomy oropuennm erpa,
mantunx ymep (ne nomnm rouno, n xaxom nospacre).
nomxny eme o rom, uro x ocmorpena neontmo rpon xare-
pnnt 1. n o cnx nop onontno npouen, n na nem coxpannnact ap-
xarnax onnxa. xpenocrn rpona x morna cynrt no romy, uro ne
rontxo nsomna na ne crynentxn ero, no axe nocnena napy mnnyr.
na rpone nepno poccncxo napnnt - pasymeercx, nonyunn npena-
pnrentno paspemenne or +xcxypconoa oroxnyrt nemnoxxo~.
a +rom n saxonunnact nama yaunax n npnxrnax +xcxypcnx n er-
nn nopen erpa 1.
~
anno x yxe ana cee cnono, uro ecnn noey xora-nnyt n e-
nnnrpa, ro nenpemenno notnam n xnaprnpe ymxnna. ax x n
cenana.
rennt conneunt ent mt, no otxnonennm, ornpannnnct na
+xcxypcnm. pox nexcanponcxn ca, n xoropom x nnuero ne
morna ocmorpert, xorx ram ecrt nponsneennx cxyntnrypt, mt na-
npannnnct na oxy, re nomemaercx om, n xoropom xora-ro xnn
n ymep ymxnn. nycrnnmnct na necxontxo crynenex nnns, x, omy-
rnn sanax nonantno ctpocrn, neoymenana: neyxenn sect xnn
ymxnn? orpynnxn mysex-xnaprnpt ymxnna npnrnacnnn nac
nanepx. xasanoct, uro nnnsy nomemannct rontxo npnxoxax, xyxnx
n npou. ymxnn co cnoe cemte xnn nanepxy. 3ro necxontxo ycno-
xonno menx, rem onee uro xnaprnpa ymxnna tna xort n ne ouent
nennxa, no nce xe cocroxna ns necxontxnx xomnar. 1? ontmomy co-
xanennm, n xnaprnpe coxpannnoct mano neme, xoroptmn nontso-
nancx ymxnn. emnoro meenn, uact n nne xonecnnnt, ecnn ne
omnamct, c amypamn, nexoropte xnnrn n pyrne nesnaunrentnte
nemn - nor n nce, uro ocranoct ns ocranonxn. mysee mnoro ]o-
rorpa]nuecxnx cnnmxon, na nnx - ern, xena n pystx ymxnna.
ne raxxe noxasann npocrym rpocrt ymxnna, c xoropo on conep-
man cnon nporynxn, naxoxct na xnom epery ptma n anxasa.
necxontxo mnnyr epxana n pyxax +ry npocrym nanxy n ymana:
or x ne npnxacannct pyxn ymxnna... ax mne xant, uro ero re-
nept ner~.
t npomnn no ncem xomnaram, +xcxypcono nam ronopnn, uro
tno n xaxo xomnare npn xnsnn ymxnna, a xora mt npoxo-
nnn uepes ry xomnary, n xoropo croxn rpo c renom ymxnna, x
crynana menenno n rnxo, cnonno oxnact pasynrt xoro-ro. ryr
mne ncnomnnnoct, xax ymxnn nncan o rom, uro, xora on xonn no
paspymennomy xancxomy nopny n Faxuncapae, emy uynnoct, yro
n tnmnx noxoxx rapema noxpyr nero neramr ymn apnn n a-
pemt:
...nn apnx n apema - onn cuacrnnnte meurt...
ror ent y nac ocrananoct eme cnoonoe npemx o neuepa, n
mt pemnnn norn n caaxnencxn coop, re roxe ecrt neontmo
myse. +rom mysee x mano uro nnena. Fonee ncero mne nonpann-
nnct nexoropte pente]nte nsopaxennx na nxonocracax, crenax n
nepxx coopa. nx nomnm n ceuac. ax, nanpnmep, x ocmorpena
pente]nte ]nrypxn cnxmennnxon, mnaennen n xenmnn. cx +ra
rpynna nsopaxana opx xpemennx, n x, naroapx romy uro oc-
morpena +rn ]nrypxn, snam renept, xax nponcxonna +ra ranncr-
nennax nponeypa~. onom mecre mnaenna rontxo onycxann n xy-
nent, a n pyrom - cnxmennnx, epxa n pyxe noxnnnt, rxnyncx x
rononxe yxe ntnyroro ns xynenn mnaenna. anee . . noxasana
mne pente]nym ]nrypxy n cxasana, uro +ro pncroc. nauana oc-
marpnnart ]nrypxy n cama onapyxnna, uro +ro yxe pacnxrt na
xpecre mnnmt ctn oxn~. pecr tn nonepxen na semnm, pn-
croc nexan ronono nnns, n na ero pyxax n norax, npnrnoxenntx x
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xpecry, x onapyxnna mnxnxn or rnose. ce +ro nponsneno na
menx rxxenoe nneuarnenne. e noromy, urot x neponana n pacnx-
roro pncra, a noromy, uro noome npecrannna cee, xax yxacna
tna +ra myunrentnax xasnt.
ox nourn nect coop, re, mexy npounm, tno ouent xo-
nono, mt pacxpapnnnct n nsymann nsopartcx na ntmxy. na-
uana nce ocroxno narononyuno, no, uem ntme mt nonnmannct,
rem yxe n xpyue cranonnnact necrnnna, onnnmaxcx nnnrom noxpyr
ronxoro xenesnoro crona. pox npnnnsnrentno nononnny nce
necrnnnt, mt ntmnn na xptmy n npncenn oroxnyrt. nmo nac
npoxonnn nmn, x omymana nx marn, corpxcenne xenesa, noxptna-
mmero xptmy, n nnauane ouent oxnact: mne nce npemx xasanoct,
uro nor-nor xptma nponannrcx n mt ynaem nnns...
roxnyn, mt cnona nauann nonnmartcx. o necrnnna c xax-
tm nponerom asanact nam yxe n xpyue, a nmn mnn ro nnns, ro
nnepx, n x yxacno oxnact, uro, cenan xaxoe-nnyt nenepnoe nn-
xenne, ocrynnmct II crpemrnan noneuy nnns. ryr eme . . naua-
na ronopnrt, uro y nee xpyxnrcx ronona na ntcore n yuamenno ter-
cx cepne. o xonna necrnnnt ocranancx onn nponer, n mt tnn
t na ntmxe, no cnepxy yn ouent cnntnt nerep, nmn recnnnn
pyr pyra n ysxom npoxoe. . . cenanoct concem nnoxo, n ona
naorpes orxasanact nrn antme. moemy crty, +ro nonnnxno n
na menx, n mt - cosnamct n +rom - nosopno exann, cnema nnns,
crpannoe eno, c xaxtm ocrannenntm nosan nepexoom, axe c
xaxo crynentxo, x oneruenno nstxana n mtcnenno paona-
nact romy, uro mt cnycxaemcx nce nnxe n nnxe n renept yxe ne
rax crpamno ynacrt.
nnsy x concem ycnoxonnact, xorx ne ouent xopomo uyncrnonana
cex nepe nmtmn - crpycnna n antme ne nomna! o saro
nnnsy tno rax cnoxono npn mtcnn, uro x nnxya ne ynay, n ro-
nona y menx nepecrana xpyxnrtcx. 3ro paccmemnno menx: net x
axe ne nnena rnasamn, na xaxo ntcore mt naxonnnct, a nnmt
mtcnenno nomnnna npoennoe namn paccroxnne, npecrannxna ero
n, noanmnct romy, uro . . nnoxo cex nouyncrnonana, roxe nc-
nyranact,- cunram, uro +ro nectma nnrepecnt ncnxonornuecxn
marepnan...
xe na ynnne x, myrx, cxasana cnonm cnyrnnxam: Fyem ncem
ronopnrt, uro nonxnnct o xonna necrnnnt n notnann na ntm-
xe...~
t mnoro rynxnn no ropoy. Ftnn na naepexno ont, re x
ne yepxanact n onycrnna pyxy n noy, soponaxct c eno~, ry-
nxnn n ernem cay n npoxonnn uepes apcono none.
rpomnoe yonontcrnne ocrannna mne noesxa n ennnrpa. cno-
mnnam o ne uacro, xax o xpacnno, xopomo nanncanno cxasxe!..



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pecrannxm nn x nnera
nornx spxunx upesntuano nnrepecyer nonpoc: mory nn x npe-
crannrt ror nnn nno nner? exoropte axe cnpamnnann: nentsx
nn c nomomtm ocxsannx pasnnuart nnera?
a oa +rn nonpoca x orneuam: oneuno, ner~. o nocxontxy x
nontsymct xstxom spxunx, ro o pasnnuntx nnerax n nx orrenxax
ronopm remn xe cnonamn, xaxnmn npnnxro o nnx ronopnrt.
pecrannxrt nnera mne ouent xouercx, n xora x tna nomo-
noxe, ro uacro npncranana x cnonm nnsxnm, urot onn oxcnnnn
mne pasnnunte nnera. anpnmep, onaxt mne cmnnn xopomee
mepcrxnoe nnarte n cxasann, uro ono nnera xo]e c. monoxom.
o ]acony nnarte mne ouent npannnoct, no+romy ocoenno xorenoct
snart: xaxo xe +ro xo]ent nner? ne ornernnn:
- onepmenno raxo, xax xo]e c monoxom. pecrannxemt?
oneuno, x npecrannna uamxy ropxuero xo]e c monoxom, npe-
crannna axe sanax n nxyc xo]e, no rontxo ne nner,- nmecro nnera
mne npecrannxnoct moe nnarte, xoropoe x ouent rmarentno omy-
ntnana, xorx snana, uro c nomomtm nantnen x ne n cocroxnnn ynn-
ert xo]ent nner.
pyro pas x cnpocnna, xaxoro nnera mo map], n ysnana, uro
on necounoro nnera.
- axo xe +ro necount nner? - cnpocnna x.
- axo, xax necox. pecrannxemt?
ne ouent xcno npecrannncx necox n namem cay, xoropt pe-
xrnmxn pacctnann nonarxamn n neepxamn. arem mne npecra-
nnncx eper pexn, mnoro nnaxnoro n xononoro necxa. axonen,
npecrannncx snaxomt nnxx na epery mopx c cyxnm ropxunm
necxom, n xoropt x saptnam norn, no c npecrannennem o necou-
nom nnere raxxe nnuero ne nonyunnoct. trannct mne eme oxc-
nnrt senent nner, cpannnnax ero c rpano nnn nncrtxmn na e-
pentxx: n x npnnomnnana rpany nnn nncrtx, no ne onee roro.
W
oonax xe ncropnx nonropnnact npn oxcnennn annxorn-
noro nnera: n moem noopaxennn nosnnxnn narperte connnem y-
mncrte apnxoct, xoropte x cptnam c nerox n ryr xe ceam, no
+ro ornmt ne nomorno mne n cmtcne npecrannennx nnera apnxo-
con.
apnxocontm nnerom onaxt nponsomen axe manentxn
xyptes. na ne ouent rpamornax xenmnna xonna co mno no mara-
snnam - x ncxana marepnan na nernee nnarte. axonen, nam no-
nancx mn]on. nnxora ne xynnm nn roronoro nnartx, nn rxann, ne
ysnan npenapnrentno nx nnera. ax n n annom cnyuae x cnpocnna
y moe cnyrnnnt, xaxoro nnera mn]on.
- npxocont,-ynepenno orneuana ona.
antme x nnxora ne cntmana o raxom nnere, no+romy nexoro-
poe npemx x-croxna n neoymennn, crapaxct npnnomnnrt, uro +ro sa
nner. ncnomnnna cnona aeppannx~, acrpaxnnx~, no nn ono ns
+rnx cnon ne oxcnnno mne anpxoconoro~ nnera. ne pemnnact
part mn]on n nonpocnna norn co mno n pyro marasnn. a
ynnne x ycnnenno pasmtmnxna o +rom nonom nasnannn nnera, na-
xonen, ne ntepxana n oparnnact x moe cnyrnnne:
- onropnre: xaxoro nnera mn]on?
- npxoconoro,- nocneonan orner.
- Ftrt moxer, nt xornre cxasart apnxoconoro~ or cnona
apnxoc~?
- a, a! xe nam nce npemx ronopm, uro mn]on anpxo-
cont...
cnomnnn, uro mnornm spxunm xenmnnam npannrcx apnxoco-
nt nner, x nepnynact n marasnn n xynnna orpes mn]ona.
ananax
ora x eme ne tna snaxoma c ananamn, mne, npnntxme x
namnm ]pyxram, npecrannxnoct, uro onn onxnt trt xpyrntmn
nnn nemnoro npoonronartmn, nanoone rpym, c ronxo xoxnne,
xoropym moxno ne cnnmart, a npocro nomtrt. ennxo tno moe
ynnnenne, xora x nnepnte ynnena~ anant. nnxax ne oxna-
na, uro nnyrpennxx nexnax uacrt nnoon saxnmuena n raxym ron-
crym xoxypy, xoropax necxontxo nanomnnana mne roncrte crpyuxn
xaxnx-ro crpanntx oon. anax n nxyc ananon npecrannxncx
mne - roxe no npnntuxe x namnm ]pyxram - nourn raxnm xe, xax
n ncex snaxomtx mne nnoon.
ne xasanoct, uro anant onxnt trt countmn n npnxrno
xncno-cnaxnmn, ocnexammnmn.
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ora xe x cena anan, rp, npnsnamct, on mne ne ocoenno
nonpannncx. exoropte yrnepxamr, uro no nxycy n sanaxy anant
noxoxn na tnn, no, na mo nsrnx,-a x ontmax nmnrentnnna
tnt - xopomax tnx necpannenno ymncree, counee n nxycnee.
txna~
apnx nxonaenna nonena menx x ro xnyme, na xoropo
mxontnnxn ycrponnn oropo. nauana ocmarpnnart ro, uro yxe
nsomno. yxa narxnynact na neontmo xycrnx. a omynt nncrtx
noxasannct mne noxoxnmn na nncrtx rtxnt. moem npecrannennn
n ry xe mnnyry nosnnxna rtxna n ee crenmmncx no semne cre-
ent. o ro pacrenne, uro x cmorpena, rxnynoct npxmo nnepx: +ro
cmyrnno menx, nce xe x neynepenno cxasana:
- txna?
- er, manentxn noconnyx.
- o noconnyxe ne noymana, nepnee, ne ycnena noymart,
noromy uro mne cpasy npecrannnact rtxna, n x mtcnenno ynnn-
nact, nouemy rtxna pacrer npxmo, a ne crenercx no semne.
arnonnx n post
nono marnonnx~ nourn ncera nocxpemaer n moe namxrn ony
xaprnny,
ne npecrannxercx nernee yrpo, n moe xomnare pacxptro oxno,
n xoropoe nmecre c conneuntmn nyuamn nnnnaercx uncrt yrpennn
nosyx. ynpam xomnary. euac x oruernnno ncnomnnam xaxt
npemer, naxonnmncx n +ro xomnare. cnn norn c nnomaxn
necrnnnt, ro nanpano cronr xponart, na nem na crene ontmo
apente] ymxnna, crennte uact nx cnentx, pamxn co cnnmxamn
ptma n anxasa. npecrannxm rontxo pamxn, a coepxanne
cnnmxon - nnmt no cnonam spxunx. Ftna, nnpouem, penpoyxnnx
xant~ nasoncxoro, xoropym x npecrannxm rax, yro omymam
no pyxo rnepym n mepoxonarym neponnym nonepxnocrt cxant.
na ne cnxy. xana onontno ntcoxax c ro cropont, xoropax
naercx npxmo n mope. cxany ecnpeptnno pasnnamrcx nonnt,
oanax menx ptsramn. ncnomnnam cxany na epery mopx n
ecce. coenno x nmnna cnert na ne, xora naunnancx mropm
n nonnt nourn ocrnrann nepmnnt cxant. onycxana nnns pyxn,
nexa na cxane, n npnnnmana n cnon oxrnx~ ymymmee mope.
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ora x o +rom nnmy ceuac, ro c nopasnrentno xcnocrtm noc-
xpemam n namxrn +ry cxany, mope, ero sanaxn... xax xe cnntno
x nnont xouy nepexnrt nce +ro!.. o npoonxam onncanne moe
xomnart.
a xponartm cronr mn]ontepxa, a norom naunnaercx napyxnax
crena, n nor pacxptroe oxno. epe nnm neontmo cronnx c xom-
narntmn nneramn, na oxnax roxe nnert.
exy cronnxom n ontmnm nnctmenntm cronom cronr ntcoxax
nocranxa c mcrom ymxnna. nnctmennoro crona na xpecna, a
na crone mamnnxa, ymarn, xnnrn n ontmo mcr optxoro. a cro-
nom naneno - nept n nnnorexy, a antme nnan c ntcoxo
cnnnxo.
ne xaxercx, uro x noouepeno noxoxy ro x onomy, ro x py-
romy npemery; onn mne rax snaxomt, uro x nnmt cnerxa x nnm
npnxacamct n orxoxy. pecrannxercx mne axe non, noxptrt
nnnoneymom, na xoropom tn pente]nt ysop n nne manentxnx
yropxon nnn xnaparnxon.
xouy npecrannrt, uro xo mne xro-ro cryunrcx n nept. (e-
uac sa creno ecrnnrentno xro-ro cryunr, +ror cryx x omymam
uepes non, n +ro eme ontme ycnnnnaer nnnmsnm.) orxptnam
nept. roponna noaer mne ontmo yxer, no ne nneron, a nerox
c nncrtxmn, necxontxo noxoxnmn na nncrtx ]nxyca. ocmarpnnam
yxer n onapyxnnam na nem ontmne, npoonronaro ]opmt y-
ront. n neoymennn: uro xe +ro raxoe? pnxonr nnx na-
nonna n ronopnr:
- outm npnexana ns yance nexcanpa ntnnnuna. na
npnnesna ree nerxn marnonnn c yronamn.
- eyxenn y marnonnn raxne ontmne nncrtx? ymana, uro
onn menxne n xaxo-nnyt ocoenno ]opmt. yront npoonro-
narte, snaunr, nnert yyr n ]opme oxanon, npnnnsnrentno xax
y nnnnn.
necxontxo ynnnena. ne paccxastnann, uro y marnonnn ont-
mne nnert, ouent cnntno naxnyr, no x npecrannxna n nncrtx n
nnert ne raxnmn. ncrtx npecrannxnnct mne nourn xpyrntmn n
nexntmn, a nnert n ]opme ontmnx napnnccon; mne uynncx axe
sanax, roxe nemnoro nanomnnammn napnncct, rontxo ropaso o-
nee cnntnt n npnxrnt. uepes necxontxo ne yront pacxpt-
nnct - x tna ouaponana nacroxmnm nnom nneron marnonnn n ee
uyecntm apomarom,
rex nop y menx npannntnoe npecrannenne o marnonnn n ee
sanaxe. nycrx mnoro ner x ortxana n canaropnn n yance, ora
mne nnepnte noxasann nerxy c nnerxom, x cpasy ysnana, uro +ro mar-
nonnx, ysnana axe npexe, uem npnxocnynact x nerxe, no omy-
rnna ee sanax...
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posamn y menx cnxsano ouent mnoro nocnomnnann; ecnn t x
nsymana nce +ro onncart, ro, nanepnoe, nonyunnact t nenax xnn-
xeuxa... uepa na ynnne mt npoxonnn mnmo npoanmnnt nneron, n
apnx nxonaenna noxasana mne post. ry xe mnnyry n moe
namxrn nosnnx onn +nnso n cnonno npenparnncx n xaprnny, na xo-
ropym x nect +ror ent cmorpena nnyrpennnm nsopom.
unrana n cnoe xomnare (eno tno nernnm neuepom), xo mne
nocryuann, n, xora x orxptna nept, n xomnary nomen onn mo
snaxomt n npenonec mne yxer uyecntx pos - nnepnte n o-
cxne x nnena raxne pocxomnte nnert. ne n ceuac ouent xcno
npecrannxercx rpanent xynmnn c posamn. nn pas snaxomt
nonec post x moemy nnny, no nenonxnm nnxennem x orcrpannna
xynmnn n nponnna nemnoro not na nnarte.
o xpue ncero mne ncnomnnaercx nor uro: x onxna tna npono-
nrt snaxomoro o xptntna, urot sanepert nxonym nept. nom-
nnna, uro n +ror neuep nonecnna xnmu na mrencent na cronnxom.
ora snaxomt oromen x crony, urot nsxrt cno nopr]ent (on
tn spxun), x ocranonnnact cpen xomnart, npecrannna cee
creny, ro mecro na cronnxom, re nomemancx mrencent, axe npo-
no n mrencent, na xoropom nncen xnmu. arem, ne enax nn onoro
nnmnero mara, nn onoro nnmnero nnxennx pyxo, x c ynepenno-
crtm noomna x cronnxy, no ne npnxacanact x nemy, snax, uro cro-
nnx cronr nmenno sect. nporxnyna pyxy x mrencenm n tcrpo
cnxna xnmu.
naxomt nnen moe nnxenne n tn ouent ynnnen rem, uro x
c raxo ynepennocrtm n rounocrtm cnxna xnmu. mexy rem n
+rom ner nnuero ynnnrentnoro. xopomo snaxomo mne ocranonxe
xaxoe moe nnxenne paccunrano na onpeenennt npemer, axe
1 na onpeenennym rouxy, xoropym x mtcnenno ncera nnxy nepe
1 coo, n nmo momenr npecrannxm n, naxoxct na nmom paccrox-
1 nnn, npecrannxm ncm xomnary n nenom n xaxt npemer n or-
1 entnocrn.
mnmose
rom, uro cymecrnyer pacrenne mnmosa, x, xoneuno, cntmana~
anno, pantme, uem ynnena nerouxn mnmost. nauana x axe ne
snana, uro +ro raxoe - xycrt nnn epentx, rem- ne menee npecran-
nxna +ro pacrenne n nne pacxnncroro xycra, c nncrtxmn npnmepno
raxo ]opmt, xax y cmoponnt, a nnert mnmost npecrannxnnct
mne n ]opme ouent manentxnx posouex, raxnx manentxnx, xaxnmn
tnamr camte manentxne nyronnnt.
ora xe mne nnepnte npenonecnn nerxy nneryme mnmost
(x romy npemenn x yxe snana sanax yxon nmosa~), x npocro ne
nonepnna, uro +ro mnmosa, noymana, uro nao mno nomyunnamr.
nnena~ x menxne nncrtx n concem manentxne nnerouxn. ax
cxpomna tna +ra nerouxa no cpannennm c remn ntmntmn n napx-
ntmn nerxamn, xoropte npecrannxnnct mne!
o +ra onnoxax nerouxa npyr noxasanact mne nouemy-ro snaxo-
mo... or ouent rymanno, neonpeenenno opncontnancx xaxo-ro
nexcnt opas - cnauana n nne nayrnnt, n nne ronuame xncen,
norom xax cerxa, norom xax nanouxn. anee noopaxenne napnco-
nano orentnte nerxn, n, naxonen, nenoe epeno nosnnxno n moem
npecrannennn. nor mne crano npnnomnnartcx, uro eme n pannem
ercrne, re-ro na mre, x nsopanact na saop nanncannxa, noromy
uro omymana ouent npnxrnt sanax uero-ro. uero nmenno? e snam.
Ftno nn oro necno nnn nerom, ne mory cxasart, x n ro npemx tna
ouent mana nx roro, urot cosnanart pasnnny mexy renno mx-
no necno n nerom. omnm, uro tno renno, nor n nce.
ceuac x npecrannxm cee ror momenr, xora x, concem ma-
nentxax, c ontmnmn ycnnnxmn n, nanepnoe, pasptnax nnarte, xa-
paxanact na saop n npnxacanact pyxamn x nnxnnm nerxam xaxo-
ro-ro epena c menxnmn nncrtxmn n c eme onee menxnmn nnerou-
xamn, xoropte rax npnxrno naxnn. ouent nonmnna +ro epeno n
xpannna o nem nocnomnnannx, xax o uem-ro nnsxom n oporom mo-
emy cepny. a, nanepnoe, +ro tna mnmosa, noromy uro noapennax
mne nerouxa ouent tna noxoxa na re nerxn, uro x ocmarpnnana na
epene.
o cnx nop x ne n cocroxnnn ncnomnnrt, re x rora naxon-
nact, xora nnena +ro epeno, cxontxo mne tno ner n r. ., no x
ncera ncnomnnam o +rom epene, xora ymam o mre.
ax-ro n ocxne n xonne mapra, xora eme ymenana merent, xo
mne samna ona npnxrentnnna, c xoropo x n ro npemx tna ouent
pyxna n, xcrarn, npecrannxna ce ouent xopomentxo n cront xe
opo n uyrxo; ona npenonecna mne nent yxer mnmost. ne-
xana ontnax n no+romy tna ocoenno rponyra ee nnnmannem. o
+ror yxer npoynn n moe namxrn nent po nocnomnnann n
npecrannenn. nont n nnont npecrannxnoct mne moe nmnmoe
epeno, a raxxe mon noesxn na mr, xora x yxe tna cosnarentno
n nonnmana oxpyxammee. naroapnocrt sa yxer mnmost x na-
nncana npnxrentnnne necxontxo crpox cnonx crnxon, xoropte naun-
nannct rax:
t npnmnn xo mne c yxerom
exno naxnyme mnmost,
renntm, pyxecxnm npnnerom,
ax necno npnxoxr rpest...
onuannct xe crnxn rax:
am yxer, mox nopyra,
poynn no mne xenante
nert xnsnt ponoro mra,
cnomnnrt mnte meurantx.
nnanax
e pas mne npnxonnoct unrart nnn cntmart o rom, uro ua
ntmr ns nnan. nant npecrannxnnct mne n nne ontmnx uam c
nymx pyuxamn no oxam nx roro, urot nx moxno tno part oe-
nmn pyxamn. yuxn +rn oxnartnann uamy or xpaen o ontmxa n
npecrannxnnct mne n nne nepennerenntx nnnn, nanoone ne
concem npannntntx pemerouex.
ora xe mne onenoct y onnx snaxomtx ynnert nacroxmne
nnant, x nx ne ysnana - onn oxasannct concem es pyuex n na-
crontxo nennxn, uro mne rpyno tno epxart ono pyxo nnany c
uaem. ce xe no nennunne onn ycrynann rem nnanam, xoropte npe-
crannxnnct mne pantme.
oro mne nanomnnana npnuecxa . .
naxt . ., cnx nepe sepxanom, npnymtnana ncenosmox-
nte nnt npnuecox. xax pas x ne noomna n +ro npemx, n ona
ana mne ocmorpert xaxoe-ro coopyxenne ns nonoc. anno unrana
pomant . mma (a n ne rontxo mma), n xoroptx onnctnannct
npnuecxn n ryanert npnnopntx am. cmorpen nonym npnuecxy
. " x xnno npecrannna cee napnx (nacroxmnx napnxon x nn-
xora ne nnena) n npnuecxn, a-nno ntmemne ns mot.
- t noxoxn na npnnopnym amy monnxa XIV,- cxasana x.
. . sacmexnact:
- ouemy nt rax ymaere? asne nt tnn snaxomt xorx t c
ono amo nopa monnxa XIV?
- er, x ram ne tna, no snam, uro c raxo npnuecxo nac ne-
npemenno t onycrnnn xo nopy xoponx.
uem menx cnpamnnamr
uent mnorne spxune, ne yyun snaxomt co cnentmn, saamr
mne nent px raxnx nonpocon: ro nam ntnpaer oexy no nnery
n ]acony? ro coneryer nam xynnrt nmenno +ro, a ne pyroe nna-
160
161
axas 812
rte? ro nonpaer ocranonxy n npouee ypancrno nx name xom-
nart? ro paccrannxer n xomnare meent? ouemy npemert croxr
nmenno rax, a ne nnaue?~ n r. .
cnn x orneuam, uro nourn nce ntnpam cama, na menx cmorpxr
(xax mne nepeamr o +rom) c ontmnm neoymennem, a sauacrym
npocro c neonepnem. naxo xe +ro rax.
cnn x noxynam n marasnne, nanpnmep, roronoe nnarte, x net
mory ocmorpert ero n cxasart, npannrcx nn mne ]acon n xax ono na
mne cnnr. ce +ro x ornnuno nocnpnnnmam pyxamn n momenrantno
npecrannxm, noxonr nn mne nnarte. nnere xe mne ronopxr, xo-
neuno, spxune. o cnon cnonx nnsxnx x yxe anno snam, xaxne
nnera mne x nnny, n crapamct npnepxnnartcx mnennx rex pyse,
xoropte yxe npnrnxennct xo mne n nnery. nora nnna, conponox-
ammne menx n marasnn, ronopxr, uro nner raxoro-ro nnartx nnn xo-
crmma ouent mne x nnny, uro nnarte cnnr nennoxo, n r. . o ecnn
mne nnuno xaxercx, uro nnarte na mne ne rax xopomo, xax xaxercx
spxunm,- ysxo nnn mnpoxo, xoporxo nnn nnnno - x +ro nemn ne
xynnm.
o xe camoe nponcxonr npn noxynxe ncex pyrnx npemeron.
ntnpam xauecrno, ]acon, ]opmy, pasmep n np., a o couerannn
nneron mne ronopxr spxune. coxanennm, y xaxoro spxuero cno
nxyc n, ecnn t x crana ntcnymnnart ncex spxunx, ro, nanepnoe, nn-
xora t nnuero ne xynnna. +rnx cnyuaxx x ntnpam nyx-rpex
uenonex n ysnam, npanxrcx nn nx nxyct pyrnm spxunm; n ecnn ont-
mnncrno pasenxer nx nxyc, ro c mnennem +ro noxn nnn rpoxn x
cunramct ontme, uem c mnennem pyrnx nme.
ornomennn paccranonxn meenn n xomnare x uame ncero no-
crynam no cocrnennomy ycmorpennm, ncxox ns roro, uro nx menx
yono nnn neyono. pexe uem paccrannrt nemn, x onxna rma-
rentno nsyunrt xomnary. ontxo nocne +roro x uyncrnym cex co-
nepmenno cnoono n cnoe xomnare. cnn xe y menx tnamr spx-
une rocrn n, satnax o rom, uro x ne nnxy, nponsnoxr n xomnare
ecnopxox - pocxr cryn cpen xomnart, nocranxr nocyy ne ram,
re otuno crannm x,- menx +ro paspaxaer, n x orxastnamct no-
nnmart, nouemy spxunm rax npannrcx ecnopxox. naxt no-
pyra nnna noy n ocrannna uamxy na xpam crona. xe tna yne-
pena, uro uamxa cronr na cnoem otunom mecre. xorena crepert
co crona xpomxn, pasmaxnynmnct pyxo, cnannna uamxy na non, ona
pasnnact.
paccepnnact na nopyry:
- t ne xouemt nonxrt, uro x ne morna ysnart, uro uamxa
cronr na xpam crona... et nx menx ona ncera na cnoem npnntu-
nom mecre, n x nporxrnnam pyxy concem ne n ry cropony, re rt oc-
rannna uamxy.
162
opyra nectma nerxomtcnenno orneuana:
- rt npnntxa x romy, uro x mory ocrannrt uamxy ram, re
mne nsymaercx.
- t ronopnmt ouent crpanno, satnaemt, uro nmeemt eno c
nespxunm uenonexom. nx rex xax nx spxue ne cocrannr ont-
moro rpya onnm nsrnxom oxnnyrt xomnary n ynnert nyxnym
ree nemt. mt, cnente, ecnn nemt nepecrannena es npeynpex-
ennx, ne npecrannxem roro mecra, na xoropom ona cronr, mt npe-
crannxem ee na crapom mecre n, ecnn ne naxonm ram ee, onxnt
norparnrt nnorra nemano ycnnn, urot narn ro, uro nam nyxno...
I I
rpose n ryuax
cnn x naxoxyct n xomnare n xro-nnyt npeynpexaer menx
o rom, uro naunnaercx rposa, x otuno noxoxy x oxny n xnay pyxy
na crexno, urot omymart yapt rpoma.
rax, noopasnre cee cneymmym xaprnny: nauanact rposa, x
crom y oxna, npnnoxnn naonn x crexny. omymam nnpannm
crexna npn cnntntx yapax rpoma. cnn x ne orxptnam ]oprouxy
nx roro, urot nocnpnnxrt oxt n noptnt nerpa, a rontxo omy-
mam yapt rpoma, ro mne npecrannxercx, uro crexna nnpnpymr
or mnornx yapon xaxoro-ro uyonnmno cnntnoro cymecrna, xoro-
poe rax anexo naxonrcx or semnn, uro spxune nmn ne n cocrox-
nnn ero nnert, a x ne mory ocmorpert pyxamn. 3ro cymecrno npe-
crannxercx mne ouent ontmnm n conepmenno ec]opmenntm (n
ecrnnrentnocrn x, xoneuno, snam, oruero nponcxonr rpom n mon-
nnx, no xora x omymam yapt rpoma, ro npecrannxm nmenno cy-
mecrno) . o axe npn nanpxxennn ncero moero noopaxennx x nn-
xax ne mory npecrannrt cee nn oema, nn ]opmt +roro cyme-
crna. omymam nnmt ero orpomnym cnny no xoneannxm nosyxa,
yapxmmero n oxonnoe crexno. ora nnpannn cranonxrcx cnntnee
n uame, mne xaxercx, uro cymecrno naxonrcx concem nnsxo or
oxna: xora xe nnpannx cnaee n pexe, ono yanxercx or oxna.
o ecnn x ntcynyct n orxptrym (]oprouxy n xpome yapon rpoma
yy nocnpnnnmart eme oxt n nerep, moe npecrannenne o rpose
oxaxercx necxontxo nntm: ec]opmennoe cymecrno~ xax yro nc-
uesner.
ocnpnnnmax ononpemenno oxt, nerep n nnpannn crexna, x
yxe ne mory pasposnnrt +rn omymennx, a nocnpnnnmam xnnenne n
nenom, xax otunoe n npnntunoe. o ecnn spxun uenonex cxaxer
mne n +ro npemx, uro cnepxaer monnnx, ro y menx ne nosnnxner nnxa-
xoro npecrannennx o monnnn - conepmenno rax xe, xax ne nosnn-
xamr npecrannennx o nynnom n snesnom cnere.
ora-ro, naxoxct no cnexnm nneuarnennem ouent cnntno
ypn, x nanncana crnxornopenne posa~. xonne crnxornopennx x
ynomnnana monnnm, noromy uro o ne mne nncan onn mo snaxomt,
1 xoropt, naxoxct sa ropoom, nanman ry xe rposy, uro x nocnpn-
I cnnmana n ocxne. n nncan:
nmy am no axxomnanemenr cnntneme rpost, xoropym,
1 ymam, n nt nanmaere. pom nenpeptnno rpemnr, monnnx cnepxa-
jI er mnpoxnmn, ocrptmn n necrxmnmn xnnnxamn... ncnomnnam, uro
? n raxym rposy n nmne tn ynr epmonron. axax xe rposa onnct-
" naercx n n ntece crponcxoro posa~.
? menno +ro cpannenne monnnn c mnpoxnmn, ocrptmn n necrx-
mnmn xnnnxamn nomorno mne npecrannrt monnnm xax neuro ocx-
saemoe, a ne npocro cnepxammee n nosyxe n ocrynnoe rontxo spn-
rentnomy nocnpnxrnm.
axnm opasom, naroapx mera]opam x nepexo mory npecra-
.. nnrt cee ro, uro neocrynno ocxsannm. o mne xaxercx, uro, npe-
xe uem cneno nauner npecrannxrt oxpyxammee c nomomtm me-
v- ra]op, on onxen snart reomerpnm. Fes maremarnuecxnx n reomer-
.: pnuecxnx nonxrn cnenomy rpyno noopasnrt xaxne-nno ]nrypt,
1. ]opmt n oemt npemeron, a raxxe ropt c xonycoopasntmn nep-
jl mnnamn, nsnnnncrte epera mnpoxnx pex, ant ropnsonra n p.
H ne xouercx raxxe paccxasart o onontno nnrepecnom npecran-
nennn mnom ryun, xoropym onnctnaer ymxnn n cnoem crnxorno-
pennn yua~. ora x unrana nauano crnxornopennx:
;. ocnenxx ryua paccexnno ypn!
na rt necemtcx no xcno nasypn,
na rt nanonmt yntnym rent,
na rt neuannmt nnxymmn ent...,
mne xasanoct, uro x npecrannxm nyun cnntno npnrpenammero nocne
npomeme rpost connna, no uro re-ro n cropone or connna n nos-
yxe nntner remnt (x rontxo mtcnm, uro remnt), xax ronopxr
spxune, ontmo npxmoyrontnnx, xycox xaxo-ro macct nnorno
xoncncrennnn. 3ror xycox nce nnxe n nnxe nonntnaer x connny
n, naxonen, saxptnaer or menx conneunym rennory. et ecnn x ny
no ynnne n naexanmne onaxa nnn ryun saxpomr connne, x cpasy
sameuam nepemeny n nosyxe, no n raxnx cnyuaxx nacrynaer npo-
xnaa. 3ror nepexo or renna x npoxnae n aer mne npecrannenne
o yntno renn~, xoropax neuannr nnxymmn ent~.
anee x unram:
t neo neanno xpyrom onerana,
monnnx rposno rex onnnana;
rt nsanana ranncrnennt rpom
anunym semnm nonna oxem...
. . ymxnn. onn. cop. cou. n 10 romax, r. Ill, crp. 332.
ne npecrannxercx ontmo xpyr nocpen nea (camo neo
npecrannxercx mne nnuem ne orpannuenntm nosymntm npocro-
pom), a no xpaxm +roro xpyra snrsaroopasnte nnnnn necrxme n.
ropxue monnnn. orom or xpyra orenxmrcx ontmne xycxn; onn
nnxyrcx ecnopxouno no ncex nanpannennxx, cranxnnamrcx pyr c
pyrom, oruero pasaercx rpoxor nnn, no ymxnny, ranncrnennt
rpom~.
r cronxnonennx xycxn pasneramrcx, pasnnaxct na mentuamne
uacrnnt, xoropte n naamr na semnm .xonontmn xannxmn oxx.
anee x unram:
onontno, coxpocx! opa mnnonanact,
emnx ocnexnnact, n ypx npomuanact,
nerep, nacxax nncrouxn penec,
ex c ycnoxoenntx ronnr neec.
ne uynrcx, uro +ro ne npocro rpeonanne uenonexa, urot ryua
cxptnact, no uro xaxo-ro nran nonenenaer crnxnxmn npnpot, uro
nran +ror xouer art semne conneunt cner, nor ryua nocnymno
n tcrpo ncuesaer n rnynne nosymnoro oxeana. onnne cnona ne-
ceno cnxer, xapxo npnrpenax semnm. osyx uncr, ynpyr, n rontxo
nerxn, nexamn nerepox cnao xontmer eme nnaxnte or oxx
nncrtx epenten n rononxn nneron.
axnmn mne xaxyrcx naammne mereopt
nerxmem mereope nnn o naennn mereopa y menx na pasnnu-
ntx npecrannennx.
o-nepntx, x npnntxna cntmart or spxunx nme o rom, uro na
nee mnoro snes. naennn mereopa n otenno xnsnn ronopxr:
ynana snesa~, cxarnnact snesa~. +rom cnyuae mne npecran-
nxercx, uro c xaxo-ro neonpeenenno ntcort na semnm naaer
manentxax snesouxa, noxoxax na re snest, o xoroptx x yxe nn-
cana pantme. pnnnxaxct x semne, ona ynennunnaercx n pasmepe,
a xora naaer na semnm, concem ncuesaer - ncuesaer ona rontxo
nx menx, noromy uro x nnxax ne mory noopasnrt nexamym na
semne snesouxy.
o-nroptx, naammn mereop npecrannxercx mne n nne ont-
moro xomnaxrnoro npemera neonpeenenno copmt; x ne npe-
crannxm npemer nn xpyrntm, nn nnnntm, nn xnaparntm - +ro
npocro ontmo onomox or rpomanoro xamnx nnn xaxo-nnyt
pyro rnepo macct.
ameuy xcrarn, uro, xora mne ronopxr o ynanme snese, x ncnt-
rtnam omymenne uero-ro no+rnuecxoro, xpacnnoro, rora xax no nro-
pom cnyuae mne npocro npecrannxercx ynanmn cnepxy onomox.
166
axnmn x npecrannxm cosnesnx Fontmo
n ano enennt
osnesnx Fontmo n ano enennt nepnonauantno x npe-
crannxna rax: re-ro ram na nee - n nosymnom npocrpancrne -
nmeercx mecro, re naxonrcx ontmax snesa, nanomnnammax cno-
nmn oueprannxmn xpynnoe xnnornoe. oxpyr +ro snest pacctnano
mnoro manentxnx snesouex, no nce onn ne noxoxn ona na pyrym
nn no nennunne, nn no oueprannxm.
osnee x ysnana mn]onornuecxoe nponcxoxenne nasnannx co-
snesnx Fontmo enennt, r. e. npounrana o rom, uro nana ns-
rnana ennxy (nnn anncro) ns cnoe cnnrt, a nona npenparnna
ee n menenny. nnrep xe nomecrnn ennxy nmecre c ctnom p-
xacom na neo, re onn opasonann cosnesnx Fontmo n ano
enennt. ocne +roro y menx nosnnxno pyroe npecrannenne o
+rnx cosnesnxx: ntcoxo na semne n nosyxe pacnpocrepro ont-
moe xnnornoe, noxoxee na ro ontmoe uyueno menex, xoropoe x
xax-ro ocmarpnnana. a paccroxnnn nporxnyro pyxn or +ro me-
nennt~ naxonrcx neontmax ]nrypxa pyroro xnnornoro - me-
nexonxa, n nose nrpammero sneptxa. noxpyr nnx xontno manent-
xnx snesouex.
opo, xora x cntmy o cosnesnxx Fontmo n ano ene-
H nnt, mne npecrannxercx conepmenno nnax xnsnennax xaprnna.
] ax-ro mne cnyunnoct unrart o rom, xax n openonmnnonnoe
H npemx npornnnnxn . . optxoro nponnuecxn nposnann nnreparyp-
II nt xpyxox, xoropt nosrnannxn optxn, osnesne Fontmoro
axcnma~. ne +ro ouent nonpannnoct. nor mne npecrannxercx
II, nexce axcnmonnu-raxo ontmo, cnxmmn n opt ueno-
nex. nnr on sa cronom, a noxpyr nero, xax rpynna cnao mepnam-
mnx snesouex, no c mnntmn n nnnmarentntmn nnnamn, ycennct mo-
": note nmn - mnomn n enymxn. nexce axcnmonnu uro-ro nm
paccxastnaer, a onn sauaponanno n naroapno cnymamr ero.
axnm mne npecrannxercx neunt yrt
uro raxoe neunt yrt, x snam, no aconmrno ne npecrannxm
ero raxnm, xaxnm ero nocnpnnnmamr spxune. ora x unram xnnrn o
neunom yrn, mne npecrannxercx, uro ntcoxo-ntcoxo na semne
n nosyxe pacxnnyr ouent nnnnt, no ne mnpoxn xycox ronua-
me, nexno n cnerno xncen - neuro npoe ]nepa. e snam, na-
cxontxo xpacnn +ror neunt yrt, no mne xaxercx, ecnn xncex
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cnernax, a ]on nea remno-cnnn, ro +ro onxno trt xpacnno. ra-
xom couerannn nneron x cntmana or spxunx.
ora x unram n xnnre: Fenen neunt yrt~, x cnauana npe-
crannxm cee monoxo, omymam ero nxyc no pry, no mneunt~ na-
nomnnaer mne cnono monount~. r spxunx mne nsnecrno, uro mo-
noxo enoe, cneonarentno, ra xncex, xoropax npecrannxercx mne
xax neunt yrt, roxe onxna trt eno nnn, no xpane mepe,
xaxoro-ro pyroro cnernoro nnera, nnsxoro x enomy.
pecrannenne o snesax
nera snes x ne omymam n no+romy ne snam, xpxo nnn nexpxo
ropxr onn. oneuno, ns xnnr no acrponomnn mne nsnecrno, uro raxoe
snest, no spnrentno x ne npecrannxm nx ]opmy n nennunny, r. e.
ne npecrannxm raxnmn, xaxnmn nx nnxr spxune.
oneuno, x ne pas nnena ntmnrte na uem-nnyt snesouxn,
nnena snauxn-snesouxn n r. . acroxmne snest xaxyrcx mne
ouent noxoxnmn na nnx. cnn. x noopaxy, uro snest cnnrt ns
sonora, ro onxna onycrnrt, uro onn necrxr, xax sonoro. x pac-
croxnne or semnn x ne npecrannxm, no ecnn nnmy n cnonx crnxax o
snesax, ro nontsymct xstxom spxunx nme, a nnaue n trt ne
moxer.
cnonx crnxax o anxase x nnmy, nanpnmep:
nesa nocxonr sa sneso
ro tmxe oranenno...
oneuno, nnxaxo oranenno tmxn~ x ne npecrannxm, a
nnmt nontsymct xstxom spxunx, xorx +ra oranennax tmxa moxer
cymecrnonart n npnpoe nesanncnmo or roro, npecrannxm x ee nnn
ner. cnonx crnxax o oun x nncana: nnsy ornn, xax snest na
semne...~ rnn x cpannnna co snesamn noromy, uro spxune mne pac-
cxastnann, xax neuepom saxnrannct n ropoe ornn, a na remnom
nee saropannct snest.
rax, x nonropxm, uro mne npnxonrcx nontsonartcx na xax-
om mary xstxom spxunx n cntmamnx nme. et ne cymecrnyer
xe orentnoro xstxa nx cnentx n rnyxonemtx.
ectma uacro mon npecrannennx tnamr cront mnmonernt, uro
nourn ycxontsamr or moero nnnmannx. naxo x crapamct npn no-
momn nocroxnnoro anannsa n camonanmenn onnctnart cnon npe-
crannennx raxnmn, xaxnmn onn ocramrcx n moe namxrn, cosamrcx
monm noopaxennem. ornmt ne ntramct nnymnrt cee, uro ncx.
cymnocrt oxpyxammero menx mnpa nmenno raxona, xaxo ona pncy-
ercx n moem noopaxennn.
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syuenne nanexrnuecxoro marepnannsma ouent nomorno mne
crart na npannntnym, marepnanncrnuecxym rouxy spennx. nor,
xora x nnmy o cnonx npecrannennxx, x ne onnpamct, xax +ro ne-
pexo enamr nexoropte cnente, nn na nncrnnxrt, nn na npoxen-
nte nen~, nn na xaxym t ro nn tno pyrym neanncrnuecxym
saxnacxy n nsyuennn uenoneuecxoro mtmnennx.
axo mne npecrannxercx nyna
mn uacro ronopxr o nyne, n xyoxecrnenno nnreparype mne
npnxonrcx unrart o ne.
craptx xnnrax o nyne nncann xax o neecnom nounom cne-
rnne~ nnn xax o nouno namnae~ na nee. spxunx nme npn
cnone namnaa~, xax mne nsnecrno, nosnnxaer n opas namnat, ro-
pxme nnn neropxme. nopaxanne spxunm x ntramct ntsnart n
cnoem yme npecrannenne o nyne xax o ontmo namnae, no crpan-
noe eno - nyna nonce ne xaxercx mne nonemenno na nenouxax
namnao.
omnnrcx, n pannem ercrne, xora x eme xnna n epenne, mne
onenoct ocmarpnnart namnaxy, ne snax nn ee nasnannx, nn ee
nasnauennx. ouemy xe nce-raxn nyna ne npecrannxercx mne n nne
namnat?
yna npecrannxercx mne n ]opme ontmoro, nycroro nnyrpn
]ap]oponoro mapa - x xax t omymam ero rnaxym nonepxnocrt.
Bap mne npecrannxercx n rex cnyuaxx, xora peut ner o nonnony-
,.nnn. 3ror map xaxercx mne cnerntm ne noromy, uro y menx ecrt
spnrentnoe npecrannenne o cnernom nnn remnom; ner, y menx ner
peantnoro npecrannennx o cnere n mpaxe, no ecrt xoxnte omyme-
nnx rennort n xonoa, uro n cnnnaercx c npecrannennem o cnere n
remnore. o nocxontxy spxune ronopxr: nyna cnernr~, ro x o ne
ymam, xax o cnernom mape~.
nor neuepom, ecnn x tnam na ynnne n ro npemx, xora saxonr
connne, n omymam npoxnay nacrynamme noun, mne npecrannx-
ercx, uro ecxoneuno nnnnte, xryune conneunte crpent xacamrcx
nonepxnocrn +roro ontmoro mapa n on, n cnom ouepet, nsnyuaer
nente nyun, r. e. raxne nyun, rennort xoroptx x ne omymam. o-
neuno, x mory noopasnrt, uro nect map cnerneer n or nero na semnm
naamr xononte, no, nepoxrno, npnxrnte nx spxunx cnernte nyun.
o pas x ne mory omymart nynnoro cnera, on ne npecrannxercx
mne raxnm npnxrntm, paocrno-xnnnrentntm, xax cner connna.
cnn snmo nnn panne necno x omymam nonepxnocrtm nnna con-
neunte nyun, +ro nepexo.ntstnaer y menx yntxy. o nnxora x
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ne yntamct, ecnn mne ronopxr: x, xax xpxo cnernr nyna!~ no-
ontm nocxnnnannxm x ornomyct conepmenno pannoymno. t-
naer n rax, uro x npyr ncnomnnam cnona nrennx nernna o ntre:
pyrna, xpacna nnnom ona, xax +ra rnynax nyna~, n rora nyna
npecrannxercx mne xencxnm nnnom c nyxano-xoxernnno yntxo.
ntxy pyrnx nme x ncera mory npecrannrt: net x xe n cama
yntamct, a nnora ocmarpnnam nnna nnsxnx mne nme, xora onn
cmemrcx nnn yntamrcx. o+romy mne xax-ro ocoenno nnsxn n no-
nxrnt crnxn epmonrona ns emona~:
o nyu nynt, no nnare stxo
nerxa nrpammn nopo,
na nt cpannnrcx c ro yntxo,
ax xnsnt, xax monoocrt, xnno!
o ne ncera tnaer nonnonynne. ora mne ronopxr nnn x un-
ram n xnnre o porarom mecxne~, ro mne npecrannxercx axxyparno
orpesannt, ronxn xycox rtxnt, opamennt ocrptm xonnom
nnepx.
accroxnnx nynt or semnn x nnxax ne mory npecrannrt.
I .
3HI .
, u
ax x nayunnact xonrt no nope mxont cnentx
xouy paccxasart, xax x nayunnact xonrt no nope mxont cne-
ntx. r nopa +ro mxont nam ca tn orropoxen raxnm xe ntco-
xnm saopom, xaxo orenxn nac or ynnnt. oneuno, o ntcore sa-
opa x ysnana nenocpecrnenno, r. e. notnan na saope. ro, uro
xora-ro menx crtnnn, nastnax mantunxom, xora nomann na e-
pene, ne npnnecno mne cymecrnenno nontst n cmtcne xopomero
nocnnrannx. npoonxana nasnrt ncmy, xya mne xorenoct: no e-
pentxm, saopam, axe epenxnntm neperopoxam n ome, ecnn
rontxo x ne nonaana n xannxy c neperopoxamn, oxonnmnmn o
noronxa.
ora x nauana pyxnrt c yuennnamn mxont cnentx, mne, ecre-
crnenno, xorenoct rynxrt n noome npononrt c nnmn cnoonoe or
sanxrn n pyrnx paor npemx. o raxoe cnoonoe npemx n y menx,
n y enouex tno rontxo neuepom. pemenno ocroxrentcrna cnoxn-
nnct rax, uro mnenap ncrnryra e]exronornn pano sannpan ry
nept, uepes xoropym x morna ntxonrt n mxony cnentx uepes om.
pyro xo nen npxmo uepes ynnny noxpyr oma. Ftn eme xo ns
namero caa no nop mxont uepes xannrxy, no ona tna sanepra na
samox, n nopnnx npxran xnmu, no mentme mepe, n npenepte aa,
noromy uro nnxora ne nomnnn, xya on nonoxnn snocuacrnt xnmu.
uro xe mne ocrananoct enart? ryr eme nauanact necna, croxnn
uyecnte, naxyune n rennte neuepa, n xoropte x morna rynxrt o
10 uacon neuepa, a no mnennm mnenapa, o 8 uacon, no n +ro npemx
on sannpan nept. Bnenap tn neymonnm, n axe pacnopxxenne
npexnnn ntnycxart n nnycxart menx nosxe ne oxasano nosecrnnx
na +roro pennocrnoro crpaxa. npouem, on ne snan, c xem nmen eno,
n ncxope mne concem crann nnmnnmn n xnmu nopnnxa, n nmesnocrt
mnenapa. namna ntxo, n npnrom nnonne camocroxrentno,- a
nnaue n trt ne morno - nn nocnnrarenn, nn nearorn ne mornn t
yxasart mne +ror ntxo, a . " nanepnoe, npnmen t n yxac, ecnn
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nce sanomnnna n norom crapanact npecrannrt nce re xonapnte me-
cra, xya mne ne cneonano crynart noro. antnemem, nontsy-
xct mnoro pas +ro oporo, x yxe mna ne no camo creno, a na
nexoropom paccroxnnn, xopomo snax, re naxonrcx xaxoe-nnyt
npenxrcrnne. parno x saopy menx nponoxann enouxn, a x nnm
x npnxonna cama. opyrn mne paccxastnann, uro, xora mxontnt
mnenap nnen moe noxnnenne na saope, on cooman: exra,
ncrpeuare xopoxoony, ona yxe maxunr na saope...~
ecrnnrentno, nce, xro xoren, mnn mne nancrpeuy, no+romy x
nourn nnxora ne oxonna o nepn ona.
nop mxont cnentx tn onontno nennx, a rax xax x n nem
ona nnxora ne xonna, ro nce ero reppnropnn ne snana n ne npe-
crannxna ero rax oruernnno, xax ca name xnnnnxn. nomemennn
xe mxont x xonna ona. pana, cnauana menx nonnn enouxn,
norom x npnxonna x nnm camocroxrentno. epnoe npemx x nyx-
ana no nce cropont, nyrana xomnart - nx tno mnoro, n +ro cn-
nano menx c ronxy, sarpynxx n n sanomnnannn, n n npecrannennn
nx no nopxxy. o nocrenenno x nsyunna pacnonoxenne ncex xom-
nar, npecrannxna xopnopt, xnacct, cnantnn, san n np. nmym
xomnary, n nmoe npemx x morna nanetnartcx ona, a ecnn ne naxo-
nna cnonx nopyr, ro camocroxrentno nosnpamanact n xnnnnxy. o-
rom x nsyunna nomemenne, sannmaemoe e]exronornuecxnm nncrn-
ryrom. me uepes nexoropoe npemx x nayunnact xonrt ne rontxo n
mxony, no n n pyro xopnyc, re xnnn corpynnxn, npxmo no rpo-
ryapy ynnnt, nnnsn saopa. arem cnopaunnana n nepeynox n uepes
nopora saxonna no nop mxont. ne axe nonpannnoct xonrt
+rnm ynnuntm xoom, on tn nanonee yoen, a xpome roro, mne
npnxrno tno cosnanart, uro x, noono spxunm, mory nrn no rpo-i
ryapy, nnora c nanouxo, nnora es nee.
ecmorpx na ro uro nce +ro tno rax anno, x o. cnx nop mnoroe
nomnm n xcno npecrannxm.
npomnom roy x notnana n aptxone n conponoxennn a-
pnn nxonaennt, xoropax ne snana roro mecra, re pantme naxon-
nact xnnnnxa. nor x morna noxasart e nce ro, uro yneneno nocne
]amncrcxoro pasrpoma; o rom, uro ne coxpannnoct, x e paccxasana.
nonna ee no omy, yxastnax opory. ce npexnne xomnart n
xora-ro naxonnmnecx n nnx npemert x npecrannxna c nopasn-
rentno xcnocrtm n tna ouent nsnonnonana naxntnynmnmn nocno-
mnnannxmn n npecrannennxmn.
nporynxax n napx
r
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nnx n aptxone, x uacro xonna c xem-nnyt rynxrt n napx.

nx roro urot x morna npecrannrt ne rontxo napx n nenom, no n
xaxym ero annem orentno, menx cnauana nonnn no ncem annexm.
poxonnn mt, nanpnmep, annem nnn, sarem cocnonym, xamrano-
nym n r. . naxomnnn menx n c nopoamn epenten.
ocne necxontxnx +xcxypcn y menx cosanoct yxe nacrontxo
rounoe npecrannenne o napxe n xaxo annee, uro rynxmmne co
mno ne ronopnnn mne, no xaxo annee mt nem nnn n xaxym annem
cnopaunnaem. t xpyxnnn no napxy, sanxrte ncenosmoxntmn pas-
ronopamn, n nenocnxmennt uenonex mor t noymart, uro menx
npocro noxr, a x ne opamam nnxaxoro nnnmannx, concem ne nnre-
pecymct, xya menx neyr. naxo +ro tno ne rax. ne repxna no-
opaxaemo apnannno nnrn mtcnenno ormeuana xaxym cne-
ymmym annem. asnnuana x annen no nx pasnnuntm sanaxam: ram
naxno nneryme nnno, n pyrom mecre - monotmn epesxamn, n
rpertem - cmonncrtm sanaxom cocen n r. . ameuana x raxxe n oco-
ennocrn opoxex xaxo annen.
uame pyrnx co mno nanpannxncx n napx nan ]anactennu,
xoropt ncera crpemnncx art mne npannntnoe npecrannenne o
xaxom npemere, ]opme, paccroxnnn n np.
t ocoenno nmnnn xonrt n cocnonym annem. nan ]anacte-
nnu ocrannxn menx na cxamexe, a cam orxonn conpart nx menx
nonente nnerouxn, pocmne n rpane na nyxaxax. nora on orcyr-
crnonan mnnyr 5-10. ne naunnano rora npecrannxrtcx, uro x
ocranact conepmenno ona n naxoxyct concem ne n napxe, re ry-
nxmr nmn, a re-nnyt n none, n nnxro ns monx nnsxnx menx ram
ne moxer ynnert. pyr uro-nnyt cnyunrcx neotxnonennoe, n
nan ]anactennu yer, nosatn oo mne. ax x nepnyct omo?
Fyy nn snart na nomomt nme? er, rnepo pemana nnxoro ne
snart, a ncrart co cxamtn n ocropoxno nrn n ry cropony, orxya mt
npnmnn. paccunrtnana opnenrnponartcx no sanaxam, a raxxe
omymart no noramn snaxomte n nesnaxomte oporn.
ax mtcnenno x camocroxrentno nosnpamanact omo, npecran-
nxx annem sa annee, sarem xaxym ynnny, xoropym cneonano ne-
pern nocne ntxoa ns napxa. t xnnn ne ouent anexo or napxa,
n moxno tno oornct npn nosnpamennn omo es rpamnax.
rax ynnexanact cnonm noopaxaemtm nyremecrnnem, uro nno-
ra ne na myrxy xorena, urot +ro neotxnonennoe n camom ene
cnyunnoct, n nan ]anactennu satn oo mne, a x ona npnmna o-
mo. o x nonnmana n ro xe npemx, uro on nn n xoem cnyuae ne mor
t ocrannrt menx n napxe.
r
axonen on nosnpamancx n npnnocnn nonnoe xenn menxnx nne-
ron. t naunnann nx pasnpart, nsyuart xaxt nenecrox, xaxt
creenex, n x paccxastnana emy, o uem x ymana, noxa on tn n or-
cyrcrnnn.
- ao n camom ene nonpoonart satrt~ rex n napxe,- my-
rnn nan ]anactennu.
- a, cenare nn, uro satnn, n ynre omo.
- ecnn na rex nanayr maxant? - nyran on menx.
o x tna rax nonncrnenno nacrpoena, uro ne oxnact nnxaxnx
maxanon, rem onee uro nx n napxe ne tno n x o +rom snana.
epexo mt ntxonnn sa napx, re nnnennct none, neconapx n
opora n nnxamn xonxos. nan ]anactennu paccxastnan mne
o +rom none, o neconapxe n o nmxx, xoropte nnora mnn no na-
npannennm x xonxosy. yxe omymana rontxo nerepox, npnnocnmte
nm nonente sanaxn n crapanact npecrannrt +ry, pacnntnuarym nx
menx, ant, xorena npecrannrt neconapx, re x nn pasy eme ne
tna. o ns +roro nnuero ne nonyuanoct-neconapx xax t pacna-
ancx na orentnte, onnoxo croxmne pyr or pyra epentx.
em ne menee nce +rn nneuarnennx n npecrannennx naonro sa-
neuarnenannct n moe namxrn, n x nmnna rynxrt n napxe. nora
mt onycxannct n onpar, cnenn ram na rpane n unrann xaxym-nnyt
xnnry. o na onpara crpynnact nerxax ctpocrt; sect ocoenno cne-
xo tno no npemx xapt, ocrpo naxno noxpyr, n mne xasanoct, uro
mt cnnm ne na cxnone cnycxa n onpar, a na xpyue na mopem.
pana, mopem sect ne naxno, no tno rax xopomo, uro nenontno
ymanoct: raxne omymennx n raxoe nacnaxenne moxno nepexn-
nart rontxo n re mnnyrt, xora naxonmtcx y mopx.
- e xaxercx nn nam,-cnpamnnana x,-uro mt cnnm na
xpyue na mopem?
- er. xopomo cex uyncrnym sect, no x net nnxy noxpyr
cex senent, snaxomt napx n snam, uro +ro nentsx cunrart mopem.
- a... a x omymam rontxo sanax, n +ro nanomnnaer mne mopc.
roxe cosnam, uro sect ner mopx, no ono mne npecrannxercx
re-ro ram sa napxom, nnemyrcx na eper cnntnte nonnt n sonyr
menx x cee.
- t ouent nmnmt mope?
- uent! e mory onro xnrt es mopx...
rom, xax x ycrpannamct n nono xomnare
n xax npecrannxm npemert
e pas n xnsnn mne npnxonnoct nocenxrtcx n pasnnuntx xom-
narax, npnrom ycrpannartcx conepmenno camocroxrentno, no cocr-
nennomy ycmorpennm n nxycy. Ftrt moxer, mne cxaxyr, uro +ro
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raxne nycrxxn, o xoroptx ne cronr n ynomnnart. cornacna, uro nx
spxuero n cntmamero uenonexa noonte xnrecxne ocroxrentcrna
ne npecrannxmr nnuero ocoennoro, no nx menx +ro nectma cept-
esnoe cotrne. nnm nsrnxom oxnnyn nesnaxomym xomnary, spx-
un uenonex nnnr ee nnny n mnpnny. nx cnenoro, no cntmamero
uenonexa cymecrnymr axycrnuecxne nosmoxnocrn - no snyxy ro-
noca, no cryxy maron npnnnsnrentno npecrannrt nennunny xom-
nart,- n nce-raxn on ee ooer n ocmorpnr pyxamn.
uro xe ronopnrt oo mne? et x nnmena ncex +rnx npenmy-
mecrn, mne ocraercx rontxo ono: rmarentno nccneonart ncm xom-
nary, ysnart ee nnny n mnpnny, ysnart, xnaparnax ona nnn npx-
moyrontnax, n r. . arem x onxna ysnart, npornn xaxo crent nnn
oxna naxonrcx nept. ontxo nocne raxoro rmarentnoro nsyuennx
xomnart x nonyuam npecrannenne o ee nmecrnmocrn, npecrannxm
cee nce npemert cnoe crapo ocranonxn n mtcnenno paccrannxm
nx n nono xomnare.
oneuno, x ne npecrannxm cee nenym rpynny npemeron, a or-
entno xaxt: cryn, cron, mxa], xponart, raxry n r. . pnuem
npecrannxm x npemert ne n ymentmennom nnn ynennuennom nne,
a n nx narypantnom pasmepe, n, pasymeercx, snaxomte mne npemert
x npecrannxm ne uacrnuno, nanpnmep, nnauane ony noxxy cryna,
nocne pyrym, sarem cnnnxy... er, snaxomym nemt x npecrannxm
cee cpasy, nennxom n ee narypantnom pasmepe. pyroe eno, ecnn
t x ocmorpena rontxo ony uacrt xaxoro-nno nesnaxomoro nnn ne-
otunoro npemera. e snax +roro npemera n nenom, x, esycnonno,
npecrannxna t cee rontxo ry uacrt, x xoropo npnxacanact py-
xamn.
anpnmep, ecnn t mne ann npnxocnyrtcx x xaxomy-nnyt
onomy xonny poron onenx n sarem cnpocnnn: enept nt npecran-
nxere nernncrte pora +roro xnnornoro n ncero onenx?~ - es comne-
nnx, x cxasana t: er~. o npnxocnynmnct x xpam cnnnxn cnoe
xponarn, x cxaxy, uro npecrannxm ncm xponart.
ronapnnamct x o +rom noromy, uro ne rontxo npocro nmontr-
crnymmne nnna, no n nayunte paornnxn, nsyuammne ncnxonornm
cnentx, nx rpyonte nantxn n npncnoconxemocrt x oxpyxamme
ocranonxe, ne pas cnpamnnann menx, xax x npecrannxm npemert:
nentmn nnn no uacrxm, n ymentmennom nnn n ynennuennom pas-
mepe? ne xaxercx, uro ecnn x, naxoxct na paccroxnnn, yy npe-
crannxrt annt cryn no uacrxm n n nenacroxmem ero pasmepe, ro,
noox x nemy, x mory nerxo omnnrtcx n ncxxn cryn - manent-
xn nnn ontmo, nent nnn cnomannt - yy npnnnmart sa ror
cryn, o xoropom menx cnpamnnann, ncxxn cron - sa cron noome.
exy rem x, nsyunn nce ocoennocrn n npnsnaxn annoro cryna,
nmem o nem conepmenno peantnoe npecrannenne n ysnam ero ne
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axas 81 u
rontxo rora, xora on cronr na sapanee nsnecrnom mne mecre, no n n
rex cnyuaxx, xora ero nepecranxr n nmoe pyroe mecro.
cnn mne noxastnann ercxne nrpymxn, nsopaxammne meent,
x npecrannxna xyxontnt cryntunx nnn cronnx mnoro npemenn
cnycrx conepmenno n raxom pasmepe, n xaxom x ero nocnpnnnmana,-
xyxontnt cryntunx n moem npecrannennn ne cnnnancx c opasom
ontmoro xomnarnoro cryna.
rax, nsyunn nonym xomnary, npecrannn ee pasmept, mnpnny n
nnny, x nerxo ycrpannanact n ne, axe oxoxct es nomomn spx-
unx. paccrannxna meent no cocrnennomy nxycy, no sapanee npe-
crannenno cxeme, a ecnn nnora ne concem npnepxnnanact +roro
nnana, ro rontxo noromy, uro conmana yocrna: crannrt cron
cpen xomnart, xax +ro nepexo enamr spxune xosxxn, nx menx,
nanpnmep, nectma neyono, no n raxnx cnyuaxx x nensexno nart-
xanact t na +ror cron.
ocne paccranonxn meenn x cnona nsyuana xomnary, urot
snart, cxontxo ocranoct cnoonoro npocrpancrna, xaxym nnomat
sanxn xaxt npemer, na xaxom paccroxnnn naxonrcx xponart or
crona, n r. . axonen, xora nce ocmorpeno, nsyueno, npecranneno,
x conepmenno cnoono opnenrnpymct n cnoe xomnare.
onmax nocroxnnt nopxox n xomnare, x npnyuamct conep-
menno eccosnarentno npncnocannnart cnon nnxennx n xoxenne
no xomnare x anno ocranonxe.
ax, nanpnmep, ecnn x cnxy na raxre, a mne nyxno nsxrt co
cronnxa ymary nnn xapanam, x nporxrnnam pyxy ne xax nonano,
ne n npornnononoxnym cropony, a nmenno x cronnxy, xax pas x romy
mecry, re nexnr ymara nnn xapanam. cnn mne nyxno noorn x
mxa]y, x ne ny rax, urot nacxounrt na nero c pasery, a enam
nmenno crontxo maron (xoneuno, x nx ne cunram), cxontxo nyxno,
urot noorn x mxa]y.
ne npnxonnoct ne pas nepecenxrtcx ns mentme xomnart n
ontmym n, naoopor, ns ontme n mentmym. raxnx cnyuaxx x
nnoxo uyncrnonana cex n nepnoe npemx. cnn x nonaana n ontmym
xomnary, ona xasanact mne ouent nnnno, n x conepmenno mamn-
nantno ocranannnnanact cpen xomnart, ne oxox o crona nnn
mxa]a n pastcxnnax +rn npemert noxpyr cex n nycrom npocrpan-
crne. cnn tnana mentmax xomnara, x n nepnte nn nacxaxnnana
na npemert, noromy uro cunrana nx antme or cex. o n n nepnom
n no nropom cnyuae npemert ne xasannct mne nn mentme, nn ont-
me: nx pasmept n moem npecrannennn conepmenno ne nsmenxnnct.
o+romy x ocmennnamct nasnart acypom npenonoxenne, uro xax-
t cneno, naxoxct na paccroxnnn or xopomo snaxomoro emy
cryna nnn crona, npecrannxer +rn npemert n ymentmennom nnn
ynennuennom nne.
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onropxm, uro mt, cnente, ne ysnanann t snaxomtx npeme-
ron, ecnn t npecrannenne o nnx ne coornercrnonano nx ecrnn-
rentntm pasmepam, nx rnaxo nnn mepoxonaro nonepxnocrn.
ora x nnmy +rn crpoxn, x ntramct npecrannrt cee na
mapa - ontmo n manentxn. cnn t ceuac xo mne noomen xro-
nnyt n an mne n pyxn manentxn (noopaxaemt) mapnx, x, es.
comnennx, ysnana t, uro ns nyx npecrannxemtx mnom mapnxon
mne noxastnamr nmenno manentxn.
asne +ro ne yexaer n rom, uro npecrannennx cnentx o oxpy-
xammem mnpe nnonne peantnt n ne ycrynamr nocnpnxrnm spxunx.
asnnna rontxo n rom, uro spxun nce npecrannxer spnrentno, a y
cnentx - raxrnntnte npecrannennx.
cunram ne nnmnnm nxparne nepeart pasronop c ono mnno
xenmnno, xoropax ynepxna menx, uro cnente ne moryr npecrannrt
npemert n raxom oeme n ]opme, xaxontmn onn xnnxmrcx n e-
crnnrentnocrn, nouemy-ro xasanoct, uro cnente npecrannxmr
npemert nnn ontmnmn, nnn mentmnmn,- na +rom nocnenem, r. e.
na mentmem pasmepe, ona ocoenno nacrannana. na npenoxnna
mne necxontxo nonpocon n raxom poe:
- cnn nam art n pyxn xnoxo n orypen, a sarem oropart nx
y nac, xaxnmn onn yyr nam xasartcx - manentxnmn nnn ont-
mnmn? pyrntmn nnn nnnntmn?
orneuana, xax ymana:
- noxo x yy npecrannxrt rontxo xax xnoxo, n ero nary-
pantnom oeme n, xoneuno, xpyrntm, axe c xnocrnxom. rypen -
xax orypen, npoonronart n, xoneuno, ne cnyram ero c xnoxom.
- o, xora nt ocmarpnnaere npemer, a norom orxonre or
nero, moxere nn nt npecrannrt cee nentnt opas +roro npemera,
nnn y nac opasyercx rontxo uacrnunoe npecrannenne o annom
npemere?
- ceuac omymam n cnoe pyxe namy pyxy, no nnna namero x
ne snam, no ne ocmarpnnana ero. neonarentno, x ne mory npecra-
nnrt nn namero noca, nn namnx rnas, a npecrannxm rontxo namy
pyxy. naxo, xorx namn ueprt nnna mne nensnecrnt, no ncxox ns
roro, uro y xaxoro uenonexa ecrt nnno, x onycxam, uro y nac roxe
ecrt rnasa, noc, por. cnn x npnxocnyct pyxo rontxo x xonunxy na-
mero noca, x yy npecrannxrt +ry uacrt noca n npenonarart, uro
y nac, nanepnoe, nmeercx nent noc... enept noopasnre cee cne-
ymmee: nt saxptnn cnoe nnno uem-nnyt nnn cnpxrannct sa mnp-
mo, no y nac cnyuano ocrancx nenpnxptrtm onn rnas nnn uacrt
noopoxa. pxun uenonex, cmorpx na nac, moxer ynnert ro, uro
nt ne ycnenn npnxptrt. accranmnct c namn, uenonex yer npe-
crannxrt onn nam rnas nnn uacrt noopoxa, onycxax npn +rom,
uro y nac onxno trt nenoe nnno...
e snam, ocranact nn onontna +rnmn orneramn mox cooecennna,
no rontxo ona tna uem-ro cmymena, xorx ne satna nonaroapnrt
menx sa npnxrnym ecey.
xe nocne ecet camtm rmarentntm opasom anannsnponana
cnon npecrannennx. ne neoxonmo tno yenrtcx n rom, npa-
nnntno nnn nenpannntno orneuana x +ro xenmnne, cpannnnax npe-
crannennx cnentx n spxunx. Hent ent x npnnomnnana ncenos-
moxnte npounrannte mnom nnn xem-nnyt paccxasannte npnmept
ns onacrn nocnpnxrn n npecrannenn. xonne xonnon x ncno-
mnnna n uncne pyrnx npnmepon sameuarentnoe crnxornopenne ep-
monrona.
unram, uro yer nennmnnm npnnecrn sect +ro crnxornopenne
nonnocrtm:
s-no ranncrnenno, xonono nonymacxn
nyuan mne ronoc rno, orpant, xax meura,
nernnn mne rnon nnennrentnte rnasxn,
yntanncx nyxante ycra.
xnost tmxy nerxym samernn x nenontno
encrnenntx nannr n men ennsny.
uacrnnnen! nen x n noxon cnoenontnt,
ontx xype noxnnynmn nonny!..
cosan x rora n moem noopaxente
o nerxnm npnsnaxam xpacannny mom;
c ro nopt ecnnornoe nnente
omy n yme moe, nacxam n nmnm.
nce mne xaxercx: xnnte +rn peun
roa mnnynmne cntxan xora-ro x;
xro-ro menuer mne, uro nocne +ro ncrpeun
t nnont ynnnmcx, xax crapte pystx.
t nnnm, uro no orentntm uacrxm - no noxony, no rnasam n
r. . - no+r cnno noopaxennx cosan n yme cnoe npexpacnt, no
ecnnornt opas xenmnnt.
ne nonxrna +ra cnna noopaxennx: naroapx utnm-nnyt
xpacnntm, ntpasnrentntm pyxam x cosanana n cnoem noopaxennn
xpacnnt opas uenonexa, naenxna ero xopome ]nrypo, nyun-
crtmn rnasamn, npnxrntm ronocom; npnnnctnana emy camte nyu-
mne npancrnennte xauecrna, neantnte crpemnennx n np. o. n ant-
nemem, xora x cranxnnanact c cypono ecrnnrentnocrtm, xora
ysnanana c nomomtm pyx, uro +ro anexo ne xpacnnt uenonex, cos-
annt monm noopaxennem opas pacnntnancx n pacnaancx na
menxne uacrnnt, ocrananoct nnmt coxanenne, uro +ro tna ona
meura, no x ncxope yremanact nectma myptmn crpoxamn . Fnoxa:
uro xe enart, ecnn omanyna
a meura, xax ncxxax meura,
uro xnsnt esxanocrno crernyna
pyom nepenxom xnyra.
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a, neymonnmax ecrnnrentnocrt cnntno ter nme. tmtm-
nennte opast ecrnymr rynrentno ne rontxo na cnentx, no no-
po II na spxunx nme, ym n nonx xoroptx ne moryr nn npornno-
croxrt ecrnnrentnocrn, nn npncnoconrtcx x nenpeptnnomy nn-
xennm, x nocroxnno nsmenxmmnmcx ]opmam namero trnx. o x
snam, uro rontxo soponoe nonnmanne xnsnn, rontxo npannntnoe,
nayuno-xnsnennoe nonnmanne ncnxonornn uenonexa, rontxo snanne
saxonon nanexrnuecxoro mtmnennx moryr nomout nam n opte c
sanyxennxmn n omnxamn n name xnsnn.
opo +monnn ocnanxmr namy nonm, no pasym uenonexa onxen
nponnnart xpxn cner na ecrnnrentnocrt, nsannxx nac or nox-
noro npecrannennx peantno cymecrnymmero mnpa n neme.
ax mne yonee xonrt
cem, xoneuno, nonxrno, uro x no ropoy ona ne xoxy. o xora
x ny no ynnne co spxunm cnyrnnxom, ro, no-nepntx, epy ero no
pyxy, a no-nroptx, ny c npano cropont. ocrynam x rax noromy,
uro, ecnn menx epyr no pyxy, x nnoxo nocnpnnnmam marn cnonx
cnyrnnxon, a nocnpnnnmart nx mar mne neoxonmo, no rontxo
rora x omymam nce nsmenennx n nanpannennn, uro aer mne nos-
moxnocrt npecrannxrt, no xaxo opore mt nem. ora nyxno
corn c rporyapa, x +ro sameuam no renonnxennxm monx cnyrnnxon
n crapamct nopaxart nm.- ouno rax xe x nocrynam, xora nyxno
nsorn na rporyap. cnn mon cnyrnnxn enamr mnpe mar, urot
nepemarnyrt uepes nyxy nnn pyroe npenxrcrnne, x +ro nocnpnnn-
mam n enam npnnnsnrentno raxo xe mar. oneuno, x ne ncera
npecrannxm mnpnny mara cnyrnnxa, ocoenno ecnn nyxa nennxa.
ne rpyno onpeennrt rontxo no onnm nnxennxm cnyrnnxa ry
rouxy onopt, na xoropym on nonaaer cnoe noro. 3ro ocroxrent-
crno eme onee ocnoxnxercx n rex cnyuaxx, xora co mno ner ne-
ontrnt nponoxart - nenpnntunt xo mne uenonex.
asymeercx, y nac ecrt n pyrne npncnoconennx~. anpnmep,
x npomy moero cnyrnnxa nporxnyrt nnepe pyxy rax, urot ona
nonncna n nosyxe xax pas na ro rouxo, xya x onxna nocra-
nnrt nory. ,cnn xe nyxn cnnmxom mnpoxn n uepes nnx npnxonrcx
nptrart, mo cnyrnnx nptraer onn n no pyrym- cropony nyxn ony-
cxaer nnns pyxn na rouxo onopt. o npexe uem nocneonart sa
cnyrnnxom, r. e. enart nptxox, x crapamct coopasnrt n npecra-
nnrt, mory nn x cenart raxo xe nptxox. oneuno, tnamr n on-
nomnocrn: ne ncera x n cocroxnnn, noono spxunm, nepenptrnyrt
uepes ontmym nyxy. raxnx cnyuaxx menx ntpyuamr nmesnte
ronapnmn, xoroptm no cnny nepenecrn menx uepes nyxy na pyxax.
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naxt mne npnmnoct ntexart sa ropo noesom. a eme or
crarmnn x ceny nao tno nrn nemxom uertpe xnnomerpa. ora
mt npomnn npnmepno nononnny nyrn, mox cnyrnnna npyr ynnena,
uro opory nepecexaer pyue. na ocranonnnact n neoymennn, ne
snax, xax nepenpannrt menx na pyrym cropony pyutx. n tn o-
nontno rnyox, a nx roro urot ero nepern, uepes nero tna nepe-
pomena ysxax ocxa. pxune xonnn no ne anancnpyx, uero ne
morna cenart x. ne neoxonmo tno cenart camt mnpoxn, xa-
xo x rontxo morna, mar. o xax nce +ro cenart, cnyrnnna ne snana,
a nepenecrn menx na pyxax ona ne morna.
- nx, uro xe nam enart?
- nor xax: nt nepexonre na ry cropony pyutx. are mne
cnom pyxy, nostmnre menx sa nantnt, xax pas na rouxo, xya x
onxna nocrannrt nory, n x nepemarny.
- nt ne ynaere n pyue?
- auem? ne concem ne xouercx npnrn n rocrn moxpo...
nyrnnna nepemna uepes pyue, ntnonnnna nce mon yxasannx,
n mt nsxnnct sa pyxn. ecxontxo cexyn x nocroxna n pasymte,
crapaxct npecrannrt mnpnny pyutx, cpannnnax ee c mnpnno moero
mara, a sarem tcrpo nepemarnyna uepes pyue. exy npounm,
xora x enana mar, ro samernna, uro y moe cnyrnnnt cnntno por-
nyna pyxa,- ouennno, ona oxnact, uro x copnyct n pyue, no
semnx tna ptxnax, necuanax, a x crynnna na camt xpa epera,
antme crynnrt x yxe ne morna. o nce oomnoct narononyuno, x
axe nonyunna yonontcrnne or cosnannx, uro namna ntxo ns sa-
rpynnrentnoro nonoxennx n npeoonena +ro xorx n nesnaunrent-
noe, no nce xe nenpnxrnoe npenxrcrnne. npnrom npeoonena ca-
mocroxrentno, a ne rax, xax onnctnaercx n cxasxe . . oncroro:
neno nsxn xpomoro na nneun n nepemnn uepes pyue narono-
nyuno~.
nora n epenne nocne oxx nyxn tnamr nennunno n ne-
cxontxo merpon. pxun mo cnyrnnx moxer nepenptrnnart c xamnx
na xament, x xe npenounram nrn npxmo n nyxy, noromy uro nx
menx yromnrentno enart necxontxo nptxxon nopx. et spxun
uenonex enaer +ro nerxo n tcrpo, a mne nyxno cnauana npecra-
nnrt cee, cnex sa yxasannem pyxn, paccroxnne or xamnx o xamnx,
a sarem, coornercrnenno +romy nanpannennm, cornaconart cno npt-
xox, uro, xoneuno, ouent cnoxno.
ora mne nyxno nxonrt n rpamna, rponneyc nnn anroyc, a
ror, xro co mno ner, npocro rxner menx nnn noranxnnaer nnepe,
ne noxastnax, re nept, mne ouent rpyno npannntno nonacrt na
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nonoxxy. raxnx cnyuaxx x conepmenno ne npecrannxm, n xaxym
cropony ny, n mory cnntno ymnnrt nory o xpax nonoxxn. pn-
ntxmne xo mne nmn snamr, uro ne nyxno menx noranxnnart, a o-
crarouno nonoxnrt mom pyxy na nopyunn, nce panno c xaxo cro-
pont. n ry xe cexyny mory npecrannrt, re naxonrcx nept, n
naroapx +romy ncera npannntno nxoxy n naron.
na mox npnxrentnnna - xpane paccexnnt uenonex. axo-
xct co mno na ynnne, ona otuno satnaer o rom, uro x ne nnxy.
na rnxnr no nce cropont, npeocrannxx mne neorpannuennym nos-
moxnocrt camocroxrentno naxonrt opory. nem x ny menenno,
ramyct n xnocre n crapamct cama sameuart ncxxne neponnocrn o-
porn, sanomnnart nx, urot na oparnom nyrn snart, xax n xya
nrn. ora xe mt canmcx n rpamna, npnxrentnnna ycnnenno
noranxnnaer menx, satnax noxasart, c xaxo cropont nept. nem
x ne nxoxy, a nnannnamct n rpamna.
naxt mt c +ro npnxrentnnne nponoxann x rpamnam ony
nespxuym enymxy. ora naron noomen, npnxrentnnna noexana
ycanrt enymxy, a menx ocrannna xart ee. ne nmena nn mane-
mero npecrannennx o rom, n xaxom mecre ona menx ocrannna, no no
nnpannxm omymana, uro noxpyr menx ontmoe nnxenne. omnx
paccexnnocrt npnxrentnnnt, x ncrpenoxnnact, no ymana, uro crom
n onacnom mecre. ne xorenoct noorn nonnxe x xaxo-nnyt
crene nnn xorx t naxonrtcx na rporyape. onepmenno nenontno x
crana nxrnrtcx, npenonarax, uro rporyap naxonrcx csan menx.
nor x nouyncrnonana, uro xocnynact cnnno uero-ro rneporo n nt-
coxoro. 3ro cpasy ycnoxonno menx, no mne npecrannncx om,- cne-
onarentno, mne ne yrpoxaer nnxaxax onacnocrt.
pyr xo mne noexana npnxrentnnna n cnntno epnyna sa
.
- t es noxa pexemt menx! - cxasana ona cepnro.
- ouemy? net ne snana, re rt ocrannna menx. ne npe-
crannnoct, uro npxmo na menx munrcx mamnna. nonxrnnact nasa.
- t onepnact na rpamna. pocnna enymxy n noexana x
ree.
- eyxenn rpamna? o net on croxn.
- ora croxn, a ceuac ymen...
e cxaxy, urot x ouent ncnyranact, no nce xe nemnoro cmyrn-
nact. et noxa rpamna croxn, x npecrannxna, uro naxoxyct nosne
crent xaxoro-nnyt oma nnn y saopa; no ecnn t npnxrentnnna
nonpemx ne noocnena, a rpamna nauan nnrartcx, x, nepoxrno, ne
nonxna t, uro +ro rpamna, n ne snam, uem nce t +ro xonunnoct.
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ax mne yonee ronopnrt
Ftnaer rax: x naxoxyct n ono xomnare co cntmamnm ueno-
nexom. auem-nnyt on orxonr or menx n cropony, npenapnrentno
cxasan, urot x npoonxana ronopnrt, on yer menx cnymart. uro
xe? xastnaercx, mne rpynee ronopnrt, ecnn x ne snam, na xaxom
paccroxnnn naxonrcx mo coecennx. cama uyncrnym, uro n ra-
xnx cnyuaxx naunnam ronopnrt xax-ro neecrecrnenno: x n nontmam
ronoc, n nanpxram ero. pome roro, ronopm cnnunno, roponnnno,
xax yro paccxastnam uro-ro anno sayuennoe n naoenmee mne.
or nouemy nx menx naxno snart, na xaxom paccroxnnn naxoxrcx
cnymammne menx nmn. coenno xopomo x cex uyncrnym n rex
cnyuaxx, xora coecennx naxonrcx pxom co mno, epxnr menx
sa pyxy n x sameuam manemee nnxenne ne rontxo nce ero pyxn,
no axe xorx t onoro nantna - +ro nocnenee nx menx nourn
ro xe camoe, uro nx spxuero nnert nnno cnoero coecennxa,
Ftnaer eme n rax: ecnn x naxoxyct n snaxomo mne xomnare,
nanpnmep n cnoe xomnare, n sa uem-nnyt oroy or roro ueno-
nexa, c xoroptm rontxo uro pasronapnnana, x mory npoonxart c nnm
pasronop cnoono, otuntm ronocom. xcnxercx +ro rem, uro x
xopomo snam cnom xomnary, npecrannxm xaxt npemer n ne,
snam, n xaxom mecre cronr nnn cnnr mo rocrt, n npecrannxm ro
paccroxnne, na xoropom x naxoxyct or nero. naxo onro naxo-
nrtcx nann or cnoero, coecennxa x ne mory, no, ne uyncrnyx n
cnoe pyxe ero pyxn, x naunnam ymart, uro on nnn concem ne nnre-
pecyercx rem, uro x emy ronopm, nnn ne cntmnr menx. o+romy x
ncera ocoenno nonnymct, xora mne npnxonrcx ntcrynart nepe
aynropne.
roxrt conepmenno onnoxo y xa]ept mne nectma rpyno. e
npecrannxx nynnxn, x naunnam nonnonartcx. o ecnn pxom co
mno cronr xro-nnyt ns monx nnsxnx n epxnr mom pyxy, +ro
ycnoxannaer menx, x uyncrnym cex ne raxo onnoxo, no ror, xro
cronr pxom co mno, nnora cnerxa noxnmaer mne pyxy n orner na
mo nonpoc, opamennt x nynnxe, nnn cenaer nenontno ena sa-
mernoe, no rem ne menee ynonnmoe mno n, snaunr, uro-ro ntpaxam-
mee nnxenne.
nnm cnonom, nx menx neoxonmo ncera npecrannxrt pac-
croxnne n oxpyxammnx menx nme. +rom xopomo snamr nan
]anactennu n apnx nxonaenna, onn ncera cnauana paccxaxyr
mne o aynropnn, o rom, re x naxoxyct, xax nyxno ronopnrt, rnxo
nnn rpomxo, re cnnr nynnxa n nacxontxo nnnmarentno menx cny~
mamr.
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a onepannn
ne xouercx onncart onepannm, xoropym x nepenecna. menx
tn annennnnr. pystx n npaun crapannct nnymnrt mne, uro +ro
camax nerxax onepannx, uro nnxaxo onn x omymart ne yy, a
nnmt npnxocnonenne x reny. nonepnna n npocnna xnpypra nocxo-
pee nsxrt menx na onepannm, no mne ouent xorenoct ncntrart nce
+ro na cee n npecrannrt ncm nponeypy onepannn.
ne nnxora ne npnxonnoct tnart n onepannonno xomnare n
ocmarpnnart onepannonnt cron, no+romy y menx tnn nectma pac-
nntnuarte npecrannennx o noontx nemax. ne npecrannxncx
otxnonennt cron c ponno nonepxnocrtm, noxptrt uem-nnyt
mxrxnm. ora xe menx npnnenn n onepannonnym xomnary n no-
nenn x crony, ro x onapyxnna, uro +ror cron ysxn n nnnnt n
nacrontxo ntcox, uro mne npnmnoct ncrart na cryn nx roro, urot
nsopartcx na nero.
ron ne nonpannncx mne: na nem tno rnepo nexart, a nocpe-
nne tno raxoe yrnynenne, uro mox cnnna oxasanact n nectma ne-
yonom nonoxennn ornocnrentno ronont. nemenenno ntpasnna
ncnyx mtcnt o +rom neyocrne. ne nce npemx xorenoct nono-
xnrt uro-nnyt no cnnny, xorx t pyxn, no mne ne nosnonnnn
cenart +ro, a nenenn cecrpe epxart menx sa pyxn n o uem-nnyt
pasronapnnart co mno, r. e. uro-nnyt nncart na moe naonn. na-
uana x uyncrnonana cex xopomo. oneuno, x snana, uro n pyxax xn-
pypra nncrpymenrt, n ecnn t x nnena nx rnasamn nnn ocmorpena
pyxamn, ro, nanepnoe, nouyncrnonana nexoropt crpax, no x nx ne
nnena, ne ocmarpnnana, a nnmt snana o nnx. o+romy onn ne xasa-
nnct mne uem-ro peantntm - ne nmenn nn ]opmt, nn pasmepa, a
mentxann nepe monm ymcrnenntm nsopom rontxo xax oropaxe-
nne~ +rnx nncrpymenron. anpnmep, x ne morna npecrannrt nx me-
rannnuecxnmn, xonontmn, rnaxnmn, ocrptmn n r. . npocro sna-
na o nnx, npocro y menx tn cnonecnt opas - n nce.
nepannm nponsnonnn no mecrntm napxosom. ora n moe
reno nnenn nrny nx samopaxnnannx, x omyrnna ont n npecra-
nnna cee nnnnym nrny, norxnyrym n mo xnnor; nrna xasanact mne
ecxoneuno nnnno, n x oxnact, uro ee yyr nnonrt n menx ouent
onro. ecrpa nce npemx uro-ro nncana n moe pyxe, no x ee nnoxo
cnymana n nourn nnuero ne nonnmana, noromy uro cnauana ornnexa-
nact nx roro, urot cnenrt sa nponeypamn, a norom nouyncrno-
nana cex nnoxo n ne morna nocnpnnnmart cnon. rontxo omymana
xonrypt yxn, xoropte cecrpa ueprnna cnonm nantnem, no ne morna
cocrannrt nenoro cnona.
nepannx nauanact. nauana x omymana nesnaunrentnym ont,
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no norom ont crana ocrpo, x cxasana o +rom xnpypry, n on cnona
nnen napxos. ocnaena, pyxn eccnntno naann co crona, x npo-
cnna noepxnnart mon pyxn. aconmrno ne npecrannxna cee
nnxenn xnpypra, noome nnoxo coopaxana, onaxo xe cosna-
nana, uro mne enamr onepannm.
nn pas cecrpa cenana cnonmn pyxamn onontno pesxoe nn-
xenne; x neonontno cxasana:
- arama, cnoxono, ne eprarect!
orom x nouyncrnonana, uro xro-ro xpenxo cxnarnn menx sa norn.
epoxrno, npaun ymann, uro x, omyrnn ocrpym ont, yy orn-
nartcx noramn. nonpocnna ne epxart menx sa norn n oemana
nexart cnoxono...
a, x ecrnnrentno nexana onee uem cnoxono: x cnntno oc-
naena noromy, uro onro onena, npexe uem moxno tno npons-
nonrt onepannm. enx oxnarnno nourn nonnoe espasnnune xo
ncemy oxpyxammemy. ne yxe ne xorenoct nonyunrt xaxne-nno
nneuarnennx or onepannn nnn npecrannrt onepannonnym xomnary,
xnpypra, nncrpymenrt n r. . omymana ont or uero-ro ronxoro n
ocrporo - +ro samnnann paspes. orom, xax cxnost con, x nouyncr-
nonana, uro menx epyr sa pyxy n uro-ro nnmyr. cenana na co-
o ontmoe ycnnne, crapaxct nonxrt ro, uro mne nncann.
- ce xonueno! t monoen,-cxasan xnpypr.
ama cee x xasanact xynem myxn, noromy uro ne morna cenart
nn onoro nnxennx. enx nonoxnnn na nocnnxn n nonesnn n na-
nary. nesanno x ncrpenenynact, npecrannna npyr, uro menx yyr
nponosnrt no xopnopy, a x n ono copouxe... xpnxnyna:
- arama, re mo xanar? e saytre nsxrt ero.
ax x ysnana norom, nce sacmexnnct n ynnnnnct romy, uro x
npexe ncero ncnomnnna o xanare. orom x naxonnact necxontxo
uacon es cosnannx, a xora ounynact (tno yxe 10 uacon neuepa),
nporxnyna pyxy x rymouxe, urot narn ontnnunt craxan c no-
o. npyr pyxa narxnynact na mom omamnmm uamxy c nmnem.
3ry uamxy x cpasy ysnana n ouent opaonanact, ymax, uro nexy
oma na cnoe nocrenn. onn mnr mne npecrannnnct nce snaxomte
npemert, naxoxmnecx n moe xomnare. o norom x ncnomnnna
onepannm, nepenecennym ont, ncnomnnna, uro nexy n ontnnuno
nanare: o +rom xcno cnnerentcrnonan cnenn]nuecxn sanax xnn-
nnxn. naunr, nnuero omamnero sect ner, xpome +ro uamxn. o
xax ona cma nonana? uennno, xro-ro npnxonn, a trt moxer, n
ceuac naxonrcx sect, y moe nocrenn. ecrnnrentno, xo mne
noomna apnx nxonaenna, xax rontxo samernna, uro x ounynact.
ouent opaonanact e. orx n xnnnnxe nce ornocnnnct xo mne
ncxnmunrentno nnnmarentno n renno, no nce xe apnx nxonaenna
tna cnonm, nnsxnm, cpasy menx nonnmammnm n n rounocrn ntnon-
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11 mon npoctt uenonexom. crana npocnrt ee, urot ona ne
yxonna ceronx.
- er, ner, ne yy, x cnennantno npnmna, urot trt nosne
nac noutm...
uepes na nx mne crano nyume, no co mno nce-raxn naxonnact
apnx nxonaenna, a xora ona ycranana, ee cmenxn xro-nnyt ns
nocnnrarentnnn mxont rnyxonemtx, re x xnna. nn pas nem,
xora nosne menx exypnna apnx nxonaenna, nsxnn na onepannm
ony ontnym, y xoropo tnn xamnn n neuenn. nepannm e npo-
nsnonnn no omnm napxosom, a xora npnnesnn n nanary, ona ou-
nynact n, no-nnnmomy, ouent crpaana. apnx nxonaenna rono-
pnna mne, xax +ra ontnax xpnuana n meranact no nocrenn. nonn-
mana, uro ontnax crpaaer, no x ne npecrannxna ntpaxennx ee
nnna, nnxenn ee pyx n ncero tmmerocx rena. cnn o +roro
cnyuax x pantme morna ocmorpert xoro-nnyt pyroro n noonom
cocroxnnn, ro, esycnonno, n crpaannx +ro ontno crann t mne
xcnee. o x c nem pasronapnnana eme o onepannn, n no+romy n
ceuac ona npecrannxnact mne raxo xe cnoxono n nacxono,
xaxo tna no npemx name ecet. npecrannxna ce xponart,
nocrent, pyxn. nor ecnn t . . ne rontxo paccxastnana, no noc-
nponsnena necxontxo nnxenn tmmecx ontno, rora +ra xap-
rnna xasanact t onee narnxno. o nac oxpyxann nmn, n
. " ecrecrnenno, ne morna nonropxrt nnxenn ontno nnn
onee nopono paccxastnart o rom, uro nponcxonno noxpyr nac.
net mory npecrannrt cee crpaannx uenonexa nnn xnnor-
noro, xora nocnpnnnmam nent px nnxenn roro cymecrna, x xo-
ropomy npnxacamct. pnnomnnam raxo cnyua: x epxana na xone-
nxx cnom xomxy apy. na ncx samepna, ntxnax yont momenr
x nptxxy, a x ee ne nycxana. na ncexe nptrnyna; x xorena na
nery noxnarnrt ee, ona xe nepexyntpnynact n nosyxe n, no-nnn-
momy, neyauno ynana na non. 3ro naenne npnunnnno e ont, no-
romy u.ro ona samxyxana n crana xarartcx no nony, npoonxax xpn-
uart. ce +ro x nanmana, cnex sa xomxo pyxo, omymana ee
mxyxante n ncntrtnana ontmym xanocrt x ne.
o camoro neuepa x nomnnna +ror manentxn +nnso, a xora
nerna cnart n xo mne na nocrent nptrnyna apa, x xnno npecra-
nnna cee ncm nennym cnenxy, axe xax t omyrnna na xonunxax
cnonx nantnen mxyxante xomxn. na xe rem npemenem nacxanact xo
mne, cnonno npocnna eme pas noxanert ee...
pyro cnyua nponsnen na menx norpxcammee nneuarnenne.
ynnena ony enymxy, xoropax no npemx nont nonana no om-
exxy n tna panena n ronony. pesyntrare panennx ona ocnenna.
ana onro ne saxnnana, n enymxa nocnna na ronone nonxsxy, no
xoropo nmecro xoxn tna xax t xopa co crpyntxmn, noxptnan-
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mnmn nourn ncm ronony. nn pas panenax ana mne npnxocnyrtcx
pyxo x ee ronone es nonxsxn. ocne +roro x npecrannna cee yxa-
cnym xaprnny, o xoropo xparxo paccxasana enymxa.
reuenne necxontxnx ne x nourn nnuero ne ena, no nce npe-
mert, x xoroptm x npnxacanact, n rom uncne n nnma, npecrannx-
nnct mne n nne ronont, noxptro crpyntxmn. ne xorenoct, cosna-
mct orxponenno, nnaxart, a opas enymxn onroe npemx npecneo-
nan menx. axe ceuac (6 ner cnycrx), xora x nnmy +rn crpoxn,
nce npecrannxercx mne c nopasnrentno xcnocrtm, x xax t
nnxy~ +ry enymxy n uyncrnym cex ouent nexopomo.
nexoroptx npecrannennxx
Ftnaer rax, uro x ocramct oma ona nem n neuepom. naxo-
xyct n cnoe xomnare, ne nocnpnnnmam nsnne nnxaxoro myma, ne
nnxy nennoro cnera, a neuepom +nexrpnuecxoro - noome npetnam
no mpaxe n rnmnne, no +ro ne snaunr, uro x norpyxena n netrne.
anpornn, x snam, uro noxpyr menx nponcxonr nenpeptnnoe
nnxenne uenoneuecxo xnsnn, nesanncnmo or roro, nocnpnnnmam x
+ro nnxenne nnn ner. ntramct npecrannrt cee xnsnt nme,
nnxenne n ropoe. o mym n snyxn npecrannxmrcx mne n nne ne-
npeptnntx nnpann, xoropte x omymam, xora naxoxyct na ynnne
nnn xora ey n rpamnae, rponneyce n r. . pecrannxm x snaxo-
mtx mne nme; npecrannxm nx orentno, ro onoro, ro pyroro;
npecrannxm neontmnmn nnn ontmnmn rpynnamn, xax +ro tnaer,
nanpnmep, n merpo. o nx ronocon x ne npecrannxm, mne xaxercx,
uro onn monuar nnn ronopxr ouent mano, n npnrom ronopxr essny-
uno. cnn xe x saxouy nce-raxn npecrannrt uenoneuecxne ronoca, ro
snyxn uyxrcx mne na xonunxax monx nantnen, noromy uro nexoro-
ptx cnonx snaxomtx, a raxxe n cocrnennt ronoc x cnymam~ py-
xamn. npecrannxm, uro na ynnne nrpamr ern, nrpamr neceno, e-
ramr, cmemrcx, no nx rpomxne xpnxn x ne npecrannxm, a nnmt npe-
nonaram, uro pexrnmxn mymxr n xpnuar no npemx nrpt. ce ro,
uro nponcxonr na ynnne n uero x ne mory ocmorpert~ pyxamn, a
nnmt snam co cnon pyrnx, npecrannxercx mne n ymentmennom
nne. o xora x nenocpecrnenno nocnpnnnmam uro-nno npn no-
momn ocxsannx - ey n anroyce, ocmarpnnam uro-nnyt, nepexoxy
ynnny, tnam n merpo n r. .,- rora nce npecrannxercx mne n
cnoem narypantnom nne n pasmepe.
cnn x nontramct ntpasnrt cnon npecrannennx no+rnuecxnm
xstxom, ro +ro yer npnmepno rax: ncx xnsnt, xoropax nporexaer
noxpyr, orenena or menx crexnxnno creno~. pxune nmn nnxr
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nce oxpyxammee n moryr paccxasart mne o +rom, no, xax rontxo x
saxouy nenocpecrnenno nocnpnnxrt +ry xnsnt, es nomomn spxunx
n cntmamnx, x nartxamct na ronxym crexnxnnym creny~, xoropax
xaxercx mne nacroxme xnracxo~ creno. mnoroe o xnsnn
snam, no spnrentno n n nne cnyxontx nocnpnxrn ee ne omymam.
rpannax xomnara
noro pas x tnana n xomnare y apnn nxonaennt, no nourn
ncera npoxonna no xomnare c ee nomomtm. na, xax nmesnax xo-
sxxa, cnemnna mne nancrpeuy, xora sameuana, uro mne nyxno
ntrn ns xomnart nnn nepececrt na pyroe mecro. ecxontxo pas x
cnennantno oxonna ncm xomnary nx roro, urot npecrannrt cee
ee pasmept, ocranonxy n np. em ne menee +ra xomnara xnnxercx
nx menx xaxo-ro saraouno: mne npecrannxercx, uro n ne mnoro
yrnon n uro xaxt pas, xora x tnam y . ,, nce nemn paccran-
nent yxe ne rax, xax pantme,- na pyrne mecra. nom xe xomnary
x mory npecrannrt n nmo momenr, nesanncnmo or roro, re x na-
xoxyct: mory npecrannrt ee n nenom nnn xaxym nemt n orent-
nocrn, mory npecrannrt mecro, re naxonrcx ror nnn nno npe-
mer n annt momenr. nonom, n cnoe xonare x opnenrnpymct co-
nepmenno camocroxrentno. omomt xe . ., xora x tnam y nee,
ne aer mne nosmoxnocrn sanomnnrt, a norom npecrannrt na pac-
croxnnn +ry xomnary - xaxt ee yron, npemer n r. . axe ce-
uac, xora o +rom nnmy, x sarpynxmct cxasart, no xaxym cropony
nepn naxoxrcx oxno, nnan, xponart n pyrne npemert.
pecrannenne noun
rxya-ro x nosnpamanact omo c apne nxonaenno. Ftno
uacon 7 neuepa, npemx ne nosnee nx necennero neuepa, no menx no-
pasnn yxnantno nouno sanax, xoroptm tn nactmen nosyx. et
remnory noun n cner nx x ne mory npecrannrt spnrentno, a nnmt
nmem remneparypnte n oonxrentnte npecrannennx. +ror xe ne-
uep, ecnn t x ne snana, xoropt uac, ro nenpemenno t noymana,
uro yxe nacrynnna nout... Bna x no ynnne n ne nepnna, uro +ro ne-
uep. a, x tna t paa, ecnn t yxe nacrynnna nout... nora x
nmnm nrn no ynnne rnxo renno noutm, npecrannxx npn +rom,
uro x ny conepmenno ona. ce xpyrom rnxo-rnxo, n omax samon-
xna nennax xnsnt n mym, nmn cnxr, remnte npxmoyrontnnxn
oxon ne ocnemamr ynnnt xomnarntm cnerom. nxro ne snaer, uro x
ny no ynnne ona n nnuero ne omct. n raxnx cnyuaxx mne xo-
uercx npecrannrt nout roxe n opase onnoxo xenmnnt.
urot oorn semnm, ona nesamerno ntcxantstnaer ns yennen-
noro oma, yxyranmnct remntm noxptnanom, ner noxpyr ropoa,
pasnnnax sanaxn nouno ctpocrn n nanenax npoxnay cnonm nnn-
ntm noxptnanom. ne ncnomnnamrcx crnxn yxoncxoro:
nout monuannnax mnpno
omna no opore +]npne.
ecnep nernr nepe ne
npexpacno snesom cnoe.
ora-ro x ocmarpnnana crarym ora epmeca, cnxmero n saym-
unno nose. ero oynn npnxpennent xptntmxn. nor ecnep
npecrannxercx mne n opase nerxmero epmeca: n ono pyxe on
epxnr na nnnnom penxe ropxmym snesy - x cnonno omymam py-
xo n nonepxnocrtm nnna cner or +ro snest; pyrym pyxy on npo-
crep na semne, yro xenax orpanrt cnxmnx nme or ncxxnx
rpenor.
enx moryr cnpocnrt, nouemy x rax uacro nnrnpym crnxn, xora
onnctnam xaxo-nno +nnso.
uent npocro, x nmnm crnxn, n xoroptx onnctnamrcx xaprnnt
npnpot, no onn amr mne nosmoxnocrt ne rontxo n no+rnuecxnx
opasax, no n n opasax onee nnn menee xonxperntx npecrannxrt
raxne xnnennx npnpot, xoropte x ne mory nn nnert, nn cntmart.
anpnmep, nmnm crnxn o rpose, a net nanmart rposy x mory
rontxo c nomomtm pyxn, xora x epxy ee na crexne oxna nnn na
pyrom nnpnpymmem npemere. cnn xe npn +rom x yy pyro
pyxo unrart crnxn o rpose, ro nonyuy ncrnnnoe nacnaxenne, no-
opaxax, uro nanmam ncm pocxomnym xaprnny rpost.
noro pas x nepeunrtnana ecnt o Fypenecrnnxe~ . . opt-
xoro, n ncera c onnaxontm nonnennem.
rax, crnxn nx menx ne rontxo mystxa cnon, no n neuro
ontmee.
Fnaroapx crnxam x mnoroe, uero ne nnxy n ne cntmy, nepexo
npecrannxm, nepoxrno, ne xyxe spxunx n cntmamnx,- nepexnnam
+monnonantno ro xe, uro n nce pyrne nmn. axnm opasom, n pas-
nnunte crnxn o noun cnococrnonann romy, uro x nmem n xonxper-
noe, n ornneuennoe no+rnuecxoe npecrannenne o noun.
ne rontxo no-cnoemy npecrannxm nout, no uacro nmnm ee
noxo n rnmnny, nocnpnnnmam ee necennee oaxnne n xpacory.
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uro mne npecrannxercx noutm
e cnnrcx mne noutm... cxuecxn crapamct sacrannrt cex yc-
nyrt, no +ro mne ne yaercx. npoym cunrart o cra n oparno -
ne nomoraer! npoym nexart nenonnxno n nn o uem ne ymart...
naxo mtcnn nacrounno nesyr n ronony, n x ymam... o mnorom
ymam.
pyr mne nouemy-ro saxorenoct npecrannrt npamenne emnn
ne rontxo noxpyr cnoe ocn, no n noxpyr onnna. ennunny semnoro
mapa x, xoneuno, ne npecrannxm, rax xe xax ne moxer npecra-
nnrt n nnxro ns spxunx nme. rontxo snam, uro nnanera nama
nennxa.
pamenne emnn noxpyr cnoe ocn n noxpyr onnna x npecra-
nnxm rax: mtcnenno x uepuy .n nosyxe npoonronaroe samxnyroe
xontno - n nne +nnnnca. +ror +nnnnc x nomemam necxontxo no-
opaxaemtx mapnxon: cxaxem, - emnx~, - nenrp mapnxa .
nxnatnam nronxy rax, urot ee npornnononoxnte xonnt ocra-
nannct na nonepxnocrn mapnxa; +ro - semnax oct n nonmct. am
ronuox, n mo mapnx-3emnx~ naunnaer npamartcx noxpyr cnoe
ocn. pamaercx mapnx ouent tcrpo, n ecnn c raxo xe tcrporo
nnxercx semno map, ro mne npecrannxmrcx n mnponom npocrpan-
crne nnxpn orpomno cnnt, x cnonno omymam oranennt mym n
cnncr +rnx nnxpe... o mo mapnx-3emnx~ onxen nmert ne rontxo
npamarentnoe, no n nocrynarentnoe nnxenne. ntnpam pyro
mapnx F, nomemam ero n onpeenennym rouxy n +nnnnce, +ro
onnne~.
nacroxmn momenr mox emnx~ naxonrcx anexo or onn-
na~. o ona nocrenenno npnnnxaercx x nemy... onnne~ roxe nn-
xercx cnonm nyrem, no, xora x nemy npnnnxaercx emnx~, ono
ne yeraer or nee, nnaue mox emnx~ nnxora t ne oornyna ero.
ceuac ona nocrenenno oxonr conneunym opnry n cnona ya-
nxercx or nero.
pyrne mapnxn - +ro pasnnunte nnanert name conneuno cn-
cremt. nn roxe n moem npecrannennn nnxyrcx no cnonm opn-
ram, npamaxct n noxpyr cnoe ocn, n noxpyr onnna~.
Ftrt moxer, xomy-nnyt +ro moe npecrannenne noxaxercx
cnnmxom nannntm, no x net ne nperenym na xaxne-nno nosna-
nnx n onacrn acrponomnn. nnmt nemnoro snaxoma c coornercr-
nymme nnreparypo, n nor y menx cosanoct raxoe npecrannenne
o nnxennn name emnn, onnna n pyrnx nnaner. ne xaxercx,
uro no raxnm xe saxonam nporexaer nnxenne pyrnx conneuntx
"ncrem.
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pecrannenne o camonere
pexe uem mne yanoct nenocpecrnenno, r. e. npn nomomn
ocxsannx, osnaxomnrtcx c moentm camonera, x uacro cnpamnnana y
spxunx, xax ntrnxnr camoner, xaxnm on xaxercx, xora nernr pe-
mmnm nonerom, xaxnm npecrannxercx, xora nernr ouent ntcoxo,
n r. .
axt uro-nnyt paccxastnan mne o ycrpocrne camonera n
o rom, xaxnm on xaxercx no npemx nonera. o +ro tnn rontxo
paccxast, a nacroxmn camoner - ero nnemnn nn, xopnyc n npo-
une erann - x nce-raxn ne npecrannxna. naxt xro-ro samernn,
uro, xora camoner nernr nnsxo, on rax n xaxercx camonerom, no
nnmt rontxo nonnmaercx ntcoxo, ro cnntno ymentmaercx n pasmepe
n cranonnrcx noxoxnm na nerxmym nrnny.
pannenne camonera c nerxme nrnne nectma nomorno mne npe-
crannrt ero xorx t ntcoxo nerxme nrnne. nrnn x nnena - ne
rontxo uyuena, no n xnntx, n uacrnocrn omamnmm nrnny: xyp,
yrox, ryce. xorx x snana, uro onn ne moryr ntcoxo nerart, nce xe
nx noner x morna cee npecrannrt xorx t na nnsxom paccroxnnn.
rax, nerxmym nrnny-camoner x npecrannxna onontno xcno.. e
yananoct rontxo npecrannrt ry ntcory, na xoropo naxonrcx ca-
moner, xora on xaxercx noxoxnm na nrnny.
axonen, nacrynnn ent, n xoropt x nonyunna nosmoxnocrt os-
naxomnrtcx c moentm camonera. uro xe? xasanoct, uro moe
npecrannenne o camonere, nocne roro xax ero cpannnnn c nrnne,
coornercrnyer ero ecrnnrentnomy nnemnemy nny, xoneuno, nnmt
ornocnrentno.
enept x snam, uro camonert tnamr pasnnuno nennunnt. o
cnon spxunx mne nsnecrno, uro, uem antme naxonrcx xaxo-nno
. npemer or roro mecra, c xoroporo ero nanmamr, rem mentmnm on
xaxercx.
nax npnnnsnrentnym nennunny camonera, x xax yro mory
npecrannrt cee, xax nocrenenno ymentmaercx on, yanxxct or
semnn.
pecrannxm, xax camoner oropnancx or semnn, xax nocrenenno
nanpaer cxopocrt.
ora camoner rontxo nonnmancx, x naroapx nnpannn nos-
yxa nnn orpaxammero nnpannm npemera, ecnn x epxana na ra-
xom npemere pyxn, omymana mym moropon. o mepe roro xax ca-
moner yanxncx, nnpannn cranonnnnct nce cnaee n cnaee. ne na-
unnano xasartcx, uro camoner n camom ene ymentmaercx. axonen,
nnpannn concem npexpamannct. rora x npecrannxna cee con-
cem manentxym, ntcoxo nerxmym nrnuxy nmecro orpomnoro xopnyca
192
camonera, penymero moropamn n momno paccexammero nosyx cnon-
mn rxxentmn xptntxmn.
ax-ro mne npnmnoct unrart crnxn . ononoro, n xoroptx
ecrt raxne crpoxn:
oconnyx ntcoxn,
n nee anexn
a crentm xpyxnr camoner...
ne nenonxrno, nouemy anrop cpannnnaer camoner c noconny-
xom. xopomo snam noconnyxn, no axe n ro npemx, xora x eme
ne nmena nnxaxoro npecrannennx o camonerax, x nce xe ne morna
t npecrannrt nx n nne nerxmnx noconnyxon. Ftrt moxer, no+r
nocnontsonancx raxo opasno mera]opo nx roro, urot art
unrarenxm nonxrne, uro n noconnyx n camoner onnaxono rxnyrcx
x connny.
ne]rxntx ntmxax
uro raxoe ne]rt n xax ona otnaercx, o +rom x snana anno,
a eme n ono xnnre x npounrana ouent xopomn paccxas o ot-
nannn ne]rn n Faxy. nrop npocro n xcno onnctnan, xax cnepnxr
ne]rxnte cxnaxnnt, xax cranxr na nnmn ntmxn, xax uepnamr
ne]rt ns cxnaxnnt. s paccxasa x ysnana eme n o rom, uro uacro
ne]rt ter c ontmo cnno n, ecnn ee ne ycnemr copart, ona pa-
crexaercx no semne pyutxmn,
ocne npourennx paccxasa x nexoropoe npemx n pasymte cn-
ena sa cronom, crapaxct npecrannrt ne]rxnte ntmxn,- onn mne
npecrannxnnct n ]opme onpoxnnyrtx nnepx nom ontmnx neep.
urot npecrannrt cxnaxnny, ns xoropo ter ne]rt, x cnauana
npecrannna xonoen (n epenne x xauana noy ns xonona) n cpan-
nnna ero co cxnaxnno. sxn necxontxo nncron uncro ymarn, x
cnepnyna nx n rpyxy -n nauana coopyxart na crone ne]rxnte nt-
mxn~, mtcnenno npoypannnnax no nnmn ne]rxnte cxnaxnnt.
urot nonyunrt npecrannenne o pyuexax rexyme no nonepxno-
crn semnn ne]rn, x cnauana npecrannna nponnrym na non noy, a
sarem pyutn oxeno not no npemx ontmoro oxx.
ora x tna ocoenno ynneuena otnannem ne]rn~, xo mne
noomna yunrentnnna n cnpocnna, uro x enam n o uem rax cocpe-
orouenno ymam. nauana e oxcnxrt, xax otnamr ne]rt n
Faxy. axercx, moe oxcnenne tno nnonne ronxono, noromy uro
yunrentnnna ynnnenno cnpocnna:
- t ram tna?
- er, nt xe snaere, uro x nnxya ne yesxana.
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axas 812
- rxya xe rt rax xopomo snaemt o otnannn ne]rn?
- npounrana onn paccxas n nce npecrannna rax, xax ceuac
paccxastnana nam. oopasnre, uro +rn rpyt - ntmxn, a no nnmn
naxoxrcx ne]rxnte cxnaxnnt. o ecnn mnoro ne]rn, ona nor rax n
noreuer...- n x nponena nantnem or rpyxn o xpax crona.
- uent nepno npecrannx.emt, moxemt npounrart mnamnm
pexram nexnnm o otnannn ne]rn n Faxy,-cxasana yunrent-
nnna, no x ne nonxna, myrnr ona nnn ronopnr ceptesno.
uro xacaercx ropoa Faxy, ro x nnoxo ero npecrannxm, noromy
uron npounrannom paccxase onnctnaercx rontxo ro mecro, re o-
tnamr ne]rt.
y~:
a nxx onn mo xopomn snaxomt yexan, n mxnt ropo.
ax rontxo x ysnana, uro on yxe yexan, menx oxnarnno nectma
crpannoe omymenne-x roxe noexana~... auanoct +ro nor c uero:
non no monmn noramn nauan xoneartcx n nnpnponart conep-
menno rax, xax +ro tnaer npn nnxennn noesa. yxnantno noc-
npnnnmana nnpannm narona, naponosnte ryxn, ocranonxn na cran-
nnxx n r. .
oneuno, xenesnoopoxnte noesxn mne anno snaxomt, no+ro-
my raxoe omyrnmoe npecrannenne o nnxymemcx noese, n xoropom
x xax yro naxoxyct, nnxoro ne onxno ynnnxrt. nem n noutm
x npetnana n +rom crpannom cocroxnnn. nena nn x, xonna nn x,
pasronapnnana, ena, paorana - nce panno x nensmenno exana~,
xorx na camom ene mt paorann sa nnctmenntm cronom.
pamaxct x . ., x cxasana:
- t ymaere, on onn yexan? ey nmecre c nnm, x omymam
ryxn, nnpannn, cryx xonec. nn ronopxr: y, ey, ey, ey...
rnx-rax, rnx-rax, rnx-rax, rnx-rax~.
net conepmenno raxoe xe omymenne x ncntrtnana n camom
ene, xora exana n noese.
a rpern ent nocne oresa moero snaxomoro x pemnna, uro on
yxe npntn n ror mxnt ropo. roxe nepecrana exart~; noxpyr
menx n no mne nce tno cnoxono, n noes mne ontme ne npecran-
nxncx... aro renept npecrannxnoct mope: xasanoct, nenpeptnno na
epery nnemyr, xax pacnnannennoe crexno, nonnt, ro noxynamme
nacxonte, ro cepnro orranxnnammne... enx oamr ptsrn, mne
uynrcx sanax mopx. pecrannxercx rennt necox, snaxomt
nnxx, re nexnr n saropaer mo ronapnm.
a xonnepre n xnye cnentx
nmo menx npnrnacnnn na xonnepr n xny cnentx. onnepr tn
nocnxmen roonmnne onercxo pmnn. a mno saexan mo snaxo-
mt . ., conponoxana menx . . onan n xny, x nemnoro pac-
repxnact, ysnan, uro yyr ntcrynart aprncrt-nennt, xoroptx x
nce panno ne ycntmy.
o ncxope nce nomno npexpacno! . . nepenonna mne rexcr
necen n pomancon, a sa pyrym pyxy menx epxan . . n nnxe-
nnxmn cnoe pyxn nepeanan mne pnrm mystxn. oneuno, nacrox-
me menonn x ne npecrannxna, no pnrm mystxn coornercrnonan
pnrmy crnxon, n yxe ono +ro ocrannxno mne ontmoe yonontcr-
nne. epoxrno, . . +ro nonxn, noromy uro, xax norom mne coo-
mnna . ., y nero tn ropxecrnymmn nn uenonexa, conepmnn-
mero ontmoe eno n ropxmerocx nm. oneuno, emy tno npnxrno
cosnanart, uro on, xax ymen, nepeanan mne ro, uero x nnxora ne
ycntmy.
a cneymmn ent nocne xonnepra x nnranact no cnoe xom-
nare coornercrnenno romy pnrmy, xoropt nocnpnnnmana uepes
cyxy.
nnrepecax, xoropte yxnatnamrcx~ n ono
nnocxocrn
onxna oronopnrtcx, uro n anno xnnre ne pas yyr ncrpe-
uartcx raxne mecra, re x cpannnnam uro-nno c ]opmo xya, mapa,
xonyca, xpyra, xnapara, npxmoyrontnnxa n r. . oneuno, ecnn t x
npenapnrentno ne tna snaxoma c +rnmn reomerpnuecxnmn ]nry-
pamn, ro ne morna t enart noontx cpannenn. oome ronopx,
es snannx n npecrannennx onnx npemeron x ne morna t
cpannnnart nx c pyrnmn npemeramn, a raxxe nonnmart mera]opy
n xyoxecrnenno nnreparype.
euac mne npnnomnnamrcx orentnte cnyuan, xora x eme ne
morna nonxrt ornneuenntx cyxenn, mera]opnuecxnx cpannenn,
a nonnmana nce n yxnantnom cmtcne. 3ro nectma npenno xcnomy
npecrannennm roro, o uem mne paccxastnann n uero x ne morna n
ror momenr ocmorpert pyxamn.
ax, nanpnmep, n xaxo-ro xnnre x npounrana ]pasy: x nnre-
pect yxnatnamrcx n ony nnocxocrt~.
uro +ro morno t snaunrt? ne conepmenno oruernnno npe-
crannxnact nnocxocrt snaxomtx cronon, nnocxocrt nona, axe pon-
"I
nte cnentx crynten... oome, npecrannxnnct ncenosmoxnte nno-
cxocrn n rnaxocrn; nce npecrannxnoct ponntm, nnuero nocropon-
nero, uro morno t napymart rnaxym nonepxnocrt, mne ne npe-
crannxnoct, rem onee xaxne-ro nx nnrepect~...
exoropoe npemx x ouent myunrentno nepexnnana +ror, ceuac
cront npocro n nonxrnt mne ]axr. tcnenno x co ncex cropon n
xonnon noxonna x +ro saraouno nnocxocrn c nx nnrepecamn~
n n xonne xonnon npecrannna cee ouent cxontsxn, xopomo narep-
rt non n name naoparopnn, re croxnn rnaxne cront, cryntx,
ncenosmoxnte npnopt... oome, ram tno mnoro ouent nnrepec-
ntx neme, xoropte n samennnn mne utn-ro nnrepect~, cnnnan-
mnecx n neocrynnym moemy nonnmannm n npecrannennm nno-
cxocrt~.
rom, xax mne nepenoxr cnexraxnn
ax-ro x tna na neuepe n xnye rnyxonemtx. tuno na ra-
xnx neuepax xpyxxn xyoxecrnenno camoexrentnocrn cranxr
ntect n nncnennponxn. +ror pas n uncne pyrnx nomepon crann-
nact nncnennponxa opomne manept~. apnx nxonaenna ne ront-
xo nepenonna pasronop ecrnymmnx nnn, no no nosmoxnocrn cra-
panact nocnponsnonrt nx xecrt n nnxennx. 3ro ouent nomorno
mne npecrannxrt nponcxonnmee na cnene. ax, nanpnmep, xora
uenonex, oyuanmncx xopomnm manepam, onpoxnnyn na cron cra-
xan c uaem, cxnarnn cno nocono nnarox n nauan nm ntrnpart
cron, a sarem cran ntxnmart nnarox, . . nce +ro nsopasnna
cnonmn pyxamn, n x cmexnact nmecre c pyrnmn. pnnnsnrentno
rax ona nepenonna mne ncm nncnennponxy, n raxo nepeno ocra-
nnn mne yonontcrnne.
naunrentno nosnee mt nocernnn pyro neuep rnyxonemtx n
ome omson. rannnn ntecy, n xoropo yuacrnonann rontxo ne
xenmnnt. nn nce npemx nenn mexy coo pasronop, a ncx nx nrpa
saxnmuanact n ymennn nepeart ntpaxennem nnna n pyrnmn mn-
mnuecxnmn xecramn uyncrna, conponoxanmne +ror pasronop.
apnx nxonaenna nepenonna mne rontxo coepxanne nx e-
cet, n +ro ne nponsneno na menx nnxaxoro nneuarnennx.
rxponenno ronopx, x axe ne npecrannxna cee nn cnent, nn
+rnx nyx xenmnn. ne xasanoct, uro nnepen menx. nycrora, a
. . xax yro paccxastnaer uro-ro cxyunoe nnn roponnnno unraer
no xnnre. nauana cxyuart...
ocne neuepa, xora mt c nopyro ennnnct nneuarnennxmn o
+ro ntece, ona cornacnnact co mno, uro, ne nnx nnna aprncron,
ona t roxe cxyuana.
- yxno tno nnert nx nnna nx roro, urot sannrepeco-
nartcx nteco. nmnxa y nnx tna sameuarentnax, n n +rom saxnm-
uancx nect nnrepec nocranonxn,- samernna mox nopyra.
xnno
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spexa x tnam n xnno. nnrepecymct xnnoxaprnnamn, no, no
npane cxasart, nx menx nyume npocnymart coepxanne xaxo-
nnyt xaprnnt ne no npemx camoro ceanca, a ecnn xro-nnyt pac-
cxastnaer mne, npenapnrentno npocmorpen ]nntm. ouemy xe +ro
rax?~ - cnpocxr y menx.
nor nouemy: xora mne nepenoxr xaprnny no npemx ceanca, ro
otuno nepenoxmn cnemnr paccxasart nce ro, uro nnnr n annt
momenr. epenounx roponnrcx, cam nce nocnpnnnmaer nourn mexa-
nnuecxn, a n moe nnnmanne nennxom cocpeoroueno na rom, urot
nocnpnnxrt cnona, a mtcnt ne ycnenaer pnconart opast nepcona-
xe, ocranonxy n nesaxn. coenno rpyno tnaer n rex cnyuaxx,
xora na +xpane noxastnamr nesnaxomte mne nemn, r. e. raxne, xo-
ropte x nnxora ne ocmarpnnana pyxamn: ropt, mopx, nycrtnn, ne-
snaxomtx xnnorntx. cnn xe mne nepeamr coepxanne ]nntma
oma, paccxasunx ne cnemnr n moxer necxontxo pas nonropnrt ro,
uero x ne pasopana nnn ne concem xcno npecrannxm.
eanno x nonana na xaprnny nuypnn~. . . nepenonna t-
crpo, x ne ycnenana uerxo npecrannrt opas nuypnna, ero xent
n pyrnx ecrnymmnx nnn. o xora . , nepenena mne, uro na
+xpane noxnnncx nect n nnery ca, x ero npecrannna conepmenno
xcno - n nent ca, n orentnte epentx; mne axe xasanoct na
ono nnmt mrnonente, uro x omyrnna nexnt apomar nnerymnx
]pyxrontx epenten. nyunnoct +ro noromy, uro, xora x eme yun-
nact n aptxoncxo xnnnnxe, y nac paorana yunrentnnna, y xoro-
po tn ]pyxront ca. axo necno x esnna x ne n camocro-
xrentno oxonna nect nnerymn ca, ocmarpnnax na xaxom e-
pene nncrouxn n nnert. oneuno, x ne npecrannxna, nacxontxo ne-
nnx ca nuypnna; n moem npecrannennn npocro nosnnx (xax t
na nexoropom paccroxnnn or menx) oropoxennt ca c nnerymnmn
epentxmn n naroyxammnmn xycramn pos. r onoro epena x py-
romy nepexonn uenonex c manentxo xncrouxo n pyxax, c neep-
xamn n caontmn noxnnnamn. 3ror uenonex npecrannxncx mne
ouent optm, nnnmarentntm n ceptesntm crapnxom. epentxm
on npnxacancx ocropoxno, cnonno oxncx, uro moxer nm nonpenrt
pesxnm nnxennem.
a cneymmn ent nocne roro, xax mt cmorpenn ]nntm, . .
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moem
ononnnna cno nepecxas sro xaprnnt, naroapx uemy
npecrannennn nosnnx opas oporo crapnxa- nana nanmnpo-
nnua nuypnna.
ax x npecrannxm ro, uro nponcxonr na cnene
nora x xoxy na xaxo-nnyt nnrepecnt xonnepr rnyxone-
mtx n ome omson. 3rn xonneprt ornnuamrcx or xonnepron nn
spxunx n cntmamnx rem, uro na nnx ne ntcrynamr aprncrt -
nennt, mystxanrt, urent n exnamaropt.
uame ncero nporpamma cocrannena ns nomepon xnoynon, axpoa-
ron, pasnnuntx ]oxycnnxon n rannonmnn.
axne nomepa nx menx manoocrynnt, a cneonarentno, n ne
ocoenno nnrepecymr menx.
ne otuno nepecxastnann nce re ]oxyct, xoropte npoentna-
nnct na cnene, n, ecnn npn +rom x morna cnenrt sa nnxennxmn ne-
penounnt, rora cnena ne xasanact mne nycrom, x nepnna, uro ram
ecrnnrentno uro-ro nponcxonr. o tno eme nyume, xora x
cnena n nepnom pxy - ouent nnsxo or cnent. ora x omymana
ronor nor no npemx rannen. raxne mnnyrt mne ecrnnrentno
npecrannxnnct nmn na cnene, no ne cmemnte, ne crpamnte, a ca-
mte otxnonennte.
ne onnctnann ]acon n nner xocrmmon axpoaron n rannon-
mnn; nner x concem ne npecrannxna, a ]acon npecrannxna n rex
cnyuaxx, ecnn on tn xort nemnoro cxox c xaxnm-nnyt pyrnm
yxe snaxomtm mne ]aconom.
omnnrcx raxo cnyua. o cnent oxnnnn, uro ceuac ncnon-
nnr xanxascxne rannt aprncr, oert n nannonantnt xocrmm. a-
xoro xocrmma x nnxora ne nnena, no, xora ncnonnnrent rannen
nauan rannenart n x, cnx n nepnom pxy, omyrnna oxym pot
ero or, mne noxasanoct, uro x nourn oruernnno npecrannxm cee
+roro nnxmymero uenonexa. n npecrannncx mne cpenero pocra
(xorx mne ne cxasann, xaxoro on pocra), co cmemmnmcx nnnom, t-
crptmn, ynepenntmn nnxennxmn. epxnmm uacrt xocrmma x xcno
ne npecrannxna, no saro mne npecrannxnnct mnpoxne, pasnenam-
mnecx no npemx ranna pyxana, nnxnmm uacrt xocrmma x npecran-
nxna n nne mnpoxnx maponap. Fnaroapx romy uro x omymana
snyxn mystxn (poxnt) n ronor nor, x npecrannxna, xax tcrpo, c
xaxnm ynneuennem nnxcan xanxasen.
ro ranen c ornem (rax ymana x) sapasnn menx: x cama tna
na+nexrpnsonana n tna rorona noxnxcrtcx, uro nnxy rannymmero,
uro ocmarpnnam pyxamn ero ]nrypy, ero uexment c pasnenammnmncx
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pyxanamn, ero pasropxuennoe rannem nnno, n mne xasanoct, uro on
concem ne ycran, a, naoopor, mnpoxo yntaercx, noxastnax xpyn-
nte, cnonno ntrouennte syt.
nuero +roro mne nnxro ne ronopnn. pas nnxmymero aprncra
nosnnx n moem npecrannennn rontxo noromy, uro x omymana nn-
pannn neceno mystxn n oxn, pont ronor nor.
ora ranen xonunncx, san paspasnncx ypntmn annoncmen-
ramn c ronorom nor. roxe annonponana, no noramn ne ronana n
axe ocaonana na nynnxy sa +ro. mecre c pyrnmn x onro an-
nonponana, xorx noome pexo annonpym... ror neuep x nony-
unna ontmoe yonontcrnne or xonnepra n nepnynact omo n ouent
opom nacrpoennn.
axnmn mne xaxyrcx xaprnnt
ora x tnam n mysexx n ror, xro menx conponoxaer, xouer
nepecxasart mne nsopaxennoe na xaxo-nno xaprnne, x cnymam c
nnrepecom, no ne ncera npecrannxm xaprnny raxo, xaxona ona
n ecrnnrentnocrn.
cnn na xaprnne nsopaxent npemert, xoropte x pantme
ocmarpnnana (nanpnmep, nmn, epentx, rponnnxn, snaxomte mne
nrnnt n xnnornte), rora x cocrannxm npnnnsnrentnoe npecran-
nenne o xaprnne. cnn xe na xaprnne nsopaxaercx, nanpnmep,
conneunt nocxo nnn saxar, pasnnunte nesaxn nnn ymymmee
mope c nornammnm napoxoom, rora x npecrannxm conepmenno
rnaxym nonepxnocrt nonorna xaprnnt, x xoropo npnxacamct py-
xamn, a connne nnn mope npecrannxmrcx mne orentno, nesanncnmo
or xaprnnt n raxnmn, xaxnmn x nx nocnpnnnmam n npnpoe: connne
corpenaer menx cnonmn nyuamn, a mope nnemercx y monx nor, oa-
nax menx xacxaamn ptsr; mne uynrcx axe cnenn]nuecxn sanax
mopx.
xox ns mysex, x mory ncnomnnrt o xaprnnax, n mne onn npe-
crannxmrcx n raxom xe pasmepe, n xaxom x nx nocnpnnnmana: npe-
crannxercx crexno, ecnn xaprnna tna no crexnom, npecrannxercx
pama - rnaxax nnn c nnxpycrannxmn, no ne nesaxn, r. e. ne
xpacounte nnt; mne ncnomnnaercx rontxo coepxanne, rontxo
cmtcn onncannx, a eme rent uero-ro nexcnoro. o+romy x npeno-
unram cxyntnrypy, xax nnonne ocrynnym moemy raxrnntnomy spe-
nnm~, a cneonarentno, n nonnmannm. o nocxontxy x nontsymct
xstxom spxunx n cntmamnx nme, nocxontxy x unram xyoxecr-
nennym nnreparypy, ro nnonne morna t paccxasart - n, nepoxrno,
ne xyxe spxunx - o xaxo-nno xaprnne, xoropym nnxora ne nn-
ana, no, snax coepxanne roro, uro na ne nsopaxeno, rem xe
xstxom, remn xe ]pasamn, uro n cntmamne nmn. nymammn
menx uenonex, nanepnoe, ne nonepnn t, uro x nnxora ne nnena
annym xaprnny rnasamn. naxo n cnonx paorax x nnmy rontxo
npany n ne xouy npnnnctnart cee ro, uero x ne nnena n uero ne
npecrannxm.
npoxexropax
apnx nxonaenna paccxastnana o rom, xax tno xpacnno no
npemx canmra oet 9 ax. na ronopnna o cnnem uncrom nee,
neno-ronytx nyuax npoxexropon n pasnonnerntx ornxx paxer.
o nocxontxy +ro tnn rontxo spnrentnte opast, x, x coxanennm,
nnuero ne morna npecrannrt. amernn, uro ee paccxas ne nponsnonr
na menx xenaemoro nneuarnennx, ona npnernyna x nomomn onee
narnxnoro~ nsopaxennx. ecramn ona nsopasnna neo n nne
xynona na semne, sarem nonxna nnepx pyxn c pacrontpenntmn
nantnamn, onxencrnonanmnmn nsopaxart nyun npoxexropon, n
naueprnna n nosyxe ontmo xpyr.
- pecrannxere? or +ro xynon nea, a xpyrom - nyun, nyun...
oneuno, x ne morna npecrannrt nner nea n xpyrom nyun,
nyun~, no npnnnsnrentno npecrannna, mtcnenno naueprnn nnnnm
xpyra na ronono n n none +roro xpyra nnnnte crpent nyue npo-
xexropon (raxnmn nouemy-ro mne npecrannxmrcx ncxxne nyun).
tcnenno ynennunnax nx n nnny, x morna npecrannrt nx ecxo-
neuno nnnntmn,, nponsammnmn nosyx na nensmepnmo ntcore.
poxor xe canmra x morna npecrannrt cee rontxo no nnpannxm
nosyxa, ecnn t epxana pyxn na nnpnpymmem npemere.
ynnct. nant. ranaxrnrt
ora x nauana unrart xnnrn, ro naxonna n nnx crontxo neno-
nxrntx cnon, uro ne ycnenana cnpamnnart y cnonx nearoron o sna-
uennn roro nnn nnoro cnona. nexoroptx cnonax x oratnanact
no snaxomo mne ]pase, x pyrnm npocro npnntxna n co npemenem
nayunnact nx npannntno ynorpenxrt.
exoropte cnona xasannct mne ouent nonxrntmn, x tna yne-
pena, uro npannntno nmn nontsymct, no na ene oxastnanoct, uro
x omnanact: npecrannxx cee opas~ cnona, x rem ne menee ne
npecrannxna ror npemer, xoropt ono oosnauaer, nnn xe npe-
crannxna cee npemer conepmenno omnouno.
ax cnyunnoct co cnonom xynnct~.
nepnte x npounrana +ro cnono n nrennn nernne~: ouer-
nt rpaxannn xynnc~, a nosxe n n pyrnx xnnrax ncrpeuana ]pa-
st: men sa xynnct~, axonnnct sa xynncamn~ n r. n.
ymana, uro +ro ne uro nnoe, xax orropoxennax or spnrene
sanxx uacrt cnent, r. e. npocro ntcoxax neperopoxa, npnuem y
monx xynnc~ tnn ne nepn, a na crene mexy nnmn tnn none-
ment exopannn. rax npnntxna x cnonm xynncam~, uro xora,
unrax om xnsnt n ncxyccrne~ .- . ranncnancxoro, ysnana
ncrnnnt cmtcn +roro cnona, ro tna xpane nsymnena.
ranncnancxn, onnctnax nocranonxy nerypouxn~ . . cr-
poncxoro, paccxastnaer o rom, xax axrept no cocrnenno nnnnna-
rnne enann xynnct: coopyxann ropxn, macrepnnn xycrt, epentx
n r. .
ax nor xaxont nacroxmne xynnct! 3ro nemnoro cnno menx c
ronxy; n nepnoe npemx y menx nosnnxno pasnoennoe npecrannenne
o xynncax (nnn ne napt~ xynnc)- xynnct ranncnancxoro n mon
cocrnennte xynnct~.
osnamct uncrocepeuno: mon xynnct~ mne ontme npannnnct,
noromy uro x x nnm npnntxna, cosana n cnoem noopaxennn +ro
npecrannenne, nocnna ero n cnoe namxrn roamn, xax neuro peant-
noe. oneuno, xynnct ranncnancxoro n nerypouxe~ snaunrentno
nnrepecnee n npanonoonee, uem mon xynnct~. o nx roro
urot npecrannrt cee onncannte ranncnancxnm xynnct, neo-
xonmo tno nomart npnntunoe npecrannenne n cosanart nonte
opast, crapaxct npecrannrt nx raxnmn, xaxont onn ecrt n ecr-
nnrentnocrn. npouem, uepes nexoropoe npemx x yxe morna ntsnart
n cnoem noopaxennn npecrannenne o nacroxmnx xynncax.

onnnno xyoxecrnennoe n npannnoe onncanne n xnnrax nm-
e, npemeron, xnnorntx, npnpot n r. . nepexo aer mne
nosmoxnocrt npecrannxrt mnorne xnnennx, nponcxoxmne n oxpy-
xamme menx xnsnn, no-cnoemy npecrannxrt oxeant, ropt, pemy-
une neca, nycrtnn.
uent anno x npounrana xnnxxy, nasnanne xoropo ne coxpann-
noct n moe namxrn, no ee omee coepxanne x nomnm n renept.
ne xcno npecrannxercx n ra ocranonxa, n xoropo x unrana +ry
xnnxxy.
omnm, uro n nepno uacrn +ro xnnxxn onnctnannct rponn-
uecxne encrnennte neca, re nnant cnonmn momntmn oxrnxmn
ymnnn epentx. unrax o nnanax, x ouent xorena npecrannrt, xax
rnxn croent nnant onnnaercx noxpyr xpenxoro crnona epena.
pana ronxn mnararnx n namartnana ero nancxoct noxpyr cnoe
pyxn. o rax xax eno tno nerom, x ncnomnnna o nxom nnnorpae
n noymana, uro on moxer mne art onee narnxnoe npecrannenne
o nnanax. namem cay x ocmorpena nect nxn nnnorpa, n c rex
nop mne xaxercx, uro n ]opma nncrten y nnan raxax xe, xax y nn-
norpantx, rontxo snaunrentno ontmnx pasmepon.
omnm, x ouent ynnexanact +ro xnnxeuxo - saunrtnanact o
roro, uro nopo conepmenno satnana o rom, re x naxoxyct,
ora xe xro-nnyt noxonn n npnxacancx xo mne, x ncxpnxn-
nana, ncxaxnnana co cryna, noopaxax, uro xo mne nononsna xonn-
rax smex (xora-ro x ocmarpnnana uyueno ramxn, no nx roro, uro-
t npecrannrt cee, nanpnmep, ouxonym smem nnn yana, x
mtcnenno ynennunnana pasmept ramxn, npecrannxx, uro ona nn-
raercx, rnxo nononsax xo mne).
Foxnact x n +rn mnnyrt ne rontxo sme, no n nnan...
o nropo uacrn xnnxxn onnctnannct ontmne n manentxne
nosemnte nemept, co cranaxrnramn n cranarmnramn.
nauane mne ouent rpyno tno pasopartcx, uro raxoe cranax-
rnrt n cranarmnrt, eme rpynee tno npecrannrt nx, no nce +ro
tno upesntuano ynnexarentno. nx roro urot npecrannrt cee
cranaxrnrt n cranarmnrt, x npecrannxna ro manentxne, ro ont-
mne nexnte cocyntxn, mtcnenno cranx nx na semnm nnn none-
mnnax~ x noronxy.
xnnre onnctnannct orpomnte rneruept - nente nosemnte
nopnt, yxpamennte cnepxammnm ntom, necmorpx na ro, uro
cnono cnepxammn~ nx menx uncro acrpaxrnoe nonxrne, n moem
npecrannennn ono roxecrnenno uemy-ro ouent xpacnnomy.
ourn o camosanennx ynnexanact x xpacnntm onncannem n
cocrnenntm npecrannennem cran:axrnron n cranarmnron. pasrape
urennx (nomnnrcx, uro x rora cnena y oxna n cronono) x ncrana
co cryna n nauana pyxamn ocmarpnnart oxno, npocrenox mexy ox-
namn n y]er, noopaxax, uro naxoxyct n rneruepe n ortcxnnam
nexnte yxpamennx.
ecennnm neuepom
uroot
Ftn uynt macxn neuep. ntmna na xptntno,
ysnart, moxno nn ntrn c xnnro n nounrart na nosyxe. Ftno rax
xopomo, uro x nemenenno ntnecna xnnry n ycenact unrart. nos-
yxe ocrpo naxno monoo senentm n neuepne cnexecrtm,
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unrana ceptesnym xnnry, no cocpeorounrtcx na ne no morna:
ornnexan nactmennt pasnnuntmn sanaxamn nerxn nerepox,
nepecrana unrart n saymanact. enx oxnarnno raxoe cocroxnne,
xora xouercx; uro-ro npnnomnnrt nnn npecrannrt, no eme ne
snaemt, uro nmenno, n myunrentno ymaemt: uro xe +ro raxoe?~
nor cnauana mne crano npecrannxrtcx uro-ro neonpeenennoe -
nnmt nexcnte opast n orentnte cnona, na xoroptmn x ymana
nexoropoe npemx. ocrenenno crano xasartcx, uro mox pyxa npnxa-
caercx x xonono nonepxnocrn ontmoro menoro xonoxona,- n
npyr rax xcno npecrannncx nect +ror xonoxon... n menenno npo-
nntn nepe monm ymcrnenntm nsopom, a na ero mecre noxnnnoct
pacxptroe oxno, n y oxna monuannnax xenmnna... a uro xe +ro
raxoe?..-neoymenana x.-x, a! nexcanp Fnox!~
mne npecrannnoct, uro no nycrtnnomy nonm, re yxe ment-
xamr n rycro rpane nonente nnert, ner onnoxn uenonex. n
yxonr nce antme n antme... axonen, x ncnomnnam orptnox:
naxon posonartx nonoxna~...
rontxo nocne aroro x nocneonarentno npecrannna ncm ry
xaprnny-es snyxon n xpacox, a nnmt n raxrnntntx opasax,-
xoropym moryr napnconart cneymmne crnxn Fnoxa:
ntmy xonoxon. none necna.
t pacxptna necente oxna.
ent cmexncx n rac. t cnenna ona
naxon posonartx nonoxna.
or nouemy mne npecrannnnct xonoxon, pacxptroe oxno n xen-
mnna y oxna. nymero no nonm uenonexa x npecrannna noromy,
uro crnxn xonuamrcx cneymmnmn crpoxamn:
xoxy n posonemmn nec,
t sayemt menx, xax npocrnna.
omeuxax~ n o pyrom
ynxx no ynnne c nopyro n ee mareptm, x nonpocnna nx sarn
co mno n marasnn, no, xora mt oxasannct ram, x yxe satna na-
snanne roro, uro xorena xynnrt,- mnnyr nxrt croxna n cocpeoro-
uenno ymana. nauana mne npecrannnact neontmax rnepax
nauxa, xoropym x mtcnenno pacneuarana n pasnepnyna ymary.
.pecrannnnct manentxne npemert n nne npoonronartx, ysxnx
n ronxnx omeuex. yunrentno neprenoct n namxrn cnono, x xcno
xax yro omyntnana nantnamn yxnt, ns xoroptx ono cocronr,
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snana axe, uro +ro cnono cocronr ns nxrn yxn, nn ncnomnnrt ero
mne memann +rn ronentxne omeuxn. mexy rem nopyra ne-
cxontxo pas cnpamnnana, uro xe mne xynnrt.
- ooxn, nooxn, x ceuac +ro cnono ncnomnm... nor ono
neprnrcx!
- uro +ro c roo? uro y rex ram neprnrcx?
- or ceuac... y, xax xe +ro? x! cnomnnna! a]nn!
cnomnnna xe x noromy, uro mne npecrannnact npexe ncero
yxna ]~, sarem cnor ]nn~ n, naxonen, nce cnono na]nn~.
axne cnyuan, xora x satnam nasnanne npemera nnn sarna-
nne xaxo-nno xnnrn, nepexn. ora x crapamct ncnomnnrt nasna-
nne npemeron, ro cnauana mne npecrannxercx px cmemanntx
npemeron,- cpasy necxontxnx npemeron, sarem ns nx uncna ntcry-
namr xonrypt onoro neonpeenennoro npemera, naxonen, x mtc-
nenno ocxsam nent npemer n rora yxe npnnomnnam ero nasna-
nne. cnn xe x satnam nasnanne xaxo-nno xnnrn, mne ncnomn-
namrcx nnn orentnte +nnsot ns +ro xnnrn, nnn ]amnnnn re-
poen, nnn xaxax-nnyt ona, ocoenno nopasnnmax menx ]pasa.
ax, nanpnmep, onaxt x xorena ncnomnnrt nasnanne nponsne-
ennx anrtxona-epnna ocnoa ononnent~. nauana mne
npecrannnact pta, norom ornparnrentnt yymxa, ero necuacr-
nte nnemxnnnnt-axrpnct, eme necxontxo +nnsoon ns +ro xnnrn,
n x, naxonen, ncnomnnna ee nasnanne.
ora mne unrann no asyxe rnyxonemtx spxuym~ xnnry
cannx es ronont~, ro paccxasann xaprnnxy ns +ro xnnrn.
nycrx nexoropoe npemx x xorena ncnomnnrt nasnanne +roro
nponsneennx, no cnauana mne npecrannnoct coepxanne xaprnn-
xn: no crenn ner nomat, a na ne nepxom cnnr uenonex es ro-
nont.
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xnnorntx
eet~
Ftno +ro 22 nmnx. ora . . norxnyna sa cnrnantnym nepe-
nouxy, x ysnana ee n, ne cnema, nomna orxptnart nept, npecran-
nxx npn +rom, uro nor ona noer, mt monua noxmem pyr pyry
pyxn n rontxo uepes necxontxo cexyn saronopnm - rax otuno
tnano. o na +ror pas, nox n xomnary, . ..ne rontxo noxana
mne pyxy, no n nonenonana menx.
- Fytre sopont n cuacrnnnt! - cxasana ona.
nemnoro pacrepxnact.
- uro cnyunnoct? oxer trt, y nac oma nponsomno uro-
nnyt xopomee?
- er, nnuero ne nponsomno.
- o n uem xe eno?
t cenn na raxry, n . . npyunna mne cneprox. pasnepnyna
ero, n ymare oxasanact ontmax nypennna, na xptmeuxe xoropo
tna xaxax-ro ]nrypxa. ce +ro eme ontme osaaunno menx.
- a cxaxnre xe, n uem eno! nnuero ne nonnmam.
- ax ne nonnmaere? - n cnom ouepet ynnnnact . .
- e nonnmam, n nce.
- eronx nam ent poxennx.
- ouemy nt ymaere, uro nmenno ceronx?
- t camn ronopnnn, uro 22 nmnx.
- +roro ne morna cxasart, no nnxora ne npasnonana
22 nmnx. t, nepoxrno, napouno omnnnct~, urot nocxopee noxa-
sart mne +ry ]nrypxy... uro +ro na xptmeuxe?
. . oxcnnna mne. o xora ona ronopnna, uro na xptmeuxe
nsopaxen nacroxmn ent menet, mne noxasanoct - nacrox-
mn ent neet. onro ocmarpnnana ]nrypxy, n xorx nnxora
ne nnena nn xnnoro neex, nn ero uyuena, onaxo samernna, uro
y +ro ]nrypxn ner nnuero neennoro: mex xoporxax, rora xax x
snam, uro y neee nnnnax mex, ne raxax ronona, ne raxoe ryno-
nnme. reuenne nx x necxontxo pas ocmarpnnana ]nrypxy, cra-
paxct ortcxart n ne xort manemee cxocrno c neeem. nuero
ne nax, x pemnna, uro +ro npocro xapnxarypa na neex nnn xe
ouent neyauno cenannoe nsopaxenne. e morna x ycnoxonrtcx
axe noutm - ncrana n cnona npnnxnact ocmarpnnart ]nrypxy.
onapyxnna, uro y ]nrypxn rynonnme xnnornoro, mex xopor-
xax, mopouxa npoonronarax n camoe rnannoe - uertpe nanxn, a
net y neex nx rontxo ne. nauana npecrannxrt pasnnuntx
xnnorntx, n +ro nomorno mne oraartcx, uro x nenpannntno npo-
unrana cnono menet~, x nce npemx unrana ero xax neet~.
oestxnxe
ne ncera ouent xorenoct ocmorpert xnnym oestxnxy, no
raxoro cnyuax ne npecrannxnoct, n n ercrne x onontcrnonanact
rontxo nrpymeuntmn oestxnxamn. Fyyun yxe nspocno, x onax-
t nocernna cnonx snaxomtx, y xoroptx tna manentxax enouxa
n, cneonarentno, nonnax xomnara nrpymex.
enouxa noxasana mne nce cnoe xosxcrno~. or ona nonoxnna
mne na xonenn uro-ro onontno ontmoe. xorena npnxocnyrtcx
x romy, uro nexano, n xax pas nonana pyxo na ronony, orxnyrym
nnmmem. ne crana ocmarpnnart antme n nayra cxasana:
- , +ro mnmxa!?
- er,- orneuana mart peenxa.
ora x nauana ocmarpnnart ncm nrpymxy n onapyxnna y nee
uertpe pyxn. cmorpena ronony, mopy n xnocr. ne npecrann-
nnct re nrpymxn, xoroptmn x n ercrne nrpana.
- 3ro oestxnxa! - ysnana x.
rpymeunym oestxnxy x, xoneuno, morna ocmarpnnart cxontxo
yrono n ymam, uro morna t ysnart xnnym oestxnxy, ecnn t
crana ocmarpnnart ee pyxamn. npouem, comnenamct, uro xnnax
oestxnxa cnena t rax repnennno, nosnonxx mne omyntnart nce
ee reno.
cnn mne npnercx ncrpernrt raxym repnennnym oestxnxy, ro
nenpemenno nocrapamct ysnart ee n sarem npecrannrt n raxom
nne, xaxona ona n ecrnnrentnocrn.
pecrannenne o nepnme
nxro, xoneuno, ne ynnnrcx, ecnn x cxaxy, uro nnxora ne
ocmarpnnana nepnma (ecnn ne cunrart nrpymeuntx). a n re x
morna nnert xnntx nepnmon? soonapxe? a x, nepoxrno,
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nooxnact t rporart pyxamn raxoe ontmoe xnnornoe, xorx n
snam, uro nepnm ne npnunnnn t mne nnxaxoro npea. o eno
n rom, uro nocxontxy x mory cnenrt rontxo sa rem, uro n annt
momenr naxonrcx no moe pyxo, ro nce npouee, uro naxonrcx
nne nonx moero raxrnntnoro spennx~, moxer npecrannxrtcx mne
conepmenno nntm.
cnn, nanpnmep, x yy ocmarpnnart rop nepnma, x mory
noopasnrt, uro +ro emy ne cnnmxom npnxrno n or nero moxno oxn-
art nenpnxrnocre n nne nerepnennntx nnxenn, xoropte x t
nocnpnnxna xax yrpoxammn xecr~. ce xe, nocxontxy x unrana
o nepnmax, mne ouent xorenoct npecrannrt nx pasmept n
ropt.
omnnrcx, yyun eme enouxo n xenax camtm narnxntm o-
pasom npecrannrt nepnma, x onaxt nsxna ontmym noymxy.
xpenxo npnnxsana ee x caono cxamexe, n y menx nonyunnoct xax
t na ropa na nnnnom xnnornom. osxe, xora x npounrana
crnxornopenne epmonrona pn nantmt~, mne npecrannncx ny-
mn n nycrtne xapanan n xontxammnecx na cnnnax nepnmon
nanarxn c nmtmn. cx +ra xaprnna npecrannnact mne xax anno
npncnnnmncx con, es snyxon, es xpacox, no rem ne menee x xa
t omymana ncem cnonm renom nanxmee connne, pacxanennt
necox, ncm esnonym nycrtnm c pacrymnmn y ponnxa rpemx nant
mamn.
pana, nepnmt, nmn, necuante xonmt n nycrtnx npecran-
nxnnct mne n ouent ymentmennom nne,- noxany, nce +ro mornn
nomecrnrtcx na maxmarno ocxe.
snam, uro n ecrnnrentnocrn +ro ne rax, no net pyxamn x
ne mory oxnarnrt ontmoe npocrpancrno, a raxne cnona, xax ropn-
sonr~, ant~, nepcnexrnna~, nx menx nnmt cnonecnte opast,
n ne onee roro; nepnm xe npecrannxercx mne ontmnm xnnor-
ntm, ontme noman, no nacroxme ero nennunnt x ne snam.
ape n nmape
apa - mox xomxa. nmap - ee ctn.
moe xomnare pacxptro oxno. nmap cnnr na nooxonnnxe
n oruero-ro nnmnr: o +rom x snam noromy, uro epxy ero sa me-
xy. my ncnonnnnoct rontxo na mecxna co nx poxennx, on eme
nacrontxo rnynentxn, uro ne pemaercx ntxonrt no nop -
crpamno onrcx npocrpancrna, no nmnr cmorpert no nop n c coxa-
nennem nonncxnnaer.
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o nouemy ceuac on ocoenno ynopno nnmnr, rax pnercx na
xpa nooxonnnxa, na ero nenym cropony? ama orxptra napyxy,
a ne n xomnary.
ocnenn eme necxontxo mnnyr sa noneennem nmapa, x npyr
npecrannxm cee cneymmym xaprnny: x snam, uro naneno or moe-
ro oxna ecrt crapoe xptntno - xora-ro ram tn nxo n om,
renept on nnxnnnponan. ne npecrannxercx, uro apa cnnr na
ono ns crynenex xptntna - nosmoxno axe, uro ne na crynentxe,
a yxe na xapnnse crent. ocxontxy pama orxptra no nop, ona
saropaxnnaer coo ocryn x nooxonnnxy no xapnnsy. nmap
nce cnntnee noptnaercx rya n nnmnr. ne npecrannxercx, uro a-
pa n orner roxe mxyxaer. urot nponepnrt cnoe npenonoxenne, x
saxptnam nenym nononnny pamt - nocryn x nooxonnnxy cnoo-
en - n sony:
- apa, apa, nn!
n camom ene, apa exnr no xapnnsy xo mne. or ona yxe
na nooxonnnxe. nmapxa nepecraer nnmart n crpemnrentno poca-
ercx x ne - onn paocrno onnstnamr pyr pyra, n nepenoe na
nam xstx - nenymrcx.
euac, xora x onnctnam +ror +nnso, nmapxa cnnr na crone
n nanxamn nonnr ro mon nantnt, ro crpannny, cnonno xouer ocra-
nonnrt menx n cxasart: y sauem rt ncem oo mne paccxastna-
emt, a eme nocmennaemtcx na moe rnynocrtm? ne nnnonar,
uro o cnx nop ne noman nn ono mtmxn... t n pa nomart,
no uro enart, ecnn n rnoe xomnare nx ner, a n xopnop rt menx
ne nycxaemt~.
xenrypy
xenrypy x mnoro unrana, n mne xasanoct, uro x npecrannxm
+ro xnnornoe nourn raxnm, xaxono ono n ecrnnrentnocrn. co-
enno xcno x npecrannxna cymxy, n xoropo mart-xenrypy nocnr
cnonx erentme. em ne menee, xora mne noxasann nacroxmym
]nrypy xenrypy, x ero ne ysnana.
+roro nrpymeunoro xenrypy mopouxa tna ocrpentxax, a mne
npecrannxnoct, uro y xnntx xenrypy mopa mnpoxax n rynax,
r. e. onee xpyrnax. pome roro, y nrpymeunoro xenrypy sanne
norn tnn n na pasa nnnnee nepennx, no+romy nonyuanoct, uro
xenrypy xax yro cnnr na nepexnannxax n nporxrnnaer nnepe
pyxn~. napyxnna x na pmmxe xenrypy n cymxy, xoropax onee
nnn menee coornercrnonana moemy npecrannennm o ne.
nora, xora x ne epxana n pyxax ]nrypy xenrypy, a ocrannx-
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na na mn]ontepe nnn cronnxe, x ntranact npecrannrt cee, xax
xenrypy nepenptrnnaer c onoro mecra na pyroe, noranxnnax cnoe
reno ynpyrnmn sannmn nanxamn.
moe xomxe
eronx yrpom x ntcynynact n ]oprouxy, urot ntrpxxnyrt
can]erxy, n cpasy samernna, uro ner cner,- +ro tn nepnt cner.
ry xe mnnyry mne npecrannnoct, uro semnx noxptra cnoem
cnera, x ne snana, xora nauancx cner, no+romy ne morna cynrt,
ronxnm nnn roncrtm cnoem on ycnen noxptrt semnm. pecrann-
nnct mne nymne no ynnne nmn n naammne na nnx uncrentxne
xononte cnexnnxn.
namxrn ncnntnn crnxn cennna o snme:
no nopy merennna
onpom menxontm crenercx,
o ontno xonona.
opoymxn nrpnnte,
ax erxn cnpornnnte,
pnxannct y oxna...
mne npecrannnoct no xptre namero oma manentxoe
rnestmxo, a n nem osxmne nopotn, nsparnnammne npn xaxom
noptne xononoro cnexnoro nerpa. nn corpenamr pyr pyra ren-
nom cnonx manentxnx renen n pemnmr no no snmnero nerpa.
o nor ona nrnuxa ncrpenenynact no cne, nonana na xpa rnes-
a, n cnntnt noptn nerpa cnannn ee nnns, npxmo na cnexnt
cyrpo.
a ]oprouxe moero oxna cnnr n sopxo nanmaer sa ncem npo-
ncxoxmnm no nope mox xomxa apa. na nnena, xax ns rnes-
tmxa ntnana nrnuxa. na crpemnrentno cnptrnnaer na semnm.
nauana xomxa ocmarpnnaercx noxpyr, ner nn nonnsocrn nm-
e, norom, xpayunct, noxonr x cyrpoy n crpemnrentno npt-
raer na nero. penemymax, ecnomomnax nrnuxa yxe n syax
xomxn...
ocne +ro yauno oxort apa nonxo nsnpaercx no crene o
xapnnsa, norom xapaxaercx no nepenneram oxna n, naxonen, oc-
rnrnyn orxptro ]oprouxn, nptraer n xomnary.
ax nn n ecrnnrentnocrn oxornrcx sa nrnuxamn mox apa,
ne snam, no npecrannxm cee raxym xaprnnxy, noromy uro ne pas
nartxanact na xomxy n ror momenr, xora ona xano ynnerana
nopotx.
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axas 812
cnxsn c nauanmecx snmo x ceronx nent ent nonropxm
crnxn cennna:
mer snma - ayxaer,
oxnart nec amxaer
rosnonom cocnxxa.
npecrannxm ontmo cocnont op, sactnannt cnerom.
am ouent xpacnno, cner nexnr na moxnartx n xpenxnx cocnontx
nerxax. nnena, xax enounte nrpymxn pacxpamnnamr necrxamn.
ne npecrannxercx, uro raxnmn xe cnexntmn necrxamn pasy-
xpament cocnt n enn n necy.
ntnnax n menee
o mnornx xnnrax mne npnxonnoct unrart o nonxpntx mopxx,
o nnanammnx no nnm aceprax n o rom, uro nnora na ntnne
cornn mnnt nponntnaer xocmart naccaxnp~ - menet.
ne npecrannxnnct xononte rntt nta - n ontmne, n ma-
nentxne. nxora onn ne npecrannxnnct mne xaxo-nnyt npa-
nnntno ]opmt, cxaxem n nne xya, napannenennnea n r. . a-
npornn, mne npecrannxnoct, uro nx xpax neponnte,-nernaxne:
c ono cropont ntnna moxer onee ocrptm yrnom ntanartcx
nnepe, rora xax pyrax ee cropona moxer trt ornocnrentno npx-
max. npenonarana, uro ontmax uacrt nnanammnx ntnn norpy-
xena n noy - +ro nnxnxx uacrt, nanonax xe uacrt mentme.
epxnxx uacrt acepron xasanact mne noxptro cnerom.
nor xaxnm-nnyt opasom na ntnny nonaaer menet, a
uyueno menex x nnena, no +ro tn ouent ontmo menet, a re
menen, xoropte cnxr na ntnnax, xaxyrcx mne mentme... nor
cnnr na cepenne ntnnt, osnpaercx no nce cropont xocmart
naccaxnp n ynntnaer nce antme n antme. tnna cxontsnr, pac-
xaunnaxct, na ee nonepxnocrn nnemer noa enepnoro mopx, no +ro
nncxontxo ne ecnoxonr xo ncemy npnntunoro menex.
axne npecrannennx menx xora-ro ouent npnnnexann, x xane-
na o rom, uro ne mory ynnert raxnx xaprnnox.
naxt n nap]mmepnom marasnne, xora x ntnpana yxn,
mne noxasann ]naxon c oexononom enepnt~. unaxon ouent no-
npannncx mne: on nsopaxan ntnny, na xoropo npnmocrnncx
cenepnt menexonox.
enept, xora x uro-nnyt unram nnn pasronapnnam o nonxp-
ntx crpanax n mopxx, mne uacro npecrannxercx +ra crexnxnnax
ntnna (]naxon) n na ne manentxn menexonox.
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nexoroptx xnnorntx
pasnoe npemx n pasntx ercxnx xnnxxax x unrana onncannx
mnornx xnnorntx, n rom uncne onncanne ntna. cnxsn c +rnm ncno-
mnnam raxo cnyua: name manentxo cnenornyxonemo enouxe
apyce xynnnn nx sanxrn nrpymeuntx xnnorntx - ntna, cnn-
ntm, nomat, xopony. rpax c apyce, x onxna tna nasnart e
+rnx xnnorntx. nsxna n pyxn ntna n crana npnnomnnart re onn-
cannx, xoropte x unrana, cpannnnax nx c +rnm xnnorntm. nnma-
rentno omyntnax nrpymxy, x onapyxnna na ee ronone rpnny,
sarem ocmorpena ee rynonnme, mopy - mne conepmenno xcno
npecrannncx nen. ynepenno cxasana, opamaxct x nocnnrarent-
nnne:
- 3ro nen! or ero rpnna, nor xpyrnax ronona n rynax mopa...
crantntx xnnorntx (cnnntm, nomat, xopony) x pantme ocmar-
pnnana xnntmn n noromy cpasy ysnana. orx y noman nmenact
roxe rpnna, no nnnnte norn n pyroe crpoenne ronont ne nosno-
nxnn cnyrart ee co ntnom. nnntm x cpasy ysnana, xax rontxo npn-
xocnynact x ee nxrauxy. opony onpeennna no poram.
enxax x mnoro unrana, no eme ne ocmarpnnana uyuena. ex-
y rem, enax pasnnunte ]nrypxn ns nnacrnnnna, x onaxt nt-
nennna enxy nourn narypantno nennunnt. earorn cxasann, uro
y menx ntmna ouent yaunax enxa, n n narpay sa +ro noapnnn
mne uyueno enxn. cpannnna +ro uyueno c moe enxo n yen-
nact, uro onn ouent noxoxn pyr na pyra. ontxo uyueno tno
nymncroe, a mox enxa rnaxax.
eex x roxe nnxora ne nnena, no no onncannxm npecran-
nxna ero onontno xcno. ora mne nnepnte noxasann nrpymeunoro
neex, x nerxo ysnana ero no nnnno mee n ronone.
nncanne xpoxonna x roxe unrana, no npecrannrt ero mne
ouent rpyno. n npecrannxercx mne ne n nne xaxoro-nnyt
onpeenennoro xnnornoro nnn ontmo ptt, a uem-ro yponnntm,
ec]opmenntm. ce ero rynonnme cocronr ns nosnonxon, cnpxran-
ntx no rneptm nannnpem. pecrannxercx, uro y nero ontmax
ronona c mnpoxo nacrtm, xoporxne, no cnntnte nant, nantnt xo-
roptx coennent nnanarentntmn nepenonxamn. nnnnt nsnnna-
mmncx xnocr ononnxer xpacory~ +roro uyonnma. poxonn ns-
nnnaercx no nce cropont, uro memaer onpeennrt ero ]opmy.
naxt n marasnne apnx nxonaenna noxasana mne nrpy-
meunoro xpoxonna. o +ra nrpymxa ne ana mne aconmrno
nnxaxoro npecrannennx o xpoxonne. 3ror xpoxonn tn na-
pxxen n pyxannnt, oyr n noome ntrnxen ouent napxntm
]panrom.
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+nxannnre n menexonxe
+nxannnre x unrana no mnornx xnnrax, n nx roro, urot
npecrannrt ntcory +roro epena, x cnauana npecrannxna xaxoe-
nnyt pyroe snaxomoe mne epeno, mtcnenno ynennunnax ero nt-
cory n nxrt, 10 n onee pas.
cxox ns roro uro +nxannnrt pacryr n xapxnx crpanax, nncrtx
npecrannxmrcx mne concem ne raxnmn, xax na namnx epentxx.
ne xaxercx, uro nncrtx +nxannnron ouent ysxn n nnnnt - nenn-
unno npnmepno 10-15 cm, xecrxn n axe noxptrt rpyona-
rtmn nronouxamn no xpaxm. acnonaramrcx nncrtx na nerxax, xax
cneun.
ne axe npecrannxercx sanax nncrten, ecnn nx nemnoro no-
mxrt nantnamn; sanax +ror xaxercx mne ne onopontm, a cmeman-
ntm: x npnxrnomy cmonncromy apomary npnmemnnaercx nerxn
sanax nocxa.
nn ancrpanncxn npo]eccop ns entypna, npnesxanmn
n na exynapont ]nsnonornuecxn xonrpecc n 1935 r.,
xenax art mne npecrannenne o ancrpanncxnx xnnorntx, noa-
pnn ne nacrontnte ]nrypxn - ancrpanncxoro menexonxa n xen-
rypy. po]eccop cxasan, uro +ro ocoax nopoa menee, xoropte
uacro sanpamrcx na +nxannnrt n cnxr ram n raxo nose, xax +ror
nacrontnt menexonox. oneuno, nrpymeunt menexonox tn
ouent anex or narypantnoro menex; cnen on, xaxercx, na xno-
cre, xax mt cnnm na cryntxx, a nepenne nanxn cnoxnn na rpyn.
nero saopno ropuan nocnx; saopntm nocnx xasancx noromy, uro
snepex sanpan ronony nnepx.
nor n cnoem npecrannennn x onxna tna oxnnnrt +roro
nnmmenoro nacrontnoro menexonxa, nocanrt ero na ony ns nerox
+nxannnra n raxnm opasom npecrannrt cee, uro +ro nacroxmn
xnno ancrpanncxn menet, sarem npecrannrt rnranrcxoe epe-
no, no crnony xoroporo onycxaercx nnn nonnmaercx menet. pn-
nnsnrentno rax x nce +ro n npecrannna. o n moem npecrannennn
ancrpanncxn menexonox ornnuancx or namnx cenepntx mene-
e rem, uro tn on nererapnannem~, no nnrancx xopo n nncrtx-
mn +nxannnron.
crarn, xora mne nyxno ncnomnnrt cnono nererapnannt~, x
cnauana npecrannxm pasnnunte onomn, naunnax or xapromxn n
xonuax mnnnarom, nocne uero n moe namxrn nosnnxaer cnono ne-
rerarnnnt~, sarem nererapnannt~.
rn
nmnxpnx
ono xnnre x npounrana cnono mnmnxpnx~ n pxom ero
oxcnenne: ynoonenne oxpacxn xnnorntx n nacexomtx oxpacxe
oxpyxamme mecrnocrn.
camoro nauana cnono mnmnxpnx~ nouemy-ro nanomnnano mne
ontmym xnpnym rycennny. ouemy rycennny? exoropoe npemx
x tna n samemarentcrne, crapaxct orornart or cex rycennny. a-
xonen, ncnomnnna, n uem ryr eno. naxt na xycre cnpenn x na-
mna ontmym rycennny n c ornpamennem orpocnna ee n cropony, no
xro-ro ns spxunx nonxn ee n paccxasan mne, xaxoro ona xpacnnoro
senenoro nnera. nax, uro nncrtx xycron n epenten roxe senente,
x mtcnenno oennnna oxpacxy rycennnt n pacrenn (xoneuno,
ne npecrannxx +roro nnera spnrentno).
nycrx nexoropoe npemx x xax-ro satna cnono mnmnxpnx~, no
nomnnna ero cmtcn, ononpemenno oroxecrnnxx ero c rycennne.
oparnnact c nonpocom x nnn nanonne:
- t ne nomnnre, xaxoe +ro cnono, uro noxoxe na ontmym
senenym rycennny?
nnx nanonna noymana, uro x myuy.
- er, ne nomnm, moxer trt, no-rnoemy, ono eme na uro-nn-
yt noxoxe?
- no eme noxoxe na mecrnocrt...
- a xaxym mecrnocrt?
-a ncxxym, re nmemrcx xnnornte n nacexomte,-noxc-
nnna x.
Hent ent enax nnx nanonna nomana cee ronony na
+rnm mypentm n noxoxnm ro na rycennny, ro na ncxxym mecr-
nocrt~ cnonom. ax ona n ymna c paort omo, nnuero noxox-
mero ne ncnomnnn. xe nepecrana ncnomnnart +ro cnono, n npyr
ono camo coo ncnntno n moe namxrn, n npnrom es nasonnnoro
opasa xnpno rycennnt.
a cneymmee yrpo x nocnemnna ymtrtcx n oertcx n noexa-
na x caono xannrxe ncrpeuart nnm nanonny. pnnercrnonann
mt pyr pyra rax:
- nnx nanonna, mnmnxpnx!
- nx, mnmnxpnx! - mt oe sacmexnnct.
- ncm nout ne cnana,- cxasana nnx nanonna,- nce
ymana na rnonm cnonom, xoropoe rt npenparnna n rycennny. uem
xe ono na nee noxoxe?
- a x onaxt nomana na cnpenn ontmym senenym ryce-
nnny, a nncrtx cnpenn roxe senente, nor nam n cnxst mexy mn-
mnxpne n seneno rycennne...
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Ftn y menx xopomn snaxomt, nayunt corpynnx-nonor.
snan, uro x npoxoxy nonornm, on uacro n myrnnno cxopme +xsa-
menonan menx it, mexy npounm, necxontxo a;i cnpamnnan, snam
nn x, uro raxoe mnmnxpnx.
3ro nemnoxxo naoeno mne.
- t cnpamnnaere ono n ro xe. ouemy +ro?
- e onxarect, x cnpamnnam noromy, uro cryenrt - spx-
une n cntmamne - nnxax ne moryr sanomnnrt +ro cnono.
- ono nm nnuero ne nanomnnaer?-nonnrepeconanact x.
- epoxrno, nnuero, ecnn onn satnamr.
- xaxnre nm or moero nmenn, uro mnmnxpnx noxoxa na
ontmym senenym rycennny, rora onn sanomnxr, a menx ontme ne
cnpamnnare, x snam ne rontxo o mnmnxpnn xnnorntx n nacexomtx,
no n o yxonno mnmnxpnn uenonexa.
3ra yxonnax mnmnxpnx n moem npecrannennn noxoxa na ncy
arpnxoenny, a raxxe ntstnaer n namx.rn paccxas uexona a-
meneon~.

ameuarentnt mantunx
naxt n marasnne mne ann ocmorpert ony cxyntnrypy: y
rymouxn c xnnramn croxn mantunx c xpyrntm nnunxom n xypx-
ntmn nonocamn na xpacnno rononxe.
- axo sameuarentnt mantunx! - cxasana x, concem ne noo-
spenax, uro ocmarpnnam crary+rxy rpexnernero nanmnpa ntnua
ennna.
- 3ro ennn rpex ner,- cxasana mne . .
tna ouent ynnnena, no npnntxna npecrannxrt nanmnpa
ntnua rontxo nspocntm uenonexom, c rneptmn uepramn nnna,
conepmenno rnaxo ronono n neontmo opoxo. oneuno, x
mnoro unrana o nanmnpe ntnue, a raxxe o ero ercxnx n mnome-
cxnx roax, no npecrannxncx on mne ncera nspocntm, ceptesntm,
nce npemx o uem-ro ymammnm.
moe xomnare cronr mcr . . ennna, no, xora x x nemy
renept npnxacamct, x npecrannxm ero cnauana +rnm xopomentxnm
xypxntm mantunxom, xoropt mor nopo n nomannrt, a norom rnxo
cnert re-nnyt n yxpomnom yronxe n cocpeorouenno ymart.
orom yxe mne npecrannxercx nspocnt nanmnp ntnu, c
ceptesntmn, npnmypenntmn rnasamn, n xoroptx uacro mentxann
necente ncxopxn, a ryt npn +rom pacxptnannct n necenom, saop-
nom cmexe.
ouemy x ysnana
ro narxnynact na cne-
ora x unrana ne~ . . oncroro.
ymmne crpoxn:
o xopnopy x nany ope, snonxo n rnmnne ronax xanyxamn
no nnnram, men uenonex n exeme n cmymxono ranxe.
- tn nanepxy, ronapnm, ram cxasann - nanmnp ntnu
npomen nnns,- roponnnno nporonopnn on, nonxn x nany ope
pasropenmeecx or moposa xpacnoe nnno c xoporxnm nocom n xapnmn
necentmn rnasamn...~
ax rontxo x npounrana +rn crpoxn, mne noxasanoct, uro pxom
co mno ronapnm nnmenr ]pemonnu opomnnon. a, x cpasy
ysnana, uro +ro nanncano o nem, n ouent xcno npecrannna cee,
xax on ner no nnnnomy xopnopy n montnom.
ysnana x noromy, uro n moe xomnare tn ero apente] n x
cymena osnaxomnrtcx c uepramn ero nnna, a o rnasax ero mne pac-
cxastnann spxune. ora x ocmarpnnana apente], mne ouent npa-
nnnnct ueprt nnna . . opomnnona.
. . optxn xnn
... uact ycranocrn yxa,- xora namxrt oxnnnxer renn npo-
mnoro n or nnx na cepne neer xonoom,- xora mtcnt, xax ec-
crpacrnoe connne ocenn, ocnemaer rposnt xaoc nacroxmero n sno-
neme xpyxnrcx na xaocom nx, eccnntnax nonxrtcx ntme,
nerert nnepe,- n rxxente uact ycranocrn yxa x ntstnam nepe
coo nennuecrnennt opas uenonexa~ .
a moem paouem crone cronr ontmo mcr nexcex axcnmo-
nnua optxoro. uacro, npexe uem nauart uro-nnyt nncart, x
epexno, xax t x xnnomy, npnxacamct x cxyntnrype nesatnae-
moro pyra. Ftrt moxer, eccosnarentno x npomy y nero conera,
nmy noepxxn... a, nx menx nexce a.xcnmonnu xnn: ueprt
nnna ero saneuarnent na +rom mcre. ro xopomne, nonnymme ue-
noneuecxne, rnyoxo npoymannte n npouyncrnonannte mtcnn n
conert - n nnctmax xo mne...
+rnx necxontxnx nnctmax nenccxxaemt nnrennexryantno-
nenent ponnx; ns nero x uepnam xnsnennte cnnt, +neprnm,
opocrt yxa n mypte conert,- nx ne unraemt, a nnnmt mt-
cntm.
ne ymaercx, uro xaxt ns nac onxen nayunrtcx paonart-
cx ontmo uenoneuecxo paocrtm ne rontxo sa cex, sa cnon ycne-
xn, a sa ncex, sa nce xopomee, pasymnoe, uro rnopxr pyrne. axo
paocrtm ymen paonartcx . . optxn, nnx, xax rananrnnnte,
myxecrnennte nmn name onnt rnopxr uyeca -ns xaornue-
cxo npnpot cosamr rapmonnuecxn-crponoe, ncem nyxnoe naro.
o xpome ontmnx cotrn . . optxn sameuan n mnoroe
manentxoe~ n roxe paonancx. omnm, xax rnyoxo rponyna menx
ero paocrt no nonoy monx nesnaunrentntx ycnexon:
. optxn. op. cou. n 30 romax, r. 5, crp. 362.
216
... xpane opaonan namnm yexennem n cnne pasyma n na-
mnm pemennem nocnxrnrt cex nayuno paore. t nceneno npant,
ronopx, uro pasym nme pacrer nx roro, urot noenrt pasym
npnpot~...~
a uro x nmnm optxoro? +rom ouent rpyno ronopnrt. c
narn ocrarouno cnntntx, xpxnx cnon, urot nepeart xort cxont-
xo-nnyt nnxrno nce uyncrna, omymennx, nocropr, nnymennte
opasom +roro uenonexa. optxn - nonnomenne rtcxuenernnx
ycrpemnenn yrnerenntx napoon x noee pasyma na npaxeno
npnpoo, x cnoonomy rpyy, xpacnno, sopono xnsnn. yme
ero tno neoxrnoe orarcrno uyncrn n mtcne, crpontx n neny-
unx, nyuesapntx n rpemmnx, xax connne.
ne xouercx ncem n xaxomy n orentnocrn ronopnrt: unrare,
nsyuare nponsneennx optxoro! s nnx nt nouepnnere nyumne
uyncrna, mtcnn, xnsneexrentnocrt, xoropte, trt moxer, eme
pemnmr n namem cosnannn. ro xouer trt nonnonenntm crpon-
renem connannsma, uecrntm n axrnnntm rnopnom conercxo ecr-
nnrentnocrn, ror onxen cenart counnennx optxoro cnonmn na-
crontntmn xnnramn.
ecxontxo ner romy nasa x npounrana nce uertpe roma ns-
nn nnma amrnna~. unrana x ne cama, a cnymana~ axrnnonorn-
uecxn nepeno otxnonenno xnnrn. xorx na +ro norpeonanoct
nemano npemenn, x ynnexanact xnnro or nauana o xonna. Fonee
roro, ns nsnn nnma amrnna~ x nouepnnyna nexoropte cnee-
nnx no ncnxonornn n ]nsnonornn, ysnana xnsnt ooxrxptcxo
nnrennnrennnn, penonmnnonnte cotrnx n mnoroe pyroe, uero mne
nnxro ne mor t rax xcno paccxasart. omnnrcx, x rora cxasana:
unram ne rontxo nsnt nnma amrnna~, a necxontxo xnnr
cpasy~.
pnnornm ercrno~, nmxx~ n on ynnnepcnrert~ nepe-
unrtnana necxontxo pas, naroapx romy uro +rn xnnrn orneuarant
mpn]rom cnentx (cncremo Fpanx). axoe pasnrentnoe nneuar-
nenne! ne xasanoct, uro x nnuno nenocpecrnenno nanmana xns-
nennt nyrt nexcex axcnmonnua, nnena oxpyxammnx ero n ro
npemx nme.
nnxora spnrentno ne nnena mope, no, unrax paccxas uen-
xam~, cosepnana~ mope, cntmana~ poxor tmmnxcx o epera
nonn. axxe nnxora ne nnena uaex, rarap, ypenecrnnxa, no npe-
crannxm nx no ecne o Fypenecrnnxe~.
uncny nmnmtx mnom opason optxoro cneyer ornecrn rop-
tx xpacannen-ntran - ay n oxo oapa ns paccxasa axap
uypa~.
no+me uenonex~ optxn xax yro ntrancx n no+rnuecxom
opase nepeart nam ncropnuecxoe pasnnrne uenoneuecrna - or cra-
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nn uenonexa-xnnornoro x rop/xecrny pasymnoro cymecrna na nce-
nenno.
no ouepx mne xouercx saxonunrt asanem ns aro xe no+mt
nexcex axcnmonnua:
er on (uenonex), opomax xpontm cepna cno rpynt, on-
noxn, ropt nyrt, n cosaer ns :)ro xryue xponn - no+snn
nernennte nnert; rocxnnnt xpnx ymn cnoe mxrexmo on n
mystxy ncxycno npernopxer, ns ontra - nayxn cosaer n, xaxtm
marom yxpamax xnsnt, xax connne semnm meptmn nyuamn,- on.
nnxercx nce - ntme! n - nnepe! snesom nyrenono nx
semnn...~
ysee-ycate . . oncroro
e onaxt n ntpaxana xenanne notnart n ysee-ycate
. . oncroro, ne ronopnnn, uro +ro ne ouent anexo or namero
oma. axonen, mt c . . ntpann cnoont uacox n nanpann-
nnct n myse. eno tno nerom. xorena nrn nemxom, urot
npecrannrt cee paccroxnne or namero oma o mysex. o no
ycnenn mt nporn n nonxnaprana, xax nauancx cnntnt oxt.
osnpamartcx omo ne xorenoct - yx cnnmxom x nacrponnact
notnart n mysee, x xoropomy anno ycrpemnxnnct mon mtcnn.
pnmnoct cecrt n rpamna - +ro nyume tno, uem nosnpamartcx
omo. romy xe x n rpamnae nmena nosmoxnocrt npecrannrt
paccroxnne, cunrax ocranonxn, xoropte x ncera ornnuam or nn-
xennx rpamnax.
naxomnrtcx c ycato x nauana or xannrxn, norom no opoxxe
mt noomnn x xptntny: x ocmorpena nept n crapnnnt snonox.
npnxoxe, nocne roro xax nac sanncann n xnnry nocernrene,
x ocmorpena cryntx n napt. oneuno, mne npnxonnoct unrart n
xnnrax o napxx, no x nx npecrannxna concem ne raxnmn, xaxo
ynnena n npnxoxe y tna nxonaennua. apn mne npecrannx-
nnct xax ntcoxne cynyxn es xptmxn, nanonnennte myxo; sect
xe x ynnena ontmo xpenxn epenxnnt nnan, cnente xoro-
poro cnyxnno xptmxo nx cynyxa. snam, uro on nxonaennu
nmnn npocrory n cnoe omamne xnsnn, n nce xe tna ynnnena,
xora ynnena, uro n ero ome nce rax npocro. moemy ontmomy
oropuennm, +xcxypcono ne paspemnna saxonrt n xaxym xomnary
n npnxacartcx x nemam pyxamn (+ro mne paspemnnn npn nropnu-
nom nocemennn mysex). naxo xoe-uro x nce xe ocmorpena, nporx-
rnnax pyxy no nepenouxo. ax, n cronono x oomna noxpyr oe-
ennoro crona, ocmorpena cryntx n oeennte npnopt - y ncex
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unenon cemtn tna onnaxonax nocya. ne noxasann cryn, na
xoropom otuno cnen en nxonaennu, +roro cryna x saepxa-
nact ontme, ymax; npn +rom: enept +ro nycroe mecro, a net
xora-ro cnen sect rennantnt pyccxn nncarent...~ r crona
x oromna rax rnxo, xax yro oxnact, uro nomemam oeart tny
nxonaennmy. cnantnm menx ne nnycrnnn, no x n sect npo-
cxontsnyna no nepenouxo n ocmorpena nocrent, xponarn n nouno
cronnx c ro xe ocropoxnocrtm n onacennem, uro mory napymnrt
ue-ro noxo.
epexox or xomnart x xomnare, mt rontxo ocranannnnannct
y pacxptrtx nepe, n . , paccxastnana mne, uro naxonnoct n
xomnare, a raxxe unrana oxcnennx, nncenmne y xaxo xomnart,
o nce +ro ne anano mne narnxnoro npecrannennx o ocranonxe
n nennunne xomnar. ax mt oomnn nepnt +rax n nonxnnct
nanepx, re naxonnnct san, ontnax n manentxax rocrnnax, xan-
ner tna nxonaennua n pyrne xomnart. ect x yxe nnuero ne
morna nocmorpert, no n xomnart conepmenno ne nnycxann.
nepn xannera tna nxonaennua nnceno onncanne roro, xax
xnn n paoran nennxn nncarent. ne uynnoct, uro en nxo-
naennu cnnr no-npexnemy sa cnonm nnctmenntm cronom n nnmer
ony n mnp~ nnn nny apennny~. epe monm nnyrpennnm
nsopom, xax xnnte, npoxonnn repon +rnx nponsneenn; mne xasa-
noct, uro +ro tnn mon xopomne pystx, c xoroptmn x rontxo ouent
anno ne nnenact. ro uynnoct, uro cam en nxonaennu npyr-
ncraner ns-sa cnoero paouero crona, ynnnr nac n cnpocnr c opo-
ymno-nyxano yntouxo: uro, npnmnn na menx, crapnxa, nornx-
ert? ?~ axe nsparnnana, xora nosne nac ocranannnnannct
pyrne nocernrenn.
cnn t mne paspemnnn nce ocmorpert pyxamn, moe npecranne-
nne o ome n naxoxmnxcx n xaxo xomnare npemerax tno t
xpue n rounee, a cneonarentno, nneuarnenne eme cnntnee. ( cne-
ymmym +xcxypcnm x notnana n n xannere. cntrtnana eme
onee naroronenoe uyncrno, uem n nepnt pas, xora rontxo
croxna y nepn xannera.) em ne menee x ymna ns mysex onont-
nax, crapaxct mtcnenno ononnnrt re opast, xoropte mne tnn
ne concem xcnt co cnon . .
nepnym xe nout nocne +xcxypcnn x ynnena tna nxonae-
nnua no cne. nnnoct m;ne, yro x croxna n npnxoxe y nero n
ome, a on cnycxancx no necrnnne xo mne. no cne x nouemy-ro
ymana, uro on cpenero pocra, n ceptx pmxax n n xaxo-ro mnpo-
xo, roxe cepo nyse, nonoxcanno ysxnm pememxom. +ro
nyse x noymana (roxe no cne), uro, nepoxrno, +ro n ecrt sname-
nnrax roncronxa~.
en nxonaennu tn ouent crapentxn, no c rycrtmn ntmmn-
mncx nonocamn n nnnno ntmno opoo. Ben on xo mne
ne cnema, rnxontxo cnycxancx co crynentxn na crynentxy, nemnoro
mapxax mxrxnmn xomnarntmn ry]nxmn. or yxe necrnnna xonun-
nact. ne uynrcx, uro on yxe ocranonnncx n cmorpnr na menx.
en nxonaennu nporxnyn mne oe pyxn, x noomna x nemy n roxe
nporxnyna emy pyxn; on nce yntaercx, a pyxn y nero manentxne,
.cyxne n mxrxne, c +neprnuntm noxarnem... menx tn mcr on-
croro, no+romy ueprt ero nnna mne snaxomt. nn npecrannxmrcx
mne n ceuac, xora x nnmy +ror ouepx.
Fapone
antme, uem x npounrana crnxornopenne ymxnna mopm~,
x yxe snana o Fapone, unrana o nem, no c ocoenno cnno ero
opas nosnnx n moem npecrannennn no npourennn crnxon ym-
xnna. me ne snax rouno, xoro ymxnn nopasymenaer no nna-
crnrenem ym~, x oraanact, uro on nnmer o Fapone, xora npo-
unrana +rn crpoxn:
...Bymn, nsnonnycx nenoroo:
n tn, o mope, rno nenen.
no opas tn na nem osnauen,
n yxom cosan tn rnonm;
ax rt, morym, rnyox n mpauen,
ax rt, nnuem neyxpornm...
ne npecrannxncx oaxrentnt, no nnemne cypont, xono-
nt uenonex, c npannntntmn uepramn nnna n rycrtmn ntmmnmncx
nonocamn na xpacnno ouepuenno ronone. nyrpenne on tn ouent
xnno, orstnunnt, noptnncrt n xnnyun, no nnemne ropt,
mpaunt, nopo ypno ntpaxammn cno rnen. ncera, xora
x ncnomnnam mope, ncnomnnam o Fapone; naroapx crnxam ym-
xnna ero opas cnnnaercx c opasom ncera nonnymmerocx mopx.
osxe, xora x npounrana rpancrnonannx uant-aponta~,
n moem npecrannennn nosnnx eme n pyro opas Fapona -
opas rnyoxo n naonro saymanmerocx uenonexa, na nnne xoro-
poro coxpannncx orneuarox mnoroe nepexnnmero, nepecrpaanmero
cymecrna. n mnoroe nnen n xnsnn, nce nonnman, cmorpen npo-
nnnarentntm nsopom n yymee, cnonno xoren cnoe ornenno
mtcntm cosart neuro raxoe, uro nernenno yer xnrt n nexax.
axnm x ero npecrannxm, xora nepeunrtnam +rn crpoxn:
...t onexaem cnom ]anrasnm n opast nx roro, urot cos-
art onee onroneunoe cymecrno, uem mt camn, n nocennrtcx n
. , ymxnn. onn. cop. cou. n 10 romax, r. II, crp. 196.
220
nem, nonyuax raxnm opasom xnsnt, xoropym mt camn ntsnann,
xax +ro enam ceuac x. uro x raxoe? nuroxecrno. o ne raxona
rt, yma moe mtcnn! roo x oneram nennnmxo semnm, nnx
n sameuax nce; cnnnaxct c rnoe xnsnenno cnno, x oxnnnxmct,
ocnennennt rnonm sauarnem, n uyncrnym nmecre c roo cpen
cxyocrn n nnuroxecrna cnonx uyncrn~.
tcnn, ntcxasannte n +rom orptnxe (uant-apont~), rny-
oxo nomnn n mom namxrt. crana npecrannxrt cee mnornx nn-
carene n ymart o rom, xax onn n cnonx nponsneennxx cosamr
onee onroneunte cymecrna~, oxnnnxmr nx, sacrannxmr ecrno-
nart, ronopnrt, mtcnnrt.
ncarent ymnpaer, a cosannte nm opast xnnyr cronernxmn.
xro xe y nac ne npecrannxer repoen omepa, Bexcnnpa, Fa-
pona, Bnnnepa, Fantsaxa, ymxnna, oronx, . oncroro n p.? ce
mt npecrannxem nx, ecrnyem .nmecre c nnmn (xora nepeunrt-
naem xnnrn), nonemnsnpyem n np. concem ne ymaem, uro +ro
yxonnte ern~ anno ymepmnx rnopnon.
ymxnne n orone
ne onaxt unrann +xcnpomrt n +nnrpammt nncarenx
. . nnxponcxoro, nomemennte n onom ns nomepon xypnana
ronex~. exoropte ns nnx nonpannnnct mne, n x nx sanomnnna,
n rom uncne n cneymmn +xcnpomr:
oront cropnnmnct cnnr,
ymxnn oronem rnxnr.
ne nsnecrno, uro n ocxne ecrt namxrnnxn ymxnny n o-
ronm , croxr onn ne pxom n axe ne na ono ynnne, no nocne
npourennx +roro +xcnpomra mne npecrannnoct, uro namxrnnxn
croxr pxom.asymeercx, no cxyntnrype x snaxoma c uepramn nnna
ymxnna n oronx, n rem nerue mne npecrannrt nx pxom. 3xc-
npomr nnxponcxoro nponsnen na moe noopaxenne nectma cnntnoe
nneuarnenne, n, xora x ncnomnnam ero, mne npecrannxercx cne-
ymmax xaprnna:
nxona acnntennu, cnonno uem-ro neonontnt nnn xem-ro
onxennt, cnnr c nonnxme ronono,- ouent nanomnnaer mne
nrop nmeer n nny namxrnnx . . oronm cxyntnropa npeena, croxn-
mn na oronencxom yntnape o 1952 r. osnamenonanne cronernx co nx
cmeprn nncarenx na mecre +roro namxrnnxa ntne nosnnrnyr pyro, pa-
ort conercxoro cxyntnropa . . omcxoro.- e.
221
ontmym nrnny, osxmym n npomoxmym n oxnnnt ocennn
ent. nnr +ra ontmax nrnna na nteecrane, c esxnsnenno ony-
menntmn xptntxmn. Ftrt moxer, oront pemner, trt moxer, on
ornocnrcx c nonntm espasnnunem xo ncemy oxpyxammemy.
yer xonont nerep, ceer, xax cxnost cnro, menxn, nponnst-
nammn oxt, a nxonam acnntennuy, +ro ontmo nrnne,
nexya cnpxrartcx, on rontxo moxer onycrnrt ronony n ymart
cnom neunym ymy. pxom (xax mne npecrannxercx) nosntmaercx
namxrnnx ymxnny. n epxnrcx rnepo n crpono, co cnro na
sartnox mnxno n neceno cmorpnr na oronx. tpaxenne nnna y
ymxnna opoymno-saopnoe, uyrt-uyrt mononenaroe. ne rax
n xaxercx, uro ymxnn ceuac noouennrcx n, yntnynmnct
cnoe mnpoxo yntxo, cnpocnr: uro xe +ro nt, nxona a-
cnntennu, cront npnyntnn? or nce ymn cmexncx na namnm
ennsopom~ - ouent onn saannt, +ror ypax roponnun, npome-
ntra necraxon n npoune nepconaxn. a nocmorpnre xe na menx,
nxona acnntennu~.-3-+,-cxasann mt c erpom nanonn-
uem~,-yntno orneuaer oront, ne nonnmax ronont.
poonxaer yrt xonont nerep, ceer ocennn menxn oxt.
ymxnn no-npexnemy rnxnr opo n neceno na cnoero copara no
nepy, no oront rnxo pemner: moxer trt, oymtnaer, xax nyume
nanncart eprnte ymn~, n xaxom ocnemennn ntcrannrt xepcon-
cxoro nomemnxa~ ununxona...
osnee x osnaxomnnact co crarye ymxnna n ysnana, xaxax
y nero nosa na nteecrane. naxt mt c . . noxonnn x na-
mxrnnxy no+ra n x nmena nosmoxnocrt osnaxomnrtcx c nnxne ua-
crtm namxrnnxa: oomna noxpyr nero, a sarem nmecre c . . mt
nsopannct na crynentxn nteecrana, n x axe ocrana pyxo o
cnon ymxnny~ n xanmtx~. coxanennm, na ynnne copanact
raxax ontmax ronna npoxoxnx, uro mt ntnyxent tnn cny-
crnrtcx c nteecrana, ne xenax npnnnexart x cee eme ontmero
nnnmannx.
ne xaxercx, uro renept x npecrannxm ymxnna raxnm, xa-
xnm on nsopaxen na namxrnnxe. enept x snam, uro mnxny on
epxnr n pyxe, xoropym orxnnyn nasa.
rom, xaxnm mne npecrannxercx epnen
epnene x snam no ero xnnre Ftnoe n ymt~, a raxxe n ns
pyrnx ncrounnxon. o+romy y menx ne ncera tnaer onnaxonoe
npecrannenne o ne. mory npecrannrt ero n nspocntm, n ma-
nentxnm mantunxom.
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naxt x unrana o rom, uro, yyun manentxnm mantunxom,
epnen ouent nmnn ymnpart~, xora orxastnannct ncnonnxrt ero
xanpnst. nor mne npecrannxercx ontmax xomnara, non xoro-
po ycrnan roncrtm xonpom. a xonpe nexnr ama, conepmenno
nenonnxno, c saxptrtmn rnasamn, co cnoxenntmn na rpyn py-
xamn. a nem xoporentxne apxarnte nanranonunxn n raxax xe
apxarnax xyprouxa. n ymep~. o npyr on ncxaxnnaer n c xpn-
xom yeraer ns xomnart - cenan xe on +ro noromy, uro ero mart
ynsa nanonna cxasana: mn, ama ymep, nostmnre n noxopo-
nnre ero~...
ne ne npnxonnoct unrart, n xaxo ocranonxe ama ymn-
pan~, mne npocro npecrannxercx raxax xomnara, xoropym x rontxo
uro onncana. ne nnxora ne npnxonnoct ocmarpnnart mcr ep-
nena, n nnxro ne ronopnn mne, xaxon on na noprpere, no naroapx
xnnre Ftnoe n ymt~ on npecrannxercx mne ncera saymunntm,
ceptesntm n n ro xe npemx ouent mnntm uenonexom.
ora-ro anno x unrana crnxn . . acona a mornne ep-
nena~ :
a mpamopnt noxont ncrynnn,
ax yro xnno, on ncranan npeo mnom
o remntm namerom onnn.
ueprax nennuanax rpycrt noxnonentx,
asymte no nsope nemom,
pyxn na meno rpyn es nnxentx
pnxart mnpoxnm xpecrom...
Hoxont +roro namxrnnxa (xoropt, cyx no crnxam, naxonrcx
na xnanme n nnne) npecrannxercx mne n nne ontmoro mpa-
mopnoro xya, nosntmammerocx na semne merpa na na: noxont
rnaxo ornonnponan - x xax t omymam pyxo +ry rnaxym n
npoxnanym mpamopnym nonepxnocrt. a noxone nosntmaercx or-
nnrax ns ponst ]nrypa uenonexa. antme x ocmarpnnana ponso-
nte craryn, uro aer mne nosmoxnocrt raxrnntm npecrannrt
ponsonte ]nrypt.
ueprt nnna +roro ponsonoro uenonexa npecrannxmrcx mne
ne xpynntmn, ne rpytmn, r. e. ne nopaxamr mon nantnt pesxo
ntpaxenntmn nnnnxmn; onn xaxyrcx mne npannntntmn, c mxr-
xnmn nnnnxmn. axercx, uro ryt nnorno cxart, noxpyr nnx
x omymam mopmnnxn cxopn. nasa nonypacxptrt, uro n npnaer
nnny ntpaxenne pasymtx. mee xe ntpaxenne nnna - mxrxax
rpycrt. ne xaxercx, uro, ecnn t x cmorna ocmorpert +ry ]nrypy,
x cpasy t cxasana: 3ro epnen~. oneuno, +ro mor t trt n
ne epnen, no raxnm mne npecrannxercx ero namxrnnx. xax yro
ncem cnonm renom omymam n snonoe txanne nerpa, o xoropom
acon nnmer: n snont mncrpant menecrnr n nstxaer~; a,
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x ecrnnrentno omymam, xax rennte nonnt mncrpanx oamr
ponsonym ]nrypy epnena.
omem. epnen npecrannxncx mne no xapaxrepy menanxonn-
xom. axono xe tno moe ynnnenne, xora x ysnana ns xnnrn
ncnxonornn npo]. ennona, uro y epnena tn canrnnnnuecxn
remnepamenr.
ouemy x ymana o ono xenmnne, uro ona
xopoma
naxt menx nosnaxomnnn c ono nespxue xenmnno -
yunrentnnne mxont cnentx. ro npemx x eme tna nopocrxom.
3ra xenmnna ouent nonpannnact mne. nee tnn nacxonte, npn-
xrnte pyxn; xasanact ona mne nonnxno, neceno n raxo mxr-
xo - axe npn noptnncrtx nnxennxx. pecrannxnact ona mne
ouent cnanno, opo n ontmo ymnnne. nonmnna ee, mne
crano xasartcx, uro ona ouent xopomentxax nnnom. crana ymart,
uro y nee upesntuano nexnoe nnno c xpacnntm pymxnnem, a rnasa
xorx n ne spxune, no orxptrte, uncrte n ronyte. eme ne snana,
xaxne y nee nonoct, no npecrannxna nx ntmntmn, ntmmnmncx.
+ror cosannt monm noopaxennem opas npecrannxncx mne n
reuenne necxontxnx ner.
o onaxt x cnony npnmnoct, n x y xoro-ro ns spxunx cnpo-
cnna o napyxnocrn +ro xenmnnt. ne cxasann, uro y nee ne ouent
eoe nnno, uro ona nocnr remnte ouxn n no+romy rpyno pa-
sopart, xaxne y nee rnasa - uepnte nnn remno-xapne. e nonoct
x ocmorpena cama: onn ne tnn ntmmnmncx, ne ntmnte, naoopor,
npxmte n ne ouent rycrte. ne crano xant, uro nnemnocrt +ro
xopome xenmnnt ne raxax, xaxo x ee npecrannxna. ora x
crana ymart, uro y nee onxen trt uyecnt cnntnt ronoc,
x ne npecrannxna cee xpacort es noontx arpnyron. ne cxa-
sann, uro y nee npnxrnt ronoc, xopomax nxnnx, no nce xe oco-
enno xpacoro ronoc ee ne ornnuaercx.
nonnmana, uro spxune nepno napnconann noprper moe sna-
xomo, cxasann npany o ee ronoce, no, necmorpx na +ro, xaxt
pas nocne ncrpeun c ne n moem noopaxennn ncnntnan ntmtm-
nennt opas snonxoro ronoca - rax nennxo tno npancrnennoe
oaxnne +ro cnmnarnuno xenmnnt... or +roro ona npecran-
nxnact mne xpacnnee, rpannosnee, nsxmnee, xorx x yxe snana,
uro n xnsnn ona concem pyrax.
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rom, xax x ysnam nme
pxune n cntmamne nmn nnxr nnna n cntmar ronoca pyrnx
nme, sanomnnamr ueprt nnna n remp ronoca, a norom, paccran-
mnct c rem nnn nntm uenonexom, crapamrcx npecrannrt (ynnert
nnyrpennnm nsopom) ero nnno, ]nrypy, noxoxy, oexy, ronoc
n r. . Fes yuacrnx namxrn n npecrannennx spxune n cntmamne
net ne mornn t onro nomnnrt napyxnocrt n ronoca pyr pyra.
o ecnn spxun esyuacrno cmorpnr na rtcxun npoxoxmnx no
ynnnam nme, ne opamaer nnnmannx na orentnte nnunocrn,
a nnnr nnmt ronny, on ne yer nnxoro nomnnrt, ne yer nocnpo-
nsnonrt, noccranannnnart n cnoe namxrn n npecrannennn nnen-
nte opast.
menx c ysnanannem nme eno ocronr cnoxnee: net x ne
ocmarpnnam c ronont o nor noxoxmero xo mne uenonexa, rem
onee n nepnt momenr snaxomcrna c nnm. nepnt momenr, xora
snaxomxrcx co mno, mne noamr rontxo pyxy, xax +ro npnnxro
nese. oxan nporxnyrym mne pyxy, x onxna oparnrt na nee
nnnmanne n sanomnnrt ne rontxo ocoennocrn xoxn (ee rnaxocrt,
rpyocrt, rennory, nnaxnocrt, cyxocrt n r. .), no n ]opmy pyxn n
nce xapaxrepnte ocoennocrn pyxonoxarnx. uro y xaxoro ueno-
nexa cnoe ocoennoe, xapaxrepnoe pyxonoxarne, c +rnm, nanepnoe,
nce cornacxrcx. onnx nme xpenxoe n +neprnunoe, y pyrnx -
nxnoe, espasnnunoe (nnn, xax x ntpaxamct, esnnunoe), y rpert-
nx - nexnoe, mxrxoe, pacnonarammee n ntstnammee uyncrno cnm-
narnn x annomy uenonexy.
accranmnct c nontm snaxomtm, ocoenno ecnn on nponsnen
na menx nneuarnenne - nce panno, xopomee nnn nnoxoe,- x cra~
pamct npnnomnnrt n npecrannrt ]opmy ero pyx, a raxxe npecra-
nnrt pyxn c nx manemnmn noponocrxmn, xoropte x ycnena yno-
nnrt. anpnmep, xax uenonex eper menx sa pyxy (pesxo, mxrxo,
tcrpo, menenno), urot nncart na moe naonn cnonm nantnem;
xax on nnraer nantnem, xax nnmer yxnt, xax y nero nsparnnaer
pyxa n sanncnmocrn or coepxannx name ecet, xax on ormaxn-
naercx pyxo, xax oreprnnaer pyxy n np. Fes raxoro erantnoro
nsyuennx n npecrannennx monx snaxomtx x ne morna t nx cpasy
ysnanart rontxo no ono ]opme pyxn- n ocoennocrxm xoxn. cem
nsnecrno, uro y xaxoro ns nac n pasnoe npemx pyxn moryr trt
xonontmn, xora mt osxnem, n renntmn, xora nam xapxo
(y nexoroptx nme or cnntnoro nonnennx pyxn moryr trt xono-
ntmn, y pyrnx or raxoro xe nonnennx pyxn cranonxrcx ropxunmn),
yxn moryr trt rnaxnmn, npemenno norpyert or xaxo-nnyt
paort, npoenanno n reuenne onoro nx. anpnmep, ecnn mox
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axas 812
corpynnna ceronx sanxra crnpxo entx, yopxo xomnart, ona
na cneymmn ent moxer npnrn c raxnmn sarpyenmnmn py-
xamn, uro x morna t npnnxrt ee sa nocroponnee nnno, ecnn t
ne snana xapaxrepntx ocoennocre ee pyxonoxarnx.
cnn x snaxomnmct c uenonexom, xoropt ne nponsnen na menx
aconmrno nnxaxoro nneuarnennx n x axe ne oparnna na nero
nnxaxoro nnnmannx - ronopnna c nnm es ncxxoro nnrepeca n yua-
crnx nanmarentnocrn n namxrn,- ro n ontmnncrne cnyuaen x o
+rom uenonexe tcrpo satnam, ne npecrannxm ero pyx n npn cne-
ymme ncrpeue mory concem ne ysnart, xorx nmx ero nomnm.
ax x ysnam nexoroptx nme na paccroxnnn
snam, uro spxune nmn ysnamr cnonx snaxomtx ne rontxo
no nnemnemy nny, no n no ronocy n no maram. euac x xouy cxa-
sart, uro nnora roxe mory ysnanart na paccroxnnn rex nme,
xoroptx x xopomo snam naroapx romy, uro ocoenno rmarentno
nsyunna nx nnxennx. snam x nx axe n rex cnyuaxx, xora onn
naxoxrcx sa neptm moe xomnart. or xax +ro nponcxonr.
cranaxct n xomnare ona, x sannpamct. nx roro urot
snart, xora xo mne xro-nnyt xouer norn, x npnymtnam nce-
nosmoxnte cnrnant. ne npnxonnoct xnrt n raxnx xomnarax,
re cryx noro no nony ns xopnopa nepeanancx n mom xomnary.
o tnamr n raxne xomnart, n xoropte nnpannx ne nepeaercx,
rora mne npnxonrcx nsmenxrt cnrnannsannm.
nxro ne mor noconeronart mne, xaxnm opasom nponsnonrt
cnrnannsannm, xora menx ncennnn n ecuyncrnennym~ xomnary.
ecxontxo uacon nopx x nomana ronony na +ro saaue. rma-
rentno nccneonana crent, oxna, nepn n ncenosmoxnte menn, nma
ntxo ns cosanmerocx sarpynennx. cmarpnnax nept, x ona-
pyxnna, uro ona saxptnaercx na anrnncxn samox, nnyrpennn xe
samox ns nee ntnyr. coopasnna, uro moxno nocnontsonartcx
tnme samouno cxnaxnno, npecrannna cee nce +ro nexnrpoe
npncnoconenne n n ry xe mnnyry npncrynnna x ero peannsannn.
eno nor n uem: x npecrannna, uro n samounym cxnaxnny moxno
npoert nepenouxy, cenan ontmo ysen na rom xonne ee, xoropt
yer naxonrtcx co cropont xopnopa, a ncm ocrantnym uacrt
nepenxn ocrannrt n moe xomnare.
rax, npecrantre cee cneymmee: x cnxy sa cronom n neua-
ram na mamnnxe, nepenouxa or nepn nporxnyra xo mne, x npnep-
xnnam ee noro; xro-ro norxnyn sa nepenouxy sa neptm. e nao
ymart, uro nce rxnyr onnaxono. er, y xaxoro nnn nourn y xax-
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oro ns oxpyxammnx menx nme cnox manepa rxnyrt. xy, uro
cxopo npner apnx nxonaenna n cnoxono, ynepenno, no ne
pesxo, norxner nepenouxy... pexe uem nrn orxptnart, x yxe
npecrannxm, uro sa neptm cronr apnx nxonaenna. na cno-
xono xer, no ynepena, uro x cnrnan nocnpnnxna n ceuac e
orxpom. pome +roro cnrnana mne snaxom n pyro cnrnan - ero
x nocnpnnnmam xax o]nnnantnt~, enono, nemnoxxo nerepne-
nnnt. yxe npecrannxm, uro sa neptm cronr nan ]anacte-
nnu. reuenne nx xo mne moxer nocryuartcx~ n . .: ona rxner
rax menenno n ocropoxno, uro x nnxora ne omnamct n, xax
rontxo nocnpnnnmam +ror cnrnan, ncera ynepena, uro sa neptm
cronr +ra nentcoxax nonnax xenmnna. snam x ee axe n rex cny-
uaxx, xora ona npnxonr conepmenno neoxnanno.
naxt neuepom, npnnnsnrentno n ro npemx, xora mne
otuno npnnocxr yxnn, x sannmanact c . . n no npnntuxe ep-
xana nepenouxy. ro-ro norxnyn sa nepenouxy, x ysnana, uro rxner
mxontnax nocnnrarentnnna . . Fyyun conepmenno ynepena, uro
+ro ona, x orxptna nept n nporxnyna pyxn, urot nsxrt yxnn.
ro xe npemx x omyrnna sanax xnox. om pyxy nsxna ne . .,
a xro-ro pyro, conepmenno mne nesnaxomt. x, xax xopomo
naxner xnoxamn! cneymmym cexyny x tna xpane cmymena,
noromy uro xo mne noomnn na monotx uenonexa, onn ns nnx
orpexomenonancx:
- nx yparon. +ro mo par nana. t nam npnnecnn
xnoxn ns namero caa...
ce xe x ne omnnact: sa nepenouxy rxnyna nmenno . .: ona
nponoxana monx rocre o xomnart, norxnyna sa nepenouxy n
cpasy xe ymna.
nora neuepom, xora x cnxy unram nnn paoram, npyr same-
uam, uro xro-ro oruaxnno epraer sa nepenouxy, cnonno npnexann
rymnrt noxap nnn coomnrt mne o nauanmemcx ncemnpnom norone.
o menx +ro ne nyraer, n x ne ocoenno cnemy orxptnart nept,
no snam, uro nnxaxo xaracrpo]t ne cnyunnoct, a sa neptm cronr
n nerepnennno xer onn mo nepnnt snaxomt, n xoxanom
nantro, c ontmnm, ryro nanrtm ymaramn nopr]enem.
morna t npnnecrn eme px npnmepon ns +ro onacrn, no
ymam, uro n +roro ocrarouno.

on cnonnennx
omnm x +ror con, xoropt nocernn menx eme n mnte rot.
ne xasanoct, uro x cntmy no cne snyxn, n nouemy-ro noymana,
uro +ro nenne. o snyuan ne ronoc uenonexa, a yro nena xaxax-ro
nrnuxa. enne cntmanoct rpomxo, xcno, rax uyno, ropxecrnenno
snyuano ono na moe ronono, uro x samnpana or nocropra. rontxo
onoro x oxnact: urot ne oopnanoct +ro nenne. nce npemx
ymana: ro xe +ro rax noer?~ orom oraanact: et +ro co-
none~.
a camom ene x nnxora n xnsnn ne cntmana, ne ocxsana, ne
omymana nennx conontx, axe n pyxax ero ne epxana. o cne +ro
nenne snyuano nce xpacnnee, xax t nsanexa noxartnaxct xo
mne momno nonno. orom nonna nauana yanxrtcx or menx. enne
snyuano nce rnme n rnme n, naxonen, concem ymonxno. ouent
nonnonanact, ocaonana, uro xonunncx +ror nocxnrnrentnt con.
axe npocnynact or nonnennx. uro xe oxasanoct? menx n
ymax npocro tn cnntnt mym, xoropt nnxora ne npexpamaer-
cx - nn nem nn noutm. pemenamn on tnaer rnme, nnora co-
ncem sarnxaer, no uame ncero tnaer ouent cnntnt. o x ornmt
ne coxanem, uro n ry nout, o xoropo x nnmy, mym ycrponn mne
raxo sameuarentnt xonnepr.
naxo nouemy x noymana, uro noer nmenno conone, a ne xaxax-
nnyt pyrax nrnuxa? ne xaxercx, +ro oxcnxercx nectma npo-
cro. ntmamne paccxastnamr mne o rom, xax xopomo noer conone.
+rom xe x unram n xnnrax. snam mnoro pomancon n necen
o conontxx.
ocrarouno ncnomnnrt xorx t raxne crnxn:
nann re-ro uyno sanen conone,
nnnman emy c rpycrtm rnyoxo...
en conone cnom necnm-moryuym.
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n eme:
onontn, ne ymonxax,
nonxo cnnmyr na pexo.,
n r. .
nor +ro aer mne xaxoe-ro cnoe~ nnyrpennee, cnoeopasnoe npe-
crannenne o conontxx n nx nennn. uennno, namxrt mox ncera
opcrnyer no npemx cna.
II
roam mnocrn ornocnrcx n cneymmn mo con. nnnoct mne,
uro x tna enouxo ner cemn-noctmn n xnna c mareptm n rom xe
cene n n ro xe xare, re ponnact. xax yro nnena n cntmana
nce, uro noxpyr menx nponcxonr. t c mareptm sanrpaxann, npyr
ona ycntmana nerpomxn cryx n napyxnym nept. art ntmna n
cenn n uepes mnnyry nosnparnnact n xomnary n conponoxennn
xaxoro-ro myxunnt. n tn oer n uepnt xocrmm (rax mne no
cne npecrannnoct). nno y nero tno npnnernnnoe, no ouent co-
cpeorouennoe: na nem xcno orpaxanoct cnntnoe nonnenne. n
uro-ro rnxo ronopnn mame. na nnnmarentno cnymana ero, xnnax
ronono, norom oparnnact xo mne.
- 3roro uenonexa nmyr... ro nao cnpxrart, n rt nnxomy
ne onxna paccxastnart o nem. e cxaxemt?
- er, nnxomy ne cxaxy...
napyxnym nept onxrt nocryuann, no na +ror pas ouent
cnntno: cntmancx npxmo rpoxor.
- or onn nyr!-saxpnuan nesnaxomen.-oemre cxopee!
t nrpoem ntmnn n cenn n orxptnn nept n pyrym xomnary.
esnaxomen noexan x oxny, cnntntm yapom ntmn pamy -
x axe ycntmana snon pasnroro crexna - n nepnt ntcxounn sa
oxno.
- xopee nnre! - xpnxnyn on mame n mne.
ama nonesna n oxno, a x croxna cpen xomnart pacrepxnnax,
nnuero ne nonnmax. cntmana, xax rpemana napyxnax nept no
cnntntmn yapamn xaxnx-ro nme. ntmana eme xaxo-ro mym
n ymana: 3ro pxnaer nx opyxne~... or nept ynana, n nmn c
mymom nomnn n cenn...
ama cnntno epnyna menx sa pyxy n noramnna x cee. epxa
menx na pyxax, ona nepenptrnyna uepes nooxonnnx pasnroro
oxna n pocnnact ncne sa nesnaxomnem n rnynny nopa. am tnn
xonoen n norpe, a no creno norpea noxnnnact cnexentptrax
xma. esnaxomen nepnt nptrnyn n +ry xmy, sa nnm nocneonana
mama, npoonxax epxart menx na pyxax. nycxaxct no crynent-
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xam, mt ouyrnnnct n ysxo n nnnno nosemno ranepee. esna-
xomen tcrpo men nnepe. ama onycrnna menx na semnm n cne-
mnna sa nnm, a x menxo ercxo ptcno exana csan.
anepex nce pacmnpxnact n yrnynxnact n semnm. oxpyr tno
ouent remno. t mnn onontno onro. orom npyr cnepnynn sa
yron n pyrym ranepem, n x ynnena apxy, uepes xoropym nnncx
xpxn +nexrpnuecxn cner (na camom ene x nnxora ne nnena
+nexrpnuecxoro cnera). o cnauana x noymana, uro +ro, nanepnoe,
rax xpxo cnernr connne. ora xe uepes necxontxo cexyn mt npn-
nnsnnnct x apxe n, npox no nem, oxasannct n orpomnom no-
semnom sane, x nonxna, uro +ro nmenno +nexrpnuecxn cner.
rnxtnaxct no croponam, x yennact, uro san tn orpomen:
x ena pasnnuana nann ero npornnononoxnte crent. n xononn,
nn xaxo t ro nn tno meenn x ne nnena, no saro pocnn mnoro-
uncnennte ontmne xycrt pos, nocmorpena nnepx: n oranennn
nnnencx remnt cno n c nero cnycxanoct mnoxecrno xpxo ropen-
mnx +nexrpnuecxnx namnouex.
pyr nocntmanact xax t crpyxmaxcx cnepxy, nerpomxax, no
ouent xpacnnax n nexno snyuamax mystxa. orom pasanoct nenne
mnornx xencxnx ronocon, roxe rnxoe n uapymmee.
n mamt, nn nesnaxomoro myxunnt nosne menx ne tno.
croxna ona no xycrom entx, ouent naxyunx pos. nor ne
aouxn, ne nrnnt, a xpacnnte enymxn nauann nerart na xy-
cramn pos, nsmaxnnax pyxamn, xax xptntxmn. ystxa n nenne cra-
nonnnnct nce rpomue n rpomue... tna conepmenno sauaponana
rem, uro nnena. omnax nonna nnxonannx nanonnnna nce moe
cymecrno: x cpasy sanena, sacmexnact n, nsmaxnyn pyxamn, none-
rena nnepx c enymxamn... orom nce sanonoxnoct rycrtm entm
rymanom, n x crpemrnan xya-ro ynana.
3ro tno npoyxenne.
Ill
ora n ]enpane 1943 r. nauannct on sa aptxon, x ocrannna
cnom xomnary, n xoropo xnna ona, n nepemna n cnantnm cnentx
enouex.
o yrpo 16 ]enpanx mne npncnnncx crpamnt con o cmeprn.
nonoxnrentno omymana ee pyxamn. na tna n opase xen-
mnnt, conepmenno enax, xax mapnx, n axe nmecro rena y nee
tna mapnx. na nacxaxnnana na menx, crapaxct cxnarnrt sa ropno.
ornnanact or nee cnauana xynaxamn, norom orxya-ro ocrana
orpomnt nox n crana nm nopaxart cmeprt. nanocnna e yapt,
norpyxax nox no camym pyxoxrxy n pasnnunte uacrn rena cmeprn,
no e +ro ne npnunnxno nnxaxoro npea: nox norpyxancx rouno n
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nary. 3ror con tn nnrenen, cmeprt ronxnact sa mno no ncemy
omy, x nauana nsnemorart or optt c nem.
ora enouxn npnnxnnct menx ynrt, x npnnnmana nx sa
cmeprt n xpocrno ornnanact. pocnynmnct oxonuarentno, x no-
uyncrnonana, uro y menx onxr pyxn. enouxn ronopnnn, uro x cry-
uana xynaxamn no cnnnxe xponarn. ora xe nao mno naxnonn-
nact exypnax nocnnrarentnnna, x ee yapnna, npnnnmax sa
cmeprt.
nuero ner ynnnrentnoro n rom, uro mne npncnnnact cmeprt.
pemx tno rpynoe, n name nepnnoe nanpxxenne, ouennno, o-
crnrno xpannx npeenon.
...Fyro x xnna n xaxom-ro uncrentxom n ymrnom ropoxe, yro-
nanmem n mnorouncnenntx caax. naxonnact n xpacnnom omnxe,
menx oxpyxann xopomne, mnnte nmn. coenno x tna pyxna c
xaxo-ro enymxo.
pyr onaxt noxnnxercx nemenxn ]amncr n neer menx n
+ry enymxy x nenpy. n ycaxnnaer nac n noxy n cnntntm
ronuxom orranxnnaer ee or epera. nac ner necen, noxa es pynx
cama nntner no reuennm. epera x nam onocnrcx ronoc ]a-
mncra, on xpnunr pyromy myxunne, xoropt nastnaer cex monm
ornom:
- xouy nx norynrt! nn onntnyr o optna, uro no
noo, n nonayr n noonopor...
ne tno ouent crpamno. cnena na ne noxn, a enymxa
na cxamexe na pyrom xonne. necxontxo pas naxnonxnact sa
opr noxn, npoonana rpecrn pyxamn n enymxy npocnna o rom xe.
o namn ycnnnx tnn rmernt. euenne tcrpo necno noxy npxmo
x noonopory. yxe omymana, xax noxa corpxcaercx - nnpn-
pyer, xax yro no ne paoran ontmo morop. orom noxa
crana npamartcx noxpyr cnoe ocn, onnctnax xpyrn nce tcrpee n
tcrpee. ne tno nentnocnmo xyrxo, xorenoct sa uro-nnyt
yxnarnrtcx, no noxpyr nac tna rontxo ypnxmax noa.
nor x ynnena, uro x nam nanpannxercx pyrax noxa. 3ro mo
oren cnemnn x nam na nomomt. xnost mym not x ycntmana ero
opxmn ronoc:
- pennrect, enouxn, ne naare yxom! ceuac cpomy
nam na nepenxe xpmuox. ocraparect npoert ero n xontno noxn,
a x crany ramnrt sa nepenxy.
on na nnnno nepenxe pocnn xpmuox. o nama noxa tcrpo
npamanact, a noxpyr xnnena n ypnnna noa, xax n rnranrcxom
xorne. nnena, xax n nosyxe mentxnyna nepenxa c xpmuxom,
n ror xe mnr pasancx crpamnt mym not, n mne noxasanoct, x n
camom ene ynana n noonopor.
r cnntnoro nonnennx x npocnynact.
V
nnnact mne nesnaxomax xomnara, n n ne xpome menx naxon-
noct eme ne xenmnnt, ono ns nnx n pyxax tnn rpn xap-
rnnt c raxnmn pamamn, xaxne tnamr na nxonax. a ncex rpex
xaprnnax tnn nsopaxent rycn, o +rom mne cxasana nropax xen-
mnna. naarentnnna xaprnnt saxnnna, uro apnr nam no xap-
rnne. nsxna xaprnny n onro ocmarpnnana nantnamn pente]noe
nsopaxenne rycx; xaprnna mne ouent npannnact, n x ymana, xya
xe ee nonecnrt. pyr x crana sameuart, uro c xaprnno nponcxo-
nr uro-ro nenanoe: ntnyxnt ryct samenennncx. ama tcrpo
pacxnennanact, sarem concem ornannnact or nonorna. orom ne
crano nn pamt, nn nonorna; nepeo mno croxn uncrentxn ryct
na xoporxnx nanxax. n nouemy-ro snnncx n mnnen, ntrxrnnax
nnnnym mem x monm noram, xorena or nero yexart, no on
ornan menx n ontno xnmnyn n nory. paccepnnact, nomana
rycx sa nanxy n npnnxsana x noxxe xponarn. o nepenouxa oxasa-
nact nnnno, ryct nteran na cepenny xomnart n ontno xnenan
menx. oyman, uro, moxer trt, on raxnm opasom npocnr ecrt,
x nactnana emy xaxoro-ro sepna n nocrannna nmne c noo. yct
orpnnarentno samoran ronono n npyr saronopnn uenoneuecxnm
ronocom, a rax nacmemnnno, rax nponnuecxn:
- rt ymaemt, uro x yy ecrt +ro npornnnoe sepno? ax
t ne rax!
- uro xe rt moxemt ecrt? - cnpocnna x n nsymnennn.
-" mory ecrt rontxo napenoe nmeno, xora menx camoro napxr
n yntone,- ouent ropxecrnenno oxnnn ryct...
axe npocnynact or raxoro xomnunoro cna.
VI
Bna x no ynnne n xaxo-ro epenne n sanepnyna n onn nop.
ensnecrno orxya, no y menx n pyxax oxasanact nexa. nonesna
uepes saop, namepenaxct nonnnart n oropoe nomnopt. o xo mne
noomnn noe myxunn n nectma nenmesno crann ntnponaxnnart
non. 3ro ouent oneno menx. axorenoct n ormecrxy naronopnrt
nm epsocre. tx sa nopora, x cnonno cntmana, xax onn myx-
unna cxasan:
- Fontme nnxora ne saxonre cma, nam sect enart neuero.
oxonuarentno paccepnnact n pesxo ornernna;
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- raxy x xonrt x raxnm nenexam! nxora x nam x ne
npny, n nt n ocxny ne npnesxare.
- , n ocxny mt npneem, xora nam nsymaercx,- nacmem-
nnno orneuann myxunnt.
- er, x ncex yy npocnrt, urot nac n ocxny ne nycxann...
oromna or nopor n coopaxana, xax nepern na pyrym cro-
pony ynnnt rax, urot ne nonacrt no xoneca rener, xoropte uacro
npoesxann nocpenne ynnnt. ouent nnnmarentno npncnymnna-
nact~ noramn, ne poxnr nn semnx, n ymana: cnn x ne yy
omymart corpxcenne semnn, x tcrpo nepeery uepes opory. o
nao exart ouent npxmo, urot nonacrt n cno nop. cnn xe
x xort nemnoxxo orxnonmct or npxmo nnnnn, ro nonay na eper
mopx, n rora norepxm opory x omy~.
oxa x npetnana n nepemnrentnocrn, xo mne noomna xaxax-ro
cnenax enouxa ner ecxrn. na cxasana, uro nemnoxxo nnnr n
moxer nomout mne nepern na pyrym cropony. cornacnnact nrn
c nem, n mt tcrpo nepeexann uepes opory. o x samernna, uro
exann mt ne npxmo, a cnopaunnann nnpano. xpane oecnoxon-
nact, xax t nam ne ynacrt n mope. omymana sanax mopx, omy-
mana nnpannn mymxmnx nonn, no cxontxo mt nn exann, ne tno
nn mopx, nn moero nopa.
cxasana o +rom enouxe.
- a,-orneuana ona,-mt norepxem opory n x mopm, n x
omy. ao nepnyrtcx onxrt na ry cropony n orn o roro nopa,
orxya noexann...
t rax n cenann: nepemnn na npornnononoxnym cropony
ynnnt n, npnepxnnaxct pyxamn sa saopt, ornpannnnct ncxart
ror nop, orxya menx rax nenmesno ntnpononnn. o mt mnn
ouent onro, npomnn mnoro nopon, a roro nopa nce eme ne tno...
ouent ycrana n orxastnanact nrn antme. t cannnct ort-
xart, norom cnona mnn nnepe... 3ror con npoonxancx ouent
onro, ne nomnm, uem on xonunncx.
VII
nauana mne cnnnoct, uro mt c . . nomnn n xannenxpnm
ncrnryra e]exronornn n x co cnyxamnmn ronopnna o rom, urot
mne ann xomannponxy n aptxon. xannenxpnn tno ouent mnoro
nme; mne xasanoct, yro x nemnoro cntmy nx ronoca n nnxy nx
renn. naxo cnyxonte n spnrentnte nocnpnxrnx tnn rax cnat n
nent, uro cxopee xasanoct, yro x ncem renom nocnpnnnmam
mym, npncyrcrnne nme n, xpome roro, oratnamct, uro sect
onxno trt mnoro nme n, cneonarentno, ontmo mym, ecnn
onycrnrt, uro nce onn pasronapnnamr.
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o nonoy xomannponxn cnyxamne orneuann (onn ronopnnn
ncnyx, a . . nepenonna mne axrnnonorne), uro ne moryr mne
ee ntart nnny roro, uro n npomnom roy x yxe nonyuana +ry
xomannponxy. o nor xo mne noomen ronapnm 3.; nonsan mne
pyxy, on nauan nncart no moe naonn;
- nam am xomannponxy, noromy uro n 1946 r. nam nonara-
nact raxax xe xomannponxa, a nt em ne nocnontsonannct. ccnr-
nonannte na +ry xomannponxy entrn ocrannct nenspacxoonan-
ntmn, nt nx moxere nonyunrt n nmoe npemx...
tna ouent onontna raxnm ooporom ena n ymna x cee,
urot conpartcx n opory. antme cneonan xaxo-ro nponan,
x ne nnena cex eyme n aptxon. ocne +roro nponana no cne
x npyr oxasanact n aptxone n rom ome, re xora-ro nomemanact
xnnnnxa cnenornyxonemtx, no rontxo na rpertem +raxe, n nomeme-
nnn mxont cnentx. om eme ne tn noccranonnen nocne nont,
n x ncxana ntxo, urot cnycrnrtcx nnns. noomna x nnomaxe
npexne necrnnnt n, ocropoxno crynax, nauana omyntnart no-
ramn non, ortcxnnax crynentxn. nx namna, onn tnn cnoxent
ns yntxnnxa, na necrnnne ne tno nn nepnn, nn crent. oenx
cropon snxnn nponant n nycroe npocrpancrno o nepnoro +raxa.
ne crano ouent crpamno cnycxartcx no +ro necrnnne, x oxnact,
uro, cnnmnct c npxmo nnnnn, mory noorn x xpam necrnnnt n
cnannrtcx nnns. menx xpyxnnact ronona or crpaxa n nonnennx,
n x pemnna cnycxartcx no necrnnne na uernepentxax, urot py-
xamn omyntnart opory.
asanoct mne, uro x ouent onro cnycxanact no necrnnne, nyrt
mo sarpynxncx eme rem ocroxrentcrnom, uro npn xaxom moem
nnxennn orentnte yntxnnxn cxartnannct nnns... onacanact,
uro nor-nor ncx necrnnna pyxner.
uem nnxe x cnycxanact, rem ontme naano yntxnnxon: cna-
uana yntxnnxn xarnnnct rontxo nnepen menx, norom x nouyncr-
nonana, uro cnepxy na menx roxe naamr xamnn, x omyrnna xa-
xo-ro ronor. xasanoct, uro ncne sa mno no +ro yxacno
necrnnne eryr cnente enouxn. nn ornann menx, xora x yxe
ocrnrna nepnoro +raxa. o crpannoe eno, x oxnana, uro ecnn
necrnnna cocronr ns yntxnnxon, ro n non onxen trt raxnm
xe; na camom ene non tn rnaxn, xa]entnt n ouent un-
crt.
nente enouxn ymann, uro x ne nomnm oporn n ome, n, nsxn
menx no pyxn, nonenn x ro nepn, uepes xoropym x xora-ro
xonna n mxony. nept tna sanepra, no y menx n xapmane oxa-
sancx xnmu, n x ce orxptna. epecrynnn uepes nopor, x nouyncrno-
nana, uro na nony nexnr nce ror xe necnocnt yntxnnx. naxno-
nnnact n ocmorpena non pyxamn: npexnero nona ne tno n cnona
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naunnanact necrnnna ns yntxnnxon. noymana: anepnoe,
cma ynana oma, xora npar omnn ropo, n nponna non~.
mecre co cnentmn enouxamn x nauana cnycxartcx nnns, no
enouxn ouent cnemnnn, exann tcrpo, n or +roro necrnnna pyx-
nyna, mt cnannnnct n nonan. apaxaxct no ontmnm xyuam y-
ntxnnxa, mt nanpannnnct n ry cropony, re pantme tna nept
n necrnmnt name xnnnnxn. ora mt opannct o roro mecra,
re xora-ro tno nocemt epenxnntx crynenex, nx ram ne oxasa-
noct. mecro nnx naunnancx epenxnnt non. n tn ouent rna-
xn n nourn ornecnt, rax uro mt mnoro pas cocxantstnann nnns,
npexe uem opannct o nepn. a nepn x ortcxana xnonxy +nex-
rpnuecxoro snonxa n naxana ee. nonxa x ne cntmana, no uepes
mnnyry xro-ro orxptn nept co cropont necrnmnx. ox n necrn-
mnt, x nonepnyna naneno n tcrpo noexana no necrnnne nanepx.
namem nomemennn nce tno n nopxxe: necrnmnt n necrnnna
tnn raxnmn xe, xax ncera.
onan na nepxnmm nnomaxy, x cnona nonepnyna naneno n no-
mna n tnmn naoparopnt san. am cneno necxontxo nearoron.
nn pocnnnct xo mne nancrpeuy, cmexnnct, paonannct moemy npn-
esy. ce ononpemenno ntrannct ronopnrt co mno pyuno asy-
xo, no x ne tna n cocroxnnn nonxrt ncex cpasy...
rpom x ne morna ncnomnnrt, xonunncx nn na +rom con, nnn
x satna ero npoonxenne.
VIII
ne cnnnoct, uro mt c . . paorann sa monm nnctmenntm
cronom. saxorena nnrt ua, a rax xax n uannxe yxe tna noa,
ro ocrananoct rontxo nxnmunrt +nexrpnuecxym nnnrxy n nocrannrt
uannx. nsxna npono, no oxasanoct, uro na nem ne ne nnnxn,
a uertpe. enosmoxno tno nxnmunrt nx n poserxy. ntnnnrnna
ne nnmnne nnnxn, no nnnrxa ne saropanact, xorx . . ncxuecxn
xpyrnna npono. ora x noxpenue naxana na poserxy n nporxnyna
pyxy x nnnrxe, urot omyrnrt, ecrt nn oront. nnrxa yxe pasro-
penact, no ona tna naxptra cxareprtm. tcrpo copnana cxa-
reprt, ynnnxxct, xax . . morna onycrnrt, urot cxareprt ne-
xana na nnnrxe. o cxareprt eme ne ycnena saropertcx, a x tna
rax nsnonnonana +rnm cnom, uro axe npocnynact.
IX
ne cnnnoct, uro y menx onena ronona, menx ornenn x npauy
n xnpyprnuecxym xnnnnxy n ocrannnn ram nx onepannn. exyp-
nax cecrpa nonena menx n onepannonnym xomnary, nocanna na
cryn n nauana cpesart nonoct na remenn.
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naxomt xnpypr nanncan n moe pyxe: euac mt yem
enart nam rpenanannm~. ora menx onepnponann, x conepmenno
ne omymana onn, no n ro xe npemx mne tno nnoxo - x cnntno
ocnaena n nauana repxrt cosnanne. raxom cocroxnnn x xax yro
naxonnact onro. orom ounynact n cxasana npauy, uro uyncrnym
cex nyume.
- ac yxe moxno ntnncart,- orneuan npau.
nomna npnnxrt nanny nepe yxoom ns xnnnnxn. ax x no-
nana omo, no cne ne nnena, no oxasanact n cnoe xomnare; na
mne tn yrpennn xanar, n x sannmanact yopxo xomnart. ua-
cro noxonna x nepn, urot nponepnrt, ne ntrxnyra nn nepe-
nouxa. ora x eme pas noomna, ro ynnena, uro nepenouxa ntrx-
nyra n, xpome roro, n nept xro-ro cryuan; +ro x nouyncrnonana
pyxo, xora nsxnact sa nepenouxy. orxptna. xomnary nomen
myxunna cpenero pocra. ora on nsxn menx sa pyxy, mne npe-
crannnoct, uro x ero snam, pyxn ero xasannct mne snaxomtmn, n x
cnnnnact ncnomnnrt, xro xe +ro, no ncnomnnrt ne morna. 3ro
ocroxrentcrno xpane cmymano menx, onaxo x npenoxnna emy
cecrt, naexct na ro, uro on cam nasoner cex. n cen pxom co
mno, no ne ronopnn, xro on, a nauan cnpamnnart, xax x cex
uyncrnym nocne onepannn. orneuana emy n xpanem samemarent-
crne, no ne snana, c xem pasronapnnam. axonen, ynyunn yont
momenr, x cnpocnna, xax on noxnnaer, naexct, uro no ero ornery
x oraamct, xro on. n orneuan mne pyuno asyxo:
- nuero, cnacno, mnoro paoram n ouent cxyuam es...
n nasnan nmx ono snaxomo enymxn, n naroapx +romy
x cpasy coopasnna, xro tn mo rocrt.
ecrnnrentno, x +roro uenonexa nnena rontxo onn pas
n xnsnn.

nnnoct mne yrpo. yxe ypana xomnary, nosanrpaxana n ca-

nnact sa nnctmennt cron, urot paorart, no mne uro-ro crano
ouent nnoxo; x npnnerna na raxry, urot oroxnyrt necxontxo mn-
nyr. pyxe x epxana nepenouxy-cnrnanxy~.
nauana sactnart, no npyr nouyncrnonana, uro mox pyxa
corpxcaercx. ncxounna n, ocax, c ynanmnmn na nneun xocamn,
pocnnact x nepn. emnoro npnorxptn nept, x nporxnyna nnepe
pyxy (concem orxptnart nept x ne xorena, noromy uro tna n
onom capa]ane n ocax) n narxnynact na uenonexa. o nnxaxy
x onpeennna, uro +ro myxunna.
xana, uro on yer ronopnrt pyuno asyxo nnn nncart no
naonn, no on ne noan mne pyxn, a, naxnonnnmnct xo mne, nauan
uro-ro ronopnrt ncnyx. aconmrno ne omymana snyxon ero ronoca,
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a rontxo uyncrnonana, xax no moe mexe cxontsnr nosyx, xoropt
on nttxan, xora nponsnocnn cnona. exoropte yxnt x axe
pasnnuana no ero txannm, nanpnmep n~, ~, r~. ntranact
oraartcx, o uem on ronopnr. Ftrt moxer, on cnpamnnaer, nouemy
x ona n re . .?
pemnna orneuart nayra:
- rpom x ncera ona paoram, a ona npnxonr nosxe,
yxunna, xaxercx, nauan cepnrtcx, noromy uro eme cnntnee
ynyn mne n yxo n na mexy. xe npoonxana yratnart:
- t cnpamnnaere, xora ona npnxonr? na npner x uacy,
a ceuac rontxo II uacon. pnxonre uepes na uaca, n mt oo ncem
oronopnmcx.
yxunna, nepoxrno, concem paccnnpenen, no naxnonnncx x
camomy yxy n +neprnuno sayn n nero. xe pemnna, uro on npo-
maercx co mno, n, noxenan emy ncero nannyumero, saxnonnyna
nept nepe camtm ero nocom.
e ycnena x naert ry]nn n nonpannrt nonoct, xax cnona sa-
eprann nepenouxy. orxptna nept. enx nsxna sa pyxy xaxax-ro
xenmnna n nauana ronopnrt pyuno asyxo: nam npnxonn
onn corpynnx ns xaemnn nearornuecxnx nayx. my neoxo-
nmo noronopnrt c namn. oemre no nop, x nay xoro-nnyt,
urot nam nepenonnn, a x ne mory: ouent sanxra~.
, nomna c +ro xenmnno no xopnopy, ona xasanact mne
snaxomo yunrentnnne ns mxont rnyxonemtx, no x nnxax ne
morna ncnomnnrt ee nmenn. t ntmnn na xptntno, norom no nop.
ouent cmymanact, uro ny ocax, n onom capa]ane n pacrpe-
nannax.
unrentnnna nonena menx x xaxo-ro xenmnne, xoropax mne
ouent nonpannnact: ona tna raxax mnnax, cnmnarnunax...
cnpocnna y nee, xax ona ymaer; nnen nn menx xro-nnyt ns
amnnncrpannn n raxom nne. enmnna ouent tcrpo saronopnna
co mno ronocom n n ro xe npemx oxcnxnact asyxo. na cxa-
sana, urot x ne ecnoxonnact, nnxro menx ne nnen, a ecnn t
axe ynnenn, ro nnuero nnoxoro oo mne noymart ne mornn.
XI
on, xoropt x paccxaxy, tn neotuano xcen, cnonno nce
nponcxonno naxny. xax yro nomna noutm n ymtnantnym xom-
nary n omyrnna, uro ns oxna cnntno yer. oox x oxny, x ona-
pyxnna orxptrym ]oprouxy. 3ro ncnyrano menx. noymana, uro
uepes ]oprouxy n mxony moxer nponnxnyrt nop. tx n xopnop,
x nosnana nounym exypnym. na noomna xo mne, n x nonena
ee n ymtnantnym.
- morpnre, ]oprouxa orxptra, a mt nce cnnm. ax crpamno!
- nuero crpamnoro ner. 3ro paoune ncrannxmr crexna,- orne-
uana exypnax.
- ouemy xe onn paoramr noutm?
- 3ro rpertx cmena.
- o mne xaxercx,- cxasana x,- uro onn omnnnct. 3ro
y menx no nropom oxne or yrna oma pasnro crexno, a sect crexna
n nonnom nopxxe.
aoune ycntmann nam pasronop n npocnnn exypnym nepe-
art mne, uro onn ne omnnnct: crexna nao nese ncrannxrt n cxopo
onn oyr o moero oxna.
ymna x cee, no cnart ne noxnnact: xana, xora npnyr
ncrannxrt crexno.
nycrx necxontxo mnnyr x no cnexemy nosyxy nouyncrnonana,
uro nropoe or yrna oxno pacxptro.
noomna x oxny, sa nnm tnn paoune, n nx pyxax rnxo no-
snannnano crexno. aounx tno necxontxo uenonex, n onn rpomxo
neperonapnnannct mexy coo. ne morna pasopart, o uem onn
ronopxr, rontxo cntmana ryn ronocon. orom n xomnary nomna
xaxax-ro enymxa - cryenrxa nnn acnnpanrxa - n cxasana, uro
onn paoun npocnr menx noorn x oxny. ora x noomna, pa-
oun nporxnyn mne ouent manentxym spxuym xnnxeuxy, xoropym
npocnn npnnxrt or nero n noapox. nauana nepenncrtnart xnn-
xeuxy, ns nee ntnana pyrax, eme onee manentxax xnnxeuxa.
nonpocnna enymxy cxasart mne nasnanne +rnx xnnr.
- 3ro counnennx nanmnpa ntnua ennna. epnax xnnra -
arepnannsm n +mnnpnoxpnrnnnsm~. na naneuarana ouent yo-
pncrtm, menxnm mpn]rom, no+romy xaxercx raxo manentxo. ro-
pax xnnra- pommpa Bar nnepe, na mara nasa~.



F
o norepn spennx n cnyxa, r. e. npnmepno o 4-5 ner, a, xo-
neuno, snana o rom, uro y menx ecrt mart, oren, eymxa, rern n
xn; snana raxxe, uro y menx ecrt nopyrn, enouxn, n ronapnmn,
mantunxn. monx nopyr roxe tnn marepn, ornt n pyrne po-
crnennnxn. naxo n pannem nospacre x, pasymeercx, ne saymt-
nanact na nonpocamn: uro raxoe mart? uro raxoe oren? uro
raxoe eymxa? ouemy mox mart - nmenno mox mart, nouemy
ona ne moxer trt mareptm nx moe nopyrn? ouemy oren moe
nopyrn ne moxer trt monm ornom, n ro npemx xora moero orna
ne tno oma? ouemy mo eymxa - ne eymxa moe nopyrn,
a ee aymxa - ne mox aymxa? n r. n.
nom mart x cunrana cnoe mareptm noromy, uro ona nce
npemx xnna co mno, noromy uro x ne x npnntxna, noromy uro
rontxo ona, a ne pyrne xenmnnt (ne cocen) ocnyxnnana
menx, nacxana, apnna nrpymxn, mnna xyxnam nnartx n noome e-
nana nx menx nce, uro n cocroxnnn cenart xopomax, nmxmax
mart. o ecnn t y menx n ror nepno, o xoropom x nnmy ceuac,
cnpocnnn, uro raxoe mart, nouemy x rontxo cnom mart nastnam
mamo, x, nanepnoe, ornernna t npnnnsnrentno rax: mama -
+ro mox mama...
ocne marepn n name cemte camtm nnsxnm nx menx ueno-
nexom tn eymxa - oren moero orna. eymxa ouent nmnn n
anonan menx, ne mentme, uem mart, no o nem y menx n namxrn cox-
pannnoct nemnoro nocnomnnann, no eymxa ymep pantme moe
marepn.
nntno npnntxnyn x romy, uro menx ocnyxnnana nourn ncx-
nmunrentno ona mart, x ne onycxana, urot xro-nno pyro e-
nan nx menx ro, uro enana mart. cnn xro-nnyt ns namnx sna-
xomtx xoren nornanrt nnn xax-nnyt nnaue npnnacxart menx, x
+romy conpornnnxnact; rem onee x ne nosnonxna npnnacxart menx
rem nmxm, xoroptx x ncrpeuana nnepnte.
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axas 812
cnn xe menx uem-nnyt yromann nmn, x xoroptm x ne npn-
ntxna, x ne rontxo ne pana yromennx, no axe nyranact nnn crt-
nnact nme, xoropte ntrannct menx yrocrnrt.
ora mo oren npnesxan n ornycx n npnnosnn mne xpacnnte
nrpymxn: mxun, epenxnnte nomaxn, xyxnt, nantxy-ncrantxy,
naxomcrna n pyrne nemn,- x ns ero pyx crecnxnact part noapxn.
ontxo ns pyx marepn nnn eymxn x npnnnmana ro, uro npnnosnn
oren.
+ro nnonne nonxrno: xora x norepxna spenne n cnyx, x, xo-
neuno, xaxoe-ro npemx tna ecnomomna axe n ro ocranonxe,
xoropax rax xopomo tna mne snaxoma o onesnn. - +ror nepno
rontxo mart tna nx menx camtm nnsxnm xnntm cymecrnom.
erpyno nonxrt, uro n raxnx ycnonnxx mox npnnxsannocrt x
marepn n nocroxnnax norpenocrt n ee npncyrcrnnn, n ee nomomn
crann rax nennxn, rax +roncrnunt (xoneuno, cno +ronsm x nonn-
mam rontxo renept), uro x onroe npemx nnxomy ne nosnonxna sa-
mennrt nosne menx mart, a ee npemennoe orcyrcrnne nyrano menx
nourn o norepn cosnannx.
ora marepn neoxonmo tno ornyunrtcx no eny, ona ocran-
nxna menx y pocrnennnxon, xnnmnx n onom nope c namn.
naxt mart yexana x ymnpamme rere (o uem x ysnana nno-
cnecrnnn), a menx ocrannna y pocrnennnxon.
ect ent x npocnena rnxo, nourn ne cxox c roro mecra, na
xoropoe menx ycannn. xpyxammne anann mne n pyxn xaxne-ro
nesamtcnonarte nrpymxn, nnpoxxn, no x nce orpactnana n c ne-
repnennem xana, xora xe xo mne npnxocnercx mart. o ee nce
ne tno. npemenn x morna cynrt no romy, uro mne ann oe, or
xoroporo x orxasanact. pomno eme npemx, mne ann yxnnart, no
x cnona orxasanact or nnmn. naxo, coopasnn, uro nocne yxnna
nce cxopo nxryr cnart (menx ncera yxnatnann cnart nocne yxnna,
no+romy x ymana, uro nce nmn noxarcx cnart cpasy nocne yxn-
na), x nauana ouent ecnoxonrtcx, no mne nnepnte npecroxno
neut cnart es marepn, n npnrom ne oma. ora mne nocrennnn no-
crent n noxasann, uro nyxno pasenartcx, x nosnonnna cnxrt c cex
rontxo ornnxn, uynxn n nnarte, a pesnnxn, peryst n nn]unx ne
saxorena cnnmart. pome roro, x norpeonana, urot mne noxasann,
re nexar moe nantro n xanop.
ne rpyno npnnomnnrt ceuac, o uem x ymana nnn uro x na-
mepenanact cenart, xora ne cornacnnact pasertcx xax cneyer.
omnm rontxo, uro x cnpxranact no oexno c ronono n nexana
rnxo, no mne tno nouemy-ro ouent crpamno n xasanoct, uro mart
xo mne ne nepnercx.
myrnax mtcnt nnn cmyrnoe omymenne roro, uro x ocranyct
es marepn, xax ocranact es eymxn, npnnenn menx n raxoe cmx-
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renne, uro x ontme nexart n nocrenn ne morna. ocropoxno
ncrana. ncrnnxrnnno x nonnmana, uro nyxno nce enart ocro-
poxno, urot ne nponsnonrt myma. myntm x oomna xomnary,
uyrt npnxacaxct pyxamn x nocrenxm, na xoroptx cnann pocrnen-
nnxn. nxro ne nnrancx, snaunr, nce cnann - nonxna x. namna
cnom oexy, no naena rontxo uynxn, ornnxn, nantro n xanop, a
nnarte nouemy-ro cnpxrana no nantro.
ax xe ocropoxno crynax, x ntmna n cenn, namna na nepn
xpmuox n sannxxy, orxptna nx n ntmna na xptntno.
ara pocrnennnxon tna concem pxom c name xaro, n x yxe
nayunnact cpannnrentno nerxo nepexonrt or ono xart x pyro.
out tna oxnnnax, n x cpasy nonana n ontmym nyxy, xora
cnycrnnact c xptntna, no cosnanne roro, uro x ny omo, uro
oma, trt moxer, ecrt mart, npnanano mne cmenocrt.
npouem, ro xpoxornoe paccroxnne, xoropoe orenxno xary po-
crnennnxon or name xart, noxasanoct mne, xax x mory ntpasnrtcx
renept, orpomntm paccroxnnem co mnoxecrnom xmox, xamemxon n
nyx. ora xe x naxonen nsomna na name xptntno, x nourn oec-
cnnena or crpaxa. nonnmana, xorx n cmyrno, uro nocrynnna ne-
xopomo, yx or pocrnennnxon es paspemennx n ocrannn orxpt-
ro nx xary noutm. art ncera na nout sannpana napyxnym nept,
no+romy x snana, uro nentsx noutm ocrannxrt xary nesanepro.
e nomnm, xax x onapyxnna, uro na name nepn ner samxa,
xax nocryuanact n nept; nomnm rontxo, uro nept pacxptnact,
menx cxnarnnn pyxn marepn n x oxasanact n name xare.
nom xnsnt c mareptm x nonnmana n ro npemx cneymmnm o-
pasom: mart mox, ona npnnanexnr mne, a x npnnanexy e; cne-
onarentno, rontxo ona moxer oo mne saornrtcx n rontxo or nee
x mory npnnnmart +rn saort, nacxy n nce npouee. o+romy x ne
onycxana, urot oo mne saornnnct pyrne, a panno, urot mox
mart saornnact eme o xom-ro, xpome menx. ouent onxanact,
xora mart enana uro-nno nx pyrnx, a x ntnyxena tna ns
nexnnnocrn xart, xora ona ocnoonrcx n nooer xo mne.
yxnantno sa nce cepnnact na mart. uennno, n ro npemx
x tna ouent pennnno enouxo, no ne nonnmana +roro uyncrna,
ne morna or nero nsannrtcx n cnntno crpaana or +roro. oneuno,
nosnee x mnoroe nonxna ns roro, uro menx yrnerano n ercrne.
cepnnact na mart, xora n ornycx npnesxan oren n ona yxa-
xnnana sa nnm. nxanact x, nnpouem, nanpacno, no nn mart, nn
oren nnxora oo mne ne satnann n npexe ncero nce enann nx
menx, a ne nx cex. o mne rpyno tno oropnartcx or marepn, aa
xoropo x ncmy cneonana n c xoropo ncera cnana nmecre.
epnnact x, xora x nam npnxonnn rocrn n ornnexann mart or
menx. epnnact, xora mart npnnosnna ns ropoa rocrnnnt ne
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rontxo nx menx, no n nx monx nopyr. ne ne tno xanxo ro-
crnnnen, xoroptmn x cama ennnact c nopyramn, no mne xasanoct,
uro, ecnn mart aer nm rocrnnnt nnn nrpymxn, snaunr, ona nmnr
nx rax xe, xax n menx, a +roro x xax pas ne xorena n oxnact.
epnnact x axe n rex cnyuaxx, xora xro-nnyt ns snaxomtx
cnen nnsxo nosne marepn. coenno x tnana neonontna, ecnn
pxom c mareptm cnen myxunna.
yxunn x ysnanana no xocrmmy, no sanaxy nannpoc, no nouemy
x rax ne nmnna, ecnn onn noxonnn nnsxo x marepn, x n ro npemx
ne nonnmana nnn, trt moxer, xax-ro no-cnoemy, esoruerno nonn-
mana, a oxcnnrt +roro ne morna nn cee, nn pyrnm.
naxt (tno +ro no npemx rpaxancxo nont) x nam samen
nesnaxomt mne uenonex. cmorpen ero xocrmm, x ysnana, uro +ro
myxunna, a no sanaxy - noennt. t xax pas conpannct oeart,
n mart, no-nnnmomy, npnrnacnna npnmemero uenonexa x crony.
nnena (onapyxnna pyxamn), uro on oean nmecre c namn, a
norom uenonex n mart cnenn sa cronom n pasronapnnann (o +rom
x snana, noromy uro npnxnatnana pyxy x ropny n x ryam marepn,
omymax nnpannm ronocontx cnxsox). ne xasanoct, uro mart
cnnmxom onro pasronapnnaer c namnm rocrem, a na menx ne opa-
maer nnnmannx. ne rem onee tno ocano, uro x ne nonnmana,
o uem moxno rax onro pasronapnnart. ncxuecxn anana marepn
nonxrt, uro nopa rocrm yxonrt: x eprana mart sa nnarte, rn-
xontxo noranxnnana ee, marana cryn n axe xax t neuaxnno
ronxnyna rocrx noro sa cronom. o nce mon yxnmpennx tnn es-
pesyntrarnt. e npnnomnm ceuac, xax mne npnmna n ronony ne-
xopomax mtcnt: x ntmna n cenn, ortcxana na nnnre nycrym mn-
cxy, a sarem nomna sa neperopoxy, namna memox c myxo n na-
pana n mncxy myxn.
, pasymeercx, nexcno nonnmana, uro enam uro-ro nnoxoe, no x
raxxe nonnmana, uro nmenno +ro nnoxoe~ nomoxer mne ntrnart
nexannoro rocrx.
xomnare x yxe ocrarouno cnoono opnenrnponanact, snana,
re naxonrcx xaxax nemt. nax, re cronr oeennt cron, x ec-
npenxrcrnenno noomna x crony n, npexe uem mart ycnena opa-
rnrt na menx nnnmanne n coopasnrt, uro x namepenanact cenart,
c oxecrouennem pocnna n cropony rocrx mncxy c myxo.
omnm, nocne +roro nam rocrt ncxope ymen, a mart nomerana
myxy n ne noxonna xo mne, ns uero x morna, nonxrt, uro ona cep-
nnact na menx.
yennnnact n yronox x xyxnam, no nrpart ne morna. enept,
xora nenanncrnoro~ rocrx yxe ne tno n mne ne sa uro tno cep-
nrtcx na mart, menx nauano ecnoxonrt cosnanne roro, uro x no-
crynnna nnoxo n c rocrem, n c mareptm. et co mno nnxro rax
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ne nocrynan, ecnn x xonna x xomy-nnyt n rocrn. enx ne on-
xann, ne ntranxnnann ns xomnart n ne mntpxnn n menx mncxy c
myxo nnn uro-nno pyroe.
ne ouent xorenoct cenart uro-nnyt npnxrnoe nx marepn,
xoropym x ouent nmnna n ne xorena onxart, xora ne cepnnact
na nee.
omnm, uro x namna mart cnxme y oxna, ona nnaxana, ntrn-
pax nnno xonnom xoctnxn. , xoneuno, rora ne nonxna roro, uro
e tno crtno sa menx, xanxo menx n noome no mnornm npnun-
nam e tno rxxeno. o x nonxna cnoe uyncrno: mne crano xanxo
mart, x e noxasana (noxnontnax cex), urot ona nonna menx,
no ona +roro ne cenana. ora x nsxna mart sa pyxy n nonena ee
n cenn x myxe. e noxasana coornercrnymmnmn nnxennxmn pyx,
urot ona xpenxo sanxsana memox c myxo n uro x ontme ne yy
nanpart myxy n mncxy.
nrepecen ror ]axr, uro x ne onxanact na orna, ecnn on uro-
nno enan nx pyrnx, ecnn x nemy na xonenn cannnct mon ma-
nentxne npnxrentnnnt. enx +ro nncxontxo ne ecnoxonno, x ne
oxnact, uro oren yer nmnrt monx nopyxex rax xe, xax nmnn
menx. ne ecnoxonnact, xora +rn xe nopyxxn ornnmann y menx
nrpymxn, xoropte npnnosnn mne oren. e cneyer, onaxo, ymart,
uro x n ro npemx ne nmnna orna nnn oxnact ero.
anpornn, ecnn on, no moemy mnennm, onro ne npnesxan o-
mo, menx romnno cmyrnoe oxnanne; xaxercx, x axe onxanact
na nero sa ro, uro on onro ne noxnnxercx. o nmecre c +rnm uyn-
crnom tno n pyroe - x ne npnntxna x orny rax, xax x marepn,
n ero npoonxnrentnoe orcyrcrnne ne nyrano menx rax, xax orcyr-
crnne marepn, xoropax nce nx menx enana n npn orne, n es orna.
o+romy mart mne xasanact uem-ro cnntnee orna, uem-ro neoxc-
nnmtm nnxe orna. r +roro nce nemn, x xoroptm npnxacanact
mart, tnn mne nnxe, nonxrnee n ocrynnee, uem re nesnaxomte
nemn, xoropte npnnosnn oren.
oneuno, nnocnecrnnn, xora x crana crapme n nyume pasn-
panact n rom, uro noxpyr menx nponcxonno n xnsnn n no nsanmo-
ornomennxx nme, x ouent opoxnna nnnmannem orna n ero no-
apxamn, xoropte x c ropocrtm noxastnana cnonm pystxm.
name cemte, xpome menx, ere ne tno. 3ro x xopomo snana,
no mne tno conepmenno nenonxrno, nouemy n name cemte ontme
ner ere. exy rem x sameuana n pyrnx cemtxx ere mnoro.
ne tnano cxyuno ocranartcx oma ono, xora mart yxonna
paorart, no, ecnn mne noxastnann, uro moxno ocrannrt co mno
uyxoro peenxa (nanpnmep, ere cocee), x ne cornamanact, no-
xastnax nnxennxmn pyx, uro +roro peenxa nyxno ornecrn x ero
marepn.
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ectma uacro tnax c mareptm y cocee nnn y pocrnennnxon
n nrpax c nx ertmn, x, xoneuno, snana, uro y +rnx ere roxe ecrt
marepn n ornt, no+romy, xax mne rora xasanoct, nentsx tno oc-
rannxrt +rnx ere y nac: net y nnx cno om~ tn, re onn on-
xnt xnrt, xax x xnna roxe n cnoem ome~.
o nouemy n pyrnx cemtxx tno mnoro ere, a x y marepn
rontxo ona - +roro mne nnxro ne mor oxcnnrt. ne xorenoct,
urot mox mart re-nnyt n xme nnn na epery pexn namna raxoro
peenxa, y xoroporo concem ner nn marepn, nn orna, n npnnecna
+roro peenxa x nam. o raxo espont~ peenox ne naxonncx,
necmorpx axe na ro, uro x nnora conponoxana mart n ee nonc-
xax~ peenxa n xme nnn na epery pexn.
uro peenxa cneonano ncxart n xme nnn na epery pexn, +ro
nx menx tno nnonne nonxrno: x ne onaxt nmecre c mareptm
nnn c xem-nno pyrnm xonna ntpactnart n xmy mycop n nenyx-
nt xnam. cnn xe cymecrnonann ern, y xoroptx ne tno pon-
rene, ro onn mornn xax-nnyt cnyuano nonacrt n raxym xmy.
uro xacaercx epera pexn, ro n n +rom cnyuae nx menx nce tno
xcno: net nerom n pexe xynamrcx ern, a cpen nnx mor xe oxa-
sartcx concem manentxn peenox, y xoroporo nnxoro ner, on nna-
uer, ero nyxno nsxrt n npnnecrn x nam. naxo npemx mno, a pe-
enxa mt c mareptm rax n ne naxonnn.
ora x nam npnesxan n ornycx oren, x nouemy-ro ymana, uro
oren, yyun raxnm ontmnm n cnntntm, nomoxer mne narn re-
nnyt peenxa; no n oren nnre ero ne naxonn, a mxun n xyxnt,
xoropte on npnnosnn, ne mornn samennrt manentxoro mantunxa nnn
enouxy, xoroptx oren nouemy-ro ne npnnosnn.
o nponsomno cotrne, xoropoe o nexoropo crenenn yremnno
menx. xn n y rern, xoropte xnnn n onom nope c namn, no-
xnnncx manentxn mantunx. rex nop x mnoro npemenn npononna
y rern, cnex pyxamn sa rem, xax ona xopmnna, xynana, nenenana
n yxaunnana n nmntxe cnoero ctnxa. acxontxo x nomnm, x n ro
npemx tna ouent npnnxsana x +romy peenxy n c +roro momenra
eme cnntnee nonmnna manentxnx ere. ora mantunx nauan xo-
nrt n yxe rnepo epxancx na noxxax, x ono pyxo pana ero
sa pyxy, n pyrym pyxy pana nanouxy, urot omyntnart em nne-
pen cex npocrpancrno, n mt c mantunxom rynxnn, ne rontxo no
nope, no axe na ynnne nosne namero nopa.
nonnmana, uro x ney manentxoro mantunxa, a ne on menx,
no+romy es nanouxn ne pemanact xonrt c nnm, onacaxct, uro mt
moxem na uro-nnyt narxnyrtcx: mantunx ynaer, ymnercx n y-
er nnaxart or onn.
o no mepe roro xax mantunx cranonnncx crapme, on naunnan
nonnmart ro, uro x ne spxuax. acrano npemx, xora x nepecrana
part nanouxy, no mantunx naxonen nayunncx nonrt menx. 3ra
npnxrnax nx menx n ro npemx pyxa c manentxnm parom nn-
nact necxontxo ner.
mareptm x nnora tnana y raxnx snaxomtx, y xoroptx roxe
ne tno ere. ro npemx o raxnx snaxomtx x ymana, uro onn
rax xe, xax n mox mart, nnoxo ncxann ere, no+romy ne nme-
nnnx.
ono raxo eserno cemte ouent nmnnn moero manentxoro
pyra: ero xpane anonann, yromann ]pyxramn, nnpoxxamn, npx-
nnxamn, nrpann c nnm, xarann na noman. pyro cemte, re
tno ne xenmnnt (y ono ns nnx tnn xyte pyxn c mopmnnn-
cro xoxe, y pyro pyxn tnn mxrxne, rnaxne), xaxercx, ouent
nmnnn menx.
ne nerpyno tno nonxrt axe n ro npemx, uro +rn xenmnnt
nmnnn menx, no ornocnnnct onn xo mne ouent xopomo, nacxono,
n y nnx x uyncrnonana cex ne xyxe, uem y cex oma. nnx nx
menx ncera naxonnnct pasnnunte naxomcrna n xyxnt co cnonmn
napxamn. cno, uro x oxorno xonna x +rnm xenmnnam, no noue-
nart y nnx ne cornamanact n noxastnana, urot menx npononnn
omo, ecnn mox mart nouemy-nno onro ne npnxonna sa mno.
euac x, xoneuno, ne nomnm, sa xoro x npnnnmana +rnx xenmnn.
naxo nomnm, uro cnom mart x ontme nmnna n crpemnnact nep-
nyrtcx x ne axe or rex nme, xoropte ornocnnnct xo mne roxe
xopomo.
sameuana, uro ne +rn xenmnnt (mart n out) x pyrnm e-
rxm ornocnnnct ne rax, xax xo mne. pyrnx enouex, c xoroptmn x
nrpana, onn ne pann x cee n om, ne apnnn nm xyxnt nnn xaxne-
nno pyrne nrpymxn. nocnecrnnn x ysnana npnunny raxoro or-
nomennx xo mne: y monoo xenmnnt tna out, ymepmax n nxrn-
nernem nospacre, xoropym roxe snann ne.
uacro, tnax c mareptm ro y cocee, ro y mnorouncnenntx na-
mnx pocrnennnxon, x sameuana (no mne ncera noxastnann), uro
ro n ono, ro n pyro cemte noxnnxnnct nonte ern, xoroptx mne
nosnonxnn ocmarpnnart n cnenrt pyxamn sa rem, xax nx epyr na
pyxn, xax nx xopmxr. o+romy x cpannnrentno pano nauana nonn-
mart, uro c ouent manentxnmn nyxno opamartcx ocropoxno n na-
cxono. em ne menee cama x ne repnena, xora nspocnte opamannct
co mno rax, xax opamannct c manentxnmn, r. e. mne ne npann-
noct, xora menx rnannn no ronone nnn mexe. poxnnenne raxoro
poa nacxn cxopee onxano menx, uem ocrannxno yonontcrnne.
ama x rnanna rontxo manentxnx xorxr nnn nrnuex, ecnn mne a-
nann nx n pyxn. ymax, uro menx rnaxr rax xe, xax n xorenxa nnn
nrnuxy, x cepnnact n orcrpanxna rex nme, xoropte xorenn nt-
pasnrt, trt moxer, xopomne, no nenonxrnte mne uyncrna: ro nn
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nacxy, ro nn pyroe uro-ro. naxo x nnxora ne nmnna n rpyoro
opamennx nn co mno, nn c pyrnmn ertmn.
oneuno, paccxasart o +rom oxpyxammnm x ne morna, rontxo
pearnponana nonoxnrentno nnn orpnnarentno na nacxy n rpyocrt.
opomo nomnm, uro xo nspocntm n erxm x ornocnnact ne on-
naxono. menx nnxora ne nosnnxano xenannx onxrt, nonenonart
nnn npocro nornanrt pyxy ontmnm nmxm~. o manentxnx e-
re x ne crecnxnact, rnanna nx no ronone, nnora nenonana, ec-
cosnarentno ornocxct x nnm rax xe noxponnrentcrnenno, xax orno-
cnnnct xo mne nspocnte. nennxo tnano moe oropuenne, ecnn x
neocropoxntm nnxennem nnn noromy, uro ne nnena, npnunnxna
ont manentxnm erxm. ruernnno npnnomnnam na yxacntx cny-
uax.
ne tno, nepoxrno, ner cemt, xora onaxt cocexa nopyunna
mne nonrpart y nnx c ee enouxo, xoropym ona eme xopmnna rpy-
tm. enouxa, ne opamax nnnmannx na ro, uro x nocryxnnana ne-
pe nem noxeuxamn n eme uem-ro, nnaxana, nexa n nmntxe. pe-
mnna nsxrt enouxy na pyxn n ntrn c nem no nop, urot nac ynn-
ena mart +ro enouxn. nsxna ee na pyxn, necmorpx na ro uro
ona tna nx menx ouent rxxeno. rax xax pyxn mon tnn sa-
nxrt, ro x ne nmena nosmoxnocrn nporxnyrt nnepe pyxy, urot
ne narxnyrtcx na xaxo-nno npemer. ne samernna, xax noomna
x nepn, xoropax ntxonna n cenn n n ror momenr tna orxptra.
cnorxnynact o nopoxex n nmecre c enouxo ynana n cenn. ce-
nxx xe n +ro npemx tna nonxra nepna, saxptnanmax na nony
cnycx n nononte, rax uro x nmecre c peenxom noxarnnact nnns no
crynentxam.
acxontxo cnntno mt oe xpnuann, x +roro ne snam, no nomnm,
uro nac ntnecnn ns nonontx n uro x cnntno nnaxana, xorx ne cpasy
nouyncrnonana, uro ymnnact. naxana xe noromy, uro mne tno
ouent xanxo peenxa, n eme orroro, uro nenonxrnoe mne n ro npemx
uyncrno orpomno ropeun n ont rax cnntno sanonnnno nce moe
cymecrno, uro mne tno axe xax-ro crpamno or +roro noannxm-
mero uyncrna.
e nomnm rontxo, cxontxo npomno ne, mecxnen nnn, trt
moxer, ner nocne +roro nenpnxrnoro cotrnx, xax nponsomen py-
ro cnyua, roxe cnntno oropunnmn menx.
pyrne cocen nosnann menx noxauart nmntxy c nx enouxo.
enx nocannn na ntcoxym nexanxy n ann n pyxn nepenouxy, xo-
ropax tna npnnxsana x nncxme nmntxe. pemx or npemenn x npn-
xnatnana pyxy x enouxe n omymana, uro ona nnauer. uem ant-
me, rem cnntnee nnaxana enouxa.
ymax, uro. enouxy moxno yremnrt, ecnn cnntnee pacxaunnart
nmntxy, x yxnarnnact oenmn pyxamn sa xpa nmntxn n nauana
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cnntno n tcrpo pacxaunnart ee. o uepes nexoropoe npemx x omy-
rnna uro-ro crpamnoe: nmntxa nouemy-ro crana snaunrentno nerue,
uem tna pantme. ocmorpena ee - enouxn n ne ne tno. ne
cpasy nonxna, uro nmenno nponsomno, xya ncuesna enouxa. ne-
xoropoe npemx nocnena na nexanxe, conepmenno ne nnraxct, a
trt moxer, or ncnyra x yrparnna cnoconocrt nnrartcx. orom
uro-ro ropxuee xax yro yapnno mne n nnno n n ronony - x no-
nxna, uro enouxa ntnana ns nmntxn, xoropym x rax craparentno
pacxaunnana.
cocxounna na non n nauana ncxart pyxamn enouxy. na ne-
xana na nony n ncx corpxcanact or pasptnnoro xpnxa.
nauana nonnmart ee, no n +ro npemx xro-ro noexan x nam,
pesxo orronxnyn menx n nsxn enouxy.
cnona x nnaxana or yxacno ont n oropuennx n onroe
npemx axe c mareptm ne xorena xonrt x +rnm cocexm. enept x
nonnmam, uro xonrt x cocexm x ne xorena noromy, uro menx rep-
sann yrptsennx conecrn n tno crtno, uro x ne raxax, xax py-
rne, no+romy enana nce nnoxo.
npouem, +rnx nyx enouex x, x cuacrtm, ne ncxaneunna: nno-
cnecrnnn x nx ncrpernna yxe nspocntmn enymxamn, nnonne so-
pontmn n rpyocnocontmn, es xaxnx t ro nn tno nonpexenn.
nor eme necxontxo npnmepon roro, xax xo mne ornocnnnct ern
n nspocnte n xax x nonnmana nx ornomenne xo mne, xax pearnpo-
nana na +ro ornomenne.
omnm, uro n ercrne x onontno uacro tnana c mareptm n o-
no, xax x mory renept onpeennrt, npnnomnnax cotrnx, ouent
xyntrypno cemte, re mne mnoroe npannnoct: npannnnct nmn, npa-
nnnnct xomnart, n xoroptx omymancx xaxo-ro ocoenno npnxrnt
sanax, npannnnct ontmne xnymt no- nope oma c pasnoopas-
ntmn nneramn. +ro cemte tnn nspocnte nmn n nopocrxn, a
manentxnx ere ne tno. .
nxro co mno ne nrpan n +ro cemte, no nspocnte nmn orno-
cnnnct xo mne nacxono, a nopocrxn oranann mne cnon nrpymxn, n
xoroptx onn yxe ne nyxannct. ne ne sanpemann ocmarpnnart
ocranonxy n xomnarax (x rora nnepnte ynnena~ crpannt
npemer, xoropt nsanan snyxn, ecnn x yapxna nantnem no ne-
nonxrntm npoonronartm omeuxam~, +ro tno nnannno), pas-
nnunym nocyy n xyxne n npou. o ecnn m.art xorena ocrannrt menx
nouenart y +rnx snaxomtx es nee, x nnxora ne cornamanact, ne-
cmorpx na ro uro, xax x mory renept cynrt, tronte ycnonnx y
+rnx snaxomtx tnn necpannenno nyume rex, n xoroptx x xnna c
mareptm. o mne rora xasanoct, uro nnre ne moxer trt xopomo,
ecnn co mno ne yer marepn.
rax xax n +ro cemte nopocrxn tnn pocntmn enouxamn n
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antunxamn, ro x nx npnnnmana sa nspocntx nme, epxana cex
c nnmn ceptesno, rnxo, ne ntraxct mannrt nnn nrpart n nx npncyr-
crnnn. cnn xe xro-nnyt ns nnx npnxonn x nam, x raxxe nepe-
cranana mymno nnrartcx n crecnxnact noxastnart nm cnon nr-
pymxn. cnena re-nnyt n cropone o rex nop, noxa mart ne
noxastnana mne, uro n xomnare yxe nnxoro ner. a n noome x xy-
a-nnyt npxranact, ecnn ysnanana, uro x nam npnmnn ontmne
nmn~, xoroptx x nouemy-nno crecnxnact nnn axe oxnact.
npouem, n cpen ere ncrpeuannct raxne, c xoroptmn x nn-
xora ne nrpana n xoropte roxe ne ntrannct npncoennnrt menx
x cnoemy omecrny. osmoxno, raxoe noneenne ere oxcnxnoct
rem, uro onn ne ymenn co mno omartcx. onxno trt, onn ox-
nnct roro, uro x tna ne raxax, xax onn, a x n cnom ouepet no-cno-
emy nonnmana oruyxennocrt +rnx ere n roxe oxnact nx.
axym xe oruyxennocrt x uyncrnonana n co cropont nexoro-
ptx nspocntx, xoropte, npnxox x marepn, ne noxonnn xo mne,
xax yro t ne sameuax, uro x n xomnare. auem npnxonnn x nam
+rn nmn? uem ronopnnn c mareptm? +roro ne snana, no cmyrno
oratnanact, uro +rn nocernrenn roxe cunramr menx ne raxo, xax
onn camn, no+romy ne xorxr noxonrt xo mne. nonne nosmoxno,
uro +ro tno ne rax, xax mne xasanoct, n uro +rn nmn n ecrnn-
rentnocrn ornocnnnct xo mne opoxenarentno, no net n ro npemx
x +roro ne nonnmana n ymana, uro nmn, xoropte nnuem ne npoxn-
nxmr cnoero oporo ornomennx xo mne,- +ro nnoxne nmn. x
raxnm nmxm x roxe ornocnnact nenpnnernnno.
ameuana nn x, xax nspocnte opamamrcx pyr c pyrom n xax
onn ornocxrcx x erxm? a, sameuana (no uacro tnana c ma-
reptm n omecrne nspocntx nme n tna nectma nanmarentno),
necmorpx na ro uro mnoroe nponcxoxmee noxpyr menx ycxontsano
ns moero nonx spennx~, rax xax pyxamn x ne morna nce oxnarnrt,
nce ocmorpert ononpemenno. ax, x sameuana, uro nspocnte opa-
mamrcx pyr c pyrom ne rax, xax onn opamamrcx c ertmn, n ne
rax, xax ern opamamrcx pyr c pyrom.
sameuana, uro nspocnte omennnamrcx pyxonoxarnxmn npn
ncrpeue nnn paccranannn, uro onn onnmamr pyr pyra. nn pas-
ronapnnamr (x snana o +rom noromy, uro nnora epxana pyxy na
ryax y xoro-nnyt ns cnonx nnsxnx), cmemrcx, no ne eramr, ne
nptramr, xax ern, ne epramr pyr pyra sa oexy nnn nonoct,
xax +ro enamr pacmannnmnecx ern. oome, no monm roramnnm
nonxrnxm, nspocnte no ncex ornomennxx nenn cex ne rax, xax ne-
yr ern. ecnn t x n ro npemx ynnena~ no-ercxn mannnmero
nspocnoro uenonexa, ro, nepoxrno, tna t xpane nopaxena n mor-
na t noymart, uro +ro ne nspocnt uenonex, a rontxo ouent nnn-
nt peenox.
onnnoe n crenennoe noneenne nspocntx - ne mannnmnx n ne
erammnx ecronxono - npannnoct mne, n x oxorno tnana c ma-
reptm cpen nspocntx. cnn t o norepn spennx n cnyxa y menx
cnpocnnn, uro raxoe ern n uro raxoe nspocnte nmn, x, xo-
neuno, ne cmorna t ornernrt na +ror nonpoc.
o nocne onesnn, ntnyxennax naxonrtcx c mareptm n o-
mecrne nspocntx uame, uem n ercxom omecrne, x crana nonnmart,
uro ern - +ro ouent manentxne nmn, xoropte eme ne
snamr roro, uro snamr nspocnte, ne ymemr enart roro, uro
enamr nspocnte, ne moryr trt raxnmn cnntntmn, xaxnmn
tnamr nspocnte.
onropxm, uro x nonnmana pasnnny mexy ertmn n nspoc-
ntmn, no menx n +rom yexano nce ro, uro nponcxonno noxpyr
n uro tno ocrynno moemy nocnpnxrnm n nanmennxm.
ax, nanpnmep, xora x rynxna .c manentxnm nompontm pa-
rom, xro-nnyt ns pexr ornnman y menx nanouxy nnn cranxnnan
nac c opoxxn. o noxonnn nspocnte, orronxnn osopnnxon, nos-
npamann mne nanouxy n noxastnann opory omo. 3roro tno o-
crarouno nx roro, urot .x nonxna: nspocnte ne yyr onxart
manentxnx ere. pome roro, nspocnte enann ouent mnoro raxoro,
uero ne mornn enart nn x, nn re enouxn n mantunxn, xoropte
npnxonnn nrpart co mno. spocnte ynpannxnn nomatmn nnn es-
nnn na nnx nepxom (+ro x snana, no mo xx uacro menx xaran),
no x conepmenno ne nonnmana, xax nomat ntepxnnaer nspocnoro
uenonexa.
spocnte xonann semnm, xora caxann nnn ntxantnann onomn:
xapro]ent, cnexny. xe nnxax ne morna xonart semnm n nonaana
nonaro ne n semnm, a n cnom nory. art n pyrne xenmnnt no-
cnnn noy n nepax, nncenmnx na xopomtcne, no ecnn x ntranact
enart +ro, ro nepa nonounnnct no semne n onpoxntnannct. art
ynpana n xomnare, crnpana ente, roronnna nnmy, npnnocnna or-
xya-ro pona nnn conomy, a x nnuero +roro ne morna enart.
naroapx romy uro x mnoro npemenn npononna cpen nspoc-
ntx, x nnena~, uro rxxent rpy ntnonnxmr nmenno ont-
mne, cnntnte nm n, a ne manentxne ern - ne manentxne
nmn~.
e mory yrnepxart, nacxontxo npannntno nnn nenpannntno x
nonnmana nce ro, uro nponcxonno noxpyr menx. em ne menee n
moem yme sapoxanoct es cnon, es nasnannx (pasymeercx, o ns-
necrnoro nepnoa) ynaxenne x ontmnm nmxm, ]opmnponanoct no-
nnmanne npenocxocrna +rnx ontmnx nme na ertmn xoro-
pte no mnornx cnyuaxx ne mornn ntnonnxrt roro, uro ntnonnxnn
nspocnte.
Fyyun xnno n axe npenpnnmunno enouxo, necmorpx na
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ro uro nce mon ecrnnx tnn snaunrentno orpannuent monmn ]n-
snuecxnmn neocrarxamn, x ntranact nopaxart n uem-nno ma-
repn, no y menx nce +ro ne nonyuanoct rax xopomo, xax y nee.
anpnmep, mart pasmaxnnana nennxom, npnxacanact nm x
nony, n ns xomnart ncuesan mycop. ora xe x enana nennxom ne-
uro noxoxee na ro, uro enana mart, ro n xomnare nosyx crano-
nnncx xaxnm-ro crpanntm (nonnmanact ntnt), n x naunnana
unxart n xamnxrt, a non no-npexnemy tn sacopen conomnnxamn
nnn uem-nnyt pyrnm. orcyrcrnne marepn x nnora ntranact
nannrt cee monoxa ns xynmnna n uamxy, no nce +ro xonuanoct rem,
uro x nponnnana monoxo mnmo uamxn, a norom, ne yepxan rxxe-
nt xynmnn, ponxna ero, onpoxntnax npn +rom n uamxy. noroe
pyroe, uro enana mart, nnxax ne nonyuanoct y menx.
axe ymtnartcx ne ymena rax npocro n nerxo, xax +ro enana
mart: ona mentme ptsrana noo n nosmoxno, uro e ne nonaano
mtno n rnasa. xe mnoro nponnnana not na non, n mtno oxsa-
rentno nonaano mne n rnasa.
axne n nm noonte noncenennte cotrnx es cnon yexann
menx n rom, uro x eme manentxax, cneonarentno, ne n cocrox-
nnn cenart ro, uro enamr nspocnte.
o nmenno noromy, uro nspocnte enann mnoroe ns roro, uero
ne morna cenart x, manentxax, mne ouent xorenoct trt raxo, xax
nspocnte, urot ymert enart ro, uro enamr onn. rontxo ne
snana, uro cneyer cenart nx roro, urot trt noxoxe na nspoc-
ntx. no-npexnemy ntranact enart xoe-uro, cnex sa pyxamn
marepn n nopaxax e: nanpnmep, xora mart enana napennxn, nn-
poxxn nnn neuente, x roxe mxna n nantnax recro, no nn napennx,
nn nnpoxox y menx ne nonyuancx raxnm axxyparntm n nacroxmnm,
xax y marepn.
amtm nerxnm enom, no roramnnm monm nonxrnxm, tno
mtrte nocyt. et +ro rax npocro: onycrnrt uamxy nnn nmne
n mncouxy, nonnecxart noo - n moxno ntrnpart. o na ene
oxastnanoct, uro n +ro ornmt ne rax npocro n nerxo, xora e-
pemtcx sa uro-nno cnonmn neymentmn pyxamn. coenno rpyno
tno ntrnpart nonorennem ntmtrym nocyy. nnxax ne morna
nacyxo ntrepert ro, uro mtna: x nnn ponxna nocyy, nnn ona ocra-
nanact moxpo.
enana x n pyrne nontrxn crart ontmo: x npoonana mnoro
xonrt ncne sa mareptm, ecnn ona mna xya-nnyt anexo. ne
xasanoct, uro ecnn x cmory nporn ontmym opory, ro xorx n +rom
yy noxonrt na mart. o oxastnanoct, uro x no ncex ornomennxx
tna ecrnnrentno eme manentxo, no xonrt anexo, ne
ortxax, x ne morna. ycranana n, ecnn mart ne morna nsxrt menx
na pyxn, cannact npxmo na semnm, orxastnaxct nrn antme.
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o nexoropte o cnx nop namxrnte mne cnyuan snaunrentno
nopaonann menx, npoynn n moem cosnannn cmyrnoe nonnmanne
roro, uro ern xora-nnyt yyr raxnmn xe nspocntmn, xax nce
npoune nmn. oparnna nnnmanne na ro ocroxrentcrno, uro mon
ponrenn n ponrenn monx nopyxex otuno npnnocnnn nam (e-
nann noapxn) naxomcrna, ]pyxrt, nrpymxn, a nspocnte apnnn
pyr pyry nnarxn, marepnm nnn xaxne-nno pyrne nemn. o
oren roxe npnnosnn nx marepn marepnm nnn uro-nnyt ns oe-
xt. 3ro roxe nouemy-ro ynnnxno n onxano menx, naranxnnax
mtcnt na xaxne-ro nexcnte nontrxn nonxrt pasnnny mexy ma-
reptm n coo. naxo mne nonxrno tno rontxo ono: mart ont-
max, a x manentxax.
o nor xax yro uro-ro nsmennnoct. orx x no-npexnemy tna
manentxo, no-npexnemy nce enana neymeno, nenonxo, a mexy
rem oren cran npnnosnrt n npnctnart mne raxne noapxn, xaxne
pantme apnn rontxo marepn. nn pas on npnnes mne na menxo-
ntx map]a. ora mart nonxstnana mne ronony map]om, xonnt
xoroporo pasnenannct no nce cropont, x ntxonna na ynnny, ne-
otuano onontnax rem, uro nomy raxne nemn, xoropte nocxr
rontxo nspocnte xenmnnt. +roro momenra x ouent nonmnna no-
cnrt map]t, no noopaxana, uro x yxe naunnam noxonrt na
nspocntx xenmnn, xoropte oxr anexo, mnoroe ymemr enart,
cnxr pxom co nspocntmn myxunnamn, o uem-ro pasronapnnamr n
cmemrcx.
e nomnm, cxontxo npomno npemenn nocne roro, xax oren noa-
pnn mne map]t, no nomnm, uro on npncnan mne na xycxa mare-
pnn, ns xoropo mart cmnna na xopomentxnx nnartx c pasntmn
oopouxamn, copxamn, cxnaouxamn. 3ror nont noapox-orna xax
yro nornepxan n noxpennxn mon cmyrnte npenonoxennx: ne
cranonnmct nn x uem-ro noxoxe na mart?
3rn n noonte nm noapxn orna nocrenenno menxnn moe orno-
menne x nemy, no x uyncrnonana, uro on saornrcx o nac, r. e. oo
mne, o marepn n o eymxe. ora x sameuana, uro c noxnnennem n
ome orna noxnnxnnct ononxn cnauana y marepn n y eymxn, a
norom n y menx, mne, ecrecrnenno, tno npnxrno, uro mo oren
naunnaer ornocnrtcx xo mne xax x ontmo.
eymxa ornocnncx xo mne ne xyxe, uem mart n oren.
eymxn x concem ne oxnact, no on o xonna cnoe xnsnn
naxonncx c namn n tn ouent optm xo mne. nx menx mexy
mareptm n eymxo pasnnna saxnmuanact nnmt n rom, uro mart -
xenmnna, a eymxa - myxunna, uro mart tna oera xax nce
xenmnnt, a eymxa xax nce myxunnt. cunrana, uro eymxa
rontxo mo eymxa, noromy, uro on ornocnncx xo mne
nyume, uem x pyrnm nnyxam, erxm moero xn.
o, uro eymxa ornocnncx xo mne nyume, uem x pyrnm nny-
xam, x morna onpeennrt no romy, uro c nnmn on nnxora ne cnen
na cxamexe nosne nanncannxa, ne xonn c nnmn na pexy, rre xa-
ran nx n noxe, xora esnn ynrt pty, ne anan nm rax mnoro
npxnnxon n xannt, xax mne. ce +ro n mnoroe pyroe eymxa e-
nan, no monm nanmennxm, rontxo nx menx, no+romy x, nensmenno
uyncrnyx opoe ornomenne eymxn, ncera mna x nemy nocne
roro, xax mne ocrananoct or marepn sa xaxne-nno manocrn n npo-
crynxn. eymxa yreman menx uem mor: rnann no ronone n sa-
nneran xocnuxn, ecnn mne nonaano sa ro, uro y menx tnann pa-
crpenannte nonoct n norepxnt nenrt. n nonn menx xya-ro (ne-
poxrno, n nanxy) n ram anan mne n nepennuex npxnnxn, eme
uro-ro nxycnoe (mapmena) n nonte nenrt.
o cnyunnoct rax, uro eymxa nenonxrno sauem ner n nocrent
n, xax mne xasanoct, nexan mnoro ne (x o cnx nop ne snam,
cxontxo npemenn eymxa tn ontntm). norom nponsomno eme
onee crpannoe cotrne: n xomnary npnmno mnoro nme n e-
ymxy sauem-ro nonoxnnn na ntcoxn (nx menx) cron n xonono
xomnare. a n cam eymxa tn nenonnxnt n x.onont, xora
mart, nnaua, nonecna menx x crony n noxasana, urot x npnnoxn-
nact ryamn x xonontm pyxam eymxn.
xontxo npemenn eymxa nexan na crone, x ne nomnm, nepnee,
ne snam. omnm rontxo, uro eymxn concem ne crano y nac n x
ouent onro cxyuana n ne nonnmana, xya xe ncues eymxa, xo-
roporo x rax nmnna n c xoroptm mne tno rax xopomo.
e snam, cxontxo npomno npemenn nocne roro, xax ymep e-
ymxa (o ero cmeprn x, xoneuno, ysnana nosnee), no nomnm, uro x
ouent cxyuana es nero, ocoenno nerom, xora mart ne rontxo c
pannero yrpa n o nosnero neuepa, no axe n na nout yxonna na
paory, a x ocrananact oma ona. pononrt npemx c ertmn co-
cee mne tno rpyno, no onn ne ncera nonnmann menx, a x n
cnom ouepet nnora nenpannntno nonnmana nx. nyxanact n xo-
pomem ornomennn nspocnoro nnnmarentnoro n uyrxoro uenonexa.
raxo uenonex namencx.
3ro tn, xax x ysnana nnocnecrnnn, monoo uenonex, pocr-
nennnx rex nyx xenmnn (crapo n monoo), xoropte uacro pa-
nn menx x cee. 3ror monoo uenonex, xax x nonnmana rora, or-
nocnncx xo mne ouent xopomo: on onontno uacro saxonn x cnonm
pocrnennnnam n, ecnn x tnana ram, nensmenno anan mne n pyxn
nnn nnnrxy moxonaa, nnn sanepnyrt n ymary mapmena. cnn
xe x tnana oma n cnena ona n nanncannxe, on noxonn xo
mne n otuno xnan pyxy mne na ronony. o +romy xecry x npn-
ntxna ysnanart ero n es ncxxnx onacenn mna c nnm rynxrt, axe
nosnonxna emy part menx na pyxn,
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nora x o neuepa nrpana c xyxnamn y ero pocrnennnn, n ecnn
on roxe naxonncx ram, ro caxan menx x cee na xonenn, n x uyn-
crnonana, xax on pasronapnnan n cmexncx.
ne nonnmana, nouemy on cmeercx, no nnora roxe yntanact,
ecnn sameuana ero cmex. cnn xe x xorena cnart, a on c oxnnne-
nnem uro-ro ronopnn n cmexncx, x naunnana cepnrtcx na nero, y-
max, uro on napouno cmeercx, urot x ne ycnyna. o nce xe x nno-
ra sactnana y nero na xonenxx, n, ecnn mart onro ne npnxonna
sa mno, on na pyxax ornocnn menx omo.
no-ercxn tna ouent onontna (nnn, xax x mory ntpasnrtcx
renept, tna xpane nontmena) raxnm ncxnmunrentno xopomnm or-
nomennem xo mne co cropont nspocnoro pyra. , pasymeercx, ne
snana, nouemy +ror monoo uenonex ornocnncx xo mne rax nnnma-
rentno, no ero ornomenne xo mne x nonnmana xax ornomenne o-
poro ontmoro xn~. Ftrt moxer, +ror monoo uenonex tn on-
nox nnn uem-nno npemenno oropuen, +roro x ne snana, a n ne
morna t nonxrt +ro n ro npemx.
oymana x oo ncem +rom snaunrentno nosnee, xora crana
onee cosnarentno pasnpartcx n rom, uro noxpyr menx nponcxonr.
ercrne xe x npocro paonanact romy, uro y menx ecrt npocro
opt xx~. aonanact x n romy, uro y monx nopyxex, xax
mne xasanoct, ner raxoro xn~.
ameuy, xcrarn, uro n moem npncyrcrnnn mo nspocnt pyr nn
c ono moe nopyxxo ne opamancx rax nacxono, xax co mno.
nnxora ne sameuana, urot on nsxn na pyxn pyrym enouxy
nn.n urot on nomen rynxrt, nex sa pyxy pyrym enouxy. nax
nce +ro, x tna ynepena n rom, uro n naxomcrna on pyrnm enou-
xam ne npnnocnn.
ax nn +ro tno n ecrnnrentnocrn, x ne snana, no x rax y-
mana n xorena, urot +ro tno rax n n ecrnnrentnocrn, no x,
npnnomnnax cex manentxo, mory renept uncrocepeuno cosnartcx
n rom, uro x tna yxacno pennnna n +ror neocrarox n
ercrne, xora x mnoroe conepmenno nenpannntno nonnmana, npn-
unnnn mne nemano oropuenn.
asymeercx, x t ouent onenact na cnoero nspocnoro pyra,
ecnn t ynnena, uro on nsxn na pyxn pyroro peenxa. rax y-
mam noromy, uro x tna neonontna, xora onapyxnnana y nero
na xonenxx xomxy, xoropym on nornaxnnan. cnn xe on noxonn
xo mne na ynnne n ro npemx, xora x nrpana c enouxamn, x ysna-
nana ero no pyxam, no sanaxy, no xocrmmy |on otuno nocnn nn-
xax axe n nernmm xapy, rora xax pyrne myxunnt (cocen),
xoroptx x nnora ocmarpnnana, xonnn es nnxaxa. pocana
nrpart c enouxamn, pana ero sa pyxy n rxnyna n cropony, anax
emy nonxrt, uro xouy nrn c nnm rynxrt. ecnn on men rynxrt-
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rontxo co mno, x tnana ouent cuacrnnna n, xax x renept no-
nnmam, ropnnact nepe enouxamn rem, uro yxoxy or nnx ry-
nxrt co nspocntm uenonexom.
naxo ne ncera ncrpeun co nspocntmn nmtmn paonann menx.
Ftnann n raxne ncrpeun, xoropte oropuann, tnn mne nenpnxrnt.
uem-ro nenonxrntm orranxnnann or nspocntx nme, a nnora na-
onro nyrann rpytm ornomennem xo mne c nx cropont.
3rn cnyuan ornocxrcx x romy nepnoy, xora mox mart (o xon-
na cnoe xnsnn ne repxnmax naext na ro, uro menx moxno nt-
neunrt) nosnna menx ne rontxo x npauam, no n x pasnnuntm map-
naranam-snaxapxm, snaxapxam n x yuentm nonam~.
oneuno, n ro npemx x ne morna nonxrt, xora mt tnann y na-
croxmnx npaue n xora y snaxape. o notnan y npaue n onee
nosnn nepno n cpannnnax nx opamenne co mno c rem opame-
nnem, xoropoe x nocnpnnnmana n ercrne, x, nanepnoe, esomnouno
mory yxasart na re cnyuan, xora menx ocmarpnnann npaun, a xora
snaxapn n ncnenxmmne~ nont.
omnm, uro, xora npaun ocmarpnnann y menx rnasa n ymn, onn
cannnct npornn menx, pann n pyxn xaxne-ro nemnnt, nonopaun-
nann moe nnno ro nnpano, ro nneno, nonocnnn x nnny ropxmym
namny, cner xoropo x ne nnena, a omymana xoxe nnna (rax e-
nann, xora cmorpenn rnasa), nocryxnnann uem-ro, xora cmorpenn
ymn. exoropte npaun tnann ouent nacxont: onn ocropoxno npn-
xacannct xo mne, rnannn no ronone, camn caxann menx na cryn n
onro ocmarpnnann. pyrne npaun tnann pesxn n nnxennxx, ro-
ponnnno ocmarpnnann menx n orxonnn, ne npoxnnn, xax x mory
ceuac cxasart, nn yuacrnx, nn nnnmannx.
oneenne rex n pyrnx npaue x n ro npemx nonnmana npnnn-
snrentno rax: re npaun, xoropte tnann nacxont n nnnmarentnt,
xorenn cenart rax, urot x cnona nnena n cntmana, urot x
ncmy xonna, nce morna enart es nomomn oxpyxammnx. e
npaun, xoropte tnn cyxn n nennnmarentnt, xasannct mne nno-
xnmn nmtmn, ne nonmnnmnmn menx n ne xorenmnmn cenart rax,
urot x cnona crana raxo, xaxo tna o onesnn.
uro +rn nmn, r. e. npaun, nmenn xaxoe-ro ornomenne x spennm
n cnyxy, mne tno xax yro nonxrno, noromy uro onn ocmarpnnann
rnasa n ymn, no ne pyxn, ne norn, no nce moe reno.
ora xe mart nosnna menx x snaxapxm nnn nonam, ryr eno
ocroxno nnaue, no noneenne +rnx npaue~ tno concem nntm.
nn ne ycaxnnann menx na cryn npornn cex, ne pann n pyxn ro
nemn, xaxne pann nacroxmne npaun. nn nnn concem ne ycaxnnann
menx, nnn xe x cnena pxom c mareptm na nnnno cxamexe, a
nnora mt npocro croxnn. nn ne ocmarpnnann y menx nn rnasa, nn
ymn, a mexy rem mart ntnnmana ns xopsnnxn nnn ysenxa xna.,
cano, xne n oranana +rnm nmxm. ne nonnmana, sauem ona nce
+ro oraer, n ymana, uro ona noaer mnnocrtnm xomy-ro,
rom, uro noanann mnnocrtnm, x es cnon snana, noromy uro
mart uacro anana mne n pyxn xycox xnea nnn uro-nnyt pyroe
ns et II nporxrnnana mom pyxy nnepe, n n raxnx cnyuaxx xro-ro
pan ns monx pyx ro, uro x nporxrnnana.
onxno trt, no yxasannxm n no penenram~ +rnx concem ne-
optx, no monm nonxrnxm, nme, x xoroptm mart nonna menx,
ona oma myunna menx nenpnxrntmn n nenonxrntmn mne nponey-
pamn.
nomnm, uro ecnn mt nosnpamannct omo or npaua, ro
otuno tnano rax, uro mart saxantnana mne n rnasa n ymn nnn
anana nnrt xaxoe-ro nexapcrno. o nocne nocemennx snaxape
mart naunnana neunrt menx nntm cnocoom: nnora menx caxann
n ouxy c ropxue noo n cnepxy saxptnann uem-nnyt renntm
(oexnom nnn nantro). ouxe x satxanact or napa, ropxuax noa
xrna reno. ntranact ntcxounrt ns ouxn nnn xorx t cpocnrt
ro, uro saxptnano ouxy. o menx ne ntnycxann ns ouxn o rex
nop, noxa ne ocrtnana noa. orom npxmo na ronoe reno mne nae-
nann moxpoe xononoe nnarte, ntnanxnnoe n xpynno conn, n n ra-
xom nne na ncm nout yxnatnann n nocrent.
eunnn~ menx n pyrnmn ncnenxmmnmn cpecrnamn~: cmaun-
nann n uem-ro rpxnxy (ecnn ne omnamct, n orypeunom nnn xanycr-
nom paccone), xoropo sanxstnann mne rnasa n ymn, nocne uero
x n mart cranonnnnct na xonenn n yron xomnart (trt moxer, n
arom yrny nncenn nxont) na xpynnym cont nnn ropox, xoropte
yxacno annnn mne ronte xonenxn. anee mart naunnana maxart
n npnxnatnart x cee npanym pyxy, noxastnax, uro n mne nao
enart ro xe camoe. n raxo nose mt croxnn o rex nop, noxa ne
ntnnannct ns cnn.
ne ncera, nnpouem, ntcrannana o xonna na xonenxx na conn
nnn ropoxe. nora x nannnact naox nnn concem cannact na non,
nporxrnnax norn, n cnonm noneennem anana marepn nonxrt, uro
mne nnoxo n uro x ontme ne yy enart ro, uro mne nenpnxrno,
uro mne npnunnxer ont.
ocne ncex +rnx neuentx nponeyp~ menx eme nonnn nacrox-
mn nnn ornapamn xaxnx-ro rpan n cnaon, or xoroptx menx my-
rnno, n x axe saonenana.
ce +ro nenonxrnoe n crpamnoe ne npnnocnno mne nnxaxo
nontst n xonunnoct rem, uro x crana ouent oxrtcx xaxoro ueno-
nexa, xoropt npnxacancx x monm rnasam nnn ymam es ncxxoro
snoro ymtcna (nnora +ro enann ne npaun n ne ncnenxmmne~
snaxapn, a npocro couyncrnymmne, yuacrnnnte nmn). crana o-
xrtcx not, ocoenno ropxue, moxptx rpxnox, xpynno conn, nxon,
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nncenmnx n name xare, maxannx npano pyxn cnxmennnxa, x xo-
ropomy menx nnora nononnn n xoropt ptsran na menx noo
(xponnn cnxro noo~).
nora mart nonna menx n xaxo-ro om, re x onxna tna
roxe noonry croxrt na xonenxx, no rontxo ne na conn n ne na ro-
poxe, a npocro na ronom xononom nony. oxpyr menx nmn roxe
croxnn na xonenxx, no ne cannnct na non, xax +ro enana x, xora
xpane ycranana. ome naxno ne rontxo sanaxom uenoneuecxnx
ren, no n eme uem-ro yymnnntm, ouent ne npannnmnmcx mne. a-
xoro sanaxa n pyrnx omax x ne omymana.
pexe uem yrn ns +roro mnoronmnoro oma, mart nononna
menx x xaxomy-ro ntcoxomy (nx menx) cronnxy, npnnonnmana
menx n sacrannxna npnnoxnrtcx ryamn x ocxe. 3ro roxe tno
nenonxrno, nenpnxrno n axe cmemno, no n pyrnx omax x nn-
xora ne nenonana ocox. oma y nac tna epenxnnax xponart c
ntcoxnmn cnnnxamn, no x ee nnxora ne nenonana; ontmo oe-
ennt cron n manentxne cronnxn n yrnax xomnart x raxxe ne
nenonana, sauem xe n +rom xononom, nnoxo naxnynmem n mnoro-
nmnom ome menx sacrannxnn nenonart ocxy?
xe n cosnarentnom nospacre x onaxt c ono pennrnosno
snaxomo cnyuano samna n nepxont n nnena~, xax +ra snaxomax
nepexpecrnnact (nomaxana pyxo), a norom npnnoxnnact x nxone.
nepxnn croxn ocrpt sanax naana.
ne xcno ncnomnnncx ror nenonxrnt n ercrne om~, ncnom-
nnnact ocxa~, xoropym menx sacrannxnn nenonart. o axe n
cosnarentnom nospacre mne tno nenonxrno, crpanno n roxe cmem-
no nnert~, uro nspocnte n ymnte nmn npnxnatnamrcx x ocxe~
n c uyncrnom ymnnennx ntxamr romnornopnt sanax naana. ne
xcno ncnomnnnnct ncxxne myuennx, xoroptm menx noneprana mart,
nonaranmax uro snaxapn, nxont n yuente nont~ moryr ncnennrt
menx..
exa. eent
xaxom nospacre ern naunnamr nastnart nce re nemn, xoro-
pte onn nocxr n nnxr na pyrnx nmxx, cnonamn ente, oex-
a, ycranonnrt nectma rpyno, rem onee uro ne nce ern onna-
xono pasnnnamrcx.
nomnm, uro mox mart nauana npnyuart menx x ercxomy e-
ntm ouent pano. o cnonam snanmnx menx n ro npemx nme, x eme
ne ymena xonrt, a mart yxe naenana na menx ]apryuxn, nn]-
unxn, nanranonunxn, pesnnxn c nerentxamn n npoune neyonte
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n axe necnocnte nx peenxa nemn. ax x ysnana nnocnecrnnn,
naenana mart na menx nce +rn nemn noromy, uro x tna ouent no-
nnxntm peenxom n uacro napanana cee reno, xora nauana non-
sart, a sarem xonrt.
oneuno, x nocrenenno npnntxna x entm n x nepxne oexe.
o o rom, uro ente nastnaercx entem, a nepxnxx oexa - oex-
o, x. ysnana snaunrentno nosnee - nosnee, uem nayunnact oe-
nartcx nourn camocroxrentno.
asymeercx, cnauana x ysnana orentnte nasnannx cnoero e-
ntx, xax-ro: copouxa, nn]unx, nanranont, rpnxo, uynxn, pesnnxn
(no n moem nonnmannn pesnnxn roxe ente, nocxontxy x nx no-
cnna na cee). nauane x ne snana, uro nnarte ornocnrcx x uncny
nepxne oext, n ymana, uro nnarte roxe ente. npouem, nce
re nemn, xoropte x nocnna, n nepnoe npemx x ornocnna x entm.
ononnax xoctnxa, nocono nnarouex, nxsanax xo]rouxa nnn xem-
nep roxe tnn entem. axe nonorenne xasanoct mne entem, a
oxcnxnoct +ro rem, uro xaxt pas nocne nannt (rora x yxe
naxonnact n xnnnnxe) x nonyuana uncroe ente, nnarte, xemnep
(ecnn +ro tno snmo), xoctnouxy, nocono nnarox n nonorenne.
nonne ecrecrnenno, uro nce +rn nemn xaxoe-ro npemx npecrannx-
nnct mne ne xax nnxnee ente, nepxnxx oexa n pyrne npnna-
nexnocrn ryanera, a npocro xasannct entem.
ora xe x naxonen ysnana, uro cymecrnyer noome oexa, n
onxna tna orennrt nce ro, uro ornocnnoct x uncny nepxne
oext, or rex neme, xoropte cunramrcx nnxnnm entem, x tna
n ontmom sarpynennn, ne nonnmax pasnnnt mexy cnonamn e-
nte n oexa.
pynocrt saxnmuanact n rom, uro n nnxnee ente, n nepxnmm
oexy x nocnna na cee; cneonarentno, xax x nonnmana, ontmo
pasnnnt mexy +rnmn cnonamn ne onxno tno t cymecrnonart.
exy rem menx yunnn, uro nnarte, nxsanax xo]rouxa, xem-
nep, map], manouxa, nantro, mepcrxnte peryst, nepuarxn, xa-
xer n npou.,- nce +ro nepxnxx oexa, a ne nnxnee ente.
x onxna tna nonxrt pasnnny mexy entem n oexo, sa-
nomnnrt nasnannx rex neme, xoropte ornocnnnct x entm, n rex,
xoropte ornocnnnct x nepxne oexe.
oyntm, ecnn mne ne nsmenxer namxrt, eno ocroxno cront xe
cnoxno. nauane x ymana, uro rontxo ornnxn cneyer nastnart
oyntm, a no+romy cnono ornnxn nx menx ononpemenno osnauano
n cnono oynt.
poncxonno xe +ro noromy, uro n ercrne, xora x eme xnna
c mareptm, x nocnna rontxo ornnxn, xora tnano xonono, a ne-
rom crpemnnact xonrt ocnxom, urot nyume omymart no noramn
pasnnunte neponnocrn na semne.
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xnnnnxe mne ne paspemann xonrt nerom ocnxom n xynnnn
na nero canannn. ne cxasann, yxastnax na canannn, uro +ro
roxe oynt. o x pemnrentno orxasanact nocnrt canannn (rnepo
nomnm, uro nn onoro nx ne npoxonna n canannxx, no x ne cun-
rana nx oyntm). mecro canann mne xynnnn xopomne xoxante
ry]nn c nyronnuxo n c manentxnm xanyxom. y]nn roxe nasnann
oyntm, it x cpasy +romy nonepnna, noromy uro onn tnn ns raxo
xe mxrxo xoxn, uro n ornnxn, xoropte x nocnna n ercrne; xpome
roro, na ry]nxx tno no ono nyronnuxe, a x npnntxna n ercrne
nocnrt ornnxn na nyronnnax, c manentxnm xanyxom.
anannn xe tnn cenant ns onee rnepo xoxn, es xanyxa
n c npxxxo nmecro nyronnuxn. axax xe +ro oynt!~ -npnnn-
snrentno rax ymana x.
ranomam, xax n x ornnxam, x roxe tna npnyuena eme ma-
reptm, no rax xax x nx ncera naenana na ornnxn n nnoxym no-
roy, ro cunrana ranomn uem-ro camocroxrentno cymecrnymmnm, ne
nnonne ornocxmnmcx x oynn: net ranomn x ne naenana npxmo na
uynox, a rontxo na ornnxn. , ecnn moxno rax ntpasnrtcx, x morna
t n ro npemx, o xoropom nnmy, nastnart ranomn naornnnnxamn,
no n moem nonnmannn oyntm cneonano cunrart rontxo ro, uro
naenanoct npxmo na nory.
oram menx npnyunnn nosnee. ort x cxopee, uem ranomn,
cornacnnact npnuncnnrt x oynn, no onn necxontxo nanomnnann
mne ornnxn, n x nepnoe npemx ecrnnrentno nyrana nx c ornn-
xamn n ne nonnmana, sauem naenamr na ry]nn eme n ornnxn~.
nauane x npoonana naenart ort npxmo na uynox, no +ro oxasa-
noct ne ouent yono nx norn npn xoxennn, n rora x nonxna, uro
ort ne naenamr es ry]ent.
asnnunte ranouxn, nxsante, marepuarte n xoxante, x c er-
crna nouemy-ro ne nmnna, ne xorena nx nocnrt n ne xorena nast-
nart nx oyntm, rax xe xax n canannn.
nono nocrent x ysnana cpannnrentno pano, n, xaxne nemn
ornocxrcx x nocrentnomy entm, mne nerue tno nonxrt, uem
ro xaxne nemn nastnamrcx nnxnnm entem, nepxne oexo n
oyntm.
et nocrentm x nontsonanact rontxo rora, xora noxnnact
cnart. nocrentnomy entm npnuncnxmrcx nemnorne n nnonne on-
peenennte nemn, xoropte, ecnn nonxrt npannntno nx nasnauenne,
ne cnyraemt c pyrnmn nemamn. ontxo cxareprt moxno npnnxrt
sa npocrtnm, ecnn ne snart, nx uero ona npenasnauaercx. ennoe
oexno x nnxora ne nastnana nantro, no tcrpo nonxna, uro
nocrentm nastnamrcx rontxo re nemn, xoroptmn x nontsonanact,
xora noxnnact cnart.
ocne roro xax x nayunnact n npnntxna nonnmart nasnauenne
nnxnem entx, nepxne o)xm, oynn n nocrentnoro entx, x on-
xna tna nonxrt nasnaunnnc pyrnx oxpyxammnx menx npeme-
ron-meenn, xoropax, xax mne xasanoct, tna rax xe pasnoo-
pasna n mnorouncnenna, xax n nepxnxx oexa.
camom ene, mne npnxonnoct ocmarpnnart pasnnunte cryntx:
manentxne, ontmne, mxrxne, rnepte, c ntcoxo cnnnxo, c nns-
xo cnnnxo, c rnaxnmn npxmtmn noxxamn nnn ntrnyrtmn n r. .;
pasnnunte cront, roxe ontmne, manentxne, xnaparnte, npoon-
ronarte, xpyrnte; pasnnunte mxa]t, xponarn, cnantnte rymouxn,
rayperxn, nnant, xymerxn, y]ert, manentxne cxameeuxn, no-
cranxn nx xomnarntx nneron nnn crary+rox, nonouxn ncenosmox-
no nennunnt n npou.
1?(o +rn pasnnunte no nennunne n nnemnemy nny npemert ne-
oxonmo tno oomnrt n ono nonxrne, n ono cnono meent (nnn,
xax x ysnana nosnee, ocranonxa). nauane mne nectma rpyno
tno nonxrt, nouemy n cnantne (n xnnnnxe) croxnn xponarn, rym-
ouxn, manentxne cryntx nosne rymouex, neontmne cronnxn,
ontmo mxa] c ercxnm entem, n cronono - oeennt cron
n ontmne cryntx c mxrxnm cnentem, xneenuart nnan, na xoro-
pom xorx n moxno tno cnert n axe nexart, no xoropt ne na-
snann xponartm; croxn y]er, xoropt nepnamn n xmnxamn na-
nomnnan mxa], no ero nastnann ne mxa]om, a y]erom. xyxne
croxn ontmo, ns roncrtx ocox cron, nmecro crynten croxnn ra-
yperxn, a nmecro y]era na crene tnn npnnrt nonxn. ymt-
nantno n nanno xomnare roxe tnn nonouxn, rayperxn n ma-
nentxne cxameeuxn, n nce +rn epenxnnte nemn cneonano nast-
nart onnm cnonom - meent.
naxo mne xasanoct nenonxrntm, nouemy ncm +ry meent, nce
+rn pasnte nemn oosnauamr onnm cnonom - meent. ora xe x
ysnana cnona cnantnx, crononax n xyxnx, ro nexoropoe npemx
co cmyrntm neonepnem ornocnnact x romy, uro nce npemert, na-
xonnmnecx n +rnx xomnarax, cneyer cunrart meentm, no y menx
na +ror cuer cnoxnnoct nnoe nonxrne.
o monm roramnnm nonxrnxm, re nemn, xoropte croxnn n
cnantne, nentsx nastnart meentm, a cneyer nastnart noome
cnantne, noromy uro onn croxnn n cnantne; re nemn, xoropte
croxnn n cronono, nao nastnart cronono; a nce ro, uro naxon-
noct n xyxne, cunraercx xyxne. exoropoe npemx x, no-nnnmomy,
nonnmana rax: n cnantne cronr cnantnx, n cronono cronr cro-
nonax, a n xyxne naxonrcx xyxnx.
a nropom +raxe (xnnte xomnart naxonnnct n nnxnem +ra-
xe) n ontmom sane nomemanact xnnnnuecxax naoparopnx, n xo-
ropo tno mnoro ontmnx n manentxnx cronon n crynten, pasnnu-
ntx nocranox nx cxyntnrypt, tnn raxxe sepxana, mxa]t n pas-
noopasnte npnopt. snaxomnnmnct co nce +ro ocranonxo, x
roxe noymana, uro n naoparopnn cronr naoparopnx.
necrnmne croxnn nemanxn nx nantro corpynnxon, sepxano,
rayperxn, ontmne mxa]t nx nepxne oext ncex nocnnrannn-
xon. cmarpnnax +rn nemn n yxe snax cnono necrnmnt, x cun-
rana, uro n necrnmne nomemaercx necrnmnt.
nnsy, re xnnn nocnnrannnxn, tno necxontxo xomnar, na-
snauenne xoroptx x ne cpasy nonxna n, ecnn ne omnamct, axe
ne xorena nepnoe npemx nepexonrt ns ono xomnart n pyrym.
xcnxnoct +ro rem, uro, xora x xnna c mareptm, x npnntxna x
romy, uro y nac tnn rontxo ne xomnart. oma n ono n ro xe
xomnare moxno tno n ecrt, n cnart, n nrpart. xnnnnxe xe x
onxna tna oryunrtcx or +roro, no menx npnyuann cnart rontxo
n cnantne, ecrt rontxo n cronono, nrpart n sannmartcx rnmnacrn-
uecxnmn ynpaxnennxmn moxno tno rontxo n xomnare nx nrp
n r. .
3ror xnnnnuecxn pacnopxox n nepnoe npemx tn mne conep-
menno nenonxren, xasancx rpynontnonnnmtm n ne ouent nyx-
ntm. conepmenno ne nonnmana, sauem cneonano nepexonrt ns
ono xomnart n pyrym, ecnn moxno tno nce enart n ono xom-
nare.
enana nontrxn ne nounnxrtcx pacnopxxy: yxonna ns cro-
nono c neoeenntm xycxom xnea n cnantnm, a ecnn ouent xorena
cnart nem, ro noxnnact na nnane n cronono nnn na xymerxe n
xomnare nx nrp. ocnnrarenn oryuann menx or ncero +roro, no x
n raxnx cnyuaxx ouent onxanact na oxpyxammnx, n nnoxom na-
crpoennn yxonna n necrnmnt n npxranact ram sa ontmym ne-
manxy.
o sa nemanxo x ne sactnana, a npeananact roptxnm pasmtm-
nennxm no nonoy roro, uro noxpyr menx nponcxonr neuro neno-
nxrnoe: nouemy mne ne nosnonxmr oeart xne n ro xomnare, n
xoropo x cnnm? ouemy ne nosnonxmr cnart ram, re x em nnn nr-
pam, nnn ram, re mne ontme npannrcx npnneut nem?
nexoropoe npemx x noospenana, uro oxpyxammne menx nmn
xorxr npnunnnrt mne uro-ro nnoxoe. 3rn cmyrnte npenonoxennx
o rom, uro oxpyxammne crpemxrcx enart nce naoopor nx roro,
urot onert menx, oxonuarentno paccrpannann menx, n x noonry
nnaxana, cnx sa nemanxo. cnn xe xo mne xro-nnyt noxonn,
urot ycnoxonrt menx nnn ntnecrn ns-sa nemanxn, ro n +rnx cny-
uaxx x eme cnntnee naunnana nnaxart n orranxnnana noxoxmnx
xo mne.
oe-uro pyroe roxe tnano nenonxrno mne. ora mne tno
xonono neuepom, x npoonana noxnrtcx n nocrent n nnarte n n uyn-
xax, urot cxopee corpertcx. o mne ne paspemann enart +ro.
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n +rnx cnyuaxx x nosmymanact n neoymenana: net x xorena
cenart nx cex ro, uro mne xasanoct nyume, a nocnnrarenn nnn
nearorn nouemy-ro xorenn, urot mne tno xyxe, n sacrannxnn
menx conepmenno pasenartcx, naenart na nout pyrym pyamxy
n rontxo n ono pyamxe noxnrtcx n nocrent.
cnn n cnantne nnora tnano xonono no yrpam, xora x ncra-
nana, x naenana nce ente n axe nnarte no oexnom, a ntpan-
mnct ns-no oexna, xnarana rennt xanar n naenana ero na
nnarte.
naxo oenartcx no oexnom n naenart xanar na nnarte mne
xareropnuecxn sanpemann. xe ymana, uro nocnnrarenn ne snamr
o rom, uro mne xonono, nnn xe napouno xorxr, urot x noontme
mepsna.
on. nonnennx
ayunnmnct mnrt napxt nx xyxon n pyrne necnoxnte nemn,
omnnart noconte nnarxn, xoctnouxn, x cnycrx nexoropoe npemx
nsymana nnocnrt ncenosmoxnte nonpanxn n ononnennx n cnoe
ente n nnartx. nectma nnoxo nepeentnana cnon pyamxn, nn]-
unxn, nenpannntno nepemnnana nopornnuxn na nnarte, namnnana
na nnx nnmnne anrnxn, nyronnnt n tna rnyoxo yexena n rom,
uro enana nce +ro xopomo n xpacnno. naxo nocne monx nonpa-
nox y menx ornnmann ncnopuennte nemn n npnnonnn nx n nane-
x.amn nn. o xax rontxo mne nosnpamann mon nemn, x cnona ne-
pemnnana nx no-cnoemy n onroe npemx ne nonnmana roro, uro nemn
cranonnnnct xyxe, a ne nyume.
on]nnxrt no nonoy nnoxo nepemnrtx mnom neme otuno
nponcxonnn no cyoram, no n +ror ent x npnnnmana nanny n
nonyuana uncroe ente. o cyory xe mne nnora cnnnnct ma-
nentxne enouxn.
ne xasanoct, uro ecnn mne no cyory ne cnnnnct enouxn,
ro n +ror ent y menx ne yer nnxaxnx nenpnxrnocre. o ecnn
cnnnnct enouxn, rora nenpemenno tnann nenpnxrnocrn ns-sa
entx.
e nonnmax nacroxme npnunnt cnonnenn, a raxxe n roro,
uro cnt o enouxax cnyuano connaann c cyornnmn nenpnxrno-
crxmn, x nectma ceptesno noospenana, uro nmenno +rn nounte ma-
nentxne enouxn ymtmnenno enamr rax, urot n cyory x nony-
uana sameuannx.
x ouent oropuanact, ecnn mne cnnnnct manentxne enouxn no
xaxo-nnyt pyro ent nomnmo cyort. +ror pyro ent x
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otuno c camoro yrpa yxe xana ncenosmoxntx on, n, ecnn nn-
uero ne cnyuanoct, x tnana xpane ynnnena n axe pasouaponana:
net x rax xana nenpnxrnocre, a n ecrnnrentnocrn nnuero nno-
xoro ne tno, n ntxonno rax, uro noutm manentxne enouxn o-
manynn menx.
manentxnm mantunxam, xoropte mne nnora roxe cnnnnct, x
ornocnnact onee narocxnonno; mne xasanoct, uro n re nn, no
xoropte x nnena no cne manentxnx mantunxon, y menx ne tnano
nnxaxnx oropuenn - nanpornn, tnann xaxne-nnyt paocrn. o
ecnn cnt o manentxnx mantunxax ne connaann c npnxrntmn co-
trnxmn, x tna oropuena n ynnnxnact romy, uro ne cnyunnoct
nnuero paocrnoro n ror ent, no xoropt mne cnnnnct mantunxn.
ne xasanoct, uro manentxne mantunxn paccepnnnct na menx sa
uro-nno n no+romy ne xorxr nopaonart menx.
cnn n reuenne necxontxnx ne y menx tnann cnnomnte ne-
npnxrnocrn n n ro xe npemx cnnnnct manentxne enouxn, ro x, no-
xact cnart, mtcnenno rposnna +rnm enouxam roxe ncenosmoxntmn
nenpnxrnocrxmn, a manentxnx mantunxon npnstnana npncnnrtcx
mne, urot npornart naoenmnx mne manentxnx enouex c nx ec-
xoneuntmn nenpnxrnocrxmn.
pnnomnnam, uro xpome manentxnx enouex n mantunxon mne
eme nectma uacro cnnnnct emente coaxn. o cne otuno nonyua-
noct rax: x re-nnyt cnxy ona nnn nrpam c ertmn na ynnne.
pyr nnxy rnasamn, uro no ynnne exnr coaxa c onymenno ro-
nono n ntcynyrtm xstxom. so pra coaxn onntno reuer cnmna,
xpynntmn xannxmn naax na semnm. ro-nnyt ns ere uro-ro
xpnunr, n nce onn paseramrcx n pasnte cropont, rontxo x ona
ocramct na ynnne nnn no nope n ne mory exart, noromy uro x
nnxy nnnsn cex rontxo neontmoe paccroxnne n coaxy. na e-
xnr npxmo na menx, a x pocamct ro n ony, ro n pyrym cropony,
no noxpyr menx rax mano mecra, uro x ne mory yexart. coaxa
nce rax xe exnr na menx, n x yxe uyncrnym, xax ona oaer menx
rxxentm txannem. xax yro xpnuy, repxm nocnenne cnnt or
yxaca n... omymam na cee coaxy, npoctnamct, ecrnnrentno
poxa or crpaxa.
3rn cnt o ementx coaxax ncera tnann rax crpamnt n ne-
nonxrnt mne, uro axe ceuac, xora x nnmy +rn crpoxn, y menx
npoeramr mypamxn no xoxe nnna. n ro npemx, o xoropom x nnmy,
raxne cnonnennx n camom ene nanonnn na menx raxo yxac no
nouam, uro x oxnact axe nomenennrtcx n nocrenn n, ecnn ontme
ne morna ycnyrt, nexana nenonnxno o rex nop, noxa exypnax
nocnnrarentnnna ne noxonna xo mne nx roro, urot cxasart, uro
yxe nopa ncranart.
me onn nenpnxrnt con necxontxo pas cnnncx mne n ercrne,
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xora x xnna c mareptm. 3ror con cnnncx mne n nyx napnanrax.
nepnom napnanre xaxne-ro uyxne nmn ornnmann menx y ma-
repn, ycaxnnann n xonxcxy n nancera xya-ro ynosnnn. n ce-
uac xcno nomnm, xax x cnena n xonxcxe, xoropax tcrpo xarnnact
no ecxoneuno nnnno ynnne. ornxtnanact nasa, urot ynn-
ert mart nnn xoro-nnyt ns snaxomtx, no nnuero ne morna pas-
nnunrt, no noxpyr menx xnynncx rycro ryman...
ropo napnanr tn cneymmero coepxannx: x namemy nopy
noesxana ontmax nonosxa, n xoropym tnn sanpxxent uertpe
noman. s nonosxn ntnesann myxunnt, oerte no nce uepnoe. nn
o uem-ro ouent xpnuann, nacnntno xnarann mart, pocann ee n no-
nosxy n roxe nancera ynosnnn. ocrananact ona na ynnne, cn-
nnnact pasrnxert, n xaxym cropony yexana nonosxa, no nnuero ne
nnena, no nce, uro naxonnoct noxpyr menx, sanonaxnnanoct
cnnomntm rymanom. ocne cmeprn marepn mne nnxora ontme ne
cnnnnct noonte cnt.
pome +rnx cnon mne eme uacro cnnnnct noxapt. myrno npn-
nomnnam n nexoropte pyrne npnxrnte n nenpnxrnte cnt, no onn
tnann nacrontxo nenonxrnt, uro axe nnocnecrnnn x ne morna
ocmtcnenno n cnxsno nepecxasart nx. no mory cxasart: ne no-
nnmax n ercrne cnonx cnonnenn, x ymana, uro no nouam co mno
nponcxonr mnoroe raxoe, uero ne tnaer nem, noromy uro oxpy-
xammne nmn ne onxnt +ro snart.
cnn mne uacro cnnnnct nyranmne menx cnt, x oxnact no-
xnrtcx cnart ona, crapanact noontme opcrnonart. o xora
mne naunnann cnnrtcx necxontxo noue nopx npnxrnte cnt, a
nem nnuero xopomero ne cnyuanoct, x crpemnnact nocxopee neut
cnart, urot mne cnxme tno nyume, uem no npemx opcrnonannx.
necrnnem raxoro noneennx tno ro, uro x uacro npenpamana
ent n nout, a nout n ent. nem x xpenxo cnana n ne xorena ncra-
nart axe rora, xora menx snann ecrt. outm x opcrnonana, nr-
pana c xyxnamn, xorena nrn rynxrt, npocnna ecrt, xorena xynartcx
n r. .
ercrne mne xasanoct, uro x nonnmam, nouemy x noxyct cnart:
c ono cropont, menx nenpeoonnmo xnonnno xo cny, n x, omymax
+ro crpannoe cocroxnne, sactnana ne rontxo ram, re moxno tno
no-nacroxmemy neut, no axe na pyxax y marepn, na cxameeuxe
nnn npocro n rom yrny, re nrpana c xyxnamn; c pyro cropont, mne
xorenoct ncntrart no cne ro xopomee, uero ne tnano naxny.
o nouemy noxnnnct cnart pyrne nmn, +ro tno mne menee
nonxrno, n x xax-ro cmyrno ymana o rom, uro xora pyrne noxarcx
cnart, ro +ro snaunr, uro onn ne xorxr enart uro-nno nnn npx-
uyrcx n nocrent or xoro-ro. on npenonoxennx xasannct mne oue-
nnntmn rem onee, uro mne ne xorenn anart ecrt no nouam, ne
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xorenn nrn rynxrt. art, ntranmaxcx oryunrt menx opcrnonart
no nouam, cepnnact, ecnn x noxnnact cnart o oea nnn o yxnna,
a noutm npocnna ecrt. na ne xorena ntxonrt rynxrt noutm n ne
nosnonxna mne mymert nrpymxamn. xe no-cnoemy nonnmana ee
noneenne. ymana, uro mart no nensnecrntm mne npnunnam ne
xouer xopmnrt menx, nonrt rynxrt n r. ., no+romy npxuercx or
menx n nocrent.
ocya. poyxrt
o norepn spennx n cnyxa x, xoneuno, snana cnono nocya, nn-
ena nocyy, no y menx nnxora nnxro ne cnpamnnan, uro raxoe no-
cya n xaxne nemn cneyer nastnart nocyo, a xaxne ne nocyo.
ora xe n xnnnnxe menx nauann oyuart rpamore n ronopnnn mne
nasnannx oxpyxammnx menx onxontx neme, n rom uncne n cnono
nocya, x ne cpasy nonxna, xaxne nmenno npemert cneyer rax na-
stnart. e cpasy nonxna, uro nocya - +ro nonxrne, oomammee
mnoro npemeron: rapenxn pasnnuno nennunnt, uamxn, nmna,
craxant, caxapnnnt, xacrpmnn, cynnnnt, nnnxn, noxxn, noxn n p.
ne ronopnnn, yxastnax na rnyoxym rapenxy: apenxa - no-
cya~. xastnax na manentxym rapenxy, ronopnnn: anentxax ra-
penouxa - nocya, uamxa - nocya, craxan - nocya, caxapnnna -
nocya~ n r. . n r. .
o, uro rnyoxax rapenxa - nocya, x +ro tcrpo nonxna. -
naxo oa cnona - rapenxa n nocya - x nonxna xax neuro ae-
xnarnoe n nonarana, uro oa +rn cnona nyxno npnmenxrt rontxo x
rnyoxo rapenxe n manentxo rapenouxe. cx pyrax nocya,
xpome menxnx rapenox n concem manentxnx rapenouex, no ]opme, no
pasmepam n no nasnauennm aconmrno ne tna noxoxa (xpome
nmen) na rapenxn. ax, nanpnmep, uamxn pasnnunoro ]acona,
craxant, caxapnnnt roxe cneonano nastnart nocyo. yxe ne
ronopm o raxnx npemerax, xax crononte noxxn, nnnxn, noxn, ua-
nte noxeuxn. ce +ro n ome conoxynnocrn nastnanoct nouemy-ro
nocyo, xorx +rnmn npemeramn rontxo nontsonannct no npemx
et, no nnuero n nnx ne nannnann.
ne anann saanne: n naxptnart cron, roront x oey no-
cyy~. x ntnonnxna +ro saanne.
a onpeenenntx mecrax x crannna rnyoxne rapenxn, a pxom
(c neno cropont) crannna manentxne rapenouxn nx xnea. ocne
+roro x ocranana ns xmnxa y]era pyrne npemert, xoropte nn-
xax ne xorena nastnart nocyo - noxxn, nnnxn, noxn,- n pac-
xnatnana nx nosne xaxo rnyoxo rapenxn c npano cropont.
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snana, uro n rnyoxym rapenxy nannnamr cyn, a na manent-
xym rapenouxy x cama xnana xne, epx ero ns xnennnt, no+romy
xax rnyoxax rapenxa, rax n manentxax rapenouxa nastnamrcx no-
cyo. o noxxn, nnnxn n noxn ne noxoxn na rapenxn. ouemy xe
mne ronopxr: oront nocyy~, no ne oannxmr x +ro ]pase: o-
ront noxxn, nnnxn n noxn~?
rpom mne ronopnnn: n naxptna cron x uam~. paccran-
nxna uamxn c nmnamn, manentxne rapenouxn, xnana noxeuxn.
Fpana xnennny n caxapnnny n pacxnatnana xne n caxap na ma-
nentxne rapenouxn. 12 uacon nx mne ronopnnn, urot x naxpt-
nana cron x sanrpaxy. crannna ontmne n menxne rapenxn, pac-
xnatnana nnnxn n noxxn.
enax nce +ro, x nnyrpenne nonnonanact: oxnact satrt o xa-
xo-nnyt nocye, r. e. o ute-nnyt uamxe, uano noxeuxe,
cronono noxxe, nnnxe. necxontxo pas oxonna noxpyr crona,
ocmarpnnax nce npnopt n cunrax nce, uro naxonnoct na crone,
no x nocye ornocnnoct rax mnoro pasnnuntx npemeron, uro onn
ne cpasy ycnannannct, nyrannct n moem npecrannennn, cnnnannct
n xaxym-ro maccy, rpomosnnnct rpyo, xoropym x mtcnenno na-
stnana nocyo. ocya pasenxnact na mnorne orentnte npe-
mert, xoropte ononpemenno cneonano nastnart n nocyo, n ra-
penxamn, uamxamn, craxanamn, nmnamn, noxxamn, nnnxamn, co-
nonxamn, caxapnnnamn.
omnnrcx, uro onaxt x ne nonoxnna sa oeom noxxy onomy
mantunxy, a xora o +rom cxasana exypnax nocnnrarentnnna, x
ouent ynnnnact n nonxna +ro rax, uro x noome ne nonoxnna no-
cyy mantunxy.
onroe npemx ne nonnmana roro, uro caxapnnnt, cynnnnt, co-
nonxn n pasnnutm nast (nx ]pyxron, xon]er, neuentx) roxe no-
cya. oome x nce +rn npemert nyrana: cynnnnt x nastnana na-
samn, a nast - caxapnnnamn. asnnunte nma, mncxn n rnyo-
xne rapenxn x raxxe nyrana n nnora tnana n nonnom oruaxnnn,
ne nonnmax, sauem nmxm nyxno rax mnoro npemeron, xoropte ne
rontxo nao nastnart onnm omnm nasnannem nocya, no eme
snart n orentnoe nasnanne xaxoro npemera.
exoropoe npemx menx nectma sannman nonpoc, cneyer nn cun-
rart nocyo raxne npemert, xax uannx, n xoropom xnnxrnnn
noy, manentxn uannuex, uannny, xnennny, ropununnny n
ontmym +mannponannym mncxy, n xoropo mt mtnn nocyy. nn,
trt moxer, +rn npemert cymecrnymr camocroxrentno, ne yyun
npnuncnxemt nn x nocye, nn x uemy-nno pyromy? ora xe x
ysnana, uro cymecrnyer crononax nocya n xyxonnax nocya, +ro
nnecno eme ontmym nyrannny n nonxrne nocya n n xonxpernte
nasnannx npemeron, ornocxmnxcx x nocye.
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camom ene, x nmena nonnoe ocnonanne ne nonnmart nme,
xoroptm nonaonnoct crontxo ncenosmo/xnon nocyt, n nasnaue-
nnn n nasnannxx xoropo mne rax rpyno tno pasopartcx. ryr
ncran nont nonpoc: xaxym nocyy cneyer cunrart cronono n xa-
xym xyxonno?
o +ro tno eme ne nce!
eoxonmo tno ne rontxo rnepo ycnonrt nonxrne nocya n
xonxpernte nasnannx cronono n xyxonno nocyt, no raxxe no-
nxrt n xcno npecrannrt nasnanne xaxoro orentnoro npemera,
ornocxmerocx x nocye.
onxna tna snart, nanpnmep, uro n xo]ennxe napxr xo]e,
no ne cyn, ne opm, ne xamy, uro nce +ro roronxr n xacrpmnxx.
ao tno snart, uro cxonopoxa es pyuxn, xorx n nanomnnaer or-
anenno neontrnomy uenonexy mncouxy nnn rapenxy, no ns cxono-
poxn ne exr cyn, a na rapenxe ne xapxr nyx, xapro]ent, xornert,
pty. eoxonmo tno ycnonrt, uro ua, n xoropt nonoxen ca-
xap, nomemnnamr uano noxeuxo, a ne cronono oncxo, ne nnn-
xo, ne noxom, net nnnxo n noxom ne exr xnxocre. ocxont-
xy x ne nnena roro, uro noxpyr menx enanoct, mnoroe ns roro, uemy
menx yunnn, ne cpasy n ne nerxo ananoct mne.
ax, x ouent ne nmnna nontsonartcx nnnxo n nexoropoe npemx
ne ocoenno nonnmana, nx uero nmxm nyxnt nnnxn, ecnn moxno
oornct es nnx.
on pyxn nnoxo cnpannxnnct c nnnxo, xoropax xasanact mne
ne raxo yono, xax noncxa. onroe npemx x ne snana, uro spx-
unm nmxm nontsonartcx nnnxo nerue, uem nespxunm, no+romy y-
mana, uro ncem nmxm, rax xe xax n mne, neyono nontsonartcx
nnnxo, no+romy n ne nonnmana, sauem nmn myuamr n cex, n menx
nnnxamn.
raxxe ne nmnna uantx noxeuex c xpyrno nnro pyuxo.
axne noxeuxn neprennct n monx nantnax n pasnte cropont, n +ro
cosanano ontmne neyocrna, xora mne nyxno tno nonpoonart
ua; x nonocnna xo pry noxeuxy ro oxom, ro nnxne cropono.
ayunrtcx nontsonartcx noxom mne tno ouent rpyno. on-
roe npemx x concem ne xorena nontsonartcx noxom, n ne rontxo no-
romy, uro mon ercxne pyxn nnoxo c nnm cnpannxnnct, no eme n no-
romy, uro x npocro ne morna nonxrt, nx uero nmxm nonaonnact
raxax neyonax nemt, xoropax n n pyxax ne epxnrcx, n npn ne-
ymenom nontsonannn npnunnxer ont. et moxno xe nce enart
ropaso npome: nsxrt ornomnrt xycouex xnea or ontmoro xycxa
nnn or neno ynxn~,- ymana x.
naxo mne ne paspemann nomart xne nnn nnpor. enx nacro-
unno yunnn nontsonartcx noxom. o nox npnnonn menx n oruax-
nne, no x ne morna orpesart ponnoro xycouxa xnea nnn nnpora, a
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xpome roro, uacro pesana cnon nantnt. x ne menee ynopno crpe-
mnnact x romy, urot nox ncues ns omamnero onxoa n nnxora
ontme ne noxnnxncx. nx +roro x xya-nnyt sapactnana nox,
onaxo ero cnona naxonnn nnn noxynann pyro, n, raxnm opa-
som, nox noome ncera tnan cpen nocyt. menx cnona naun-
nann npnyuart nm nontsonartcx.
yxnt tnn camte narnxnte, camte neonponepxnmte npn-
mept nx roro, urot sacrannrt menx nonxrt naxonen, uro nox n
xosxcrne conepmenno neoxonm. cnn xne, nnpor n xoe-uro py-
roe moxno tno pasnomart es noxa, ro uncrnrt n pesart onomn
nnxax nentsx, ne nmex n pyxax noxa. npoonana pasnnart oo
uro-nnyt apys nnn tnm, no npn +rom nonyuannct ontmne, ne-
ponnte xycxn, xoropte neyono tno ecrt. nor n raxnx cnyuaxx
nosnnxano xenanne ecrt apys nnn tnm ronxnmn nomrnxamn.
crt ontmne orypnt n xnoxn nepaspesanntmn roxe tnano ne-
yono, n x naunnana nonnmart, uro n raxnx cnyuaxx nyxen nox.
rax, naroapx cronxnonennm c ]axramn, c narnxntmn npn-
mepamn x cmorna nonxrt, uro xax t nn xasancx nnora nenyxntm
nnn neyontm nox, no oornct es nero nentsx. ano roro, x na-
uana nonnmart, n xaxnx cnyuaxx cneyer nontsonartcx noxom n xo-
ra moxno oornct es nero. ntmn cnonamn, neoxonmo tno
nayunrtcx nonnmart, n xaxnx nsanmoornomennxx~ naxonrcx nox
c xneom, mxcom, xapro]enem, xanycro n mnornmn pyrnmn ono-
mamn, xoropte nyxno uncrnrt n pesart. pome +roro cneonano no-
nnmart, uro ne nce noome moxno pesart noxom. anpnmep, ont-
mne nonentx pon ne pacnnnnnamr noxom; xora mtmr nonte
nemn, nx roxe ne xpoxr noxom.
ox, noxnnnt, nnna, ronop moryr trt onee nnn menee ocrpo
orrouenntmn, n npn neocropoxnom npnxocnonennn x nnm moxno
nopesart nanen. s +roro ne cneonano enart omnount
ntno, uro ncemn +rnmn npemeramn moxno nontsonartcx n panno
mepe: nanpnmep, noxnnnamn pesart xne, noxom xponrt nnarte,
nnno ounmart onomn, a ronopom pynrt ymary.
naxo, ecnn x nnora ne naxonna noxnnn, x npoonana nt-
pesart uro-nno ns xycouxon marepnn noxom, no yexanact, uro
pesart noxom marepnm snaunrentno rpynee, uem noxnnnamn. ne-
onarentno, nox ne nmeer nnxaxoro ornomennx x rem nemam, xoro-
pte x mnna nx xyxon. cnn x ne naxonna noxa, x npoonana pe-
sart apys nnn ounmart orypen noxnnnamn. o +ro roxe tnano
neyono, n xycouxn apysa nonyuannct neponntmn, a orypen oun-
mancx noxnnnamn ne rax, xax noxom.
rax, x na ontre yexanact n rom, uro xaxax nemt, xaxt
npemer ntnonnxer cnom onpeenennym pont, nmeer cnoe onpee-
nennoe nasnauenne.
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nono npoyxrt mne rpynee tno nonxrt, uem cnono nocya.
nx roro urot ycnonrt raxoe nonxrne, xax nocya, x onxna tna
ocmorpert pyxamn paccrannennte na crone pasnnunte npemert,
ornocxmnecx x nocye. asymeercx, norpeonancx ne onn ypox nx
roro, urot x nonxna, uro raxoe nocya, n ycnonna -nasnanne or-
entntx npemeron.
o nx roro urot oomnrt mnoroe ns roro, uro nmn oosna-
uamr nonxrnem npoyxrt, neoxonmo tno ocmorpert pasnnunte
npoyxrt, a +ro nenerxo tno cenart rontxo na ypoxax. orpeo-
nannct +xcxypcnn~ n xyxnm, na om x corpynnxam, a raxxe n ma-
rasnn nnn na ptnox.
o norepn spennx n cnyxa x nnena n cene, xax caxann nexoro-
pte onomn; xapro]ent, cnexny, orypnt, apyst, tnn, nomnopt.
o o norepn cnyxa x ne snana cnona onomn. ora xe n xnnnnxe
na sanxrnxx nnn n xyxne mne noxastnann xapro]ent, xanycry,
cnexny, nomnopt, orypnt n ronopnnn, uro nce +ro onomn, x ne
rontxo ne nonnmana, nouemy cneyer nce +ro nastnart onomamn, no
axe ne ocoenno nepnna n ro, uro +ro ecrnnrentno onomn.
pome roro, mne eme noxastnann n raxne onomn, xoroptx x
pantme nnxora ne nnena. ne ronopnnn: opxont, pena, pmx-
na, nnernax xanycra, petxa~. pononnn monmn pyxamn no pasno-
xenntm na crone onomam n ronopnnn, uro nce +ro onomn.
o x ne nonnmana, nouemy xapro]ent, xanycra, cnexna, mop-
xont, orypnt, nomnopt, apyst, rtxna, tnn - onomn: net no
nxyc.y, no ]opme, no pasmepam nce onn ne tnn noxoxn pyr na
pyra. pome roro, x snana, uro xapro]ent, nanpnmep, ntxantnamr
ns semnn, cnexny - roxe, a orypnt, nomnopt, rtxnt pacryr na
nonepxnocrn semnn, cneonarentno, onn conepmenno ornnuamrcx or
xapro]enx, cnexnt, nyxa. ouemy xe n raxom cnyuae nce ro, uro
mne noxastnann, nastnamr onomamn?
xontxo npemenn nnnnct mon comnennx ornocnrentno onome,
x, xoneuno, ne nomnm, no x nocrenenno npnntxna x +romy nonxrnm
n nepecranana saymtnartcx na rem, uro cneyer ornocnrt x pas-
pxy onome n ne onome.
xroamn n ]pyxramn y menx raxxe tnn nexoropte sarpy-
nennx, noromy uro x onxna tna nonxrt, uro cymecrnymr nonx-
rnx xrot n ]pyxrt n nasnanne pasnnuntx xro n ]pyxron.
earor ronopnn mne: oem na ptnox sa xroamn~, noem
na ptnox sa ]pyxramn~.
o na ptnxe oxastnanoct, uro nearor noxynan nonce ne xrot,
a xnynnxy, nnn xptxonnnx, nnn mannny; ne ]pyxrt, a apnxoct,
rpymn, xnoxn.
ne nenerxo tno nonxrt, uro camte pasnoopasnte, nenoxo-
xne pyr na pyra nemn nyxno nasnart onnm cnonom - npoyxrt.
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on]ert nnuem ne nanomnnann ]acont, ropox nnn xaxym-nn-
yt xpyny; xpyna nnuem ne nanomnnana cnnnounoe macno, a macno
nnuem ne nanomnnano mxco. anma ne nanomnnana caxap, rnopor n
cmerana ornnuannct or xnn. o pasnoxennte na crone ncenosmox-
nte nymne n nnmy cecrnte npnnact nyxno tno nastnart
npoyxramn.
earor ronopnn mne: noy n marasnn sa npoyxramn~. x
naunnana ymart: sa xaxnmn xe npoyxramn n marasnn nomen ne-
aror? ne n raxnx cnyuaxx npecrannxnoct neuro neonpeenen-
noe - cmect pasnnuntx npoyxron.
o xora nearor ronopnn: noy n marasnn n xynnm xne,
caxap, cnnnounoe macno n xonacy~, nx menx +ro tno nnonne no-
nxrno, no +ro tno xonxperno: omyrnmo na nxyc, ocrynno oonx-
nnm (sanac xonact n xnea), ocxsaemo nantnamn. rnneuennoe xe
nonxrne npoyxrt noome nentsx tno nn omymart (no sanaxy),
nn ocxsart, no +ro tno cnono, oosnauammee nasnanne mnornx ne-
me.
ocrenenno x, xoneuno, npnntxna x ynorpenennm raxnx cnon
xax npoyxrt, npoonontcrnne. o x nourn nnuero ne snana o rom,
xax npnroronnxmr sanrpaxn, oet n yxnnt, xoropte x nonyuana.
snana, uro xne, nnporn, xopxnxn, nnnunxn enamr ns myxn.
nana, uro ns xpynt napxr xamy, a n cyn, mn, opm xnayr onomn.
o xax npnroronnxercx ncenosmoxnax pyrax nnma, x ne snana n
ouent ynnnxnact, xora mne noxastnann n xyxne, uro, npexe uem
mne ayr uro-nno ecrt, +ry nnmy neoxonmo npnroronnrt. ax,
nanpnmep, x ena pasnnunte ]pyxrt n snana, uro onn pacryr na
]pyxrontx epentxx. o xora mne ann nonnno n cxasann, uro
ero enamr ns ]pyxron, x ne nonepnna, no ne nonnmana, xaxnm
opasom ]pyxrt - xnoxn, apnxoct, cnnnt - mornn npenparnrtcx
n neuro pyroe, nenoxoxee na cnexne ]pyxrt.
omnm, uro x n ercrne ouent nmnna ]pyxronoe xene, no roxe
ne nepnna, uro nx ero npnroronnennx nyxnt ]pyxrt. tna yne-
pena, uro xene roronxr ns cnexnt, no+romy ornecnact xpane neo-
nepunno x romy, uro ns ]pyxron moryr npnroronnrt moe nmnmoe
nmo. oome x ouent mnoromy ne nepnna, no ne snana, xax, re
n uro roronnrcx, no+romy ne nonnmana, uro ns rex nnn nntx npo-
yxron moxno npnroronnrt neuro pyroe. Fyyun c ercrna xpane
neonepunno, x uacro ymana, uro mne ronopxr ne ro, uro ecrt n
ecrnnrentnocrn. uame ncero +ro tnano n rex cnyuaxx, xora x
uero-nno ne snana nnn ne nonnmana.
raxxe nmnna mxcnte xornert n xapenym pty. xorena
nocmorpert, xax roronxr ro n pyroe. nex sa pyxamn nonapnxn, x
nnena~, uro ona xnana n mxco, npnroronnennoe nx xorner, xyco-
uex pasmouenno ynxn, a cenannym ctpym xornery nanxna n rep-
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rtx cyxapxx. a oeom x orxastnanact ecrt xne c +ro xornero,
no ymana, uro n xornery nonoxnnn ocrarouno xnea, a eme n
cyxapnxamn noctnann. cnn xe x yy ecrt xornery c xneom, ro
ona craner concem nenxycno n nonyunrcx, xax yro x em xne c
xneom.
raxxe nnena~, uro, xora conpannct xapnrt pty, co roxe
nanxnn n myxe. pty x ne xorena ecrt c xneom rontxo noromy,
uro ee nanxnn n myxe.
ysnan, uro ns xostero monoxa enamr rnopor, x roxe cpasy ne
nonepnna n +ro, no ymana, uro ceontm moxer trt rontxo xo-
ponte monoxo n uro rontxo ns nero moxno npnroronnrt rnopor. ox
yunrentnnna nooemana npnnecrn mne ns omy xostero monoxa n
rnopor ns +roro monoxa.
ymana, uro +ro yer ouent nenpnxrnoe na nxyc monoxo n ne
menee nenpnxrnt rnopor. o, nonpoonan ro n pyroe, x yen-
nact, uro n monoxo, n rnopor nectma npnxrnt na nxyc n nnonne ce-
ont. naxo mne rpyno tno nonepnrt, uro +ro tno nacroxmee
xoste monoxo n nacroxmn rnopor ns +roro monoxa.
ora x naxonen yennact n rom, uro ncxxym nnmy rax nnn
nnaue roronxr - napxr, xapxr, nexyr,- x noymana, uro moxno
nmym nemt cnapnrt nnn noxapnrt, xora ecrt oront n nnnre.
ax, x ymana, uro moxno xycouxn xnea n paspesannt nomnop
nonoxnrt na cxonopoxy, nocrannrt ee na nnnry, a norom cxono-
poxa yxe cama npnroronnr uro-ro ouent nxycnoe.
naxt nama nonapnxa yrocrnna menx uem-ro ecrnnrentno
nxycntm, cnaxnm. ne snana, uro +ro tno, no +ro ono~ ouent
mne nonpannnoct. ocne +roro x crana npocnrt nocnnrarene, urot
onn npnroronnnn cnaxoe, ammee xonoox no pry~. ora xe y
menx cnpocnnn, xax +ro cnaxoe~ nastnaercx, x ne morna oxc-
nnrt, a rontxo cxasana, uro ero exr ns poserxn uano noxeuxo.
uepes nexoropoe npemx x ysnana, uro x ena xnount mycc, no x
nnxax ne xorena nepnrt, uro nonapnxa cenana mycc ns xnox na
xnunom enxe. npocro ne nonnmana, xax moxno rnepoe xnoxo
npenparnrt n raxoe nexnoe, concem es xycouxon cnaxoe xymante.
morna t npnnecrn sect ouent mnoro npnmepon roro, xax x
concem ne nonnmana nnn npenparno nonnmana nponcxoxenne pas-
nnuntx npoyxron n npnroronnenne nnmn. ne rpyno tno no-
nxrt, uro npoyxrt nonepramrcx ncenosmoxno opaorxe n ne-
pepaorxe.
ect x npnney onn nectma xyptesnt n nectma npncxopnt
nx menx cnyua, xoropt sacrannn menx nonxrt ry nenpenoxnym
ncrnny, uro ne ncxxne pacrennx nyr n nnmy n na uro-nno pyroe.
nnena, xax n cyn xnayr senent nyx, nerpymxy, yxpon.
omymana, uro nerpymxa npnxrno naxner n nnme. +romy npe-
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menn x ysnana o cymecrnonannn yxon. noopasnna, uro ecnn
n nnmy xnayr nerpymxy, yxpon, a ns xaxnx-ro nncrten enamr ca-
nar, ro nouemy xe nentsx ns nneron, xoropte rax xopomo naxnyr,
noontme nanapnrt yxon.
nor onaxt mne npecrannncx cnyua nponsnecrn manent-
xn +xcnepnmenr. eno tno necno, n cyory, xora otuno n
nanno rpenn noy nx xynantx. acronnn nnnry, rexnnuxa ymna
ns nanno xomnart. pemnna nocnontsonartcx +rnm naronpnxr-
ntm cnyuaem n npnroronnrt cee yxn, xoropte x ouent nmnna.
noexana n cnantnm, re y menx na cronnxe n anouxe tnn
nerxn nneryme eno axannn. opnan c nerox nnert, x nonoxnna
nx n xacrpmntxy, n xoropym o xpaen nannna not, n nocrannna ee
na nnnry. xomnary nouemy-ro onro nnxro ne saxonn. oa n
xacrpmntxe yxe nauana xnnert, n x, naxnonxxct x ne, crana t-
mart ntxonnmnm ns xacrpmntxn napom. ensnecrno, cxontxo npe-
menn x raxnm opasom nacnaxanact cnonmn yxamn. omnm
rontxo, uro y menx nauana xpyxnrtcx ronona, a norom mne crano
ypno n nauanact pnora.
cx mox sarex c npnroronnennem yxon xonunnact rem, uro x
ynana na non; ne snam, uro tno co mno antme n xax x nonana
na cnom nocrent.
ocne +roro cnyuax x nonxna, uro yxn npnroronnxmr xax-ro
nnaue, uro n yxn, n nnmy ne rax nerxo npnroronnrt, xax x y-
mana.
nmenno orroro, uro x mnororo ne snana, ouent mnoroe onroe
npemx tno nenonxrno mne. ax, xora mne n xaxom-nnyt cyne,
n xapxom, n rymeno xanycre nonaancx nanpont nncr, x xpane
ynnnxnact, sauem nmn xnayr n nnmy cyxne nncrtx, no mne
onro namxren tn cnyua c monmn yxamn~ ns eno axannn.
cnn xe x cnyuano pacxyctnana nonanmncx mne n nnme uep-
nt nepen, ro +ro eme ontme, uem nanpont nncr, ynnnxno menx:
or pacxymenno nepunnxn no pry ropeno. nectma ceptesno y-
mana, uro xro-ro xouer onert menx, no+romy pocaer n mom nnmy
raxne roptxne n xryune mapnxn - net nc morno xe trt, urot
nmn es snoro ymtcna xnann cee n nnmy ro, uro tno nm ouent
nenpnxrno.
opunny, ctpo nyx, xpacnt nepen, reprt xpen x raxxe
ne nmnna n ne nepnna romy, uro nce +ro moxer trt xomy-nnyt
npnxrntm n uro nmn nnxomy ne xorxr npnunnnrt sno, xora xna-
yr n nnmy pasnnunte npnnpant n npxnocrn. omnm, uro x onroe
npemx ne xorena n axe oxnact ecrt xonacy, xoropax naxna uec-
noxom.
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axas 812
porynxn. ax x nonnmana nexoropte xnnennx
npnpot
auem nmn paoramr, exr, cnxr, +ro x xax-ro no-cnoemy, xorx
n ne nnonne xcno, no nonnmana. nnena, uro n nponecce rpya
nmn enamr nx cex ro, uro nm neoxonmo: roronxr nnmy, yn-
pamr xomnary, mtmr oexy, crnpamr ente, paoramr n cay n
n oropoe. o sauem nmn xoxr na nporynxy, nnuero npn +rom ne
enax, +ro mne tno ne concem nonxrno. o mne tno nonxrno,
nouemy x cama xonna rynxrt: necno n nerom x nrpana n nannca-
nnxe nnn, epxact sa pyxn spxunx enouex, erana c nnmn no
ynnne, xonna na pexy xynartcx. o nspocnte nmn ne nrpann no-
ono erxm n pasnnunte nrpt, ne erann no ynnne, ne cxaxann na
nanouxe, ne nptrann uepes nepenouxy.
nauana necnt n o nacrynnennx xonoon x nourn nce npemx
tnana na nosyxe, no+romy nonnmana, nouemy x rynxm, xora
renno. pana, snmo x ne nmnna mnoro rynxrt, noromy uro ne
morna xonrt tcrpo, a npn menenno xote cxopo naunnana
mepsnyrt. e nmnna x raxxe, xora pexra enann cnexntx a
nnn nrpann n cnexxn. e nmnna erart n nmecre c pyrnmn c pas-
ery naart n cyrpot cnera. ne xasanoct, uro no ncex +rnx cny-
uaxx ern ne nrpann, a pannct, cmexct n paxe pyr na pyrom.
axe n xnnnnxe, xora c pexramn na nporynxy xonnn nearorn
n npnyuann nac x snmnnm nrpam n cay, x otuno cnena n cro-
pone na cxameeuxe, npoxaxnnanact ona no opoxxe nnn yxonna
n om. ora nearorn nrpann c ertmn, x nonnmana, uro +ro nrpa,
a ne paxa, no x ne ncntrtnana nn manemero yonontcrnnx, xora
n menx sanycxann xomom cnera, ne ncntrtnana nn manemero
necentx, ecnn mne noxastnann, urot x roxe pocnna n xoro-nnyt
cnexox. nora mt c pasery nmecre c nearorom naann n cner.
pyrne ern cmexnnct, pasnnexaxct raxnm opasom, no x ne nonn-
mana, uemy onn cmemrcx, n cama ne cmexnact.
aro xarartcx na canxax x ouent nmnna, no +ro yonontcrnne
tno ropaso npnxrnee n ne nanomnnano paxy. nomomtm nea-
rora mt, ern, no ouepen xarann pyr pyra. panno nmnna t-
nart n ceoxom~, n nomaxo~. cnn xe mt xarannct na canxax
es nearora n cnyuano onpoxntnannct n cner nce rpynno nme-
cre c canxamn, ro mne npn +rom tnano ecrnnrentno neceno: net
canxn onpoxntnannct neoxnanno, xora mt c ynneuennem nr-
pann.
Ftno nnrepecno n cmemno nonnmart pyr pyra c semnn, or-
pxxnnart cner c oext, nanaxnnart onpoxnnyrte canxn n cnona
exart nnn canrtcx n nnx.
ro enaer oxt n cner? ouemy tnaer ro renno, ro xonono?
ouemy tnaer cnntnt nerep nnn cronr nourn esnerpennax
noroa? uro raxoe noroa? ce +rn nonpoct crann nnrepeconart
menx yxe nocne roro, xax x nouyncrnonana cex n remnore n n
rnmnne.
omnnrcx, uro nepexo noroa tnana cxnepno n ro npemx,
xora mne ocoenno cnntno xorenoct norn rynxrt. o+romy oxt
nnn cner xasannct mne ne npocro nenpnxrntm cotrnem, a xax t
snom, xoropoe uro-ro enano nx roro, urot x noontme ne ntxo-
nna ns xomnart na cnexn nosyx. ontme, uem spxune ern,
ne nmnna oxt nnn cner n ontme, uem spxune ern, paonanact
xopome noroe.
me n ercrne cxnepnax noroa ecrnonana na menx ypyua-
mme. tnyxennoe cnenne n xomnare nopoxano connnnocrt n
nexenanne nnrartcx. o+romy rennax, conneunax noroa ncera
xasanact mne uem-ro ocoenno cnerntm n paocrntm. n raxnx
cnyuaxx x naunnana ymart, uro connne nonnmaer menx, nonnmaer,
uro nentsx naonro npxrartcx or nme. ne xasanoct, uro connne
roxe tnaer ro optm, ro cepnrtm.
ora connne ne ouent cepnrcx, ono npxuercx xya-ro ne ouent
anexo. ora tnaer nacmypno n ner oxt, no ne ouent onro.
cnn xe connne ouent cepnrcx, ono npxuercx anexo n naonro.
ora tnaer ouent xonono. acrynaer snma. orom connne xouer
trt npoonxnrentnoe npemx optm: naunnamrcx rennte nn n
n reuenne nourn nenoro nx xpxo cnernr connne - nacrynamr nec-
na n nero.
o xax xe x nonnmana cnono noroa
ymana, uro +ro neuro nennnmoe n neocxsaemoe, no rem ne
menee nmemmee xaxoe-ro ornomenne n x renny, n x xonoy, n x
oxm, n x cnery, n x conneunomy nm, n x nacmypnomy nm. -
xcnnrt xe xax-nno nnaue cnono noroa x ne morna, rem ne menee
nesamerno nx cex x npnntxna nonropxrt sa nearorom na ypoxax
+ro cnono, a norom npnntxna n npannntno npnmenxrt +ro cnono no
ornomennm x renntm n xonontm, conneuntm n oxnnntm
nxm.
epexo n cxnepnym noroy y menx tnano n cxnepnoe nacrpoe-
nne n x nnuero ne xorena enart, orxastnaxct axe or sanxrn.
xopomym xe, rennym n conneunym noroy x xax yro cama cra-
nonnnact nyume, mne xorenoct mnoro nnrartcx, ntnonnxrt ncxxne
saannx, enart oxpyxammnm rontxo npnxrnoe. nnoxym noroy
mne tnano conepmenno espasnnuno, xaxoe na mne nnarte. xo-
pomym xe noroy mne xorenoct npnnapxnrtcx. cama ne oranana
cee xcnoro oruera n rom, nouemy ra nnn nnax noroa oxastnana na
menx raxoe pasnrentnoe ecrnne. epoxrno, +ro nponcxonno or-
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roro, uro xopomax noroa oxastnana naronpnxrnoe ecrnne n na
soponte, n na nacrpoenne, nopoxax cocroxnne nonnxnocrn, o-
pocrn. II mne concem nenonxrntmn tnann npasnnxn, n xoropte
tna nnoxax noroa.
I. HI. I.
ercrne x ne ouent nmnna xnnorntx. anepnoe, x nx npocro
oxnact. ne nonnmana, uro ne nce xnnornte xycamrcx nnn napa-
namrcx npn nepnom npnxocnonennn x nnm pyxo.
omex x oxnact n onroe npemx ne nmnna nx, noromy uro y nac
oma tna ouent snax xomxa, xoropax nourn ncera ntnnnana moe
monoxo n napanana menx, xora x ntronxna ee ns xomnart. nax
noneenne name xomxn, x ne npecrannxna cee pyro xomxn, xo-
ropax ne noponana t monoxo n ne napananact.
co crpaxom oreprnnana pyxy, ronana noramn n axe xpn-
uana, xora mne noxastnann utm-nnyt xomxy nx roro, urot
x nornanna ce.
oax x roxe oxnact n raxxe ymana, uro ne tnaer coax, xo-
ropte ne xycamrcx: n ercrne menx coaxa yxycnna.
opon n nomae x oxnact eme ontme, uem xomex n coax.
snana, uro xopont n noman - ontmne xnnornte; cneonarent-
no, onn eme cnntnee, uem coaxn, moryr ncxycart menx.
o omamnnx nrnn, xyp n yrox, x ne oxnact n nmnna nx. n
xypt, nn yrxn ne npnunnxnn mne nnxaxo onn, pann ns monx pyx
xopm. ymana, uro +rn nrnnt opte, ecnn onn ne xnmmr n ne
xycamr menx, xora x nx xopmnm.
ono xypnne y menx sanxsanact nacroxmax pyxa. cnn x
tnana no nope n +ra xypnna nnena menx, ona exana xo mne
npxmo n pyxn. cnn xe x onro ne ntxonna no nop, ro xypnna
nerana n xomnary, xora orxptnann nept, n exana npxmo xo mne.
cnn +ro tnano yrpom n x eme nexana n nocrenn, xypnna nsnerana
na nocrent, xpyxnnact nexoropoe npemx nosne menx, a norom yxo-
nna, ocrannn na nocrenn rennoe xno.
Fnaroapx +ro pyxe x eme ontme yexanact n rom, uro
ne onxna oxrtcx nrnn, a xnnorntx nao oxrtcx. ecrnn-
rentno, x ouent oxnact axe manentxnx xorxr, menxr, nonopox-
enntx nopocxr n renxr. oman n xopont xasannct mne npocro
uyonnmamn, n x c nennuamnm crpaxom oreprnnana pyxy or nnx,
xora xro-nnyt xoren noxasart mne cmnpnym nomat nnn xopony,
xoropax mnpno xenana cnom xnauxy. ontxo nrpymeuntx xopon n
nomaox x ne oxnact ocmarpnnart.
anentxnx nrnuex, xoroptx mne nnora noxastnann, x ne ox-
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nact n roxe ouent nmnna. concem manentxne ntnnxra npnno-
nnn menx n nocropr, no x nnxax ne morna nonxrt, xaxnm opasom
ns xnn, xoropte mne anann ecrt, noxnnxmrcx npyr manentxne
ntnnxra. uro ntnnxra noxnnxnnct ns xnn, +ro x xopomo snana,
no mne noxastnann rneso c xnamn, na xoroptx cnena xypnna,
noxastnann, xax ns xnuno cxopnynt ntnannnancx nnaxnt ntn-
nenox.
e nonnmax, nouemy xna npenpamamrcx n ntnnxr, x ymana,
uro xypnna cnnr ne na raxnx xnax, xoropte x ena,- no sauem
xypnne noome nyxno cnert na xnax? enax yenrtcx n rom,
uro xypnna cnnr na xaxnx-ro pyrnx xnax, x onaxt nsxna ns
rnesa ono xno n pasnna ero, naexct narn ram xnnoro ntn-
nenxa. o n xne ntnnenxa ne oxasanoct. osmoxno, uro +ro tno
eme cnexee, nenacnxennoe xno, no net x +roro ne nonnmana
n ro npemx n tna xpane ynnnena rem, uro xno oxasanoct co-
nepmenno raxnm, xaxne x no onaxt ena.
ocne +roro cnyuax x pemnna, uro mox mart nmeer xaxoe-ro or-
nomenne x noxnnennm ntnnxr ns xnn. oymana x rax noromy,
uro, uacro naxoxct nosne marepn, sameuana, xax ona sauem-ro nep-
rena n pyxax n nonocnna nnxe x rnasam xna, ornpana nx,
xnana n rneso, a norom caxana na nnx xypnny. ymana, uro n no-
xnnennn ntnnxr ns +rnx oropanntx xnn mart nmena ontmee sna-
uenne, uem cama xypnna.
rax, nx menx nce tno xcno: x nonxna, uro es nomomn moe
marepn ne moryr noxnnxrtcx ntnnxra. ne nnora npnnocnnn ma-
nentxoe rnestmxo c ouent manentxnmn xnuxamn xaxo-nnyt
nrnuxn. pnnocnnn rnestmxo c nrenunxamn, xoropte cyernnno
neprenn rononxamn, orxptnann manentxne xnmnnxn n mnnann menx
sa nantnt. oratnanact, uro onn npocnnn ecrt, n anana nm
ontmne xnente xpomxn, xoropte onn ne mornn npornornrt, n
no+romy npoonxann mnnart menx.
accmarpnnax n rnestmxax manentxne xna n manentxnx nrn-
uex, x naunnana saymtnartcx na rem, orxya epyrcx nrenunxn.
cnn onn noxnnxnnct ns manentxnx xnn, ro xro xe nomoran nm
npenpamartcx ns xnn n nrenunxon? eyxenn mox mart nmena xa-
xoe-ro ornomenne n x manentxnm nrnuxam n nomorana nm n noxn-
nennn nontx nrennon? naxo x nnxora ne nnena, urot mart
neprena n pyxax n nonocnna x rnasam xna manentxnx nrnuex.
na rontxo onaxt noxasana mne, uro x nam na oxno npnnerena
ronyxa n cnecna n xenoxe xno. o +ro xno mart ne neprena n
pyxax, a cnapnna ero mne.
asnnuntx nacexomtx x roxe oxnact, xorx conepmenno ne no-
nnmana, nouemy x nx omct. coenno cnntno x oxnact rycennn
n ontmnx xyxon. ycennnt nanonnn na menx npxmo nannuecxn
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yxac, xora naann na menx n cay. naxt x ncm nout ne cna-
na, oxnax uero-ro crpamnoro, noromy uro neuepom, xora x rynxna
n cay, na mem mne ynana c epena rycennna. pyro pas xro-ro
noxasan mne ontmoro xyxa, xoropt ontno npnmemnn mne na-
nen. +roro momenra x eme ontme crana oxrtcx nacexomtx, ne
nonnmax n ro xe npemx, nouemy raxne manentxne sneptxn moryr
npnunnxrt ont ontmnm nmxm.
Faouex x nourn ne oxnact n roxe ne nonnmana, nouemy x rax
omct rycennn n xyxon, a aouex epy n pyxn n es crpaxa ocmar-
pnnam nx rpenemymne xptntmxn.
Hnert n noome pacrennx nouemy-ro npannnnct mne c pannero
ercrna. ora x nmxana nnert, mne xorenoct snart, nouemy onn
rax xopomo naxnyr. mymax nantnamn npoxnay n apxarncrocrt
nenecrxon, x xorena nonxrt, xro nx enaer raxnmn npnxrntmn.
ne onaxt nnena, xax mart caxana n semnm manentxne pac-
rentnna (paccay) nnn pasnnunte cemena n xpynnnxn. uepes ne-
xoropoe npemx manentxne pacrentnna cranonnnnct ontme, a n rex
mecrax, xya caxann cemena, noxnnxnnct nonte manentxne pac-
rentnna. ce +ro tno nx menx neotuano nnrepecno n n ro xe
npemx conepmenno nenonxrno.
ano or marepn, no nopaxax e, x no nce ropmxn xomnarntx
nneron caxana ncxxne cemena, xoropte nonaannct mne no pyxn,
n xaxo ontmo tnana paocrt, xora, x neyonontcrnnm marepn,
n ropmxax naunnann npopacrart ro noconnyxn, ro ]acont, ro ro-
pox. ne tno npnxrno, uro n ropmxax +rn cemena npopacramr
rontxo noromy, uro x nx rya nocanna.
reuenne necnt n nera x ouent nmnna tnart na oropoe n
esnrt na axun, no ram nponcxonnn nenonxrnte, no saxnart-
nammne xnnennx: net panne necno ram tnana nourn ronax
nsptrax semnx, a norom noxnnxnact senent, a anee orypnt, nomn-
opt, apyst, tnn n r. .
nnauane nce +ro tno manentxoe, nenxycnoe; no nocrenenno
c ute-ro nenonxrno nx menx nomomtm nce cranonnnoct onee
n onee nxycntm n ceontm. a nxycnte apyst, tnn, nomn-
opt cneonano nmnrt n epeut pacrennx. x ecrnnrentno nm-
nna nx n crapanact ne ronrart noramn n ne onamtnart. e noo-
spenax o npee copnxxon, x xpane oropuanact, xora mart nnn
xro-nno pyro ntnantnann pacrennx (copnxxn) na oropoe nnn
na axue. anncannxn n cat x roxe nmnna n morna n reuenne
nenoro nx tnart conepmenno ona n nanncannxe, re tno mnoro
nneron, nnn n cay, re pocnn nnert n ]pyxronte epentx.
concem ne cxyuana, nepexox or ono xnymt x pyro,
ocmarpnnax crnont n nnxnne nerxn epenten. cnn crnont tnann
xpnnte n cyuxonarte, x nsnpanact na epentx. ontxo rycennnt n
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pasnnunte xyuxn ompauann mom nmont x cay. cnn na menx na-
ana rycennna, xora x nsnpanact na xnonm, rpymy nnn apnxo-
conoe epeno, x cpasy xe cnycxanact c epena n ontme ne xorena
noxonrt x +rnm epentxm, noopaxax, uro na nnx ouent mnoro ry-
cennn, xoropte nonsamr no ]pyxram, cneonarentno, +rn ]pyxrt
yxe nentsx ecrt.
ecmorpx na ro uro mne tno conepmenno nenonxrno, xaxnm
opasom na rono semne noxnnnnct pasnnunte pacrennx, xoropte
nce pocnn n pocnn, xorx nx nnxro ne xopmnn, xax xopmxr nrnn n
xnnorntx, pacrennx tnn mne nnxe n nonxrnee xnnorntx. nm-
ont x pacrennxm onroe npemx npeonaana na nmontm x xn-
norntm. xora x nauana yunrtcx, ro nepnoe npemx orannxa npa-
nnnact mne ontme, uem soonornx.
pasnnxn
uro raxoe npasnnxn? ax mne mornn oxcnnrt, uro ceronx
npasnnx, a sanrpa ne yer npasnnxa? uem onxen ornnuartcx
npasnnunt ent or nenpasnnuntx ne?
pasnnx - +ro ornneuennoe nonxrne, n oxcnnrt mne ero sna-
uenne rontxo raxnmn cnonamn, uro n npasnnunt ent ne pao-
ramr n ne sannmamrcx~, tno nentsx. cnonam cneonano oannrt
px xonxperntx npnmepon, nsxrtx ns xnsnn. menno rax mne n
oxcnxnn snauenne npasnnxon, no ecnn xro-nnyt no xaxnm-
nno npnunnam ne paoran n ne sannmancx, ro +ro ornmt ne sna-
unno, uro nacrynnn npasnnx.
ect x roxe nauny c npnmepon.
earor cxasan mne:
- anrpa, 7 noxpx, yer npasnnx ennxo xrxptcxo co-
nnanncrnuecxo penonmnnn. anrpa rt naenemt nonoe nnarte, no-
nyunmt snauox n noapxn. pasnnx yer cetmoro n noctmoro no-
xpx. ern ne yyr sannmartcx c nearoramn. spocnte noyr na
emoncrpannm, a ern yyr rynxrt na ynnne.
euepom, naxanyne 7 noxpx, nearorn mne cxasann:
- ospannxem rex c nacrynammnm npasnnxom!
ne ann neuente, xopoxy xon]er n ropmox c xpnsanremamn.
ce +ro nx menx tno nono n ouent npnxrno, rem onee uro n noc-
nnrarenn, n nearorn noxasannct mne ocoenno optmn n necentmn
n +ror neuep. xomnarax nese tno ypano n napxno: na cronax n
na rymouxax tnn nonte cxareprn n can]erxn. xomnarax croxn
xpenxn sanax xpnsanrem. ce +rn npnroronnennx n cotrnx na-
nonnxnn menx ontmo, ne ncntranno pantme paocrtm, nnn, xax
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x morna t ntpasnrtcx renept, x tna n ropxecrnenno-npnnonx-
rom nacrpoennn, xoropoe rora x ne morna nonxrt n oxcnnrt
cnonamn.
rpom 7 noxpx exypnte nocnnrarentnnna n nearor cnona
cxasann mne:
- ospannxem rex c npasnnxom ennxo xrxptcxo co-
nnanncrnuecxo penonmnnn!
ne ann nonoe mepcrxnoe nnarte n snauox c noprperom ennna.
eme mne ann necxontxo xyntxon c xnoxamn, xon]eramn, opexa-
mn n cxasann: 3ro npasnnunte noapxn~. ocne sanrpaxa mt nce
nomnn rynxrt ne n ca, xax otuno, a na ynnny.
sameuana, uro na ynnnax tno nmno (na nac uacro xro-nn-
yt cnyuano naranxnnancx), a nosyx corpxcann xaxne-ro snyxn.
mymax +ror mym, x noxastnana na cnom ronony n nporxrnnana py-
xy nnepx, xax yro uro-ro ncxana n nosyxe. earor ronopnn: a
ynnne nrpaer opxecrp~.
na nx mt rynxnn n ne sannmannct. xpyxammne nmn xasa-
nnct mne neotuntmn: necentmn, nacxontmn, a n paoune .nn onn
xasannct mne onee crpornmn, onee rpeonarentntmn n menee
nacxontmn.
neonarentno, npasnnx - +ro raxo ent, xora nce oxpyxam-
mee nenoxoxe na otunym, noncenennym xnsnt. 3ro x nauana
nemnoro nonnmart eme n ro npemx, xora xnna c mareptm, no y nac
roxe tnann raxne nn, xora n xomnare tnano uncro n ypano, a
mt c mareptm oenannct n npasnnunte nnartx n xymann onee
nxycnym n onee pasnoopasnym nnmy. o xaxne +ro tnn npas-
nnxn, x ne snana.
xnnnnxe x nnepnte ysnana o rom, uro tnaer npasnnx
ennxo xrxptcxo connanncrnuecxo penonmnnn. y menx
nosnnxann nonpoct, no ornert na +rn nonpoct x eme ne morna
nonxrt. on nonpoct moxno tno c]opmynnponart cneymmnm
opasom:
uro raxoe npasnnx ennxo xrxptcxo connanncrnuecxo pe-
nonmnnn? uro raxoe penonmnnx? axoe ornomenne nmeer x npas-
nnxy mecxn oxrxpt, ecnn npasnnx tnaer n noxpe? ouemy nyx-
no npnxantnart -x nnartm snauxn, xoropte x pantme nnxora ne
nnena?
a nce +rn nonpoct x nonyunna ornert nosnee, xora n cocro-
xnnn tna nonxrt oxcnenne. n ro npemx, xora x eme conepmen-
no nnuero ne snana o xrxptcxo penonmnnn, x onaxt (n ce-
ne) cnyuano nonana na ercxn yrpennnx, cocroxnmncx 7 nnn 8
noxpx (o +rom x rouno ne snam, a nnmt npenonaram, no +ro t-
no nnepnte n moe xnsnn). n ne noospenana, xaxo +ro tn
ontmo npasnnx. ymana n ro npemx, uro +ro tn otxnonen-
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nt nepaoun ent, xora oma roxe nanoxr nopxox n mentme
paoramr.
3ror ent, cotrnx xoroporo x xouy onncart, x nocnpnnnmana
cneymmnm opasom.
ocne cmeprn marepn x xnna y pocrnennnxon. ocne oea rerx
noxasana mne, urot x naena npasnnunoe nnarte, nantro n nnarox.
oero nomponoro para rerx cama oena, norom ana nam xape-
ntx cemeuex n nomaxana pyxo n cropony nepn, noxastnax mne
+rnm xecrom, urot mt mnn na ynnny. nonxna, uro nac npocro
noctnamr rynxrt.
o na ynnne x samernna, uro par ne ocranonnncx, xax on +ro
otuno enan, xora ne snan, n xaxym cropony nam nrn rynxrt. n
pemnrentno nanpannncx n onpeenennom nanpannennn, nex menx
sa coo. nnuero ne nonxna, no nomna pxom c parnxom. Bnn mt
ne ouent onro. pyr x ycntmana nexcnt nx menx mym: mne xa-
sanoct, uro no nosyxy yapxmr uem-ro rxxentm n or +roro nonyua-
ercx rpoxor. Fparnx ocranonnncx n ne xoren nrn antme, xorx x,
yyun nemnoro nanyrana nenonxrntm mymom, rxnyna ero nasa,
cama ne snax xya.
o-nnnmomy, parnx tn uem-ro ouent sannrepeconan, n mne
npnmnoct croxrt c nnm. omymana ronor nor no semne nosne nac.
orom xro-ro ns nspocntx noomen x nam, nsxn parnxa na pyxn,
nonxn ero nnepx... n npyr para ne crano. e ycnena x nonxrt, uro
cnyunnoct, nnn cenart uro-nnyt, urot nomout pary, xax menx
roxe xro-ro nsxn na pyxn, nonxn nnepx, a ram menx noxnarnnn
pyrne pyxn n xya-ro onycrnnn.
ouent ncnyranact, conepmenno ne nonnmax roro, uro noxpyr
menx nponcxonr n xya ncues par. o on oxasancx pxom co mno:
on nsxn menx sa pyxy n noxasan, uro nosne nac mnoro ere. , o-
naxo, n cama yxe samernna npncyrcrnne nme n axe ycnena cny-
uano onapyxnrt epenxnnym saropoxy, sa xoropo mt naxon-
nnct. cmarpnnax pyxamn +ry saropoxy antme, x noymana, uro
nac pocnnn n ontmo xmnx, no sauem?
+rom ontmom xmnxe cnenn n croxnn ern. e ern, xoropte
croxnn, ronann noramn, pasmaxnnann pyxamn, saenax menx. no-
npexnemy nnuero ne nonnmana, no nemnoro ycnoxonnact, snax, uro
x ne ona n xmnxe, uro pyrne ern ne ntramrcx ntnptrnyrt ns
+roro nennannoro xmnxa,- snaunr, erxm nennoxo.
o ne ycnena x oxonuarentno ycnoxonrtcx, xax cnona nponsomno
neuro nectma crpannoe: xmnx nauan mymert noo mno, nect co-
rpxcaxct. pyr on pnanyncx nnepe nnn nasa, x ne nonxna. e ern,
uro croxnn, nauann naart na nac. cnona ncnyranact, omymax,
uro mymxmn xmnx nauan nnrartcx. no pyxo x xpenxo epxa-
na sa pyxy parnxa, a pyro pyxo yxnarnnact sa saropoxy xmn-
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xa. o x ne omymana, urot parnx oxncx: on ne ntrancx exart,
ne npnxnmancx xo mne n ne ntptnancx, a, naoopor, on nnn cmexn-
cx, nnn uro-ro xpnuan mne n yxo.
naxo x nce npemx nonnonanact n, trt moxer, no+romy ne sa-
mernna, xax onro mt naxonnnct n +rom ontmom, mymxmem n e-
rymem xmnxe. omnm rontxo, uro xmnx naxonen nepecran mymert,
nepecran nnrartcx. nxrt xro-ro ns nspocntx pan menx n pa-
rnxa n oranan nac xomy-ro pyromy nnns. ouyncrnonan semnm no
noramn, x ouent opaonanact +romy.
ya menx nonen parnx, x ne snana. o xro-ro eme nsxn menx
sa pyrym pyxy, n x samernna, uro mt nxonm n om.
cnena na nnnno cxamexe pxom c parom. a +ro xe
cxamexe cnenn pyrne, concem nesnaxomte mne ern. mne no-
xasanoct, uro mt ouent onro cnenn n xomnare na onom mecre.
nora x omymana ronante noramn no nony, a na yxom cntman-
nx xax yro ouent oranennt cnat rpecx (annoncmenrt).
nx xe nnnornym pxom c parom, x uyncrnonana, uro on xnonaer
n naomn. n n mne noxastnan, urot x xnonana, no x conepmenno
ne nonnmana roro, uro noxpyr menx nponcxonr, no+romy ne xorena
xnonart. axonen, ern nauann ncranart co cxamexn n xya-ro no-
exann. cran n mo par, rama menx sa coo. t noomnn x
crony, n x omyrnna sanax xnox n xax yro sanax nnpoxxon. no-
nxrnnact nasa or crona, anax pary nonxrt, uro mt ne rya npn-
mnn. naxo par ne xoren ororn or crona. npyr x ouent cmy-
rnnact, sacrecnxnact, no mne n pyxn xro-ro an nectma ontmo
xynex. omy, xro an mne xynex, x nontranact nosnparnrt ero o-
parno, no utn-ro pyxn noxasann mne, urot x ne nosnpamana xynex,
a noxpenue epxana ero. ymana, uro +ror xynex onxnt tnn
art pyro enouxe, a ne mne, no+romy tna n ontmom sarpyne-
nnn, part nn xynex nnn orart ero xomy-nnyt pyromy. camom
ene, sauem mne ann xynex c xnoxamn? et x nnuero ne cenana,
ne paorana, a mne ann rocrnnnt sa ro, uro x onro cnena na o-
nom mecre.
o y para n pyxax oxasancx raxo xe xynex, n on ne rontxo
ne nosnpaman ero oparno, a, naoopor, xpenxo npnxnman xynex x
cee n ramnn menx x ntxoy. xe na ynnne mt nosnaxomnnnct c
coepxannem xyntxa, n xoropom oxasannct xnoxn, opexn n nn-
poxxn.
omo mt nosnpamannct nemxom, uemy x tna ouent paa, no
xaranne na rpysonnxe, na xoropom x pantme nnxora ne esnna, na-
nyrano menx. ectma cmyman menx n xynex c noapxamn: re mt t-
nn, sauem uyxne nmn ann nam xnoxn, opexn n nnpoxxn?
nycrx necxontxo ner, xora x yxe snana, uro raxoe npasnnxn
noome n nouemy tnaer npasnonanne ennxo xrxptcxo conna-
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nernuecxo penonmnnn, x ysnana ns nncem pocrnennnxon, uro
nmecre c nompontm parom x nonana na ercxoe ropxecrno n ent
nxro roonmnnt ennxoro xrxpx.
snan oo ncem +rom, x c rpycrtm n ropeutm noymana o rom,
uro nnepnte n cnoe xnsnn x npncyrcrnonana na raxom ontmom rop-
xecrne, no ne snana +roro, n nmecro roro, urot paonartcx, nece-
nnrtcx n nert, xax +ro enann nce pyrne nmn - nspocnte n ern,
x rontxo oxnact ncero roro, uro noxpyr menx nponcxonno.
epement. onxrnoe n nenonxrnoe
conepmenno ne snam, cxontxo npomno ne nnn neent c roro
namxrnoro nx, xora x c manentxnm nompontm parnxom n c
pyrnmn ertmn xaranact na rpysonnxe n npncyrcrnonana na yrpen-
nnxe. o nomnm, uro ncne sa +rnm nenonxrntm cotrnem naua-
nnct pyrne, roxe nnn concem nenonxrnte, nnn o nexoropo crene-
nn nonxrnte cotrnx. auannct nn onn n xonne noxpx nnn n na-
uane exapx, +roro x aconmrno ne mory ycranonnrt. rontxo nom-
nm, uro tno ctpo, xonono, no ne tno nn cnera, nn moposa.
nor onaxt, xora x eme xpenxo cnana (tno +ro nnn noutm,
nnn na paccnere), menx pasynnn. xnna x nce eme y xn n cene.
ne noxasann, urot x ncrana n oenact. ne xasanoct, uro x ne-
onro cnana, no+romy ynnnnact, uro menx pasynnn, xora mne
rax eme xorenoct cnart. tuntx nenntx sanaxon n xomnare x ne
omymana, cneonarentno, xax-ro ne xcno nonxna, uro yrpo eme ne
nacrynnno. enx sacrannnn ymtrtcx, nocne uero rerx ana mne no-
ecrt. a cronom n xyxne, xpome menx, nnxoro ne tno, uro eme ont-
me ynnnno n, no nce nepoxrnocrn (rax x ymam renept), oecno-
xonno menx. ocne et rerx sacrannna menx oertcx norennee: x
naena nropym napy mepcrxntx uynox, xoropte mne cnxsana eme
mama, naena mepcrxnoe nnarte n nxsanym xo]rouxy, nce +rn ne-
mn raxxe cenana nx menx mart nesaonro o cmeprn. orom rerx
onxsana menx ontmnm mamnntm nnarxom n nonena no nop. o
nope no sanaxy x onpeennna, uro tna eme nout nnn, nepnee, pan-
nn paccner. axo-ro myxunna nocann menx n ]ypron na ceno, a
norom cam cen pxom co mno. ocmorpena ero, no nantro n pyxam
ysnana nroporo xm. n epxan n ono pyxe noxxn, a n pyro
xnyr. nor mt noexann. ya? auem? 3roro x ne snana n axe nn-
uero ne morna npenonarart.
pnnomnnax renept +ry noesxy, x ymam, uro nnauane ne ncnt-
rtnana nn crpaxa, nn nonnennx. pana, x ne nonnmana, sauem me-
nx pasynnn cpen noun n xya nesyr. o rax xax x ne onaxt co-
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nepmana noesxn n ]yprone na neontmne paccroxnnx pan yo-
nontcrnnx noxarartcx, ro n +ra nectma necnoenpemennax noesxa ne
ouent cmyrnna menx, a rontxo noxasanact nenonxrno n nenyxno,
rem onee uro nauanact ona noutm, nomnmo moero xenannx.
ne xasanoct, uro mt eem ontme, uem +ro tnano otuno,
xora menx pann npocro noxarartcx. o ncex cropon yn pesxn, xo-
nont nerep, xaxo tnaer n orxptrom none. npnxnmanact x
xe, urot corpertcx. a xaxoe-ro npemx sactnana, npoctnanact n
nnont sactnana... ora xe x naxonen concem npocnynact, x nouyn-
crnonana, uro noxpyr xax yro noremneno, cnaee yer nerep n c
pasntx cropon oneramr sanaxn, ne raxne, xax n none, no n ne ra-
xne, xax tnann y nac n cene. anaxn tnn pasnte, nanomnnanmne
o nmxx, xnnnmax, xnnorntx, pacrennxx n o npouem, uro npncyme
mecram, re onramr nmn. nce xe +ro tnn nonte, nenonxrnte n
nonnymmne sanaxn. e mt naxonmcx? ya menx nesyr? or
o uem x cnpocnna t y cnenmero pxom co mno uenonexa, ecnn
t morna cnpamnnart. rontxo renept ro nenonxrnoe, uro nponcxo-
nno co mno, nauano menx ceptesno nyrart n rpenoxnrt.
e nomnm, cxontxo npemenn mt eme exann n xax norom x nona-
na n xnaprnpy cnoero rpertero xn (on n ro npemx xnn n epcone).
e snam raxxe, cxontxo ne x npoxnna y +roro xn, no cmyrno
nomnm, uro on necxontxo pas nonn menx xya-ro, re co mno nnue-
ro crpamnoro ne enann. o mne nenonxrno tno, sauem xx ncm-
y nonr menx. xora xx ynonn menx oparno ns +rnx nesna-
xomtx nomemenn, x ncntrtnana neuro noxoxee na uyncrno ne-
yonnernopennx nnn pasouaponannx.
camom ene, x npnntxna xonrt c mareptm (npn ee xnsnn)
nnn n rocrn, re nac yromann uem-nnyt, nnn no xaxomy-nno e-
ny, o xoropom x rax nnn nnaue ysnanana: ocoenno, ecnn mt orno-
cnnn nnn, naoopor, pann y snaxomtx uro-nnyt. no ncex +rnx
cnyuaxx mne tno nonxrno, sauem mt xonnn x nmxm. o n re o-
ma, xya co mno xonn xx, mt nnuero ne ornocnnn n orrya nn-
uero ne necnn omo. ac nnuem ne yromann, a rontxo xx ycaxn-
nan menx na cryn nnn na cxamexy, cam xe nourn ncera xya-ro
orxonn.
nor mt n nocnenn pas nomnn n onn raxo om n roxe, xax
x ymana, nnuero ne npnnecnn x cee omo. mexy rem xx
tn ouent nacxon co mno. ora mt nosnpamannct omo on nec-
xontxo pas nornann menx no ronone, uero ne enan nn pasy n nn
+rnx xoxenn. nn pas naxnonnncx, urot nonenonart menx, n na
moe nnno npn +rom ynana xaxax-ro rennax xannx. , xoneuno, snana,
uro nnauyr n ern n nspocnte, no na +ror pas ne cpasy nonxna, uro
xx nnauer. noymana, uro, moxer trt, nauancx oxt, onaxo
ontme xannn ne naann na moe nnno, a xx nouemy-ro nsxn menx na
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pyxn. rontxo nocneonanmne ncne sa +rnm manentxnm +nnsoom
cotrnx co npemenem nomornn mne nonxrt, xaxax xannx ynana na
moe nnno: xx nnaxan, noromy uro onxen tn ornesrn menx n py-
ro ropo n ocrannrt ram n mxone cnentx ere.
rax, mt nepnynnct omo, n x conepmenno ne snana o rom, uro
na cneymmee yrpo onxna yexart nancera or xn, n npnrom
exart napoxoom, cnauana no nenpy, a norom no mopm.
ect neuep n +ror ent x sameuana, uro ncx cemtx xn ornocnr-
cx xo mne ouent nacxono, a rerx (xena xn) npnmepxna na menx
ro ornnxn, ro nnarte, ro nantro. ce +ro x nonnmana no-cnoemy:
nnn menx oparno ornesyr n ceno, uero x nnxax ne xorena (no y x-
n n ropoe mne ouent npannnoct), n axe conpanact partcx, ecnn
menx nacnntno saxorxr ornesrn rya. o morno trt n rax, uro cxo-
po yer xaxo-ro ocoennt ent (npasnnx), xora nyxno xopo-
mo n xpacnno oenartcx, mnoro rynxrt... nocrent mne nocrennnn,
n cnart ynoxnnn menx n +ror neuep xax-ro no ocoennomy xopomo n
nacxono: necxontxo pas ro rerx, ro xx noxonnn xo mne n no-
npannxnn oexno nnn eme uro-nnyt naxntnann, ymax, ouennno,
uro mne xonono. nuero ne noospenax n nacnaxaxct saoro n
nnnmannem oxpyxammnx, x nce +ro nonnmana xax npoxnnenne o-
port. ouent xorena, urot rax ncera tno, a eme mne xorenoct,
urot n x x oxpyxammnm ornocnnact roxe xopomo. x roxe naua-
na ymart o rom, uro yy nomorart rere, yy mtrt nocyy, nome-
rart xomnary, ynpart nocrent, uncrnrt xapro]ent n noome enart
ro, uro x ymena enart n ro npemx. paonanact, uro xo mne naua-
nn ornocnrtcx rax xopomo, n, sactnax, x yxe c nerepnennem xa-
na yrpa, xora cmory noxasart ncem, uro uyncrnym xopomee orno-
menne xo mne n cama xouy trt xopome, xouy mnoro paorart, uro-
t menx eme ontme nmnnn. axnmn npnnnsnrentno cnonamn
moxno renept c]opmynnponart mon uyncrna, npecrannennx n nonn-
manne roro, uro x ocosnanana n ro npemx.
naxo cneymmn ent npnnec mne ouent mnoro nontx oropue-
nn, pasouaponann n raxne nenonxrnte n axe crpamnte cotrnx,
o xoroptx x ne nmena nn manemero nonxrnx, ne snana, uro moryr
cymecrnonart n xnsnn noonte ocroxrentcrna, xnnennx n
npemert.
na +ror pas menx pasynnn pano n noxasann, urot x ncra-
na. enan +ro xx, xoropt cnauana rnann menx no ronone, a no-
rom nauan rnxontxo rpxcrn sa nneuo. npocnynact, nnuero ne no-
nnmax, no norom xax yro coopasnna, uro yxe nacrynnn ent n x
onxna nomorart rere n xyxne. o xora x xorena naenart re nemn,
xoropte neuepom cnxna, nx ne oxasanoct nosne menx. erx xe none-
na menx n xyxnm n noxasana na xoptro c renno noo. enx nt-
xynann, ann uncroe ente, mepcrxnoe nnarte c xpyxenntm nopor-
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nnuxom, xoropoe x naenana rontxo n npasnnxn npn xnsnn marepn.
ce +ro x nonxna rax, uro nacrynnn xaxo-ro npasnnx n mt no-
em n rocrn. o menx nenontno cmymano ro ocroxrentcrno, uro n
rocrn x rax pano nnxora ne xonna,- snaunr, yer uro-ro pyroe.
Ftrt moxer, menx nonesyr oparno n ceno n cnona sacranxr nxnunrt
manentxnx ere. xn n ropoe tno nyume: ere x ne nxnunna,
menx ne ornycxann ony no nop, re x morna ynacrt nnn ncnyrart-
cx uero-nnyt; menx nonnn rynxrt na ynnny, xoropax tna ne
raxax, xax n cene - ram tnana rpxst nocne oxx, a sect tnn
xamnn nnn rnaxne (ac]antrnponannte) opoxxn. n xomnarax
tno nyume: npocropnee, yonee, a non mymen~, xora xro-nnyt
npoxonn no xomnare, x omymana cryx maron, n mne +ro npann-
noct. opoue ronopx, mne npannnoct y +roro xn, n x rnepo pemn-
na samnmartcx, ecnn menx yyr sacrannxrt canrtcx n ]yp-
ron.
nornx pyrnx noponocre +roro yrpa x, xoneuno, ne nomnm,
onaxo xcno nomnm, uro menx n xm rerx xya-ro noctnana c xop-
snno, n xoropo nexann xaxne-ro npoyxrt n nemn. x nonxna:
mt onxnt nrn nnn exart xya-ro, no xya? t onro mnn no
ynnnam c xe n rere. orom rerx nonpomanact co mno n c x-
e, a on nsxn menx na pyxn n nonec xya-ro. ne xasanoct, uro xx
xax yro xapaxancx nanepx, a norom cnycrnncx nnns n onycrnn me-
nx na non, a nerep, xoropt cnntno yn, npyr npexparnncx. na-
unr, mt nomnn n om.
o x ne tna ynepena n rom, uro mt nonann nmenno n xaxo-ro
om, onaxo, omyrnn no noramn non n samernn ncuesnonenne nerpa,
x nonxna, uro mt naxonmcx n xaxom-ro nomemennn. o n xaxom no-
memennn? sauem mt rya npnmnn, +roro x ne nonnmana nn n ror
ent, nn na cneymmn ent, necmorpx na ro uro nonnmana nepeme-
ny n ocranonxe, n xoropym x nonana.
a n nenepno tno yrnepxart, uro x npyr no xaxomy-ro nan-
rnm nonxna ro, uro co mno nponcxonno. ecrnnrentno nnuero
ne nonnmana n ne snana, no nomnm, uro omymana nnpannn xaxoro-
ro nnxennx, corpxcennx n myma. mymana xaxoe-ro neotunoe xa-
uanne n, xax x mory renept ntpasnrtcx, nocrynarentnoe nnxenne
oma, ns uero morna nonxrt, uro mt eem. o na uem eem? esyr
nn nac noman, nnn xe +ror om xax-ro cam nnraercx, xax nnran-
cx ontmo xmnx~, xora menx c parom n c pyrnmn, ertmn xa-
rann no ceny?
xontxo npemenn x naxonnact n +rom crpamnom nnxymemcx
ome, x ne rontxo ne nomnm, no n ne snam. nomnm, uro n +rom o-
me tnn n pyrne nmn, no x omymana n nx sanaxn, n nx npnxoc-
nonennx xo mne. eme x xcno nonnmam, uro nponsomno neuro n
ntcme crenenn nenpnxrnoe n nenonxrnoe, npenparnnmeecx n myue-
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nne nx menx, no nnuero noxoxero na +ro x n cnoe xnsnn ne nc-
ntrtnana nn o +ro noesxn, nn nocne nee.
nce nauanoct c roro, uro om cran cnntno pacxaunnartcx n
pasnte cropont, a raxxe nonptrnnan nnepx nnn naan nnns.
npyr x nnesanno saonena: y menx nauanact cnntnax pnora, xoro-
pax tna ouent myunrentna n upesntuano nanyrana menx. camom
ene, xora x npnmna n +ror nenonxrnt om, x ne uyncrnonana ce-
x ontno, y menx aconmrno nnuero ne oneno. necmorpx na
xpann ncnyr, x nonnmana, uro xx ntrancx ycnoxonrt menx: on
rnann menx, pan na pyxn, noxastnan na cex, xax t xenax cxa-
sart: sect, c roo~. o y menx npoonxanact pnora, x nnaxa-
na, a om xauancx, n x cmyrno ymana o rom, uro, trt moxer, co
mno xorxr cenart uro-nnyt nnoxoe. o menx, no-nnnmomy, xa-
nenn xx n eme xro-ro uyxo. omnm, uro xx nsxn menx na py-
xn n mt eme pas cnycrnnnct nnns, re tno renno n xauxa omyma-
nact ne rax cnntno.
ora xx pasynn menx n nonec nanepx, ro oxasanoct, uro
om ontme ne xauancx, a nerep npyr cnona noxnnncx; ns +roro x
morna saxnmunrt, uro mt naxonen xya-ro npnexann. ecrnn-
rentno, xx onycrnn menx, n x omyrnna no noramn rnepym sem-
nm, a nosyx tn raxo neotunt no sanaxy, xoroporo x nnxora
n cnoe xnsnn ne omymana pantme. t cnona xya-ro nomnn, no
x nouemy-ro tna ynepena n rom, uro mt npnexann ne omo x xe,
ne n ceno n uro xx cam ne snaer, xya mt nem, no on uacro
ocranannnnancx. osnee x nonxna, npnnomnnax nce +ro, uro on
cnpamnnan y npoxoxnx o xaxo-ro opore.
omnm eme, uro mt nenaonro saxonnn n xaxo-ro om, x ram
cnena na nnnnom epenxnnom nnane. xx xya-ro oromen or
menx, a norom nepnyncx c xaxo-ro xenmnno, xoropax oomnact
co mno ouent nacxono: ona necxontxo pas nornanna menx, a norom
yrocrnna cnaxnm uaem c entm xneom. +ror xne noxasancx mne
ouent nxycntm nocne mopcxo onesnn, xoropym x nepenecna
noutm. amernn xopomee opamenne co mno +ro nesnaxomo xen-
mnnt, x ouent ynnnnact n nmecre c rem eme ontme ynepnnact
n rom, uro mt ecrnnrentno npnexann ne omo n uro nnepen
menx xer uro-ro nensnecrnoe. 3romy nensnecrnomy ne tno n ro
npemx n monx mtcnxx nn nasnannx cnonamn, nn npecrannennx
o nem opasamn, no xax xe x morna npecrannxrt cee ro, uero
conepmenno ne snana n o uem ne nmena nonxrnx, uro ono (+ro nens-
necrnoe) cymecrnyer? ontxo ono x xax yro rnepo nonnmana:
co mno uro-ro nponsoer, no ne mor xe xx npocro rax rynxrt
co mno, n npnrom ouent anexo or namero oma.
n camom ene, cmyrnte npeuyncrnnx xaxo-ro nepement ne
omanynn menx.
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tx ns oma, re menx yromann uaem, mt c xe cnona mnn
no ynnnam, n, xaxercx, ouent onro, rax xax x yxe ouent ycrana.
o necmorpx na ycranocrt n paccexnnocrt ercxoro nnnmannx, moe
oonxnne nce npemx npnnnexan ror neotunt sanax, xoroporo x
nnxora npexe ne omymana. nosnee x ysnana, uro +ro tn
sanax mopx. yxe c rpyom ramnnact sa xe, cnortxaxct nourn
na xaxom mary. o nor mt cnona nomnn n xaxo-ro om, nonx-
nnct na necxontxo crynenex nnepx n nomnn no nnnno xomnare -
norom x ysnana, uro +ro tn xopnop, n xoropom xx n ocrannn
menx nenaonro.
nycrx nexoropoe npemx menx oxpyxnnn nesnaxomte nenmnnt
n enouxn. enouxn tnn n moero pocra, n noontme, xax yro
crapme no nospacry. manentxne n ontmne enouxn omyntnann
menx pyxamn c ronont o nor. ce +ro upesntuano ynnnno menx,
axe ne nonpannnoct mne, no npexe menx rax nnxro ne omynt-
nan, n x yxnantno pacrepxnact, ne nonnmax, sauem enouxn nce +ro
enamr. noymana, uro c menx xorxr cnxrt ncm mom oexy.
nauana orcrpanxrtcx or +rnx omyntnammnx pyx, npnxnmanact
x crene, npxranact sa xm, no enouxn n ram naxonnn menx, o-
nnmann, pyxecxn noxnontnann.
naxo noxa c menx nnuero ne cnnmann, a omyntnanmne menx
enouxn, ouennno nonxn mo ncnyr, pemnnn npoxnnrt no ornome-
nnm xo mne eme ontme nnnmannx. nn nce rpynno noxnarnnn
menx n xya-ro nonenn. xaxo-ro xomnare onn noxasann mne ne-
cxontxo xponare c axxyparno ypanntmn nocrenxmn, n ro npemx
x yxe ymena cama ynpart nocrent, no+romy nonnmana, xora no-
crent tna axxyparno ypana n xora nexana n ecnopxxe. o-
no xponarn enouxn ocranonnnnct n nauann nacrounno n +nep-
rnuno noxastnart ro na xponart, ro na menx, ur?o n xonne xonnon
x ncronxonana rax: +ro rnox xponart.
ocne +ro oxonunnmecx narononyuno nponeypt mne noxa-
sann, urot x cnxna nnarox n nantro n nonecnna na nemanxy nosne
nepn n ro xe xomnare. o x eme nnxax ne xorena nepnrt romy,
uro nx menx rax tcrpo namnn xponart c nocrentm n nesnaxomom
ome. e xorena cnnmart nantro n nnarox, onacaxct, uro y menx or-
nnmyr +rn nemn. naxo npncyrcrnonanmn n xomnare xx n ne-
snaxomax xenmnna roxe noxastnann mne, uro xponart mox, a nna-
rox n nantro nyxno cnxrt. xax rontxo x cenana +ro, noxpyr
menx rax sanptrann, rax saronann noramn enouxn, uro mne noxa-
sanoct, yro na napxernt non nauann naart xamnn nnn orxya-
ro cpactnann nonentx. o xax nnocnecrnnn x morna yxcnnrt cee
ocranonxy, +ro cnente enouxn, yuennnt mxont cnentx, npn-
nercrnonann menx xax cnom nonym nopyxxy neceno ueuerxo.
ro npemx x ne snana, uro enouxn cnente, no cntmamne, no-
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+romy ne nonnmana nx noneennx n nce ontme n ontme poena,
xorena xya-nnyt cnpxrartcx nnn yrn c xe xorx t cnona
na ynnny.
rapmne xe enouxn oxonuarentno omenomnnn menx, noneprnn
n nonnoe oruaxnne: onn saxorenn nsxrt menx na pyxn, urot xya-
ro necrn, no x ne xorena nrn c nnmn rya, xya onn menx snann.
nn ornnmann menx pyr y pyra, ne noospenax o rom, uro mne ne-
nonxrno nx noneenne. axonen ona enouxa nsxna menx sa ryno-
nnme, pyrax cxnarnna sa norn, n oe ynepenno xya-ro noexann.
nouyncrnonana, uro onn nonnmamrcx nanepx, n npnrom onontno
tcrpo. cnn t x n ro npemx morna paccyxart rax, xax renept.
ro noymana t npnnnsnrentno cneymmee: ponana x!!!~ o
rora x rontxo cmyrno nouyncrnonana, uro nnuero ne mory nonxrt
ns roro, uro noxpyr menx nponcxonr, no+romy ne snana, uro menx
oxnaer, nnoxoe nnn xopomee. o nepoxrno, x ncnomnnna, uro xx
mor eme naxonrtcx n +rom ome, a ecnn t menx nauann onxart
enouxn, ro on nenpemenno ornxn t menx y nnx.
oxa co mno eme nnuero nnoxoro ne cenann, naoopor, na-
nepxy menx nonenn n nannym xomnary n noxasann, uro x onxna
xynartcx. trtcx, xynartcx n noome nnecxartcx n noe x ouent
nmnna, no+romy cpasy cornacnnact xynartcx. naxo, xora mne
noxasann ontmym nanny, xoropym x pantme nnxora ne nnena,
x ne xorena n nee canrtcx, onacaxct, uro mory yronyrt n raxom
ontmom xoptre~. noxastnana pyxamn, urot mne ann xpyr-
nt ras nnn xoptro. ecmorpx na ro uro enouxn n xenmnna (noc-
nnrarentnnna) ycnnenno yexann menx ncenosmoxntmn xecramn
canrtcx n nanny, x nce-raxn ne cornamanact n n cnom ouepet no-
xastnana, uro noa santer menx ncm, nonaer mne n por n n noc n x
yy nexart no noo. ne noxastnann, uro n nanne yer ne-
mnoro not n ona menx ncm ne santer. o x +romy ne nepnna n ne
xorena canrtcx n nanny. eno n rom, uro n cene x xynanact n pexe
nerom, no+romy snana, xax onacno nx manentxnx ere, xora
tnaer mnoro not. xonne xonnon xro-ro npnnec ontmo ras, n
rontxo rora x nosnonnna ntxynart cex.
ora xe nyxno tno oenartcx n x onapyxnna, uro mne ann
no moe ente n nnarte (xorx n uncroe no sanaxy, n axxyparno cno-
xennoe), x cnona nonxna +ro rax, uro y menx ornxnn mon nemn n
ontme ne orayr nx mne. mne tno ouent xanxo paccrartcx
c nemamn, xoropte mne mnna mart cnonmn pyxamn. coenno xanxo
tno paccranartcx c mepcrxntm nnartem c xpyxenntm nopornnu-
xom. mecro nero mne ann npocroe (]nanenenoe) n yxe ne nonoe
nnarte. ]acon tn xaxo-ro cmemno: n rannn nnarte tno
ysxoe, a mxa tna n copxax; sacrernnanoct nnarte cnepen na
xnonxn, nopornnx tn croxun n saxptnan mne ncm mem. 3ro tna
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axas 812
]opma enouex n crapo openonxmnonno mxone. ne ouent ne
nonpannncx ]acon +roro nnartx,- ecnn ne omnamct, x axe ne
ouent nepnna, uro +ro ecrnnrentno nnarte, no oma x nocnna
nnartx ns pyroro marepnana n raxnx ]aconon, xoropte sacrernna-
nnct csan nnn es paspeson naenannct uepes ronony. rennte
copouxn (snmnee ente) y menx tnn ]nanenente n sacrernnannct
cnepen na nyronnuxn.
nxro ne mor yenrt menx naert mxontnoe nnarte, xoropoe
x cxnonna tna cunrart renno copouxo. uennno, xro-ro nosnan
na nomomt xm, n rontxo emy x nonepnna, uro moxno naert
mxontnoe nnarte, a moe mepcrxnoe nyxno nonecnrt n mxa] n x ero
naeny uepes mnoro ne, x nonxna, uro uepes mnoro ne yer
uro-ro raxoe neotunoe (npasnnx), xora cneyer naenart nonte
n xopomne nnartx.
xpononornuecxo nocneonarentnocrn x renept ne mory npn-
nomnnrt ncero, uro tno co mno n mxoe n cneymmne nn, onaxo
nomnm nexoropte nanonee nopasnnmne menx cnyuan.
onontno onroe npemx ne nonnmana roro, uro naxoxyct
n mxone cnentx ere, no+romy ynnnxnact romy, uro om ont-
mo, mnoro xomnar, a raxxe mnoro ere pasnnunoro nospacra,
rounee ronopx, pocra, no x rora o nospacre cynna no pocry, no-
+romy ntcoxopocntx ere npnnnmana sa crapmnx. raxxe nnxax
ne morna nonxrt, sauem n ono xomnare (n cnantne) cronr mnoro
xponare. noome mne xasanoct, uro n onom ome cnnmxom
mnoro nme, ere n nspocntx. oxnact xonrt ona na nropo
n rpern +rax, no ne nonnmana ycrpocrna n pacnonoxennx oma
n ymana, uro nanepx xonrt onacno: noronox~ (no na nepxnnx
+raxax) moxer cnomartcx, n mt nce nponannmcx nnns. coenno
x oxnact, xora ern erann no xopnopam nanepxy. txonrt na
anxon n cronono (na nropom +raxe) x roxe ouent oxnact.
omnm, uro onaxt nespxun mantunx, ne nnx, uro x nporx-
nyna pyxy nnepe, urot ntrn ns cronono n xopnop, xnonnyn
neptm n ouent ontno npnnn mne pyxy. cunrana, uro n +rom
ome x ona cnenax, no+romy noymana, uro mantunx xoren menx
nonrt n napouno xnonnyn neptm. ouent onenact, nnaxana
n or ont n or onn, ncem noxastnana pyxy, a neuepom, xora e-
nouxn nonenn menx x xe, xoropt nexoropoe npemx xnn n mxone,
x cnona sannaxana n noxastnana emy, uro nao cxopee yrn ns +roro
nnoxoro oma.
nem xx xya-ro yxonn, a neuepom nosnpamancx n mxony n
snan menx n cnom xomnary. n ncera yroman menx uem-nnyt,
no x crapanact cnpxrart n xapmant ro, uro mne anan xx, urot
n cnantne pasennrt nce c enouxamn. a enouex x ne onxanact,
no onn xax-ro ymenn ne cranxnnartcx co mno n xopnopax. o
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mantunxn uacro, n xoneuno cnyuano, nartxannct na menx. npo-
onxana ymart, uro mantunxn +ro enamr ymtmnenno. neono-
xparno nanomnnana xe, uro nam nyxno yesxart omo, yesxart
x nemy, re menx nnxro ne yer nrt n ronxart... o xx rontxo
rnann n nenonan menx, ne oemax, uro mt ns mxont yeem
nmecre...
nor nacrynnn raxo ent, xora xx neuepom ne nepnyncx
n mxony. ocne yxnna x, no otxnonennm, nomna n xyxnm, urot
ysnart y nonapnxn, yxnnaer nn xx, no nonapnxa noxasana mne,
uro xn ner. ocranact xart xm n xyxne, no on nce ne npn-
xonn. enouxn noxonnn xo mne n noxastnann, uro xn ner,
urot x mna n cnantnm, no x nm ne nepnna n ne xorena yxonrt ns
xyxnn. axonen npnmna ona crapmax enouxa n nacnntno ynena
menx n cnantnm. na noxasana mne, uro xx ocrannn y nee ro-
crnnnt nx menx. rontxo rora x xax yro nonxna, uro xx
ecrnnrentno yexan. xora enouxa ana mne ent xne, xon-
]ert n eme uro-ro, x roptxo sannaxana n nnxax no xorena ecrt
rocrnnnt n nce pasana enouxam.
omnm eme raxo cnyua: xro-ro ns crapmnx enouex noxasan
mne, uro n nocrenn nentsx ecrt xne. 3ro nectma osaaunno menx,
no oma x npnntxna x romy, uro mne paspemann n nocrenn ecrt
nce. o x cpasy nocnymanact enouxy, rontxo nonxna ee rax, uro
noome nnuero nentsx ecrt n nocrenn. nycrx nexoropoe npemx
pyrax enouxa yrocrnna menx xon]ero n ro npemx, xora x yxe
nexana n nocrenn. ne crana ecrt xon]ery n nonoxnna ee na rym-
ouxy, c rem urot cecrt ee yrpom, xora x ncrany n ymomct.
uennno, enouxn ycntmann, uro x ne rptsy xon]ery, n oparnnn
na +ro nnnmanne. ro-ro ns nnx noomen xo mne n noxasan, urot
x ena xon]ery. orxastnanact, noxastnana, uro nexy n nocrenn,
no mne orneuann, uro ecrt xon]ery moxno. 3ro noneprno menx n
nonnoe neoymenne: nouemy xe xne nentsx ecrt n nocrenn, a xon-
]ery moxno? et ecnn nentsx - rax, nnuero nentsx, rax no xpa-
ne mepe x nonxna. y enouex nonyuaercx nnaue: ono nentsx
ecrt n nocrenn, pyroe moxno. e n cocroxnnn nonxrt +rn nporn-
nopeunx enouex, x crana nocrynart no-cnoemy: x nnuero ne ena
n nocrenn, axe caxap nnn xon]ery crapanact cecrt o roro, xax
nxry n nocrent, nnn ocrannxna na yrpo.
nnnxnact x n eme xoe-uemy. ax, nanpnmep, x yxe snana, uro
n onnx cnantnxx nomemamrcx rontxo enouxn, n pyrnx - rontxo
mantunxn. n cene x npnntxna nnert ncm cemtm n ono xom-
nare. emtx morna cocroxrt ns orna n marepn, parten, cecrep, e-
ymxn, aymxn. mxone xe enouxn c mantunxamn ncrpeuannct
rontxo nem n cronono, n nnnorexe, n xopnopax n n pyrnx ne-
nsnecrntx mne no cnoemy nasnauennm xomnarax; na nout onn pac-
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xonnnct no cnonm cnantnxm. nora neuepom cnyuanoct, uro xro-
nnyt ns mantunxon npnxonn sa uem-nno x enouxam (sa nrno
c nnrxo, sa noxnnnamn), ero n cnantnm ne nycxann, on croxn
nosne nepn n xopnope, oxnax, xora emy ayr ro, uro on npocnn..
ne nonnmana, nouemy enouxn oxnnct nycxart mantunxa n
cnantnm. ymana, uro n mxone nnoxne mantunxn, no+romy nx
nentsx nycxart n cnantnm. o ryr cnona noxnnnnct npornnopeunx~.
Ftna snma. nnctnaemte sect cotrnx ornocxrcx x romy ne-
pnoy, xora no npemx rpaxancxo nont, a eme n nocne nee,
oma nennxom ne orannnnannct, a oorpenannct nnmt orentnte
xomnart ncenosmoxntmn neuxamn n neuypxamn, sauacrym nectma
npnmnrnnnoro xycrapnoro nponsnocrna. ax ocroxno eno n
n mxone n nepnt ro moero npetnannx n ne.
npyr x crana sameuart, uro no neuepam, ocoenno n re neuepa,
xora neuxa ne xorena pasropartcx nnn enouxn ne n cocroxnnn
tnn ee pacronnrt, n cnantnm x nam saxonr xaxo-ro myxunna n
xro-nnyt ns crapmnx mantunxon. nn npnnocnnn cyxne pona n
xopomo pacrannnnann neuxy, xoropax oorpenana xomnary n ncex
nac o rex nop, noxa n ne ropenn pona nnn rop]. enouxn menx
roxe ycaxnnann nosne neuxn, no+romy x nmena nosmoxnocrt
ocmarpnnart~ ncex, xro nosne nee naxonncx. uacro nnena~
xypnnmero myxunny, oeroro n rynyn n manxy-ymanxy. Ftnann
n crapmne matunxn. ax x ysnana nnocnecrnnn, +ro tnn ncron-
nnx n exypnt no omy crapmn yuennx nnrepnara. o n ro
npemx x +roro ne snana, no+romy ne nonnmana, nouemy xe onnm
mantunxam n axe nspocnomy myxunne moxno saxonrt n cnantnm
x enouxam, a pyrnm mantunxam, axe mnamero nospacra, nentsx
saxonrt.
ro xe mor oxcnnrt mne nce +rn nenonxrnte n npornnopeun-
nte ocroxrentcrna? nxro. mexy rem onn menx nonnonann, no
x xorena snart oo ncem, uro menx oxpyxano. myxunne xe, xoro-
pt npnnocnn pona, pacrannnnan neuxy, saxyrtnan menx n cno
rynyn, xora nnen, uro x samepsna, x ncxope axe no-ercxn npn-
nxsanact, xax yro x ponomy uenonexy. n, xoneuno, snan, uro x
npnexana n mxony c xe, xoropt ocrannn menx n mxone nomnmo
moero xenannx,- nanepnoe, no+romy on ornocnncx xo mne ouent
xopomo. uacro on yroman menx maxonnnxamn n nnxora ne satnan
nosnart x neuxe, xora ona xopomo ropena. neonarentno, x nn-
uero ne nmena npornn roro, urot on nouame saxonn n cnantnm,
no rontxo ne nonnmana, nouemy emy moxno saxonrt, a nexoroptm
pyrnm, no-moemy xopomnm, mantunxam nentsx saxonrt n cnantnm.
opomnmn onn mne xasannct noromy, uro ne onxann menx, a axe
ornocnnnct couyncrnenno, xora nnoxne mantunxn - trt moxer,
cnyuano, a trt moxer, n noptne osopcrna - ronxann menx, ornn-
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mann xyxny, nrpymeunte xopsnnxn nnn yct; nce +rn nemn mne
apnnn crapmne enouxn nnn corpynnxn - yunrenx, nocnnrarenn.
uro +ro tnn corpynnxn mxont, x n ro npemx ne concem cee
yxcnxna, x nonnmana rax, uro +ro yxe concem nspocnte nmn,
no+romy onn xnnyr n orentntx or yuennxon xomnarax. uro nocnn-
rarenn n yunrenx xnnn orentno or nocnnrannnxon, x o +rom no-
crenenno ysnana, no tnana n nx xomnarax.
pnnomnnam n eme ono nnrepecnoe cotrne, c xoroptm x
nnepnte n xnsnn cronxnynact, no ne nonxna ero rax, xax cneonano
t nonxrt.
mxone roronnnnct x xaxomy-ro neotunomy cotrnm: +ro x no-
nxna no romy, uro mt nce xynannct, nonyunnn ne rontxo uncroe
ente, no axe npasnnunte mepcrxnte nnartx. ne naxonen ann
moe omamnee nnarte, uro ouent opaonano menx, n cnauana x no-
ymana, uro menx moryr orocnart x xe. ro-ro ns crapmnx eno-
uex noapnn mne nenry nx anra na nonoct. ce tnn necente,
opte. 3ro nacrpoenne ntpaxanoct n rom, uro nce tnn oxnnnent,
npnxopamnnannct, ynpann xomnart n nce +ro enanoct pyxno n
xopomo. Ftno n xoe-uro pyroe, nenonxrnoe mne, no npnnnexanmee
moe nnnmanne rem, uro n ontmo xomnare (sane) xax yro no
uro-ro nrpann n crapmne n mnamne yuennxn. enept mory npeno-
noxnrt, uro +ro tnn nocnenne penernnnn n pyrne npnroronne-
nnx x neuepy.
axonen, enouxn nosnann menx n san, re yxe naxonnnct
nmn, ram tnn n yuennxn n corpynnxn. ne noxastnann, uro na
cepenne sana cronr c ercrna snaxomoe mne epeno c nronxamn
nmecro nncrten, no renept yxpamennoe pasnnuntmn nrpymxamn:
xopsnnxamn, omnxamn, ycamn n eme xaxnmn-ro nrpymxamn, xoro-
ptx x ne nnena pantme. tna upesntuano ynnnena rem, uro
n xomnare npyr ntpocno epeno, a eme c nrpymxamn, ycamn.
ax +ro morno cnyunrtcx, urot snmo n xomnare ntpocno epeno?
nxro oraancx noxasart mne, xaxnm opasom ycranonnnn n sa-
ne enxy, no+romy x n noymana, uro ona ntpocna npxmo ns-no nona.
orom menx nsxnn c nyx cropon sa pyxn n nce nauann xpy-
xnrtcx noxpyr ynnnrentnoro epena. ern ronann noramn; nexc-
nt ryn xax yro ouent cnatx, oranenntx snyxon yapxn mne
n ymn, oruero x uyncrnonana cex ne ocoenno xopomo ..mne xasa-
noct, uro xaxne-ro xorx n ne cnntnte, no rem ne menee omyrnmte
ronuxn nonaamr mne n ymn ns oxpyxammero nosyxa. ne raxxe
ne ouent npannnoct xpyxnrtcx noxpyr epena n nensnecrno sauem
ronart noramn. ne axe cxyuno tno or ncero +roro, no x ne
snana, uro nmenno x enam, a n raxnx cnyuaxx x ncera uyncrno-
nana cex, xax x mory renept onpeennrt cnoe cocroxnne, xax-ro
neecrecrnenno, npnnyxenno, n cama cee x xasanact nenpnxrno.
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pyrne ern nnn nspocnte roxe xasannct mne nenpnxrntmn, xora
x ne nonnmana roro, uro onn enann. c nerepnennem xana, urot
menx cxopee ornycrnnn n ontme ne snann rax cxyuno nrpart.
ne nomnm ncero, uro tno nocnpnnxro mno n +ror neuep,
n xoropt x nnepnte n raxom ontmom omecrne nspocntx n ere
ncrpeuana ont ro, no concem ne snana o +rom. naxo x xopomo
nomnn), uro n crapmnm n mnamnm yuennxam pasanann noapxn.
noxastnana cnonm nopyxxam ro, uro x nonyunna, a onn noxast-
nann mne ro, uro nonyunnn onn. nnepnte nnena, uro rax mnoro
ere ononpemenno nonyuann noapxn; +ro mne nonpannnoct, n x
+ro nonxna, xaxercx, npannntno: nponsomno uro-ro xopomee, nce
+romy opaonannct, n nspocnte nmn, raxne necente n pa-
ocrnte, pasanann erxm nrpymxn, yct, nenrt, ymncroe mtno,
rpeenxn, npxnnxn, xon]ert.
+ror namxrnt neuep x tna nacrontxo neperpyxena npancr-
nenno ontmnm xonnuecrnom ncenosmoxntx nneuarnenn, uro axe
ne ntranact nonxrt, ocmtcnnrt ro, uro uyxne nmn ann mne rax
mnoro pasntx nrpymex n esenymex n re mne tno t nyume,
n mxone nnn y xn, ecnn t x cnona x nemy nepnynact. o na cne-
ymm1 n ent yrpom, nocne roro xax x, xopomo ntcnanmnct, ncrana
n nauana npnnomnnart cotrnx npomemero nx n neuepa, cnona
n cnona paccmarpnnart nonyuennte noapxn, x nnepnte nonxna, uro
n mxone mne nyume, no sect nponcxoxr xorx n ne ncera nonxr-
nte mne, rem ne menee ouent nnrepecnte cotrnx n xnnennx, xoro-
pte rax nnn nnaue pasnnexamr menx n nanonnxmr mom xnsnt uem-
ro nontm, oruero mon ercxne mtcnn n uyncrna xax t cnernemr,
pacnneramr, paspacramrcx.
oneuno, n ro npemx x raxnmn cnonamn ne morna onpeennrt
n ntpasnrt ro, uro x uyncrnonana, ntcxasart ror nepenom, xoropt
menenno, xax t ncnonont nponcxonn n moem yme n cosnannn.
o omymana x nce +ro nmenno rax, xax nnmy ceuac. x ouent
xorena, urot +ro nocrenennoe nnyrpennee npocnernenne n paspa-
cranne npoonxanoct no mne nce ontme, nce cnntnee. xorx aco-
nmrno ne nonnmana, oruero nce +ro nponcxonr, onaxo nenpeoo-
nnmo nncrnnxrnnno pnanact x uemy-ro n xya-ro nnepe, cnonno
yxe npeuyncrnonana ror nacroxmn nepenom, xoropt
nosnee ecrnnrentno nponsomen n moem ]nsnuecxom cymecrno-
nannn n n yxonno xnsnn,
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poonxenne nonxrnoro n nenonxrnoro
o npexe uem npncrynnrt x onncannm +roro necomnennoro, no-
nnnnoro nepenoman moe xnsnn, x xouy xoporxo paccxasart o co-
trnxx, xoropte nponcxonnn npn xnsnn marepn n nocne ee cmeprn,
a raxxe o rom, xax x nonxna ncuesnonenne marepn ns xnsnn.
cnn ores xn ns mxont cnentx na nexoropoe npemx cnntno
oropunn menx, no x ecrnnrentno ocranact conepmenno ona cpen
uyxnx, ne nmex n +rom ropoe nnxoro ns pocrnennnxon, ro nerxo ce-
e npecrannrt, xax yxacno n ecnomomno x uyncrnonana cex, oc-
ranmnct es marepn. et co nx moero poxennx mart tnana co
mno, ne ocrannxx menx axe na necxontxo ne, n npyr ee ne cra-
no... 3ro ontmoe rope axe nx spxuero n cntmamero peenxa, a
uro xe moxno tno cxasart oo mne?
ro npemx xora mart ymepna, x yxe nonnmana, uro ona ne
npocro rax cnpxranact or menx. nomnnna, uro eymxa onro ne-
xan ontno, a norom neonro nexan na crone xonont n nenonnx-
nt. omnnna, uro ero nonoxnnn n rpo n saptnn n semnm. oneuno,
x, xax n nce ern moero nospacra, nectma nnoxo nonnmana, uro sna-
unr ymnpart n nouemy nyxno, urot nmn ymnpann, ecnn moxno
xnrt. o x nomnnna, uro trt xnntm, r. e. nnrartcx, cmexrtcx,
npnnnmart nnmy, nocnrt oexy, nerom rpertcx na connne, a snmo
na neuxe, tmart nosyxom n npou.,- nce +ro nyume, uem trt sapt-
rtm n semnm n nexart n rpoy nenonnxno. o+romy x n ercrne na-
uana oxrtcx raxoro nenonxrnoro n xnsnn xnnennx, r. e. cmeprn.
snana, uro semnx tnaer ouent ctpax, xora nyr oxn, t-
naer ouent rnepo, xora npomepsaer snmo. nor, cnntno oxct
cmeprn, x ne nepnna, uro noxonnxn nce npemx nexar n mornne ne-
nonnxno. ymana, uro eymxa n mornne xax-ro no cnoemy xnner:
on, nanepnoe, uro-nnyt enaer, xax-ro nnraercx no semne, re-ro
rpeercx n axe ecr uro-nnyt. +rom nocnenem npenonoxennn x,
manentxax, aconmrno ne comnenanact, rem onee uro necno ne ront-
xo mt c mamo, no n namn cocen xonnn na xnanme. t nocnnn
n rapenxe cnaxym pnconym xamy c nsmmom, xna, xynnun n npouym
cnet; nce +ro mt crannnn na mornny eymxn, camn enn n pyrnx
yromann. x ymana, uro eymxa nmecre c namn, no rax, urot x
ero ne namna, ecr. et omo mt npnnocnnn nycrym nocyy, nyc-
rym xopsnnxy. , ne snax o rom, uro mart na xnanme ycrpannana
nomnnxn no eymxe n yromana ncex npoxonnmnx mnmo nac, y-
mana, uro eymxa, no-npexnemy ocranaxct nennnmtm, sanpan
nponnsnm n mornny. o nce xe, necmorpx na raxoe nonnmanne n
npecrannenne xnsnn~ eymxn n mornne, x ne xorena nonacrt n
mornny.
Fonesnt, a sarem cmeprt marepn cnntno norpxcnn menx ne ront-
xo noromy, uro x ocranact es nee, no eme n noromy, uro mne tno
ouent xanxo mamy n crpamno sa nee: net ee roxe nonoxnnn n ct-
pym n xononym semnm. yrano menx eme n ro ocroxrentcrno, uro
mart ymepna no npemx ronoa, nauanmerocx na xpanne n xonne
rpaxancxo nont; mt ouent ronoann, cneonarentno, x nnuero
ne morna nonecrn na mornny mamt. romy xe x tna eme ne rontxo
manentxo, no n necamocroxrentno: anexo ona x ne xonna, a n
ne morna es nocroponne nomomn narn mornny mamt.
oxa x xnna y pocrnennnxon, nnxya ne yesxax ns cena, x yxe
uyncrnonana, uro x nopacram, xpenny n xoe n uem mory nomorart re-
rxm. a +ro x nonyuam nnmy,- snaunr, xora-nnyt c ute-nno
nomomtm x noy na mornny mamt necno, nonecy e raxym nponn-
snm, xaxym mt nmecre c ne nocnnn eymxe. naxo +roro nn pasy
ne cnyunnoct, no mart ymepna necno, xora eme tn rono, a na
cneymmym necny x naxonnact anexo or cena, n ropoe, n mxone
cnentx. o x n ram npoonxana ymart o marepn, xorx n mxone mne
yxe tno no rax nnoxo, no xo mne n uyxne nmn ornocnnnct xo-
pomo.
menx tnn pasnte mtcnn o marepn. ee no-npexnemy nmnna
n xanena ocoenno noromy, uro ona nexnr n mornne ona, es menx
n ymaer, uro x es nee xnny xopomo. a +ro ona, trt moxer, cep-
nrcx na menx. r +rnx n noontx nm mtcne x uacro nnaxana, nna-
xana axe rora, xora mne tno xopomo n ne or uero tno nnaxart.
o x ymana, uro nao nnaxart nx roro, urot mart o +rom ysnana
n ne cepnnact na menx sa ro, uro mne tnaer ouent neceno n noome
xopomo.
omnnna x o marepn n rora, xora menx nepenesnn ns mxont
cnentx n pyro ropo, n aptxon, n xnnnnxy cnenornyxonemtx
ere. +ro xnnnnxe menx cpasy oxpyxnnn raxo saoro, raxo
rennoro n nnnmannem, uro nce +ro nnonne morno samennrt yrpauen-
nte saort marepn. naxo n n xnnnnxe x ncera nomnnna o ne, a
xora nacrynana necna, x ouent nepexnnana, uro xnny rax anexo
or namero cena, ne mory norn na mornny marepn, urot nonecrn
nnmy, xoropym x n nmoe npemx morna t nonyunrt n xnnnnxe n
xoropo xnarnno t nx roro, urot noennrtcx c mareptm.
nycrt +ro xenanne nnxomy ne noxaxercx crpanntm: net
mox mart c pannero ercrna npnyuana menx x romy, urot x ncera
c pyrnmn ennnact rem, uro cama nmena. o mno roxe xaxtm
xycouxom ennnnct n mart n eymxa. ora onn nosnpamannct
orxya-nnyt, ro oxsarentno npnnocnnn mne xorx t camt ne-
snaunrentnt rocrnnen. opaxax nm, x roxe necna omo nce,
uro moxno tno necrn n xapmane nnn n uncrom noconom nnarouxe
n oma noennrtcx c mareptm. x nacrontxo x +romy npnntxna,
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uro +ro n xonne xonnon crano nx menx npannnom: x ne nonnmana
roro, uro moxno enart nnaue, uro moxno ono nce ceart.
pnnomnnam raxo cnyua. o npemx ronoa x onaxt, epxa
n pyxax nanouxy, nomna x cnoe spxue n cntmame nopyxxe,
xoropax xnna n cocenem nope. morna xonrt rya ona, npn-
xacaxct nanouxo x saopy. enouxn ne tno oma, a ee mart yca-
nna menx sa cron, nannna rapenxy cyna n ana neontmo xycouex
xnea. o x x xney ne npnxocnynact n xneana rontxo xnxn
cyn. nomnnna, uro oma y nac n +ror ent ne rontxo ne tno
xnea, no axe ne tno nenemex ns xaxoro-ro myunncroro pacre-
nnx. xorx mne ouent xorenoct noecrt cyn c xneom, no x ne ce-
nana +roro, no ne nonnmana, uro nmem npano n rocrxx cecrt xne
n cyn es mamt. t n cyn ne crana ecrt es nee, ecnn t mne
paspemnnn nonecrn ero omo. o necrn cyn n rapenxe x ona ne
cmorna t, no+romy x pemnna cecrt cyn es xnea, a xne cnpx-
rart n xapman nx mamt.
romanmax menx cocexa nnena, uro x ne em xnea, n necxont-
xo pas noxonna xo mne, noxastnax, urot x ena cyn c xneom.
o norom, onxno trt nonxn, nouemy x ne em xne, ona noxasana
mne, uro acr eme xnea, xoropt x mory nonecrn omo. none-
pnna cocexe, cena nce ro, uro ona mne ana, a pyro xycox xnea
x nonecna mame, payxct romy, uro nmem nosmoxnocrt noxopmnrt
ee nemnoxxo.
onyuax n xnnnnxe xopomee nnranne, x, ecrecrnenno, ncnomn-
nana o marepn n ne cpasy npnntxna x raxo npocro mtcnn, uro
marepn yxe anno co mno ner n uro x conepmenno cnoono mory
ceart nce, uro mne amr n xnnnnxe nnn n rocrxx y nopyr nnn
y corpynnxon name xnnnnxn. o menx aconmrno +ro ne pao-
nano, no mne ropaso npnxrnee tno ennrtcx c mamo, ocoenno
uem-nnyt ouent nxycntm.
yxe cxasana o rom, uro n xnnnnxe xo mne nce corpynnxn
ornocnnnct rax xopomo, rax saornnno, uro mne nesauem tno roc-
xonart cnnmxom onro. enept mne xouercx nanncart o rom, xax x
nonnmana ornomenne corpynnxon n nocnnrannnxon xo mne n xax
x cama ornocnnact x rem n pyrnm.
e xopomne tronte n marepnantnte ycnonnx, n xoroptx x
naxonnact n xnnnnxe, mne ouent npannnnct, x rontxo oxnact.uro
menx moryr onxrt xya-nnyt nepenesrn, re mne yer xyxe. e
nonnmart roro, uro menx oxpyxnnn saoro, xopomnm uenoneue-
cxnm ornomennem n trontmn yocrnamn, x ne morna: net nce
+ro x omymana n uyncrnonana na xaxom mary n no ncem. noro
x nc morna nonxrt nexoropoe npemx: sauem menx npnnesnn n +ro
xopomee mecro n uro co mno yyr enart sect?
nnnxno menx n tno nenonxrntm eme n ro ocroxrentcrno,
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uro nac, ere, tno nemnoro, a sannmann mt necxontxo xomnar.
pana, +ro tno xopomo, no naroapx nmenno +romy npocropy
mt ne memann pyr pyry, ne cranxnnannct pyr c pyrom na xax-
om mary, xax +ro tnaer n recnore. xaxoro nocnnrannnxa tn
cno orentnt n onpeenennt yron c nrpymxamn, orentnt
cronnx n cryn, re moxno tno raxxe pacxnatnart nrpymxn nnn
npocro cnoxono nocnert. 3roro x roxe ne nonnmana, no npnntx-
na x romy, uro y spxunx ere, c xoroptmn x nrpana xora-ro, raxnx
orentntx yronxon, orentntx cronnxon, orentntx nrpymex ne
tnano. ne nnora xorenoct npocro noosopnnuart: cmemart nce
nrpymxn nmecre, cnnnyrt cronnxn n cryntx c nx onpeenennoro
mecra. orenoct cenart ecnopxox no ncem +rom crporom n o-
mecra.
VI. IJ-VT " ,
pxxe n n rex cnyuaxx, xora x nouemy-nno cepnnact na xoro-
nnyt ns oxpyxanmnx menx nme, corpynnxon n pexr. et ne
nce onn onnaxono npannnnct mne. nrepecno ro, uro, ecnn x cepn-
nact na pexr, mne ne xorenoct nnocnrt ecnopxox n nx yronox
nnn paspactnart nrpymxn, no ecnn x cepnnact na xoro-nnyt
ns nocnnrarene, ro y menx tnano ontmoe xenanne ne nocny-
martcx nx n uem-nno nnn nayunrt pyrnx pexr uemy-nnyt ra-
xomy, uro ne paspemamr enart crapmne.
pnnomnnam xoe-uro ns roro, uro menx ocoenno ynnnxno
n pacnopxre xnnnnxn nepnoe npemx. ax, nanpnmep, mne tnn
nenonxrnt cneymmne ocroxrentcrna: nouemy nce corpynnxn,
nocnnmne neonnaxonte no ]acony n marepnany nnartx, naenann,
npnxox n xnnnnxy, eme n pyrne nnartx, conepmenno onnaxonte,
pacnaxnnanmnecx cnepen nnn csan. ora corpynnxn pann
ere na sanxrnx n naoparopnm, onn sacrannxnn nx naenart na
xocrmmunxn n nnartx +rn pacnaxnnanmnecx manentxne nnartx.
ne roxe noxasann, urot x naenana raxoe nnarte, xora naxpt-
nana cron, a sarem xora ynpana n mtna nocyy. onxna tna
naenart +ro nnarte n n pyrnx cnyuaxx, nanpnmep xora x exy-
pnna n xaxo-nnyt xomnare, re onxna tna cnenrt sa rem,
urot nce nemn naxonnnct na cnoem onpeenennom mecre, n ntrn-
part ntnt c meenn n nooxonnnxon. ocrnenno ronopx, nnxaxo
ntnn n ecrnnrentnocrn ne tno, no nce xomnart cncremarnue-
cxn n rmarentno ynpann rexnnuxn. o nac npnyuann x nocnntno
yopxe xomnar. menno +ro, r. e. xax t nrpy n yopxy, x onroe
npemx ne nonnmana, no ne omymana ntnn, xora ntrnpana meent,
no+romy mne xasanoct, uro menx sacrannxmr ynpart xomnary
rontxo nx roro, urot x naena +ro nropoe nnarte n nx cocrnen-
noro pasnneuennx repna rpxnouxo nemn, na xoroptx ne tno
ntnn.
e nonnmax roro, uro menx npnyuamr .x camoocnyxnnannm, x
uacro paspaxanact n ne xorena naenart xanar (no +rnm neno-
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nxrntm nnartem tn xanar), snax, uro ntnn nce panno nnre ner
n x nnuem ne sanauxam nnarte. nora x xnarana rpxnouxy n es
xanara exana n xaxym-nnyt xomnary. o exypnax nocnnra-
rentnnna snana menx oparno n sacrannxna naert xanar, nepn-
nnuana n xareropnuecxn orxastnanact ntrnpart ntnt.
naxt x sauem-ro nsopanact na nooxonnnx oxna n crono-
no. axercx, x xorena snart, ntcoxoe nn oxno. ponox nantnamn
no crexny, x onapyxnna xaxym-ro ntnt na nepxnem crexne. 3ro
menx axe opaonano, no na cneymmn ent tno moe exypcr-
no no cronono. c nerepnennem xana cneymmero yrpa, urot
noxasart ncem, xax x onapyxnna ntnt n xax rmarentno x yy
ntrnpart crexna. a +ror pas x yxe oxorno naena xanar, nonx-
sana ronony xoctnouxo, nsxna camym ontmym rpxnouxy n neceno
noexana x oxnam.
sopanmnct na nooxonnnx, npnnxnact +neprnuno npornpart
crexna, ncntrtnax nennuamee nacnaxenne or cosnannx, uro na
+ror pas x rpyxyct nenanpacno. o ncxope xo mne noomna exyp-
nax nocnnrarentnnna n xorx ne pesxo, no nacrounno crana noxa-
stnart, urot x cnesna c nooxonnnxa n ne repna crexna. nnxax
ne xorena pocnrt cnom paory, noxastnax exypno, uro oxno eme
rpxsnoe. naxo exypnax ne nosnonxna mne npoonxart +ry
yopxy n n xonne xonnon nocnana menx ymtrtcx. nnocnecrnnn
x ysnana ns sannce nocnnrarentcxoro xypnana, uro x ntrnpana
ne ntnt, a men, xoroptm tnn nareprt crexna. o n ro npemx,
xora x ymana, uro ntrnpam ntnt, mne ne mornn oxcnnrt, uro
crexna saenent menom, no+romy nce eno xonunnoct xon]nnxrom
mexy mno n nocnnrarentnnne.
on]nnxr tn nectma ceptesntm, rem onee uro x noome
nensnmnna nocnnrarentnnny, xoropax exypnna n ro snononyunoe
yrpo. ensnmnna x +ry nocnnrarentnnny npn nepnom xe snaxom-
crne c nem, no ona tnana pesxa n nnxennxx, crpora c ertmn,
ona ne nosnonxna nam nn maneme manocrn, ne onycxana nn
onoro cnoonoro, camocroxrentnoro nnxennx. cnn xe x naun-
nana xonrt no ncem xomnaram, snaxomxct c ocranonxo, ocmar-
pnnax nemn n npou., +ra nocnnrarentnnna neorcrynno cneonana
sa mno n ne nosnonxna rmarentno ocmarpnnart ro, uro menx nnre-
peconano. ameuax raxoe ornomenne xo mne co cropont +ro nocnn-
rarentnnnt, x rax cnntno nensnmnna ee, uro axe paccrpannanact,
xora ona exypnna. cunrana +ry nocnnrarentnnny sno xenmn-
no, ne ymemme nmnrt ere. eme onroe npemx x ne nmnna
ee, ne xenax sameuart nn cepxanno nacxn, nn oport n ee
ornomennxx x erxm.
rontxo uepes necxontxo ner x nyume ysnana +ry nocnnrarent-
nnny. ecrnnrentnocrn ona nmnna namnx pexr, ornocnnact x
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nnm saornnno n nnnmarentno, no noome tna ouent crpora n npn-
npunna, cunrax, uro rontxo crporocrtm n cyponocrtm moxno no-
epxnnart nopxox n ncnnnnnny. o ona omnanact, n +ro tno
samerno xorx t ns roro, uro ne rontxo x, no n pyrne nocnnran-
nnxn name xnnnnxn ontme nmnnn, ontme cnymannct rex nea-
roron n nocnnrarene, xoropte opamannct c nnmn mxrue, paspe-
mann n mepy nomannrt, noerart, ne nnonne oprannsonanno
nonrpart, npoxnnxx xorx t n +rom cnom ercxym nnnnnarnny.
xe tna ne ouent ycnunna ncnecrnne roro, uro tcrpo nce cxna-
rtnana, a norom rxrornnact, xora nyxno tno ntnonnxrt ono n
ro xe necxontxo pas nopx. a n no mnorom pyrom x nmnna n
xorena trt camocroxrentno n enart nce, uro nosmoxno tno
enart n rex ycnonnxx, n xoroptx x xnna n xnnnnxe.
a, nopo mne tnano nectma rpyno n cmtcne monx nacrpoenn,
noromy uro x ne nce nonnmana ns roro, uro nponcxonno n crenax
xnnnnxn, n paore co cnenornyxonemtmn ertmn noome n n uacr-
nocrn n paore co mno. or, nanpnmep, tnann cnyuan, xora x
uyncrnonana cex, xax mne xasanoct, sopono, a mexy rem menx
nouemy-ro yxnatnann n nocrent, xax ontnym. nyuanoct n naoo-
por: y menx onena ronona nnn ropno, x xorena nexart, no mne noxa-
stnann, uro x sopona n onxna sannmartcx. ouemy xe +ro nponc-
xonno rax? nocnecrnnn x ysnanana, uro nocnnrarenn nocrynann
rax noromy, uro cynnn o moem camouyncrnnn no moemy nnny: ecnn
x tnana nena, yromnena nnn xasanoct, uro x nesopona, no
nouemy-ro ne xouy n +rom cosnartcx. ora xe x ntrnxena nyu-
me, no, necmorpx na +ro, xanonanact na xaxym-nnyt ont, nm
npyr naunnano xasartcx, uro na menx nanana nent, uro x ne xouy
sannmartcx, no+romy npnymana xaxym-ro onesnt.
axne n noonte nm neopasymennx paspaxann menx, no x
ne snana o rom, uro nocnnrarenn cyxr o moem camouyncrnnn no
nnemnemy nny nnn no remneparype, xoropym nam cncremarnuecxn
nsmepxnn na pasa n ent. esnanne nnn nenpannntnoe nonnmanne
nponcxonnmnx noxpyr menx cotrn otuno nnexno sa coo
onee nnn menee ceptesnte nnnnenrt.
cnn x ne omnamct, ro, xaxercx, necxontxo mecxnen nopx
menx npnnonno n neoymenne n axe ceptesno nosmymano cneym-
mee ocroxrentcrno: nocne sanxrn co mno n c pyrnmn ertmn
nearorn cannnct sa cron n xaxo-nnyt xomnare. epe xaxtm
ns nnx nexana roncrax n nepennere rerpat (renept x snam, uro
rerpat), a n pyxe onn epxann xapanamn nnn pyuxn. exoropoe
npemx onn o uem-ro pasronapnnann, a norom naunnann uro-ro sann-
ctnart n cnon rerpan.
Fyyun cnoona nocne sanxrn, x noxonna ro x onomy nea-
rory, ro x pyromy; ocmarpnnana rerpan, xapanamn, pyuxn. nana
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cnom pyxy na nx ropno, urot omymart snyxn nx ronocon. o uro
onn enann? 3ro tno nx menx saraxo. nepnoe npemx x orno-
cnnact x +romy cnoxono, repnennno,-trt moxer, x cunrana, uro
+ro xaxax-ro nrpa, n xoropym nrpamr nspocnte. o rax xax +ro
sanxrne nearoron nonropxnoct nso nx n ent, a oxcnennx emy
x ne naxonna, ro ono nauano menx paspaxart.
nora cnyuanoct rax, uro x concem ne ycranana or sanxrn:
nanpnmep, xora menx yunnn ynpart xomnary, mtrt nocyy, nx-
sart nnn mnrt xaxym-nno menout. ne xorenoct npoonxart sanx-
rnx, a nearor npyr npexpaman +rn sanxrnx, pan cnom roncrym
rerpat n naunnan uro-ro sannctnart. nyrpenne x ouent nosmy-
manact noneennem nearora, xoropt canncx sannmartcx xaxnmn-
ro nenonxrntmn n nenyxntmn, na mo nsrnx, enamn nnn nrpo,
n ro npemx xora x c +nrysnasmom sannmanact, ne ncntrtnax nn
manemero xenannx npepnart sanxrnx nx roro, urot nearor
nrpan, a x nnuero ne enana. et x n ro npemx ne nonnmana, noue-
my menx ne sarpyxann sanxrnxmn nnn ]nsnuecxo paoro na nect
ent. uacro y menx tnana ontmax norpenocrt trt xax moxno
ontme, sanxro. ne snana rora, uro upesmepnax narpysxa moxer
tcrpo yromnxrt nepnnym cncremy, xoropax y nac, cnenornyxone-
mtx, naxonrcx n nocroxnnom n upesmepnom nanpxxennn, a cneo-
narentno, n nepeyromnenne cxastnaercx tcrpee n cnntnee.
rax, ne nonnmax roro, uro nearorn sannctnann n cnon nao-
paropnte xypnant pesyntrart npononmtx co mno sanxrn -
n uem t nn saxnmuannct +rn sanxrnx,- x cunrana, uro nearorn
npocro ne xorxr mnoro sannmartcx co mno. nx roro urot nsa-
nnrtcx or +rnx sanxrn, sannmamrcx uem-ro nenyxntm, nesnaun-
rentntm. nacrontxo rnyoxo x n +ro nepnna, uro nnora mne xore-
noct ornxrt y nearoron xapanamn n pyuxn, nsopnart nx rerpan,
urot onn naxonen nonxnn, uro nao co mno sannmartcx, a ne
pasnnexart cex xapanamamn n rerpaxmn.
uI. .
I FI.
ne yy nopono ocranannnnartcx na camtx otxnonenntx,
noncenenntx n nesnaunrentntx nponcmecrnnxx, xoropte roxe
nnora tnn nonxrt mnom ne rax, xax cneonano t nx nonnmart.
3rn nesnaunrentnte cnyuan uame ncero ornocnnnct x oexe, nocy-
e, x yopxe xomnar n r. n. epey x onee snaunrentntm nx
menx n ro npemx nemam.
pnnomnnam x nepnoe cnoe snaxomcrno co crenntmn uacamn.
oneuno, mne ne nonepxr, ecnn x yy yrnepxart, uro o nocryn-
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nennx n xnnnnxy x noome ne nnena uacon. uact x nnena n na
pyxe y xoro-nnyt ns snaxomtx, n xapmannte uact nnena
y orna, no nnxora ne nnena crenntx uacon es crexna n c neno-
nxrntmn panencxnmn nn]pamn.
ruernnno npnnomnnam, xax onaxt x ntrnpana ony oxo-
nym cropony y]era n npyr, nponex pyxo no crene nnpano or
y]era, x narxnynact na uro-ro nncenmee na crene. nauana x
noymana, uro +ro nncnr epenxnnt xmnx, saxptrt co ncex cro-
pon. nauana ocmarpnnart +ror neontmo xmnx n onapyxnna
na nem xaxne-ro rouxn n pente]nte merannnuecxne pncynxn pas-
nnuno ]opmt. ne merannnuecxne nnnnn nennorno npnnerann
x nonepxnocrn xmnxa n cnonno rnxontxo nepennrannct.
upesntuano sannrepeconanmnct nennanntm xmnxom, x axe
na npemx satna o rom, uro x exypnax no xomnare n onxna nt-
rnpart ntnt, ne nepexnmuax cnoe nnnmanne na pyrne sanxrnx.
o n ror camt momenr, xora x nceneno tna nornomena ocmorpom
npxmtx nnxymnxcx nnnn, xo mne xro-ro npnxocnyncx. cpasy
orepnyna pyxy or xmnxa. xom co mno croxn myxunna,- xax x
norom ysnana, +ro tn npo]. II. . oxonxncxn. n nsxn mom
pyxy, nonoxnn ee na xmnx, -a norom cenan orpnnarentnoe nnxe-
nne. ce +ro on nonropnn necxontxo pas. ce +rn xecrt x nonxna
rax, uro x xmnxy nentsx npnxacartcx pyxamn. a camom xe ene
nan ]anactennu xoren mne noxasart, uro +ro crennte uact n uro
x crpenxam nyxno npnxacartcx ouent ocropoxno.
unrent nauan menennrt cnonmn nantnamn, sacrannxx menx
nonropxrt ero nnxennx. nenonxo uro-ro npoentnana cnonmn
nantnamn, nopaxax yunrenm. n xe ro menennn nantnamn, ro
ocropoxno npononn moe pyxo no pncynxam n nnnnxm xmnxa.
naxo n +ror nepnt ypox c nanom ]anactennuem x ne
nonxna roro, uro on ntrancx mne oxcnnrt. ouent paccrponnact
orroro, uro nnuero ne nonxna. uennno, mo yunrent +ro samernn,
noromy uro ncxope nonpomancx co mno. xe xoe-xax saxonunna
cnoe exypcrno n ymna n cnantnm npeanartcx roptxnm pasmtmne-
nnxm, noromy uro mne noxasanoct, yro yunrent opamancx co
mno ouent crporo.
noome tno na uem noymart. et mne noxastnann uact,
oxcnxnn nn]pt panencxoro n nnocxoro nnctma, a x +roro ne
nonxna. ne noxasanoct, uro yunrent sa uro-ro paccepnncx na
menx n ne nosnonxer mne ocmarpnnart sannrepeconanmn menx
xmnx. unrent yunn menx nponsnocnrt, r. e. npoentnart nantnamn
cnono uact, noxastnan mne, uro nentsx ronxart crpenxn. ro,
uro on menennn nantnamn, x nonxna rax, uro mne noxastnamr
xaxym-ro nrpy nantnamn. rpa +ra mne ne nonpannnact, no yup-
rent sacrannxn nonropxrt +ry nrpy.
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ocne +roro cnyuax x crana ne rontxo crecnxrtcx, no axe
oxrtcx nana ]anactennua, xoroporo uacro ysnanana na paccrox-
nnn no sanaxy yxon. ror yuacrox crent nosne y]era, re nncenn
uact, x crana oxonrt rax, xax yro uact mornn cocxounrt co
crent n noxonornrt menx crpenxamn sa ro, uro x rax neymeno
nx ocmarpnnana n sanrptnana c nnmn nantnamn. o yunrent ne
ocrannn menx n noxoe. n nauan xaxoe yrpo noxonrt xo mne.
n nononn menx x uacam, nacrounno noxastnan na crpenxn n
nn]pt n nrpan nantnamn.
pemx mno, n x c .xaxtm nem npnntxana x yunrenm, nepe-
cranana oxrtcx ero, no nnuero nnoxoro on co mno ne enan.
aoopor, oil noompxmme rnann mom pyxy, xora x nocrenenno
crana npnntxart x nantneno asyxe (axrnnonornn) n yxe xopo-
mo nponsnocnna~ nantnamn cnono uact. orom mt yunnn
nn]pt.
ora x nce +ro ocrarouno ycnonna, yunrent noxasan cnon pyu-
nte uact, norom yxasan na crennte uact. x nonxna, uro nce +rn
nemn - xapmannte, pyunte n crennte uact - nyxno ncera nast-
nart rontxo onnm +rnm cnonom. axonen, nacrynnno npemx, xora
x cnoono morna ysnanart, xoropt uac. ocne +roro nearorn
crann npnyuart menx cnenrt no uacam, ecnn nyxno tno naxpt-
nart cron x nepnomy sanrpaxy, xo nropomy sanrpaxy, x oey, x ne-
uepnemy uam n x yxnny. cnoe exypcrno no cronono x uacro
cmorpena na uact, n, ecnn nacrynano npemx roronnrt cron, x +ro
enana no uacam camocroxrentno, ne oxnax nncrpyxnnn exypno
nocnnrarentnnnt.
ect x ouent xparxo onncana re nepnte ypoxn, naroapx xoro-
ptm y menx nauano ]opmnponartcx n npecrannenne o uacax, o npe-
menn. onxna x raxxe n snauenne pyuno asyxn, +roro nenpenso-
ennoro cnocoa omennx cnenornyxonemtx c oxpyxammnmn
nmtmn.
naxo nerxo mne o +rom nncart renept, no ne rax nerxo n
npocro tno nonxrt nce +ro n ro npemx, o xoropom x nnmy. anpn-
mep, mne ouent rpyno tno nonxrt axrnnonornm, nonxrt, nouemy
xaxax orentnax nantnenax yxna onxna ornnuartcx or pyro
nantneno yxnt. ouemy nyxno tno nponsnonrt ro nnn nnoe
nnxenne nnora rontxo nantnamn, nnora npnannxrt nnxenne
nce xncrn pyxn. ce +ro x ne cpasy nonxna. x nomnm, uro xora
nyxno tno cenart nnxenne nantnamn n npncoennnrt x nnm n
nnxenne xncrn n raxnx yxnax, xax , x, , n, m, n, x ne xorena
enart nnxennx, coornercrnymmne +rnm yxnam, ne nnx n +rom
nnxaxo neoxonmocrn. II rontxo xora x nonxna snauenne nant-
neno asyxn II ycnonna nce yxnt, rora nonxna, nouemy neoxo-
nmo nponsnonrt coornercrnymmne nnxennx nx rex yxn, xoro-
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pte nnauane ne nonpannnnct mne, no +rn nnxennx xasannct mne
sarpynnrentntmn.
renept mne xouercx cxasart necxontxo cnon o rom, xax x osna-
xomnnact c nnctmenntmn npnopamn nx nespxunx: c rpn]enem,
c pyuntm npnopom (panencxo ocxo) n c nnmyme mamnnxo
(nxro~).
omnm, uro x eme n eccxo mxone cnentx nnena nnctmen-
nt npnop anno ycrapenmero n ntmemero ns ynorpenennx
opasna. 3ror npnop cocroxn ns merannnuecxo ocxn c nonepeu-
ntmn xanantnamn, epenxnno pamxn n nyxcrpoueuno nnnexn,
xoropym cneonano nepennrart, xora na ymare tnn yxe nann-
cant ne crpoxn.
aptxoncxo xe xnnnnxe mne noxasann concem pyrne nnct-
mennte npnopt. +rnx npnopax ne tno pamxn n nepennxno
nnnexn. x samenxna xax t xptmxa c xnerouxamn, npnenannax
x nnxne uacrn npnopa. 3rn npnopt nanomnnann mne xaxym-ro
ocoennym n ranncrnennym xnnry. orom mne crano xasartcx, uro
+ro rontxo nepenner xnnrn, n nexoropoe npemx x saymtnanact na
nonpocom: nouemy na xnnre tn merannnuecxn nepenner? axo
xe tna xnnra, nomemanmaxcx n +rom nepennere? cnoxonnact x
rontxo nocne roro, xax mne noxasann, uro n npnop nyxno nxnat-
nart ymary, saxptnart xptmxy, a n xnerouxax npoxantnart rpn-
]enem rouxn rax xe, xax +ro enann nce nespxune, xora nncann
na ntmemnx ns ynorpenennx npnopax.
Fpanencxax xe mamnnxa, xoropym mne noxasann, ouent sann-
repeconana n axe saxnarnna menx. pana, onapyxnn na mamnn-
xe xnannmn, x cnauana noymana, uro +ro manentxn nncrpymenr,
xoropt yer nsanart snyxn, xax ror ontmo poxnt, xoro-
pt x nnena pantme n mxone cnentx. nonpoonana ocropox-
no naxart na ony xnannmy, no cnntnoro npoonxnrentnoro snyxa
x ne omyrnna, nonyunncx rontxo xoporxn cnat cryx. xoropt
cpasy oopnancx. ne noxasann, xax nyxno ncrannxrt ymary n ma-
mnnxy n xax yapxrt no xnannmam, urot na ymare nonyuannct
ntnyxnte rouxn. nonxna, uro +ro ne raxo nncrpymenr, xoropt
ouent snyunr nnyrpn, r. e. ne poxnt. em ne menee mamnnxa mne
ouent npannnact, x noonry ynpaxnxnact na ne, c nnrepecom
cnex sa rem, xax or yapon nantnamn no xnannmam nonyuamrcx na
ymare ncenosmoxnte xomnnannn ntnyxntx rouex. rex nop n
no ce ent x nocroxnno neuaram na mamnnxe n rontxo n pexnx
cnyuaxx nontsymct pyuntm npnopom - panencxo ocxo.
xnnnnxe tno mnoro pasnnuntx neme, xoroptx x pantme
nnre ne nnena, no onn naxonnnct n naoparopnn, xya x eme ne
pemanact saxonrt ona es nearora. yxe nonnmana, uro nentsx
saxonrt n raxne xomnart, re moxno cnyuano cnannrt, cnomart
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nnn pasnrt uro-nno. aro x ne oxnact n nmnna nsyuart ne nno-
maxn na necrnnne: ram croxnn ontmne xomnarnte nnert, a rnan-
noe, ram tnn craryn. o nocrynnennx n xnnnnxy x nnxora ne
nnena nn ontmnx crary, nn manentxnx crary+rox. axe ne
snana o rom, uro raxne nemn cymecrnymr, xorx, xnnx eme n cene,
x nmena nosmoxnocrt nnert ne rontxo pasmouennym rnnny, no a-
xe nennrt xoe-uro ns nee. o net +ro tno ne nnonne ocmtcnen-
noe ercxoe pasnneuenne. ax, pasnnexaxct, x enana ns rnnnt
mapnxn, ynnxn, nnpoxxn, xanaun, napennxn n noome nce ro, uro
moxno tno ynnert y mamt, xora ona nexna uro-nnyt. osnee
x ntranact nennrt xyp, yrox, xopon n nomaox na xpnntx nanouxax,
samenxnmnx nm norn. ocyy x xopomo nennna, no net ns nocyt
nyxno tno xomy-ro xymart, snaunr, nyxnt tnn rnnnxnte ueno-
neuxn. o nmenn nn mon uenoneuxn, xoroptx x nennna no opasy n
noonm cnoemy, xaxoe-nno cxocrno c uenonexom, +ro renept rpy-
no ycranonnrt. xopee ncero mon uenoneuxn tnn noxoxn na rex
rpytx, neorecanntx xamenntx a, xoroptx x norom nnena
n cropnuecxom mysee, n orene pennero naponoro rnopuecrna.
r +rnx xamenntx, nopo nsxrtx c xypranon a mon uenoneuxn
ornnuannct rem, uro onn tnn eme n nnnannamn: rynonnma y nnx
tnn rnnnxnte, a nmecro pyx n nor ropuann nanouxn - xoporxne
n onee nnnnte.
rax, x tna ontmnm npo]anom n ncxyccrne. 3ro x nonxna,
xora nnepnte ynnena nacroxmym cxyntnrypy. 3ro tnn raxne
nennte, raxne npexpacnte mpamopnte n ponsonte- craryn, xaxne
moxno ynnert rontxo n nepnoxnaccntx mysexx.
a cxyntnrypa, xoropax nmenact n xnnnnxe, uacrnuno yxe onn-
cana mno panee, no+romy sect x ne yy onnctnart xaxym cra-
rym n orentnocrn. o x cunram nenecoopasntm paccxasart o rom,
xax x ornocnnact x xaxo crarye. ora mne nnepnte noxasann
craryn, x ouent ynnnnact +romy n saxorena ysnart, nx uero tnn
cenant ns uero-ro xononoro nexnnte nmn. o n ro npemx mne
eme ne mornn oxcnnrt, uro raxoe ncxyccrno n nx uero ono cyme-
crnyer. ne npocro noxastnann craryn, n x ysnanana, uro onn nso-
paxamr nme. annrepeconanmnct craryxmn, x uacro xonna na
nnomaxn necrnnnt n onro n nnnmarentno nsyuana xaxym. o
ornocnnact x x +rnm craryxm neonnaxono.
rarym mantunxa, ntnnmammero ns norn sanosy, x ouent xa-
nena n axe nonmnna sa xpacory, xoropym xorx n ne morna oxc-
nnrt cnonamn, no rem ne menee nocnpnnnmana nantnamn. cmarpn-
nax mantunxa, x nnora satnana o rom, uro +ro craryx: x rnanna
ero ro no nnny. ro no rononxe nourn c raxo xe nexnocrtm, xax
ecnn t +ro tn xnno mantunx, y xoroporo ecrnnrentno n nore
sanosa n xoropomy or +roro ontno.
30S
axas 813
enepy nnoccxym x roxe xanena sa ro, uro y nee ne tno pyx;
ona mne roxe xasanact xpacnno n rpycrno, x ee nmnna, no nmn-
na nnaue, ne rax, xax mantunxa. ocnpnnnmax nnnnn xpacnnoro, no
crpororo, samxnyroro n neyntammerocx nnna, x oxnact nornanrt
enepy nnoccxym, mne xasanoct, uro ecnn naxonmtcx nosne nee,
ro nyxno xpenxo cxart ryt, nyxno monuart n nnuem ne npoxnnxrt
nmont n xanocrt x +ro nexnno espyxo xenmnne, urot ona
ne paccepnnact na menx. x co nsoxom orxonna or craryn,
ne ncntrtnax nexnocrn, a rontxo nenonxrnym rpycrt n neoy-
menne.
enepy ennecxym x ouent uacro ocmarpnnana, n ecnn t
morna rora nonxrt cnon uyncrna n ntpasnrt nx cnonamn, ro, nanep-
noe, cxasana t cneymmee: ecmorpx na cnon orpouecxne rot,
x uyncrnonana xaxo-ro oxptnxmmn nocropr, necente n cmenocrt,
xora omymana, xax yntaercx n n xaxo nose cronr enepa en-
necxax~.
pnnomnnam, uro x nnora crannna rayper pxom c xpyrno
rymo, na xoropo nosntmanact npexpacnax n xoxernnnax ornnx
nmnn n xpacort (xoneuno, x rax ntpaxamct rontxo renept).
cranonnnact na rayper n naunnana nopaxart yntxe n nose cra-
ryn. e snam, nnenn nn menx sa raxnm sanxrnem nearorn, no nom-
nm, uro onaxt na menx narxnyncx crapmn mantunx ns nocnnran-
nnxon xnnnnxn. ro npemx x yxe snana nantnenym asyxy, snana,
xax nastnaercx xaxax craryx.
3ror crapmn mantunx roxe nnora ocmarpnnan craryn, nnn
onn, nnn nmecre co mno, no xax on nce +ro nonnman n xax orno-
cnncx x craryxm, +roro x ne snam. arxnynmnct na menx nosne
enept ennecxo, mantunx nauan ocmarpnnart noouepeno ro
menx, ro enepy. o-nnnmomy, on tn ouent ynnnen, xorx menx
on ysnan n cxasan nx~, yxastnax na menx. o x cenana orpnna-
rentnt xecr pyxo n yxasana emy na enepy. n ornernn mne:
enepa~. noxasana na cex. n cnona cxasan: nx~.
ne snana roro, uro mantunx ne nomer moe myrxn, ne ymana,
uro on mne nonepnr, no+romy saxorena esonno nomannrt. noxa-
sana mantunxy na enepy n cxasana, uro ee sonyr nx~, a norom no-
xasana na cex n cxasana: enepa~. antunx nocnymno nonropnn
nce ro, uro x emy cxasana, n, x moemy nsymnennm n yxacy, cpasy cor-
nacnncx nastnart enepy ne, a menx enepo. crapanact xecra-
mn II nexoroptmn cnonamn oxcnnrt mantunxy, uro x nomannna,
no oil nacrounno nonropxn, yxastnax na crarym: nx~, a norom
na menx: enepa~. ne xasanoct, uro mantunx uem-ro ouent ono-
nen, on axe npomancx co mno sa pyxy, necmorpx na ro uro mt
mornn eme nc onaxt ncrpernrtcx n n ror xe ent nnnsy n omnx
xomnarax.

eme nexoropoe npemx cnycrx +ror onepunnt mantunx npo-

onxan nastnart menx enepo, a crarym monm nmenem.
o npemenem x axe nauana npnntxart x +romy nonomy nmenn.
roxe myrx, xomy-ro ns nearoron nnn nocnnrarene cxasana,
urot menx nastnann enepo. o, xax x ysnana nnocnecrnnn,
ror, xomy x +ro cxasana, roxe ne nonxn moe myrxn. ce nearorn
noymann, uro x cex roxe cunram enepo. nn coxanenn o rom,
uro noxa ne moryr oxcnnrt mne, uro raxoe cxyntnrypa, uro
raxoe enepa.
nosne ceptesnoro, ortxammero epmeca x ncera crapanact
croxrt rnxo n roxe o uem-nnyt ymart. menx ne xnnxnoct xe-
nannx ysnart, o uem on ymaer, mne axe tno nemnoro cxyuno
croxrt nosne epmeca rax rnxo n enart ycnnne na coo, urot
o uem-nnyt ymart. o ecnn t x rora nmena nexoropte nosna-
nnx n mn]onornn, ro, nanepnoe, ne crana t rnxo n saymunno
croxrt nosne epmeca. Ftrt moxer, x nontranact t npnymart
xaxym-nnyt manocrt, urot nepexnrpnrt camoro epmeca!..
unopenrncxnx opnon~ x axe oxnact, xora npnxacanact
x nx momntm mycxynam, a roro opna, xoropt nexan noneprny-
rtm, x xanena. o noome +ra cxyntnrypa xax yro nyrana menx,
n nosne nee x naonro ne saepxnnanact.
naxo ne rontxo nepnoe npemx cnoero npetnannx n xnnnnxe
x ocmarpnnana cxyntnrypy. er, x nnxora ne ycranana nmonartcx
uyecntmn craryxmn, a snaunrentno nosnee, xora x yxe unrana
ceptesnte xnnrn, mne unrann ns cropnn ncxyccrna~ onncanne
rouno raxnx xe crary, xaxne tnn n name xnnnnxe. cnymax
+rn onncannx, x cpannnnana cnon cocrnennte nocnpnxrnx cxyntn-
rypt n nnena, uro x mnoroe nonnmana n nomeuana npannntno,
xora nauana nsyuart +rn craryn.
o nce nepoxrnocrn, npo]. . . oxonxncxn n nearorn same-
rnnn, uro x ne rontxo mory ornnuart ono cxyntnrypnoe nponsne-
enne or pyroro, no raxxe mory nocnpnnnmart nx coepxanne,
ocronncrna n neocrarxn. o mno crann xonrt n mysen n na pas-
nnunte ntcranxn, a xora npoexrnponancx namxrnnx . . Ben-
uenxo n aptxone, nam npo]eccop cam xonn co mno na +ry
ntcranxy, re x nnepnte ocmarpnnana nennxoro yxpanncxoro no+ra
n pasnnuntx nosax, a raxxe nnena crary+rxn, nsopaxanmne rnan-
ntx repoen ns ero no+m. omnm, uro y menx cnpamnnann corpy-
nnxn ntcranxn, uro mne ontme ncero npannrcx ns +rnx opasnon.
yxastnana na re ]nrypt, xoropte mne ontme npannnnct, n, ecnn
mne renept ne nsmenxer namxrt, x yxastnana npannntno.
axnm opasom, nocnpnnnmart cxyntnrypy n nonnmart ee coep-
xanne x nauana pantme, uem crana nsyuart ncropnm ncxyccrn.
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uu
yxe ynomnnana o rom, uro ncera nmnna ntnonnxrt nones-
nt n nocnntnt nx menx rpy. ycrt +ro tn camt manentxn,
camt nesnaunrentnt rpy, no x ntnonnxna ero c ontmo oxo-
ro n tnana ouent onontna, ecnn mne yananoct cenart xax
moxno ontme, xax moxno nyume.
axoxct n xnnnnxe n npexpacntx trontx n marepnantntx
ycnonnxx, x necxontxo rxrornnact rem, uro mne ne npnxonrcx nt-
nonnxrt nnuero ceptesnoro n nn n uem nomorart pyrnm. no-
nnmana, nanpnmep, uro rexnnuxn ynpamr xomnart nx nac, uro n
xyxne nonapnxa roronnr nnmy nx nac, uro noprnnxa mter ente
n nnartx nx nac, uro nocnnrarenn n nearorn ocnyxnnamr n oy-
uamr nac n r. . x? uro enam x? m, cnnm, sannmamct, rynxm,
nrpam. o, uro x nnora mtna nocyy, ntrnpana ntnt c uncro me-
enn n crennna cnom nocrent, ne yonnernopxno menx, no na nce
+ro x sarpaunnana +neprnn nectma nemnoro. x uacro paspaxanact
orroro, uro ne ntnonnxna onee rpyno paort. o y nac n xnn-
nnxe raxo paort ne tno, a urot x ne nepnnnuana, mne paspe-
mnnn xonrt n macrepcxne mxont cnentx.
nor n ono npexpacnoe yr"po cpasy xe nocne sanrpaxa c ont-
mnm oxnnnennem naenam xanar, xoropt mne cmnnn cnennantno
nx macrepcxo, n n conponoxennn nocnnrarentnnnt ny n me-
rounym macrepcxym. anepnoe, no nce +ro ontmo mxone ne
tno n +ro yrpo onee cuacrnnnoro uenonexa, uem x. opo n yne-
penno ronana xanyuxamn ornnox, npoxox no nnnnomy xopn-
opy mxont. o nce nepoxrnocrn, x rora noopaxana, uro nx
menx naunnaercx uro-ro neotxnonennoe n raxoe, or uero x nnxora
ne ycrany, nnxora ne oropnyct, yy paorart ne rontxo nem, no
n noutm...
nepnt xe ypox x es rpya nonxna, xax nyxno enart merxn
nx uncrxn oynn. o x eme ne snana ro npocro, no n ro xe npemx
mypo ncrnnt, uro nonxrt- +ro ono, a ntnonnnrt- +ro
neuro concem pyroe. pana, enart merxn mne tno ne ouent
rpyno, no ea saxnmuanact n rom, uro x ouent crapanact noxasart
ncem, xax tcrpo x nce nonnmana n opoconecrno ntnonnxna pa-
ory. ymam, uro x ne crpemnnact noxasart cex nyume yuennne
macrepcxo, no x xorena xopomo paorart, n +ro tna ecrecrnennax
norpenocrt ne trt xyxe pyrnx, ne orcranart or pyrnx. naxo
+rn crapannx paorart napanne co ncemn c nepnoro xe nx, npe-
xe uem x no-nacroxmemy onnaena pemecnom, nenaronpnxrno or-
paxannct na marepnane n xauecrne nponsnonmo mno npo-
yxnnn.
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yxn y menx tnn cnntnte n +neprnunte, no+romy, xora x
ncrannxna nyuox mernnt n ornepcrne xonoxn, a sarem tcrptm
ptnxom sarxrnnana npononoxo, nyuox mernnt nnora npocont-
nancx uepes ornepcrne na pyrym cropony xonoxn, n mne npnxon-
noct oparno nteprnnart ero, urot cpannxrt cenannte pxt.
o eme uame cnyuanoct rax, uro x ouent cnntno narxrnnana npo-
nonoxy n ona pnanact. ora mne npnxonnoct enart ysnt na npo-
nonoxe. opoue ronopx, uepes nexoropoe npemx x oxonuarentno
pasouaponanact n merounom pemecne, or xoroporo y menx yxymn-
noct ocxsanne na xonunxax nantnen, a na xoxe tnn napannnt or
xonnon npononoxn, xoropym x cnxstnana, xora ona pasptnanact.
axonen x orxasanact xonrt n merounym macrepcxym, n menx ne-
penenn n pyxoentnt xnacc, re mne ne npnxonnoct ntnonnxrt
ne noxonnmym nx monx pyx paory,
pyxoentnom xnacce mne npexe ncero ann ocmorpert pyxamn
nce ro, uemy ram yunnn nespxunx enouex. coxanennm, n ro anno
npomemee npemx yunnn nectma nemnoromy: enouxn yunnnct mnrt
pyxamn, nxsart na cnnnax n xpmuxom, mnrt na mneno mamnne,
nxsart xamne n uynxn na uynouno mamnne, nnecrn cymxn ns mna-
rara, nnecrn ramaxn.
pyxoentnom xnacce x npexe ncero saxorena nayunrtcx nx-
sart uynxn na uynouno mamnne n mnrt na mamnne. Bnrt pyxamn
x yxe ymena, noromy uro eme y marepn x nayunnact mnrt napxt
xyxnam. xsannm xpmuxom n na cnnnax x roxe yunnact n xnacce
n tcrpo nce nonnmana, no y menx ne xnarano repnennx uepecuyp
mexannuecxn ntnonnxrt +ry paory a eme cnenrt sa rem, urot
nno pas ne cnycrnrt nernm. ymxn ns mnarara n axe ramaxn x
roxe nayunnact enart, n, xaxercx, nectma neypno, no nocnnra-
renxm n nearoram npannnnct cenannte mno cymxn, mne axe
crann npnnocnrt saxast, r. e. xro-nnyt npnnocnn ns oma mnarar
n npocnn menx cnxsart cymxy. a paory mne nnarnnn entramn n
xonnn co mno n marasnn, urot x cama morna xynnrt uro-nnyt.
3ro mne ouent npannnoct, rem onee uro +ro noompxno moe xenanne
paorart n trt nonesno pyrnm.
naxo, necmorpx na ro uro x es ocooro rpya n ycnnn yun-
nact ntmeyxasannomy pyxoennm, ono menx rontxo npemenno yn-
nexano, no ecnn x onro sannmanact rem nnn pyrnm nxsannem,
y menx nouemy-ro uacro pasannnanact ronona, a nnora mne ena-
noct concem nnoxo. +romy ouent ynnnxnact, rax xax ne nonn-
mana, uro menx npocro yromnxer raxax onoopasnax mexannuecxax
paora, or xoropo menx nnuero ne ornnexano, net x ne nonyuana
nn spnrentntx, nn cnyxontx nneuarnenn, na xoropte morna t
nepexnmuartcx xorx t na necxontxo mnnyr. ymana, uro cranon-
nmct ontno, xora mnoro mtm nnn nxxy. ocrenenno x sapact-
nana pyxoenne n ontme nnrepeconanact sanxrnxmn, xoropte ne
tnn cront yromnrentnt.
ax, nanpnmep, x nonmnna nennrt uro-nnyt ns nnacrnnnna
n sameuana, uro +rn sanxrnx ne rax tcrpo yromnxmr menx. 3ro
nnonne nonxrno: mox mtcnt rnopuecxn paorana na rem, uro n xax
cneyer cenart. o npexe uem nauart nennrt ror nnn nno npe-
mer, x onxna tna npnnomnnart nce erann roro npemera, c xo-
roporo x cnnmana xonnm. cnn x, nanpnmep, xorena ntnennrt ua-
nnx nnn xopsnnxy c ]pyxramn, x cnauana onxna tna ocmorpert
+rn nemn, norom oronnnyrt nx n na paccroxnnn npecrannrt ua-
nnx, xoropt x xax yro eme ocmarpnnam pyxamn n nnxy ero.
ouno raxo xe mtcnnrentnt nponecc nponcxonn n moem mosry,
xora x xorena ntnennrt xopsnny c ]pyxramn. noopaxana, uro
ocmarpnnam xopsnnxy, omymam nantnamn nce ee erann, a sarem
omymam ]pyxrt - xnoxn, rpymn, cnnnt, xoroptmn mtcnenno na-
nonnxm xopsnnxy.
ce +ro tno nx menx ouent nnrepecno n concem neyromn-
rentno, no paorana mtcnt, opas onoro npemera nocneona-
rentno cmenxncx opasom pyroro npemera. 3ro yxe tnn sapo-
tmn anannsa n cnnresa, nectma cnoeopasnoro rnopuecxoro npo-
necca, xax cnecrnnx moero opasnoro mtmnennx n raxrnntnoro
nocnpnxrnx.
o ne rontxo raxne sanxrnx, npn xoroptx ontme paorana
mtcnt, mentme yromnxnn menx, uem pyxoenne, no axe raxo ]n-
snuecxn rpy, xax crnpxa, yopxa xomnart, npnroronnenne nnmn
n r. n., npannncx mne ontme, tn nx menx nerue ncxxoro nxsannx
n ntmnnannx. nosnee, xora x nauana yunrtcx nnctmy, urennm,
peun, sannmartcx no omeopasonarentntm npemeram, x oxonua-
rentno nonxna, uro nx menx pyxoenne cxopee npeno, uem no-
nesno: no npemx pyxoennx y menx xax yro npnrynnxnnct mtcnn,
cnaena namxrt, norom noxnnxnoct ]nsnuecxoe omymenne xaxoro-
ro noxantnannx n nerxoro mexorannx no xoxe nnna n ronont, na-
xonen, naunnanact cnaocrt n pyxn eccnntno onycxannct. mcrnen-
nt xe rpy yromnxn menx snaunrentno mentme: mon mtcnn
nacrontxo npoxcnxnnct, uro mne xasanoct, yro x ]nsnuecxn omy-
mam +ro npoxcnenne, namxrt cranonnnact nyume, noxnnxnoct xo-
pomee nacrpoenne n xenanne noontme sannmartcx ymcrnenno, no-
ontme ysnanart o rom, uero x eme ne snam.
Fnaroapx ncem +rnm omymennxm x naunnana nonnmart, xaxo
rpy nx menx onee ocrynen n nonesen. x romy, uro mne tno
nyxno, uero rpeonann mon ymcrnennte sanpoct, x ynopno n ne-
yxnonno crpemnnact, ne ycnoxannaxct n ne ocranannnnaxct na cnonx
ocrnxennxx. ce +ro nponcxonno co mno ne n nepnt ro moero
npetnannx n oyuennx n xnnnnxe, a n reuenne nenoro pxa ner.
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u . u.
erxo n cxopo cxasxa cxastnaercx, no ne rax-ro npocro n nerxo
nce nponcxonno n moe xnsnn no npemx moero npetnannx n xnn-
nnxe. poxonn ro sa room, n neespesyntrarno nx menx.
yxe sannmanact omeopasonarentntmn npemeramn no nporpam-
mam cnennantntx mxon. unrana xyoxecrnennym nnreparypy, nont-
syxct xnnramn ns nnnorexn mxont cnentx. s omeopasona-
rentntx npemeron mne ocoenno npannnnct reorpa]nx, ncropnx,
ecrecrnosnanne, soonornx n orannxa; nnrepecno tno unrart xpe-
cromarnm no nnreparype, nncart nepenoxennx n sayunnart crnxn.
a +rnx sanxrnxx, xax n n rpyonom xnacce, x raxxe crapanact xo-
pomo snart ypoxn. enx ne yonnernopxno ro, uro x nonnmam co-
epxanne saannoro mne na om ypoxa, no+romy x ntyunnana na-
nsycrt, cnono sa cnonom, necxontxo crpannn no ncropnn, reorpa]nn,
ecrecrnosnannm. npenonarana, uro mon yunrenx yyr +romy
pat, noxnanxr menx sa ro, uro x rax xopomo ntyunnam ypoxn. a
camom xe ene menx xnannnn rontxo sa xopomym namxrt, no ne
ncera nepnnn n ro, uro x nonnmana coepxanne ntyuennoro na-
nsycrt rexcra.
ocne roro xax x nepecxastnana ntyuennoe nansycrt, mne na-
unnann cnona saanart nonpoct n rpeonann, urot x nce oxc-
nxna cnonmn cnonamn, a ne exnamnponana, xax crnxn. o x ne no-
nnmana, nouemy yunrentnnna comnenaercx n rom, uro x ntyunna
ypox. ne cnona n cnona oxcnxnn, uro nyxno ronopnrt cnonmn
cnonamn. naxo xax xe x morna rax mnoro oxcnxrt cnonmn cno-
namn, ecnn mne nerue tno paccxasart ntyuennt nansycrt rexcr,
uem npnnomnnart ntyuennte cnona n ]past n cunrart nx cnonmn
cnonamn? 3rn cnona n ]past x ne ncera tcrpo npnnomnnana, ne
ncera npannntno npnmenxna nx n cmtcnonom snauennn. o ecnn. x
sayunnana rexcr, mne xasanoct, uro x nonnmam n cnona, n coepxa-
nne. ouemy xe yunrentnnna ne nepnna mne? 3roro x ne nonnmana
n nnora ouent onxanact na cnonx yunrene. onn, xoneuno, no-
cnoemy tnn npant, rontxo x necxopo +ro nonxna. o nocxontxy or
menx rpeonann anart oxcnennx cnonmn cnonamn, x onxna tna
nounnnrtcx +romy rpeonannm, onxna tna o npounrannom ro-
nopnrt ycrno n nsnarart nnctmenno cnonmn cnonamn. ce +ro npn-
neno x romy, uro x onaxt nanncana cno paccxas. nyunnoct
+ro rax.
a ypoxe pyccxo nnreparypt yunrentnnna npounrana mne ns
xnnrn nx spxunx onn paccxas no nasnannem nntnee cnon~
(ceuac x aconmrno ne nomnm ]amnnnn anropa). ocne urennx
yunrentnnna eme pas cnonmn cnonamn oxcnnna mne coepxanne
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paccxasa, ocoo xommenrnpyx re mecra, xoropte x cnao ycnonna.
axonen x nonxna paccxas, n yunrentnnna ana mne saanne nann-
cart nepenoxenne +roro paccxasa oma, npnnomnnax paccxas, no ne
nmex nosmoxnocrn nepeunrart ero camocroxrentno. ouent crapa-
nact ntnonnnrt saanne: x nncana nent neuep n axe noutm, ayr-
pom na ypoxe x c ropocrtm noxasana yunrentnnne rerpat c ne-
penoxennem~.
ora yunrentnnna npounrana paccxas n nauana co mno rono-
pnrt, x cpasy nouyncrnonana, uro x uro-ro ne rax cenana. ecrnn-
rentno, yunrentnnna cxasana, uro x nanncana xopomo, rpamorno,
c npannntntm npnmenennem cnon, no... x nanncana cno paccxas,
no coepxannm noxoxn na ror, xoropt mne npounran naxanyne.
npounrannom mne paccxase ronopnnoct o crapnxe, xoropt
paoran na sanoe n ouent rxxentx ycnonnxx n ouent crpaan or
naxauno ntnn. euac x yxe ne nomnm, uem xonuancx +ror pac-
cxas, no, xaxercx, n xonne crapnx nornaer. xe nanncana paccxas
roxe o crapnxe, xoropt npn napcxom pexnme paoran n yrontntx
xonxx, pexo nonnmancx na nonepxnocrt semnn n naxonen norn -
nnn no npemx onana n xonxx, nnn na paoue emoncrpannn tn
ynr xasaxamn - +ro x ceuac roxe rouno ne nomnm.
oepxanne nx cnoero paccxasa x nouepnnyna, pasymeercx, ns
ncropnn. Fnaroapx omnxe, r. e. romy, uro x nenpannntno nonxna
yunrentnnny, xora ona anana mne saanne nanncart nepenoxenne
paccxasa, ntxcnnnoct npyr, uro x ne rontxo mory ntpaxartcx
cnonmn cnonamn, no axe mory nanncart cno paccxas, nopaxax
romy, uro mne unramr nnn x cama unram. 3ro tno ouent naxnoe
orxptrne n nx nearoron, n nx menx, no ns +roro ntrexan ror
]axr, uro x yxe nncrnnxrnnno naunnam namyntnart nyrt ymcrnen-
noro rpya,
ocne +roro conepmenno cnyuanoro nanncannx nspnoro pac-
cxasa x yxe cncremarnuecxn crpemnnact noontme nncart. uro
nncart? nauane +ro tno nourn necymecrnenno, no rnanntm tno
ro, uro noxnnnoct xenanne nncart, a nncart moxno tno xorx t
o rom, uro x nanmana n oxpyxanme menx noncenenno xnsnn.
oxno tno raxxe xparxo nsnarart npounrannte xnnrn n r. .
on yunrenx ouent noompxnn moe xenanne noontme unrart n
nncart, xorx snann, uro x eme mnororo ne nonnmam ns roro, uro un-
ram. n cama uyncrnonana, uro ne ncera npannntno nonnmana npo-
unrannoe, no x opamanact sa oxcnennxmn rontxo n rex cnyuaxx,
xora nnuero ne morna npnymart cama, r. o. ne naxonna nnxaxoro
npannntnoro n nenpannntnoro, no rem ne menee camo-
croxrentnoro oxcnennx. onepmenno rax xe x nocrynana n n rex
cnyuaxx, xora ne nonnmana nontx cnon: cnauana x ntranact camo-
croxrentno nonxrt snauenne nesnaxomtx mne cnon, a ecnn mne +ro
ne yananoct, rora x opamanact x yunrenxm sa oxcnennem. o-
neuno, x nonyuana camte ncuepntnammne oxcnennx n yxasannx.
Ftnano n rax, uro x naunnana ynorpenxrt cnona, xoropte ne
concem nonnmana. asymeercx, x ceuac ne mory npnnomnnrt nce
re mnorouncnennte cnona, xoropte nenpannntno npnmenxna,-
net +rnx cnon tno rax mnoro! o xoe-uro x n ceuac nomnm.
ro npemx xora x yunnact, n nnnorexe mxont cnentx no-
ntx xnnr nx mnamnx ere nourn ne tno. ne npnxonnoct un-
rart rontxo ro, uro nmenoct n nnnorexe. unrana x neontmne pac-
cxasnxn n cxasxn ns syxn~ . . oncroro, onoe cnono~
mnncxoro n cxasxn yxoncxoro, ymxnna, cxasxn nepcena,
cxapa anta uacrnnnt npnnn~, acnn ptnona n mnoro py-
rnx paccxason nx pexr.
neyer cxasart, uro n ercrne x mnoroe ns npounrannoro no-
nnmana yxnantno, a ne n nepenocnom cmtcne n ymana, uro n xnsnn
nce tnaer rax, xax paccxastnaercx n cxasxax nnn n acnxx. mne
ouent xorenoct, urot co mno roxe nponsomno uro-nnyt sann-
marentnoe, neotxnonennoe, xax +ro nponcxonr n cxasxax. a-
npnmep, xora x unrana cxasxy pacnax Banouxa~, mne ouent xo-
renoct trt na mecre +ro enouxn. noopaxana, xax t x cex
nena c ceptm nonxom...
xasxn yxoncxoro, ymxnna n nepcena roxe ocrannxnn
mne nemano nepexnnann: x ro paonanact, xora repon n reponnn
oxastnannct noenrenxmn, ro oropuanact n cnxsn c nx neyauamn
n axe nnaxana. omnm, uro x ouent nnaxana nocne npourennx
cxasxn nepcena enouxa co cnnuxamn~, mne xanxo tno sameps-
mym enouxy. ne ouent xorenoct noennrtcx c nem n renno
oexo, n ncem npounm, uro x nmena.
a crapyxy ptauxy ns cxasxn ymxnna x cepnnact sa ee
xanocrt, a norom paonanact, uro n xonne cxasxn ona onxrt cnnr
nepe pasnrtm xoptrom. ax e n nao! anax axa~,- y-
mana x. ocne npourennx uacrnnnoro npnnna~ mne tno ouent
rpycrno n nourn ne xorenoct nnuero enart nx cex. poonana
x unrart ycnana n mmnny~, no +ro tno npexenpemenno, no
x mano uro nonxna. moem noopaxennn oxasannct ne mmnnt,
necxontxo ycnanon n necxontxo uapoeen. pana, x nnxomy ne
cxasana o +rom, a cnona npounrana ycnana n mmnny~ n raxoe
npemx, xora yxe npannntno morna nonxrt aro npexpacnoe npons-
neenne. Ftna x xpane ynnnena rem, uro mmnna tna rontxo
ona, ycnan onn, uapoe roxe onn. ya xe enannct ocrant-
nte ycnant, uapoen n pyrax mmnna? eyxenn nepnt pas x
unrana pyroe nponsneenne no rem xe nasnannem?
pemx mno, n x sanoem unrana nce, n nonxrnoe, n ne concem no-
nxrnoe. acrynnno npemx, xora x yxe morna unrart nnonne ocmtc-
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nenno nxnny xn oma~ Fnuep-roy, paccxast oronx out
nepe poxecrnom~, acxax nout~, axononannoe mecro~.
ro, uro onnctnanoct n paccxasax oronx, x nnonne n ouent
ceptesno nepnna, rem onee uro x nepnte rot cnoe xnsnn npo-
nena yxpanncxom cene, snana, xax mart n cocen roronnnnct x
snmnnm npasnnxam. nepnna, uro xysnen axyna ecrnnrentno
xya-ro neran sa uepennuxamn nx xcant, rontxo y menx cnona
oxasannct ne napnnt xarepnnt: ona ns nnx npocro xaxax-ro
napnna, xoropym nnxora nnxro ne nnen, a pyrax - opax, ncem
ocrynnax xenmnna, xoropax apnr xysneny uepennuxn nx nmn-
mo nm enymxn.
acxym nout~ x roxe nonxna no-cnoemy: nonepnna n cyme-
crnonanne mauexn-netmt n ouent oxnact, urot necno ne nnesna
xo mne n oxno noutm raxax xe mauexa-netma, a xnnn mt na nep-
nom +raxe, n mox xponart croxna nosne nyx oxon, ntxonnmnx
n ca. ora xe x npounrana nonecrt n~, ro conepmenno yrpa-
rnna ncxxoe cnoxocrnne n xpapocrt, xorx noome tna cmenax
enouxa n ne ncex sntx yxon~ oxnact.
ora x nnepnte unrana nxnny xn oma~, ro, xaxercx,
ne nce nonnmana xax cneyer, no ro, uro x nonnmana, rnyoxo rpo-
rano n nonnonano menx. ne nonnmana, uem xe rax nnoxn nerpt,
nouemy x nnm rax nnoxo ornocxrcx ente. ox ouent xanena
ncex +rnx xopomnx uepntx, ouent nnaxana, unrax, xax nx npo-
anann, pasnyuax c cemtxmn, c pystxmn, c ponno. rnyoxo
nenannena rex entx, xoropte ocoenno xecroxo opamannct c
nerpamn, n mne xasanoct, uro y menx xnarnno t cmenocrn n cnnt
nonrt rex, xro nn nerpon...
o mepe roro xax x cranonnnact crapme n pocna n nnrennexry-
antnom ornomennn, x unrana nce onee n onee ceptesnte xnnrn,
r. e. raxne, xoropte coornercrnonann moemy nospacry n ymcrnennomy
pasnnrnm. oneuno, n n nnx x ne ncera aconmrno nce nonnmana,
no +ro ne ocranannnnano menx n" ne ymanxno moe nmnn x xnnram.
et uem ontme x unrana, rem nyume nonnmana ro, uro tno neno-
nxrno pantme.
o n npn urennn nonecre nx crapmero nospacra, a sarem po-
manon x onro ne morna orenartcx or cnoe ercxo npnntuxn
crannrt cex na mecro rex, o xom x unram. x ne rontxo crannna
cex na nx mecro, no raxxe npoonxana npnymtnart nx cex
nonoe coepxanne nonecrn nnn pomana yxe nocne roro, xax xnnra
tna npounrana.
nacrontxo xnno npecrannxna n xcno nonnmana mnoroe ns
npounrannoro, uro nnena nce +ro no cne, a no cne nce nponcxonno
rax neotuano, rax npanonoono, uro, npoctnaxct nocne cnonn-
enn, x ne cpasy morna nonxrt, ecrnnrentno nn +ro tnn rontxo
cnonnennx, nnn xe co mno nponcxonnn naxny raxne xe cotrnx,
xaxne onnctnannct n xnnrax.
ax, n onom cnonnennn x tna noxoxa na amy poexypony;
n cnernym nynnym nout x oxnana n cay yponcxoro n on npn-
men n tn neotuano noxox na roro yponcxoro, xoroporo rax
xopomo onncan ymxnn. pyrom cnonnennn x tna o]te ns
eopocnx~ uonnnsnna n oruaxnno ornnanact or nanaanmnx
na menx rocnoxn pocraxono n pemeennt. ocne urennx ncro-
pnuecxnx pomanon onontena n oponnena x ne onaxt no cne
nepexnnana re ncropnuecxne cotrnx, xoropte onnctnamr +rn nn-
carenn n cnonx nponsneennxx. nocne urennx Fopnca oynona~
x nnena no cne, xax napt Fopnc cocrnennopyuno sapesan manent-
xoro napennua nmnrpnx...
Ftno mnoro n pyrnx cnonnenn n cnxsn c urennem xnnr. no-
mnnam o +rom noromy, uro onn narnxno noxastnamr, xax x ne
rontxo nmnna unrart, no nmnna n ]anrasnponart, a +ro no-
rnepxano ror ]axr, uro x nce nyume n rnyxe nonnmana npoun-
rannoe, nepexnnana ero n naonro sanomnnana. ecnn t x saxo-
rena onnctnart nocneonarentno cnon nepexnnannx n nonnmanne
xnnr, ro mne npnmnoct t ntennrt +ror marepnan n cnennantnym
monorpa]nm.
naxo x ne rontxo nmnna unrart xnnrn, ne rontxo ynnexa-
nact ocoenno saxnartnammnm coepxannem, naxonen, ne rontxo
npnymtnana npoonxenne npounranno xnnrn - ner, x xorena
cama nanncart uro-nnyt norpxcammee... pana, x ymana, uro
+ro nectma nerxo moxno cenart: cena sa mamnnxy, nnoxnna n nee
ymary, nauana npnymtnart n sannctnart... o nepnte xe mon
nontrxn camo nanncart poman npnnenn menx x nectma neyremn-
rentntm pesyntraram n ntnoam. omant y menx ne nonyuannct,
a o anropax npounranntx panee xnnr x naunnana ymart, uro +ro
xaxne-ro ocoennte nmn: ouent ymnte, ouent ceptesnte,
ornnuno snammne raxym xnsnt, o xoropo x nnuero ne snam. et
x camax otxnonennax monoentxax enymxa, ne ouent ymnax n
mano snammax nme n nx xnsnt... a, xax +ro nn rpycrno, no
x yexanact n rom, uro cama x nnxora ne cmory nncart. nncart
mne rax xorenoct!.. or +rnx mtcne x rxxeno nstxana n noonry
npocnxnnana sa mamnnxo, n xoropym tn ncrannen nncr uncro
ymarn.
o nncart x nce-raxn ne pocana. auana c roro, uro nayunnact
necrn cno nennnx, n necxontxo ner ouent +rnm ynnexanact.
oneuno, npexe uem nauart nncart nennnx, x cnauana onxna
tna nonxrt, uro raxoe noome nennnx. nennnxy menx nauann
npnyuart nearorn. nauana mne npocro anann saanne sannct-
nart n xonne xaxoro nx, xax x nponena +ror ent, uro enana,
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uem sannmanact, c xem ncrpeuanact n r. . ne cxasann, uro raxoro
poa sanncn nastnamrcx nennnxom. ora xe x nauana xo-
nrt n mxony cnentx, n macrepcxym n pyxoentnt xnacc, y menx
noxnnnnct nopyrn - yuennnt mxont.
poonxax n n antnemem pyxnrt co mxontnnxamn, xax c
enouxamn, rax n c mantunxamn x ysnanana or cnonx nopyr o nx
xnsnn, o pasnnuntx nx enax n nnrepecax. snana, mexy npounm,
uro nexoropte enouxn roxe nnmyr nennnxn, xoropte oxorno a-
nann mne unrart, necmorpx na ro uro x eme no nce nonnmana ns
roro, uro tno nanncano n +rnx nennnxax. ce +ro npnneno x romy,
uro x nauana necrn eme onee cncremarnuecxn, onee nopont
nennnx n sannctnana n nem ne rontxo ro, uro nponcxonno co
mno n xnnnnxe, no raxxe n ro, uro cnyunnoct co mno, xora x t-
nana n mxone nnn xora xonna n rocrn x cnoe nyume nopyre,
xoropax xannxynt n nce cnoonte nn npononna oma.
coxanennm, x ouent anno ynnuroxnna mnoxecrno rerpae,
cocrannxnmnx mo nopont nennnx. euac y menx no pyxo
nmeercx nectma nemnoroe ns roro, uro cnyuano coxpannnoct or
nennnxa, xoropt x nexora coxrna. 3rn ocrarxn xax pas orno-
cxrcx x romy nepnoy, xora x nonxna, uro mory crart, necmorpx na
cnon ]nsnuecxne neyrn, uenonexom n yxonnom n nnrennexry-
antnom snauennn.
rptnxn ns nennnxa nnrepecnt rem, uro onn xapaxrepnsymr
moe ornomenne n neyxnonnoe crpemnenne x snannxm, moe nonnma-
nne npounrannoro marepnana nnn nocnpnnxroro ns xnsnn. 3ro
cnoero poa orxnnxn na ror nont marepnan, uro nocrynan n mo ym.
or +rn pasposnennte n nemnorouncnennte orptnxn;
1928 ro, 20 cenrxpx
...eanno x unrana nennnx cnoe nopyrn " n mne camo
roxe saxorenoct necrn nennnx, xorx x eme ne concem nonnmam,
uro nyxno n uro ne nyxno sannctnart n nennnx. o +ro nnuero,
x nonpoym nncart.
a +rnx nxx mne nauann unrart xnnry, nayuno-]anracrnue-
cxn poman uenonex-am]nnx~. nnra nanncana nx spxunx, no
mne nearorn n nocnnrarenn unramr +ry xnnry nocpecrnom axrn-
nonornn.
ora mne nauann unrart +ry xnnry, x ne nonnmana cnona
am]nnx, no mne cxasann, uro . . an +ry xnnry nx menx n cxa-
san, uro x nomy snauenne +roro cnona, xora mne npounramr
necxontxo rnan.
eronx . . cnpocnn y menx, npannrcx nn mne xnnra, orne-
rnna, uro npannrcx n x yxe naunnam nonnmart, uro c xrnanpom
yyr nponcxonrt nnrepecnte npnxnmuennx, no nepecxasart co-
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epxanne npounrannoro mne eme rpyno, x ne nce cnona, xoropte
ncrpeuamrcx n xnnre n xoropte mne oxcnxmr no npemx urennx,
xcno nonnmam. . . cxasan, urot x nnnmarentno cnymana ro, uro
mne unramr, a nocne xaxo npounranno rnant on cam yer co
mno eceonart n oxcnxrt nenonxroe mno. n cxasan raxxe:
nx, rt ncera crapacx ornocnrtcx xo ncemy ceptesno, ntcny-
mnnart nce nnnmarentno, rora mnoroe yer ree onee nonxrno.
cnn xe ree yer ouent rpyno nonxrt uro-nnyt, rt sannctna
raxnmn cnonamn, xoropte snaemt, a norom x yy c roo eceo-
nart. ee nyxno ouent mnoroe npannntno nonnmart n npecran-
nxrt, no+romy nyxno oo ncem cnpamnnart y rex, xro moxer ree
oxcnnrt. nannx orxpomr ree n xnsnn ouent mnoroe...~
ocne +rnx cnon . . menx oxnarnna ontmax paocrt. ne
ncera xasanoct, uro ecnn x ne nnxy n ne cntmy, ro, snaunr, x ne
mory nonyunrt ontmnx snann, a n nnxomy n ne nyxno, urot
x nx nonyunna. nor . . n mon. yunrentnnnt xorxr, urot x no-
nyunna snannx. orxr, urot x mnoroe nonnmana n xnsnn...
29 cenrxpx
poonxaem unrart uenonex-am]nnx~.
enept x yxe nonnmam, uro snaunr am]nnx~. unraem mt
o rom, xaxne ern tnn n cay y oxropa, a raxxe o rom, xax n
nouemy xrnanp cran am]nne. xnnre nemnoro ronopnrcx o
+nonmnnonnom pasnnrnn xnnorntx, xax onn conepmencrnonannct
n reuenne mnornx nexon. anepno, x ceuac ntpaxamct nenpa-
nnntno, no +ro noromy, uro nx menx concem nono n concem nesna-
xomo ro, uro nanncano n xnnre. nonoe mne ncera rpyno npa-
nnntno ntpasnrt cnonamn. a, x snam, uro mnoroe eme rpyno
nonnmart n paccxasart cnonamn, no x xouy noontme unrart,
noontme snart n rora, nanepno, nce yy nonnmart nyume...
15 oxrxpx
eronx mne oxonunnn unrart uenonex-am]nnx~. unrax +ry
xnnry, x ysnana o rom, xax xora-ro xaronnuecxax nepxont ntcry-
nana npornn nayxn, xax xaronnuecxoe yxonencrno sanyrnnano nm-
e, rposnno ncxxnmn myxamn n oxtnmn xapamn rem, xro ne cun-
rancx c pennrne n onnancx nayuntx snann n orxptrn n pas-
nnuntx onacrxx.
euepom npnmen . . nonpocnna ero oxcnnrt mne nce ro,
uero x ne nonxna n xnnre. n ornernn na nce mon nonpoct. orom
x emy cxasana:
- t snaere, . " c rex nop xax x nauana unrart nnrepecnte
xnnrn, x ontme naunnam nnrepeconartcx xnsntm, ncem rem, uro
menx oxpyxaer, a pantme x uacro ymana o rom, uro x nnuero ne
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nnxy, nnuero ne cntmy. ne tno ouent rxxeno, a renept mne
nerue...
- 3ro ouent xopomo, x +romy ouent pa. snan, uro +ro rax
n yer...
15 noxpx 1929 r.
ne unramr spxuym xnnry~ - xrt eccmeprntx~. 3ro nayu-
no-]anracrnuecxn poman, no xnnra nce-raxn rxxeno na menx e-
crnyer. nrop +ro xnnrn ]anrasnpyer o rom, urot nponnrt
xnsnt uenonexa ontme, uem otuno xnnyr nmn. nrop xouer
ocrnut +roro nyrem nepecaxn npoonronaroro mosra or onoro
uenonexa pyromy uenonexy. or uenonex, y xoroporo ntpesamr npo-
onronart mosr, nornaer, a pyro, xoropomy nepecaxnnamr mosr,
xnner 200 ner. ne xanxo rex nme, xoropte nornamr, a re,
xoropte xnnyr sa cuer nx xnsnn, mne ne npanxrcx, onn necnmna-
rnunte, ecuyncrnennte, neopte...
ne raxxe unramr rasert n nponoxr co mno pasnnunte e-
cet. mne xaxercx, uro x c xaxtm nem ononnxmct. axercx,
uro no mne sapoxamrcx nonte paocrn, noxnnxmrcx nonte cnnt n
xenannx. ne snam, xax mne cnonamn +ro ntpasnrt n xro +ro
moxer rax nouyncrnonart, xax uyncrnym x, uenonex, nnmennt
nosmoxnocrn nce nnert n cntmart. a, paocrt, xoropym no mne
ntstnamr npnoperaemte snannx, cnonamn ne nepeamt.
25 exapx
yrpa mne unrann rasert, a n 12 uacon nx x tna cnoona
n nomna x enouxam n mxony cnentx. enouxn cxasann, uro onn
ocrann no-spxuemy xnnry co crnxamn monooro no+ra . . no-
npocnna y enouex +ry xnnry, urot mne nounrann crnxn nearorn.
nmnm crnxn, n +roro no+ra x eme ne unrana. epnynmnct omo,
x noxasana xnnry exypno nocnnrarentnnne n nonpocnna ee noun-
rart mne crnxn. o ona cxasana, uro cnauana nyxno noxasart xnnry
. ., nx roro urot on paspemnn unrart. nepnnnuana, cepn-
nact na nocnnrarentnnny, ronopnna, uro . . paspemnr unrart,
no ona orneuana, uro, moxer trt, crnxn eme nenonxrnt nx menx
n , . ne paspemnr unrart nx.
euepom npnmen . ., npocmorpen xnnry n cxasan, uro unrart
+rn crnxn moxno. aspemenne . . ouent opaonano menx...
1930 ro, 1 xnnapx
eronx ont ro, no x ero nnre ne ncrpeuana. uepa no
ont ro exypnna nocnnrarentnnna . . ora ona ynoxnna
ncex pexr cnart na nout, ro nosnana menx n cxasana, uro ona yer
n xnnnnxe o yrpa n mt yem noutm unrart, ecnn x xouy. t e-
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I10 onro cnenn n unrann n oxonunnn unrart nayuno-]an-
racrnuecxn poman onnna nono xnsnn~. nnra ouent nnrepec-
nax rem, uro ee anrop nameuaer mnoro ceptesntx nayuntx npo-
nem, xax, nanpnmep, moxer nn rononno mosr uenonexa mtcnnrt,
naxoxct ne n ronone, a n nnrammem mosr ncxyccrnenno npnroron-
nennom nemecrne. pyrnx nponemax mne rpyno paccxasart cno-
nmn cnonamn, no x mnoroe nonxna n ceronx nourn nn na uem
ne mory cocpeorounrtcx, rax xax mtcnenno x nce eme naxoxyct n
ro onnne, re cosananact nonax, ntmtmnennax anropom xnsnt...
9 anrycra
anxrnx rax mnoro ornnmamr y menx npemenn, uro x npocro
ne mory perynxpno necrn cno nennnx. e snam, cmory nn x ero
nncart antme. ymam, uro yy nncart, ecnn yer nacrpoenne.
eronx x no Fpanm ounrana nopxncxoe rneso~ . . yp-
renena. axoxyct ceuac no nneuarnennem npounrannoro... anxo
nsy, a n noome tno t xanxo xaxym pyrym enymxy na
mecre nst. et xnsnt +ro xopome, ymno enymxn nponana spx
naroapx nosmyrnrentnomy nnnemepnm n rnerymnm pennrnosntm
pamxam ro cpet, n xoropo naxonnact nsa a n mnorne pyrne
enymxn ns nopxncxoro omecrna...~
a +rom x saxanunnam nnrnponart orptnxn ns cnoero nennnxa.
u
mex nopyr n ronapnme-mantunxon n mxone cnentx, a raxxe
saountx snaxomtx n mxonax cnentx ns pyrnx ropoon, x nens-
exno onxna tna ysnart o rom, uro c nmtmn moxno omartcx
na paccroxnnn nocpecrnom nepenncxn. onxrt +ro mne tno
nerpyno, rem onee uro mox nopyra . nepnax nauana nncart mne
nnctma, xora ymna ns mxont omo na nernne xannxynt. o mne
ouent rpyno tno nonxrt, n xaxo ]opme noome nyxno nncart
nnctma; xpome roro, x nexoropoe npemx nnxax ne morna nonxrt ror
npocro ]axr, uro ne rontxo x mory npounrart nnctmo or nopyrn,
no n ona moxer npounrart n nonxrt moe nnctmo. ne xasanoct,
uro, naxoxct or menx anexo, nopyra ne nomer roro, uro x e
xouy nanncart. yxnantno myunnact, xora xorena nncart nnctmo:
xaxne xe cnona nyxno nncart nx roro, urot mon nopyrn nnn
snaxomte nonxnn ro, o uem x ymam? axnmn cnonamn naunnart
nnctmo? ax xonuart nncart nnctmo? yxno nn npnymtnart
cnon nonte cnona n ]past nnn xe nncart n nnctmax raxne xe cnona,
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raxne xe ]past, xaxne nnmyr pystx n nnctmax xo mne? nuero
+roro x ne snana, a cnpamnnart y nearoron nnn nocnnrarene
x sauacrym crecnxnact, ara yxacnax mox crecnnrentnocrt n sacren-
unnocrt nemano npennn mne n ercrne, n mnocrn n axe nosnee.
ne xopomo sanomnnnoct ono ns monx nepntx nncem x ono
nespxue enymxe. onro n myunrentno x counnxna +ro xoporent-
xoe nnctmo, naunnax xaxym nonym ]pasy nmenem enymxn. ne
xasanoct, uro +ra enymxa nnuero ne nomer, ecnn x ne yy naun-
nart xaxym ]pasy opamennem x ne no nmenn. ocne onrnx
ycnnn mne, naxonen, yanoct nanncart nectma npnmnrnnnym
sanncxy, xoropym x nastnana nnctmom, n ouent nm ropnnact. e-
crnnrentno, x nnpane tna ropnrtcx, no counnxna nnctmo camo-
croxrentno, ne opamaxct sa nomomtm x yunrentnnne. nor uro
y menx nonyunnoct: pancrny, uennuxa! ]ennuxa, x ame
nnctmo nonyunna. uennuxa, x roxe xouy nanncart am nnctmo.
uennuxa, xax t xnnere? xnny xopomo. uennuxa, co mno sann-
mamrcx nearorn n oxonxncxn. yy mnoro yunrtcx n mnoroe
yy snart. uennuxa, amnx nopyr x ne nnena. nn nepeann ue-
pes cnentx enouex, uro npnyr xo mne... uennuxa, orneuare na
moe nnctmo. uennuxa, nmnre n ne satnare menx. nnax ue-
nnuxa, nenym ac n c +rnm o cnnannx. anncana am nnctmo
nx~.
ora x nncana +ro nnctmo, mne cranonnnoct axe cxyuno or
roro, uro x rax uacro ynorpenxna nmx enymxn, no ecnn x nncana
]pasy es nmenn, ro naunnana ouent nonnonartcx, nonarax, uro
uennuxe nce yer nenonxrno.
antnemem x crana opamart nnnmanne na ]opmy n crnnt
rex nncem, xoropte mne npnctnann nopyrn n ronapnmn, yesxan-
mne omo na xannxynt. ora xe x nauana cncremarnuecxn unrart
xnnrn, ro, xoneuno, opamana nnnmanne na ro, xax nanncant
nnctma n xnnrax. nentm nsyuennx crnnx nncem x necxontxo
pas npounrana neontmo poman ocroencxoro Fente nmn~,
nontsyxct rem, uro +ra xnnra nmenact no Fpanm n nnnorexe
mxont. ontsonanact x opasnamn nncem n ns pyrnx xnnr, a norom
nncana cnonm nopyram, nopaxax +rnm opasnam:
...paronennax mox nnouxa, pyr mo cepeunt...~
...ox nosnmnennax nopyra oneuxa! ax crpacrno x xaxy
ncrpernrtcx c roo... namenno onnmam rex n mnoro, npemnoro
pas nenym...~
ecrnnrentnocrn x ne nmnna nn nnamenntx oxrn, nn
mnorouncnenntx nonenyen, no nncana o +rom n nnctmax noromy,
uro rax tno nanncano n xnnrax... poxonnn rot, n x, naxonen,
naysnnact nncart nnctma no-cnoemy, snax, uro mon pystx no-
myr nx.
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ayunnmnct xe nncart nnctma, x nonmnna +rnm sannmartcx n
c rex nop ney omnpnym nepenncxy c pystxmn, npocro co snaxo-
mtmn n axe c nesnaxomtmn mne nnuno nmtmn, no npnxonrcx
orneuart na nx nnctma, c xoroptmn onn opamamrcx xo mne.
exoropte mon pystx nacrontxo npnntxnn x crnnm monx
nncem, uro moryr ysnanart nx es moe nonncn. npouem, x n cama
nacrontxo npnntxna omartcx c nmtmn npn nomomn nncem, uro
mory cnoemy cexperapm nnn xomy-nno pyromy nxronart nnctmo,
ne nmex no pyxo sapanee saroronnennoro no Fpanm rexcra.
mnoro ner romy nasa., xora x ne ymena nncart nnctma, x n nx-
ronart nx ne morna, ecnn npenapnrentno ne sannctnana ro, uro
xorena nponxronart.
u F .
F
oxno cxasart, uro eme n pannem ercrne x tna oxpyxena
raxnmn nmtmn, xoropte crapannct enart nx menx no nosmox-
nocrn rontxo xopomee, rontxo raxoe, uro morno paonart, necennrt
n ycnoxannart menx. 3rnmn nmtmn n omamne ocranonxe tnn
npexe ncero mart mox, eymxa n mo oren n re pexne cnyuan,
xora on npnesxan n ornycx. me n moe namxrn coxpannnnct xo-
pomne ornomennx xo mne ncex unenon ono ouent xyntrypno
cemtn. uro +ro tna xyntrypnax cemtx, x nonxna nosnee, xora
yxe morna mnoroe nonnmart. ora x nonana n xnnnnxy nx cne-
nornyxonemtx ere, x nouyncrnonana, uro n sect x roxe oxpy-
xena optmn, nmxmnmn nmtmn, nearoramn, nocnnrarenxmn,
nxnxmn. ce +ro, nmecre nsxroe, coxpannnoct n moem cosnannn na
ncm xnsnt xax camoe cnernoe nocnomnnanne, xoropoe n renept pa-
yer menx.
o xaxnm pesxnm ncconancom nroprannct n moe cosnanne nexo-
pomne nocrynxn nme, c xoroptmn mne, xoneuno, npnxonnoct
cranxnnartcx n xnsnn, no x ncera crpemnnact trt nonnxe x
nmxm, urot or nnx snart o rom, uro noxpyr menx nponcxonr, uro
enamr nmn! cnn axe nexopomne, no monm nonxrnxm, nocrynxn
nme tnann menxnmn, nectma nesnaunrentntmn, ro mne onn xa-
sannct ouent sn a u n r e n tn t m n. nce ro, uro tno noceptes-
nee, nosnaunrentnee, xasanoct mne npocro uyonnmntm.
pnntxnyn x romy, uro mart n eymxa nce enann npexe
ncero nx menx, nce nyumee oranann mne, x, ecrecrnenno, ymana,
uro nese n ncmy ponrenn saorxrcx o cnonx erxx rax xe, xax
saornnnct mon oo mne. et x ncera tna ctra, oera no nce
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axas 812
uncroe n npnnnunoe. nmo x nmena rennym oexy, x npasnn-
xam mne mnnn uro-nnyt nonoe. erom, xora tno axe ouent
xapxo, mne ne paspemann xonrt es mnxnxn nnn es xoctnouxn.
xorx x rora ne nonnmana, uro +ro nyxno nx roro, urot ne o-
nena ronona or connna, rem ne menee x naenana uro-nnyt na
ronony, cunrax, uro rax nyxno enart. ctpym noroy nerom mne
ne paspemann ntxonrt no nop nnn na ynnny oco.
naxo x nnena, uro re ern, xoropte npnxonnn xo mne nrpart,
ne rontxo xonnn es mnxnox, no axe ne nmnnn nx naenart ne-
rom: x +ro nonnmana, noromy uro onn noxastnann mne, urot x roxe
cnxna mnxnxy nnn xoct-nouxy. ynn +rn ern roxe ne nmnnn
nocnrt nerom, a ecnn tnan cnntnt oxt, ro mon nopyxxn n
npnxrenn-mantunxn crapannct noontme nonaart octmn noramn n
nyxn n pyutn, noxastnax rem camtm cnoe npenepexenne x monm
canannxm nnn x ranouxam.
ne roxe npannnoct ponrt no ontmnm nyxam ocnxom, npa-
nnnoct nnuero ne naenart na ronony, xora ouent npnnexano connne,
no+romy x ymana, uro n mon npnxrenn ne naenamr mnxnt nnn can-
annn rontxo noromy, uro nm +ro ne npannrcx. ymana, uro onn oma
ocrannxmr +rn nemn. o xora x tnana y +rnx pexr oma n xorena
nocmorpert, uro y nnx ecrt n raxne nn y nnx nemn, xax y menx, ro
oxastnanoct, uro ne y ncex ns nnx tnn raxne nemn, xaxne nmena x.
ax xe x +ro nonnmana? ymana, uro y +rnx ere npocro neo-
pte ponrenn, uro onn ne nmxr cnonx ere, ecnn ne enamr nx
nnx roro, uro enann mon ponrenn nx menx. auacrym pexra, xo-
ropte ne nmenn rex nnn nntx neme, npnnanexann x mnoroerntm
cemtxm, tnann oert nce onnaxono, r. e. nnxro ns parten nnn
cecrep ne xasancx oertm nyume nnn xyxe. ne nonnmana +ro
ocroxrentcrno, no x tna enncrnenntm peenxom y cnoe marepn.
cxox ns ncex cnonx nneuarnennn n nanmenn, x cunrana, uro
mox mart - camax opax mart, a mo oren, xoropt ne rontxo npn-
nosnn mne pasnnunte noapxn, no n npnctnan nx menx noctnxn,-
camt opt oren. o eymxa roxe opee ncex eymex.
+ro nonxrne tno no mne nacrontxo nenoxonenmo, uro n or-
entntx cnyuaxx ono coxpanxnoct n moem cosnannn eme onro. a n
renept, nanpnmep n rom cnyuae, xora mne npnxonrcx ncnomnnart
o cnoe marepn mtcnenno nnn xomy-nnyt o ne paccxastnart, ona
npecrannxercx mne nensmenno no ncem n nx ncex, ne rontxo nx
ono menx, ouent opo xenmnno. ecnn t mne renept pac-
cxasann o ne uro-nnyt nexopomee, o uem x n ercrne ne snana, ro,
no nce nepoxrnocrn, x ne nonepnna t, uro mox mart morna npnun-
nnrt sno xomy-ro, morna orxasart n nomomn rem, xro nyxancx
n +rom.
ora xe n mxone cnentx (ne n xnnnnxe cnenornyxonemtx) x
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nonana n cpey ere, xoropte nce neooxonmoe nonyuann n nnrep-
nare, no ne ncera nontsonannct rem, uro nonyuann, n ne ncera
epexnnno ornocnnnct x nemam, n moem cosnannn crann noxnnxrtcx
nponecxn pyrnx nonxrn.
acrynnna necna, n n nepnte xe rennte conneunte nn pexra
nauann nterart no nop n na ynnny nanerxe: n xyprouxax, n nna-
rtxx, es rononntx yopon, a norom n es oynn. cnn exypnt noc-
nnrarent ynonn n om raxnx nerxo oertx ere, ro onn ne ouent
cnymannct n cnona yerann no nop, ne oenaxct. axoe noneenne
monx cnepcrnnxon naranxnnano menx na nexoropoe pasmtmnenne:
x ymana o rom, uro nspocnte nmn amr erxm oexy, snaunr, onn
opte. o ern camn ne xorxr oenartcx, no nm xaxercx, uro yxe
ocrarouno renno n moxno xonrt n nnartxx es nantro nnn axe
es oynn. naunr, ern nnoxne, noromy uro ne cnymamrcx nspocntx.
3rn mon ntnot xasannct mne rem onee npanonoontmn, uro
tnann cnyuan, xoropte xax t nornepxann nx. anpnmep, xora
nac nonnn na nporynxy n ropo, enouxn mnn n nnartxx, necmorpx
na ro uro nocnnrarenn sacrannxnn nx eme uro-nnyt naert. , epx
npnmep c pyrnx, roxe nnuero ne xorena naenart (raxnm opasom,
x roxe cranonnnact nenontno nnoxo), no ecnn nporynxa npoonxa-
nact onro, mne cranonnnoct xonono, x npocnnact omo, urot
oertcx rennee. Ftnann n raxne cnyuan, xora enouxn no npemx
nporynxn cnnmann oynt n neceno nptrann ocnxom. ocnnrarenn
n +roro ne paspemann, no enouxn nce-raxn cnnmann ornnxn. pn
+rom onn rpeonann, urot n x cnnmana ornnxn. cnnmana, no
ecnn mne tnano xonono nnn ontno crynart no xamemxam octmn
noramn, x cnona saymtnanact o rom, xro xe opt n xro neo-
pt: nocnnrarenn nnn ern? nacxontxo x nomnm, mne cmyrno xa-
sanoct, uro ern nocrynamr nexopomo: net mne tnano xonono,
a enouxn cmexnnct, ecnn x naenana cnona oynt nnn pyrne rennte
nemn; nnora onn axe ornnmann y menx +rn nemn rontxo nx roro,
urot x tna oera rax xe, xax n onn, cneonarentno, urot x ne
cnymanact crapmnx, xoropte ne paspemann npexenpemenno cnn-
mart rennym oexy. tno n raxnx cnyuaxx tn xcen: crapmne
tnn nyume nnn opee, uem mon ronapnmn. x tna ynepena, uro
npannntno nonnmana ornomenne crapmnx xo mne.
naxo tnann n raxne nponcmecrnnx, no nnnxnnem xoroptx
x ntnyxena tna menxrt cnon mnennx o crapmnx. raxnx cnyuaxx
x c ontmnm coxanennem orxastnanact or xopomnx mtcne o nspoc-
ntx nmxx, xoropte xasannct mne ne rontxo neoptmn (nnn neuyr-
xnmn) , no axe tnn, no monm roramnnm nonxrnxm, snee, uem ern.
moe namxrn coxpannncx onn cnyua, xoropt x n ro npemx
nenpannntno nonxna.
naxt xro-ro ns pontx npnexan x ono enouxe (nnocne
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crnnn x ysnana, uro +ro tn oren enouxn). o ncemy noneennm
enouxn, moe nopyrn, tno nnno, uro ona conpaercx yesxart ns
mxont. na yxnatnana n uemoanunx nexoropte cnon nemn a
oranana cnonm nopyxxam ncxxne menoun n esenymxn. npn-
nnmana camoe exrentnoe yuacrne n npnroronnennxx x oresy +ro
enouxn, no ona tna nectma ecnopxouna, neaxxyparna; nemn ona
conana n uemoanunx xoe-xax, a oenanact ona, xax mne xasanoct,
nexpacnno n nepexno.
s mxontno enteno enouxe ntann nemn. snana o +rom
n oparnna nnnmanne na ro, uro e nnuero ne ntann na ronony -
nn nnarxa, nn manouxn. mexy rem na ynnne tno xonono (ecnn
ne omnamct, ocent noxonna x xonny). nom manouxy, xoropym
oren npnnes enouxe, ona yxe ycnena xomy-ro noapnrt na namxrt
o cee.
tcrpo coopasnna, uro moe nopyre npnercx ornpannrtcx n
opory es rononnoro yopa. noexana x ro xenmnne, xoropax
ntanana moe nopyre oexy, n nauana nacrounno noxastnart,
urot ona ana enouxe uro-nnyt na ronony, no xenmnna n cnom
ouepet nacrounno oxcnxna mne, uro ona nnuero ne moxer art.
ouemy ona ne morna art, x ne snana (a n renept ne snam),
no+romy x npoonxana rpeonart nnarox nnn uro-nnyt pyroe
n ne xorena yxonrt ns enteno c nycrtmn pyxamn. ox nacro-
unnocrt ne rponyna xenmnny, a, cxopee, ntsnana paspaxenne n
ocay na menx. enmnna ormaxnnanact pyxamn n, nerontxo no-
ranxnnax menx x nepn, noxastnana, urot x yxonna ns enteno.
eoxnanno nx menx camo nama opta~ npnnxna nno xa-
paxrep: x n rnene copnana c cex mepcrxno nnarox, pocnna ero
n cropony xenmnnt n, pacnnaxanmnct, ntexana ns enteno.
enmnna ornana menx n cynyna mne n pyxn mo nnarox. enx
ocennna nonax mtcnt: nasno +ro ouent, ouent nnoxo, ornparn-
rentno xenmnne x pemnna orart cno nnarox nopyre.
ecrnnrentno, ne snax o rom, uro nocnnrannnxn ne moryr
no cocrnennomy ycmorpennm pacnopxxartcx xasenntmn nemamn,
x orana nnarox enouxe, n ona n nem yexana.
axnm opasom, x ne rontxo cama ocranact es nnarxa, no axe
crana napymnrentnnne mxontno ncnnnnnnt. Fonee roro, x crana
nourn npecrynnnne, no, paccrpoennax monm noneennem, sane-
ymmax enteno nectma cxnonna tna onnnnrt menx n xpaxe
xasennoro nnarxa. +rom x ysnana nnocnecrnnn. n ro npemx
x ouent nensnmnna +ry xenmnny sa ee uyonnmnym~ neopory.
xorx mne nnoxo tno es nnarxa, a saneymmax enteno crana
ornocnrtcx xo mne ne rax nacxono, xax +ro tno pantme, onaxo
x tna onontna, uro ne. nocnymanact ee, a nopyra mox yexana n
rennom nnarxe.
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cnn t n ro npemx xro-nnyt xaxnm-nno opasom mor oxc-
nnrt mne, uro x roxe tna nenpana, oranax enouxe xasennt
nnarox, xoropt, xax n nce npoune nemn, tn sannnenrapnsonan,
ro npx nn n rora x tna t na cropone saneymme enteno.
Ftrt moxer, ona tna yx ne raxax neopax, xax mne rora xasa-
noct, rem ne menee x rontxo onocroponne morna ncronxonart ee
orxas ntart enouxe nnarox. mexy rem ne ncxnmuanact n ra-
xax nosmoxnocrt, uro n enteno npocro ne tno nnmnero nnarxa.
xaptxoncxom yupexennn n x n pyrne nocnnrannnxn nmenn
nce neoxonmoe: xopomym oexy, xopomee nnranne. nomeme-
nnn y nac tno uncro, renno n ymrno. naxo o rex nop noxa
x ne snana o rom, uro nce nemn, xoroptmn x nontsonanact,- xasen-
nte nemn, a nnranne ntaercx yupexennm no onpeenenntm nop-
mam, x ymana, uro co ncem +rnm (nemamn n nnrannem) x mory
pacnopxxartcx xax yrono: enart c nemamn nce ro, uro mne saxo-
uercx, a nnranne moxno anart ncem, xro npnxonn xo mne ns sna-
xomtx. nnena (xoneuno, ne rnasamn, a npocro sameuana), uro
xora y nac tnan nropo sanrpax n 12 uacon nx, ro nearorn n
nocnnrarenn roxe cannnct ecrt n y]erno xomnare, no x ne snana
o rom, uro onn npnnocnnn c coo cno sanrpax, n ymana, uro onn
nnramrcx nmecre c namn. ecnn nearorn n nocnnrarenn nnramrcx
nmecre c namn, rax nouemy xe x ne mory~yromart rex, xro xo mne
npnxonr?~ - ymana x.
naxt x n mox nopyra . (nespxuax, no cntmamax, yunn-
maxcx n mxone cnentx) re-ro saepxannct: ro nn mt nnoem ry-
nxnn n cay, ro nn tnn n pyxoentnom xnacce n nopyra ne cnt-
mana snonxa na yxnn. ax t ro nn tno, no . onosana na
yxnn, n e nnuero ne ocrannnn, cunrax, uro ona orxasanact or
yxnna. xe, nosnparnnmnct x cee n xnnnnxy, nonyunna cno
yxnn, cena ero n cnona nomna n mxony x nopyre. snan, uro ona
ocranact es yxnna, x nonena ee x nam n xnnnnxy n nonpocnna y
exypno nocnnrarentnnnt xamn nnn xorx t xnea c macnom nx
nopyrn.
exypnax nocnnrarentnnna cxasana mne, uro xamn ne ocra-
noct, a xnea ona ne moxer art, rax xax ero ntann crontxo,
cxontxo neoxonmo ocrannrt na yrpo x nepnomy sanrpaxy.
necmorpx na ro uro x ouent npocnna nocnnrarentnnny art
nopyre xnea, ona orneuana onocnoxno, uro xne ntan no nop-
nnxm.
ne rontxo nectma oropunnact, uro ne mory noxopmnrt nopyry,
no axe paccepnnact na nocnnrarentnnny. cama ocrana ns y-
]era xne, orpesana cnom npenasnauennym mne na yrpo nopnnm
xnea n orana nopyre. rom xon]nnxre, xoropt nponsomen me-
xy mno n nocnnrarentnnne, x ne paccxasana nopyre, n ona
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nsxna xne, ne noospenax roro, uro x e orana cnom yrpennmm
nopnnm.
ne ymana o rom, uro nocrynam xopomo nnn nnoxo, ncrynax
n npepexannx c nocnnrarentnnne, n napymam ncnnnnnny, epx
xne camonontno. nonnmana rontxo ro, uro n annt momenr
nopyra ocranact es yxnna, ona xouer ecrt, x mory e art xorx
t xnea, snaunr, onxna +ro cenart.
asymeercx, na cneymmn ent yrpom nearorn ysnann or noc-
nnrarentnnnt, uro x npocnna yxnn nx nopyrn n uro orana e
cnom yrpennmm nopnnm xnea. o nnxro ne cenan mne sameua-
nnx, n xne x sanrpaxy x nonyunna, no ra nocnnrarentnnna, c xoro-
po y menx tn xon]nnxr, onro eme nomnnna +ror cnyua, cun-
rana menx neoprannsonanno.
xe tna nnoro mnennx o cnyunnmemcx, a nmenno: x cunrana,
uro nocnnrarentnnna tna nenpana, ne nonnmax roro nnonne ecre-
crnennoro noyxennx, uro xopomax nopyra ecxoptcrno crpemn-
nact noennrtcx c ronono nopyro rem, uro nmena. o nouemy
nearorn ne cenann mne sameuannx? +rom x ymana nexoropoe
npemx n xana, uro pano nnn nosno sameuanne yer cenano. o
x ero nnxora ne ycntmana. x pemnna, uro nearorn opee ro
nocnnrarentnnnt, uro onn cunramr moe neoprannsonannoe nonee-
nne npannntntm.
ecrnnrentnocrn xe eno tno nonce ne n rom, uro nocnnra-
rentnnna ne tna opo, n x +ro nonxna nosnee, xora crana nyume
nonnmart nocrynxn nme, nx oxsannocrn na cnyxe n noome
nce, uro nponcxonno noxpyr menx. ocnnrarentnnna tna opo
n orstnunno xenmnno, no crporo n pennocrno nmcrnrentnn-
ne ncnnnnnnt n ncxxoro poa pacnopxxa. earorn xe nnaue
paccmarpnnann moe noneenne: onn cunrann nnonne nopmantntm
moe noyxenne nomout ronapnmy n ee nesanncnmo or roro,
nacxontxo ceptesna nnn neceptesna npnunna, ntstnammax xena-
nne nomout xomy-nno. ax no xpane mepe x nonxna nnocne-
crnnn noneenne nearoron.
morna t npnnecrn sect eme mnoxecrno npnmepon roro, xax
x nonnmana opo, sno, nnoxoe, xopomee. naxo ocrarouno n +rnx
necxontxnx npnmepon, xoropte xcno noxastnamr, uro n nepno
]opmnponannx monx ercxnx n orpouecxnx nonxrn o ope n sne
x ne paccyxana xax ]nnoco] nnn ncnxonor, no ne snana, uro n
xnsnn mnoroe xnnxercx nnmt ornocnrentntm nnn xe naxo-
nrcx n recneme sanncnmocrn or roro, n xaxnx ycnonnxx, npn
xaxo nnemne cnryannn nponcxoxr re nnn nnte cotrnx, oycnon-
nnnammne npancrnennoe noneenne uenonexa.
e snana x raxxe n roro, uro necnpanennnocrt n oman roxe
sauacrym moryr trt npnnxrt xax neuro cnpanennnoe n npann-
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noe. o ecnn x sameuana noxt nnn necnpanennnocrt, x rxxeno +ro
nepexnnana. xpane nosmymanact, xora morna nonxrt noxt
nnn necnpanennnocrt co cropont nspocntx nme: net mne xasa-
noct, uro nspocnte nce nonnmamr, nce snamr nyume, uem ern.
ouemy xe n raxom cnyuae nspocnte omantnamr ere? n +rnx
cnyuaxx, xax n no mnornx pyrnx, x morna t cocnartcx na mnoxe-
crno npnmepon, no x orpannuyct nnmt necxontxnmn ]axramn.
nponecce sanxrn n n nopxxe osnaxomnennx c pasnnuntmn
npemeramn n nx nasnauennxmn mne noxasann +nexrpnuecxn ua-
nnx, nayunnn ncrannxrt nnnxy n poserxy, cnenrt pyxo (omy-
mart) , xax uannx nocrenenno narpenaercx n, naxonen, xax n nem
naunnaer xnnert noa, ns-no xptmxn nonnmamrcx crpyxn napa.
oneuno, x ouent tcrpo nayunnact +romy necnoxnomy eny
n n nmoe npemx es nocroponne nomomn morna narpert noy
nnn ncxnnxrnrt ua. ent cnoero exypcrna no cronono x cra-
panact ncrart pantme, urot ycnert ncxnnxrnrt ua x nepnomy
sanrpaxy, no exypnax nocnnrarentnnna tnana sanxra c ertmn,
xora onn ncranann. +ro nonnmana n crapanact nomorart nocnn-
rarenxm, cunrax cex yxe ontmo, a cneonarentno, oxsanno
nomorart nocnnrarenxm n paore c mnamnmn pexramn.
nor onaxt nponsomen cnyua, rnyoxo nosmyrnnmn menx
n noxoneanmn mom nepy n npannnocrt nspocntx.
nponsomno cneymmee: xax-ro, npocnynmnct ouent pano, ua-
con n 5 yrpa, x nomna n crononym nocmorpert na uact, urot npo-
nepnmt cex, r. e. cnoe npecrannenne o npemenn. a uacax tno
oxono 5 uacon. nnxrnrt ua nx ncex tno eme ouent pano. o
mne xorenoct nnrt, n x, snax, uro n uannxe uacro ocraercx xnnx-
uenax noa, nauana ncxart ero. o uannxa ne oxasanoct a crone
n y]erno xomnare. nomna n pyrym xomnary, n xoropo uame
ncero nxnmuana uannx n poserxy. ox n +ry xomnary, x cpasy
omyrnna sanax xapa, xpacxn (naxa, xoroptm tn noxptr cron),
a raxxe samernna, uro n +ro xomnare nosyx onee rennt. e
nomnm, nonxna nn x cpasy, n uem eno, nnn xe +ro tno nncrnnx-
rnnnoe nnxenne, rem ne menee x tcrpo noexana x crony n,
nax npono, pesxo ntxnmunna uannx. rontxo nocne +roro
x samernna, uro cron moxpt, na nony roxe nyxa, a uannx npnnnn
x crony. rena, oxpamennax macnxno xpacxo, tna nnaxna or
napa.
oropnana uannx or crona, urot ysnart, ecrt nn n nem noa,
no on tn nourn nycro...
croxna n nonnemem neoymennn, rmerno crapaxct nonxrt,
uro cnyunnoct c uannxom. ouemy on tn nxnmuen n poserxy? ro
+ro cenan n xora? axe nonecna nnnxy x poserxe, urot npo-
nepnrt noneenne uannxa, ne mor nn on camocroxrentno nxnm-
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unrtcx... o ner! uannx nnn, nepnee, nnnxa cama ne nxnmuanact
n poserxy. uem xe eno?
nonnom cmxrennn x nepnynact n cnom xomnary, ne pemaxct
ynrt nounym exypnym. rontxo oronnnyna uannx or poserxn
n nce ocrannna rax, xax tno, ne ntrepna cron n non, urot exyp-
nax morna cama nce nnert.
9 uacon yrpa npnmnn nearorn n nennte nocnnrarentnnnt.
cxope ona yunrentnnna noomna xo mne n nauana enart crpo-
rn ntronop sa ro, uro yro t x c neuepa nxnmunna uannx n
ocrannna ero na ncm nout,- rax nearoron nn]opmnponana nounax
exypnax.
tna norpxcena +ro xnno xnenero. nnxora ne oxnact
cosnartcx n cnonx omnxax nnn xaxnx-nno npocrynxax. nonne-
nnem x oxcnnna yunrentnnne, uro cama n 5 uacon yrpa onapy-
xnna nxnmuennt n poserxy uannx, n xoropom yxe nourn ntxn-
nena noa. unrentnnna saxoneanact, ne snax, xomy xe nepnrt,
rax xax nounax exypnax nacrounno oxastnana, uro uannx
nxnmunna x.
o n xonne xonnon nearorn nce-raxn nonepnnn mne: onn xo-
pomo snann, uro x no ncem nnoxom cosnananact, ne cnannnax nnny
axe na xomxy. nn npnmnn x npenonoxennm, uro nounax e-
xypnax nx cex xorena ncxnnxrnrt ua, no cnyuano ycnyna,
a norom nooxnact cosnartcx n cnoe nponnnnocrn, nectma upena-
ro ceptesntmn nocnecrnnxmn.
penoxenne nearoron tno nnonne npanonoono, rem onee
uro +ra nocnnrarentnnna tna noxnnax xenmnna, ontnax n e-
xypnna rontxo noutm, rax xax nem, xora nyxno tno mnoro nn-
rartcx c pexramn, ona ne morna paorart. naxo x ne nonnmana,
xax xe moxno na yuennxon cnannrt raxym ceptesnym nponnn-
nocrt?! pana, x samernna, uro nearorn nepxr mne ontme, uem
nocnnrarentnnne, rem ne menee x onro ne morna ycnoxonrtcx. oe
ynaxenne x oro nocnnrarentnnne snaunrentno noxoneanoct,
x nnepnte rax uyncrnnrentno, rax cosnarentno cronxnynact c rem,
uro nspocnte moryr cnannnart cnom nnny na ere. net ona, +ra
nocnnrarentnnna, morna onnnnrt ne rontxo menx xax onee crap-
rym yuennny, no n pyrnx, mnamnx, raxnx, xoropte eme ne mornn
noono mne oxasart cnom nennnonnocrt. ecrnnrentno, uepes
nexoropoe npemx nponsomen pyro cnyua, xoropt nornepnn
+ro.
onn ns ntxontx ne mt nce (yuennxn) npnnnmann nanny.
osno neuepom x samna n nannym xomnary n cronxnynact c name
mname yuennne ., xoropax yxe conepmenno pasenact n con-
panact canrtcx n nanny. ocnnrarentnnnt ne tno nosne "
no+romy x ocranonnna enouxy n onycrnna cnom pyxy, urot npo-
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nepnrt, ecnn nn noa n nanne. o n ry xe cexyny x c yxacom orep-
nyna pyxy: nanna tna nourn o xpax nonna ouent ropxue noo,
a xpan eme tn orxptr n noa nnnact cnntno crpye. saxptna
xpan, orramnna enouxy or nannt n ne snana, uro xe antme e-
nart. rontxo ono xcno nonxna, uro npnmna xorx n cnyuano,
no ouent cnoenpemenno, no manentxax enouxa, ocranmnct ona,
morna t nontrartcx cecrt n nanny, nepenonnennym ropxue noo.
nomna ncxart exypnym nocnnrarentnnny n namna ee n er-
cxo cnantne na xponarn, ona yxe cnana. pasynna ee n nauana
oxcnxrt cnyunnmeecx. moemy oropuennm, nocnnrarentnnna,
xax n n npetymem cnyuae c uannxom, ne cosnanact, uro- cama
nnnonna, a nontranact onnnnrt ., xoropax yro es ee paspeme-
nnx nomna n nannym xomnary, orxptna xpan, nannna ropxue not
n xorena xynartcx.
cnona tna rnyoxo nopaxena raxo ouennno noxtm n
necnpanennntm ornomennem x erxm co cropont +ro crapo xen-
mnnt. anxo tno n enouxy, na xoropym rax esxanocrno n ec-
raxrno naronapnnana nspocnax xenmnna, nontsyxct rem, uro cne-
nornyxonemax enouxa ne moxer onpanartcx. ora oo ncem
ysnann nearorn, onn, rax xe xax n x, nonxnn, uro nocnnrarent-
nnna ronopnna nenpany.
Ftnn n pyrne cnyuan, xora +ra xe nocnnrarentnnna nepexo
nontsonanact rem, uro moxno onnnnrt menx nnn pyrnx ere,
ecnn ona cama nnoxo ntnonnxna cnon oxsannocrn. nonnonanact,
nosmymanact n ne nonnmana, nouemy nexoropte nspocnte rax
oxrcx cosnartcx n cnonx npocrynxax, rora xax x n pyrne ern
ncera ronopnnn nearoram npany, axe n rex cnyuaxx, xora camn
nonnmann, uro nocrynann nexopomo n uro nam moryr cenart same-
uanne.
ne yy npnnonrt sect mnoxecrno pyrnx ananornuntx
]axron. nnmt xoporxo n saxnmuenne cxaxy, ncxox ns cnonx noc-
nomnnann, uro n ercrne x nnxora ne crpemnnact ceptesno oma-
ntnart xoro t ro nn tno nnn cnannnart cnom nnny na pyrnx.
o+romy x ncera ouent onxanact, ecnn menx omantnann, oco-
enno ecnn +ro enann nspocnte nmn. onxanact n na cnom
mart, xora sameuana (nnn mne xasanoct, uro sameuam), uro ona
menx omantnaer no xaxnm-ro npnunnam, xoroptx x ne morna no-
nxrt. raxnx cnyuaxx x nnora nectma ypno ntpaxana cnoe nos-
mymenne, nonarax, uro mart nnuero ne samernr, ecnn x n cnao
]opme yy pearnponart na ro, uro menx nonnyer,
tpaxana x cnoe nosmymenne ne ncera onnaxono, a n sanncn-
mocrn or ocroxrentcrn n ocranonxn, n xoropo naxonnact. ax,
nanpnmep, ecnn +ro cnyuanoct oma n nepe eo nnn no npemx et,
x orxastnanact ecrt (mexy npounm, +ro tn mo nmnmt npo-
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recr n rex cnyuaxx, xora x tnana uem-nno neonontna nnn oec-
noxoena). cnn menx paccrpannann neuepom, x orxastnanact no-
xnrtcx cnart n cannact xya-nnyt n yron. cnn mt c mareptm
mnn x xomy-nnyt n mne npyr xasanoct, uro menx n uem-ro oma-
nynn, x cannact na opory n orxastnanact nrn antme. ecnn
npn +rom x nmena n xapmane nnn n noconom nnarouxe cemeuxn,
x paspactnana nx no opore, urot onee narnxno oxcnnrt ma-
repn, uro x xouy snart npany.
oneuno, ne ncera x tnana npana, xora ymana, uro menx
ymtmnenno omantnamr. epexo mne +ro rontxo xasanoct ncne-
crnne nenpannntnoro nonnmannx oxpyxanme menx cpet n xnsnn
nme.
u I
, F, F
ercrne (a n ncera) x ouent ne nmnna opamartcx c xa-
xnmn-nno npoctamn x pyrnm, xart nomomn n uem t ro nn
tno or pyrnx. ne npannnoct trt camocroxrentno n rom, uro
mne ocrynno, uro mne no cnnam, a nnora n ne no cnnam. o saro
x ouent nmnna, xora xo mne pyrne opamannct c npocto nnn
nspocnte anann xaxoe-nno nopyuenne. uem rpynee tno nt-
nonnxrt npoctt n nopyuennx, rem nnrepecnee xasannct onn mne,
rem ontme n nacrounnee x crpemnnact ntnonnxrt nx.
xpyxanmne menx nnsxne mne nmn snann, xax x nmnm
ntnonnxrt nopyuennx, n noompxnn no mne +ro xenanne. oneuno,
n ercrne +ro tnann nectma npnmnrnnnte npoctt n nopyuennx.
ax, nanpnmep, tnano, noctnann menx nosnart xoro-nnyt, npn-
necrn nnn ornecrn uro-nnyt, orxptrt n necrnmne nept, ecnn
xro-nnyt snonnn, ntmtrt utm-nnyt uamxy, oonxnrt uro-
nnyt. e rontxo oxorno, no axe c ontmnm uyncrnom mopant-
noro yonnernopennx x nce +ro enana, a xora menx naroapnnn,
x ononpemenno n cmymanact n paonanact, paonanact noromy, uro
noopaxana, yro nspocnte ouent nyxannct n moe ycnyre nnn
nomomn. ax nocrenenno x npnyuanact rouno, cnoenpemenno n c
roronnocrtm ntnonnxrt nopyuennx n nsxrte na cex oxsarentcrna.
o tnann cnyuan, xora mon cntmamne nopyrn, yyun axe
nemnoro crapme menx n cnntnee ]nsnuecxn, no onee nennnte, sno-
ynorpenxnn moe roronnocrtm ntnonnxrt nx npoctt, a nearorn,
sameuax, uro nopyrn +xcnnyarnpymr~ menx, sanpemann mne nt-
nonnxrt nopyuennx nopyr. nora +ro npnnonno x xon]nnxram
mexy mno n nearoramn.
npnnomnnam necxontxo cnyuaen.
na mox nopyra, yuennna mxont cnentx, snax, uro x nmnm
crnpart n rnanrt, nonpocnna menx xoe-uro nocrnpart e. ce
nemn, xoropte ona mne ana, x nonecna x nam n xnnnnxy n
ycrponna crnpxy n nanno xomnare. o ona yunrentnnna ynnena,
uro x npnnecna uyxne nemn, ne nosnonnna mno crnpart n nenena
ornecrn nemn oparno xosxxe. orxastnanact ntnonnnrt cnpa-
nennnoe yxasanne yunrentnnnt, cnpanennnoe noromy, uro enouxa
tna n crapme, n soponee menx. o rax xax x ne cnymanact, ro
y menx oropann ras n saxptnn ropxuym noy. ouent nosmyma-
nact, axe sannaxana, no mne crtno tno nosnparnrt enouxe
nentcrnpannte nemn. II x nx ntcrnpana, uacrnuno no xpanom,
uacrnuno nannnax noy n nanny. rontxo ne cmorna ntcymnrt n
nornanrt nemn, no +ro mne xareropnuecxn sanpernnn.
pyro pas ra xe enouxa oparnnact xo mne c npocto no-
mnrt sa nee copouxy, xoropym ona onxna tna npnroronnrt nx
ntcranxn no saannm yunrentnnnt ns rpyonoro xnacca~, n +ror
xnacc x roxe xonna sannmartcx. opouxy neoxonmo tno nomnrt
tcrpo, no enouxe ne xorenoct part +ry paory na om, r. e. n
cnantnm.
nectma npnnnuno ymena mnrt pyxamn, no+romy enouxa no-
npocnna menx ntnonnnrt +ry paory sa nee. ne npnmnoct nsxrtcx
sa mnrte noutm, no exypnax nocnnrarentnnna ne nosnonxna mne
paorart noutm n nacrannana, urot x noxnnact cnart. nsnonno-
nanact, axe paccepnnact na nocnnrarentnnny. s cronono x,
nnpouem, ymna n cnantnm, nx nna nerna n nocrent, no ncxope
ncrana n, cnx n nocrenn, npnnxnact sa paory.
yrpy x saxonunna mnrt copouxy n tna ouent onontna,
necmorpx na ro, uro uyncrnonana cex ycrano, a na sanxrnxx tna
nennnmarentna, paccexnna, xorena cnart. r yunrentnnnt x nony-
unna sameuanne sa ro, uro noutm mnna, a cneonarentno, napymana
ncnnnnnny.
o n ro npemx, o xoropom x ceuac nnmy, x nnoxo nonnmana, uro
snaunr ncnnnnnna, pexnm, pacnopxox, pacnncanne. Ftrt moxer,
x axe ne ouent xorena npannntno nonnmart nce +ro, cront acr-
paxrnoe n memee npaspes co ncem xonxperntm, r. e. c monm xena-
nnem ontme nnrartcx. or nouemy x snaunrentno nyume nonn-
mana, uro nyxno nenpemenno ntnonnxrt ro, uro x nsxnact cenart,
nnn ro, uro x oemana cenart. opoue ronopx, x opasy oprannso-
nanno xnsnn n x rpyono ncnnnnnne x ornocnnact nectma neo-
nepunno, no ne nnena (ne nonnmana) npea nnn uero-nno py-
roro nnoxoro n rom, uro x paoram noutm, a ne nem, uro ntnonnxm
oemannx, saannx, oxsarentcrna n rora, xora mne ne paspe-
mann nx ntnonnxrt.
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e menee pennocrno n rouno x ntnonnxna noutm nnn pano
yrpom (ncranana n 5 uacon yrpa) saannte mne na om ypoxn nnn
pyxoentnte paort. tuno nocne ecconno noun x tnana ycra-
nax, no ncera ncntrtnana yonnernopenne or cosnannx, uro eno
ntnonneno cnoenpemenno.
ocrenenno x naunnana nonnmart, uro nounnenne ncnnnnn-
ne - +ro roxe mo onr. ecnn x yy ero ntnonnxrt, roxe yy
ncntrtnart mopantnoe yonnernopenne or roro, uro nearorn n noc-
nnrarenn onontnt mno, pat moemy cosnarentnomy ornomennm
x romy, uro menx oxpyxano, a re xon]nnxrt, xoropte nosnnxann
mexy mno n oxpyxammnmn n momenrt moero nenocnymannx,
ne yyr nonropxrtcx.
axnm opasom ]opmnponanoct nonnmanne ro oprannsonanno
xnsnn, x xoropo menx npnyuann n xoropax nn n xoe mepe ne
memana mne trt nynxryantno n ntnonnennn nsxrtx na cex ox-
sarentcrn.
oneuno, nopo tnano cxyuno ntnonnxrt saannte na om
ynpaxnennx no rpammarnxe nnn pemart apn]mernuecxne saaun.
naunrentno nnrepecnee tno ntnonnxrt cocrnennte xenannx
nnn unrart xopomym xnnry. o x yxe ocrarouno nonnmana, uro
nearoron n nocnnrarene paymr mon ycnexn, mon opoconecrnte
ntnonnennx saanntx na om ypoxon. naunr, +ro roxe tn mo
onr - xopomo yunrtcx, ntnonnxrt yxasannx crapmnx. opoue
ronopx, x nonnmana yxe, uro mo onr cocronr eme n n rom, uro
x onxna trt ncera oprannsonanno n rouno ne rontxo n
pyxe, no n no ncem pyrom, uro menx oxpyxano n c uem x cranxn-
nanact n ercxn n orpouecxn nepnot cnoe xnsnn.
asymeercx, nonnmanne ncero +roro tno eme cmyrntm, ne
ncera xcno ocosnanntm. tcxasart, npannntno c]opmynnponart
ero x eme ne morna, no ro, uro x yxe naunnana mnoroe nonnmart,
ocmtcnnnart, nensxcnnmo paonano menx. 3ro noxoxe tno na ro,
uro tnaer n nn nacmypno norot, xora nnesanno noxnnxercx
connne n ero xpxne, rennte nyun naunnamr corpenart y uenonexa n
reno, n xax yro axe uyncrna...
ne rpyno renept nce npnnomnnrt n nce onncart ns roro ne-
pnoa, xora nacrynnn pemammn momenr moero necomnennoro
ncrynnennx na nyrt cosnarentno uenoneuecxo xnsnn. a, +ro
tn nennxn,-nesatnaemt momenr moero yxonnoro cranonnennx!
rom, xax x nonnmana oxpyxammym menx ecrnnrentnocrt n
connantno-omecrnennym xnsnt nme n nepno moe mnocrn n
onee spenoro nospacra, x yy nncart n antnemem.
u I

py cosan camoro uenonexa.
3nrentc
enept ncxxn nayuno mtcnxmn uenonex snaer, uro cosnanne
uenonexa ]opmnponanoct no naroarntm nosecrnnem rpya.
ne npnnomnnaercx pasronop nyx cnentx ronapnme. nn rono-
pnnn o rom, uro xaxt ns nnx nspan t cee pyrym cnennant-
nocrt, ecnn t tn spxunm.
nn ronapnm cxasan: nnpouem, x ne snam, xem t x tn
rora. oxer trt, nopnnxom~. pyro nospasnn c nosmymennem:
y, uro rt! axoe ynnxenne!~
- t omnaemtcx: nnxaxo omecrnenno nonesnt rpy ne
ynnxaer uenonexa,- ornernn pyro, ror, xoroporo ne nyrana npo-
]eccnx nopnnxa.
ncera ncnomnnam +ror pasronop, xora ysnam o nmxx, xoro-
pte xnuarcx cnonm npnsnannem x naropono~ npo]eccnn. ca-
mom ene, uro nopasymenamr no naropono~ exrentnocrtm
+rn nmn? nn n camn ne snamr.
pnsnamct, x nmnm ncxxn ocrynnt mne rpy-ymcrnen-
nt n ]nsnuecxn. areropnuecxn nseram nontsonartcx nomomtm
spxunx n rex cnyuaxx, xora x mory trt camocroxrentno n ro
nnn nno paore.
anno xnny ona. xenenno camocroxrentno ocnyxnnam
cex. yxamct n nocroponne rexnnuecxo nomomn rontxo n rex
cnyuaxx, xora mne nyxno sannmartcx ymcrnenntm rpyom. ra-
xnx cnyuaxx saort tronoro xapaxrepa memamr mne. trono
ocranonxe, ocoenno npn npnroronnennn nnmn (uncrxa xapro-
]enx, ras, xepocnn n r. .), ocxsanne n oonxnne crpaamr nectma
cnntno. net +ro mon rnasa~ n ymn~.
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oe ercrno nporexano rax, uro x pano npnyuanact paorart n
n paore crana nectma nacrounna. ocmarpnnana~ nce, uro nmn
enann: pyxamn cnenna sa nnxennem nx pyx - xax, nanpnmep,
onn uncrnnn xapro]ent, xax mtnn nocyy, crnpann ente, ynpann
xomnary n r. . ce +ro nponcxonno no nenocpecrnenntm na-
nmennem~ monx pyx. orom x anana cnon pyxn, urot mne no-
xastnann, xax nyxno epxart nox nnn part mtno n np. ora
mne xasanoct, uro x nonxna cexper roro, uro enann ontmne, x n
cama xnaranact sa merny n naunnana nnenxrt cnonm ncxyccrnom
cner.,.~. oneuno, mne tno rpyno.
axnmn rpyontmn nantxamn x onnaenana ro sa room n o-
nacrn ocrynnoro mne rpya. uent pano x nauana sannmartcx
pyxoennem, n es ocooro rpya mon nantnt cxnartnann ro, uro
noxastnann mne yunrentnnnt. nxsana na uynouno mamnne, nx-
sana xpmuxom n cnnnamn, nnena xopsnnxn, enana merxn n mnna.
o no mepe roro xax onnaenana urennem, mon nnrepect cocpeoro-
unnannct na urennn. crana yennxrtcx n yxpomnt yronox c
xnnro n unrana, unrana, satn oo ncem.
naxt rax cnoxnnnct ocroxrentcrna, uro mne npnmnoct sa-
nnmartcx ncxnmunrentno ]nsnuecxnm rpyom. ntnyxena tna
paorart n xomnnare cnentx. nauana mne oxorno ann naom-
nym paory - nponsnocrno oynntx mnypxon. ora x o]opmnx-
nact n xannenxpnn, menx cnpocnnn: ama cnennantnocrt?~ -
nreparypa!~ - xoporxo ornernna x.
ro-ro nonmontrcrnonan: ouemy xe ntepere raxym rpxs-
nym paory, xax oynnte mnypxn?~ - nsnt sacrannxer part
ncxxym paory~,- ornernna x.
ycnnenno paorana na mnypxamn, urot noepxart cnoe
marepnantnoe nonoxenne xorx t raxnm sapaorxom. o cxopo
ctpte xonunnoct, naomno paort ontme ne tno. oparnnact
x npexnnn c npocto npnnxrt menx na paory n xopoount nex.
o ryr x cronxnynact c neonepnem x moe rpyocnoconocrn. ne
cxasann, uro ne moryr menx npnnxrt n nex noromy, uro x ne cntmy.
e ronapnmn, xoropte xopomo menx snann, ropxuo oxastnann, uro
x cmory paorart ne xyxe pyrnx cnentx. xonne xonnon npex-
nnx, xorx n neoxorno, cornacnnact nsxrt menx na nponepxy.
enx npnnenn n nex n cxasann nncrpyxropy: or nam nonax
yuennna. epoxrno, nam yer ouent rpyno oxcnnrt e, xax
nyxno enart xopoouxn~. ncrpyxropom tna ouent mnnax xen-
mnna. ne npnmnoct oxcnxrt mne. na npocro osnaxomnna
menx c npncnoconennem n xnexo xopoouex monua: x onro n
nnnmarentno cnenna sa ee pyxamn n nerxo nonxna +ro necnoxnoe
eno. ror xe ent x crana paornnne.
uepes nexoropoe npemx npexrop coomnn, uro on ononen moe
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paoro n nepenonr menx n uncno nyumnx cnentx n nonyspxunx
paornnn. aora y nac tna centnax. paorana mnoro n oxorno,
rem onee uro x na paory nocrynnna no cnoemy xenannm. naxo
x ncntrtnana cnntnym rocxy no xnnram. ce panencxne xnnrn
ns nnnorexn cnentx tnn anntm-anno nepeunrant mnom, a
spxue urnnt x ne nmena. o npemx paort x ne morna omartcx
n c nmtmn: pyxn mon tnn sanxrt nente uact nopx.
omo x nosnpamanact ycrano, sannmanact cnonm manentxnm
xosxcrnom. a paory n xomnnar n oparno omo menx npono-
xana ona nonyspxuax enymxa. oma xe mne nnxro ne nomoran.
o raxoe nonoxenne tno npemenntm, n ono ne npnunnnno mne
npea, a rontxo npnnecno nontsy, no n rxxenoe npemx x npnyun-
nact xnrt oprannsonanno rpyono xnsntm. Ftnano, n nnoxym
noroy mox mnax cnyrnnna nopuana, xax crapymxa: y, xax mt
noem n raxo oxt? ne mory~. o x ne nosnonxna e ornt-
nnnart n repnennno oxcnxna: pnntxa, ree xe camo npn-
ercx xonrt na paory. pnntxa xonrt no ncxxym noroy. as-
ne spxune nmn rontxo n conneunte nn xoxr na paory? omn,
mne roxe rpyno, a nao!~
o n x ne ncera morna trt raxo oprannsonanno. yuennue-
cxne rot x rax cosnarentno ne paccyxana. namem yupexennn
nx cnenornyxonemtx tna ona yunrentnnna, ocoenno pennocr-
nax nmcrnrentnnna pexnma. na yunna menx trt ncera n no
ncem oprannsonanno. Feccuernoe xonnuecrno pas oxastnana mne,
xax naxno xnrt no nnany, a raxxe xpnrnuecxn ornocnrtcx x cno-
nm nocrynxam, x cnonm oxsannocrxm. y menx ne ncera ntxonno
rax, xax rpeonanoct. no nectma npocrtm npnunnam. nrt no
nnany osnauano xopomo roronnrt ypoxn, n onpeenennte uact or-
txart, xonrt na nporynxy, nonpemx noxnrtcx cnart n r. .
oneuno, nce +ro ornnuno. o nx menx +ro tno rpyno. ax
x morna nonpemx noxnrtcx cnart, ecnn xaxax-nnyt nnrepecnax
xnnra nceneno saxnartnana menx? x concem ne noxnnact cnart,
noxa ne npounram xnnry o xonna. unrax ern xannrana panra~,
x na ypoxn ]nsnxn npnxonna c +ro xnnro. unrentnnna ornn-
mana y menx xnnry n cepnro xnana mne na xonenn yuennx. a
ypoxax nemenxoro xstxa, noxa yunrentnnna nepenncrtnana cnom
spxuym xnnry, x nornxontxy rxnyna x cee crnxn ymxnna...
ynxrt n onpeenennte uact! a x concem ne xonna na npo-
rynxy ns-sa xnnr, tnano, uro n cama nncana. oome nce cnoo-
noe or xnaccntx sanxrn npemx x npononna sa xnnro. ax otuno
npoxonn mo ocyr, sa ncxnmuennem rex nemnornx uacon, xora
menx nanemann nopyrn.
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o nor x crana unenom . ornnuno nonxna, xax naxno,
xax neoxonmo trt oprannsonanno, cosnarentno. nonnmana,
uro nyxno ecrnnrentno xpnrnuecxn ornocnrtcx x cee, x cnonm
oxsannocrxm, x cnonm nocrynxam. n n cosnarentnocrn, nn n na-
nnunn axrnnnocrn x ne xorena ycrynart spxuecntmamnm xomco-
montnam. c ontmnm nnrepecom nocemana nce copannx, xax xom-
comontcxne, rax n naprnnte, roro yupexennx, re x tna na yue-
re (3). am tnn rontxo spxune n cntmamne xomcomontnt.
exoropte ns nnx cpasy xe, n nepnte nn moero nocrynnennx .n
xomcomon, ntyunnn pyunym asyxy rnyxonemtx (axrnnonornm)
n es nomomn cnennantno nepenounnt omannct co mno. pyrne
ronapnmn nncann n moe naonn otxnonenntmn yxnamn spxunx.
a ncex copannxx xomcomontnt no ouepen nepenonnn mne nt-
crynnennx ronapnme. roxe uacro ntcrynana, ronopnna ncnyx
peutm. ouent ropxunnact, xora ocyxannct nonpoct omecrnen-
ntx narpysox nx xaxoro xomcomontna. et nce +rn narpysxn ne
noxonnn nx menx. em ne menee x nn sa uro ne xorena croxrt
onnoxo n cropone, xora noxpyr menx xnsnt nna xnmuom, n menx
npnnonna n oruaxnne mtcnt, uro n xomcomone x ne npnnomy nnxa-
xo nontst. naxo, nopasmtcnnn xopomentxo, x n nx cex namna
narpysxy. ax xomcomon nocnnrtnan n oprannsontnan menx n yxe
omecrnenno-rpyono xnsnn, n yxe mapxcncrcxo-nennncxoro yue-
nnx.
rot ennxo reuecrnenno nont x crpamno rxrornnact
cnonmn ]nsnuecxnmn neocrarxamn. ne tno nentnocnmo ontno
or cosnannx, uro x ne mory trt na ]ponre pxom c onamn, ne mory
nmecre c nnmn orcrannart cnooy n nesanncnmocrt ropxuo nmnmo
onnt.
ora mne npnmnoct ncrpernrtcx c onamn n pyro ocranon-
xe, x paccxasana nm, xax rpyno mne xnrt es nontst nx omecrna.
o ont ne cornacnnnct co mno, onn ronopnnn mne nsnonnonanno:
t nanpacno rax nepexnnaere cnon ]nsnuecxne neocrarxn. t
xe nnaeere cnonom, nt moxere nncart crnxn, paccxast n raxnm
opasom yere noepxnnart n nac opocrt yxa. nam camo
yer nerue. t moxere npononrt ecet c nnnannamn reuecr-
nenno nont, cpen nnx mnoro ocnenmnx, nm ouent rxxeno, n nt
moxere noepxart nx mopantno, n nam onn cxopee nonepxr, uem
spxunm n cntmamnm nmxm...~
3rn ronapnmn tnn conepmenno npant. x xouy cxasart
ncem - n sopontm nmxm, n nnnannam,- uro n name crpane
nmn ne moryr trt necuacrntmn, no o nnx saornrcx nennxax
ommynncrnuecxax naprnx.
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t - nmn c ]nsnuecxnmn neocrarxamn - onxnt rontxo
ropnrtcx rem, uro ommynncrnuecxax naprnx n onercxoe npann-
rentcrno rax ntcoxo nenxr nam ymcrnennt n ]nsnuecxn rpy n
amr nam neorpannuennte nosmoxnocrn yunrtcx n paorart napan-
ne co sopontmn nmtmn, npeocrannxmr nam ntcoxym uecrt nno-
xnrt nce cnon rnopuecxne cnnt n nmoe eno .na nmom yuacrxe na-
mero connanncrnuecxoro crponrentcrna.
, F F
axt nont uenonex, rontxo uro nosnaxomnnmnct co mno,
saaer mne mnoxecrno ncenosmoxntx nonpocon, npenmymecrnenno
tronoro nopxxa. nora yxnantno ycraemt nonropxrt ono n ro
xe, a eme raxoe otennoe, npnntunoe nx menx. tuno cnpa-
mnnamr, ysnan, uro x camocroxrentno ocnyxnnam cex:
- ax xe nt ysnaere, xaxym nemt nt epere n pyxn?
- ax xe nt mtere, ecnn ne nnnre?
- ax nt ysnann, uro nao saxptrt nept?
- t camn roronnre oe? o xax xe nt ysnaere, xora cna-
pnrcx xapromxa nnn mxco? (a nocnenn nonpoc x npenaram yroc-
rnrt cnpamnnammero napeno xapromxo. )
- ax nt ysnaere, xora y nac npnropaer nyx?.. n r. .
ce +rn n mnorne pyrne nonpoct rpeymr, urot x na nnx or-
neuana. e nce nmn moryr nnuno co mno noronopnrt (nepexo sa-
amr mne nonpoct n nnctmax xo mne), no+romy x cunram nennmnnm
n anno xnnre paccxasart unrarenxm o rom, xax moryr xnrt n ca-
mocroxrentno ocnyxnnart cex re nmn, xoropte nnment cnyxa n
spennx.
cnoe xomnare xnny x ona. menx conepmenno orcyrcrnymr
cneroomymennx (xax x yxe re-ro o +rom ynomnnana), necmorpx na
ro uro rnasa orxptrt. ne ornnuam cnera or remnort. o x nmem
uact, na nn]epnare xoroptx oosnauent ne nnocxne nn]pt, a
pente]nte rouxn, no+romy ncera es ncxxo nocroponne nomomn
snam o nacrynnennn yrpa nnn neuepa. opomo nsyunn pacnonoxe-
nne cnoe xomnart, ocranonxn n npounx neme, x ne rontxo nerxo
naxoxy nyxnym nemt n ysnam ee npn nomomn ocxsannx, no mory
raxxe nerxo ypart xomnary: nomecrn non nennxom, nomtrt non,
paccrannrt nemn n nanexamem nopxxe n np.
pnroronnenne oea nespxue xenmnno raxxe ne npecran-
nxer coo nnuero neotxnonennoro. et n spxune xenmnnt, xo-
ropte ne snamr, xax npnroronnxercx ro nnn nnoe nmo, ne cmoryr
ero npnroronnrt, yt y nnx xort nanart nap rnas. naunr, nce
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axas 812
eno nnmt n rom, uro spxune ern, xnnx n cemte, c ercrna npnnt-
xamr nanmart sa mareptm nnn crapmnmn cecrpamn, xax onn roro-
nxr nnmy. nente xe ern moryr rontxo omymart sanaxn, cntmart
xnnenne, nocryxnnanne noxom, noxxo n r.. o onn npn +rom ncer-
a opamamrcx x spxunm c nonpocamn: uro xnnnr? uro +ro naxner?
uro npnropeno? uro nt nonoxnnn ceuac n xacrpmnm? uro nyxno
xnacrt pantme?~ n r. n. a nce +rn nonpoct xopomne spxune nmn
orneuamr cneno enouxe nnn enymxe, n ona nocrenenno yunrcx
npnroronnxrt nnmy.
mory omymart rontxo onn sanaxn n poxanne nocyt, xora
n ne uro-nnyt xnnnr. o cnpamnnart y spxunx x morna oo ncem,
a raxxe cnenrt cnoe pyxo sa rem, xax onn uncrxr xapro]ent, pe-
xyr nyx, xax mouar onomn, ]pyxrt, xpyny. yunnact no cnntntm
crpyxm napa n poxannm xacrpmntxn ysnanart, xora xnnnr noa
nnn monoxo; xora xe xnnnr cyn nnn xama, +ro nerpyno ysnart
xorx t no onomy sanaxy. snan raxnm opasom, uro yxe nauanoct
xnnenne, x npoym noxxo nnn nnnxo xapro]ent, xanycry, mxco.
oneuno, eno ryr ne oxonrcx es oxoron pyx, onaxo +ro ne me-
maer mne npnroronnrt cee oe. ora xe mne npnxonrcx noxa-
pnnart nyx, xapro]ent, xornert, ro n raxnx cnyuaxx mne ouent no-
moraer oonxnne, a ecnn uro-nnyt naunnaer npnropart, x momen-
rantno +ro ynannnnam, cnnmam cxonopoxy n ntxnmuam +nexrpnue-
cxym nnnrxy, xoropo x otuno nontsymct xax nanonee yono
nx menx.
axnm opasom, xnrecxn ontr, ocxsanne, oonxnne a eme
nxyconte omymennx amr mne nonnym nosmoxnocrt npnroronnrt
cee nnmy n nmoe npemx. oneuno, nasnart cex nepnoxnaccno
crpxnyxo x ornmt ne mory, x n ne crpemnmct x +romy (xynnnap-
nt rananr y menx orcyrcrnyer!), no opoxy xaxo mnnyro nx
roro, urot nounrart xnnry, noneuarart na mamnnxe, onaxo n ro-
nono ne tnam.
Bnrt uro-nno, mtrt nocyy, ntrepert ntnt, nonnnart nnert
n r..- nce +ro rax nerxo enart npn nomomn ocxsannx, uro x axe
ne sameuam cnonx cocrnenntx nnxenn: enam nce, xax rono-
pnrcx, anromarnuecxn. ce +rn menoun nponcxoxr nso nx n ent
ncm xnsnt y mnornx ns nac c ro nnmt pasnnne, uro spxuax xo-
sxxa nontsyercx spennem n cnyxom, cnenax - cnyxom, ocxsannem,
oonxnnem, a x - ocxsannem n oonxnnem. cxxn ]nsnuecxn
rpy, ocrynnt ocxsannm, ocrynen mne. r ymcrnennoro rpya x
mory nepexnmunrtcx na ]nsnuecxn, no mne neoxonmo epeut xax
ocxsanne, rax n oonxnne, uacrnuno samenxmmne spenne n cnyx.
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erom 1932 r. x mecxn rocrnna y cnoero orna n epcone. nna
npeenna - xena moero orna - tna n ro npemx na xypopre ne-
anexo or epcona. oma tnn ern n cecrpa nnt npeennt, xo-
ropax npnexana x nam ns ennnrpaa.
ren mo c yrpa yxonn na cnyxy, npnxonn x oey n cnona
yxonn na pasnnunte saceannx. o ntxontm nxm c xypopra
npnesxana nna npeenna, a nnora mt x ne esnnn.
ecmorpx na ro uro napoy n cemte tno mnoro, x nce xe cxy-
uana: nnxro ne mor mne unrart, a panencxne xnnrn, xoropte x c
coo npnnesna, tnn nepeunrant mnom no necxontxy pas. mnoro
nncana nncem; npnxox co cnyxt x oey, oren sacranan menx sa
mamnnxo. n ronopnn mne:
- uro rt rax mnoro paoraemt? t net npnexana ortxart.
orneuana:
- aptxone x npnntxna mnoro sannmartcx, n sect mne cxyu-
no es ena.
onn ns ntxontx ne, xora x ortxana nocne oea, xo
mne noomna nna npeenna n cxasana:
- ree npnexana ax.
- axax ax?
- nox nomponax cecrpa.
ncrana n cpasy xe nonana n oxrnx an. am x snana
ouent mano. t c nem paccrannct eme n pannem ercrne, n y menx
o ne coxpannnoct rontxo cmyrnoe nocnomnnanne.
- 0n1uxa, cecrpnuxa mox! x x paa, mo rn npmxana... npo
ree xoxnn ent sraym...
nemnoro pacrepxnact, ne snax, uro orneuart ae, norom cxa-
sana:
- a rt ne nnaut. or x xe ne nnauy.
ax onxrt sannaxana n npnxana menx x cee...
- 0n1uxa, nnno mem, mo rn ne aunm, a 041 y rex n1xpnr1...
nauana paccnpamnnart y an, re ona paoraer. ren mo
xax-ro ronopnn mne o ne, uro ona ouent cnoconax n nonxrnnnax
enymxa.
- paoram n xonrocm - ornxam xypuar.
mecre c ae npnexana ee nopyra mpa, xoropax oxonunna
n epcone pa]ax. mpa n ax npenoxnnn mne norn norynxrt
na yntnap. cornacnnact. a yntnape ax cxasana mne, uro
xouer npnrnacnrt menx x cee n ceno.
- nonyunna nmnycx na onn rnxent i yy nect uac s ro-
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om rynxrn. ox mama ye yxe paa, mo rt npnrem. Fona npo
ree sray xoxnn ent...
mpa n ax neotuano ynnnxnnct ncemy, uro x ronopnna
nnn cnpamnnana y nnx. x nnna noouepeno cxnonxnnct x moemy
nnny, cnonno n monx nespxunx rnasax onn xorenn npounrart xa-
xym-ro rany. nn menx ne rontxo ocmarpnnann co ncex cropon, a
axe omyntnann menx pyxamn, xax yro xorenn yenrtcx, ne
omantnaer nn nx spenne.
ax npocnna menx noxasart e axrnnonornm. cornacnnact,
no ne ouent nepnna, uro ona nomer menx. naxo ax npensomna
mon oxnannx n uepes uac yxe ronopnna axrnnonorne. mpa ro-
xe nsxnnna xenanne ntyunrt axrnnonornm, no onnaena em ona
ne rax nerxo, xax ax. ax npenoxnna:
- 0n1uxa, ana memo smmemoct, o x yxe xouy, mo rnox
xaprouxa yna y mene.
ne nmnm ]ororpa]nponartcx, no ae x ne xorena orxasart
n yonontcrnnn. rontxo nonpocnna sarn omo, urot nepeoert-
cx. oe nnarte ouent nonpannnoct enymxam, ocoenno ae.
onpannxx nonoct, nepe rem xax c]ororpa]nponartcx, x no-
uyncrnonana, uro or an cnntno sanaxno nypo; n ro xe npemx
pyxa an npnxocnynact x moemy nnny. orxasanact nypnrtcx.
3ro ynnnno am.
- uoro rn ne xouer nypnrtcx?
- nnxora ne nypmct.
t cenn ]ororpa]nponartcx. ax onxna menx sa nneun n
cxnonnnact x moemy nnny. e snam, xax x ntmna na +ro ]ororpa-
]nn: x yexana ns epcona pantme, uem ax nonyunna +ry ]oro-
rpa]nm...
ax n mpa ymnn nouenart x xaxo-ro nx snaxomo, no npe-
napnrentno mt ycnonnnnct, uro na cneymmn ent onn sayr sa
mno uaca n 4, rax xax napoxo orxonn n 5 uacon neuepa.
II
a cneymmn ent, xora x npocnynact, nnt npeennt yxe
ne tno. na yexana na xypopr. cnpocnna annny:
- ouemy nx ne nonpomanact co mno?
- na noxanena rex ynrt n rontxo ocropoxno rex none-
nonana.
- nnnrentno, uro x ne nouyncrnonana ee nonenyx.
- t xpenxo cnana...
enymxn npnmnn sa mnom pantme ycnonnennoro npemenn, a y
nac oe eme ne tn roron. annna na cxopym pyxy npnroronnna
mne sanrpax, no am n mpy x crony ne npnrnacnna. ama xe x
nx npnrnacnrt ne morna, rax xax ne snana, uem nx yrocrnrt. xy-
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mana n uyncrnonana, uro xpacnem. ne oena sanrpaxa n nomna
nepeoenartcx n opory...
ce npomannct co mno ouent xopomo.
a xptntne croxna orpomnax xopsnna, nanonnennax xaxnmn-ro
ysnamn. pyuxe xopsnnt tno npnnxsano neuro npoe nonorenna.
ax nerxo nsnannna cee na nneuo +ry xopsnny, a mpa xpome
cnonx neme nsxna eme mo uemoanunx. nsxna am no pyxy,
n mt ntmnn na ynnny.
Ftno ymno, ne xnarano nosyxa nx txannx, n norn nxno
nepennrannct no mocrono.
o npncrann tno anexo. enymxamn x nourn ne ronopnna,
rax xax nomnnna, uro pyxn y nnx sanxrt nemamn. pomnn mt npn-
nnsnrentno nonoporn. nauana uyncrnonart, uro connne samno,
a n nosyxe noxnnncx sanax nnarn. nauana x noymana, uro mt
noxonm x pexe, n cnpocnna y an:
- exa yxe nnna?
- Hi, me anexo. mornxouem?
- ne xaxercx, uro connne samno.
- a, connna nema. a ne1 nennxa xmapa, i sapas ye om.
ecrnnrentno, cnonno nornepxax cnona an, na mon pyxn
n nnno ynann xpynnte xononte oxente xannn, a uepes necxont-
xo mnnyr nomen nponnnno oxt. osnpamartcx omo ne tno
nnxaxoro cmtcna, no+romy nam npnmnoct cnpxrartcx no nanec
oma. ax nocrannna cnom xopsnny n ycanna menx na cnon ysnt.
nonnrepeconanact:
- rex eme ne onnr cnnna or +ro xopsnnt?
ax xax yro ynnnnact.
- uoro? me ne rax1 m1mxn nomy!
- x +ry xopsnny n c mecra ne morna t nonxrt.
- n muoro ne ponm, a x oma nce ponm cama...
nonpocnna am:
- ora mt npneem x ree, rt noemt co mno n none?
- n xpyrom memo: i na cren, i na p1uxy, i na nenay,- no-
oemana ona.
asronop y nac xax-ro ne nxsancx. t rontxo nspexa omenn-
nannct nesnaunrentntmn ]pasamn. norpysnnact n nocnomnnannx
o moe xnsnn c mareptm... on mtcnn npepnana ax:
- om nxe uyrt xpanae. Bemo, mo nocmrn na naponnan.
o noramn x uyncrnonana ontmne nyxn not. mpa n ax
tnn octe, a na mne tnn napycnnonte ry]nn, xoropte tcrpo
npomoxnn.
a napoxo mt cenn es ocooro rpya, xorx napoy tno mno-
ro. +ro snana no nenpeptnntm ronuxam n mon oxa, necmorpx
axe na ro, uro ax n mpa pennocrno oeperann menx.
a nanye ax ntpana cnoonoe mecro, nocrannna cnom ne-
nsmennym xopsnny n paymno ycanna menx.
- Fyem mo xart, o xaxyrt, mo naponnan me r1ntxn uepes
ronny.
Ill
ax n mpa ycennct nosne menx npxmo na nanye.
- apas naponnan me,- cxasana ax.
ne necxontxo pas npnxonnoct esnrt napoxoom na xypopr
x nne npeenne, n mne tno yxe snaxomo nnxenne napoxoa.
ora napoxo naunnan nnrartcx, mne xasanoct, uro x uyncr-
nym nenne ontmoro cepna - onee noxoxmero cpannennx
x ne mory narn,- n, xpome roro, x uyncrnonana, uro nanya cnerxa
corpxcaercx. o +rnm nym npnsnaxam x n morna onpeennrt nn-
xenne napoxoa.
uepes necxontxo mnnyr x ecrnnrentno nouyncrnonana, uro
ontmoe cepne~ sannoct n napoxo nauan orxonrt or npncrann.
enouxn nmecre cxasann:
- xe noxann...
IV
mpa nonpocnna menx:
- anare noronopnmo, mo x ne sayna nann nurepn.
mpo mt nocrenenno pasronopnnnct. na paccxasana mne o
rom, uro ona yxe oxonunna pa]ax, a renept ne snaer, xya e no-
crynnrt yunrtcx antme. cnpocnna:
- axym cnennantnocrt nt xorenn t nsyunrt?
- ouy yrn arponomom.
- ouemy nam xouercx trt arponomom?
- e snam, muoro 1ntn ne npnymam. mo nn mem nocon1-
ryere?
- nac eme mano snam, no ntcxasart cnoe mnenne mory: na
namem mecre x t nocrynnna yunrtcx n nearornuecxn rexnnxym,
a norom paorana t centcxo yunrentnnne. et y nac n cene
yunrent ns ropoa?
- ax, y nac n onn yunrent s m1cra, yxe menon xnonent,
omy r1ntxn 20 pomn.
- ax nouemy t nam n camom ene ne nocrynnrt yunrtcx n
nerexnnxym?
- nom1pxym n cxaxy ro1 nam.
acrana nout. apoxo nntn menenno. oynan npoxnant,
ctpo nerep. ne crano xonono, n x naena uynxn. ax n mpa,
xaxercx, pemann, cxnonxct na xopsnny. nonoxnna pyxn na nx
nneun n uyncrnonana, uro onn tmann rnyoxo n ponno.
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nxr~,- noymana x n cnxna pyxn c nx nneu. ne conepmenno
ne xorenoct cnart. nno moe omymano xononym remnory noun.
Fontmoe cepne~ ecnpeptnno nnoct. enx paspaxan npo-
rnnnt sanax maxopxn n sanax uenoneuecxoro nora, axe nerep ne
mor ocnexnrt nosyx na nanye.
Fnnsocrt nme x uyncrnonana, no ne morna nx nn nnert, nn
cntmart, n +ro cosanano mexy mnom n nmn nenpeoonnmym npe-
rpay. tcnenno x npecrannxna cee, xax nennxa +ra nperpaa.
ouemy-ro crano rpycrno. cnomnnna aptxon, yupexenne, n xo-
ropom x nocnnrtnamct. am mne nce tno nnsxoe, ponoe, sna-
xomoe o mentuamnx noponocre.
o n +ror momenr utx-ro nesnaxomax pyxa nsxna mom pyxy n
nanncana n ne, enax rpammarnuecxne omnxn:
- enx sonyr nx. aunna, xax s namn ranapnna ax n
mpa. roxe xauy noranapnrt s namn...
cnpocnna:
- nt xya eere?
- ya, xya n nt. xnny neanexo or an.
- t uro - yunrect nnn paoraere?
- er, x antnax. esnna n npcon npnnnmart nannt.
menx pemarnsm.
- xoro xe nt xnnere?
- xnny s mamo n s parom. Fpar paorae. nt orxya
npnexann?
- npnexana ns aptxona x moemy orny n epcon, a renept
ey n rocrn x rere.
- Bro xe nt y aptxone enaere?
- yuyct n yupexennn nx cnenornyxonemtx.
ox nonax snaxomax tna nopaxena rem, uro x yuyct. na
npenonoxnna:
- n mayt ouent ymnax, o nn xe cnena n rnyxa, a yunrect.
xoporxo n nonxrno paccxasana ne o namem yupexennn. o
ne snam, nonxna nn ona menx, no ncxxom cnyuae ona cnpocnna:
- nnna epynnane yxe nerann?
- er, eme ne nerana.
3ro cnona ynnnno nm.
- enxe nac mxro ne nostmer na epynnan?
- emann nsxrt, no o cnx nop ne epyr.
- nac ouent npomy, xx nn noneraere na epynnane, ro nann-
mnre mne, xax ero neramr epynnant.
- nam mory n ceuac paccxasart, nouemy a+ponnant neramr.
- oxanycra, ouent npomy.
nauana paccxastnart ne ycrpocrno a+ponnana, a ona ec-
npeptnno ynnnxnact, orxya x nce snam.
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- xe cxopo mt npneem,- cxasana mne nx.
pasynna am n mpy. nn conno sacyernnnct, nnnmo, ne
nonnmax, re onn naxoxrcx. uepes nexoropoe npemx napoxo ocra-
nonnncx, n mt nomnn x rpany. ax mne nnuero ne cxasana, xa-
xnm opasom mt oepemcx x epery. mpa nepnax xya-ro npt-
rnyna n sapana xopsnny. ax roxe cnptrnyna, a rax nnsxo, uro
x morna epxart rontxo ee pyxy. orom ona norxnyna menx nnns
n nsxna na pyxn. o noramn x uyncrnonana epenxnnt nomocr,
no on pacxaunnancx. coopasnna, uro naxoxyct n ontmo noxe.
ecrnnrentno, x nouyncrnonana, uro noxa nnxercx - mt nonnt-
nn x epery. oxa o orxasa tna nepenonnena nmtmn n ysnamn.
a mrnonenne y menx mentxnyna mtcnt: uro, ecnn noxa onpo-
xnnercx? ~
epery mt nntnn npnnnsnrentno nonuaca, no +rn nonuaca
noxasannct mne ecxoneuntmn. axonen, noxa ronxnynact nn-
mem o no pexn n ocranonnnact. mpa sapana xopsnny n ysnt, a
ax nsxna menx na pyxn n ntnecna na eper.
mpa npocrnnact c namn n nomna n pyrym cropony, a x c a-
e - x ne,
t mnn no nentcoxo rpane. nrycroncxax nout tmana npo-
xnao. xano ntxana cnexn nosyx. t mnn monua. n o
uem ne xorenoct ronopnrt. axonen, ax ocranonnnact n ronxnyna
xannrxy.
- ct mn nxe n npnmnn o nac. apas mem n xary.
ax nocryuana n nept, n xro-ro ntmen orxptrt nept.
ox n xary, x cpasy nouyncrnonana sanax naxyunx rpan. 3ro
nonpannnoct mne. yonontcrnnem noymana: cnn n xare nosyx
xopomn, snaunr, n uncro~.
omyrnna sanax saxxenno cnnuxn n nonxna, uro saxnramr
namny: ax nonena menx x xenmnne.
- ct mox mama...
entcoxax, nonnax xenmnna - rerx uenx - onxna menx, n
x nouyncrnonana, uro ona nsparnnaer. oxptm or cnes nnnom ona
npnxanact x moemy nnny... roxe nemnoro paccrponnact n ne sna-
na, uro ronopnrt rere. naxart xe mne ne xorenoct.
ax noxcnnna:
- ama nnaue, o yxe xan1e ree. Fona xaxe, xx xe ne rn
ne aunm i ne uyem.
pamaxct x rere, x cxasana:
- erx, ne nnautre n ne xanere menx, x xnny xopomo, yuyct,
a ontme mne nnuero ne nyxno...
o mne noomnn oren an - xx nron - n par onx.
onm x ne snana, rax xax +ro tn mantunx ner 12.
o o yrpa eme tno anexo, no+romy rerx uenx nauana con-
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part mne n ae yxnn~ - cnapnna nent ecxrox xnn. ocne et
mt nce nernn cnart. enx, xax rocrtm, nomecrnnn na raxo ntco-
xo xponarn, uro x ena morna na nee neut. ponart tna noxptra
nontm pxnom (+ro x ysnana na ocxsanne). o-nnnmomy, na +ro
xponarn nnxro ne cnan n croxna ona n xare xax yxpamenne. so-
panmnct na +ry xponart, x namna na ne neuro npoe cxareprn,
xoropo ax npenoxnna mne yxptrtcx.
cenana nn, uro sactnam, na camom xe ene x cnart ne xo-
rena. exy npounm, x cnexemy sanaxy naxyunx rpan npnmemn-
nancx nexnt sanax nnerymero oneanpa. noro ner x +roro pacre-
nnx ne nnena n, necmorpx na +ro, nomnnna sanax ero nneron.
a cneymmn ent x npocnynact yxe nosno. oxnnxnyna
am. na noomna xo mne.
- t anno ncrana?
- Hi, ne yxe... ama i raro noexann na cren, a mn me cnann.
- roxe yy ncranart.
ocne ymtnannx (x ymtnanact no nope), xora x oenanact
nosne cynyxa, cnyuano sanennna nerxy xaxoro-ro pacrennx. oc-
morpena nncrtx n no nx ]opme ysnana, uro +ro oneanp. n tn
ontmo, c pacxnnyrtmn nernxmn n croxn na cryne nosne oxna.
ouent nmnm +ro pacrenne n renept c nacnaxennem nmxana
nexno naxnymne nnert.
oxa x oenanact, ax roronnna sanrpax. o sanaxy orypnon
n nomnopon x yxe onpeennna, xaxo yer sanrpax. ax no-
nena menx x crony, n x cena na marxn cryn. a crone nepeo mnom
croxna mrnxa, onepxy nanonnennax orypnamn n nomnopamn. x-
om c mncxo n rnyoxo rapenxe nexan ontmo nomort rennoro
nmennunoro xnea. yr xe nexana raxax xe sameuarentnax nnnxa,
xoropym rpyno tno epxart n pyxe, no ona onaana cnoco-
nocrtm npamartcx no nce cropont. naxo, necmorpx na upesmep-
nym nonnxnocrt~ nnnxn, x c annernrom npnnxnact sa cno sanr-
pax. oe nnnmanne npnnnex sanax paspesanno tnn, xoropym
ax npnnecna mne na saxycxy. cnpocnna am:
- ouemy rt ne sanrpaxaemt?
- I, r1ntxn ne ryr.
- re xe?
ax, no-nnnmomy, satna o rom, uro x ne nnxy, n noxasana
pyxo n cropony. cnpocnna:
- asne nt sa cronom ne xymaere?
- )xo, o mxonn cmarn sa cr1n...
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xopo x nam npnmna mpa. cpasy ee ysnana.
- x To6i cnanoct y a1? - cnpocnna ona.
- opomo, rontxo xponart ouent ntcoxax, x oxnact, uro ecnn
ynay, ro pasotmct concem.
mpa sacmexnact, nsopanact na xponart n nauana xauartcx na
ne.
- em o n1 (nena),-cxasana mne ax.
- xaxo ne?
- A xi6a rn ne snaer? He x mox nompsna cecrpa. 1 To6i
nona cecrpa.
- er, x ee ne snam...
t nomnn x ne. na ncrpernna menx ouent nacxono n nann-
cana na moe pyxe:
- ree snam.
- x nac ne snam,- ornernna x.
nx npnrnacnna nac ncex n xary. nouyncrnonana, uro y nent
n xare ne raxo xopomn nosyx, xax y an. uepes necxontxo mn-
nyr x nouyncrnonana npyr sanax nannpoc. cnpocnna y mpt:
- ro sect xypnr?
- He npnmon o n1 ii xennx. apas nm nosnaomnrtcx s
room. oro snart nxona. m nam rpaxropncr.
nxona noomen xo mne n orpyenme or paort pyxo xpenxo
cxan mom pyxy. ena ne ncxpnxnyna or onn. ora xe x nauana
oxcnxrt emy, uro on moxer nanncart na moe pyxe, on tn rax
pacrepxn n, nnnmo, rax nonnonancx, uro c rpyom mor nanncart
rontxo: onx~. ax n mpa nepeanann mne:
- nxona ne moxe s room ronopnrn. omy ree yxe xanxo.
m rpoxn ne nnaue.
cxasana nxone:
- e nyxno menx xanert, xorx x n ne nnxy, no x raxo xe
uenonex, xax n nt...
nxona oopnrentno noxan mne pyxy. mpa nepeana mne ero
cnona:
- nxona xaxe, mo nm sapas e na cren i nc1m posxaxe, mo
rn npmxana. euepom np1yrt xnonm i 1nuara. Fyem onro ry-
nxrn.
- ope,- cxasana x.
V
ora mt exann eme x ae, ona ronopnna;
- enep i 1nuara i xnonm na crony, o xoconnnx y nac. o-
xe HixTO n ne npne.
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nxona cepxan cnoe cnono - x neuepy n ceno nauana con-
partcx monoext. , ax, mpa n nx ntmnn na ynnny. ac t-
crpo oxpyxnnn enymxn n napnn. enymxn es crecnennx snaxo-
mnnnct co mno, a napnn cnauana nornxtnann na menx nsanexa.
orom x nouyncrnonana, uro concem nnsxo or menx saxnramr cnnu-
xn. ro-ro ns napne nonec x moemy nnny ropxmym cnnuxy. +ro
nouyncrnonana n orcrynnna nasa. ax cxasana mne:
- n ne nxxacx! He nam xnonm sacn1uymrt c1pnnxn, mo
xpame nonnnrnct na ree. axyrt, mo rn I yxe nonpannnact.
- ouemy?
- axyrt, mo rn yxe 1nentxa, a nanii 1nuara ai uopm...
o mno saronopnna mpa:
- apas xnonm sarpamrt na rapmonn. axyrt, mo nonn ree
nrramrt mysnxom.
- xxym, xou x n ne uym,- sacmexnact x.
Fontmo rypto mt copannct nosne nopa an, onoext
xpyxxom paccenact noxpyr menx. asymeercx, ntcxastnannct mno-
roxparnte coxanennx no moemy apecy, a mpa n ax nemenen-
no nepeanann mne nce +ro. ax, nanpnmep, ax nepeanana:
- nn xnonent xaxe: xn moxno yno narn OI ou1
om 1nunm, x sapas noronncx na ne. exa n nona aunna
mo1mn ounma, o nona pasymna 1nunna, a x nce p1nno ypnn~.
sacmexnact n ornernna:
- onapnmy, xxym nac sa name ope axannx, ane men1
anii ou1 ne norp1n1, x cee nouynam macnnnom. n xaxere, mo nn
nce one ypnn~, a mo x nn yere ponrn, xx oacre menn nann
ou1?
ax nepeana mon cnona.
- c1m nonpannnnct TOI cnona. onn yxe cmmrtcx...
ora x exana x ae, x na ncxxn cnyua saxnarnna c coo
necxontxo xnnr, nanncanntx mpn]rom Fpanx, n panencxym
ocxy. ax n mpa paccxasann monoexn, uro x unram nantnamn.
3ro xpane sannrepeconano ncex. ax nomna n xary n ntnecna
xnnry (+ro tn anrnpennrnosnt yuennx na yxpanncxom xstxe).
nauana unrart. ce nnxe noonnnynnct xo mne. apnn saxn-
rann cnnuxn n cxnonxnnct na xnnro. ounrana o rouxn n cxa-
sana:
- xe xpanxa...
axe ne noospenana, xaxoe cnntnoe nneuarnenne nponsneno
na oxpyxammnx cnono xpanxa~. rontxo uyncrnonana, uro nce
nnsxo cxnonxmrcx na xnnro, cnonno uero-ro nmyr. apnn uyrt
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nn ne x camtm crpannnam nonocnnn saxxennte cnnuxn. cnpo-
cnna y mpt:
- uro onn nmyr?
- onn myxamrt xpanxy, o I yxe nnno, xx rn ii noaunna.
onn ii ne auart.
- oneuno, onn ee n ne ynnxr nnxora, net onn xe ne snamr
rex yxn, xaxne sect nanncant.
ax ynnnenno cnpocnna:
- Xi6an,e yxna xpanxa~?
- er, +ro raxax manentxax rouxa, xoropym cranxr n xnnrax.
na nastnaercx snaxom npennnannx. crt eme n pyrne snaxn npe-
nnnannx.
mpa cxasana:
- , xx xe i cm1mrtcx sapas...
- uoro x nonn cmrortcx? - ynnnnact x.
- onn ree ne sposym1nn. onn rn cxasana nxe xpanxa~,
yc1m sanocx, mo na xnnry ynana xxa-neyt xpannx. Vi snnyna-
nnct, xx rn n noaunna, a onn xnonent xaxe: anare myxarn
ry xpannm, mo noaunna cnma 1nunna~.
enept yx n x ne morna yepxartcx or cmexa. acmexnmnct,
x cxasana:
- nymare, ronapnmn, ecnn t axe na xnnry ynana xaxax-
nnyt xpannx, x nce panno namna t ee nantnamn, eme cxopee,
uem nt rnasamn...
asomnnct mt nosno. ce tnn ouent onontnt. ro tn no-
cmenee, pyxecxn noxnman mne pyxy na npomanne.

a cneymmn ent ax cxasana, uro e nyxno norn n cent-
coner.
- ama c1ntpaa y ueop1nm.
- asne y nac ner cnoero centconera?
- ema, romy mo nemnxy n ueop1nxy o+nann.
- anexo o ueoponxn?
- Fnnstxo.
t oennct n nomnn n ueoponxy, naxonnmymcx n nonyxn-
nomerpe or nenonxn. t npnmnn pano, n centconere eme nnxoro
ne tno. t cenn no nope na cxamexe. uepes necxontxo mnnyr
x nam noomna xaxax-ro enymxa, n ax c ne pasronapnnana, a
x monuana. enymxa cnena ne pxom co mno, a c pyro cropont.
nosne an. o, necmorpx na +ro, x uyncrnonana sanax oneanpa.
cnpocnna y an:
- ouemy naxner oneanpom?
- n1e 1 1nunnn e ntrox.
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ax cxasana enymxe, uro x nouyncrnonana sanax oneanpa;
enymxa orana mne cno nnerox. axonen, centconer orxptncx,
n mt samnn rya. amo coo pasymeercx, uro y an nauann cnpa-
mnnart, xro x. ora xe ax paccxasana nm, uro x rpamornax, onn
ne nonepnnn. ax nepeana nx cnona mne. cxasana:
- a mne xapanam n ymary, x uro-nnyt nannmy.
nanncana n nouyncrnonana no sanaxy, uro nnsxo nosne menx
croxr nmn. nanncana necxontxo orentntx cnon: cron, xomna-
ra, ax, nna, nero~. utx-ro pyxa nsxna y menx nncr ymarn, a
ax cxasana:
- onona c1ntpan unrae, mo rn nncana. i yxe snnonam.
- enept onn nepxr, uro x rpamornax?
- yxe n1pxrt.
ora ax noronopnna no cnoemy eny, mt cpasy xe ymnn
omo. onx nam npnnec oe ns xonxosa. ax naxptna cron, a x
no sanaxy onpeennna, uro na oe opm c mxcom n nnporn. ora x
xymana rpomant xycox nnpora, nouyncrnonana sanax tnn.
- ax, rt pexemt tnm?
- a, sapas x ro1 am, mo rn ii ycm suna.
VI
me n epcone ax coomnna mne:
- mene e xennx. m psnn par mpn. oro snart tona.
m rpaxropncr.
+ror ent neuepom ena npnexan c nonx n nmecre c pyrnmn
napnxmn npnmen x ae. pnmnn enymxn n napnn, xoropte eme
ne nnenn menx, n no+romy mne cnona npnmnoct unrart nm uro-
nnyt.
mpa ynnnenno ronopnna mne:
- x rn ne npn1xxana, ro ai xnonm i 1nuara nouynann y
creny, a sapas mnnmn mpamn yrt. Hmano 1m nonnnrnct na ree.
ornernna, cmexct:
- exa nnnxrtcx.
ora nce pasomnnct, ax nosnaxomnna menx c eno. n
nanncan na moe pyxe necxontxo cnon. epxana ero sa pyxy n sa-
mernna, uro pyxn ent nopasnrentno noxoxn na pyxn mpt, ront-
xo ee pyxn mentme, uem pyxn ent...
a cneymmn ent neuepom ena cnona npnmen x ae, no
neuep tn xonont, n mt neonro rynxnn. , mpa, ax n ena
ymnn n xary, a ocrantnte pasomnnct no cnonm omam. mpa roxe
cxopo ymna or nac. ymana, uro nmecre c nem ymen n ena, no
+romy cxasana ae, uro yy noxnrtcx cnart. na npnroronnna
mne nocrent, r. e. cnxna c xponarn nnmnne noymxn n ocrana ns
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cynyxa npocrtnm. o xora x xorena yxe cnxrt nnarte, nouyncr-
nonana npyr sanax nannpoct.
- ax, xro +ro xypnr?
- tona, in me ryr cnnrt.
- xax xe x yy pasenartcx npn nem?
3ror nonpoc ouent ynnnn am.
- Xi6a To6i copomno, mo tona ryr.
- y, a xax xe? n net nx menx uyxo uenonex.
- uemy uyxn? m mm xennx.
yntnynact nannnocrn an.
- omn, ax, uro +ro ne concem yono...
- ope, tona mmon y cmn i saunnnn nep1. asxracx...
nnm renntm neuepom mt c ae nomnn na nenay. a ne-
nae tna rycrax n ntcoxax rpana, mt cenn ram. pome sanaxa
pasntx rpan x uyncrnonana eme sanax pexn.
- ax, pasne nama nenaa neanexo or pexn?
- yxe nnstxo,- orneuana ax n uepes naysy oannna,
cmexct:
- ax nnstxo, mo i xaa ocxoue...
t nernn na rpany n monuann. ax saronopnna nepnax:
- toror tona ne npne. x n nm yn ryr s namn...
- x xouy, urot menx xomapt ne xycann, x nmn rax ncxy-
cana, uro ontme n nentsx.
- 1x ryr yxe oraro.
- a, x +ro ouent uyncrnym. x sect rax mnoro noromy, uro
nnsxo pexa.
- apas x ro1 napny nnrn i mem o omy. oxe, mpa
npnmna.
uepes mnnyry ax nepnynact n pocnna mne n pyxn pocncrt
yxer. pexe uem x ocmorpena nnert, x yxe no sanaxy ysnana,
uro +ro uepnopnnnt.
- nacno, ax, x xax pas nmnm +rn nnert.
VII
nepaoun ent nourn c camoro yrpa monoext nauana rynxrt
no ynnnam. ocne oea x nam samna mpa. na tna oera npas-
nnuno: n nnnno mepcrxno mxe n n ntmno nysxe. ax xe
oenact n ax (onn cmnnn cee onnaxonte nnartx). x napxt
mne ne npannnnct, no camn onn ronopnnn, uro rax yxe rapno~.
xracx i memo na xomcomontctn sopn,- cxasana ax.
mpa n ax tnn xomcomonxn.
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naena cnoe posonoe nnarte, n xoropom noxc sanxstnancx an-
rom. ax n cnom ouepet nmemanact n mo ryaner~. na nsxna
noxc n sanxsana ero raxnm ntmntm anrom, uro nnarte pasyna-
noct, a anr noxonn na ontmym yponnnym aouxy. 3ro mne ne
npannnoct, a ax tna ouent onontna.
a copanne mt nomnn n mxony. ora mt npntnn, ram yxe
tno cnntno naxypeno n naxno cemeuxamn.
mpa n ax nepeanann mne ro, uro ocyxann na copannn.
a xomcomontcxom copannn x tna nnepnte, no+romy cnymana e-
nymex c nnrepecom, necmorpx na ro uro or yxort n raaunoro
tma y menx naunnana onert ronona. ora copanne oxonunnoct,
mt ntmnn na ynnny...
pasronope c mpo x e, mexy npounm, cxasana, uro ee pyxn
noxoxn na pyxn ent. 3ro ouent ynnnno oenx enymex.
- x xe rn ne noaunna? - cnpocnna mpa.
- nasamn x +roro ne nnena, a pyxamn, uyncrnym.
enymxn tnn upesntuano sannrepeconant. nn ocranonn-
nnct na ynnne n npenoxnnn mne ocmorpert nx nnna.
- n cxaxn, un noxoxa x na am? - cxasana mpa.
noouepeno ocmorpena nx nnna n ornernna:
- er, conepmenno ne noxoxn pyr na pyra. rex, mpa,
nnno xpyrnoe, xax apys, a noc xax xapro]ent. an nnno npo-
onronaroe n mentme, a noc npxmo n ronxn.
- xro To6i 1ntne nooanrtcx? - cnpocnna mpa.
- ne ontme npannrcx nnno an.
- He romy, mo nona rnox cecrpa.
- er, ne no+romy, a noromy, uro x nmnm nnna c ronxnmn
uepramn. rex xe xax pas xpynnte ueprt nnna.
- renept nonnnct na nann ]1rypn.
ocmorpena nx ]nrypt.
- xoro xpame? - cnona cnpocnna mpa.
- an nsxmnee ]nrypa, rontxo +ro nnarte ee noprnr.
+ror ent neuepom x onxna tna yesxart n epcon. ora
samno connne, mt nomnn omo conpartcx n opory. outm on-
xen tn noorn napoxo, xoropt men n epcon, no x pexe mt
nomnn uacon n II neuepa.
pomaxct co mno, rerx uenx nauana onxrt nnaxart. oome
ncx cemtx an npomanact co mno renno n cepeuno, npnrnamann
eme npnesxart.
ax nsxna c coo cnom nensmennym xopsnny, xoropax cnona
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c namn ornpannxnact n epcon. a ynnne nac ncrpernna nenax
rypta enymex n napne. ce npomannct co mno. uacrt monoe-
xn orennnact or ome rpynnt n nomna nponoxart nac na eper.
mpa, xoropax mna pxom co mno, paccxastnana mne:
- onepey syrt xnonm c rapmome m n cmnamrt mcm. a-
pas xxact xmxa nnrae: o ne raxe?~, a xnonm xaxyrt: He
cnaa~. mxa snony nnrae: e x nama nen1cra?~ nn xno-
nent noxasan na ree i xaxe: ct nen1cra~. Vi cm1mrtcx...
a epery mt cenn na rpany. exoropte crann npocnrt menx
npounrart nm uro-nnyt na npomanne. npounrana orptnox ns
arepnnt~ Benuenxo. oe-xro ymen n ceno, a necxontxo napne
n enymex (n rom uncne n mpa) cnenn c namn o rex nop, noxa
ne noexana sa namn noxa.

out tna xononax, n mt ne ocrannct na nanye. cm opory
x ro sactnana, ro nnont npoctnanact or pasnnuntx ronuxon. r-
pom, xora nsomno connne, mt tnn yxe n epcone.
o nope nam cxasana cocexa, uro y menx oma nnxoro ner:
anx, nnx n ern yexann x nne npeenne na xypopr, nana na
cnyxe, a nana xya-ro ymna.
~ my na asap xynnrn mo-neyt, a rn nocnt ryr; moxe,
nana cxopo npne,- cxasana ax.
cena na xptntno, re ax nocrannna cnom xopsnny. uepes
nexoropoe npemx x nouyncrnonana no maram, uro xro-ro nonnma-
ercx na xptntno. utx-ro pyxa nsxna menx noptnncro sa pyxy. ne
ysnana, xro +ro. ora noomemax xo mne xenmnna nanncana na
moe pyxe: 3ro x, anx~. ynnnenno nepecnpocnna:
- anx? - n ryr rontxo ncnomnnna, uro anx - cecrpa nnt
npeennt. ee snana, no rora nouemy-ro satna o ne.
enx yxacno romnna xaxa, a nama xnaprnpa tna sanepra.
cxasana ane, uro xouy not. anx nonpocnna not y name
cocexn. ocexa nosnana menx n xomnary, no, xora x nxonna n
nept, utn-ro pyxn csan nsxnn menx sa nneun. nonepnynact n
ysnana nany.
- ya rt nemt? - cnpocnna ona.
- xouy not.
- em omo.
ora nana nncana na moe pyxe, y nee tnn raxne nnxennx,
cnonno ona uemy-ro paonanact. +ro samernna cpasy, no ne y-
mana, urot ona tna paa moemy nosnpamennm, no y menx tno
raxoe nneuarnenne, uro nana noome ne cunraer menx sa cecrpy
n axe cmorpnr neopoxenarentno na moe npncyrcrnne n cemte.
uepes necxontxo ne x yexana n aptxon.
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II
ne xax cnenornyxo, xoneuno, ne npnxonrcx cntmart ronoca
oxpyxammnx menx nme nnn nnert nx nnna; x nocroxnno nnxy
rontxo nx pyxn; no+romy, urot nmert onee nnn menee rounoe
npecrannenne o rom nnn nnom uenonexe, mne npnxonrcx nsyuart
manemne noponocrn nnxenn ero pyx.
ne xaxercx, uro pyxn uenonexa moryr trt ne menee ntpasn-
rentntmn, uem ronoc n rnasa. et, ecnn uenonex cepnrcx, neo-
nonen, ononen, ycran, pa n r. ., ero ronoc n rnasa xcno ntpa-
xamr nce +rn uyncrna. o ne rontxo n ronoce n no ncem ntpaxennn
nnna orpaxamrcx pasnnunte +monnn uenonexa, onn ntpaxamrcx c
ne mentme xcnocrtm n no ncex nnxennxx ero pyxn axe n no-
xoxe.
ax, nanpnmep, xora xo mne noxonr . . n noxnmaer mne
pyxy, x yxe no onomy +romy noxarnm ysnam, n xaxom ona na-
crpoennn nnn xaxoe y nee camouyncrnne. cnn . . noxnmaer mne
pyxy noptnncro, no n ro xe npemx co cnoxono mxrxocrtm, x uyn-
crnym, uro y nee xopomee nacrpoenne, uro ona uem-ro onontna.
cnn xe ona noxnmaer mom pyxy xorx n noptnncro, no c poxtm
n pyxe n es ncxxoro uyncrna, x oratnamct, uro . . ouent pac-
crpoena, y nee poxar pyxn, a xora ona ronopnr co mno axrnno-
norne, ro ee nantnt c rpyom cxnatnamrcx n yxnt.
uacro ysnam nacrpoenne ., xora ona sannmaercx co mno.
cnn . n nnoxom nacrpoennn, y nee nnxennx pesxne n nexcnax
axrnnonornx, a ecnn ona no npemx nxronxn nnmer spxune snaxn
npennnannx, +ro roxe nonyuaercx pesxo, cepnro. raxnx cnyuaxx
x cnpamnnam:
- ouemy nt n nnoxom nacrpoennn?
o . ncera orneuaer:
- .aoopor, n ouent xopomem.
naxo x ne nepm, noromy uro ncera cnexy sa nacrpoennem rex
nme, c xoroptmn x omamct.
moe nopyrn . x cpasy ysnam nacrpoenne, xax rontxo ona
noxnmaer mom pyxy. ora ona n nnoxom nacrpoennn, y nee ouent
nxnte, a uacro pesxne n nepnnte nnxennx. cnn xe ona necenax,
ro nnxennx pyx tcrpte n noptnncrte. . uacro xouer cxptrt or
menx cnoe nnoxoe nacrpoenne, no e +ro ne yaercx.
. . ouent ntpasnrentnte pyxn: moxer trt, +ro oxcnx-
ercx rem, uro on mnoro paoraer co cnenornyxonemtmn n xopo-
mo nonnmaer, xaxoe snauenne nmeer nx nac ntpasnrentnocrt
pyxn.
. ouent mnoro ncxyccrnenntx nnxenn, no nce-raxn x es-
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axas 812
omnouno ysnam, xora ona cepnrcx, n n raxnx cnyuaxx cnpa-
mnnam:
- ouemy nt raxax cepnrax?
unrart xe ntpasnrentno axrnnonorne, xax x samernna, rpy-
nee, uem npocro pasronapnnart, no npnxonrcx xaxoe cnono part
ns xnnrn, a +ro nectma ornnexaer nnnmanne na pyroe, a nmenno,
urot ne nponycxart yxn. o nce xe moxno n axrnnonorne na-
yunrtcx unrart ntpasnrentno. anpnmep, xora cnono xonuaercx
nocxnnnarentntm snaxom, enart ne nocnenne yxnt onee pes-
xo. cnn coepxanne xaxo-nnyt ]past nnn neno crpannnt
nocnr rpycrnt xapaxrep, ro moxno unrart ne pesxo n ne tcrpo
axrnnnponart cnona; ecnn unramrcx pamarnuecxne momenrt, ro
sect nyxno npnart axrnnonornuecxomy urennm uerxocrt, cnny n
noome nnoxnrt ro uyncrno, xaxoe mt nxnatnaem, xora unraem
+ro ronocom. oome nx ntpasnrentnoro axrnnonornuecxoro ure-
nnx rax xe, xax n nx urennx ronocom, ouent naxno, urot unram-
mn ne tn espasnnuen x romy, uro on unraer. crt raxne mo-
menrt no npemx axrnnonornuecxoro urennx, xora neoxonmo
nncart snaxn npennnannx: nanpnmep, xantuxn, cxoxn n mnororo-
une. cnn +rnx snaxon ne nncart, ro unraemt marepnan tnaer
menee nonxren.
!
rex nop xax x nauana nepennctnartcx c . . optxnm, x crpe-
mnnact nonacrt n ocxny, urot ncrpernrtcx c nmnmtm nnca-
renem n nennxnm pyrom...
e npnmnoct...
oesxa n ocxny cocroxnact rontxo n 1941 roy, n ona ocra-
nnna y menx nacrontxo cnntnoe, nensrnanmoe nneuarnenne, uro
mne xouercx paccxasart o ne, paccxasart, xax x omyrnna n noc-
npnnxna cnoe npetnanne n cronnne, n o rom, xax menx ncrpernna n
npnnxna pacnax ocxna.
asymeercx, x ne cmory nepeart nce, uro x nepeuyncrnonana n
nepexnna sa xoporxoe, tcrpo npomentxnynmee npemx, nponeennoe
n ocxne.
ocemenne ocxnt oorarnno menx nacrontxo, uro, necmorpx
na orcyrcrnne y menx, cnenornyxo, spnrentntx n cnyxontx nne-
uarnenn, mne npnmnoct t nanncart uyrt nn ne nenym xnnxxy o
+ro noesxe.
tna ne n +xcxypcnn, a esnna no eny.
ocxoncxne xpxne nn tnn nx menx nanonnent nontm cnep-
xammnm coepxannem.
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rpannuyct nnmt erntmn mrpnxamn, ome sapnconxo cnonx
nneuarnenn.
ax rontxo noes rponyncx n x omyrnna no noramn nce ytcr-
pxmmncx mepnt nepecryx xonec, menx oxnarnna rnyoxax
paocrt or cosnannx ctnmerocx annero xenannx... ey n
ocxny!
pnxrno tno uyncrnonart, uro cxopt noes ynocnr rex, rou-
no cxasount xptnart xont, ynocnr ns npnntuno, anno nsyuen-
no, npnmentxanmecx ocranonxn n nont, eme nesnaxomt npo-
cnannennt ropo rnoe meurt, n nonym, npexpacnym xnsnt.
ne pas esnna no xenesno opore n xopomo pasnpam nce
cment nnxennx noesa: tcrpym n samenxmmymcx esy.
aonan pannomepnt, pnrmnuecxn er xonec, nce npnnnxan-
mn menx x nenn nyremecrnnx. oes neren n nounym moposnym
ant, x sactnana n cxnost con uyncrnonana, xora on ocranannn-
nancx. poctnaxct or +roro, x c nerepnennem mtcnenno roponnna
noes: xopee, cxopee n ocxny!..~
acrynnno cnexnoe conneunoe yrpo. oes noxonn x ocxne.
enx nonnonana npecroxmax ncrpeua.
oneca samenxmr cno er, naron ocranannnnaercx. mecre c
pyrnmn naccaxnpamn x cxoxy na nnar]opmy. - n ocxne!
rpannoe, nonnymmee omymenne oxnartnaer menx.
y xenanno nenn. o +ror nepexo n mnp moe ctnmecx
meurt rax npocr n otuen, uro nenontno cnpamnnam:
- naunr, yxe ocxna?
epntm menx ncrpeuaer mo yunrent n nocnnrarent, npo]ec-
cop nan ]anactennu oxonxncxn. rapamct ne ntart cno-
ero paocrnoro nonnennx, no ryt neyepxnmo cxnatnamrcx n
yntxy...
raxcn onnaenam coo. ox nepenounna ne ornonr rnas or
tcrpo pasneprtnammecx nepe namn nanopamt ynnn ocxnt n
nepeaer mne nce, uro nnnr... euepom roro xe nx, necmorpx na
cnntnt mopos, mt c npo]eccopom ntmnn norynxrt.
- onono? - saornnno cnpamnnan npo]eccop.
- apxo! - orneuana x. ecrnnrentno, menx corpenana ro-
pxuax nonna paocrn, uro x, naxonen, n ocxne, n xpyry pyse -
craptx n nontx...

t nosnaem oxpyxammn mnp, oxpyxammne nemn, oma, ynn-
nt, ropo no nx pacnonoxennm n npocrpancrne. t omymaem co-
pasmepnocrt, nepcnexrnny, omymaem camoe npocrpancrno no pac-
nonoxennm n nem neme. pn +rom y nme, nnaemmnx ncemn
nxrtm opranamn uyncrn, nosnanne oxpyxammero mnpa otuno onn-
paercx na spnrentnoe n cnyxonoe nocnpnxrne. nyxo nepexnmua-
ercx na spnrentnoe, a cneno - na cnyxonoe nocnpnxrne. uennno,
uro rnanntm opasom snyxonoe orpaxenne, sxo san, nnomae,
ynnn, rporyapon aer cnenomy omymenne npocrpancrna.
ecnn ntxnmueno ne ono, a cpasy na ns nxrn uyncrn: spenne
n cnyx?
rora ocraercx nyrt nosnannx oxpyxammero ontmoro mnpa:
mt omymaem ero nenocpecrnenno ncem renom, nepennraxct camn
n npocrpancrne. ner n snyxn ntxnmuent. craercx nosyx, ncera
ocrynnt nocnpnxrnm: ero nnxenne n nanpannenne +roro nn-
xennx, remneparypa, nactmennocrt sanaxamn n r. n.
pome snyxonoro cymecrnyer nosymnoe +xo~. 3ro moxer trt
n nosymnax nonna or tcrpo nponerenmero mnmo rpamnax, anro,
+ro moxer trt orpaxennt or cren ontmoro ntcoxoro oma no-
ptn nerpa, +ro moryr trt n ene samernte nosymnte crpyxn,
orpaxammnecx or omon, ntrexammne ns orxptrtx oxon, ]op-
rouex n r. .
ce +ro nonnrcx narpennponanntm ocxsannem n oonxnnem cne-
nornyxoro. s +rnx, xasanoct t, menxnx, nesamerntx omymenn
nocrenenno cxnatnaercx onpeenennoe, crponoe npecrannenne
o oxpyxammem mnpe.
o romy ontmomy paccroxnnm, xoropoe mt npoxonnn n
ocxne, no cnntntm cnoontm noptnam nerpa na ynnnax n nno-
maxx x uyncrnonana, xax nennxa n omnpna xpacnax cronnna.
amernna cpasy, uro mocxoncxne ynnnt mnpe xaptxoncxnx.
aptxon n cpannennn c ocxno noxasancx mne neontmnm
ropoom.
crpannoe eno, necmorpx na ontmne paccroxnnx, mne tno
nerue xonrt no mocxoncxnm ynnnam. nourn ne ycranana, cxopo
npnntxna tcrpo nepeerart nx, oronxx npoxoxnx... asymeercx,
x xonna ne ona, a n conponoxennn spxue cnyrnnnt, npnexan-
me nmecre co mno.
emonotx ner, ona tcrpee yromnxnact n xanonanact, uro
ocxne ner nn xonna, nn xpax~. mne tno neceno, n x myrnna:
- xopo xe mt crann mocxnnuamn...
axe mocxoncxne mopost, xoroptmn menx nyrann pantme, oxa-
sannct optmn snaxomtmn~ n ne npnunnnnn mne nnxaxoro npea.
ne rontxo cxopo npnntxna n npncnoconnact x moposy, no nonm-
nna ero.
omymana ero cnexn sanax, on oxnnnxn n opnn menx.
nx npnesxero snaxomcrno c raxnm ontmnm ropoom, xax
ocxna,- +ro npexe ncero snaxomcrno c ropocxnm rpancnoprom.
yremecrnyx no ocxne, x ncnpoonana, xoneuno, nce nnt ee
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ropocxoro rpancnopra: n rpamna, n anroyc, n rponneyc, n
raxcn.
o, pasymeercx, nn onn ns +rnx nnon nepennxennx ne npons-
nen na menx raxoro ontmoro n npexpacnoro nneuarnennx, xax name
sameuarentnoe, uyecnoe merpo.
erpo, c ncxnmunrentntm xom]oprom n monnnenocno tcrpo-
ro nepenocxmee ns onoro xonna rpomanoro ropoa n pyro, ne-
npeptnnax nenra nonmentx camonnxymnxcx necrnnn, n necxont-
xo mrnonenn nonnmammnx n onycxammnx ronnt naccaxnpon, +ro
name merpo - nonnnno connanncrnuecxn nn ropocxoro rpanc-
nopra. ynnexanact nm. or mt onycxaemcx nnns no mnpoxo
mpamopno necrnnne. uyncrnym n xonoox nonnponanntx mpa-
mopntx cren, n rennoe txanne nosemno rnynnt, nerxmee na-
ncrpeuy.
uyrnnmnct n rpomanom nosemnom sane, yxpamennom mpamop-
no xononnao, c mnnyry xem noesa. pyr x uyncrnym mexo
ynpyrn, nce ycnnnnammncx nerepox, a norom no noramn pnr-
mnuecxn cryx.
- uro +ro?
- er noes. xonrt nyxno tcrpee.
ax n enam. yonom, npocropnom narone ycaxnnamct na
mxrxom xoxanom nnane. uro-ro rnyxo mymnr - +ro cxoxrcx, an-
romarnuecxn saxptnaxct, nepn narona.
oes mxrxo rporaercx c mecra, nnanno n tcrpo munr nac nne-
pe. t necemcx x nenrpy ocxnt...
o cnyrnnx nastnaer mne ocranonxn, crapaercx art mne npe-
crannenne o xpacore nosemntx nopnon...
a name ocranonxe mt nanpannxemcx x nnxymecx necrnn-
ne. Barax n nxrn or nee x yxe uyncrnym no noramn nnpannn or
ee nnxennx.
t tcrpo cranonnmcx na crynentxy +cxanaropa, n on ynocnr
nac nanepx. nay pyxy na nepnna, onn, xax xnnte, roxe nnxyr-
cx nnepx ononpemenno c nnxennem +cxanaropa n xax yro t-
mar... nrepecno!
a oparnom nyrn mt onycxannct n merpo raxxe +cxanaropom.
xopomo pasnnuam pasnnny mexy noemom n cnycxom. nep-
nt pas npn cnycxe y menx na mnr cnerxa saxpyxnnact ronona:
non yxonn ns-no nor. o x tcrpo npnntxna, n norom na merpo
cnycxartcx +cxanaropom mne npannnoct ontme, uem nonn-
martcx...
xaxtm nem moero npetnannx n ocxne x nce ontme n
rnyxe omymana momnoe nenne +roro rpomanoro cepna crpant.
enx saxnartnana mnpoxax nonna oprannsonannoro mnoroo-
pasnoro nnxennx xnsnn cronnnt; sauapontnan xaneocxon +ro
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mnororpanno, mnoroxpacouno n mnorosnyuno xnsnn, cmena xp-
xnx xnnenn, ]axron, cotrn, o xoroptx x exenenno nenocpe-
crnenno ysnanana, xoropte x nepexnnana cama...
axt rpyono ent connanncrnuecxo ocxnt nonon rny-
oxoro coepxannx: sect - mosr crpant, sect cam naunnaemt
+neprnunee mtcnnrt, rnyxe nepexnnart...
tna n xyntrypnom nenrpe crpant, re copant coxponnma
nayxn, ncxyccrna, nce npoxnnennx uenoneuecxoro rnopuecrna.
xonna exenenno no yupexennxm, napxomaram, omecrnen-
ntm oprannsannxm ocxnt n nese ncrpeuana npnnernnnt, pa-
ymnt npnem, rennoe nnnmanne n saory.
amtm naxntm, camtm rnanntm nx menx nenrpom monx nne-
uarnenn n nepexnnann, xoneuno, tnn nmn, sameuarentnte
nmn connanncrnuecxo ocxnt.
crpeun c uyecntmn, xyntrypntmn nmtmn ocrannnn y menx
camte cnernte, nensrnanmte nocnomnnannx.
otnana x n n pontx mne omecrnenntx oprannsannxx -
nenrpantntx npannennxx ncepoccncxnx omecrn cnentx n rnyxo-
nemtx.
ram nnunoe snaxomcrno c pyxononrenxmn +rnx omecrn, nx
rennax ronapnmecxax ncrpeua rnyoxo n paocrno nsnonnonann
menx.
pyxecxn npnem oxnan menx n n peaxnnxx xypnanon cne-
ntx n rnyxonemtx.
tna cuacrnnna, uro, ouyrnnmnct n ocxne, cmorna noxart
pyxn ncex cnonx pyse, xoroptx snana o rex nop rontxo no nepe-
nncxe.
exenennom xnnom omennn, n necrxmem xpyry sameuarent-
ntx namnx nearoron, oprannsaropon, xypnanncron, paornnxon
nayxn n ncxyccrna x uyncrnonana, xax pacryr xptntx moe ymn.
ano saxorenoct npnnxrt camoe axrnnnoe yuacrne n +ro xnny-
ue, saxnartnamme paore, nepennnammecx ncemn nneramn pa-
yrn, nponnsanno rnopuecxo paocrtm...
asne x mory sect paccxasart n necxontxnx cnonax o ncex moc-
xoncxnx ncrpeuax, eceax, nontx snaxomcrnax?
ne cntmy, no n mocxoncxne nn n moe yme c ocoenno cn-
no sasnyuana mystxa cnon, no+snn.
ne nnxy, no n moem cosnannn cnoxnnoct rapmonnuecxn crpo-
noe, mnoronnernoe, cnxmmee nnenne npexpacnoro, cnoonoro ro-
poa ocxnt - rnopenne nnnoro souero.
rpyom x paccrananact c ocxno...
ce mon mtcnn, xenannx, ncx mox yma nonna ocxno, re x
nonyunna rnopuecxym sapxxy.
emano y nac n onercxom omse npexpacntx, nontx, connann-
crnuecxnx ropoon, n xoroptx rax xe xpxo n ntmno pacnneraer
nonax xnsnt.
o ocxna - cepne crpant, nmnmemn ropo ncex rpyx-
mnxcx ne rontxo onercxoro omsa, no n ncero mnpa.
entsx ne nmnrt ropxuo ocxnt, nentsx ne nocroprartcx em,
nentsx ne crpemnrtcx x ne...
a ncm xnsnt coxpanm namxrt o +ro noesxe, o +rnx uyec-
ntx mocxoncxnx nxx.
F
mn, nnmennte cnyxa n peun, ne moryr, xoneuno, nacnaxart-
cx uyecno rapmonne snyxon, ne moryr, noono cnonm cntma-
mnm ronapnmam, ocrannxrt cee yonontcrnne cocrnenntm ne-
nnem. em onee, rem cnntnee moryr onn nmnrt ocrynnte nm no+-
snm, naxnne, xnnonnct.
camom ene, xora uenonex cxonan rem nnn nntm ]nsnuecxnm
neyrom, n nem pasnnnaercx c ynoenno, yrpoenno cnno crpacrt
x uemy-nnyt onomy, ocrynnomy ero yxonnomy mnpy. mxm,
nnmenntm peun n cnyxa, onee ncero ocrynnt naxnne n xnno-
nnct. o uro xe ocraercx rem, xro nnmen n spennx? oneuno, no+-
snx n naxnne.
ocnpnnnmax nocpecrnom ocxsannx ]opmt n axe ronuamne
nnnnn craryn, cnenornyxonemo ryr xe n yme pasnpaer no uacrxm
nocnpnnxrt opas, ycnannaer ero n, naxonen, oomaer n ono ne-
noe. oneuno, +ror opas necxontxo ornnuaercx or spnrentnoro o-
pasa, no xpome ]opmt n nnnn cnenornyxonemo omymaer oco-
ennocrn marepnana: xono mpamopa, nonnponannym nonepxnocrt
epena, mepoxonarocrn n r. . cnenornyxonemoro orcyrcrnyer
npecrannenne o nnere ocmarpnnaemo pyxamn cxyntnrypt. eut
ner ne o nepantnom ntpaxennn nnera, a o npecrannennn nnera
xax raxonoro...
menx, cnenornyxo, ocoenno pasnnra nmont x nnreparype
n cxyntnrype. aonro o nocemennx myseen menx nauann snaxo-
mnrt co cxyntnrypo, nmenmecx n namem yupexennn. pexpac-
nte mpamopnte craryn nyx enep, ennecxo n nnoccxo,
rtxammn epmec~, unopenrncxne opnt~ n pyrne saxrnn
no mne nnamennym nmont x cxyntnrype.
ocpecrnom axrnnonornn nearorn unrann mne cropnm nc-
xyccrn~. xaxo nmontm n nnnmannem x ocmarpnnana namn cra-
ryn! ourn xaxt neuep, xora x ocnooxanact or sanxrn, mox-
no tno nnert menx nepexoxme or ono craryn x pyro (+ro
xnnenne moxno nanmart n y pyrnx namnx nocnnrannnxon).
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nmnm oenx enep, no no-pasnomy: nnoccxax, nexnax,
ceptesnax n cxpomnax, xax-ro nnxe n nonxrnee; ocmarpnnax ee, x
nenontno cranonnnact n cama ceptesnee. enepa ennecxax sa-
crannxna menx yntartcx...
axonen, x cenana nepnym +xcxypcnm n myse.
ocoenno renntm uyncrnom ocmarpnnam nyx cnxmnx mnaen-
nen n xpecne. 3ro cxyntnrypa ns nyumero, nexnemero mpamopa.
ern - ny, rontxo uro ne tmar! cnn t nx oxnnnrt, tnn t
ern uyecno xpacort...
pyrom orenennn mne noxasann mcr Ferxonena. nepnte
mne npnmnoct ocmarpnnart +ro myxecrnennoe, rnepoe, ntpasn-
rentnoe nnno. +romy npemenn x yxe ycnena npounrart norpa-
]nm rennantnoro xomnosnropa. nana o nocrnrme ero rnyxore.
namxrn moe nponocnnnct orptnxn ns norpa]nn n ro npemx,
xora pyxa mox nexana na ronone Ferxonena.
...ren mnnra Ferxonena nonnmaercx no necrnnne n cnom
enym xnaprnpy n cntmnr, xax necmente nantunxn mnnra na-
nrptnamr na ]oprentxno xaxym-ro menonm~.
...onoo uenonex c ntnnno rpnno (rax pystx Ferxonena
nastnann ero) cnemnr sa ropo n xcnt necennn ent. e ymon-
xax, snenxr xopt nrnuex, c nyron n oranenntx none neer rennt
nerepox, npnnocx Ferxoneny pasnoopasnte ronuamne apomart.
ronone xomnosnropa yxe snyuar nnnte menonn, n on cnemnr
omo, urot nepeart n snyxax cnon eccmeprnte conart.
...o oma nopunnnax n opax +xonomxa c yxacom nocxnnnaer:
nxrt norepxnn mnxny!.. pnercx recemxamn npnnxstnart mnx-
ny x ronone...~
...o yrpam Ferxonen ymtnaercx xonono noo n noer.
rpannax nemt: rennantnt xomnosnrop, onaanmn raxnm myst-
xantntm cnyxom, ne nmen xopomero ronoca. en rax, uro +xonomxa
nocnemno sartxana ymn, xax rontxo pasanancx ronoc Ferxonena.
nyxo, onnoxn, Ferxonen nnmer cnon nyumne cnm]onnn.
nora rxxenax ropxuax cnesa rnyouamero ropx naaer na xna-
nnmn ]oprentxno, n ro npemx xax mtcnt xomnosnropa napnr n
mnpe snyxon, npetnaer no nnacrn ncero nyumero n xnsnn uenone-
uecxo...~
rpyom orptnamct or +rnx nocnomnnann n sameuam, uro
pyxn mon nce npemx nexann na ronone Ferxonena. pyr n pyxax
noxnnxercx crpannoe omymenne, cnonno rox npoxonr n nantnax.
nauana x ynnnxmct, no cxopo nonnmam +ro cocroxnne: necxontxo
pas x cntmana, epxa pyxn na nnannno, ynnym conary Ferxo-
nena.
renept naroapx cnntnomy nneuarnennm mon nantnt xax t
nocnponsnonnn xora-ro nocnpnnxrte nnpannn snyxon.
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+rom xe mysee x ncntrana eme ony cnernym paocrt. ne
noxasann cxyntnrypy, nsopaxanmym crapymxy c neonxsanntm
uynxom n pyxax, a y ee nor na cxameeuxe cnnr mantunx: nnunxo
ero npnnonxro, rnasa mnpoxo orxptrt n ycrpemnent na crapym-
xy. nno, uro mantuyran nect npenparnncx n cnyx.
ro xe +ro? a, x ysnam ero no ryam: manentxn ymxnn cny-
maer cxasxn pnnt onononnt - nxnn cnoe.
pynna +xcxypcanron nepexonr n cocenne sant, a x ne mory
oropnartcx or ymxnna.
or xax moxer sauaponart uenonexa nce ro, uro ocrynno ero
nocnpnxrnm, ero uyncrny! otenno xnsnn mt cex ne snaem,
sauacrym xanyemcx na onoopasne...
o npnxonm n myse n uyncrnyem cex pyrnmn nmtmn: cxont-
xo pasnoopasntx omymenn, xaxne nepennnt uyncrn: rpycrt, pa-
ocrt, couyncrnne, camt nenoentnt nocropr.
axo nnrennexryantnt n ]nsnuecxn ortx moxno naxonrt
n cosepnannn n ocoenno n rnopuecrne: naxnnn, xnnonncn, no+snn,
ronr rontxo nonmnrt ncxyccrno, nnnrart n cex ero rapmo-
nnm, xpacory, xax nce npexpacnoe n pasymnoe oyxornopxer name
cosnanne, nanonnxer ero nyumnmn, ne nsneanntmn n otenno
xnsnn uyncrnamn n omymennxmn.
.ne, nocnpnnnmamme mnp rontxo c nomomtm ocxsannx n oo-
nxnnx, ocrynnt nce +rn uyncrna: uro xe ronopnrt o rnyxonemtx,
onaammnx spennem? m ocrynno nce orarcrno spnrentntx nne-
uarnenn, a mexy rem ontmnncrno ronapnme rax neymeno, rax
orpannuenno nontsyercx cnonm npenmymecrnom nepeo mno -
nosmoxnocrtm spnrentno nocnpnnnmart mnp.
ne nensnecrno, ecrt nn n nacroxmee npemx xyoxnnxn cpen
rnyxonemtx, no cxyntnropon y nac noxa uro na: euaen n Fopn-
canon. 3roro, xoneuno, mano.
ame crpane nyxnt ne rontxo nnxenept, rexnnxn, nerunxn,
nearorn n r. . er, nam nyxnt n cxyntnropt, xyoxnnxn, apxn-
rexropt, nnreparopt, orpaxammne namy npexpacnym ecrnnrent-
nocrt n ncxyccrne.
F F
oxnnenne moe crartn o . . optxom n moe nepenncxn c
nnm n N 7 xypnana nsnt rnyxonemtx~ sa 1940 r. y mnornx un-
rarene ntsnano ecrecrnennoe xenanne ysnart, xax x yunnact, pas-
nnnanact n onnaenana nornuecxo peutm. ne xaxercx, uro yer
nenecoopasnee, ecnn x orneuy na nonpoct ronapnme na crpann-
nax xypnana nsnt rnyxonemtx~.
moe yuee n ]opmnponannn nornuecxo peun xpacno nnrtm
npoxoxr rpn momenra: \) npannntno oprannsonannoe paouee
npemx, 2) yment noxo, pyxonocrno n uyrxoe ornomenne xo mne
moero yunrenx- npo]. . . oxonxncxoro, 3) mox nacrounnocrt
n neorcrynnocrt n onnaennn snannxmn.
pano nonxna neocnopnmym ncrnny: nx cnentx, rnyxonemtx
n cnenornyxonemtx snannx - nce. ro nnaeer snannxmn, romy o-
crynno nce n xnsnn uenonexa.
ax x nauana yunrtcx?
ax xe, xax n nce rnyxonemte, n cnennantno mxone, c ro
rontxo pasnnne, uro ocxsanne samenxno mne spenne.
anxrnx tnn cncremarnsnponant rontxo o roro nepnoa,
xora x onnaena snannxmn sa cemnnerxy. anee yuea nnonsme-
nnnact n cnxsn c rem, uro yupexenne nepemno n neenne xpann-
cxoro nncrnryra +xcnepnmenrantno mennnnt. exnnxa name
paort rpeonana or menx nexoroptx nosnann n ecrecrnenntx
nayxax.
ne nauann unrart nayuno-nonynxpnym nnreparypy. ocne
npourennx xnnrn nnn pommpt (spxuero mpn]ra) x xoncnexrnpo-
nana nx conmecrno c nearorom. ax, x npounrana n saxoncnexrn-
ponana cropnm pasnnrnx ecrecrnenntx nayx~, necxontxo xnnr no
ncnxonornn n ]nsnonornn, npomna nenonnt xypc nonornn.
ax xe mne unrann counnennx xnaccnxon mapxcnsma-nennnnsma.
po]. . . oxonxncxn cam nepeneuaran nx menx mpn]rom
Fpanx marepnant no ncropnuecxomy n nanexrnuecxomy marepna-
nnsmy. o nxronxy nearora x nepeneuarana mpn]rom Fpanx
]nnoco]cxn cnonapt. o ncemy +romy cneyer oannrt cncrema-
rnuecxoe urenne xyoxecrnenno nnreparypt - xnaccnuecxo n
conpemenno.
3ro tno camoe cuacrnnnoe npemx moe mnocrn. ne unrann
spxune~ xnnrn npn xaxom yonom cnyuae. ocnnrarentnnna -
n, mexy npounm, n ro npemx mox nyumax urnna r. Fenenxax -
unrana mne n no nouam. ax, mt npounrann necxontxo nponsnee-
nn mma, Bexcnnpa, Bnnnepa.
pn mxone cnentx nmenact neontmax panencxax nnno-
rexa, nce ee xnnrn x npounrana no necxontxy pas. s pyccxnx xnac-
cnuecxnx no+ron ymxnn n epmonron tnn n ocramrcx nx menx
camtmn nmnmtmn. nnexaxct nx no+sne, x n cama nauana ma-
part ymary~...
namennrt pyccxn xomnosnrop . . nnnxa, xora emy tno
12 ner, nocxnnxnyn: ystxa - yma mox!~ xe ronopm: o+-
snx - yma mox!~
camom ene, xax moxno ne nmnrt no+snm? o mnorne rnyxo-
nemte ronapnmn pannoymnt x ne. epoxrno, +ro oxcnxercx
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nesnannem nnreparypnoro xstxa, uero, xoneuno, x nm .n nnny ne
crannm: nnnonart nnoxne yunrenx nx.
nx rnyxonemtx no+snx (crnxn) moxer oxasart ontmym no-
momt n pasnnrnn nx nornuecxo peun. ronr rontxo nonmnrt no+-
snm, n nt cxopee n nyume onnaeere nnreparypntm xstxom.
snam +ro no cee.
nx rex, xro ronopnr ycrno peutm, crnxn raxxe xpane no-
nesnt. entsx cxptnart ro neuantnoe ocroxrentcrno, uro noan-
nxmmee uncno rnyxnx nmeer nnoxoe nponsnomenne.
. . uexon onaxt cxasan, uro snaxn npennnannx - nort
xstxa. epno! nx rnyxonemtx onn nort nnone.
ora nt unraere uro-nno, opamare nnnmanne na snaxn npe-
nnnannx, n ntnayunrect ronopnrt onee ntpasnrentno, c coorner-
crnymmnmn nnronannxmn n nornuecxnmn yapennxmn.
oneuno, ne cneyer nrnopnponart n yxasannx cntmamnx: na-
npornn, x nnm nao npnerart nosmoxno uame.
axe renept, xora x ronopm nnxrno, x c naroapnocrtm nt-
cnymnnam yxasannx na nenepnte yapennx n nesnaxomtx mne
cnonax.
epoxrno, mnornx ynnnr moe yrnepxenne, uro crnxn moryr
oxasart nomomt n nanaxnnannn n conepmencrnonannn ycrnoro npo-
nsnomennx.
pnney npnmept.
a xaxom cnore crannrt yapenne n crnxornopennn ymxnna
ennam~? ora x npounrana nasnanne crnxornopennx, mtc-
nenno nocrannna yapenne na nropom cnore. o, unrax crnxornope-
nne, x onapyxnna cnom omnxy cpasy:
epecrpenxa sa xonmamn,
morpnr narept nx n nam;
a xonme npe xasaxamn
tercx xpacnt ennam.
apenne npnxonrcx na nocnenn cnor cnona ennam~.
conpemenno xyoxecrnenno nnreparype n crnxax na pyc-
cxom xstxe nepexo ncrpeuamrcx yxpanncxne cnona. ntmamnm
nerpyno npannntno nponsnocnrt +rn cnona, no nx rnyxonemtx +ro
rpynee. ax, ontmnncrno ns nnx ne moxer cxasart, na xaxom
cnore npnxonrcx yapenne n cnone nnaa~ (nnacrt). pounrare-
xa cneymmym crpo]y ns no+mt . Festmencxoro parennax
nout~, n nt nerxo onpeennre yapenne:
Fartxo c emo cuacrnnnnt renept:
m yunrtcx, xax nxn, ne nao.
na, crponrentcrno ronnamn mept
uecrt n cnany paxncxo nnat.
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axnm opasom, crnxn nomoramr nam npannntno nponsnocnrt
cnona, a +ro anexo ne nycrxx. axomy ns nac neoxonmo xopomo
nnaert nopmantno ycrno peutm.
oneuno, rpyno cpasy ortcxart n crnxax nyxnt npnmep npa-
nnntnoro yapennx n cnonax. o nor no+romy-ro n nao ontme
unrart crnxn!
snam yxpanncxn xstx, xorx yunnact na pyccxom. urenne
yxpanncxo nnreparypt, n rnanntm opasom no+snn, nomorno
mne es rpya nsyunrt +ror xstx. npounrana ncero osapx~
. . Benuenxo, counnennx nana upanxe, . omonncxoro
n pyrnx yxpanncxnx nncarene n no+ron.
spocnte ronapnmn n nnuno ecee co mno cnpamnnamr:
ax mne pasnnnartcx antme?~
o orner: unrare xnnrn, unrare cncremarnuecxn n ceptesno
ornocnrect x urennm. nnrn - nyumne pystx n yunrenx namn.
+rom sameuarentno nnmer . . optxn:
...c rnyoxo nepo n ncrnny moero yexennx x ronopm ncem:
nmnre xnnry, ona onerunr nam xnsnt, pyxecxn nomoxer paso-
partcx n necrpo nyrannne mtcne, uyncrn, cotrn, ona nayunr
nac ynaxart uenonexa n camnx cex, ona oxptnxer ym n cepne
uyncrnom nmnn x mnpy, x uenonexy. ycrt ona yer npaxena
namnm neponannxm, no ecnn ona nanncana uecrno, no nmnn x nm-
xm, 113 xenannx opa nm-rora +ro npexpacnax xnnra~.
ce sameuarentnte nmn - yuente, nsoperarenn, nncarenn n
pyrne - cnonmn ycnexamn n ocrnxennxmn npexe ncero oxsant
xnnram. uent xopomo o +rom nnmer . namep:
...apotmamn nourn ncex orxptrn xnnxmrcx nnoornopnte
nen, npnoperaemte urennem n omennem c nmtmn. 3ro ror nos-
yx, xoroptm neuyncrnnrentno tmnmt n xnnemt~.
menx eme mano snann; nepno xnaccnuecxoe nspeuenne: nex
xnnn, nex yunct. o ro nemnoroe, uro x snam, ann mne xnnrn n
omenne c xyntrypntmn nmtmn.
poxenntx snann y uenonexa ner. nn npnoperamrcx yue-
o, ynopno paoro na coo.
name crpane nmemrcx neorpannuennte nosmoxnocrn nx
xyntrypnoro pocra nme.
conneuno crpane connannsma, re ncenoexammn pasym
uenonexa nocropxecrnonan na cnnamn npnpot, xaxt moxer
crart opasonanntm n ntcoxoxyntrypntm, nyxno rontxo nmnrt
snanne, crpemnrtcx x nemy, ynopno paorart na coo.
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cnoem nepnom naneuarannom paccxase axap uypa~ nex-
ce axcnmonnu nepecxastnaer npocrte cnona uypt, xoropt ro-
nopnr o ntrane oxo oape: ...or, coxon, xaxne nmn tnamr!
srnxner on ree n oun n nononnr rnom ymy, n nnuyrt ree +ro
ne crtno, a eme n ropo nx rex. raxnm uenonexom rt n cam
nyume cranonnmtcx. ano, pyr, raxnx nme!..~ 3rn cnona x uacro
ncnomnnam, no nennna pyxecxoe ornomenne nexcex axcnmo-
nnua optxoro xo mne n ropnnact nm.
1933 ro nancera coxpannrcx n moe namxrn, rax xe xax
n 18 nmnx - ent, xora x nonyunna nepnoe nnctmo or nexcex
axcnmonnua. nctmo +ro ne rontxo cnntno opaonano menx, no
es npeynennuennx moxno cxasart - ono norpxcno menx cnoe rny-
nno n mypocrtm.
cnn nont n monaxn nocxnmannct n ymnnxnnct nepe pasymom
npnpot~ n oxnem mypocrtm~, xora cnenornyxonemax amepn-
xanxa nena ennep nauana tcrptmn maramn nrn x snannxm
(npnnnxammnm ee x ory)~, ro . . optxn pas nancera orxa-
sancx nepnrt n pasym npnpot~ n neonoxparno cmexncx na nnm.
nnxora ne nocxnmancx pasymom npnpot~, ne nepnn
n nero n ne nepm, no n npnpoe cnnmxom mnoro eccmtcnennoro
n npenoro nx uenonexa, nyumero n camoro cnoxnoro ns ee cosa-
.nn, xoropoe, onaxo, moxer trt ynro rn]osno nomtm, ryepxy-
nesno annnno n r. ...~
3rn cnona nopasnnn menx - cnenornyxonemym enouxy - cnoe
npocroro, mypocrtm n neocnopnmo npanoro. mtcnenno no-
nropxna: epno, +ro ouent nepno~. , unrax antme +ro nnctmo, x
c paocrtm, xaxym moryr ncntrtnart nmn, yyun na moem mecre,
ysnana, no uro nepnr nexce axcnmonnu:
epm x n pasym uenonexa, on, uenonex, xaxercx mne opranom
camonosnannx npnpot, nccneonarenem n oprannsaropom ee xaorn-
uecxnx cnn...~
reuenne nx x necxontxo pas npnnnmanact unrart +ro nnctmo.
ncnomnnna . ennep. e oxpyxann enncxont, monamxn, nont
n nononcrnymmne yuente. nn onee ncero saornnnct o rom, urot
npnnnsnrt neny x ory~, n o cnes ymnnxnnct, uro ona rax
tcrpo nocrnraer oxnm mypocrt~, a nor nexce axcnmonnu
nnmer mne o moryuem pasyme rontxo uenonexa.
o yunrent paccxastnan mne o nocnnrannn nent ennep n,
mexy npounm, cxasan: peaxnnonnt amepnxancxn ncnxonor
. xemc saxnnn, xora nosnaxomnncx c . ennep: ce nont
ncero mnpa ne mornn oxasart trnx ora, a nor . ennep cnonm
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pasnnrnem noxastnaer, uro ecrt neuro ntme namero pasyma, n
nena ennep cnonm cymecrnonannem oxasana +ro~.
o nexce axcnmonnu no nepnn nn n pasym npnpot, nn
n pyrne cnepxecrecrnennte cnnt~...
...n ropxuo nmnn namy onny, ropnncx em, ne pas ronopnn
n nncan o rom, uro nama crpana orara sopontmn, rananrnnntmn
nmtmn... e ynnnrentno no+romy, uro xora on nonyunn or menx
nepnoe nnctmo, ro xnno nm sannrepeconancx; nnctmo +ro nosynno
n nem xenanne osnaxomnrtcx c saauamn namero yupexennx.
nexce axcnmonnu conepmenno npannntno onennn namy paory
n nonxn, uro axe cnenornyxonemoro moxno cenart uenonexom.
xax +ro cenart? nexce axcnmonnu nonnman n +ro n n cneym-
mnx cnonax ocneman +ror nonpoc:
... ymam, uro cxopo nacraner npemx, xora nayxa nnacrno
cnpocnr rax nastnaemtx nopmantntx nme:
- t xornre, uro nce ypocrna, neconepmencrna, npexenpe-
mennax pxxnocrt n cmeprt uenoneuecxoro oprannsma tnn no-
pono n rouno nsyuent? axoe nsyuenne ne moxer trt ocrnrnyro
+xcnepnmenramn na coaxamn, xponnxamn, mopcxnmn cnnnxamn.
eoxonm +xcnepnmenr na camnm uenonexom, neoxonmo na nem
camom nsyuart rexnnxy ero oprannsma, nponecc nnyrpnxnerounoro
nnrannx, xponoopasonannx, xnmnm nepnno-mosrono xnerxn n no-
ome nce nponecct ero oprannsma. nx +roro norpeymrcx cornn
uenoneuecxnx ennnn, +ro yer cnyxo, ecrnnrentno cnyxo
uenoneuecrny, n +ro, xoneuno, yer snaunrentno nonesnee, uem
ncrpenenne ecxrxon mnnnnonon sopontx nme pan yocrna
xnsnn nnuroxnoro, ncnxnuecxn n mopantno ntponnmerocx xnacca
xnmnnxon n napasnron~. (s nnctma xo mne.)
unrax +ro ocnemenne nonpoca o nsyuennn uenoneuecxoro opra-
nnsma, ymaemt, uro . . optxn ne rontxo tn rennantntm
xyoxnnxom n nynnnncrom, no n onaan xonoccantno +pynnne
yuenoro n-n ro xe npemx - tn uenonexom yymero xommynn-
crnuecxoro crpox. eapom xe on noxnonnxn n npnstnan menx
trt nonesno nx nayxn n nncan mne: ...t nnpane +ro cnyxo
ropnrtcx...~
nrepecen ror ]axr, uro nexce axcnmonnu, necmorpx na
nenpeptnnym paory na xyoxecrnenntmn nponsneennxmn, na
pexocrt nx nncarenx-xyoxnnxa nnrepeconancx nayxamn o ueno-
nexe. xora on nauan nepennctnartcx co mno, on xnno sannre-
peconancx n nponemo cnenornyxonemort, n npnrom ne rax, xax
tn sannrepeconan nxxenc aypo Fpnxmen (cnenornyxonemo,
npemecrnennnne . ennep): nxxenca ontme ncero nopasnno
n aype Fpnxmen ro ocroxrentcrno, uro ona moxer omymart py-
xamn snyxn mystxn, npnxacaxct x nncrpymenry pyxo, n ro, uro
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ona n cocroxnnn ntpaxart cnom paocrt cmexom, ...na cmeercx,
ennxn oxe! na cmeercx!..~ -.nocxnnnan nxxenc.
axoe nnctmo nexcex axcnmonnua ocrannxno mne raxym
xe nencuepnaemym paocrt, xax n nepnoe nnctmo, n, xpome roro,
c xaxtm ero nnctmom, x ymcrnenno pocna: x nyume nonnmana npo-
unrannte xnnrn, ontme ysnanana xnsnt n nme, a nce +ro no-
romy, uro xaxoe cnono nexcex axcnmonnua npnnnxano menx
x nonnmannm oxpyxammero mnpa. oxorno, c cnntno tmmnmcx
cepnem nncana nnctma nexcem axcnmonnuy; x uacro ymana o
rom, uro y menx eme cnnmxom mano snann n +ro neuannno ero.
o n onom- nnctme nexce axcnmonnu nanncan mne: ...ame
nnctmo raxxe cnnerentcrnyer o npexpacnom pocre amero nnren-
nexra...~ 3ro npnsnanne cnntno opaonano menx n nnymnno mne
ynepennocrt, uro pyxa c nexceem axcnmonnuem npnnecna mne
xonoccantnym nontsy - on noxnonnxn menx n nanpannxn xo ncemy
opomy n pasymnomy.
ce nnctma .. . optxoro xo mne xpanxrcx y menx. o yun-
rent nepeneuaran nx nx menx panencxnm mpn]rom, x camo-
croxrentno mory nx unrart n nmym mnnyry. a, x nx unram n nsy-
uam, no onn orart nenccxxaemo mypocrtm raxoro nennxoro n
nnamennoro uenonexa, xaxnm tn nexce axcnmonnu optxn.
u 3
naxt nerom mt c . . tnn n ropoe no cnonm enam.
cnoonnnct pantme, uem npenonarann, a omo nrn eme ne xo-
renoct. rann ymart a raart, n xaxo myse nam norn.
. . npenoxnna:
- oemre n omnx omanontx. t xax pas nem no +ro
ynnne. t ram ne tnn?
- er.
- mne ouent xouercx ocmorpert oxpcxne noxon...
ncropnuecxnx nonecrxx n pomanax x mnoro unrana o napcxnx
n oxpcxnx nanarax, noxoxx n noxounxax c nspasnontmn neuamn
ii nexanxamn. Foxpcxne oma onnctnamrcx c xpacntm xptntnom~,
c ysentxnmn oxonnamn, c xencxnmn repemamn n r. . anart n no-
xon npecrannxnnct mne raxnmn xe xomnaramn, xaxne nmemrcx n
n namnx conpemenntx omax, rontxo nanart npecrannxnnct mne
ontmnmn sanamn, a noxon -manentxnmn xomnarxamn.
spasnonte neun n nexanxn x npecrannxna xax camte otx-
nonennte, cenannte ns xnpnnua n rnnnt pyccxne neun, rontxo
co mnoxecrnom manentxnx n ontmnx ntcrynon n xapnnson.
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noopasnna, uro n tnmem ome omanontx n camom ene na-
xonrcx myse, n mna rya c ontmnm oxnnnennem, no naexnact
ynnert ram nce n raxom nnn nourn n raxom nne, xax +ro tno npn
xnsnn oxp. o o uero xe mt tnn pasouaponant, xora, noox
x ycate, ysnann, uro ram yxe ner mysex, a pasmecrnnoct xaxoe-ro
yupexenne. t nce xe nonpocnnn paspemennx norn n om, urot
ortcxart xort xaxne-nnyt cnet crapnnno apxnrexrypt n oxp-
cxo xnsnn.
ecrnnrentno, na moe cuacrte, n nnxnem +raxe eme coxpann-
noct necxontxo manentxnx xomnar - noxoen. oe-re na crenax
xpenxo epxannct xycxn napun, xoropo, ouennno, tnn onrt
crent.
onom ns noxounxon (+rn xomnart tnn rax mant, uro x
mory nasnart nx rontxo noxounxamn) namnact n sannrepeconan-
max menx nspasnonax neut c nexanxo.
nt! 3ra neut tna concem ne noxoxa na pyccxne neun n nsax
n yxpanncxnx xarax. nnnmarentno ocmorpena neontmym neut n
mnnnarmpnym nexanouxy. enant onn tnn ns ouent rnaxnx,
xax t ormnn]onanntx nnn xa]entntx xnpnnunxon~ pasnnuno
nennunnt n ]opmt, co mnoxecrnom xpacnntx, pente]no ncnonnen-
ntx pncynxon. yr tnn nnert, epentx, nrnnt, snepn. . . coo-
mnna, uro nce +rn ]nrypt nnernte n ouent xpacnnte. ne onn
roxe npannnnct, x onro ne morna ornxrt pyx or +rnx nsopa-
xenn.
axorenoct mne ocmorpert n nept, xorx x concem ne npenona-
rana, uro otxnonennax nept moxer trt xaxo-ro neotxnonen-
no, no n +rnx noxounxax n nepn tnn neotuant: ne raxne,
xax n namnx conpemenntx omax. pexe ncero x cnorxnynact
o ntcoxn nopor. axne noporn tnn no ncex xomnarax, nepn xe
nnsentxne, ouent rxxente, maccnnnte, roncrte, onrte cyxnom n
nnepxy saxanunnannct nonymecxnem. cmorpen ne nepn, x nonxna,
nouemy n craptx xnnrax nncann, uro, xora uenonex saxonn n oxp-
cxn noxo, on cnntno narnancx. ouent coxanem, uro nnxaxo
meenn, nnxaxo omamne yrnapn n noxoxx ne coxpannnoct.
cmorpen nns, mt noomnn x necrnnne, urot nonxrtcx nanepx
n tnmn xencxn repem. o xnnram mne npecrannxnact ouent
npocrax, onontno ysxax, c nnsentxnmn crynentxamn epenxnnax
necrnnna, no xoropo nonnmannct na nepxnn +rax. ne xasa-
noct, uro ouent nerxo tno ne rontxo otuno ncxonrt no ne, no
axe erart. a necrnnna, x xoropo mt noomnn, tna ne raxona.
rynentxn oxasannct ntcoxnmn, ncx necrnnna ouent ysxax, xpane
neyonax nx noema n cnycxa, rem onee uro na ne nnsxo
nannc noronox. . . ne ycnena naxnonnrt mne ronony, n x nmena
yonontcrnne nponepnrt npounocrt noronxa cocrnenntm nom.
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a, xopomo oeperann oxpe cnonx xen n ouepe: no raxo
necrnnne, a ocoenno n remnore, ne ouent-ro pasexnmtcx! crene
na necrnnne naxonnnct ysentxne cnyxonte oxonna. nennua-
me name ocae, or npexnero repema ne coxpannnoct nnxaxnx
cneon: ram nce xomnart tnn sanono neperopoxent epenxnntmn
neperopoxamn. yernnnct xaxne-ro nmn. am ocrananoct rontxo
nonepnyrt nasa. xora mt cnycxannct nnns no +ro npearent-
cxo necrnnne, x cnona ymnnact o ntcryn noronxa. nyrpenne x
ouent nocouyncrnonana oxpcxnm sarnopnnnam...
3ra crapnnnax necrnnna nanomnnana mne nexoropte cnent ns
nonecrn . . oncroro nxst epepxnt~. npecrannna cee
craporo oxpnna pyxnny npeennua oposona, oeroro n crapnn-
nym nnnnononym oexy. n xasancx mne cypontm, xnrptm n
nnnnoopotm crapnxom... orom nocrenenno nosnnx ontmo,
c ntcoxo orpao oxpcxn ca.
ennax, ymncrax, nernxx nout... nnnno xencxo oexe,
saxyrannax xncee, ner no cay x omy monoax xena oxpnna -
nena.
na rontxo uro ncrpernnact y caono orpat c xnxsem epe-
pxntm n renept ncx rpenemer or crpaxa...
nor cepnrt crapt oxpnn co cneuo n pyxe menenno
nsnpaercx o +ro xpyro ysentxo necrnnne n repem xent...
orom y oxpnna nnpymr onpnunnxn. ne npecrannnact ont-
max ronna paxnnuammnx nme, recno nannmnxcx n +rn manent-
xne noxounxn, re onn satxamrcx or xapt... nor pasropxuen-
nt nnnom yxacnt xnxst ]anacn xsemcxn, crnaxct nourn
nnoe, cnemnr nnns ns repema no xpyro necrnnne n necer na pyxax
ecuyncrnennym xenmnny. n cnemnr n ne sameuaer, xax enax
nena yapxercx ronono o noronox...
oxa +rn xaprnnt nexcno mentxann nepe monm nnyrpennnm
nsopom, x menenno cnycxanact nnns, npnepxnnaxct pyxo sa
creny. crene x onapyxnna ysentxne oxonna n nauana nx ocmar-
pnnart. crpentuaro apxnrexrype x rontxo unrana; nepxnxx
uacrt +rnx oxomex tna ocrpoxoneuno, n renept mne cran xcen
crnnt crpentuaro apxnrexrypt.
nycrnnmnct c necrnnnt, mt ntmnn uepes maccnnnym, rxxeno-
necnym xenesnym nept na manentxn, xax x noymana, anxon-
unx. naxo . . cxasana, uro +ro tnmee xpacnoe xptntno~.
ax nn +ro, ne snam, no xpacnoe xptntno~ n oxpcxnx omax mne
npecrannxnoct concem ne raxnm: x npecrannxna ero mnpoxnm,
c xpacnno pemerxo no oxam n pesntmn nerxnmn xononxamn,
xoropte noepxnnann nanec c sarennno pesto n ysopamn.
oparnna nnnmanne na ro, uro n ome omanontx nce, uro
coxpannnoct - crent, nepn, oxna,- tno xpenxoe, roncroe, pac-
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axas 812
cunrannoe na onroe npemx; a mne ymanoct, xora mt noxonnn
x ycate, uro x nnxy pasnannnt.
ax nnrepecno snaxomnrtcx co crapnno n mtcnenno nepe-
nocnrtcx n ro anexoe npemx, npecrannrt cee xnsnt npomemnx
noxonenn, npomemnx cronern!
ora x poxy no ocxne, mne ncera ouent xouercx npecra-
nnrt +ror ropo n pasnte npemena n cpannnrt ero c name xnnyue,
sanono nepecrpannammecx cronnne. ora-ro pasntmn nepeyn-
xamn n saxoynxamn no ocxne nponpannct ente nmn, a no
ontmnm ynnnam n +xnnaxax nponocnnnct ctrte, pasyrte n
npexenpemenno opmsrmne oraun. renept, renept... ecxrxn
rtcxu napxntx, sopontx n necentx nme sanonnxmr npocrop-
nte ynnnt n mnpoxne nnoman ocxnt - xpacannnt cronnnt.
Ftcrpo muarcx mamnnt, anroyct, rponneyct. xax uyecno
n merpo! ora x tnam n nosemntx nopnax merpo, x ncntrtnam
ontmym uenoneuecxym ropocrt sa namy conercxym cosnarentnym
+noxy, sa nam cnntnt, myxecrnennt n cnoont or +xcnnya-
rannn napo.
ne npecrannxercx, uro mt xnnem ono ontmo snaunrent-
no xnsntm n panno nontsyemcx ncemn ee naramn. nmn mne
npecrannxmrcx rora ne raxnmn, xax x npnntxna nanmart nx
n otenno xnsnn,- ner, onn mne xaxyrcx uem-ro ontmnm, no
nx rnopuecxn pasym, nanpannxemt pono ommynncrnuecxo
naprne n noopyxennt snannxmn, noexaer npnpoy, rnopnr uy-
eca n rexnnxe, souecrne, ncxyccrne.

croxna na epery mopx n oun n exnamnponana crnxn o mope:
nor ono mope, ropnr npmso,
emuyxnom neno cnepxaer.
a enym orment nonna sa nonno
penoxno n rxxxo nseraer.
morpn, on xnner, +ror stxn xpycrant,
n croner, rposnr, neroyer.
ant-ro xaxax! xax +ra ant
crante oun uapyer...
(, aco n)
ox cnyrnnna anx cnymana crnxn, cmorpena na mope n rono-
pnna, uro ceuac ono y epera remno-ronyoe c senentm orrenxom
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a nann remno-cnnee, cnnnammeecx c ropnsonrom. anexo-anexo
nntn napoxo. o x omymana rontxo sanax mopx a nerxne noptnt
ocnexammero pnsa, a no noramn necox n rpann. anx uacro noc-
xnnnana:
- axoe mope npexpacnoe n espexnoe!..
ne morna npecrannrt cee nennunny mopx, no nonnt - +ror
xnnymn xaxo-ro cnoe xnsntm stxn xpycrant~ - npecran-
nxnnct mne neycranno ecrnymme, nnxora ne nccxxamme, a, na-
oopor, nnont n nnont napoxammecx cepnro cnno, xoropax n
ro npemx tna omyrnmo, ocxsaemo.
onnt naxartnannct na eper, momno yapxnnct o xamnn; +ro
x omymana n nmenno noromy morna npecrannrt cee, uro noxpyr
menx rpomant npocrop, uro nonnt xarxrcx nsanexa n re-ro ram,
anexo cnnnamrcx c ropnsonrom. o ropnsonre y menx ne tno spn
rentnoro npecrannennx, no ecnn t mne xro-nnyt nauan oxc-
nxrt, cpannnnax ropnsonr, nanpnmep, c onpoxnnyro na semne
rnranrcxo uame, xpax xoropo conpnxacamrcx c semne nnn noo,
ro, ouent moxer trt, y menx nosnnxno t cnoeopasnoe npecran-
nenne o ropnsonre.
crnxax x unrana:
nnno orrya, xax ant ropnsonra
nnnaercx c sttm mopcxo...
(. acon. a mornne epnena~)
or nouemy x n ronopm, uro cpannenne ropnsonra c onpoxnnyro
uame nomorno t mne npnnnsnrentno npecrannrt ropnsonr. o
+ro rontxo rax xaxercx mne; roro xe, uro ecrt n ecrnnrentnocrn,
x ne snam.
ennunna mopx xpane sannmana menx. uent xorenoct rax nnn
nnaue npecrannrt ero. ora x nnepnte ortxana y mopx, x xax-
t ent xonna xynartcx nnn npocro cnena na epery y camo
not n noramn omymana, xax nonnt naerann na eper, a norom,
orxntnyn, xya-ro ncuesann. crapanact xynartcx no ncxxym no-
roy, urot nmert nosmoxnocrt npecrannxrt mope cnoxontm,
yamxnnammnm nnn ypntm. nsnpanact na cxant, xoropte na-
nannct n mope; n ypnym noroy nonnt c rnrannuecxo cnno pas-
nnannct o +rn cxant, oanax menx ptsramn. x ymana o rom,
xaxoe rpomanoe npocrpancrno onxna sannmart macca not, xoro-
pax ymyer c raxo crnxnno cnno.
cnomnnnnct mn]onornuecxne nerent, n uynnoct mne, uro +ro
orpomnte pyxn nnacrnrenx mope, cnnaua n nonennrenx oceona
ontmnmn nepamn uepnamr noy ns nep semnn, a norom c pasmaxy
ntnnnamr ee na cymy, urot saronnrt nect semno map. am o-
ceon npecrannxncx mne nennxanom, mnpoxonneunm, nnnnopy-
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xnm, c nymncrtmn nnnntmn xypxmn ns mopcxo rnnt n raxo
xe ntmno opoo. ora oceon cepnncx, on cnntno pacxa-
unnan cnoe ronono; pasnenammnecx xypn n opoa napymann
cnoxocrnne nosyxa, n rora naunnanact ypx... ax x ]anrasnpo-
nana, cnx na cxane...
oun mt c ane n reuenne nx no necxontxy pas cnycxannct
x mopm (x ortxana n canaropnn anxascxax nntepa~). s caa
canaropnx no xopome necrnnne nerxo tno nonacrt npxmo na
nnxx. coxanennm, x ortxana n raxoe npemx roa, xora xynartcx
n mope eme pano - n mapre n nepno nononnne anpenx; no+romy mt
xonnn na eper npocro norynxrt. anx nensmenno nocxnmanact
xpacoro n npocropom mopx. nora ona ronopnna: eronx mope
ne concem cnoxonoe. onnt sannnamr ry orment, re mt nuepa ne-
uepom rynxnn. ouemt, x noney rex nnxe x noe, rt nocmorpnmt
nonnt~.
nn pas mt noomnn x mopm n ror momenr, xora nonna orxnt-
nyna nasa. naxnonnnact n norporana pyxamn necox: on tn mox-
pt; x nonnmana, uro nyxno nocxopee yxonrt or cneymme non-
nt, a n anx ramnna menx nasa, no ynpxmoe xenanne nomart
na nery nonny, urot omyrnrt n npecrannrt cnny ee yapa, yep-
xnnano menx na mecre... aexanmax nonna nourn o noxca sannna
nac, oana nnno n ronony ptsramn n, xax t nmyxct conepmen-
ntm em enom, neroponnnno orxarnnact n mope.
- y xax, npecrannxemt renept nonnt? - cmexnact anx.
roxe cmexnact, necmorpx na ro uro ry]nn, uynxn n nnxnxx
uacrt oext ocnonarentno ntmoxnn; x omymana axe, xax n monx
ry]nxx xnaxann nxrymxn~. t ymnn n canaropn, urot nepe-
oertcx.
nnepnte na ontre yennact, uro +ror stxn xpycrant~ xo-
pom rontxo rora, xora spxune nmymrcx nm nsann, no n ry]nxx
n n oexe on ocrannxer mentme yonontcrnnx, rem onee uro y
menx ne tno nropo napt oynn n pyroro nantro n x nect ent
rax n npoxonna moxpax.
asmept mopx ne anann mne noxox, x ontrtnanact y ort-
xammnx: cxontxo xnnomerpon or oun o enacrononx nnn ecct?
anx ornnexna moe nnnmanne or +roro nonpoca npenoxennem norn
n enpapn.
II
conneunt, xpxn n rennt anpentcxn ent cpasy nocne san-
rpaxa mt ornpannnnct n enpapn. xe pannee rennoe yrpo oe-
mano xopomym noroy, n, ecrnnrentno, ent tn nennxonenen: mne
rax II uynnoct, uro n raxo ent nce xnnoe n npnpoe onxno pa-
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ontmnx, cnntntx n
enartcx n nnxonart, a nexnnoe - oxnnart n roxe paonartcx romy,
uro ono openo xnsnt. onnx cymecrn - ontmnx, cnntntx n
xpenxnx, xaxont xpynnte xnnornte n epentx,- xnsnt yer nn-
rentno; y pyrnx - manentxnx nacexomtx, rpannnox - xnsnt
xoporxa, ona nponnrcx ponno crontxo, cxontxo yer cnepxart, nn-
xonart n nert +ror ent, corpert n osapennt xpxnm mxntm
connnem.
enpapn npecrannxncx mne n nne ontmoro caa nnn, nyu-
me cxasart, napxa, pacnonoxennoro na ponno nonepxnocrn semnn,
c onnaxono npxmtmn, mnpoxnmn n ponntmn annexmn, yctnanntmn
necxom n menxnm rpannem. ecrnnrentnocrn enpapn oxasancx
ne raxnm. xe y nxoa n +ror uyecnt yronox, xora anx noxy-
nana nnert, x omyrnna npnxrnte cmemannte sanaxn pasnnuntx
pacrenn. pox nexoropoe paccroxnne no nepno annee, x yxe
noopasnna, uro norpyxamct n nosymno-apomarnoe mope,- rax xo-
pomo naxno co ncex cropon. urot nonacrt na cneymmym annem,
nao tno nsorn na crynentxy. axnmn crynentxamn naunnanact
xaxax cneymmax annex. otuntx caax n napxax noontx
crynenex x ne ncrpeuana, no+romy nce annen enpapnx npecran-
nxnnct mne rpomantmn reppacamn, nocneonarentno nosntmammn-
mncx ona na pyro, re pocnn neunosenente nanpt, xnnapnct,
rpomante neepnte nantmt, marnonnn, mamonronte epentx n r. .
anx nononna menx x xycram, epentxm, x nentcoxnm exoparnn-
ntm pacrennxm c ouent menxnmn nncrouxamn (ne snam nx nasna-
nnx), xoropte tnn nocaxent xpyramn. cepenne raxnx xpyron
nennuecrnenno nosntmannct neepnte nantmt nnn nanpt. axnmn
xe exoparnnntmn pacrennxmn tnn onnerent accent. uem
antme mt yrnynxnnct n enpapn, rem ontme x nocxnmanact,
no nacroxmn enpapn npensomen nce mon oxnannx n nce mon
npecrannennx o nem.
ncera ouent nmnna pacrennx, oxorno nsyuana orannxy,
oma caxana ncxxoe cemeuxo, ncxxym ]pyxronym xocrouxy, n, ne-
cmorpx na ro uro mnoro unrana o pacrennxx, x ne nmena xcnoro npe-
crannennx o raxnx rpomantx nantmax, xnnapncax, nanpax, mory-
unx xepax. enpapn nanomnnan mne nonmente cxasxn ns t-
cxun n ono noun~. ono nantmt x nouemy-ro ncnomnnna crn-
xornopenne epmonrona a cenepe nxom...~, no n +rom napcrne
pacrenn, re tno rax mnoro nantm, orpomntx cocen n xepon,
rpyno tno noopasnrt cee onnoxym, sactnannym cnerom cocny,
croxmym na rono nepmnne, a con +ro cocnt, rpesxme o npexpac-
no, no rpycrno n onnoxo nantme na yrece ropmuem~, noxasancx
t sect nenentm.
enpapnn pacrennx ne pocnn onnoxo, ne rpycrnnn; onn ne-
ymonuno n oxnnnenno xax t neperonapnnannct mexy coo. on
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nantnt nocnymnnann nx roponnnnt menor, xorx x ne nonnmana
cnoeopasnoro xstxa nncrten. ora pyxa, ocropoxno npnxacaxct,
cxontsnna no nerxam n nncrtxm, a nerxn nerepox pacxaunnan nx,
mne nmenno uynnoct, uro pacrennx menenxr cnonmn roptmn xpo-
namn, cnemar coomnrt mne uro-ro ranncrnennoe, ouent naxnoe,
uro nm onnm noneann semnx, mope n xapxoe mxnoe connne...
enpapnn tno mnoro raxnx pacrenn, o xoroptx x snana
rontxo nonacntmxe, no npecrannxna nx onee xpacnntmn nnn co-
ncem nenspauntmn. ax, x nnxora ne nnena nneron xamennn, xorx
n snam sanax yxon amennx~. Hnerox +ror npecrannxncx mne
ouent xpacnntm, no ]opme noxoxnm na ontmym enym posy c nex-
nemnmn nenecrxamn. enpapnn x ynnena xycr xamennn, no nne-
ron eme ne tno. a nerxax tnn onontno roncrte, rpyonarte
nncrtx; rpyno tno noymart, uro mexy nnmn pocnn npecran-
nxnmnecx mne nnert. axe ncnyx x pasouaponanno cxasana:
- eyxenn +ro xamennx? Ftrt moxer, +ro omnxa? ymana,
uro nncrtx xamennn ronxne, no xpaxm ntpesannte n apxarncrte...
esamerno or cropoxa x cptnana nncrouex nnn nnerouex c xax-
oro pacrennx n npxrana n xapman xaxera. ne xorenoct nce +rn
coxponnma sacymnrt n nonesrn c coo omo. ono monoent-
xo, no yxe pacnnerme marnonnn mne yanoct copnart nnerox.
me o noesxn n oun mne xax-ro npnnesnn ns yance necxont-
xo nerox marnonnn c nepacxptnmnmncx yronamn. o+romy x pant-
me ne snana nacroxmero sanaxa nnerymnx marnonn. ymana,
uro camt uyecnt, npnxrnt apomar ncrouamr rontxo post. o n
enpapnn x yennact, uro nnert marnonnn naxnyr eme apomar-
nee, eme cnntnee pos. , ntxax nce sanaxn enpapnx, x ymana:
nxora x ne nnena n, nepoxrno, ne ynnxy norocon. o nonaram,
uro rontxo n enpapnn nnn n norocntx sapocnxx moxno omymart
raxne sanaxn~.
oroct npecrannxnnct mne n nne ontmnx nnnn, c orpom-
ntmn oxanamn n neonncyemo npnxrntm sanaxom. ect noroc -
creent, nncrtx n nnert - xasancx mne raxnm npexpacntm, uro n
nnctmax x pystxm x nncana: pannnnam +ror sanax rontxo c
sanaxom oxecrnennoro noroca~... naunrentno nosnee x npoun-
rana n ono crarte cneymmee onncanne noroca: Hnerox noroca
nmeer ontmoe cxocrno c poso, no rontxo no mnoro pas xpynnee ee.
nsnt nnerxa xoporxa - rpn nx. nrepecna oxpacxa nnerxa no-
roca: n nepnt ent - xpxo-posonax, na nropo ent ona crano-
nnrcx snaunrentno cnernee, a na rpern npenpamaercx n cnerno-
xpemont c posonartmn xonunxamn nenecrxon...~
ax nnnre, moe npecrannenne o noroce tno conepmenno nntm.
xpome roro, mne xasanoct, uro, nponspacrax n rennom xnnmare,
re ne tnaer snmt, noroct nneryr nourn xpyrnt ro, a n e-
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crnnrentnocrn oxasanoct, uro xnsnt nnerxa xoporxa. e snam, xa-
xne nncrtx xpacnnee: re nn, xoropte nnenn n naroyxann n moem
noopaxennn, nnn xe re, uro ecrt n ecrnnrentnocrn? o necom-
nenno ono: mon~ noroct ornocnrentno neunte~ nnert...
ontmomy moemy oropuennm, mt sa ony +xcxypcnm ne ycnenn
oorn nect enpapn; trt moxer, mt namnn t ram n noroct.
o n nesanncnmo or +roro xapmant moero xaxera ryro tnn nanrt
pasnnuntmn nncrtxmn n manentxnmn nerouxamn. pnmnoct raxnm
xe nayuntm marepnanom~ nanonnnrt n annn nopr]ent. r ncero,
uro x cymena ocmorpert n nocnpnnxrt, x tna n nennuamem noc-
ropre n, xaxercx, noono nncrtxm pacrenn es ymonxy onrana
c ane, xoropax ne snana, x xaxomy pacrennm pantme nononrt
menx.
- t sect xax n cxasxe,- ronopnna ona.
- a, mne nce +ro anomnnaer cxasxn Bexepesat, no rontxo
sect xpacnnee, no +ro ne ]anrasnx, a cama xnsnt. or rt rono-
pnmt mne o mope, o xpacore rop, o ropoe, xoropt ree xopomo nn-
en c namero anxona. o nx menx +ro nnmt cnonecnte opast -
ecxpacounte n nexcnte, noromy uro x ne mory x nnm npnxocnyrtcx;
a enpapn x rax uerxo nocnpnnxna. omymana sanax, ocmarpn-
nana pacrennx, npoxonna c roo no annexm n npnnnsnrentno
npecrannxm nx pacnonoxenne, n no+romy enpapn x nnxy~ ro-
paso oruernnnee, uem mopcxym ant, nepmnnt oranenntx rop nnn
neuepnne ornn ropoa. ect x rynxm c roo, ocmarpnnam nce, uro
rontxo moxno ocmorpert, n nacnaxamct, nacnaxamct rnyoxo,
pacrporanno n nocxnmenno...
camom ene, pasne moxno tno ne nacnaxartcx? apxne
nyun connna npnxrno, ycnoxannamme rennoro necnt corpenann
nce yronxn semnn, n xaxne rontxo mornn nponnxnyrt. onnne mne
npecrannxnoct orpomntm ornenntm xpyrom, or xoroporo n xcnte
nn nenpeptnno orneramr ncxpt. rneren na nexoropoe paccroxnne
or nenrpa, +rn ncxpt menxmr cnom ]opmy; nyrem coennennx pyr
c pyrom onn npenpamamrcx n nnnnte crpent, nponsammne nos-
yx, ocnemamr n corpenamr nce na cnoem nyrn. r mopx crpynncx
nerxn pns, n ena ynonnmtmn nonnamn uyrt omyrnmo npoxnat
on ymanxn xapy.
rax, nneuarnenne or enpapnx tno snaunrentno xpue n cnnt-
nee, uem or mopx; mope x nmnna xpenxo n nemnoro no+rnuecxo
nmontm, no npecrannrt ero raxnm, xaxoe ono ecrt n ecrnnrent-
nocrn, ne morna; enpapn xe tn nx menx onee ocrynen, a
snaunr, n npecrannenne o nem xax o ontmom napxe cxnatnanoct
ropaso npome.
osnparxct c xypopra, x mnoro paccxastnana cnonm pystxm o
+xcxypcnn n enpapn. rex nop npomno nocemt ner, n ceuac,
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xora x nnmy +ror ouepx, mne npecrannxercx enpapn raxnm,
xaxnm x ero nnena~ necno 1941 r. osmoxno, n ouepxe naercx
mnoro nerounocre: x net ceuac ne nontsymct nnxaxnmn npe-
napnrentntmn sanncxmn, x npocro, npecrannxx cee enpapn,
nnmy o nem.
u -
enx c moe nepenounne . . npnrnacnnn na nernn ortx
n nnonepcxn narepn rnyxonemtx, xoropt nomemancx n cene a-
emenoncxom, pacnonoxennom n 10 xm or epnyxona. xasann, uro
noeem mt mamnno. pecrannxnoct mne, uro yy cnert n xa-
nne, cnonno n xamre nosymnoro xopanx, xoropt cxontsnr n nos-
yxe, uyrt xacaxct semnn, uro yy omymart nce ero xoneannx,
nce ronuxn, nce sanaxn none n necon. eurana x rax noromy, uro
eme ne esnna na mamnnax n oxpecrnocrn ocxnt.
o xora mt c . . npntnn n mxony rnyxonemtx, orxya na-
meuanact ornpanxa, mt ysnann, uro noeem rpysono mamnno.
narept nesnn npoyxrt n pyrne nemn. namn exann npexrop
mxont, nauantnnx narepx n eme xoe-xro. ora mt paccennct na
rmxax n ysnax, x noymana: ax eme nyume, uem n saxptro xa-
nne, no xpane mepe, x nonyuy ontme nneuarnenn~.
oxa mt exann no ropoy, x omymana ero sanaxn, ntnt n otu-
nym nernmm yxory. o +rnm npnsnaxam x oratnanact, uro mt
eme ne ntexann sa npeent ocxnt. nonpocnna . . cxasart,
xora mt nteem ns ropoa, nx roro urot no npemenn npecra-
nnrt (y menx tnn uact) ro paccroxnne, xoropoe mt npoexann.
ama mamnna tcrpo muanact no ynnnam, no y menx ne tno nn
manemero spnrentnoro nnn cnyxonoro npecrannennx o rom, uro
xpome name mamnnt no +rnm ynnnam nponocxrcx n pyrne ma-
mnnt, rpamnan, rponneyct, uro npoxoxr ronnt nme n no
oenm croponam ynnn pacnonoxent oma n r. . +rom x, xoneuno,
snana, no, nocxontxy x exana n mamnne, a ne mna no ynnne n co
mno nnxro ne pasronapnnan, ne cooman mne o rom, uro nponcxonr
noxpyr nac, y menx n npecrannenn o xaxo-ro pyro xnsnn ne
nosnnxano. npecrannxna cee rontxo rex nme, xoropte naxo-
nnnct n mamnne pxom co mno, no x x nnm npnxacanact no co-
crnennomy xenannm; npecrannxna rontxo re nemn, xoropte ne-
xann n mamnne. o ecnn t, nanpnmep, na ynnne cnyunnoct uro-
nnyt neotxnonennoe n . . nauana mne nepeanart nponcxo-
xmee n npn +rom ona t cnntno na +ro pearnponana, rax uro x
samernna t nonnenne, rpenory nno necenocrt n sanncnmocrn or
cotrnx, rora t n y menx cosanoct npecrannenne o rom, uro
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nponcxonr na ynnne. enept xe x omymana rontxo nerep n nn-
xenne name mamnnt.
o mne ncxope crano cxyuno cnert monua, n x crana cnpamn-
nart y . ., uro ona nnnr na ynnnax. nuero ocoennoro ona mne
ne paccxasana, onaxo xoe-uro coomnna o nmxx n o omax, nocne
uero mne crano xasartcx, uro x roxe npecrannxm nesnaxomtx nm-
e, nesnaxomte mne oma n nopt. ora ntexann sa ropo, na-
crynnn yxe neuep; x ne omymana conneuntx nyue,- snaunr,
connne samno. nosyxe omymanact saroponax npoxnaa n unc-
rora. amnna nomuanact eme tcrpee, n or ee nnxennx ycnnnncx
nerep: nac oanano, xax nonnamn, ero xonontmn noptnamn. rano
rax xonono, uro mt nauann oenartcx norennee. nauana x saxy-
ranact n oexno o noopoxa, no nerep n xono ycnnnnannct, n x
naxptnact c ronono. enept x yxe ne omymana nosyxa; mne npe-
crannxnoct, uro x nexy n xamre, a nama mamnna - nonanmee no
ypm cyno. opora, ouennno, tna yxancrax, n nac ncex cnntno
pocano ns cropont n cropony, xax +ro tnaer na cyne no npemx
xauxn, o uem x nemano unrana. uem antme mt yesxann or ropoa.
uem xononee cranonnncx nerep, rem ontme mne xasanoct, uro mt
norpyxaemcx n xononoe, nenpnnernnnoe n axe nyrammee menx
mope. axercx, x nemnoxxo pemana, no +ro npecrannenne n omy-
menne xononoro mopx tno nacrontxo cnntno, uro x nopo omy-
ntnana oexno, xenax yenrtcx, ne npomoxno nn ono. nepxy
oexno tno ouent xononoe n noromy xasanoct moxptm. 10 ua-
con neuepa nacrontxo noxonoano, uro x osxna axe no renntm
oexnom. e snam, xaxax tna nout - remnax nnn nynnax. ora
x na mnnyry orxptnana nnno n omymana xonont nerep, mne y-
manoct, uro nout onxna trt ouent remno. x-ono mne ncera
xaxercx, uro noxpyr menx remno, xora xe x omymam nonepxnocrtm
nnna rennory nosyxa, mne ymaercx, uro noxpyr cnerno. ax n na
+ror pas mne xasanoct, uro nout crpamno remnax. ouemy-ro +ro
ocroxrentcrno ocoenno ecnoxonno menx, n x necxontxo pas opa-
manact x . .:
- t cnnre? xaxnre, ouent nn remno?
na pemana, orneuax uro-ro nenonxrnoe. ocrannna ee n noxoe.
orenoct ycnyrt noxpenue, cranonnnoct nce xononee n xononee.
necxontxo pas nnesanno npoctnanact, ocmarpnnana cex n
. " urot yenrtcx, ne npomoxnn nn mt; rax ycrounno tno
moe npecrannenne o xononom mope.
euac x yxe ne nomnm, cxontxo npemenn x cnana n xora npo-
cnynact: pantme nnn n ror momenr, xora mamnna ocranonnnact
nosne oma, re nomemancx narept. o xopomo nomnm, xax . .
cxasana, uro mt yxe npnexann, n x +romy ouent opaonanact. ro-
ro nomor mne ntrn ns mamnnt. yxacno samepsna, n cnona mne
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noxasanoct, uro mt npnexann nonce ne n nnonepcxn narept, a no-
repnenn xopanexpymenne n renept ntxonm na eper neonrae-
moro ocrpona. 3ro npecrannenne ycyrynnoct eme n rem, uro no
sanaxy x omymana nnsocrt pexn nnn npya sect, n necy. x +ra
xononax, npaxeno-nnemymax na eper noa! auem ona nyxna?
osxna, ycrana, xouy n cyxym, rennym nocrent, a nmecro ncero
+roro omymam sanax ctpocrn n ymam, uro re-ro nnsxo sa e-
pentxmn npxuercx npy...
onxno trt, mt nexann n nnnonym annem nnn ona tna px-
om, noromy uro x omymana cnntnt apomar nneryme nnnt. urot
ne ymart ontme o mope, x nauana npecrannxrt ontmne crapte
nnnt, noxptrte manentxnmn n naroyxammnmn xncrxmn menxnx
nnerouxon, no ns monx ycnnn nnuero ne ntmno: x ne morna oro-
rnart or cex nanxsunnt opas npya. n, xax sno yx, nenn-
nmo, no omyrnmo naxonncx pxom co mno. n, xax mo nepyr,
nsenancx nao mno, pasnnn n nyran. nnxora pantme ne tna
n ontmom necy; mne uynnoct, uro n xononom mpaxe npxuyrcx na
nernxx epenten, xax n crapnnntx cxasxax nnn cnax, ncxxne manent-
xne sneptxn, rnomt, pycanxn n nasonnno menuyr: ocrant nac,
norpora nac...~ axe cnaxn apomar nnnt ne cmxruan +ro omy-
menne uero-ro xyrxoro, samopaxnnammero xpont... orenoct cxopee
n xomnary - n renno n ymr - n urot co mno tna . .: nce-
raxn ona nnnr n cntmnr, moxer yexart n menx ynecrn or npya,
or neca n or ncex ero nountx crpaxon...

ac npemenno nomecrnnn n cnantne crapmnx enouex. Ftn cet-
mo uac yrpa, xora x npocnynact. pacxptrte oxna nnnnanact
uyecnax yrpennxx cnexecrt n ntxnxmne, sonymne na nonm sanaxn
senenn, nnaxno semnn n nneryme nnnt. r nuepamnnx crpaxon
ne ocranoct n cnea. enept, naoopor, omymax sanaxn, conneunte
nyun, naammne npxmo na mom nocrent, x npecrannna cee, xax,
onxno trt, xopomo na nope. ne xorenoct cxopee ntrn ns omy,
no enouxn yxe npocnynnct n cnemnnn noorn xo mne, urot no-
snaxomnrtcx. xom co mno na cnoe nocrenn nexana . " ona
roxe npocnynact, n mt neceno npnnercrnonann pyr pyra, co cme-
xom ncnomnnax nuepamnee nyremecrnne n mom oxsnt npomoxnyrt
n mope... exypnte nnonepnoxarte n enouxn oxpyxnnn nac.
sanxsana c pexramn ecey o nx ortxe, o pasnneuennxx n
xnnrax, crpemxct no nx orneram yxcnnrt cee yponent nx ymcrnen-
noro pasnnrnx n snannx peun. o xapaxrepntm nnxennxm pyx, no
tcrpore nnn mennrentnocrn orneron x crapanact npecrannrt
xaxym enouxy. nn xasannct ouee n pasnnree, pyrne tnn
ouent sacrenunnt, menee pasnnrt, menee naunrannt. ora enouxn
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ymnn na noem ]nara, mt c . . roxe ncrann. oxa ona ynpana
nocrenn n ocranana ryanernte npnnanexnocrn, x, no otxnone-
nnm, nontranact yxcnnrt cee nennunny cnantnn, xax n ne pac-
crannent xponarn, cxontxo oxon, c xaxo cropont naxonrcx nept.
o nx roro urot nce +ro xcno npecrannrt, neoxonmo tno
oorn xomnary, nce ocmorpert n rora yxe nmert npecrannenne
ne rontxo npnnnsnrentnoe, a conepmenno onpeenennoe o xaxom
yronxe n npemere xomnart. rax n cenana: nx nauana nsyunna
rontxo ony xomnary, no pemnna nsyunrt nect om.
axnarnn neoxonmte nemn, mt nomnn no nop. o opore x
npocnna . . noxastnart mne pyrne xomnart n mnpnny necr-
nnnt, no xoropo mt cnycxannct nnns. rynentxn x cama nocun-
rana: rax x ncera enam, xora tnam n nesnaxomom nomemennn.
oxcnnna . ., xax naxno nx menx nsyuart nesnaxomym ocra-
nonxy, n ona crapanact osnaxomnrt menx co ncem oxpyxammnm.
nauana n moem yme, n namxrn nonyunnoct cnnomnoe narpomoxe-
nne or ncex +rnx nesnaxomtx xomnar, npemeron, corpynnxon, pe-
xr. ce cnnnanoct n nyranoct, nonyuancx xaxo-ro cymyp, no x
snana, uro uepes nexoropoe npemx, xora x npnntxny xo ncemy +romy
n eme notnam necxontxo pas n nontx mecrax, xaxax xomnara
yer npecrannxrtcx mne conepmenno orentno, no sanaxam, no ee
nnne n mnpnne. yy ornnuart xomnart ony or pyro. crarn,
xora mne noome npnxonrcx nnepnte npoxonrt no nesnaxomtm
xomnaram, x, xoneuno, ne cunram cnon marn, no n ro xe npemx, nmex
npecrannenne o npemenn n npocrpancrne, x nenontno, nourn ne-
ynonnmo nx camo cex cnexy sa rem, cxopo nnn menenno x npo-
mna ry nnn nnym xomnary. axnm opasom, nce moe reno npnntxaer
x romy paccroxnnm, xoropoe orenxer menx or xaxoro npemera.
3ro xpane nomoraer mne cnoono opnenrnponartcx n snaxomo
ocranonxe.
na mt ntmnn no nop, x ncem cnonm renom omyrnna npnxr-
nym yrpennmm xryuecrt connna, sannnanmero nce noxpyr nentmn
xacxaamn nyue. ax mopcxnmn nonnamn, menx onnnano nenoe
reuenne cnexero a raxoro uncroro, opxmero nosyxa. Ftno ne-
nepeanaemo xopomo! ne cnona npecrannnoct, uro x norpyxamct
n nosymnt oxean, no rontxo on tn concem ne raxnm, xaxnm npe-
crannxncx mne noutm. onneunt cner n renno nce nsmennnn. e-
nept mne axe xasanoct, uro x nnxy cner, noromy uro omymana
ropxuee npnxocnonenne nyue x cnoemy reny. ne npecrannnoct,
uro ceronx yrpom nce noxpyr nenpemenno nnxyer n noer. ne ca-
mo xorenoct erart, nert, necennrtcx.
namxrn nasonnno nonropxnnct crnxn stxona:
erxo mne, rax nerxo, xax yro x neram,
eram n nom, neram n nom.
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- ax uyecno, xax opo x cex uyncrnym ceuac! t rontxo
noymare, apnx nxonaenna, uro sa yrpo, xaxax uncrora nos-
yxa! ne uynrcx, uro noxpyr nac pasnnnaercx ptsxymax pa-
ocrt, cnepxammax ncemn orrenxamn payrn; xorx x nnxora payrn
ne nnena, no ona mne ceuac raxo npecrannxercx: xpacnno, ne-
ceno, xax +ro yrpo...
- or nt nce nnnre, cntmnre, a x uyncrnym n npecrannxm
no-cnoemy,- ronopnna x, opamaxct x . .- xaxnre mne, ncnt-
rtnaere nn nt raxoe xe nacnaxenne, xax x?
- a, a! roxe nacnaxamct n paymct romy, uro nnxy
noxpyr cex. ce seneneer n cnepxaer na connne, a nrnuxn rax xo-
pomo nomr.
- omr? ne npecrannxm, xax onn nomr, no ecnn t moxno
tno nomart nrnuxy n npnnoxnrt nanen x ee ropntmxy, xora ona
meeuer, x t omyrnna nnpannn, n xonunxax monx nantnen ocra-
noct t +ro omymenne n x t ymana, uro roxe cntmy, xax nrnuxn
nomr...
ax, pasronapnnax, mt cnycxannct x npyy no ysentxo rpo-
nnnxe, smexo nsnnnanmecx mexy xycramn n ntcoxo rpano.
ymana, uro noa rennax, nacxonax, xax +ro yrpo, n cmeno nomna
n npy. o noa oxasanact xonono n nnecxana na necox ne oco-
enno nacxono.
ncxpnxnyna, sacmexnact n ntexana na eper.
- , a, apnx nxonaenna!
- uro raxoe?
- ne xasanoct, uro +ror npy ouent manentxn n c renno
noo, a ona raxax xononax.
- me pano, a npy ontmo n, nanepnoe, rnyoxn. pyrom
epentx, mnoro renn. pecrannxere cee +ry xaprnny?
- er, ne concem. or ecnn t nt nononnn menx no epery,
noxasann epentx, ecnn t x morna cama nponepnrt rnynny, rora
t nyume npecrannna nce +ro nourn rax xe, xax n nt, rontxo es
cnera, es oxpacxn, a rent x omymam...
- anexo n noy saxonrt nentsx, rnyoxo. norne epentx
pacryr npxmo n noe, no uro moxno yer noxasart, x nam nce
noxaxy.
xom c narepem naxonnoct ceno a-emenoncxoe. narepe
nx nac ne namnoct orentno xomnart, mt pemnnn nanxrt cee
yronox y xoro-nnyt ns xonxosnnxon. o nx na nnn rpn mt eme
npoxnnn n narepe. omnm ony nenpnxrnym, oxnnnym nout.
. . nerna cnart na xyxne, a menx npnrnacnna n cnom xomnary
npau. +ror neuep x uyncrnonana cex ouent yromnenno, ne tno
xenannx nn pasronapnnart, nn nnrartcx. o n xomnare npaua mne
nce xe saxorenoct na ncxxn cnyua osnaxomnrtcx c ocranonxo
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n pacnonoxennem xomnart, onaxo x nocrecnxnact. . . rontxo
noxasana mne re npemert, xoropte naxonnnct nnxe x xponarn,
urot x ne ymnnact nnn ne cnannna uero-nnyt. oxasana raxxe
cron, na xoropom ocrannna nx menx noy. nerna cnart, xomnare
tno npoxnano, naxno ctpocrtm.
ne npecrannxnoct, uro nce npemert, xoropte x ycnena ocmor-
pert,- xoneuno, x oratnanact, uro n xomnare tnn eme n pyrne
npemert, xoropte x ne ocmorpena,- mornn t nepyxenmno, or-
uyxenno nocmorpert na menx, ecnn t tnn xnntmn. asanoct
mne rax orroro, uro xomnara n naxonnmaxcx n ne ocranonxa tnn
nesnaxomt, nenpnntunt. e npemert, xoropte croxnn nnxe x
xponarn, xax yro ymtmnenno pacnonoxnnnct na opore, a re,
xoropte x ne ocmarpnnana, o xoroptx ne orparnnanact - nanpn-
mep, cryntx, cronnxn, mxa], a raxxe nropax xponart, re cnana
npau,- cnonno crapannct cnpxrartcx or menx n menorom nopas-
nnnann: ocrant nac, norpora nac~. ax x n ycnyna c omymennem
+roro nopasnnnannx.
onro nn x cnana, ne snam. o npocnynact oromy, uro mne
nno xonono. ncnomnnna, uro na cynyxe . . ocrannna mne
rennt nnarox; nao tno narn ero n naxptrtcx. urot ne pas-
ynrt npaua - x tna ynepena, uro xosxxa xomnart yxe cnnr,-
x rnxo ncrana c nocrenn n, ocropoxno crynax, nauana ncxart cyn-
yx. ax nsnecrno, xomnara tna mne nesnaxoma, no+romy x mna
ouent nepemnrentno, onacaxct, uro mory onpoxnnyrt nnn cnannrt
xaxym-nnyt nemt. narox x namna n rax xe ocropoxno nepny-
nact x cnoe xponarn. tcrpo nerna n nocrent, paccunrtnax
na ro, uro cxopo corpemct, no n ry xe cexyny ncxounna c xpo-
narn...
uro cnyunnoct? ouemy mox nocrent crana moxpo? n nepnym
mnnyry conepmenno pacrepxnact. enosmoxno, urot xro-nnyt
noomen n onnn mom nocrent noo. crapanact npecrannrt cee
paccroxnne or xponarn x crony; trt moxer, x cama cnyuano sa-
ena nnarxom xpyxxy c noo, n ona ynana na nocrent. o ner,
cron naxonncx ne rax nnsxo x xponarn, xpyxxa, ecnn t x ee
cnannna, cxopee ynana t na cryn nnn na non. uro xe cnyunnoct?
rnannoe, re-ro pxom uyxax nocrent n nesnaxomax mne xen-
mnna, xoropax, nanepnoe, cnnr... uro xe mne enart? Ftrt moxer,
pasynrt xosxxy xomnart? o uro x e cxaxy?.. naxo enart
neuero, nao ynrt xosxxy. cropoxno crynax, x npenpnnxna
oxo xomnart, ortcxnnax pyrym xponart. o, ne oxox xponarn,
x namna nept, ntxonnmym n xopnop. orxnyna sa pyuxy - nept
tna ne sanepra. nnnynact antme n cxopo namna xponart, na
xoropo xro-ro cnan. e snax, xax sonyr npaua, x ne crana ee snart
ncnyx, a nnmt ocropoxno norpxcna sa nneuo. na, no-nnnmomy,
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xpenxo cnana n concem ne cntmana, xax x nyremecrnonana no xom-
nare.
axonen, mne yanoct pasynrt ee n paccxasart o cnyunnmem-
cx. osmoxno, ona nnuero ne nonxna ns roro, uro x e ronopnna, no
tcrpo ntmna ns xomnart. uepes mnnyry ona nepnynact n conpo-
noxennn . .
- uro y nac ryr cnyunnoct? - cnpocnna . . paccxasana.
- cnoxorect, nce nycrxxn. euac nter cnntnt oxt.
pau ronopnr, uro +ro crapt om, xptma nnoxax n no mnornx me-
crax nporexaer.
. . n npau ocmorpenn xomnary n yennnct, uro c noronxa xa-
nner npxmo na mom nocrent. cpasy ycnoxonnact, crano axe
cmemno, uro x rax nepenyranact. o ecnn t +ror om tn mne
snaxom, x morna t cee npecrannrt ero pxxnocrt n rora cpasy
nonxna t, n uem eno.
rpo nocne +ro nenpnxrno noun tno conneunoe, nnxymmee,
ntstnammee xenanne rontxo paonartcx ncemy n cenart n xnsnn
ontmoe, nonesnoe eno... concem yx nnxax nentsx tno npe-
crannrt, uro noutm nnn oxt, uro x nponena nout n xaxo-ro ct-
po, xonono xomnare. 3ra xomnara ne coxpannnact n moe namxrn
xax neuro peantnoe - ona ncx pacnanact, pacctnanact, pacnntnact
n neonpeenenno ]opme, xax xommapnte, xora-ro anno npncnnn-
mnecx cnt.

am yanoct narn uncrentxym xomnarxy y ono xonxosnnnt,
xya mt ne samennnn nepecennrtcx. nranne mt nonyuann ns na-
repx, xoropt naxonncx na rope n xonne cena. 3ro tno neanexo,
n x uacro nmecre c . . xonna sa oeamn ne rontxo pan npo-
rynxn, no eme n noromy, uro crpemnnact nce omymart, nocnpnnn-
mart, npecrannxrt. et, xora mt npoxonnn c onoro xonna cena
na pyro, x na nyrn nocnpnnnmana pasnnunte sanaxn: re, xoropte
ncxonnn ns xaxoro oma, n sanaxn rpan, nonentx nneron, pocmnx
n rpane no saopamn nnn n manentxnx onpaxxax; omymana sanax
pexn.
+ro xe npemx . . paccxastnana mne ro, uro ona nanmana
cama. cnn x e ronopnna, uro omyrnna raxo-ro sanax, ncxonn-
mn ns oma, mnmo xoroporo mt mnn, ona mne onnctnana nnemnn
nn oma n nopa.
rom omnxe, re mt cnxnn xomnary, x yxe osnaxomnnact c
ocranonxo n pacnonoxennem oma, ocmorpena axe - nacxontxo
morna ocrart pyxo - napyxnte crent oma. 3ro ano mne nos-
moxnocrt no-nacroxmemy npecrannrt pyccxym nsy. et x pon-
nact n nponena cnoe ercrno n yxpanncxom cene. ne xopomo sna-
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xomt rnnnxnte xart c rnnnonrntm nonom (on1nxa). xnnrax x
unrana o penenuartx pyccxnx nsax, no ymana, uro raxne nst
tnn rontxo y necnnunx: net n necy nerpyno napynrt epenten
n cxonornrt penenuarym nsy.
name xosxxn nnyrpn oma crent oxneent ooxmn. napyxn
nnnt rnaxne, xpenxne penna, nnorno n axxyparno ynoxennte
ono na pyroe, cnonno n nrpymeuno nnpamnxe. enn axxyparno
sanoxent naxne. ce cenano npouno n xopomo, n rem ne menee
x nopaxanact romy, uro nmn xnnyr n raxnx omax, a ne n xarax.
mecro xptntna tna manentxax nepanouxa, onnrax nxnm nnno-
rpaom. o nope pocno mnoro epenten, xycron cnpenn, nneron.
ymana, uro +ro tn manentxn canx, a ne nop, n no+romy o-
mnx co cropont ynnnt xax t npxrancx n senenn. . . noxasana
mne nce, uro moxno tno ocmorpert. menx cnoxnnoct ouent na-
ronpnxrnoe npecrannenne o +ro ocranonxe. o neuepam mt cn-
enn na nepane. oxa tno cnerno, . . uro-nnyt unrana mne,
a xora cranonnnoct remno - rax remno, uro ona yxe nnuero ne
pasnpana n xnnre,- ona onnctnana mne xaprnny noun.
nora tnann ouent remnte neuepa, n or +roro snest xasa-
nnct xpue n xpynnee. ora o +rom ronopnna . ., mne npecran-
nxnoct, uro ram nnepxy, re-ro ouent-ouent ntcoxo, ropnr mnoxe-
crno +nexrpnuecxnx namnouex, cenanntx n ]opme nxrnxoneuntx
snes. nera x ne npecrannxna, a rontxo xax t omymana narpe-
rte +nexrpnuecrnom crexnxnnte snest. me . . paccxastnana,
uro sa cenom naxonnact ]apnxa. euepom ram saxnrannct xpxne
+nexrpnuecxne ornn, xoropte ouent xpacnno ntenxnnct na ]one
nea... o +ra ]apnxa tna rax anexo or menx. ne morna ee
nnxaxnm cnocoom omyrnrt, no+romy ne nmena o ee nnyrpennem
ycrpocrne nn manemero npecrannennx; mne npocro npecran-
nxncx n rom nanpannennn, xya yxastnana . ., anexo n onnoxo
croxmn ontmo xopnyc. o x snana: ]apnxa cymecrnyer peant-
no; x ne comnenanact, uro . . ronopnr npany, no ro xe camoe
mne nonropxn ctn name xosxxn. o ecnn x mtcnenno ne ore-
nxna cnona ]apnxa~ or nonxrnx xopnyca oma, ro ]apnxa nce-
raxn tna nx menx rontxo cnonom, oosnauammnm uro-ro peantnoe,
xaxo-ro npemer, xonrypt xoroporo xax t pacnntnannct n nos-
yxe, ne npnnnmax n moem npecrannennn nnxaxo onpeenenno
]opmt, ne nponsnox na moe nocnpnxrne nnxaxoro nneuarnennx.
ymana n ro npemx, xora . . ronopnna mne o ornxx (]apnxn:
or ecnn t x morna noorn x ne nacrontxo nnsxo, urot omy-
mart xorx t tm nnn pyrne sanaxn (]apnxn es sanaxon nnn
tma x ne morna cee npecrannrt), rora t +ra ]apnxa crana
nx menx uem-ro xonxperntm, nmemmnm cnom onpeenennym ]opmy
n onnx~.
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t uacro xonnn rynxrt n nec, nnora naxonnn semnxnnxy n
mannny. a xycrax, xoropte mne noxastnana . ., x cama morna
cptnart xrot, ornnuax cnente xrot or senentx no mxrxocrn n
rnepocrn. epexo mt saxonnn n raxym rnymt, uro repxnn opory
x narepm. e snam, oxnact nn . ., no x .nemnoxxo noannanact.
orx ronopnnn, uro n necy, ecnn sarn anexo, nonnnct rontxo
enxn n nncnnt, no mne ono cnono nec~ yxe nnymano nexoropt
crpax, n n ro xe npemx x ncntrtnana xaxoe-ro nourenne n npexno-
nenne nepe uem-ro ontmnm n mpauntm. ncnomnnana pasnnunte
crpamnte paccxast o cenepntx necax, a xpome roro, ouent oxnact
sme: mne xasanoct, uro onn rnesxrcx n ntcoxo rpane. pany
ronopxr, uro y crpaxa rnasa nennxn. nocnna nxsante ranouxn, n
ecnn nacrynana na uro-nnyt mxrxoe n, xax mne uynnoct, xono-
noe, ro ncxpnxnnana n xpenxo nennxnact sa . .
naxt mt cnenn nosne ontmoro crora cena na omnpno
nonxne. eno yxe tno concem cyxoe n npn manemem npnxocno-
nennn mypmano. cnena, npncnonnnmnct cnnno x crory, a . .
oromna noncxart mannny. r nerxoro nn noptna nerepxa, nnn or
uero-nno pyroro, no pxom co mno samypmano ceno n necxontxo
cyxnx rpannnox ynano na menx. ne npecrannnoct, uro nor x cnxy
ona, nnuero no nnxy, ne cntmy, a ns crora ntnonsaer smex n na-
npannxercx xo mne. ne npnxonnoct ocmarpnnart xnnoro yxa, a
raxxe uyuena nexoroptx neontmnx sme. o yxy x npecrannxna,
xaxne xononte smen. snam, uro yx esnpee, no n on mne tn
nenpnxren, n x c rpyom npeoonenana ornpamenne, ocmarpnnax ero.
rax, npecrannn cee xononoe neperenoopasnoe reno nsnn-
nammecx smen, x ouent ncnyranact, tcrpo ncrana c semnn n crana
rpomxo snart . . na tna neanexo n cpasy noomna xo mne.
- uro cnyunnoct?
- omct: moxer trt, sect smex; ceno samypmano rax
cnntno, uro x +ro nouyncrnonana n ncnyranact.
- nuero ne nnno. oxer trt, nrnuxa cena nnn or nerpa na
nac noctnanact cyxax rpana,- ycnoxannana . .
- o nt ne yxonre anexo, x omct...
ercrne mne cnyuanoct ocmarpnnart pyxamn, xax spxune pe-
xra nennnn ns rnnnt xarxn, nepxonxn, uenoneuxon, renexxn c no-
maxamn. Fnaroapx snaxomcrny c +ro nesarennno apxnrex-
rypo~ y menx ecrt npnnnsnrentnoe npecrannenne o nepxonntx
xynonax.
a-emenoncxom na xptme tnme nepxnn nosntmancx xy-
non. ora mt yrnynxnnct n uamy neca, . . opnenrnponanact,
ortcxnnax otuno +ror xynon.
cnn x nmem rounoe npecrannenne o epentxx (uro necomnen-
no, no x ne pas n ercrne nonxo nsnpanact na camym nepxymxy
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epenten, ocoenno ]pyxrontx, crpemxct camocroxrentno pnart cne-
nte ]pyxrt), ecnn x n noopaxennn nauepuy mnoro epenten, r. e.
nent nec, ecnn npecrannm cee ycnonnoe paccroxnne, orenxmmee
menx n . . or tnme nepxnn, xynon xoropo nosntmaercx na
nepxymxamn epenten, ro ner nnuero ynnnrentnoro n rom, uro x
mory npecrannrt n nexn xonyc, nomemennt ntme xaxo-nnyt
rouxn. accyxax reomerpnuecxn, x n yme mory npecrannrt nexo-
ropym npxmym nnn xpnnym nnnnm, coennxmmym pacnonoxennte
na ee npornnononoxntx xonnax rouxn. axax xe noopaxaemax
nnnnx coennxna nac - nyxammnx no necy - c xynonom.
rporo npnepxnnaxct reomerpnuecxnx ]opm n noopaxaemtx
nnnn, x rontxo raxnm cnocoom mory npecrannrt cee re nemn,
npemert, paccroxnnx, xoropte ne n cocroxnnn nccneonart pyxamn.
ax-ro neuepom mt nce - . ., nama xosxxa ntra poxo-
ponna, ee ctn onx n x - onro cnenn na nepane, no ouepen pac-
cxastnax ncxxne ncropnn.
auan paccxastnart onx, a . . nepenonna mne ony crapym
ncropnm o annrcxnx nanerax, xoropte conepmannct maxnonnamn
n rot rpaxancxo nont. n pantme mnoroe unrana o noontx
cnyuaxx. asanoct t, uro ro, o uem paccxastnan onx, ne onxno
tno nponsnecrn na menx cnntnoro nneuarnennx; nce +ro tno crapo
n anno nsnecrno.
nart pasomnnct mt nosno. name xomnare no nouam tno
ouent xapxo, rax xax xosxxa saxptnana nce oxna n nept. npn-
rnamana . . cnart co mno na nepane, no ona nouemy-ro ox-
nact. rax, x ocrananact nouenart ona, a nce ocrantnte sannpa-
nnct n ome. +ror neuep mt nernn uacon n 12. pnnnsnrentno
uepes nonuaca x ycnyna, no nocnana neonro. xnost con x nouyn-
crnonana, uro xaxo-ro npemer ynan mne na norn n menenno nepe-
nnraercx no moemy reny nonepx oexna. asonnxn~,- noymana
x no cne, n, necmorpx na ro uro eme ne nnonne npocnynact, mne n
mrnonenne oxa npecrannnnct rpyte n opoarte myxnxn c cnnt-
ntmn sacxopysntmn pyxamn n c ronopamn n opesamn sa noxcom.
pecrannnnct axe nx nnna, nacropoxennte n n ro xe npemx sno-
pano cnnpente. enx oxnarnn raxo yxac, raxo neonncyemt
crpax, uro, xaxercx, nonoct samenennnnct na ronone. e snam, na-
cxontxo rpomxo x saxpnuana, no rontxo saxpnuana no ncm mout n
cnntno rpxxnyna oexno, rax uro ynanmn na menx npemer cna-
nnncx sa nepnna nepant. s xomnart na mo xpnx ntexana xo-
sxxa. na yxe cnana, no, ycntman mym, pacxpapnnact n ntcxo-
unna xo mne na nomomt. ysnana ee pyxy, xora ona npnxocnynact
xo mne. ecronxono paccxasana e o cnyunnmemcx. na pasynna
. ., xoropax roxe ntcnymana mo paccxas. e onn neoymenann,
uro morno ynacrt na menx: nce noxpyr tno rnxo, cnoxono. nn
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axas 812
snann menx n xomnary, no mon ncnyr yxe npomen, x crana cmexrtcx
na cnoe nannxo n n xomnary ne nomna. e xenmnnt nepnynnct
n om, npeynpenn menx, uro sanpyr nept, a ecnn x eme pas ncny-
ramct, urot noxpenue cryuana n nept. noopyxnnact sonrom,
xoroptm conpanact samnmartcx n cnyuae nonropennx annr-
cxoro nanera~ na menx. onro ne cnana, no nce tno cnoxono.
esamerno x ycnyna, no uepes nexoropoe npemx nouyncrnonana no
cryxy maron, uro xro-ro nsomen na nepany. noxpenue cxana n
pyxax pyuxy sonra, roronxct nanocnrt npary cnntnte yapt... Barn
npnnnxannct x nepn, no xo mne nnxro ne npnxocnyncx. ncnom-
nnna, uro onx nopo rontxo no yrpo nosnpamaercx c rynxntx.
- onx, +ro nt?
onx nsxn menx sa pyxy...
- y, ny, xopomo. x ryr ncnyranact, na menx uro-ro ynano.
onx ymen n xomnary. cnona ocranact ona n nauana sact-
nart, no cnana rpenoxno, npoctnaxct or manemero ynonennx
npeyrpennero nerepxa nnn or npnxocnonennx xaxo-nnyt nou-
no yxamxn, nonanme na moe nnno. xnarana sonr n nonncrnen-
no pasmaxnnana nm noxpyr cex. anepnoe, x n +rn mnnyrt nmena
nectma nnymnrentnt nn, noromy uro ontme nn onn paso-
nnx~ ne pemnncx nanacrt na menx...
rpom mt nce crann ymart a oymtnartcx: uro xe morno na
menx cnannrtcx? axonen xosxxa n . . npnmnn x onomy npe-
nonoxennm. o nope uacro nyxana utx-ro cnenax xomxa. na
nce npemx nartxanact na pasnnunte npemert n cptnanact c sa-
opon. nonne nosmoxno, uro +ra xomxa sanesna na pocmym oxono
camo nepant uepemyxy n cnyuano cnannnact na menx. +ro
cneno xomxe x pantme nnuero ne snana. cnn t n ror neuep mne
ne paccxasann crpamno ncropnn, x morna t noymart, uro na
menx nptrnyna xomxa xosxxn. accxas o cneno xomxe necxontxo
ycnoxonn menx, x npoonxana cnart na nepane, no npnnnmana cnon
mept npeocropoxnocrn, oxsarentno noopyxaxct na nout ne rontxo
sonrom, no n nanxo nectma nnymnrentntx pasmepon, xoropym mne
npeycmorpnrentno npenonecnn pystx. ocxontxy x nnuero ne
nnena n ne cntmana, mne mepemnnnct ncxxne crpacrn-mopacrn,
no mne crtno tno noxastnart cex rpycnxo, n x crapanact no-
annxrt n cee ncxxne crpaxn. a n saanno tno ymart, uro onn -
xosxxa n . ., spxune n cntmamne,- oxrcx nouenart na nope,
a x nor ne omct, axe nocne xomautero nanera~.
o namero oresa ns narepx ocrananoct rpn nx. pomaxct c
necom, mt onro n nem ponnn n onaxt napenn na uyecnt
yronox y npya. rapte, roncrocrnonte nnt paspocnnct na epery
y camo not. xnonennte crnont rxnynnct na npyom, a nnn-
nte nernu xacannct not.
+rom mne paccxastnana . . nymax ee, x ncnomnnana cra-
pt pomanc:
pemnmr nnaxyune nnt,
nsxo cxnonxct na pyutem,
rpyxn eryr roponnnno,
Benuyr no mpaxe nounom...
o mne ouent xorenoct nce +ro ocmorpert pyxamn, urot cocra-
nnrt onpeenennoe npecrannenne o +ro xaprnne. orenoct omy-
rnrt nnaxyune nnt~ n nocmorpert, n camom nn ene crpyxn eryr
roponnnno~...
. . namna ouent yont crnon paspocmecx nnt. +rom
mecre npy tn rnyox, crnon nnt xax t nncen n nosyxe na no-
o, ee nnnnte nernn cnycxannct npxmo n noy. cnxna ranouxn
n norpysnna norn n noy. o +roro cnyuax x ne morna npecrannrt
xnnenne, o xoropom ronopxr: omna no noe pxt~. o nor x epxy
n noe norn n pyxy. r cnaoro nerepxa nernn nnt ro nonnmamrcx
nnepx, ro eme nnxe cxnonxmrcx na npyom, n c nx nncrten na-
amr xannn, cnonno onn ponxmr cnest. omymam, xax nocne xax-
oro ynonennx nerpa o nonepxnocrn not npoeramr ene ynonnmte
manentxne nonnouxn. ymam, uro, nanepnoe, +ro n ecrt ra camax
pxt, o xoropo rax uacro ronopxr spxune.
e snam, tna nn +ro ecrnnrentno pxt nnn xaxoe-nnyt
pyroe xnnenne, x ne crana cnpamnnart o +rom y . . a mne n
no xorenoct n re mnnyrt pasronapnnart. Ftno nemnoxxo rpycrno,
no n ro xe npemx xopomo cnert na nne na npyom n omymart npn-
poy ncem cnonm cymecrnom. ycrt x ne nnena rnasamn ro xn-
nonncno xaprnnt, xoropo nocxnmanact ..ox npecrannxna,
uro pxom pacryr pyrne nnt, n noe nnanamr noopocnn, nennxxct
sa mon norn. ax npnxrno tno nn o uem xnrecxom ne ymart n
nmecre c nno nncert~ n nosyxe na npyom, omymax pyxamn
npoxnanym pxt...

ocne ortxa na aue n a-emenoncxom x nonyunna nyrenxy
n canaropn nx rnyxonemtx n yance. oneuno, menx conponox-
ana . . nxaxnx ocoenntx nneuarnenn x n opore ne nony-
unna - nce tno onoopasno n yromnrentno, xax noome +ro t-
naer npn noonoro poa noesxax. ora npoesxann uepes. apt-
xon - +ro tno noutm,- . . no moe npocte pasynna menx,
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iio rax xax x nnxomy ns xaptxoncxnx pyse ne coomnna, uro yy
npoesxart nx ropo, ro onn n ne ncrpeuann menx. uyncrnonana
cex conepmenno cnoxono: net nnxaxne snyxn, nnxaxoe nnxenne
cnapyxn ne ocrnrann o menx.
Ftna nout, o +rom x snana no uacam, xoropte nexann y menx
no noymxo. npecrannna cee, uro no neppony xoxr xaxne-ro
nmn, no uro mne o nnx? nx ne snam, onn ne snamr menx. cnonx
pyse x npecrannna cnxmnmn; trt moxer, xaxt ns nnx nnnr
xaxo-nnyt con - xopomn nnn crpamnt, no onn nnuero ne
snamr o rom, uro nor n +rom noese x npoesxam uepes aptxon, ymam
ceuac o nnx n npecrannxm nx rontxo cnxmnmn. cnn t ceuac
tn ent n x morna ntrn na neppon, urot omyrnrt sanaxn, noc-
npnnxrt nnxenne - noome ocxsaemo nouyncrnonart xnsnt, npo-
ncxoxmym noxpyr menx, rora t n moe namxrn npoynnnct noc-
nomnnannx, xoroptx rax mnoro, xoropte rax eme xpxn... , necom-
nenno, nepexnna t cnntnoe nonnenne. o nexa na nnane n xyne,
x snana, uro n narone cnxr nmn n uro nm ner nnxaxoro ena o
roro, re cronr noes.
ne uynnact nonnax rnmnna n remnora noxpyr; nepoxrno, rax
ono n tno. naxo +ro ne snaunr, uro x xax t eccosnarentno
orpnnana ]axr namero npetnannx na aptxoncxom noxsane. er!
npecrannxna ropo, ynnnt, rpamnan, xoroptmn nyxno exart x
monm pystx. o x tna cnoxona nmenno noromy, uro noxpyr menx
nce xasanoct conepmenno cnoxontm, norpyxenntm n con.

nem n opore . . mne uro-nnyt unrana. ora xe mt e-
nann nepeptn, x ntxonna n ramyp n noonry croxna y orxptroro
oxna, omymax nerep. o nnxennm nosyxa x snana, n xaxym cro-
pony ner noes; x nporxrnnana sa oxno pyxy, n ecnn c ono cro-
pont, onycrnm c npano, nerep tn cnaee, a c pyro cropont,
c neno, cnntnee - snaunr, noes men n nenym cropony. ne xasa-
noct, uro mt eem no conepmenno ponnomy ny neoxrnoro nos-
ymnoro oxeana. o y menx ne tno omymennx, uro mt nernm n
nosyxe, noromy uro x nce npemx uyncrnonana nocryxnnanne xonec;
n +ro pannomepnoe, pnrmnunoe nocryxnnanne npannnoct mne. no
morno yamxart, xora snaemt, uro nexya cnemnrt, uro noes nce
panno npnneser rex x romy mecry, xya rt eemt. ronone poxr
paccexnnte mtcnn, a xoneca cryuar cee a cryuar. nexy na n-
nane, oxrax nerxo pemoro, n mtcnenno nonropxm onocnox-
nt ronop xonec: nx-rax, rnx-rax, rnx-rax. em, eem, eem,
eem. nx-rax, rnx-rax...~
ne mory oxcnnrt, nouemy nmenno +rn cnona, a ne xaxne-nn-
yt pyrne ntcryxnnann nx menx xoneca. naxo cxaxy c yne-
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pennocrtm: x ne nonropxna uyxne cnona, ycntmannte mnom n pas-
ronope nnn ntunrannte ns xnnr. anpornn, x ouent crapanact no-
opart x nocryxnnannm xonec xaxne-nnyt pyrne cnona nnn
orentnte cnorn, no rora ne nonyuanoct crpono rapmonnn~,
cnona mnn npaspo, a xoneca ntcryxnnann cnom monoronnym ne-
cenxy: nx-rax...~
nora, xora x croxna y oxna, xo mne noxonna . . n pac-
cxastnana o rex mecrax, mnmo xoroptx mt npoesxann. onopnna
ona o npomentxnynmnx nann epennxx c enentxnmn yxpanncxnmn
xarxamn n caamn; nsann onn xasannct e ocoenno uncrentxnmn
n manentxnmn. ymam, nponcxonno +ro orroro, uro nce noxpyr
tno sannro xpxnm connnem, xoropoe cnennno e rnasa, memax pas-
rnxert orentnte npemert.
ne npecrannxna +rn epennn, xart n cat raxnmn, xaxnmn
nx nnena . . oxa x cnymana ee paccxast, omymax npn +rom
xapxoe connne, rennt nerep n sanaxn none, x xoroptm npnme-
mnnancx yrontnt tm, ntxonnmn ns rpyt naponosa, mne xa-
sanoct, uro x nocnpnnnmam rontxo nexcnoe ouepranne nesaxa;
ne spnrentno nocnpnnnmam, a xax t ocxsam na nosymno-mxrxom
nonorne ena omyrnmte pente]nte nnnnn. o xora . . rono-
pnna, uro ona yxe nnuero ne nnnr, noopaxaemte mnom nnnnn
pacnaannct n pacnntnannct, ncuesann n nosyxe n ocrananoct
rontxo cnonecnoe nocnomnnanne o nnx. ax tno ncm opory.
ora mt npoesxann mocr uepes on, x nouyncrnonana, uro
. . nm roxe sannrepeconana n cmorpnr n oxno. naxnt sanax
not, n ror npoxnant rpenerno-ynpyrn nerep, xaxo otuno t-
naer na pexo, nsnonnonann menx. rax xcno, rax omyrnmo npe-
crannncx nm ontmo npocrop nocneroro n necnxx, onncannoro no
mnornx xnnrax no+rnuecxoro ona. onro eme nocne roro, xax mt
yannnnct or ona, n moe namxrn snyuann crnxn ymxnna:
Fnema cpet none mnpoxnx,
on on ntercx!.. pancrny, on!
r ctnon rnonx anexnx
npnnes ree noxnon.
ax npocnannennoro para,
exn snamr rnxn on;
r paxca n n]para
npnnes ree noxnon.
mtcnenno nnena mnoro pyrnx pex, ro rnxo n nnanno rexy-
mnx n cnonx senentx eperax, ro ypno, crpemnrentno crexammnx
c rop,- n nce onn yro nanpannxnnct x ony. cem cymecrnom
cnonm x omymana nnn rennym, concem cnoxonym, nnn npoxnanym
n ypnxmym noy ncex +rnx pex. oa ona uynnact mne ne sa-
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crtnme. na rexna mennrentno-ropxecrnenno, x epery noxart-
nann rxxente nonnt. uro nnenn noxpyr cex, uro ronopnnn o one
pyrne naccaxnpt, x ne snam, a n ne cnpamnnana nx o +rom.
menx tnn cnon ymt, cnon nocnpnxrnx, cnon npecrannennx, n
nx menx +roro tno nnonne ocrarouno.
opora nspxno yromnna menx, x romy xe tno ouent xapxo.
nocnenn ent x nourn ne orxonna or oxna. ora ocrananoct
necxontxo uacon o yance n mt nauann yxnatnart nemn n uemo-
ant, . . cnpocnna:
- uro enart c namnmn nneramn? nn yxe ynxamr.
- tpoctre...
- tpactnare camn, +ro nam yxer.
nsxna nnert ns anouxn. 3ro tnn nacnntxn n ]noxct. pasy
ntpocnrt nect yxer sa oxno mne ne xorenoct: +ro tno t cxyuno
n nposanuno, a x otuno nmnm nopasmtmnxrt n no]anrasnponart
no nonoy ncero, uro enam. e conepmart roro, uro otuno nx
pyrnx nme, n npnymart uro-nnyt cnoe, coornercrnymmee
moemy npecrannennm o oxpyxammem menx mnpe - nor x uemy x
ncera crpemnmct, noromy uro mne ocoenno nnrepecno cpannnnart
cnoe~ c xonxperntmn nemamn, c ecrnnrentnocrtm.
rax, x nauana pocart sa oxno no onomy nnerxy. ne ouent
xorenoct snart, xya nonaaer xaxt nnerox: nonaaer nn on no
xoneco nnn orneraer n cropony, ynocnmt nerpom?
cnn mne xasanoct, uro nnerox orneren n cropony, mne npe-
crannxnact cyxax, ropxuax n ntntnax semnx n nor na ysentxym no-
nocxy +ro semnn naaer ynxmn nnerox. cnn xe x ymana, uro
nnerox ynan na pentct n nonan no xoneca, ro on mne npecran-
nxncx n. nne manentxoro xomouxa, eme uyrt nnaxnoro. o x snana,
uro on tcrpo sacoxner n c pentcon ero cyer nerep na ry xe ntnt-
nym semnm. ax x pasmtmnxna n pasnnexanact nourn o yance.
II
anaropn, n xoropt mt nanpannxnnct, n 27 xm or yance, a n
ropo mt npnexann n 3 uaca noun. am cxasann, uro c noxsana
nyxno nrn nemxom na asy, xya onxna tna npntrt nem
mamnna n sapart nac n canaropn. t tnn ne onn. em xe noes-
om c namn npnexana nenax rpynna rnyxonemtx.
uyncrnonana cex npenocxono. ax rontxo mt ntmnn ns na-
rona, x cpasy omyrnna nnsocrt uero-ro ocoennoro n npnxrnoro,
cnonno nepnynact n snaxomte mne mecra. ax mne xasanoct orroro,
uro nnsxo tno mope. oneuno, x ne cntmana ero myma, no no
uncromy, nerxomy n npoxnanomy nosyxy a eme no cnenn]nue-
cxomy sanaxy yxe snana, uro mope nnsxo. . . nnena mope, cnt-
390
mana nnecx nonn n roxe paonanact. y, a x, nnuero ne nnx n ne
cntma, ymam, ncntrtnana ne mentmym paocrt, uem . .
ax npnxrno tno crynart no semne nocne nourn uertpexcyrou-
noro cnennx n rpxcxn n narone! opora tna rnaxax, npxmax n
ponnax. oenx ee cropon tnn nocaxent xycrt pos, no nneron
na nnx yxe ne tno. out ntanact opxmax, ocnexammax cnonm
uncrtm nosyxom. orx x ne nnena cympaxa noun, onaxo, omymax
npoxnay, nepnna, uro +ro tna nout. cnn t x cama axe ne snana
n pyrne ne ronopnnn mne, uro mt npnexann noutm, x nce panno
ne noymana t, uro +ro rennt, no ouent nacmypnt, rymannt
ent. emnory x omymam nce nonepxnocrtm nnna, a raxxe ornn-
uam nout or nx eme no sanaxy: x snam, uro nounte sanaxn ornn-
uamrcx or nenntx.
t tcrpo mnn nnepe, mne tno neceno n nerxo. cm opory
x uyncrnonana, uro mo ontmo n rax xopomo naxnymn pyr -
mope - concem nnsxo or menx. orenoct norn na eper, oxynyrtcx
n npoxnante, ynpyrne nonnt, no +ro nosmoxno cenart rontxo
yrpom n ropoe. Fnarononyuno opanmnct o ast, mt nonyunnn
nocrenn n nernn ortxart. ac npeynpennn, uro mamnna npny-
er rontxo n 3 uaca nx. paonanact, uro +ro anano nosmoxnocrt
norynxrt n ropoe n eme o npnesa n canaropn nosoponartcx c
mopem - nocnenee nyxno nonnmart yxnantno,- net nnena x
mope n ry mnnyry, xora npnxacanact x noe. o ecnn t x morna
npenonarart, xaxym ncrpeuy roronnno mne mope, ro, no nce ne-
poxrnocrn, x ne cnnmxom t roponnnact omyrnrt n nocnpnnxrt ero
cront nenocpecrnenntm opasom.
nann mt neonro. ce npocnynnct pano, nannnnct uam n crann
cronapnnartcx o rom, urot norn ntxynartcx. oxa ocrantnax ny-
nnxa ypaunnact n conemanact, mt c . . ntmnn noponrt no
ynnnam. uyncrnonana cex opo n cnoxono; nounoe nosyxenne
ynernoct. nexoroptx mecrax x omymana sanax nneron, onocnn-
mnxcx ns nanncannxon, na ncem +rnm omnnnponan sanax mopx.
opo n nenom x ne npecrannxna, xorx n uyncrnonana no noramn
xamnn mocrono; mt rax mano npomnn, uro x ne morna cocrannrt
cee npecrannennx, nacxontxo nennx ropo. ne, xoneuno, n pyroe
npemx xorenoct t noontme noxonrt no ropoy, a norom na ocyre
npecrannrt nce ro, uro n nem morno naxonrtcx no monm npenono-
xennxm. o na +ror pas nce moe cymecrno, nce mon omymennx, mtc-
nn n npecrannennx tnn nepenonnent n noannxnnct rontxo nymx
moryunmn opasamn - mopem n connnem. entnocnmo nannno xry-
uee, xpxoe connne, xoropoe sect, na mre, xasanoct mne ontmnm,
uem n ocxne. ora xnnemt n raxom orpomnom ropoe, xax ocxna,
n nemt no ee ynnnam, ro axe n camte snonte nn connne xa-
xercx mentme, necmorpx na ro uro xapa n yxora xpyxar ronony n
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sacrannxmr nocroxnno xenart nonacrt n npoxnant yronox. a
mre, y mopx omymaemt ecxoneunt npocrop nosyxa, xoropt
nect nponnsan xryunmn nyuamn ontmoro mxnoro connna. t mnn
no ynnnam yance. nre ne tno renn, no n yxort ne omymanoct,
xorx tno ouent xapxo. ect ropo tn sannr onnaxono xryunmn
n xpxnmn nyuamn, n or +roro connne xasanoct mne ontmnm. et
ecnn x nerom ny no ropoy n n rom nnn pyrom mecre nonaam n
rent, ro y menx nosnnxaer ]nsnuecxoe omymenne, yro connne
cranonnrcx mentme nnn conneunte nyun naronxnynnct na xaxoe-ro
npenxrcrnne, uepes xoropoe nx cner n rennora ne ocrnramr o menx.
roptm moryunm n npnrxrnnammnm x cee opasom tno mope.
x nemy-ro x npnexana, xax x ooxaemomy pyry, nepe xoroptm
ncera npexnonxmct.
necnt 1941 r. x ne tna y mopx n renept mna x nemy, urot
oroxnyrt, napartcx cnn, opocrn, a raxxe nosanmcrnonart or nero
neyromonnym xnsnt, nonnenne n ornary. mna omyrnrt, xax:
ete nonnt mopx,
.poyxentm yxa nropx
rxnnxom npnpot,
ce tcrpe nnepe nerenn,
ce rpycrnee necnm nenn
nsnn n cnoot...
Heno rpynno c necentmn rnyxonemtmn enymxamn mt nomnn
x mopm. nauana opora tna yonax, no npnmnoct nponpartcx
no pennam, nepexnnyrtm uepes pon. pxunm nerxo tno nepenpt-
rnnart c penna na penno, a mne ouent rpyno: xasanoct, uro x ny
no pemerxe c ontmnmn npomexyrxamn mexy nepexnannamn.
oxnact, uro ne paccunram mar n nonay n tpxy, a pon, xax cxa-
sana . ., tn rnyoxn. opora yromnna menx, noromy uro npnm-
noct cnntno nanpxrartcx n axe nonnonartcx. o nce oomnoct
narononyuno, mt cnycrnnnct na eper. 3ro tn ne nnxx, a npocro
eper, sananennt nentmn rpyamn yntxnnxa, xoropt pacxart-
nancx no nce cropont. t nsnpannct na +rn rpyt. nmecre c y-
ntxnnxom roxe cesxana ro n ony, ro n pyrym cropony; +ro tno
ouent cmemno.
paonanact n mymena, xax enuonxa, xora nxonna n noy,
omymax ynpyrne ronuxn nenpeptnno naerammnx neontmnx nonn.
no tno nnoxoe: nce ror xe yntxnnx n nce rax xe on pases-
xancx no noramn, n x necxontxo pas ynrtxnynact n noy. . .
npenoxnna ororn nmecre c nem noantme or epera. e pas x
npoonana yunrtcx nnanart, no y menx nnuero ne nonyuanoct: t-
crpo ycranann pyxn n cnntno nnoct cepne.
pana, n pexe x eme xoe-xax nnanana, no n mope ne morna co-
nepmenno. naxo x nnxora ne repxna naexy pano nnn nosno
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onnaert +rnm npnxrntm nnom cnopra n, xax rontxo nonaana n
noy, ncera npocnna xoro-nnyt nayunrt menx nnanart. exoropoe
npemx x cnenna pyxamn, xax nnanana . ., xora xe mne xasanoct,
uro x ynonnna nce ee nnxennx, ro n cama npoonana nnanart.
xorx, xax mne xasanoct, x npannntno ynonnna n mtcnenno npe-
crannna cee xaxoe ee nnxenne, rem ne menee rpyno tno co
ncem nocneonarentnocrtm tcrpo nponsnonrt nent px nnxe-
nn. et nenosmoxno tcrpo npecrannrt n yme nnxennx n ono-
npemenno nponsnonrt nx. orneana mopcxo not ontme, uem
xenana, n nonyunna ocrarounoe yonontcrnne~ or ncrpeun c mopem.
o +ro tno eme anexo ne nce.
yxe cxasana, uro no noo tnn raxne xe rpyt yntxnnxa,
xax na epery, n uro onn pacctnannct no nce cropont, xora mt na
nnx nsnpannct. t c . . ynnexnnct nnanannem n ne oparnnn
nnnmannx na ro, uro nonann na ontmym xyuy yntxnnxa. t
ouent mannnn, no npyr x nouyncrnonana, uro yntxnnx pacct-
naercx no nce cropont n x norpyxamct n noy nce rnyxe n rnyxe-.
pnsnamct, x cnntno crpycnna n xpenxo yxnarnnact sa . ., no
n ee nonoxenne tno ne nyume moero. orom nce nponsomno ouent
tcrpo, a ora mne xasanoct, uro x n +rom yxacnom cocroxnnn na-
xonnact neunocrt. oruaxnno apaxranact, crapaxct yxnarnrtcx
sa uro-nnyt, no sa uro xe moxno tno yxnarnrtcx, xpome not?
e snam, xpnuana x nnn ner, no nomnm, uro noa nce npemx nona-
ana mne n por n n noc.
omymana x nor uro: xora no namnmn noramn yxe ne oxa-
sanoct onopt, mt nauann norpyxartcx n noy. nepxy noa tna
rennax, a nnnsy no noramn x omymana nycrory n xononym noy.
uem rnyxe mt norpyxannct, rem xononee cranonnnact noa.
cnoe xnsnn x ne onaxt nepexnnana rxxenoe n crpamnoe, no
raxoro esymnoro cocroxnnx ne npnnomnm. rom, xax ronyr nmn,
x, xoneuno, mnoro unrana n or nme cntmana. cmem ymart, uro
n nexoropo crenenn npecrannxna +ro yxacnoe ecrnne, no npn
nce moe nmosnarentnocrn, npn ncem moem xenannn camo nce
nnert, nce na cee ncntrart x, onaxo, nnxora ne saananact
nentm nonpoonart yronyrt. nor nexanno-neraanno x ronyna.
uyncrnyx, xax. neenxmn xono oxnartnaer mon norn, x oruaxnno
apaxranact n noe, ne ntnycxax ns cnoe pyxn pyxy . . na xe,
xorx n nnanana, no n ror momenr o roro pacrepxnact, uro npx nn
nonnmana, uro nmenno c namn nponcxonr. xe cosnanana, uro
mt moxem yronyrt, n n moem yme c nopasnrentno xcnocrtm n
ocrporo nponecnact mtcnt, xoropo x nnxora ne sayy. axe
ne oxnana, uro morna o +rom noymart n raxo crpamnt momenr,
a mexy rem x npexe ncero .noymana: ax xe x renept nannmy
nropym xnnry o cnonx npecrannennxx?~
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nxaxnx pyrnx mtcne x ne nomnm, tn rontxo crpax... x npo-
nsnonna ecnopxounte nnxennx ncem renom...
e snam, xax +ro nponsomno, no rontxo n cneymmn momenr
mne yanoct nonacrt noro na onee ycrounnym rpyy yntxnnxa.
pana, n sect xamnn pacctnannct, no x nce xe nennxnact sa rpyy
pyxamn, ncem renom crpemxct yepxart rouxy onopt. rxnyna sa
coo . ., xoropax tna ncnyrana ontme menx, noromy uro nepe-
xnnana sa nac oenx, a trt moxer, ncnomnnana n o cnoe cemte.
no pyxo x yxnarnnact sa ontmo xament, a pyro ep-
xanact sa . . t ncxapaxannct na xamnn n crpemnrentno nt-
exann na eper. ecxontxo mnnyr mt concem nnuero ne ronopnnn.
a n rpyno tno ronopnrt, no n reuenne necxontxnx cexyn, no-
xasanmnxcx nam neunocrtm, mt nepexnnn neenxmn cepne yxac.
epexnn conepmenno neoxnanno cocroxnne ronymero ueno-
nexa, x xouy ormernrt, uro moe npecrannenne o omymennxx rn-
nymero uenonexa, o xoroptx x unrana, nnonne coornercrnonano romy
cocroxnnm, xaxoe x nepexnna cama ncnecrnne xanpnsa cytt,
rax sno nomyrnnme nao mno.
yta nocynyna mne naronpnxrnt cnyua nx camonsyuennx
n camoanannsa, npenarax npoenart na coo nmontrnt +xcne-
pnmenr.
Ill
ora-ro anno ona mox npnxrentnnna, spxuax n cntmamax,
paccxastnana mne o rom, uro ona exana mamnno co crannnn n ca-
naropn.
eno tno n ptmy, n exana ona noutm.
opora rxnynact nont mopx, mecramn tnn xpyrte optnt
npxmo na mopcxo esno - rax paccxastnana npnxrentnnna...
. ne xorenoct camo ncntrart +ro cnaocrnoe, no+rnuecxoe co-
croxnne, n x ouent sannonana cnoe npnxrentnnne. ora ona pac-
cxastnana, mne rax xcno npecrannnact tcrpo muamaxcx no ponno
opore mamnna, n sanax mopx, n npoxnaa xptmcxo noun...
3 uaca nx sa namn npntna rpysonax mamnna. t tcrpo
copannct n paccennct xro xax xoren. ora mamnna nemnoro or-
exana or ast, x cpasy xe omyrnna, uro mt nonnmaemcx nnepx.
naunr, nam npnercx exart ropno oporo~,- noymana x.
tna n nocropre or +roro, no nnxora eme ne nyremecrnonana
n mamnne no ropam, x rontxo npecrannxna raxoe nyremecrnne no
paccxasam pyrnx. onnne nannno nemnnocepno. amnna nerxo mua-
nact nnepe, nonnmaxct nce ntme n ntme. osyx tn uyecnt:
uncrt, nanonnennt sanaxom mopx. cnpocnna y . ., uro ona
nnnr noxpyr.
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- t nce npemx eem neanexo or mopx, c ono cropont nnno
mope, c pyro - ropt.
cm opory x uyncrnonana cex npenocxono. a, x anno no ne-
pexnnana raxoro nocropxennoro, axe moxno cxasart, nosntmen-
noro cocroxnnx.
. . ronopnna, uro mope ro noxastnanoct, ro ncuesano sa ycry-
namn rop. uem ntme mt nesxann, rem nyume x uyncrnonana cex.
asanoct, uro mt ne muannct no opore, a nerenn n ontmo ma-
mnne, yanxxct or semnn. rop crpynnact nerxax cnexecrt n sanax
xaxnx-ro nneron. anax mne tn nesnaxom, no tn raxo cnntnt,
xpxn, nanomnnammn uro-ro cnernoe n sonymee x uemy-ro npe-
xpacnomy. uem cnntnee tn +ror sanax, rem ontme mne xasa-
noct, uro mt nernm n neo - x connny, x snesam, xorx, xoneuno, x
nnxora ne noopaxana, uro nmenno nnepxy na semne moxer trt
raxo neotxnonennt sanax, xoropt nonnonan menx ontme, uem
spxunx cnyrnnxon, noromy uro x ne nocnpnnnmana spnrentntx xap-
rnn. o net nce npouee x nocnpnnnmana ncem cnonm cymecrnom -
nocnpnnnmana nce ro, uro moxer nocnpnnxrt xnno uenonex. omy-
mana nnxenne mamnnt, sno connna, sanax mopx; omymana ynpy-
rocrt ropnoro nosyxa, sanax nneron. pasne neocrarouno ncex
+rnx ocxsarentntx n oonxrentntx omymenn nx roro, urot uyn-
crnonart npenecrt npnpot, urot ocosnart ee n no-cnoemy pearn-
ponart na nacxn n xpacort npnpot?
ymam, uro +roro ocrarouno, n ne n ono xnnre x ncrpeuana
cnona o rom, uro nocnpnxrne mnpa nyrem ocxsannx moxer ocran-
nxrt nmxm nensxcnnmoe nacnaxenne, trt moxer, camoe xpxoe.
xax t n orner na mom mtcnt . . cxasana, samernn moe nocrop-
xennoe cocroxnne:
- ax snart, moxer trt, nt uyncrnyere nce +ro n ontme, uem
nce mt, naxoxmnecx n mamnne?
- t rax ymaere?
- a, x nnxy, xax xopomo nt cex uyncrnyere, n ymam, uro
namn uyncrna xpue n cnntnee, uem namn...
- xaxoe mope ceuac?
- pyno cxasart, ono xax yro nce npemx menxer nnera: ro
cnnee-cnnee, ro nexno-ronyoe n nce cnepxaer no connnem.
ncnomnnna crnxn o mope n cxasana ncnyx:
nepxaer n nemer, cnerno, xax xpycrant,
asypnoe mope, ornncrax ant...
- ax?
- menno rax,- nornepnna . .
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canaropnn mt ycrponnnct onee nnn menee yono, norxny-
nnct cxyunonarte xypoprnte nn. enx nemnoro ncrpenoxnnn pas-
ronopt o smexx, nonnmnxcx nnnsy y mopx, a raxxe o maxanax.
mopm mt ncera cnycxannct rpynnamn, n cnena x ne ona,
no+romy smen, ecnn onn ram n nonnnct, ne rax menx nyrann. o
maxanon x cnntno oxnact, xorx n ne nmena npexe yonontcrnnx
sanxsart c nnmn snaxomcrno, a n renept nnxax ne tna pacnono-
xena x +romy.
ne ronopnnn, uro, xora remneno, ns neca onocnncx no maxa-
non. ocne raxnx pasronopon x nnoxo cnana no nouam, rem onee
uro xponart mox croxna y oxna, xoropoe ncm nout tno orxptro,
a xnnn mt na nepnom +raxe.
e cnnrcx mne n ymaercx, uro nor nce cnxr, a x ne cnnm n ne
cntmy nnuero, no, trt moxer, ceuac no cay rnxo xpaercx ma-
xan, noxonr x oxny, nptraer n nero n... pn +rom n~ y menx
mypamxn npoeramr no reny, x c ronono saxptnamct npocrtne
n npnxnmamct x crene.
3ra xommapnax ]anrasnx or ecconnnnt onena menx npxmo-
raxn o onesnennoro cocroxnnx. axe- no cne x nyranact, ecnn
xro-nnyt ncranan noutm n rneptmn maramn npoxonn no xom-
nare; nyrano menx npocroe ynonenne nerepxa, nonaanmero na
moe nnno.
ce oxpyxammne ycnoxannann menx, ronopx, uro n oxno maxan
ne noneser, no +ro mano yremano, noromy uro x ne cnana n ncm
nout nanponer ]anrasnponana o uem yrono. e xe nnna, xoropte
menx ycnoxannann, nocrynnnn t ropaso pasymnee, ecnn t no-
ome ne ronopnnn mne o smexx n maxanax. o oxpyxammne menx,
ouennno, ne onaann raxo yronuenno uyrxocrtm, ne mornn no-
nxrt roro, uro x nnuero ne satnam, oo ncem nomnm n, nocnpn-
nnmax oxpyxammee, ocrpo pearnpym na nero.
pome roro, spxun n cntmamn uenonex nnnr ro, uro noxpyr
nero nponcxonr, nnn cntmnr mym, a x mory nce +ro rontxo
noopaxart, axe n ror momenr, xora xpyrom menx nce cno-
xono.
axoxct no nneuarnennem uero-nno panee nocnpnnxroro, x
onn npemer mory npnnxrt sa conepmenno pyro nnn xaxo-nn-
yt cnyuant mym ncronxonart xax rpenoxnoe cotrne. Baxan
xe npecrannxncx mne noxoxnm na snym, ouent cnntnym n cnnpe-
nym coaxy c xonmue mepcrtm n ocxanenntmn syamn.
epnoe npemx noroa croxna npexpacnax, norom nenym noenm
nnn nponnnno oxt, sarem nauannct cnntnte nerpt n mope
ymenano.
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xaxoe xe yonontcrnne or mopx, a eme mne, ecnn nentsx
xynartcx? oneuno, spxune uyncrnonann cex nyume, uem x: onn
unrann xnnrn, xonnn cmorpert, xax. ymyer mope. enx e
crpamno oropuano ro ocroxrentcrno, uro x ne morna omyrnrt n
sarem npecrannrt cnny mropma. epery mt xonnn xaxt ent,
nor onaxt neuepom mnorne ortxammne copannct na cnopr-
nnomaxe n cmorpenn na mope. enx myunno nmontrcrno, n na-
pacrano pemenne rax nnn nnaue omyrnrt mropm. asymeercx, +ro
tn ne ouent ontmo mropm. naxo n +ro nosaopnnano menx.
nonpocnna . . cnycrnrtcx co mno na eper.
- am raxne nonnt naeramr na nnxx, uro nce yxe sannro
n rom mecre, re mt pasenannct.
- nuero, mt cranem antme, no rax, urot x namnm noram
noxartnannct nonnt.
axercx, . . ne ocoenno xorenoct necrn menx nnns, no nce-
raxn ona nomna co mno, n, xora mt cnycrnnnct, x samernna, uro
mnpoxax nonoca epera cnntno cysnnact, a ontmne nonnt nce na-
erann n naerann na eper.
nauana mt croxnn na raxom paccroxnnn or not, uro nac
rontxo oanano xacxaamn ptsr, no x noxonna nce nnxe n
nnxe x noe, noxa ontmax nonna ne oxarnna nac o noxca n ena
ne cmnna c nor. . . nornxontxy rxnyna menx nasa, no, nmecro
roro urot ororn or naeranmnx nonn, x nonnranact nm na-
ncrpeuy. cnona ontmax nonna, xax yro c ocrepnenennem n
nxo snoo, rax saxnecrnyna menx, uro x uyrt ne saoxnynact,
a nnarte crano concem moxpoe n npnnnnno x reny. o nepoxrno, x
yxe satna o rom, xax ronyna n yance, noromy uro ne omymana
n cee nn manemero crpaxa nnn xorx t npocro naropasymnx.
ocnpnnnmax ymymmee mope, x crana cama ne cnox; xoneuno, x ne
npeynennunnana cnon cnate, raxne mnsepnte no cpannennm
c +rnmn rnenntmn nonnamn cnnt, no rem ne menee mnom onnaeno
xenanne ncntrart opty, nepexnrt cnntnte omymennx.
cxasana . ., uro yy xynartcx.
- uro nt ntymtnaere, nnxro ne xynaercx axe ns myxunn,
xya xe nam xynartcx!
- anexo ne noy, rontxo pasenyct n noy nemnoro
antme.
- entsx, exypnt marpoc ne paspemaer.
- 3ro ero oxsannocrt ne paspemart, a x xouy n nonno mepe
omyrnrt n npecrannrt ymymmee mope.
- t yxe ocrarouno nonyunnn ncxxnx nneuarnenn, xnarnr
c nac! - paccepnnact . ,
- o n +rom roy x ne nnena ymymmero mopx n xouy ero
nouyncrnonart ncem renom.
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t onro eme cnopnnn, naxonen . . esnaexno maxnyna
pyxo, oannn x +romy, uro x comna c yma...
cnoxono cnxna nnarte n nomna nancrpeuy naerammnm non-
nam. epnax xe nonna cmnna menx c nor, no mne yanoct cxna-
rnrtcx sa ontmo n, no-nnnmomy, rnyoxo n xpenxo nexanmn
n semne xament. orom x yxe nce npemx epxanact sa nero. entsx
tno nn croxrt, nn axe cnert, noromy uro nonnt nepexartna-
nnct uepes ronony n x morna t saxnenyrtcx. nerna na xnnor,
xpenxo oxnarnna xament, npnxanact x nemy nnnom n nnorno sa-
xptna rnasa n ryt. onnt c ontmo cnno n mymom, xoropt
x nocnpnnnmana ncem renom, nepexartnannct uepes menx, anexo
sannnax eper, a norom cnona orcrynann n mope, n x uyncrnonana,
xax no moemy reny cxontsnn necox n menxne xamnn. ne ouent
rpyno tno epxartcx sa xament. e pas mne xasanoct, uro x
nanpxram nocnenne cnnt n nor +ra nonna, xora yer yxonrt
nasa, nenpemenno cmoer menx nmecre c xamnem n ynecer n mope.
ne cranonnnoct xyrxo n n ro xe npemx no-ocoennomy npn-
xrno or roro, uro x rax ynopno ne noananact nonnam.
opa tno oropnartcx or xamnx n ntrn na eper, no cenart
+ro tno ropaso rpynee, uem neut n epxartcx sa xament: net
menx morna cnrt c nor nonna n x ne nmena t nosmoxnocrn yep-
xartcx sa uro-nnyt.
ne crano xasartcx, uro x nonana n nourn esntxonoe nono-
xenne. yxe cnntno osxna, nnonm narnoranact coneno not,
cnntno oneno nce reno, noromy uro menx pocano ns cropont n cro-
pony, a n xamnn nmecre c nonnamn nenpeptnno nonaann n menx.
uro enart? ntxana, xora nonna orxntnyna nasa, n, tcrpo
ncxounn na norn, noexana na eper. ancrpeuy mne pocnnact
. . na, enxxxa, nce npemx croxna y camo not, ee roxe sa-
nnnann nonnt, no ona ne snana, uro e enart co mno, xax ntsnart
menx na eper. cnntno npoporna n cnemnna nocxopee oertcx,
no nnarte tno concem moxpoe n nncxontxo ne corpeno menx.
- enept nt onontnt? - cnpocnna . .
- a! ne xaxercx, uro x nonnanact c camtm opornm n
nnsxnm mne pyrom.
- pyro pas x nac ontme ne nymy na cnnanne c raxnm
pyrom.
t nomnn n canaropn. tna cuacrnnna! ycrt cee ne-
mnoxxo nocepnrcx . ., saro x tna ne rontxo onontna, no
nyume, uem pantme, npecrannxna mope.
oneuno, x ne yrnepxam, uro npecrannxm mope - nepnee, ero
nennunny - raxnm, xaxoe ono n ecrnnrentnocrn; nponepnrt +ro x
nnxax ne mory. o naroapx onncannomy +xcnepnmenry mne crann
xcnee n nonxrnee nexoropte mera]opnuecxne nonxrnx n cnonecnte
398
opast n onncannn npnpot n nme. anpnmep, ronopxr: posnoe
mope~. morna cxontxo yrono nontsonartcx cnonamn rposnoe~,
rposnt~, npannntno nx npnmenxrt xax npnnararentnte, noromy
uro, snax peut, x nontsymct rem xe xstxom, uro n spxune, onaxo
xe uro, cocrnenno, snaunr- rposnoe~, rnennoe~ n r. .?
oneuno, no ncemn +rnmn onpeenennxmn x nopasymenana
uro-ro nenpnxrnoe, nonnymmee, nyrammee. o nopasymenart n ne-
xcno npecrannxrt es omymenn, es nneuarnenn - +ro ona cro-
pona ena, a nenocpecrnenno omyrnrt, nepexnrt, nonyunrt nneuar-
nenne n sarem naonro coxpannrt nce +ro n namxrn - +ro neuro py-
roe: +ro peantnoe, xonxpernoe n xnsnenno ecrnennoe.
nnxora ne ymana, ne ymam axe n rex cnyuaxx, xora ne
mory nocpecrnom cnonx opranon uyncrn nocnpnnxrt uro-nno mare-
pnantnoe, xax, nanpnmep, ornn nann, cner nynt, nrpammym re-ro
mystxy, ntcoxo nerxmn camoner n r. ., uro ro, uero x ne nocnpn-
nnmam, peantno ne cymecrnyer. er, x ncera nomnm, uro marepn-
antnt mnp cymecrnyer nne menx n nesanncnmo or moero x~.
Fesycnonno, x ne mory snart nce n oo ncem, no +ro xe ne snaunr,
uro nce ro, uero x ne snam, ne cymecrnyer n ecrnnrentnocrn. c-
nn x ne omymam orne nann, nnera marepnn, necxa monnnn n rax
anee, x ne nmem ocnonann orpnnart nx cymecrnonanne.
ne cxaxy, uro omymam ocoennoe roxecrno, no +ro snyuano
t neanncrnuecxnm acypom, no snam, uro ecrt roxecrno omy-
menn, roxecrno uyncrn y onoro n y pyroro uenonexa.
x rnepo nomnm ro, o uem nncan . . ennn n cnoe sameua-
rentno xnnre arepnannsm n +mnnpnoxpnrnnnsm~:
...arepnx, ecrnyx na namn oprant uyncrn, nponsnonr omy-
menne. mymenne sanncnr or mosra, nepnon, ceruarxn n r. ., r. e.
or onpeenenntm opasom oprannsonanno marepnn. ymecrnonanne
marepnn ne sanncnr or omymennx. arepnx ecrt nepnnunoe. my-
menne, mtcnt, cosnanne ecrt ntcmn npoyxr ocotm opasom op-
rannsonanno marepnn. axont nsrnxt marepnannsma noome n
apxca - 3nrentca n uacrnocrn~
rax, nocnpnnxroe mnom ymymmee mope xax t .onnnernopxno
xaxoro-ro nennxana n momenr ypnoro npoxnnennx +monn: rnena,
emencrna, ecnomanoro oxecrouennx, espaccyno nenpexnon-
nocrn, ynpxmcrna n mnornx pyrnx cnntntx uyncrn. et nnxora
xe mne ne cnyuanoct ocmarpnnart pyxamn pasrnenannoro, nsemen-
noro uenonexa, meuymero rpomt n monnnn~.
xpecrnocrn nnnsn canaropnx tnn otunt - nec n ropt, nn-
uero ocronpnmeuarentnoro nnn xorx t cxontxo-nnyt nmontr-
. . e II n II. onn. cop. cou., r. 18, crp. 50.
399
nero nx menx. ontxo neanexo tn ontmo mocr uepes pacmennny
mexy ropamn. astnancx on ocrom xonapcrna n nmnn~.
naxt mt c . . n necxontxnmn enymxamn xonnn no-
cmorpert +ror mocr. . . nxparne paccxasana mne nereny, xoropym
noneann e mecrnte xnrenn: na mocry ono npemx uacro ncrpeua-
nact napa nnmnenntx. ax uacro tnaer n raxnx cnyuaxx, cuacrte
+ro napt tno xem-ro paspymeno, n crpacrno nnmnennax enym-
xa pocnnact c mocra n rnyoxym nponacrt n pasnnact...
nauana x c . . npomna nocepenne mocra, no +ro ne nponsne-
no na menx nnxaxoro nneuarnennx. ora . . nonena menx x ne-
ntcoxomy aptepunxy, orpaxanmemy oe cropont mocra, n x or o-
noro xonna o pyroro oomna mocr.
. . ronopnna, uro nponacrt ouent rnyoxax n moxno pasnrt-
cx nacmeprt, ecnn pocnmtcx rya (ona axe npnepxnnana menx,
onacaxct, urot x cnyuano ne ocrynnnact, no n nexoroptx mecrax
mocr tn nonpexen). o y menx ne nosnnxano nn manemero npe-
crannennx o rnynne n mpaunom nne nponacrn. aro x ncnomnnna
ntecy Bnnnepa onapcrno n nmont~, n mne rax xcno, cnonno +ro
nponcxonno xora-nnyt n moe nnuno xnsnn, npecrannnnct
ynsa n uepnnan, ocoenno mnnax, nexnax, nmxmax ynsa, ra-
xax cnaax n xpynxax, xax manentxax nrnuxa, nonrax neocropox-
no pomenntm xamnem.
cosnamct, x nemnoxxo paccrponnact: ne noromy, uro oomna
+ror mocr c raxnm rparnuecxnm nasnannem, a noromy, uro menx npe-
cneonan opas ynst. uynnnct mne ee ronxne, nexnte, nocrenen-
no xonoemmne pyxn...
s canaropnx mt yesxann neuepom. xann na crannnm ro xe
ropno oporo, no connne yxe samno, nacrynnna nout, n sanaxn
noun ornnuannct or sanaxon nx. omymana rontxo ctpocrt n npo-
nnstnammym npoxnay, oruero mne xasanoct, uro x omymam rem-
nory.
noanact rpycrnomy nacrpoennm, ne ncntrtnax roro nocrop-
xennoro cocroxnnx, c xoroptm exana n canaropn +ro xe oporo.
Hnert ontme ne naroyxann (nanepnoe, onn ornnenn), mne tno
uero-ro ocano, uero-ro xant n ne xorenoct nnuero nocnpnnnmart...
ne o uem tno ymart, a rnannoe - menx nnuro ne nonnonano.
u
npomnom roy x ortxana na aue sa onnntnom - n nexora
tnmem nmenn xnxse onnntntx. ne coomnnn, uro ymxnn
rocrnn y onnntntx n rynxn n +rnx xnnonncntx mecrax. aua, re
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x ortxana,-opnonxa-uyecnt yronox npnpot. ymecrnyer
nerena, uro xora-ro ram tna neontmax pexa (nnn npy), na xo-
ropo croxna mentnnna. ma ymxnn xonn yro t nncart cnom
ycanxy~. ax nn +ro, ne snam, no xora x xnna na aue, mne ouent
xorenoct, urot +ro tno nmenno rax.
ynxx no necy, cptnax nnert na nyry, conpax mannny n mannn-
nnxe, x nce npemx ymana o ymxnne, npecrannxna ero, mtcnenno
eceonana c nnm. nno ero x snana naroapx cxyntnrype. ora-ro
y menx tna crary+rxa: ymxnn no nect pocr, co cxpemenntmn na
rpyn pyxamn; +ra ero nosa mne ontme ncero npannrcx, no+romy
nourn ncera x npecrannxm ero nmenno raxnm, menenno nymnm
no opore, xoropax neer nensnecrno xya...
enx ouent sannrepeconan paccxas o tnme mentnnne. eo-
noxparno x npocnna . . norn co mno x +romy mecry. o ona sa-
xnnna, uro ram ouent optnncrt cnycx n ona onrcx, xax t x ne
copnanact nnns, a or mentnnnt ram ocrannct rontxo cnan. n neno
noxno mentnnnt, nn xaxnx-nnyt uacre ee x nnxora ne ocmar-
pnnana, no mentnnna npecrannxnact mne n nne epenxnnoro omn-
xa, c onnm oxomxom co cropont npya n ysentxo neptm co cropo-
nt neca. omnx +ror croxn na cnaxx, nnrtx n no pexn. ro uacrn
npya, re tno nornyxe, nnnsy no mentnnne n noe neprenoct
ontmoe xoneco. no npnnonnoct n nnxenne tcrptm reuennem
not, cnntno npamanoct, pacctnax no nce cropont mentuamne
ptsrn... nyrpn mentnnnt mne npecrannxnnct xoneca pasnnuno
nennunnt: ]opmy xoneca x snam n mory npecrannrt nx n manent-
xnmn n ontmnmn, no xepnona x nnxora ne nnena n ne nmem o nnx
rounoro npecrannennx. o epenxnntmn xenoxamn tnn none-
ment nycrte memxn, n xoropte ctnanact uyrt rennax myxa... o
mentnnne c onontntm nnom pacxaxnnan crapt mentnnx.
nor, noxa . . ne ronopnna mne, uro mentnnnt yxe ner, +ra
nexora cymecrnonanmax mentnnna tna nena n esocranonouno
paorana - xoneuno, n moem noopaxennn. o xora x ysnana, uro
ee ontme ne cymecrnyer, +ro cnntno oropunno menx... ora x sann-
repeconanact cyto mentnnxa. cnomnnnoct mne coepxanne
ycanxn~, n nepe monm nnyrpennnm nsopom nosnnxnn cnent ns
+ro pamt. uent xcno npecrannxnoct mne, uro x xora-ro cama
nnena n necy ntcoxmee epeno, nerxn xoroporo noxptrt cyxnmn
nncrtxmn, xorx noxpyr nero npocrnpaercx ontmo rycro nec
c ntmno senentm. pyr c meprnoro epena cyxnm oxem noct-
nannct nncrtx n na semnm cocxounn esymnt crapnx mentnnx, on
nect n noxmortxx, n neptxx, c cyxnmn nncrtxmn na xocmaro ronone.
a cnnno y nero npnnxsant na nopontnx xptna. ysnam, uro
+ro tnmn xosxnn mentnnnt - oren onosopenno nornme e-
nymxn.
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.~nx.~ 812
ora mt ornpannxnnct rynxrt n nec, ocoenno ecnn apnx n-
xonaenna ronopnna, uro mt nem no nanpannennm x mentnnne, ncx
+ra xaprnna nnont n nnont npecrannxnact mne. nornxontxy nop-
uana:
- or ecnn t moxno tno cnycrnrtcx x +rnm cnaxm... y no-
uemy nt onrect? ne ynay.
- Fomct, ynaere,- orneuana . .
naxt mt nomnn rynxrt n ry cropony, re npoxnnana n
cnoem xosxcrne ona xenmnna, xoropym nouemy-ro nastnann
mentnnunxa~. ne paccxasann, uro y nee ecrt pyuno nopon. ax
pas mentnnunxa ntmna ns oma n ror momenr, xora mt npoxonnn
mnmo. cne sa nem ntexan ontmo nopon, o +rom mne cxasana
. . ne ouent xorenoct npnxocnyrtcx x nopony, no . . ne
ocmennnact nomart ero, a rontxo coomnna, uro on ontmo n uep-
nt. axe nama xomxa apa, xoropax roxe ortxana na aue n c
ontmnm +nrysnasmom ynnuroxana nrnn, n ncnyre nonxrnnact na-
sa npn nne +roro xptnaroro nennxana. opon cnntno nopasnn moe
noopaxenne. rorona tna nonepnrt, uro cymecrnyer xaxax-ro
ranncrnennax cnxst mexy +rnm noponom n remn xptntxmn, uro
npecrannxnnct mne na cnnne mentnnxa.
Fpocnnmaxcx n nenp enymxa npecrannxnact mne nexcntm
npnspaxom, cosanntm ns xanent not n ronuame peuno rpant.
ora xe mt no neuepam xonnn rynxrt n cnycxannct x nerny-
oxo peuymxe, mne npecrannxncx marammn no epery myxunna,
c ronont o nor saxyrannt n nnnnt nnam, a x nemy ns not,
nporxrnnax nnepe xyentxne pyuonxn, ntxonr manentxax enou-
xa. nee pacnymennte nymncrte nonoct, na xoroptx opncontna-
mrcx anrnxn ns mopcxo rnnt, ona es nnartnna, no mecramn ee
reno noxptro noopocnxmn, a na mee nnneercx nnrxa c mopcxnmn
paxymxamn. nora mne xasanoct, uro rononxy enouxn yxpamamr
ne anrnxn ns rnnt, a nenox ns noxntx nnnn, nexnt sanax
xoroptx x ouent nmnm.
I
naxt, xora x eceonana co cryenramn n aynropnn ea-
rornuecxoro nncrnryra, ns sana xro-ro npncnan mne sanncxy, saxnm-
uanmym n cee nectma nnrepecnt nonpoc. tuno no npemx raxnx
ece sanncxn ncera nocrynamr n ontmom xonnuecrne, no na ont-
mnncrno ns nnx moxno ornernrt npocro - a nnn ner... 3ra xe sa-
nncxa, o xoropo x ynomxnyna, sannrepeconana menx. ro-ro cnpa-
mnnan y menx, mory nn x nponsnontno, no napounromy xenannm
npecrannxrt cee raxne sanaxn, xoropte ne omymam n annt mo-
402
menr, a raxxe nponsnontno ntsnart n namxrn opast nme n npe-
meron, xoropte ne naxoxrcx nnnsn menx. a +ror nonpoc x orne-
uana xorx n xparxo (sa nenmennem npemenn), no yrnepnrentno,
npnnox nexoropte npnmept.
euac xe mne xouercx ornernrt onee ocroxrentno n erantno,
no x ne comnenamct n rom, uro mo orner sannrepecyer unrarene.
oono ncem pyrnm nmxm x ymam oo ncem, uro menx oxpy-
xaer n uro ocrynno moemy nocnpnxrnm. ymam x, nanpnmep, o rom,
uro n annt momenr na ynnne nter cnntnt oxt n yer xono-
nt nerep. nx roro urot x morna npecrannrt cee +ror ycnonnt
oxt, mne nonce ner nyxt ntxonrt xaxt pas na ynnny n
ononnxrt cnon nocnpnxrnx n omymennx oxx, xonoa, nerpa. nx
roro urot mtcnenno npecrannrt cee +ry xaprnny, mne ocrarouno
noymart o rom, yro ceronx cxnepnax noroa. ymax o +ro no-
roe, x xax yro omymam na xoxe cnoero nnna n pyx xononte
xannn oxx, xoropte, naax ona sa pyro, ronentxnmn crpy-
xamn pacrexamrcx no moemy reny, npnunnxx nenpnxrnoe omyme-
nne. ymax xe o nerpe, x ncem renom xax t omymam ero xono-
nte noptnt, n nenontnax poxt npoxonr no moe xoxe. o nomnmo
npecrannennx xonontx xanent oxx n noptnon nerpa x eme mory
nponsnontno noopasnrt, uro omymam sanax cnexero, nnaxnoro nos-
yxa, xaxo otuno conyrcrnyer oxnnno noroe.
o nor x ymam o pyrom: x noopaxam, yro naxoxyct re-ro
na aue nerom. ono cropont auy oxamnxer yxoxmn nant
nec, c pyro rxnercx omnpnt nyr.
cnn x npecrannxm cee, uro n necy pacryr enn n cocnt, ro mne
nerpyno ntsnart nponsnontnoe omymenne cmonncroro sanaxa +rnx
epenten, a raxxe npecrannrt nx crnont, nerxn n narperym conn-
nem xnom. pecrannxm x raxxe n nyr, r. e. npecrannxm ne ro, uro
+ror nyr omnpen - nx menx +ro nnmt ycnonnoe nonxrne,- a ro,
uro pacrer na nyry n ncrouaer sanaxn. a nyry pacrer rpana, pasno-
opasnte nonente nnert c ne menee pasnoopasntmn sanaxamn.
xora n moem noopaxennn nosnnxamr nnert - ne npocro mnmo-
nerno mentxamr~, a xcno n uerxo, rax uro x npecrannxm crpoenne
nnerxa: nenunx, uameuxy, creenex c nncrouxamn n axe xopnn
(ecnn x mtcnenno ntptnam nnerox ns semnn c xopnem),- nmecre
c +rnm mne uyxrcx sanaxn nonentx nneron. anpnmep, sanaxn po-
mamxn, xamxn, nacnntxon, nesayxn, nmrnxa... pn +rom x ncno-
mnnam orptnox ns crnxornopennx . . Fynnna onente nnert~:
crt na nonxx moe ponnt cxpomnte
Fpartx n cecrpt samopcxnx nneron,
x nospacrnna necna onarononnax
senenn macxnx nneron n nyron.
eer or nnx xpacorom crtnnnom,
epny n nsopy ponte onn...
403
nor eme npnmep. neonoxparno tnana y mopx, xorx n ne
ncera xynanact. nora npocro cnena na epery, ptnact n necxe,
nonpax xamemex x xamemxy, urot tnn npnnnsnrentno onna-
xonte no nennunne n rnaxo nonepxnocrn. rnx cnyuaxx x morna
nocnpnnnmart mope naroapx oonxnnm n xoxntm omymennxm; x
uyncrnonana cnenn]nuecxn sanax mopx, ocoenno cnntno npnrpe-
nammee connne na nnxxe, a raxxe ocrnranmne menx ptsrn or
nnecxa nonn. naxo n nmoe npemx roa n nesanncnmo or roro, re
x naxoxyct, x mory noopasnrt, yro omymam pesxn sanax mopx.
naxt n ocxne necenne noutm x ne cnana; ymana o rom, n
xaxom mecxne n re nmenno nponey nernn ortx. ne ouent xore-
noct noexart x mopm. ymax o +rom, x npyr xncrnenno omyrnna
sanax mopx. xaxo mnnyro +ror sanax ycnnnnancx, naxonen,
mno onnaeno xaxoe-ro myunrentnoe xenanne n ecrnnrentnocrn
omyrnrt nacroxmn sanax mopx. 3ra rocxa no mopm xonunnact rem,
uro x, xenax ntpasnrt cnonamn cnoe cocroxnne, nsxna nnctmennt
npnop, ymary n nanncana sa onn npncecr nenoe crnxornopenne
mopm~ (cm. n pasene rnxn~), naunnammeecx:
o ree yma rocxyer,
pyr moryun, pyr mo rposnt.
a roo necna nnxyer,
pacoro nnenxx snesno...
3rn mnnmte sanaxn mopx ornmt ne cnyuant, ne ntymant
mno, a pesyntrar panee nocnpnnxroro, npouno ycnoennoro mare-
pnana~, nonyuennoro ns nnemnero, marepnantnoro mnpa, c xoroptm
rax recno cnxsana n nnnornym conpnxacaercx exrentnocrt uenone-
uecxoro oprannsma n nenom n ntcmax nepnnax exrentnocrt n oco-
ennocrn. camom ene, ns yuennx . . annona mt ysnaem cne-
ymmee:
...opomo nsnecren ror ]axr, uro exrentnocrt nepnno cncre-
mt nanpannxercx, c ono cropont, na oennenne, nnrerpannm
paort ncex uacre oprannsma, c pyro-na cnxst oprannsma c
nnemne cpeo. exrentnocrt, nanpannennax na nnyrpennn mnp
oprannsma, moxno tno t nasnart nnsme nepnno exrentnocrtm,
n npornnononoxnocrt pyro, ycranannnnamme ronuamne orno-
mennx oprannsma x nnemnemy mnpy, xoropo saxonno npncnonrt
nasnanne ntcme nepnno exrentnocrn...~
404
I ro
Fyyun ne concem sopona, a raxxe nmex nnrepecnym xnnry nx
urennx, x orxasanact or npnrnamennx pyse ncrpernrt nmecre
c nnmn ont ro...
- et nam yer cxyuno ono,- cxasann mne.
o mne nonce ne tno cxyuno, n, xorx n xnnre nnuero ne rono-
pnnoct o ncrpeue onoro roa, x rem ne menee c yonontcrnnem un-
rana ee. ora xe nocnenn uac craporo roa noxonn x xonny
n or nacrynammero onoro roa menx orenxnn ne-rpn mnnyrt, x
ornoxnna xnnry, crana npoxaxnnartcx no xomnare, xcno npecran-
nxx cee, uro nor ceuac yer 12 uacon: nmn no pano ycntmar
o xpemnencxnx xypanron, nsrnxnyr na cnon uact, nocxnnxnyr, o-
pamaxct pyr x pyry ontm room!~, nonnmyr oxant, nanon-
nennte nnnom...
ne npecrannxnnct npasnnuno ypannte, ymrnte xomnart,
nepenonnennte oxnnnenntmn nmtmn. uynnnct sanaxn nnna, sa-
xycox, raaunoro tma... mtcnenno nepenocnnact x +rnm nmxm,
nospannxna nx c nacrynammnm ontm room, nmecre c nnmn no-
nnmana oxan; mne xasanoct, uro x axe omymam nxyc nnna no pry.
3ro omymenne tno nacrontxo cnntno, uro x nomana cex na rom,
xax mtcnenno nponosrnamam nonoronne rocrt.
rax, oxastnanoct, uro x nnuero ne norepxna, ocranmnct oma
ona. tcnenno x tna c nmtmn, npnnercrnonana nx, ntpaxana nm
cnon nannyumne noxenannx. pana, nmn o +rom ne snann, ne
oratnannct, uro x o nnx ymam n xcno nx npecrannxm n +rn
ropxecrnennte mnnyrt; no or +roro ne tnn xyxe mon mtcnn o
nmxx, ne nexno moe npecrannenne o npasnnuno ypanntx xom-
narax c napxntmn enxamn (x axe omymana cmonncrt sanax
+rnx enox), ne ymanxnact rennora monx ncxpennnx noxenann o-
pa n cuacrtx nmxm. snana, uro ne nce nmn necenxrcx n cuacr-
nnnt n +ror neuep...
noymana o enepno opee, n mne uynnoct, uro x uyncrno-
nana, xax corpxcancx nosyx or ryna nerxmnx omapnponmnxon
n rpoxora cpactnaemtx nmn om. 3ro nerunxn B no nncrpyx-
nnn onn-crpnra omnnn xopecxne ropoa n cenennx. mecro
npasnnunoro oxnnnennx n necentx sect napnn rpoxor or paspy-
menn, cntmen tn nnau ere, marepe n crapnxon, pasanannct
cront panentx n ymnpammnx...
3rnm oesonenntm nmxm, xoroptx amepnxancxne nmnepnann-
crt noneprann neuenoneuecxnm crpaannxm, x mtcnenno cnana cnon
nnamennte noxenannx, nnyrpenne x ronopnna nm: ycrt xe +ror
nont ro npnnecer nam mnp n npexpamenne nanxsanno nnrepnen-
405
ramn nont. ycrt cxopee nacraner ror ent, xora nmecro paspyxn,
noxapnm n rnnymnx nme xopecxn napo ynnnr semnm npe-
xpacno nneryme, c sacexnntmn nonxmn, caamn, n senenn necon...
n cnepxammnx no nyuamn connna ropoax satmxr rpyt ]a-
pnx n sanoon, na xoroptx yyr paorart ecxrxn rtcxu cuacrnn-
ntx mnpntx nme, paocrno crpoxmnx cnom nonym xnsnt n ycno-
nnxx cnoonoro connanncrnuecxoro rocyapcrna...~
ce ro, uro x xenana xopecxomy napoy n +ry nonoronmm nout,
npecrannxnoct mne ouent xcno, xnsnenno, ecrnenno, c mnoxe-
crnom noponocre. 3ro noromy, uro x tna ne onnoxa, nect nam
napo cnan reponuecxomy xopecxomy napoy cnon pyxecxne, nna-
mennte, nannyumne noxenannx...
o ne onomy xopecxomy napoy mt mnem npnnercrnnx, ner!
cem mnponmnntm napoam, crpemxmnmcx x mnpno rpyono
xnsnn, x snannxm n xyntrype, mt, conercxne nmn, mnem nonoro-
nne npnnercrnnx n ncxpennne noxenannx cuacrtx n mnpa no ncem
mnpe!
raxnmn mtcnxmn x nponena nepnte uact nacrynanmero onoro
roa. xorx n cnoe xomnare x tna conepmenno ona, no norom
mne xasanoct, uro n +ry nout x nnena ouent mnornx nme, rono-
pnna c nnmn o rom, o uem ymana n onnouecrne... ce +ro xax yro
nponcxonno n ecrnnrentnocrn, n x naonro sanomnnna +ry na-
mxrnym nonoronmm nout.
nnapt, 1951 ro

reuenne mnornx, mnornx ner x ne rontxo meurana, no n ncxue-
cxn crpemnnact nonerert xya-nnyt na camonere. naxo mon
nnsxne orronapnnann menx, onacaxct, uro x nnn ncnyramct n mo-
menr noema camonera, nnn y menx naunercx cnntnoe cepne-
nenne.
mnoro unrana o camonerax, nerunxax, nonerax. o nce +ro ne
anano mne peantnoro npecrannennx o omymennxx, xoropte ncnt-
rtnamr nmn, naxoxmnecx na camonere.
uame ncero mne npecrannxnoct, uro +rnx nme cnntno onraer
nnpano n nneno, nm enaercx ypno, y nnx nacrynaer ro cocroxnne,
xoropoe ncntrtnamr naccaxnpt na mope no npemx xauxn...
nor no npemx moero ornycxa ocroxrentcrna cnoxnnnct rax,
uro x onxna tna nerert xya-nnyt camonerom, n npnrom ona,
no mox nepenounna n otunax cnyrnnna n monx crpancrnonannxx,
. ., cama xpane nyxanact n ortxe,
ox xaptxoncxax nopyra . . eme n nauane necnt npnrnamana
menx norocrnrt y nee nerom. pemnna nerert x ne n aptxon, a
pas pemeno - rax n cenano: x xynnna nner n copanact n opo-
ry. Ftno nocxpecente - rennt, conneunt ent n cepenne an-
rycra.
uacon yrpa sa mno npnmna . ., urot npononrt menx n
a+ponopr n ycanrt na camoner, npn arom . . onxna tna npe-
ynpenrt +xnnax camonera, uro x ne nnxy n ne cntmy.
xe n anroyce, nanpannxnmemcx n a+ponopr, . . cnpocnna
menx:
- ax nt cex uyncrnyere?
- opomo... ne xaxercx, uro ey nponoxart xoro-ro pyroro,
xro onxen ynerert, a cama x ocranyct n ocxne.
- eyxenn?-ynnnnact . .- ecnn nam craner crpamno
n camonere, rora xax xe?
- ax-nnyt ooercx... et x ne ona yy n camonere,
ram xe yyr nmn.
osnamct, uro +ror pasronop o nexoropo crenenn ncrpenoxnn
menx: pantme x crapanact ne ymart o rom, xax yy cex uyncrno-
nart n camonere, no renept yxe nentsx tno ne ymart, a ymax o
npecroxmem nonere, x nauana cnerxa nonnonartcx. exy rem
. . ne ynnmanact n npoonxana nauart pasronop:
- cnn cnyunrcx anapnx, nam ayr napammr n ntpocnrect
ns camonera...
nepenna:
- ya xe +ro x ntpomyct?.. pyr ynay n pexy nnn na
epentx n, sanennnmnct napammrom sa nerxn, nonncny na nnx...
ne yy snart, re x naxoxyct...
- t rontxo ne saytre orxptrt napammr, xora ntpocn-
rect,- nacrannxna menx . .
- t ymaere, x yy nomnnrt o rom, uro nyxno pacxptrt
napammr?.. a x rax nepenyramct, ecnn ntpomyct ns camonera,
uro oo ncem na cnere sayy.
- er, o +rom nentsx satnart...
- a xopomo, xnarnr ronopnrt o +rom, nt rontxo nanpacno
menx paccrpannaere... nxaxo anapnn ne yer: noroa xopo-
max...
rpom, conpaxct n opory, x ouent cnemnna cenart nce neo-
xonmoe no xosxcrny, a rnannoe - cocrnennopyuno naxopmnrt n
nanonrt xorenxa; no+romy cama ocranact es sanrpaxa. oesxax
x a+ponopry, x omyrnna raxo annernr, uro pemnna noxpennrtcx
n pecropane a+ponopra. o ornpanxn camonera y nac eme tno o-
crarouno npemenn. t cann na xpanenne nemn n ornpannnnct n
pecropan.
ect x tna nnepnte. e opamax nnnmannx na nynnxy,
. . npomna co mno no pecropany, noxastnax mne nesanxrte cro-
nnxn, noxptrte enocnexntmn cxareprxmn (xax cxasana . .),
na xoroptx croxnn cnepxammne oxant pasnnuno nennunnt, npn-
opt c ropunne n cononxn. o noramn x omymana rax craparentno
nareprt non, uro morna t c ontmnm ycnexom nocxontsnyrtcx n
ynacrt, ecnn t menx conponoxana menee ontrnax cnyrnnna.
- ect rax xpacnno, rax nce necrnr! - nocxnmanact . .
onont nanmonanmnct xom]opraentntm pecropanom, mt sa-
nxnn onn ns cnoontx cronnxon n saxasann oe. o npemx oea
. . cxasana mne, uro sa cocennm cronnxom cnnr xaxo-ro rpax-
annn n npncrantno cmorpnr na menx. cnpocnna:
- xaxnre, on n ]opme nerunxa?
- er, a uro?
- t ronopnnn, uro sect ecrt nerunxn. noymana o rom, uro
sect cnyuano moxer naxonrtcx ctn . .- net on roxe nerunx.
- er, +ror, xoropt cmorpnr na nac, n rpaxancxom xocrmme,..
oxa mt naxonnnct n pecropane, x nce npemx ymana o rom, uro
mory cnyuano ncrpernrt ctna moe tnme yunrentnnnt . .-
nerunxa . . .
pecropane mt saepxannct, noromy uro xann o]nnnanrxy,
urot ynnarnrt sa oe, n uyrt ne onosann na nocaxy. oe-
xann x camonery n nocnenmm mnnyry. antme x, xax nn ntranact,
ne morna no-nacroxmemy npecrannrt, xaxnm opasom nmn no-
naamr na camoner: no rpany, xax +ro tnaer na napoxoe, nnn
xe xaxnm-ro nntm cnocoom? uent nn ntcoxo nyxno nonnmartcx
nx roro, urot nonacrt n camoner?
pnnnsnnmnct x camonery, . . cenana pyxo ycnonnoe nn-
xenne, xoropoe osnauano, uro mne npnercx nonxrtcx na cry-
nentxn. cne sa . . x crana nonnmartcx nnepx, npomna ne-
cxontxo crynenex n ouyrnnact y nxoa n camoner. epemarnyn uepes
nopor nepnt camonera, x omyrnna no noramn roncrt, mxrxn xo-
nep. 3ro ocroxrentcrno upesntuano ynnnno menx, n x noymana
ne es yonontcrnnx: or xax! ect axe xonep, a x ymana, uro
cpasy crynnm na xenesnt non~.
ne ouent xorenoct ceuac xe ocmorpert nect camoner, urot
norom x morna ero npecrannxrt raxnm, xaxon on ecrt n ecrnnrent-
nocrn. a ne rontxo npecrannxrt, no n paccxasart o camonere n ero
nnyrpennem ycrpocrne cnonm nespxunm pystxm. o, x coxanennm,
nentsx tno mennrt nn ono cexynt: . . cnemnna ycanrt
menx na moe mecro n ntrn ns camonera. na nonena menx x ont-
momy mxrxomy xpecny n, ycann, roponnnno cxasana:
- or, nosne nac axe oxno.
nporxnyna pyxy n npanym cropony n onapyxnna crexno n
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npnxptnanmym ero sananecouxy. +ror momenr xro-ro nsxn menx sa
pyxy n nponsnec~ axrnnonorne: nx, spancrnyre!~
nouyncrnonana npnxocnonenne myxcxo pyxn.
r ynnnennx x axe ne ornernna na npnnercrnne saronopnnmero
co mno, no xro xe mor n camonere ronopnrt~ co mno npn no-
momn pyuno asyxn. oparnnact x . .:
- ro +ro?
- e ysnann? 3ro . . ... crannxm nac na ero noneuenne...
Fery... o cnnannx!
. . ymna, a xo mne noomen . .
- nac nesy,- cxasan . .- euac mt nonnmemcx,- n on
ymen n cnom xannxy.
rax, cyte tno yrono, urot x cno nepnt noner conep-
mnna na rom camonere, xoropt nen . . ., xopomo snaxomt mne
nerunx, n npnrom ronapnm ercrna, c xoroptm mt ne onaxt
npoxasnnuann nmecre. ro mart paorana rora nearorom n xnnnnxe
nx cnenornyxonemtx ere, re nocnnrtnanact n x...
noyonee ycenact n xpecno n npnroronnnact napartcx nne-
uarnenn o rom, uro x n cocroxnnn tna omyrnrt n nocnpnnxrt.
pomno npnmepno c nonmnnyrt, x npyr omyrnna, uro camoner
pornyn n nnanno noxarnncx no ponno opore. nycrx nexoropoe
npemx camoner xax yro nerxo nonptrnyn nnepx, n x es mane-
mero crpaxa, a naoopor, c upesntuantm nmontrcrnom no nnpa-
nnxm omyrnna, uro camoner orennncx or semnn n nocrenenno nan-
paer ntcory.
+ror ocronpnmeuarentnt n namxrnt nx menx mnr x uyn-
crnonana cex ornnuno xax ]nsnuecxn, rax n npancrnenno. axe
moe cepne, sa xoropoe x uyrouxy noannanact, nnoct ponno n cno-
xono, xax yro t x exana no semne n xopome anromamnne.
mexy rem, xora x eme no opore n a+ponopr ntranact npecra-
nnrt cee +ror crpamnt~ momenr orptna or semnn, mne nouemy-ro
xasanoct, uro x nenpemenno ncnyramct, xora camoner nsmoer
nnepx~, uro x yy ncntrtnart cnntnoe cepnenenne n, uero o-
poro, mne, noxany, cenaercx ypno... a camom ene, nnuero
crpamnoro ne cnyunnoct: camoner nnanno nanpan ntcory, a napan
ee, nomen nnepe, nanpax cxopocrt n npemx or npemenn ntpxx~
nnns, xora nonaan n nosymnte xmt. npoonxana uyncrnonart
cex nacrontxo xopomo, uro mne nopo xasanoct, yro menx oma-
nynn: nocannn ne n camoner, a n xaxym-ro pyrym mamnny, xoro-
pax ouent tcrpo munrcx no ac]antrnponannomy mocce, ro nonpt-
rnnax, ro mxrxo npnnaax x semne na cnonx xaxnx-ro ocoenntx
+nacrnuntx peccopax. nonom, ecnn t x ne snana o rom, uro naxo-
xyct n camonere, x tna t ynepena, uro ey no semne, a ne neuy
na nem, nacrontxo +ror noner ne coornercrnonan romy, xax x npe-
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crannxna na ocnonannn npounrannoro cocroxnne uenonexa n ero
omymennx n ro npemx, xora on naxonrcx ntcoxo na semne n ne-
rxmem camonere.
yxe ynomnnana o rom, uro cnena nosne oxna. 3ro ocrox-
rentcrno necxontxo cmymano menx: mne xasanoct, uro na menx
cmorpxr nce naccaxnpt n ronopxr mexy coo o rom, uro nanpacno
mne ocranoct raxoe xopomee mecro... camom ene, net x ne morna
cmorpert nnns, a mne rax xorenoct snart, na xaxnmn mecramn mt
nponeraem n ror nnn nno momenr.
pana, x npoonana npecrannxrt cee semno nesax raxnm,
xax onnctnaercx n xnnrax: ro ntmmymcx cepepncrym nenry pexn,
ro seneno-xenrte nxrna necon n none, ro, naxonen, pente]nte
oueprannx ropoon...
o nce +ro x rontxo npnnomnnana n npenonarana, uro nmenno
rax nocnpnnnmamr nesaxn spxune nmn, naxoxmnecx n nerxmem
camonere. menx yxe ne nosnnxano spnrentnoro npecrannennx o
rom, uro naxonrcx nnnsy: xax pente]nte, rax n xpacounte npe-
crannennx aconmrno orcyrcrnonann n ror momenr n moem yme.
mexy rem mne ouent xorenoct npecrannrt xorx t uro-nn-
yt ns roro, na uem mt nponerann. ecxontxo pas x naxnonxnact
x oxonnomy crexny, oreprnnana sananecouxy, nonarax, uro yy
noopaxart, yro cmorpm n oxno, no axe ro, uro x ycnnenno nx-
nnna rnasa, nnuero cymecrnennoro ne npnannno x monm rmerntm
nontrxam spnrentno npecrannrt senente nesaxn. noxanena,
uro ner nosne menx . .; ona morna t xort paccxasart mne o
rom, uro cama nnnr, n +ro o nexoropo crenenn ne rontxo cxpa-
cnno t mom oropnannocrt~ or semnn n ncero nnemnero mnpa, no
axe morno t cnococrnonart romy, uro x, naxoxct no cnexnm
nneuarnennem paccxasannoro, npecrannna t pexy nnn ropo onee
omyrnmo, onee pente]no. Fes +roro cnexero nneuarnennx nce na-
xoxmeecx nnnsy npecrannxnoct mne xax t neycrounntm, pac-
nntnuartm n +]emepntm, neocxsaemtm n neoonxemtm. o nsoxom
coxanennx x saxptnana oxno sananecxo n ornopaunnanact n py-
rym cropony, pernn npeartcx nntm omymennxm - omymennxm
nnxennx camonera, xoropoe x oruernnno nocnpnnnmana.
. " no-nnnmomy, ecnoxonncx oo mne n, snax, uro n camo-
nere nnxro ne moxer omartcx co mno, noxonn xo mne.
- ax nt cex uyncrnyere?
- Fnaroapm, ouent xopomo! ne rax npannrcx nerert! - orne-
uana x n nonnom nocropre.
- or n xopomo... ot ne xornre? cnn nam nyxno yer uro-
nnyt, nosonnre ronapnme. ect ecrt ocnyxnnammax xenmn-
na, ona nooer x nam. e cxyuare...
nonce ne cxyuana, no . . yrocrnn menx xnoxamn, cnpane-
nnno nonarax, uro onn nomoryr mne xoporart npemx. ycrponnact
noyonee n rnyoxom xpecne n camtm opoconecrntm opasom npn-
nxnact ynnuroxart xnoxn. nnxenne camonera xax yro amxano
menx, nanenax nerxym pemory, a ecnn camoner ntpxn~ n xmy~,
+ro nncxontxo ne rpenoxnno menx: net mamnny nen . ., cneo
narentno, mne neuero tno oxrtcx.
oxonunn c xnoxamn, x nosnana xenmnny, o xoropo cxasan
. ., n nonpocnna ee npononrt menx n ryanernym.
o ynt! cran c xpecna, x ne cmorna rnepo epxartcx na no-
rax: x noxaunnanact no nce cropont, cnonno naxonnact na nanye
xopanx, sacrnrnyroro n mope cnntntm yparanom. a mom ey, ca-
moner, necxontxo pas ntpnyn nnns, n mne oruernnno npecrann-
noct, uro mt naaem... oxnnnoct nenpeoonnmoe xenanne yxna-
rnrtcx sa uro-nnyt pyxamn n raxnm opasom yepxartcx or
naennx nnns. o yxnarnrtcx tno ne sa uro: co ncex cropon
tnn neperopoxn n nept, sa xoropym x n yxnarnnact xax moxno
xpenue.
nx mom pacrepxnnocrt, xo mne noomna ra xe xenmnna, uro-
t npononrt menx na mecro. o n +ror momenr camoner cnona
ntpnyn~, x oenmn pyxamn oxnarnna xenmnny, necmorpx na ro
uro ona cama ne nmena nnxaxo onopt, xpome nona. sacmexnact:
net n camom ene cmemno, uro x rax nenponsnontno xnaranact sa
nce oxpyxammee. onxno trt, ocrantnte naccaxnpt nnenn
nponcxoxmee, no nexoropte ns nnx nocnemnnn xo mne na no-
momt n narononyuno onenn menx o mecra. nocnemnna cxopee
cecrt: n raxom nonoxennn ntpxnne~ camonera n ncenosmoxnte
nosymnte nponant~ nncxontxo ne nyrann menx.
Fontme nnuem ocoenntm ne napymanoct moe cnoxonoe cocro-
xnne. amoner neren nce tcrpee n tcrpee, n, rontxo xora mt
crann npnnnxartcx x aptxony, x omyrnna, uro cxopocrt nonera
ymentmaercx. menno no+romy x n oraanact, uro cxopo yer
aptxon.
nor ocropoxno n c xaxo mnnyro samenxx cxopocrt, camo-
ner nomen nnns. uent nnnmarentno, ncem renom npncnymnnanact
x x corpxcennxm camonera. ax npomno necxontxo mnnyr. or eme
nesnaunrentnt ronuox - n camoner noxarnncx no nnomaxe a+po-
poma. cpasy omyrnna, xora mt cenn, a raxxe xora, npoxarnn-
mnct, camoner, naxonen, nenonnxno samep. xnax, uro xo mne
nooer . ., x ne ncrana co cnoero mecra, no ne snana, xya
nrn. nnmt naena mnxny n nepecena na xpaemex xpecna. cxope
noomen . .
411
- t npnexann.
- nam. xy nac.
- ac ncrpeuamr?
- a.
. . nomor mne corn c camonera, npnuem, xax x samernna, on,
no-nnnmomy, onacancx, urot x ne ynana c necrnnnt. a a+popome
menx yxe xann. pacnpomanact c . ., nonaroapnna ero sa
oxasannoe nnnmanne n oemana trt y ero marepn na cneymmn
ent.
Ill
aptxone x norocrnna rpn neenn, ncrpeuaxct co cnonmn npex-
nnmn snaxomtmn n pystxmn. exoropte ns nnx nnxax ne xorenn
nepnrt romy, uro x npnnerena ona, a n noome,- ronopnnn
onn,- neyxenn ree ne tno crpamno?~ ona npnxrentnnna cxa-
sana:
- or x nnxy n cntmy, a es myxa nn sa uro t ne nonerena.
- nouemy? - cnpocnna x.
- ax nouemy? ano nn uro moxer cnyunrtcx... pyr c cep-
nem craner nnoxo...
- nuero c rnonm cepnem ne cnyunnoct t. ne concem ne
tno crpamno n camonere... ecnn t uro n cnyunnoct, xo mne no-
omnn t nmn n . .
- " rax rt c nnm nerena? 3ro pyroe eno...
crpernnmnct c mareptm . ., x sanepnna ee:
- namnm ctnom mne ne crpamno tno nerert. ora x yy
oparno exart n ocxny, mne xouercx cnona nonacrt na ero camo-
ner. nnm x noneuy xort na nyny!
- 3ro yx xax npnercx,- orneuana . .,- moxer trt, on
n ror ent, xora rt yemt ynerart, nonernr n pyroe mecro. o
+ro ne nmeer nnxaxoro snauennx, y nac nce nerunxn xopomne, ontr-
nte, rt moxemt nepnyrtcx n ocxny na nmom camonere, n nnuero
c roo ne cnyunrcx.
- t n +rom ynepent? - cnpocnna x.
- oneuno, x xe snam namnx nerunxon.
oyman na cnonamn . ., x cxasana:
- a, x roxe ymam, uro namn conercxne nerunxn - sameua-
rentnte pexra, snamr cnoe eno ornnuno! onnmam raxxe, uro
pyro nerunx ne xyxe . . ynpannxer cnonm camonerom. naxo
nce eno n rom, uro . . snaer cnoco omennx co mno... or +ro
ocroxrentcrno ouent oopxno menx, xora x nerena n aptxon...
o nnant nnanamn, a nce cnoxnnoct nnaue, necmorpx na moe
ontmoe xenanne nerert n ocxny c . . oronopnnact c nnm
o rom, uro conpamct ntnerert ns aptxona 1 cenrxpx; n +ror ent
412
on onxen tn nerert n ocxny. o npyr menx rax neyepxnmo
norxnyno omo, rax saxorenoct nocxopee nepnyrtcx n nmnmym,
ponym ocxny, uro x, ne oxanmnct 1 cenrxpx, xynnna nner
na 29 anrycra.
ne cxasa.nn, uro x xynnna nner neyauno, noromy uro npn-
ercx nerert na rpansnrnom camonere nnncn-ocxna~. 3ror
camoner enan nocaxy n aptxone.
ne nonnmana, uem xe nnox rpansnrnt npoxoxmn~ camo-
ner. ce, xro menx nponoxan, ecnoxonnnct n neonoxparno cnpa-
mnnann, ne nonnymct nn x.
a a+popom n n camoner menx nponoxana xena . ., ona xe
npeynpenna oxpyxammnx, uro x ne nnxy n ne cntmy, uro onn n
cnyuae naonocrn moryr nncart n moe pyxe.
a +ror pas x cnena ne nosne oxna, a pxom c pyrnmn naccaxn-
pamn. tna npana, uro ne nonnonanact npexenpemenno: +ror ca-
moner raxxe xopomo cnxncx c a+popoma, nnanno nanpax ntcory
n cxopocrt. a n cam nauantnnx a+popoma cxasan mne, urot x
aconmrno ne ecnoxonnact:
- ce yer xopomo: camoner ontmo n xom]opraentnt, ma-
mnny neer ontrnt nerunx.
e snam, orroro nn, uro x rax pnanact n ocxny, nnn n camom
ene +ro tno rax, no mne xasanoct, uro +ror camoner men tcrpee,
uem ror, na xoropom x nerena n aptxon. nauane nce ocroxno na-
rononyuno: camoner tcrpo muancx n ntpxn~. orxnnynact na
cnnnxy xpecna n xorena nspemnyrt. naxo mne ne cyxeno tno
ncntrart cocroxnne cnxmero uenonexa n nerxmem camonere. pn-
nnsnrentno na nonnyrn mexy aptxonom n ocxno nac nacrnrna
ypx c nponnnntm oxem. +rom x ysnana nosxe, xora yxe
tna na semne, a n ro npemx, xora mt nerenn, x samernna rontxo,
uro camoner nonnmancx nce ntme n ntme, nnora cnntno naax
nnns n cnora nsmtnax nnepx. asa na nnn rpn camoner cnntno na-
xpenxncx ro na nent, ro na npant opr n pacxaunnancx rax, uro
xpecna xax yro npnnaann x nony, a norom ntnpxmnxnnct. nora
xe nnesanno n crpemnrentno xnancx nnns, or +roro y menx samn-
pano cepne, a norn xax yro ornannnannct or ocrantnoro
rena, no n cneymmn momenr camoner ntpannnnancx, nonnmancx
ntme, n x ycnoxannanact.
ecmorpx na ro uro camoner xauano n rpenano, x ne ncntrt-
nana npncryna romnort; no tno pyroe, or uero x necxontxo crpa-
ana. eno n rom, uro ns aptxona x ntnerena n raxym xapxym no-
roy, uro ne nyxanact n xaxere, a cnpxrana ero n uemoan n cana
na xpanenne. a mne tno nerxoe nnarte, mnxna n rasonax xoct-
nouxa. ora paspasnnact ypx n mt nonxnnct ntme, mo nernn
ryaner oxasancx nenpnrontm: x crana ncntrtnart yxacnt xo-
413
no - ncx poxana, ne nonaax syom na sy n ne snax, uem mne
naxptrtcx. oparnnact x cnoemy cocey no xpecny co cnonamn:
- ax nt cex uyncrnyere? ne rax xonono.
n xoporxo ornernn, nanncan na moe naonn:
- opomo. cem xonono.
3ror orner nectma pasouaponan menx, no x nexcno naexnact na
xaxym-ro nomomt co cropont cocea.
nycrx nexoropoe npemx camoner nomen onee cnoxono n ponno.
pyr c npano cropont y menx npomentxnyno uro-ro rennoe, x no-
nepnynact nnnom n +ry cropony n omyrnna conneunt cner...
eme uepes necxontxo mnnyr mo coce cxasan mne:
- xopo ocxna...
onerax x ocxne, camoner ymentman cxopocrt nonera n ocro-
poxno cnnxancx. a a+popom on cnycrnncx ouent nerxo, es xaxnx
t ro nn tno ronuxon n noxarnncx no nnomaxe; +ro x cama cpasy
nouyncrnonana. enx ncrpeuann . . n . . r nnx x ysnana o rom,
uro tna ypx c oxem, na ac]antre a+popoma eme coxpannnnct
neontmne nyxn.
ouent opaonanact, uro cnona naxoxyct n ocxne, a raxxe
n romy, uro cama ncntrana cocroxnne nme, naxoxmnxcx na ne-
rxmem camonere. enept x npecrannxna nce +ro ne no-xnnxnomy, a
c nomomtm cocrnenntx nocnpnxrn n omymenn. Fypx xe nnuyrt
ne ncnyrana menx, nanpornn, mne rax nonpannnoct nerart, uro x
ncem cnonm snaxomtm c nocroprom paccxastnana o cnoem nosymnom
nyremecrnnn, oannxx npn +rom:
- enept x ymam yxe o cneymmem nonere... ymam raxxe
o nerunxax: xaxne onn cmente, naxounnte n cnntnte yxom nmn...
a, ornnunte pexra namn conercxne xpapte nerunxn!
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I
ymamr nnte - re, xro snyxn cntmar,
e, xro nnxr connne, snest n nyny:
- ax ona es spentx xpacory onnmer?
ax nomer es cnyxa snyxn n necny!?
ycntmy sanax n poct npoxnay,
erxn menecr nncrten nantnamn nonnm.
ronax n cympax, x npoy no cay,
meurart rorona, n cxasart: nmnm...
ycrt x ne ynnxy rnas ero cnxnte,
e ycntmy ronoc, nacxont, xnno,
o cnona es snyxa - uyncrna rpenerante -
nonnm n cntmy tcrpom pyxo.
sa ym, sa cepne x nmnrt rorona,
ax, xax nmxr sanax nexnoro nnerxa.
ax, xax nmxr n pyxe oporoe cnono,
ax, xax nmnr rpener cxarax pyxa.
ymom ynnxy, uyncrnamn ycntmy,
meuro npnnontno mnp x oneuy...
axt nn ns spxunx xpacory onnmer,
ntnercx nt xcno xpxomy nyuy?
e nmem cnyxa, ne nmem spentx,
o nmem ontme - uyncrn xnntx npocrop:
nxnm n nocnymntm, xryunm noxnonentem
corxana xnsnn xpacount ysop.
cnn nac uapymr xpacora n snyxn,-
e ropnrect +rnm cuacrtem npeo mno!
yume nporxnnre c optm uyncrnom pyxy,
uro tna x c namn, a ne sa creno.
I
e memare, ynre, npomy!
ycrt no cne x rem snyxam nnnmam,
uro uapymr pyrnx naxny,
ycrt no cne x nx npenecrt nosnam.
encxn ronoc rax nnno snyunr -
3ry necnm xax yro x snam...
poxnt - ro xax crpyxa xypunr,
o ropxecrnenno, momno nrpaer.
ntmy nente - n paocrt pacrer
ennoro n moem cepne ycranom,-
ouno muyct x n uyecnt noner,
xptnxxct meuro netnano.
tmrcx snyxn nonna sa nonno,
ce xcnee, xcnee nx cntmy;
ax nerxo mne! uro cranoct co mno,
uro menx nonnmaer nce ntme?
o xonuaercx nnnt mo con,
neramr, xax tm, nepennnt,
arnxaer uapymmn snon,
ant yxonr cnerno n xpacnno.
ocne mystxn yro onxrt
peo mnom espexnoe mope:
morna +ry ant cosepnart,
morna nmonartcx npocropom.
na noxe xya-ro nntny...
onnt n ynom npnoe nnxymr.
3ro - con, no net x naxny
npnpoe, o snyxax rocxym.
x
nenornyxax x, rax uro xe!
et mne nonxren +ror ent,
a, n ent nenanart x roxe
Fpocam n ypny mnnerent!
ycxa ne nnxy x, xax nnna
cex nsnparene nneryr;
o snam - nce onn noyr,
nmt ncntxner pannxx sapnnna.
ycxa ne cntmy x, xax momno
.Fter xnsnn paocrno ponnx.
npecrannxm +ro rouno,
onxren spxunx mne xstx.
ne nenanarom meuram,
ax yro nnert yy cner...
nenornyxax x, no snam,
axnx ocrnrnn mt noe!..
nenornyxax x, no snam,
mnm rex, mox crpana!
o ncemn nmecre ronocym,
n cepne y menx necna!

ne xaxercx, ntmne nnerer necna,
na rennee, xpue n monoxe...
er, +ro xnsnt mox ononnena,
ax xnsnt conercxo nyume monoexn.
tnnct meurt - n xomcomonxa x -
axax cnna, paocrt n +rom cnone!
rpana uyecnax, nmnmax mox,
roo ny nnepe x noeam nontm.
rpana oneron - onna rpya,
crounnx cuacrtx, myxecrna n cnant,
ree ropnr npexpacnax snesa,-
xrnxoneunax cnepxaer nennuano.
x ropxyct roo, mox crpana,
r1n rnopuecrna ceptesne rt n crpoxe..
ax netnano xnsnt ononnena -
nenornyxax xomcomonxa roxe.
Hnern, necna! room x nnery!
ouy nnoxnrt ncm xnsnt n nnerente +ro,
uro nonnornrt npexpacnym meury
xnnte, omne n nyumne sanert...
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axas St2
F . .
craer uyecnt opas npeo mno
oro, utx xnsnt yracna es nosnpara,
oro, xro tn nmnmt n pono,
oro, utx cmeprt - orpomnax yrpara.
nnxora ne nnena ero,
ne ocxsante spente samenxer,
nonmn nantnamn cmorpm x na nero,
optxn npeo mnom oxnnaer.
nasa rnyoxne, n mypocrt n nnx nnna,
mno n sopxo xnsnt on nanmaer;
mnn n opoymnx nonna,
ntxa mnax ns-no ycon cnxer.
enx on nonxn - uyrxn n cepeunt;
oryue cnno ym mo oxnnnxn;
nn rpynte, npocro n uenoneunt,
enx on paonan, x paore npnstnan.
ennxn ctn nennxoro napoa,
crpane uyec, xax connne, on cnxn.
n noxt xnemnn... asymnym npnpoy~
Feccmtcnenno xecroxo nastnan.
optxn nam xnner n cepnax napoon,
nnouenntx mtcntm, rnopuecrnom, rpyom,
xpennenntx pyxo, myxecrnom, cnooo
pasyma nennxnm ropxecrnom.

a np! - nstnaer ronoc mnpa,
a np n parcxym nmont!
nent xyr n rpymoax nnpa,
x ontxnnr nmcxax xpont.
a np! - nstnamr nce napot -
osop none! poxnxrte rem,
ro npar rpya, nme, cnoot
xro ne pesryer nnuem,
uro np n cuacrte ynnuroxnrt,
uro ropoa cponnxrt c semne,
Fonesnn, rono, cmeprt ymnoxnrt
cem omepsnrentno nono.
o rmerno xyr n cnoe rpymoe
nent, uro nacraner nnp...
pner xonen ]amncrcxo snoe!
ect mnp rpemnr: - ! !
nycrt mo ronoc n omem sone
e cntmen, no nmont mox
onxrna ncem n ennom cnone:
- Fopnrect xe sa np, pystx!

onoax necna,
norosnyun nonna,
pnnerena ns antnero xpax.
amymenn neca,
anncrana rposa,
poyxente npnpot ncrpeuax.
epno rpentm cnoe
a sape conone
renrrrt yxe oxnnnxer...
a noo,
a semne,
a seneno nncrno
yuesapnoe connne cnxer...
o - npomuannct re nn,
ora snyxn n necx
nyx mo uyrxn n nsopt nnenxnn...
ponerenn re nn -
e cuacrnnnte nn,
Fyro cnt es nosnpara nponann.
amxrt yer xpannrt
xaprnnt, n snyx,
nonno ornecx nocnenero cnera,
uro mentxnyn nnepen
coxptncx on npyr...
aunnaercx rtma es npocnera.

(.. omponcxo)
uy! ntmen menecr, cntmen cryx.
cennn menecr - nerxn snyx.
ncrt nene, nncrt xenre,
erxr, mypmar n rnmn noue.
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ocnenn nyu - npomantnt nyu
sonornr onomxn ryu.
eemr nrnuex ronoca,
ycremr nnnt n neca.
opannct nrnnt yx na mr...
x necenxa - npomantnt snyx.
pncnymacx: n rnmn noue
ncrt mypmar, nerxr c nerne.
pncnymacx: ocennn mym
pnnonr po yntntx ym.
pnpot nsox n rnxn cryx -
enna npomantnt, nerxn snyx.

cnona, xax nexora, crana y mopx,
nonnt nce nnemyr na nnaxnt necox.
ymo omymam rpomanocrt npocropa
no remno-cnnnx poxmncx rox.
ax nnsxomy pyry, x xnanxmct mopm.
no nennuano, mxrexno n rposno.
nce, uro satnoct,- n paocrt, n rope,-
nesanno saxrnocx, xax n cympaxe nosnem.
mtcnt, oxptnxxct, crpemnrcx nce ntme,
uyncrna, n nnna tnte xcne.
o snyxon nponertx rax xncrnenno cntmen
s tmuaro ann mnnynmnx yx ne...
o-necennemy connne cnepxaer,
exno nacxom rpeer cnoe.
pxn cner n renno omymax,
annnm yrpom xy connna nyue.
o ne moxer cnernno npnpot
ocroxnno menx osapxrt:
ent npoer, n tnte nensrot
xrorxr moe cepne onxrt.
nnmt neuep - rynax ycranocrt
acnonxer nce paocrn nx,
xanem o rom, uro ymuanoct,
uro opnno, xnnnno menx.
e xe ror, xro, xax connne, co i peer,
ro nopo oxnnnr mom mtcnt,
ro nmnrt n oportcx ymeer,
uro nnena no-necennemy xnsnt?
rsonnct n yt conneuntm cnerom
nx menx, x ymom cnntna!
sapennax pyra npnnerom,
cxaxy, uro n n xnsnn necna!

ree, crpana ponax,
nennute en rnonx,
o-necennemy cnepxax,
tercx mo cepeunt crnx.
t pacremt, crpana ponax,
t nneremt, xax maxon nner,
uacrtem, paocrtm nncrax,
ontx xouemt rt noe.
t otemtcx nx, ponax!
enn naprnn neer
rem ntcoram, re, mentxax,
nee roner camoner.
amn ropnte nepmnnt
nx rex yxe mant...
t paspymnna crpemnnnt,
e mrnnnct nnmt opnt.
nyt mope nostmem mt cmeno,
cmnpnm crnxnm no:
et pyxo cnoe ymeno
cuacrtm naprnx nac neer.
nmnm rex, ponax!
o npoxonr crapt ro,
ontm room nospannxm
rex, n nect napo!
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ont ro, rex mt xann -
oneem nror noe.
t ree) crpana ponax,
ontm room mnem npnner!
u
ee, nmnmax runsna,
ouy orart x cnn npno,-
ee oxsana x xnsntm,
nny roo, ropxyct roo!
mart peenxom norepxna,
o rt mne mareptm tna,
enx nspacrnna, nocnnrana,
epeuno nacxo npnnacxana,
nernntnnx snannx saxrna.
enx rt x xnsnn nosnparnna,
runsna, oporax mart!
o ym rt cnerom osapnna -
ax yro nnxy nx cnernno
mnoroe mory nosnart.
nce noptnt, nce crpemnentx
ee am, xax nyumn xna...
e ynxa, nopa nnerentx,
e racnn, mtcne osapente,
Hnern, uyecntx snann ca!
omy xe ontme, uem runsne,
ory nce nyumee orart:
mont n nepy, nnamx xnsnn -
ce, nce ree, nropax mart!

accranannct onn na saxare

o pymxnnem nocnennx nyue,
nntx pyx oporoe noxarte
na namxrt cnxnte oue.
Ftno rpycrno n ontno - ne cxptna
accranartcx c nmnmtm ceuac,
o nnte cnona ronopnna,
e cnycxax c nmnmoro rnas.
nxna n noxpenue npnxana
opororo, ponoro ona...
uro cnonamn onn ne cxasann,
o cxasann nx monua cepna.
cranartcx ona ne xorena -
Fes nee nycrt cat ornneryr!
a cnxroe n xponnoe eno
nn pxom n cpaxente nyr.
a ecxpannx nonxx xpannt
acnntxn, nesayxn nneryr,
n nernxx nensmenno xannnt
onontn, xax n npexe, nomr.
o ne cntmnr rex necen nmnmt,
e nnnmaer rem rpenxm ona.
mecre nann onn no Fepnnnom...
urnr nx namxrt ponax crpana.

auem xnner ona - rnyxax n cnenax?

axym nontsy acr oreuecrny ona? -
ax ronopnre nt, nenontno orcrynax,
emnnmne, uro x na mpax opeuena.
oparnnxn mon! cnyxennn orunsne -
npany nam cxaxy, or nac ee ne cxptn,-
cmeprn ne crpamyct, no ne orneprny xnsnn,
orx ona tna n nemym rtmy optn.
ora nect mnp - n om, ncx nama xnsnt
cpaxente,
nt, n x-n crpom no snamenem onnm.
xaxoro ns nac cnoe noopyxente,
xaxt ter npara opyxnem cnonm.
pocnannen ror oen, uro nepnom pyxom
otercx, nenpenm, noenoro nenna.
o uecrt, nonax uecrt eccrpamnomy repom,
ro panen, nect n xponn, no tercx o xonna,
ro, nnx cmeprt a nnno, pasnr, ne orcrynax,
oxa n ero pyxe xort cnomannt npnxna,
a rem eccnntna cmeprt, eccnntna nout nemax,
n ne noxnner nocr, reuecrna conar.
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x xouy cropert n opte raxnm conarom,
pyxne cxpecrnn c nparom crpant pono.
ycrt nrna xaxt ent, no n pnennn xptnarom
uyncrnym ornn sa nenpornxno mrno.
a, x mory nsnerert n npocropt noneecn,
et mtcnt mox ocrpe, uem sopxn rnas opna.
nnxy crontxo snes, x cntmy crontxo necen,
uym sa cnnno na momnte xptna.
nycrt uepntm-uepnt mexsnesnte npocrpancrna,
, ram nentsx tmart! , ram nentsx rnopnrt!
o ronxn snesnt nyu n eccmeprnom nocroxncrne
ernr, nernr cxnost mpax, uro semnm osapnrt.
onapnmn mon, coparnnxn, copartx!
or nam mox pyxa! x nam npnmna cxnost nout,
nce renno ymn nnoxnn n pyxonoxarte,
xnxrny nam am nperpat npenosmout.
8
nx xenmnnt name nnerer, cnonno posa,
axax nenyuax, cnernax xnsnt;
et e nesnaxomt nenonx n cnest,
perpat ne snaer cnoonax mtcnt.
mnorom conercxne xenmnnt snamr -
m paocrt npnnocnr yuea n rpy.
eramr n crpoxr, pexr oyuamr,
onamn n araxy ornaxno nyr.
me ne satrt re nn oente,
ora mt c none namnx rnann npara,
opyrn, n xent, n cecrpt ponte
Bnn pxom c onamn cxnost mpax n cnera.
ecennee connne ceronx cnxer,
asypt ronyax n npocropt soner.
eronx nam npasnnx ncm xnsnt osapxer
c namn necna monoax noer.
opyrn, ponte, x nac nospannxm!
ropxunm npnnerom x pyxn nam xmy.
c namn npexpacnym xnsnt pasenxm,
et x nam x npnmna cxnost rnyoxym rtmy.
H1 B
onn nn1nn xamrann,
pyrom necna nn1na -
xnrr1 xpyxnxno rope,
ce cnonnnana mna.
sapas rapna oiii
arxnennx sanae,
Fo nopora nemae,
onnmne macrx e.
1na 1ne ne cxmunnact,
a mnpo n1pm x:
n nopora noopem,
1runsno rn mox!
onymxno axam,
apoe oporn,
xoprme noonarn
xmunrn ri snn 1.
nor1m yem snony
1naxno yynart,
1 macrx i xamrann
am yyrt pocxn1rart.
1 . .
ennxn cnn nennxoro napoy!
arnnyn ill... xnrrx oront norac.
a coxonnna mcnx npo cnooy
opnrt n cepnxx, o om xnnue nac.
pexpacne cepne 1ntne nxe ne 6crtcx,
nnoxn ai nmonm ne ropnrt.
ne mem i xoxnomy sartcx,
o nm xnnn i s namn xoxn y mnrt.
am, xx nm, mxonn ne nmnpamrt,
ax1, xx in, cropruuxmn xnnyrt.
1 sanon1r11 ix - connxmn npann cxmrt,-
nepe sonyrt, o xpamoro neyrt.
x uyn ill nac, xx nanxo nsxnnxancx
a nann on1 n paonn xcm.
nosn iT4H3iii nm ynect nsancx
1 ropem ill, i macrxm xnn ii.
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1 nnm nm s xaramn cran o om.
in s namn Ki3: n poor1, n oport.
nuy+ nopor namy rp1sny spom,
1 cnny optxoro n1uy + na o6i!
u BI
euac mne npnnomnnncx nec,
onxnox npoxnaa xnnax,
ene, n cocen nanec,
uepnnxa, mannna necnax.
necy x ysnana o rom,
uro ymxnn tnan sect xora-ro...
onro meurana o nem
yrpom, n n nopy saxara.
uro x? n menx noceman,
aymunnt, rpycrnt n nexnt.
ronoc no+ra snyuan
o opo, ro c ontm mxrexno.
orena x nce paccxasart,
ax pyry, xax crapmemy pary,
ax mnoroe nao mne snart,-
cm mystxy xnsnn oraro.
ycrt xpacxn ne paymr nsop,
e cntmno nncrnt rpenerante,
e nnen neecnt npocrop
snes oranenntx mepnante.
o xnsnn xnnentx no ncem,-
ena ynonnmom txante
uyncrnym noutm n nem,
Fes cnyxa x cntmy snyuante.
ymxnn rora mne cxasan,
uro nexora, n rpynte rot,
ycanxy~ cnom on nncan
ro pome na none npnpot.
runsna, orunsna, rex,
apo n npocrop rno npnnontnt,
ax ntnxo, rax nexno nmx,
n xan, urot crana rt nontno.
ne rpycrno, uro on ne oxnn
o namero cnernoro cuacrtx,-
n c namn t crponn, rnopnn,
poxnxnmn ncm rnnnt camonnacrtx.
ror nec menx rxner onxrt,
uro c ymxnntm ncrpernrtcx cnona,
uro pyxy no+ry noxart
monnnrt xorx t na cnona.
u3
(. . oxonxrxomy)
noe aonnt nnx npexpacnt
ne neocrynno cosepnart.
o xnsnt rnom, rno renn xcnt
ocrnrna x. nor onxrt
yme moe poxrcx snyxn...
ce rpomue, rpomue crpynnt snon.
o nx axxopt crnxnn myxn,
ym mo cnerom osapen.
meurantxx nnxy x xaprnny,
uyecno xncrn xononcrno:
monoym uopnapnny,
ronn napxntx ropxecrno.
pespen ronnt xnunnno mnente,
e npoaxnt nean,
nnmax mno ent nentm,
t nnx aonnt cosanan.
onna ocynr, onpanaer
saxnemnr nosopom nnont..
ro +ro ncrnnt ne snaer?
o n xom nestnema nmont
exntxm rnopuecxnm - ror nnamx
nnyue mtcnn coxpannr.
ouy x ncrart no +ro snamx,
e connne pasyma ropnr.
, npexnonnnmnct npe room,
nexax xnnymn a]a+nt,
pomy c ropxuem montom::
e ocyn mom cnnpent!
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x
ner roo saxxen - on xpox,
cxnost nout ny x nemy.
nnrcx: nec rycro n crapt,
nnrcx: npar snoneme-xpt
ne n nyrn nanonr rtmy.
o npoy x upes npenont,-
ro x yepxnr mtcnt mom?
er ycnonnocre. acnont,
pasnocnonte, mym n snont
ne uyxt - x xnsnt xym.
onyte samxn nann
s nyunnox n meurt...
ne pnyct esymno n ann,
xouy n nnannente crann
rtcxart cee mocrt.
xouy nporn ne stxo
npountm paocrxm yma
onxrt c tno yntxo -
e crpamact tno omnxn -
nsrnxny, xax rnner rtma.
Fyt xe rnep n rt ymom,
pexnnm nnamenem ropn!
penxnm cnonom n pyxom
nsnt epn ynopno c om,-
ort n rpyno, no rnopn!
nnrn - namxrnnxn n neunocrt,
e paspymnr rnente nx!
poxnn n nnx uenoneunocrt,-
no noptn, rnox cepeunocrt
ospoxr oront n pyrnx!
x
er cnon nx mnororo, uro n cepne
opom nnamenno ropnr,
raxo nyuncrt mnr, noneptre,
Hnerncro paocrt n nem napnr.
ora xe xnsnn sno ypoxn
opo naunyr romnrt menx,
ora nce xaxercx xecroxnm,
ym n cepne es ornx.
ncnomnm nac... n rennorom
ne +ra mtcnt nanonnnr rpyt.
noe nenerxom rponom
nnont ny n anexn nyrt.
ouac ycrantmn maramn
y no ropntm xpyrnsnam,
nn sactnant cneramn,
nn nnmt nnnmt snesam.
nyrn npnnomnx pyxy namy,
e cam opyxnx n opte.
o pyxo nont ent yxpamy
pomy ntson x cyte.
n mpax, nn ntmra ne nyraer,
ora yma osapena!
, xax open, mo yx nsneraer,
nout rnxa, n ant xcna.
u I
1. erep n mope
erep... asrnenanno mope xnoxouer,
Femeno ptsrn na eper nerxr.
oxno nt nonxrt, uero ono xouer -
om saxnecrnyrt nnn ca?
out nannraercx, nerep xpenuaer,
nonaer c mymom anxonnax nept...
ro ram n oruaxnte rpomxo ptaer?
ro yrpoxaer, xax panent snept?
ront n xanot, xoxor nnxymmn,
ecnn ropxecrnennt ryn.
pnx npnstnammn, nxn, rocxymmn,
ro-ro n nyunne ronyn.
er, +ro nerep n mope espexnoe
pasnymr pyxy necno.
erep moryun, a mope mxrexnoe
Ftercx o eper nonno.
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2. erep n connne
asptnaer nerep ryun,
uro cnernny art npocrop.
yuesapnoe, moryue
cxonr connne ns-sa rop.
o nyun ne rpemr semnm -
erep nosyx neennr,
oxorantm mopx nnemnx,
eoysannt nernr.
nonno xont xptnar n cnnen,
n na mopem munrcx ncxox;
r ycnntx nect on nsmtnen,
epxnr nyrt cno na nocrox.
utm x noey yem cnannrt?
erpa? onnna? e nonxrt!
t ne moxem nx sacrannrt
amy npnxort ncnonnxrt.
3. onnne
osyx cnexn, yrpo xcno.
uyrt oxnartnaer poxt.
ax ceronx rt npexpacno!
ax ropxecrnenno ncraemt!
nnapnc saymunn, crpoen,
crpemnennt, n neocno,
o eme nocropr ynoen -
onone n cay noer.
onnna paocrno yntxo
ce oxro n necrnr.
acnpannxx xptntx rnxo,
uaxa neceno nernr.
eo cnnee. a nonnax
erxo nent xpyxena.
marnonn, nern nonntx,
uyrt xontmercx nncrna.
uncrt nosyx ontxnxer
pomarom es nnna...
ax nam cnnt ononnxmr
onnne, mope n necna.
4. oun
(nocnxmam . . oxonono)
x, oun, oun! o uyecnt con,
pncnnncx mne on pannem necnom:
nem mopx mym n pnsa nerxn snon,
nem nce nonno orpao nesemnom.
pocnynmnct yrpom, pacnaxnn oxno -
tmn n cosepna pacnner npnpot,
mycx cnerntm, cnnnm neocnoom,
x connna necxom nce osapeno.
morpn na ropt - cnnne nnnsy,
epmnnt nx, noxptrte cneramn,-
a, nm ne cnxrt xononym uanmy,
orxannym cronernx pyxamn.
rpaer mope - +ro connny rnmn.
connne mner moryuemy oprany
non apt xnnoro xnrapx,
ner sanect nenentntx rymanon.
ent nyuesapnt - +ro cnernt ]on.
o ecnn cxonr nonympax neuepnn,
ax sapeno, ntnaer neocxnon,
nntne n xpenue apomar pacrenn.
uepneer mopx rposnax nyunna,
nepxy na remnom apxare neec
ynt n snes espexnax pannnna,
sect, nnnsy, eme npnnnn uyec.
ese ornn, xax snest na semne.
arnonn, nantm npnuynnnte renn,
ax yro t na maronom crexne
rnnr pncynox pemnmmnx nnenn.
npnrnymennt mopx neunt nnecx,
poxnaa noun, sanaxn n ymt.
ro nnen oun, mxnt connna necx,
or nnen xnsnt n ee pacnnere mnom.
poma xe, oun! o nonment con!
aonro x nanonnena room.
ese ycntmy nerxn pnsa snon
nonn mopcxnx ornnnt n npnon.
x
nnoe nmx - nnrentnt snyx,
eyracnmoe nnamx.
Ftn rt ne noxnt, a ncxpennn pyr,
ec rt npnstnnoe snamx.
uacrte n paocrt, ammne cner,
ystxa cepna es cnon,
pyxt xnnnrentno nexnt npnner,
nn, xora pox rax cypon,-
ce rt tn, nce... nnoxo crpaam
(nsnt onnoxnx esxanocrno pannr),
rex xy n rex npnstnam
uac, ecnn nout n moem cepne nacraner.
Fyt mne no-npexnemy xpxo sneso,
eyromnmo nen menx n ann
o xe ropxue n rnepo pyxom
+rnm ornxm, uro npe namn cnxnn.
nnoe nmx - nnrentnt snyx,
eyracnmoe nnamx.
apxo monm x: orxnnxnnct, mo pyr1
tme epxn name snamx!

pancrny, mope! nnmt, x
y rnoe nonnt ypnnno. \
t anno c roo pystx,
t ncrpeua menx cuacrnnnen.
omnnmt, rt menx pocano
ax paccepxenno n sno?
omnnmt, necnn nanenano,
amxnnart morno?
ercrne x rex nmnna,
c nepmnnt xenrtx cxan
sa uaxamn cnenna...
nnnsy xarnncx nan.
r yapon coporannct
xant, nennnact nonna;
uaxn c xpnxom pasnerannct,
rpoxana rnynna.
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3ro npemx ncnomnnam,
xptnennax meuro...
ope, neceno nrpax,
aer menx nonno.
orxntnyn, cnona nnemer,
opxecrnyer crapt pyr -
ce cnepxaer n rpenemer
eoxrnoe noxpyr.

ope, ne rposn nonno cypono,
e mntpx nancrpeuy mne xamentx.
nmy n ree orpat nono -
a mne cnnt, nacx n yrementx.
a nenyunx snyxon or npnpot,
a nnerncrtx crpy rnonx xnnyunx,
a nosnart, xax nemyr nea cnot,
ax npoxoxr na room ryun.
ceuac nonna onnm room,
pyr moryun - neuno necnoxont,
t nonnyemt crporo xpacorom,
remaemt mystxom crpono.
e rposn xe, mope, na npomante,
t c roo ynnnmcx ne cxopo.
nomy n cee rnoe snyuante,
Fypnoe, uapymmee mope!
mopm
o ree yma rocxyer,
pyr moryun, pyr mo rposnt.
a roo necna nnxyer,
pacoro nnenxx snesno.
rpacrno pnyct na mr nmnmt,
tcntm nnxy eper mnnt.
no, nopom necrepnnmt,
mymam c npexne cnno.
pyr nennxn, pyr mo mope -
eoxrnoe, xax ymt.
t nrpaemt na npocrope,
a xe mne nocnpnnxrt mymt!
axas 812
no npocrop x ne ynnxy
osepnart ne yy ann;
em nonxrnee n nnxe
ne rnon noptnt crann.
pacory net moxno nnert
e onnm opnnntm nsrnxom.
uro nmnrt nnt nenannert,
nas opnnntx mne ne nao.
pyr moryun, rt nnymaemt
rpacrt nennxym x opentxm,
onom rnenntm npnstnaemt
neotuntm epsnonentxm.
nexamn c rem xe pnentem
ce rpemnr rno xnnu moryun:
nrnam! x ypxm! x epsnonentxm!
rsnyx nropxr n nee ryun.
ax rex x npecrannxm,
pyr nennxn, pyr mo rposnt.
nyct x ree, x ree nstnam,
y npnstna noutm snesno.
F
(. . xopoxoony)
ot n nn nponecnnct es nosnpara,
aocrt n rope cmenxnnct upeo.
o ne satna x mantunxa-para -
esnt n oxn, ncera npeo mno.
norne necnt nnenn n snenenn;
pemx nespnmo nereno n nexa.
ne epy yxe npexne cnnpenn,
erxo n snonxo, xax nsox nerepxa.
ent yracan. o nyuamn saxara
nera cyrpot xponano nnenn.
ent +ror xpxn x ncrpernna para...
a, ne nanpacno re rot npomnn.
antunx mo pesnt! o nn mnnonann,
noma crpont croxn npeo mno.
er nenocnymnoro, ynoro ann -
spocnt myxunna c ymom n ymo...
ycrt mt paccrannct, no, cuacrtem oxra,
uynym ncrpeuy x yy xpannrt,
exnoro anm n nspocnoro para
nnxora ne cmory pasnmnrt.

eronx xaprnny ponoro cena
cnomnnna pynx xcne.
crapentxo xart cnpent pacnnena,
moponna pxtmxom c ne.
mxrt uyecnt raxo apomar...
eraer x pexe oropo.
am mama canna nerpymxy, canar...
opunr mexy rpxox ypo.
e ouent oxrcx ero nopotn
cmeno paccay xnmmr.
o ysxo opoxxe nesyr mypantn
pannnxn n cno remnt npnmr.
saope tna neontmax tpa,
acrpxna pynxmeuxa ram
yxerom... mama rnxnr co nopa
nce nonxna no nneram.
x, nor naxasante! ponan oropo!
auem rt xonna rya?
t crontxo copnana, uro xnarnr na ro!
e enouxa - npocro ea!
a uro menx rontxo rocnot naxasan?~
srnxnyna na xcnym mnpt,
e nenp cepepncrt cnerno orpaxan
rapnnnt, ceo monacrtpt.
e ouent-ro mama tna yx crpora,
onuanoct nce mnpntm nyrem,
neuepom nmecre nomnn na nyra:
out c nerxo, a mama c xntcrom.
pacyntxy xopony npnrnann omo...
, xax xopomn neuepa!
nocne nosnn, nepepxrn nenno
ax cnaxo ycnyrt o yrpa!
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t poxannct n cnepxammn, conneunt ent,
t tmann npexpacno necno.
t pocnn n anann npoxnanym rera-
rrecrepnnmo myunrentnt sno.
nenann nac nerpt, n oxt opoman,
Henonann nac connna nyun,
onone cnon necnn nx nac pacnenan,
ecxn xcnt cnernn nam n noun.
o xyoxnnna-ocent pacxpacnna nac
sonorncro-opanxent nner.
11 xpacyemcx mt, xpxo payx nac,
crnxn counnxer no+r.
Benecrx, mt cneraem nosymno-nerxo
oeccnnenntx namnx nerne,-
nernm, n cxontsnm anexo-anexo
o semne n no rnan mope.
t poxannct na cner apomarno necno,
urot senentm paonart nsop,
o cnernm mt c nerne sonorncro sneso,
ora ocent cnnmaer yop.

ax nexora paocrnt or nonnon
s nyxa nycxan cnon crpent,
ax connna nyun, osapnn neocxnon,
acctnannct yno n cmeno.
ce x connny crpemnrcx, nce oxnno npyr:
acrennx, nrnnt n nmn.
cxontxo nexanntx xnnenn noxpyr!
cxontxo snenxmnx npenmn!
nepxamme nenro no connnem pexa
rpynr cepepncrte not,
a nem nosymno nntnyr onaxa,
oxnonnnxn ypt n cnoot.
aymnoe yrpo apnr mne nyun,
saoram nenntm npnstnax.
II uyncrna, n mtcnn cnexn, ropxun...
Fopnr menx xnsnt rpyonax!

t mne nenpnntuna, o pannxx ocent!
x connny npnntxna, x nonxm n nneram.
ect ner apomara cmonncroro cocen,
er nacxn ocenne, xax ram.
ora ram, na mre, nopa ynxantx,
o conntmxo xpue, cnne neeca,
rouno unraemt nemte nemantx,
ora saropxrcx arpxnnem neca.
nem nnxyrcx ryuxn neceno ryptom,
neuepom mecxn n snest rnxxr
o n nenp cepepncrt, oxrt meurom,
o n xenro-senent saymunnt ca.
a xnymax mentxamr eme uepnopnnnt,
acrpt enemr, n xycr reoprnn...
ro nnnr nce +ro - sony rex: cuacrnnnnt!
x - anexa or npnntuntx xaprnn.
ycxa nenpnnernnna pannxx ocent,
ycrt nerep n oxnx nanoxr neuant,
txam x mtcnenno sanaxn cocen,
ymt xnnte necyr menx nant.
u
(. F. onanenxo)
Farponoe connne sa necom yx cxptnoct,
o ymno. npnpoe napnr rnmnna.
exa cnonno n ymt cnon norpysnnact,
e nnemer nrpnno nonna.
uyncrnym - cxopo paspymarcx uapt...
Bymnr na epentxx nncrna.
or nnsxrcx rpoma rnyxoro yapt,
nntnee sanaxna rpana.
posa paspasnnact na pemnmmnm caom,
mnm x raxym rposy,
II nerpa noptnt, n nnaxnocrt npoxnat,
crpyex xypuante y peuxn nnnsy...
437
naxt raxax xe rposnax ryua
enx nanyrana - tna x ona
ocnnono pome. peuxn na xpyue
enx sannnana nonna.
c xapom, c rocxom, x mart npnstnana,-
ax nce +ro tno anno!
, mnnax mama, rora rt ne snana,
uro mne nepexnrt cyxeno.
yme moe roxe n rpost, n ypn
pomnn ne eccneno. o opo noy
romy x npocnery, x ro xcno nasypn,
e snante, n cuacrte, n xnsnt x nay.
euep nnsnrcx. poxnaa
manxer cnnn sno.
er. neuepy ne paa,
nmnm cno rpy nenno.
rpom x opa, ceptesna
x cee, x pyrnm crpora,
uac neuepnn - mnr rpenoxnt
y n cmxrente, xax npara.
t nsrnxnn ntrnnntm nsopom
nexnm yrpom na menx.
n nnxente opom, cxopom,
ontxo n cepne ner ornx.
crexaer uac saxara...
nonno nomannax n cert,
rpanntm yxacom oxra,
Fyy racnyrt n ropert.
n rocxe cxnmax pyxn,
rpacrno xy nauana nx.
nsnt, nnxenne, rpy n snyxn
crporn xpam neyr menx.
x ]. c.
t npnmnn xo mne c yxerom
exno naxnyme mnmost,
renntm pyxecxnm npnnerom,
ax necnt npexpacno rpest.
a, necna xo mne npncnana
ac, xax necrnnny pacnnera...
y uyecnoro nauana -
pomaron, snyxon, cnera...
ne ocrynno nacnaxartcx
poyxennem npnpot,
ne ocrynno ynnnartcx
pacoro ee cnoot.
ymom oxnnam,
uac, xora ymymr rpost,
, xax n ercrne, x nomam
erxn nexnte mnmost.
am yxer, mox nopyra,
poynn no mne xenantx
nert xnsnt ponoro mra,
epexnrt cnon meurantx.

emnee, remnee... uepnax ryua

nesanno saxptna xnnym nasypt.
or munrcx na xptntxx n nerep moryun,
nemnr on na npasnnx nnxymmnx ypt.
ryua pocna, npenpamaxct n rpomay,
posa nannranact... opxecrnennt rpom
xaxo-ro yrposo yapnn na caom,
nerxn nonnxnn no xpynntm oxem.
, xax nepeam x nam nerpa noptnt?
penan on mne nnarte n nonoct pnan,
pyxnncx on n nnxcxe, cnoont, nrpnnt...
ne uynnoct, yro nstmaercx nan.
a, nce oparnnoct npnuynnno n mope...
necxancx y nor monx myrnt norox.
nerep, n c rpomom, n c oxnxom cnopx,
ax mantunx saopnt, mntpxncx necxom.
x nacnaxanact, n x coxanena,
yty ymonxx: nomnn naroart!
a xptntx, uro c nerpom x nontntm nerena,
a cuacrte - rnasamn mne mnp ynnart!
ne cxyuno, n yme moe rnxo n xcno,
opom mne ypn n rpost nyxnt.
xaxnm ynoentem npnnontno n crpacrno
cpomy oxont cnoe rnmnnt!
enantx xpenuann. rnaxno n ropo
ana x - naunercx uyecnt noner...
rpom, yapxx cosnyuntm axxopom,
acrounno snan nce nnepe n nnepe.
paxanact na nee xnnnxamn, meuamn
nepxammnx monnn moryuax part...
pyr rt noxnnnoct c cnonmn nyuamn,
ennxoe connne, uro cnona cnxrt.

(s ene)
ora nmont ree nsmennr,
n n nnte ann,
crant n ropo poxono,
ayt o nxx neuann.
aemt rt osepo nann -
rom ronyom npocrope
t myxn ntnnauemt cnon,
arnxner n cepne rope.
a cxanax moxemt oroxnyrt -
cranonnct na mnr.
orom cnepma cno ropnt nyrt,
ex soner opnnnt xnnx.
t yemt cam nourn opnom
a +ro cnerono nepmnne.
nosayemt rt o rom,
uro pocnn rt c rocxo n onnne.

erep neer, nerep snnrcx,
o nanpacno yen on.
nsnt cnepxaer, xax sapnnna.
ce noer mne n ynncon.
ronennte epest
merno npxuyr narory.
xptm rexyr onntno cnest,
acnntnaxct na nery.
penecennxx noroa
xontxo paocre cynnr:
Fyyr nyxn ram y nxoa...
ce sanemer, saxypunr.
nnt nerep, poct saant,
e crna epesxn cran,
e otemtcx +rnm cnant:
et ona ne nennxan...
eno n rom, npornnnt nerep,
uro x mnnoro nce xy.
n xe: er, n nenacrnt neuep
n sa uro x ne npny~...
moposon on onrcx...
uro xe +ro sa repo?..
eer nerep, nerep snnrcx
penecennem nopo.

cnn rt ne yemt nnert

opt, crenn n onnnt,
opx necx n nepennnt,
pyun, cxant n crpemnnnt,
s-sa +roro ne cronr
manxrt nce xnsnn neny,
smtmnxrt cee crpaantx,
tcrannxx nx na cneny.
cnn rt ne yemt nnert
ce, uro spxun nnert moxer,
e cmeprentno +ro rope
rocxa rex ne crnoxer.
m n cnyx ree samenxr
xoxmnx xpacox pente.
yrt nan cee mnpoxn
sa xnsnt opnct es spentx.
noro +rnmn nyrxmn
ex npomno, xro nmnr snante.
nernt pasym nen nx npxmo
xpa, re mtcne nponnerante.
nnt! pxunm rt ornernmt:
- opomo nam rax npopounrt~.
t nce nnnre, n xaxt
remart menx nnmt xouer.
o net mne rt ne nocmeemt
3ro ntmonnnrt, x snam.
non nycrtx ne ronopm x.
pocro rax - ne yremam.
t nce cntmnmt: cmex n nente,
nyxn mystxn npexpacno,
onoc enymxn nmnmo,
uro snennr renno n xcno.
peo mno xe, cam noyma,
nmnna n mpax cypont,
e nacxamr cnyx mo snyxn,
necnt ne cntmy- nono.
nnart nnno nmnmtx,
ntmart ronoc, cepny mnnt,
xorena rax, uro cepne
pyr satercx c ypno cnno.
o net +ro nenosmoxno;
cmorpn - x ne rocxym:
o, uro n xnsnn mne ocrynno,
Bar sa marom ornomm.
np yxonnt rax npexpacen,
opta sa cnerou snantx
amenxer xnsnt nycrym
nenyxnte crpaantx.
or pyxa mox, xax pyra...
rex ne yremam,
sony rex trt croxnm,
xnsnn nono npnstnam.
ro o yymem nnmt nomnnr,
nx pyrnx xyer on cuacrte -
or mo pyr, ror mo coparnnx,
ex nmnm n x rem yuacrte.
npomna cxnost mpax n ypn,
nyrn ncxana x cnery,-
xnsnn rnopuecxo, oraro...
- namna! anomnn +ro!
I
(opaxanne Bora uycranenn)
cnn cuacrte mne nosmoxno,
cnn n pyxe nce ne noxno,
ycrt mne yer ecrpenoxno,
a yme moe cnerno.
pexparnr cyta yapt,
onecer ]opryna uapt,
anrpamr casanapt,
cepne paocrno, renno.
ax poco nnerox xnnnrcx,
ax napnr na xptntxx nrnna,
nopom rax sapnnna
penemaer oxt n rpom.
et nce ror xe rt, uro cnnncx,
uro n meurax rax onro mnnncx,
uro nexanno rax xnnncx,
ect oxrt ropxecrnom.
nont npnn n a mne cuacrte,
poxnn cnoe yuacrte,
xcnt ent nnt n ent nenacrtx
ce panno! nmt yt co mno.
norom? euant n cxyxa,
ycrt repsaer cepne myxa.
Fecxoneunax pasnyxa
aspymaer mo noxo.
ax o cuacrte x meuram,
ax rex x npecrannxm
cepeuno npnstnam
axt ent n xaxt uac.
o nenemr xpacxn pentx,
rneramr cnonnentx...
ax crpamnt onycromentx,
cnn n xnsnn cner norac!
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cxsanne
onxnne
npannonnoe uyncrno
mne omymennx
manunnte omymennx
emneparypnte omymennx
xyconte omymennx
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3xcxypcnx no nopen nnonepon
3xcxypcnx n cropnuecxn myse
3xcxypcnx n cropnxo-nnreparypnt myse c . .
3xcxypcnx c . . na ntcranxy, nocnxmennym 8 apra
3xcxypcnx n oonornuecxn myse c . .
3xcxypcnx na ntcranxy nanarnnernx onercxo
xpannt
3xcxypcnx c . . n Forannuecxn ca
3xcxypcnx n xnt nocenox
ennnrpacxne +xcxypcnn

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pecrannxm nn x nnera
ananax
txna~
arnonnx n post
mnmose
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nnanax
oro mne nanomnnana npnuecxa . .
uem menx cnpamnnamr
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rpose n ryuax
axnmn mne xaxyrcx naammne mereopt
axnmn x npecrannxm cosnesnx Fontmo n ano me-
nennt
axnm mne npecrannxercx neunt yrt
pecrannenne o snesax
axo mne npecrannxercx nyna
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ax x nayunnact xonrt no nope mxont cnentx
nporynxax n napx
rom, xax x ycrpannamct n nono xomnare n xax npe-
crannxm npemert
ax mne yonee xonrt
ax mne yonee ronopnrt
a onepannn
nexoroptx npecrannennxx
rpannax xomnara
pecrannenne noun
uro mne npecrannxercx noutm
pecrannenne o camonere
ne]rxntx ntmxax
~
a xonnepre n xnye cnentx
nnrepecax, xoropte yxnatnamrcx~ n ono nnocxocrn
rom, xax mne nepenoxr cnexraxnn
xnno
ax x npecrannxm ro, uro nponcxonr na cnene
axnmn mne xaxyrcx xaprnnt
npoxexropax
ynnct. nant. ranaxrnrt
ecennnm neuepom
omeuxax~ n o pyrom
o xnnorntx
eet~
oestxnxe
pecrannenne o nepnme
ape n nmape
xenrypy \ ...
moe xomxe
ntnnax n menee
nexoroptx xnnorntx
+nxannnre n menexonxe . .
nmnxpnx
o nmxx
ameuarentnt mantunx 215
ouemy x ysnana -
. . optxn xnn 216
ysee-ycate . , oncroro 218
Fapone 220
ymxnne n orone 221
rom, xaxnm mne npecrannxercx epnen 222
ouemy x ymana o ono xenmnne, uro ona xopoma 224
rom, xax x ysnam nme 225
ax x ysnam nexoroptx nme na paccroxnnn 226

on cnonnennx 228

pasnnrnm monx pannnx ercxnx nonxrn o oxpyxam-
mem 241
exa. eent 258
on. nonnennx 263
ocya. poyxrt 266
porynxn. ax x nonnmana nexoropte xnnennx npnpot 274
I. HI. I. 276
pasnnxn 279
epement. onxrnoe n nenonxrnoe 283
poonxenne nonxrnoro n nenonxrnoro 295
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uu 308
u . u. 311
u 319
u F . -
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